"Friends are everything. They're people you can tell anything to, do fun stuff with, laugh at the same jokes with, who understand what you're going through 'cause they're going through it, too. Friends get it."

good times, good times! this says exactly what has been going on w/me this week. Its been one crazy week, filled lots of down points. Though if certain people werent there to help me then id be lost. I think the praise & worship today @ congress really help clear my head. In fact today i feel a lot better then i did this whole week.
i was soooo tired this morning and when i woke up, i knew i had one long day ahead of me. On the phone till 2am, then i couldnt sleep on top of that. I havent waken up so early in a while so it made it difficult getting ready. went to spv helped check in kids got them on the bus and i was off to congress.

So im sitting on the bus and this kid from spy was sitting next to me. Well being he was sitting next to me, i couldnt help to overhurr his convo. He was saying how he lost his wallet and that whoever took his wallet maxed out all his credit cards. they charged $2000 on his macys, then a grip on his daniel jewlers and banana republic. Then he was telling all his spy buddies, that he moved again. Now he lives in 1.3 million dollar house in long beach and i guess theyre fixing something cuz of the rain. Oh he told them how he has a mustang but hes gotten 5 tickets already so he cant drive it. The whole time i was thinking in the back of my head, why you putting up a front for? i honestly think he was saying that so those kids would be like wow. Some girl asked where he lived and he couldnt even say where. In other words he didnt know. i was juss rolling my eyes listening to this guy talk. the boy is still in hs and is probably only a jr.

congress was pretty exciting, except for the fact i wasnt expecting to babysitt spy. ahh they mess around too much and juss are rude and immature. I guess thas wha i should expect from a youth group. for example during the mass, these kids kept talking. i told them to be quiet cuz they were at mass and what not. then there was a couple of times when tita marissa whispered something to me and the kid was liek ssshhh!!! i turned around and gave him a dirty look and he knew too. The praise & worship was really good, i felt hyped up. The songs were d0pe and juss to see all these kids hyped up was great. Though it brought back good ol summer memories of scrc. then when we went up the escalator it brought back another memory of that sat. i was there...::sigh::
all and all it was good experience and helped me find my own peace.

went home and took a nice nap. I needed that to help renergize my self cuz i knew i had a long nite ahead of me. Went to get something from lyn lyn @ her house. I got to play, "barbecue" w/ninni, that was fun. haha i like when she talks and stuff, its really cute! haha SRe was coo, it went by really fast though. we talked bout the marks of the church and the sacarments of intiation. i dont feel connected w/these kids as i do w/my other kids on tues. I know its only been wha 7 months w/them, but its like i dont think they pay attention. I take that back i feel connected w/only some of them. The ones who participate and actually want to know whats going on. The others i feel dont even wanna bother, i guess well see how it goes at the end of the year.

The quote above juss is errthang that arch kuya fred and i shared this past week. Like how errother friday is kuya and i "at risk youth program." Juss the day where we juss chill together, usually eat lunch go to the mall or see a movie or something to that extent. Or when all of us get together to share that common bond together. The jokes part well ive all had special inside jokes w/errone. Though kuya and i do share this one funny inside joke. juss thinking bout it makes me laugh. haha in class last nite i was busting up over the gummy worms. man those things were so "sour" you needed water to to hose it all down. Then the whole understanding cuz theyre going through it too. wow couldnt of explained it better, juss knowing that well im not alone. knowing that im in that same boat floating along w/a couple of other people. Thas why their talks have helped me cuz theyre going through that same thing. Point being, basically friends do get it. i wanted ot make this entry longer for kuya haha but well it looks im not gonna be able to. too tired! sorry kuya next time! haha

oh yeah we went to the block to eat @ left @ alcatraz for aela & antonios birfday, that was fun. we also had skit practice, went well.

"But you hesitating debating whether or not it's real Cuz I ain't shooting game boo, I'm jus tellin you how I feel..."im done, im out God bless!

"We'll see things today we shouldn't have to see, but listen up, we'll do it together. We'll be together, and we'll all come back together."

so after a long nite of emo, i was moreless motivated and inspired. wow its 133 and i need to be up @ 615 to be @ church by 645am. maybe i juss wont sleep...yeah right. Anyway, its been a day full of hidden messages, that were inspiring and juss picked me back up. Ive been stressed with tons of thoughts in my head, and juss within these two days ive been able to express them. I decided that i cant fall down right now that basically im going to "win." I know were gonna win and get through this cuz i have great people standing next to me.

I went to class today(yeah i know), it was boring though. Well first i was pissed cuz i got this parking spot i was signaling for it. The person backs out to leave and this girl pulls in and snags it. aghh i was so irritated cuz it was good spot, but then God said, "kick back yo, dont worry i got you." Ha, right before my eyes another person pulled out and i was able to take his spot. It was better one cuz it was closer too! wooo. So these girls did some presentation on buddism and stuff. i didnt really pay attention i was more less focusing on other things. I ended up falling alseep during this other discussion i forgot what it was. We got out 15 min early, which was great!

Went home ate lunch and got ready for work. Im upset cuz im down to 12rhs a week now. I need to find out whats going cuz my hours are decreasing and well thas only 24hrs for 2 weeks. Where before i had at least 30 or more per 2 weeks. We had commodities today, so the people walked in and took their bags of fun. Its kinda funny seeing these people so excited. There was this one swe3t old lady so very kind and warm, that help brighten up my day. She was like "Good afternoon!" juss so cheery and full of swe3tness that it only made me smile.

Actually i woke up today, feeling like whatever. Checked my mail, checked my blog and boss lady tagged my board. i read it and i felt better like i guess i knew that today was going to be a better day. Man it juss seems like the past 2 tuesdays have been sorrowful. Then i heard that song "win" by brian mcknight in the car and well that helped get me up too. it was like wow, i cant let go, i cant loose hope or faith. Though i know its gonna be a struggle, i know i can get over this. If i fall or slip, then im only gonna come back 10times stronger. Its like kinda like playing snack on the celli. haha im trying hard to beat kuyas score, i die and i die. But i keep playing knowing that i will beat it! Yeah i know doubts & insecurities are on their way, yet i know im only gonna let pass by and not in me.

Cis class was good and interesting nite. I was relieved cuz i did better than i expected on the quiz. I missed only one, so did alright. Im greatful for the people in my life. Strider whos walked me through this struggle, truly truly being a big brother to me. Juss so wonderful to me and has always been someone i admired. How much he means to me is unexplainable. Arch, this past week has been on my side. Ive been weak and he was there to help pick me up. Dust the dirt off of me, and push back up into the ring. Kuyas support that hes given to me, always makes me feel better. I think all the time weve been spending together, he probably can read through me. He shares the good times, yet always, always listens to the bad times. Boss lady is my quiet angel who sits on my shoulder and lifts my wings when i forget to fly.

my life w/people like them would suck. I dont think ive ever have had friends who take care of me the way they do. Their smile makes my day, such a simple act but w/so much meaning behind it...

"Dark is the night, I can battle the storm. Never say die,I've been down this road before, I'll never quit, I'll never lay down, See I promised myself that I'd never let me down..."im done, im out God bless!

"It's the best feeling in the world when you meet new friends that you can't stand to be without. That you constantly want to impress to make them like you even more. They make you hope everyday that they won't leave you. Until that day when they actually do, and you're lost without them. You can't think about anything else but when you're going to see them again."

how crazy that describes how i felt before in the beginning. the more i got to know these people, the more i couldnt wait to see them. I feel so dependent of each and errone of them that, i feel like if i were to leave or vice versa i would honestly be left w/pretty much no one. i guess it goes to show what kind of role people play in your lives. How much each and err person affects you in one way or another. Ive been so caught up in them, that well they revolve around my life. Though what would happen if woke up and one day they werent there. My life would suck...

Interesting day i had day filled with unexpected suprises. Skipped class i wasnt in the mind state mentally to go. My mind has been clustered with thoughts that all ive been able to do is focus on them. talked to romy for a little bit though the conversation was kinda pointless. She wasnt really able to help me out like i thought she mightve. So i sat around and pretty much kinda talked to kuya online. Got ready to work and i was off for our staff meeting.

im going to work thinking wow we havent gotten commodities yet, maybe were not gonna do them this month. Spoke too soon as i was driving thru i saw them unloading it. I was like dang it, i thoguht wrong. My boss' dog got bite by a their neighbors pitbull. THey had to put all these tubes in him and stuff like that. So now hes having drama w/his neighbors. That sucks, well i guess good thing it was his dog rather then his son. Our staff meeting was produtive it was long cuz there was so much to talk bout. I ended up having to leave early to show this guy the hall and explain to him prices. I worked on the bulletin board, it looks alright. I made my pot of gold kinda ugly, i juss need letters and leprachun.

My boss and i didnt even get like halfway done on the commodities. We did like probably only 50 bags altogether within the small time frame. We were listening to music and the accoustic thugz mansion song came on. Then my boss was juss like isnt he dead? He has this weird theory that all these years tupac juss lyp sang to all those songs. While they had this white boy making all the songs and singing them. haha i laughed to entertain him, though i thought that theory was gay. His thing was also cuz like aayliah doesnt have 100 "lost" albums nor does biggie or big pun.

went home and had dinner while errone was over for my momma's birfday. it was coo, i had to eat and run cuz i had class. Class was alright, gave them a reflection to think bout. Then explained some of the charasmatic gifts of the holy spirit. Brought them up to prayer meeting, something which we havent done in a while. It was kinda funny cuz when it was time to go. Oh btw my prayer buddies prayers were great! very annointed and there was one which stuck to my head. So one of my kids asked me after they heard my prayer tounges. "Jason, do you understand anything you were saying?" i said no. then before that in class, i was talking bout being filled w/the holy spirit when youre praying. Then one of the kids asked if its like a spaz. Like when you spaz out and what not. haha i finally said yeah, its like youre filled w/a holy spirit spaz. ahh kids are funny these days, yes yes.

Had a few interesting conversations tonite w/some people. Antonios homeless person story inspired me. Knowing my problems, the struggles im going through are nothing compare to the homeless man he encountered. THat was pretty cool to be inspired by that. well since the quote talked bout friends and not being able to live w/o them. I foudn this interesting analogy on anthoneezy's live journal. check it:

friends are like tv. some are like PBS, always askin for money. others are like the news, w/sad tales to tell everyday. some are like that one station w/the foreign language; you don't understand a word of it but you listen and watch anyway. and then there are the ones like the commercials, always changing, ever-so-annoying and only seem to be there when you are or bored or they need something. But every once and a while you meet someone who's like the really good movie of the week or that one tv show you hardly ever get to see anymore b/c youre so busy friends. it's sad to lose them but maybe they never really were your friends to begin w/, just the other channels you never liked to watch. choose your friends wisely, for "a faithful friend is beyond price. no sum can balance its worth";[sirach 6:15] life has no remote to mute or change the channel so cherish the ones you have.

I read that i thought whoa! i can totally relate to that. Especially the one bout the friends whom are like the good movie of the week or show you hardly get to see cuz youre so busy w/friends. Thas how it became w/my other friends. The ones ill talk to once in a blue moon, or when i see them. They probably think that well ive ditched them or something. Then the whole sirach 6:15, blows my mind cuz at the same time they werent faithful friends. Well actually one of them out of all of them i met became and stayed a faithful friend. Though im pretty sure i have faithful friends now. i dont think their is a doubt in my mind theyre not faithful...faithful to the end.

so my search for a spiritual director starts! someone who'll be able to explain the unbearable pain my heart, the unexplainable thoughts that have been running through my head. To tell me my purpose of why i am still hurr.

"I'm so sick of being lonely..."im done, im out God bless!

::sigh:: i dont know anymore...Life..... I wonder....Will it take me under.... I don't know

"It's not where you're from; it's where you're going. It's not what you drive; it's what drives you. It's not what's on you; it's what's in you. It's not what you think; it's what you know."

wow good job gatorade commerical! haha i say gatorade commerical well cuz thas where this quote comes from. No, i didnt see some random comercial and then wrote down what it said. This quote comes from the webstie where i get all my interesting blog quoets. the author of the quote explains that, its not gonna matter where youre from, but more less where youre going to go. so broad i know, but you gotta analyze it to dig deeper! its where youre gonna go in life. Its what inspires you to keep on going, its whats in you that motivates you to keep peservering despite difficult times. LAstly, its not what you think right now, its more less what you know.

I dont know how to describe today, it wasnt anything special. Well i had lunch w/kuya so thas special i guess. haha I went to class, and wow right when i was praying for parking, right before my eyes was a parking spot! woo
So yeah went to math, it was coo cuz we got out like 10 min early. That helped out, went home got ready for work. Then left to westminister mall to have lunch w/kuya. We did the simple lunch this time, juss fast food, food court style.i think this entry is gonna be stale cuz i think of anything like wow to write bout. After lunch we got some mini mall errnads he needed to do done.

Went to work, taught my theatre class. I was getting so tired, i felt like juss taking a nap right there. I told my supervisors bout maureen, so it looks like she'll be meeting them on wed. woo imma be the contractor for the sadies dance western is gonna have in our hall. Im sooo gonna get my groove on that nite w/all these hs kids. haha you know i can juss stand there and do nothing. haha Gonna make ya move, gonna make ya dance. yeah right, im juss gonna watch them and be like "ohh the days of hs." man i loved my senior of hs it was like the greatest. I remember our xmas pep assembly my friend and i did this lyp sync to "brnig it all to me" the blaque and jc chasez song. Then this one girl whom i was good friends with, we use to pretend that we were going out. errone always thought there was something going on between us. It was weird cuz wed have drama all the time too like a couple. Wed walk down the hall w/her holding on to my arm, shed wear my pelle pelle jacket. ha we would even call each other babe and what not. oh man, the days of hs, the dances, the first time experiences of new things, the friends, the parties. Wow that summer was pretty d0pe too!

After work ate and i think i got a mini-attack. Went to the cypress library to return a book which i couldnt even find parking. Then to rent a movie for work tomorrow. i cleaned out some stuff in my filing cabinet, i save too much stuff. i wish i had a bigger room, its too small for all the things i have in there. oh i saw minnie, aubbie's gf today @ lincoln video. At first i didnt know who it was, cuz she was like "hey man." i was like hey didnt small talk though cuz i was rushing. Then i realized who it was, but then i couldnt think of her name. I finally finished grading all my SRE papers. Ive had all their work in my folder for a while now. hmm i think ill take them to prayer meeting tomorrow. They havent gone since nov. so im kinda leaning towards that. Well see how i feel tomorrow i guess. i always do my lesson plans anyway last min. whatever i feel like doing off the top of my head. if we dont go then ill do another meditation w/them.

man i forgot to email ryan again bout this stuff aela told me last nite. She told me that i guess achie went to some conference and well some priest was talking bout relationships. He said like God created soul mates for errone. She told me like once discerning after finding the right person then 3 things happen.
1. Spiritually united in Spirit.
2. Once united in spirit w/God's grace then youre emo. united.
3. Then comes marriage when youre then physically united.
cool stuff huh! thas the basic stuff theres more she told me, but i dont feel like tpying it all out.

I prayed the rosary w/gail tonite, wow its raining hard! woo how skurry. it was funny cuz once she said yes, i dropped my away message and i called her cell. Well i think i got a little too excited cuz that wasnt even the # she gave me to call. I was trying to call her cell but i guess she doesnt get any reception so it goes straight to the vmail. So i go back to look @ the im, and i find out she was giving me her dorm # to call. It was d0pe, she used her meditations and i used mine. We took turns for each mystery we prayed. That was a lot of fun! thanks gail for praying w/me! she's d0pe and not to mention swe3t too! Ü

i was juss telling strider something thas kinda trippy to me. haha i cant put in on hurr though cuz its juss crazy. He didnt think it was trippy though, i did i think its a blessing yet, still like wow. i was thinking of something as i was praying the rosary but i forgot what it was. I wanted to write in blog too. Man i cant remember waht it was. ahhh i hate when that happens. I was mad as i was on my way to work, i made a phone call and the person who i was talking to, caused me unnecessary anger. i was like juss agh kinda pissed off. Then i had to put this jacob & matthew CD from scrc it helped calm me down. man i so wanna juss lay in bed adn listen to the rain tomorrow. its like one of those nature CDS, like the sound of rain.

i talked to tina today and told her how her mom was talking to me after mass. she was suprised cuz her mom didnt tell her bout it. ITs funny how certain people come into your life and how you meet them. aela said God put certain people in our lives for a reason. I believe that, hmm now that i think bout it i wonder what his purpose was to bring a certain person into my life. Ha i was juss thinking of when kuya and boss lady came to my 3rd class like 2 years ago. They taught them an action song and some cheers, it was cool. BAck then as i watching them, i was thinking "dang these people have a lot of energy." ah yes great people, yes yes. I think God put kuya in my life for lectures haha jk kuya! i know why i have these people in my life, to watch over me and i guess over all protect me.

hey did you guys know that Mike sweeney he plays baseball for the kanasas city royals. ANyway i found out hes catholic and a practicing one too. Juss plays baseball too on the side and he knows his bible too. i guess thas juss some food for thought for you. i cant think of anything else to say, i wanna lay down and listen to the rain.

"Read the paper and I think about you, Fix my dinner and I think about you, Lay in bed and I think about you,What I'm gonna do, what I'm gonna do..." im done, im out God bless!

"The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and conveniences, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy."

Gosh this seems liek to have been a forever long weekend. i have that song "running through my head" cuz thas pretty much how i feel right now. Stupid bloogger is down, its always down for something. In the meantime im typing this entry on an email, emailing it to myself, then copy and pasting it to blog. I foudn my ring today, i thought i lost it when cleaning my car on fri. I didnt wear all day yesterday too, i forgot bout it when i was rushing in the morning. So i found it today in my room, after mass, whew! despite some of thing unexpected attacks i had recieved this weekend, being able to spend time w/a couple of people whom i hardly talk to helped.

I went to mass this morning, agh i was so tired. I wish sometimes i could go on my own time, instead of going so early. The homily Father Grace focused on was of course forgiveness cuz thas wha scripture reflected on. Man there was something i wanted to say last nite and i didnt put it on blog. Now i cant remember exactly what it was. hmm Well maybe itll come to me as i continue to type away. It was kinda crazy after mass this morning. So check it, im outside after mass waiting for my fam bam tribe to come out. I stand there, observing all the peopel who are coming out of mass. This filipino couple comes up to me, and the lady kinda taps me. She was like "hey what are you involved in." im thinking hmm i dont know you, you must probably be from the filipino group and need SH help for something. I said, "oh im part of the Servant's Heart prayer group." The lady said,"oh youre not part of the Legion of Mary." i was like "oh no, im juss part of the prayer group hurr.," Then she asked what it was and so of course i explained it to her. Then she was like, "ooohh okay. You gotta get christina to go w./you sometimes." I finally then realized it was my friends parents. I saw them in mass andi thought they looked familiar. As they were walking away, i told her "yeah ive been trying to get her to go w/me." Anyway, i juss thought that was crazy, cuz ive never talked to her mom before.

Tomorrow, i dont wanna go skool. Actually im thinking of not going to my 2nd class, juss dropping off the quiz and my scantron in the instructors box. WEll see wha i actually end up doing tomorrow though. I stayed home pretty much all day, cuz im hardly home. Actually ive been hardly home this past week and once again its gonna be like that this weekend. i got my hw done, did my phil. read chapter 2 in my cis book. Well i took a nap before doign all my hw. ahh the luxury of pure sleeping bliss! Then i was reading the youth rally stuff...geez so much info. Hmm itd be d0pe if we did a skit, praise & worship and a works of mercy. Though that would be a lot of work and what not to do all 3. Though i think w/the grace of God it can be pulled off.

I got to chill w/ryan tonite, we went out to the towne center and had some starbucks. It was really d0pe being able to chill w/him. Oh man i forgot to let him drive home tonite, oh well. we talked bout all the stuff thas going on right now. I told him the funny story bout hometown and the girl there. it was coo, cuz we dont talk as much as we did before cuz well were both leading very busy lives. haha Juss like how my best friend and i lead two busy lives. Anyway, it was cool to see him happy and excited bout this new endeavor. Which reminds me i gotta email him some advice on it, before i forget too. Dude, im hungry right now agh my stomach is hungry. Its weird ive known that guy for like 3 years now. Its crazy cuz he juss turned 17 and i remember meeting him @ youth alpha. hes a very cool guy though, im blessed to have such a great friend like himself. ha, we were talking bout significant events and as we were sitting across from the theatre we were looking @ rubios. He told me thas where they all ate before formal, after taking their pics and what not. THen he was like well its not the same eating there anymore for certain reasons. i was laughing and i told him i know how exactly how that feels. Juss like if i ever eat @ applebees, well it woudlnt be the same. Actually i woudlnt wanna eat there cuz it all only make me wanna go back to the warm july summer evening. ahh yes, July 22 rihgt after an eventful LSS that the core put on. If arch never called me that nite to tell me they were going to eat then hmmm. ::sigh:: memories haha

So i get an unexpected phone call and after i get off, i learn its already 1am! man i cant believe how late it is already. Strider juss informed blog is working now, so i can post my entry on there. I told ryan tonite w/this new endeavor hes looking foward to, juss to take things one day at a time. Not to rush things at all cuz well then errthang will get screwed up. Its funny as im talknig ot gail bout the suicide skit well you see for yourself.

JPFish187: we were practicing the suicide skit on fri
JPFish187: and im Jesus so im getting thrown around
DaYsL33pR: really?
DaYsL33pR: we were doing suicide skit today
DaYsL33pR: we were teaching the confirmation team the skit, n i was the girl three years ago so we hafta keep showing them
JPFish187: oh really
JPFish187: i wanna see how you guys do it
JPFish187: wer dnot use the total ecplise of the heart song though
DaYsL33pR: really? wat do u use
JPFish187: its gettin hot in hurr
DaYsL33pR: hahahaha
DaYsL33pR: even better
DaYsL33pR: i like it
JPFish187: hahaha
JPFish187: im jk actually we use warning
JPFish187: by incubus
JPFish187: hahaha
DaYsL33pR: haha very coo
JPFish187: cuz of the whole climax of the guitar
DaYsL33pR: ic ic
JPFish187: hahaha
DaYsL33pR: there should be a new skit
DaYsL33pR: everyone n their grandma uses the suicide skit
DaYsL33pR: but hey, it's classic
JPFish187: hahahaha
JPFish187: thas funny
JPFish187: yeah they should change it up a little bit
JPFish187: hahaa
DaYsL33pR: hmmmm
DaYsL33pR: hehe there wont ever be a new skit, it's too good
DaYsL33pR: but i like how u guys used a different song
JPFish187: haha
JPFish187: oh that
JPFish187: sorry i was on the phone
JPFish187: haha i cant talk and be online @ the sametime
JPFish187: its hard to focus on two different convos
JPFish187: haha
JPFish187: anyway i was joking bout the using the different song for the skit
it was funny after that we were talking bout well using like a club/trance version of the song. We said watch we have kids all raving using their glow sticks.

Well ive been acting on impulse a lot lately, esp. recently putting myself in the worst situations. I gotta i guess work on thinking thinks through all the way. Though ive always been like that my whole life. Maybe thas why it seems like im hyper. I dont know, i ended up putting myself in a couple of awkward ones today. One which well, made me think about all day long. The other one i dont know if there is actually a "other" one. I guess ill find out soon where or not. i was gonna go the st. dominics earlier but then its too hard to get out of the house this late. Hmm sometmes i think to myself ahh nevermind, its not important. My goodness juss look @ the time 130! must get some rest.

"I'm not trying to pressure you, just can't stop thinkin' 'bout you. You ain't even really gotta be my girlfriend, I just wanna know your name. And maybe sometime, we can hook up, hang out, just chill..." im done, im out God bless!

"The difference between holding on to a hurt or releasing it with forgiveness is like the difference between laying your head down at night on a pillow filled with thorns or a pillow filled with rose petals."

So after 2 long days of suffering and pain, it has finally come to an end. There is peace in our hearts again, the bonds have been reformed and the devil has lost the battle once again. Thank you Lord, for ending what seemed like a forever long battle. Thank you for picking us up back on our feet to see the light. Thank you Lord because it was Your love that helped us prevail.

Im exhausted, its been one interesting weekend thats for sure. Tomorrow im going to juss rest, i gotta work on my phil quiz and read up on cis. Today was a long day, filled with awkward moments, a test of patience and a whole lot more! it was hot too which also added on the day being so long. I set my alarm for 915am to have enough to get ready, pick up heif then go to boss ladys event. Thas exactly how it went down too, woke up @ 915, showered. Got dressed in the clothes i was gonna wear to the wedding, then off to pick up heif.

Im really glad shes good w/time also like myself! by the time i got to her house she was already ready to go and i didnt have to wait. We had nice conversations bout shessh a lot of different things. Life, skool, people, weddings, ahh my stomach hurts i shouldve eaten something. We were really early to boss ladies event, like 30 min. it was coo we walked around and juss chilled. Then errone one else came and heif fit in perfectly. Thas why shes so d0pe cuz she easy to converse with and get a long with. Boss ladys event was coo, good thing i ate teh hot dogs before the wedding.

Went to melodys wedding, though we were there 20 min early also. I was thirsty cuz the punch @ the park was watered down, so i bought myself something to drink. heif and i ate starbursts the blue kind in the car and juss chilled listening to the radio. The wedding was aiight i guess, i would say unorganized though. For as much planning as she did for it, i felt it was unorganized. It was hard to understand what was going on during the service cuz errthnag was in spanish. Though heif and both enjoyed listening to the harmonic music of the string quartet. it was very soothing and made me juss wanna sleep. Heif and i both said we wanted this on our wedding. (for each of our weddings not like us together.) It was kinda crazy cuz as the girls were lighting the candles, i was thinking of kuyas wedding juss for a quick moment. Speaking of his wedding,
JPFish187: oh btw kuya on your wedding you gotta have a string quartest
JPFish187: er quartet
blue83212: y?
blue83212: that's exp
JPFish187: cuz its nice
JPFish187: its d0pe
JPFish187: ill pay for it then hahaha
blue83212: haha aight
blue83212: ahah

The reception was man forever long!! the wedding was over @ 3pm, we ddint get food like salad till 4pm. On top of that we ddint get to eat till 5pm. Then the food was not even like whoa! it was lasagna, a piece of lettuce w/cherry tomatoes, and some asparagus. yuck i hate asparagus! so inbetween the dead time of no food, they had a mini slide show. heif and i were both hot and clasterphobic from errone being so close together. There wasnt even any kind of dancing, so it was kinda boring sitting there. Im glad heif came w/me otherwise oh gosh i wouldve been bored out of my mind! ohh why?!! it was fun though juss chillin w/heif and spending time w/her. Shes the bestest best friend i could ever have! woo

Went to mizikes for music ministry and juss chilled there. PLayed w/ninni, while trying to beat kuyas snake II score. agh i almost got it, i died @ 759! i need to beat 829 so then kuya can try to beat my score! haha alway a competition. Then we left to go to the cerritos towne center juss to chill and talk. I guess it was a mini-pre uprm one year celebration. Its always a d0pe time when uprm gets together, no doubt no doubt! well this is my boring entry for today!

"We rock in all kinds of spots Calling all the shots..." im done...im out God bless!

"For prayer is nothing else than being on terms of friendship with God..."

::sigh:: i see pain and suffering to those whom i love most. My heart hurts once again as the devil tries to use us as pawns to do his dirty work. We must continue to fight hard and continue to pray for each other. I pray for healing to mend broken hearts, to heal the wounds of the suffering and let there be peace in our hearts.

Sacred Heart of Jesus, you invite all who are heavy burdened to come to You and find rest. Teach me to reach out to You in my need. Help me to lead others to Your Sacred Heart. Touch my soul with Your compassion for others. Touch my heart with Your courage and love for all. Touch my mind with Your wisdom and grace Touch gently my life with Your healing hand. Amen.

"Change my heart O God, make it ever new, change my heart O God may i be like you..." im done...im out God bless!

A FRIEND IS A PERSON...
Who will help you in the hour of sickness;
Who will lend you a dollar without deducting the interest;
Who will help you uphill when you are sliding down;
Who will defend you in the hour when others speak evil of you;
Who will believe in your innocence until you admit your guilt;
Who will say behind your back what he says to your face;
Who will shake hands with you wherever he meets you, even though you
wear patches; and
Who will do all these things without expecting any return.

With that being said, i feeel better now than i did last nite. This has juss been a hard week for me, my mind has been like a ticker tape. Juss all these thoughts running through my head, so much on my mind it cant recline. On my way home from lunch w/kuya and mizike i finally felt good. i was juss going all out in club mind, w/cmon on over! haha that song is d0pe, thas like a dance jam. I remember that video too, it was pretty d0pe!! thanks CA for making me feel better today! haha

yesterday was a busy day for me, especially @ work. Usually i leave before 6pm but i ended up leaving a little bit after 6pm. The clerk was out all day, so i was up in the front answering phones, while making flyers @ the same time. I hate making those flyers they take forever to make and sometimes i have to redo them like 10 times! then i had my after skool program to do also, we remade those apple pigs. That was i guess fun, you know by the time that class starts, i feel so tired. Good thing we didnt have extra time, cuz i felt too tired to entertain them. It was perfect timing having them decorate and make their own apparons. Then there was this family who was suppose to come @ 5pm, to do a walk thru. They didnt show up till 530, on top of that they still had to pay the balance of their party. Which also included the security as well, so i was runnign back and forth to city side getting change. ITs hard w/o the clerk there, and only having one rec leader in the afternoon. So i didnt get to get off till after 6, then rush home get stuff together for class.

Went to meet up w/achie, atche, strider, and babyvee for dinner @ dennys. That was nice, it was tight cuz instead of mash potatoes they gave me 2 country fried steaks instead of one! ooooOh yeah!! mmm mmm i didnt even get to finish it though cuz i was full from snacking so much @ work. After class, went to SRE and we talked botu being persecuted. I also did the same type of meditation i did w/ the other kids on tues. Though i think the other kids got more out of it then my kids. Its hard to get to them cuz i dont know if they understand whas going on. Well i knwo some of them do, not exactly all of them. After class, we all went to pray the rosary in the class. That was really nice, it felt nice and at peace.

Went to the soratorios after class and juss chilled there for a while. I love going to their house, its like my other home away from home! forreal!! i was able to redo my blog over there and some other stuff. lyn lyn made me some easy mac too, which tasted yummmy!!! oh i found out today that an old friend of mine is getting married next year. Which is crazy cuz her and her bf or fiance or whatever he is, theyve only been together barely 2 years! i think its two years this month, and theyre already living together. He told me that the ring he got her is platinum and on top of that he;s still making payments on another ring he got her. Dang, must be nice to have all thsi money and stuff. i was telling kuya i dont think their marriage is gonna last being theyre rushing it. They have an "A" frame type of relationship, which err couple should aim for a "m" frame relationship. oh how fast time goes by, man i can remember exactly what was going on in my life last year. It was so different than it is now.

I had a nice talk w/anthoneezy online alst nite too. I told him a funny story that ja mess told me earlier that nite. Well there was little boy who wanted to go dineyland right, i guess his uncle didnt really wanna go or something like that. So he takes him into car and the uncle thought "oh i know where ill take him!" The uncle and the nephew go into the car and they pass by this old abandon burnt down building. He told his nephew, "well hurr we are, it looks like dineyland got burnt down though." hahaha oh man that was funny but sad @ the same time. Poor little kid who probably got his hopes up on going to dineyland.

Well i must be off for i need to go to mass. i ahvent been to daily mass in a while, ever since skool started again. until tonite, hurr is soem more food for thought, View the world as your canvas. Be willing to rock your own style. Rely on your own instincts and not the opinions of others. Only you can stop yourself from expanding your EMAGN NATION. oh btw my vibe magazine came in the other day, good thing i didnt buy it!

"In comes the winter breeze that chills the air and drifts the snow And I imagine kissing you under the mistletoe..." im done, im out God bless!

agh...i feel bad right now i cant do an accurate blog. i shall do one later, my eyes are heavy and my puso hurts. ::sigh::

"So much on my mind it can't recline...blastin' holes in the night til she bled sunlight..."im done...im out God bless!

"Do not think of your fault; still less of others' faults. Look for what is good and strong and try to imitate it. Your faults will drop off like dead leaves when their time comes..."

well hurr i am, redoing this blog from yesterdays messed up, jacked up entry that got messed up. Anyway, i saw this quote and it was between this one or the other gatorade. So the meaning of this quote is saying, so often we can dwell on other peioples faults, that we forget bout the good qualities they forgot bout their good qualities. Point being, look for the positive points in people's personalities and try to imitate it. The more you focus on imitating peoples positives points in their personality, the stuff that you dont like bout them dissapear

Dear BLog, i am hurr at the soratorios house doing my blog as i hear them talk behind me. haha THas wha boss lady said, as she lays on the couch after a long days of work. Obviously, my thoughts will not be the same from last nite, being that well what i was thinking last nite is totally different than im thinknig now, OKay, i dont know if that made sense but oh well. I felt better yesterday, i felt like relieved and not stressed out as i did the day before. I guess i had a lot of skool stuff to do in my head and it was like aghhh.

So i go to skool yesterday and i as i was praying for parking and right before my eyes is a parking space. IT was one of those parallel parking spots, before i never attempeted to park there being i never knew how to parallel park or if i did my parking owuld be jacked up. haha as if i was smoking or drinking or something like that. I park there all happy cuz i found parking right away, i come out of class to find bird crap on my car. On the side of my car all over my drivers end it was like all nasty. eww i hate bird crap on my car, agh i have to wash it tomorrow to get it all offf. My car looks all dirty and nasty now. Went to class, i was falling asleep cuz well class was boring!!!! we were watching boring movie called like 2000 leagues in sapce or something like that. We were watching monkies and what not play around and stuff. oh gosh it was like i cant wait to get out of hurr. A lot of people were falling alseep, especially when it was coming to lecture. haha i was funny watching people fall alseep in class. I was coo cuz we got to take home our quiz. I like take home quizzes, theyre d0pe!!

Before class, i was walking around club rush juss i guess checking out what was going on. I was talking to a few intereting people there too. Like i was talking to one of those har krishana guys. IT was funny cuz he was like thas a nice bracelet you have referring to my rosary. I said thanks, he goes are you filipino? i said yeah he goes oh cool you know were not actually filipino or iraqui or whatever, more less we have souls. Blah blah blah he gives me this hardback book on yoga and their beliefs and stuff. I said oh thanks, then he threw dontation card @ me. He was like oh we usually ask people for donations for those books. I was like okay ill see if i can get people to donate money to you guys. I dont think he agreed w/me on that one cuz he goes well i take this one back then. How bout i give you this one and its a smaller version a mini book. THen he invites me to their club meetings, which are on thurs. @ 330pm. THen he gives me some vegeterian dessert thing, i said thanks! i felt weird in my hand i ended up throwing it away in the trash later on. THen i ran into this mormon guy also who saw my quicksilver shirt and he goes do you surf? i said no then he goes have you ever tried, i told naw. Then he asked if i ever been to hawaii and stuff like that. Blah bLah blah. THen he asked if i ever tried anything like surfing i said yeah snowboarding he goes is that fun? i said yeah it was then he was like dont you get hurt? i said no not really juss gotta be careful. After that he gave me stuff bout their church and stuff bout families. It was coo he didnt try to convert me or do anything like that. THat was coo i admired that guy for it.

Went to work and i was giving a grip of work to do for the next couple weeks. Aggh its so much to do! i finally got to talk to lyn lyn @ work. Usually we dont get to really talk talk you know. When i come in, shes usually leaving or already gone. So we had a nice half hour chit-chat bout a lot of different things. It was a very enjoyable conversation. We even were talking inside the parking lot for a little bit too! haha ITs coo im blessed that i feel close to errone that i can feel comfortable tlaking to them individually. I know i said more bout this last nite but i forgot what else i added.

After work went back to skool, i kinda messed up on the hw a little bit. Thas why i want to do it w/kuya so we can help each other out. HE was a bit dissapointed in me cuz i didnt study the upcoming chapter in the book. THerefore i didnt exactly fully know what was going on in the class. So i gotta focus on my studies so kuya wont be mad @ me and wont give me palo haha jk! hahaha forreal though its for my own benefit though that i really make an effort to do my hw and studies and make it a priority so i can be successful like my kuya! haha we had a contest in class last nite, i have to beat 827 on snake II. We kept playing in class last nite and he also showed me this reptile thingy he made w/his hand. it was an iguana he made w/his hands last nite, it was funny. hahaha kuya is a funny guy, yes he is quite a funny guys. Thas why when hes happy, im happy and when he feels sad then i feel sad.

Reirich and i were talking bout relationships and what not. HE told me that so many people have told him, that this next person he finds is gonna be "the one." I told him he shouldnt worry bout it cuz so often we pay attention to the future. We always gotta worry bout whas gonna happen tomorrow and the next day. Instead we juss need to focus on today, thas why God gave us this special gift called the present. No matter how much we may think our plans our totally set for us. God may have a different one planned for us. He's gonna throw that curve ball at us and we wont be able to hit the ball. Were gonna miss it and were juss gonna be like all whoa! wha happened to me there.

I like playing yu-gi-oh cards! haha i like that show cuz its oh so d0pe! haha though i havent watched the show in forever long. Well i cant think of anything else to say right now. So hurr is my made up blog entry from last nite.

Really Smiled : online yes i smile online
Laughed :earlier today was laffing in class.
Cried : like 3 weeks ago
Bought something : bought this d0pe quicksilver shirt @ robisons may last fri.
Danced : when am i not? hahah
Were sarcastic : im sarcastic w/kuya hhaa
Kissed someone: my mother
'Talked to an ex : dont have one to takk to
Watched your favorite movie : not in forever long time
Had a nightmare:not for awhile
Were lulled to sleep by the thought of someone: awww
[ A Last time for everything.. ]
Last book you read : im still trying to finsih my kindness book
Last movie you saw : daredevil
Last song you heard: deep in my heart
Last thing you had to drink : sunkist
Last time you showered : this morning
Last thing you ate : mac & cheese

[ Fashion ]
1. Do you wear a watch : yup its fossil
2. How many coats and jackets do you own : many different ones some i dont even wear anymore
4. Most expensive item of clothing : oh geez...
5.What kind of shoes do you wear : usually my jordans
6. Describe your style in one word : yummy

[ Friends ]
1. Do your friends 'know' you : for the most part yes
2. What do they tend to be like : Christ centered and juss d0pe like no other!
3. Are there traits in you that are universally liked : its not for me to say
4. are there people that you tell everything to: yup

[ Other ]
2. Most listened to bands : who knows
3. Do you find any musicians good-looking : yeah i cant think of any though off the top of my head
4. Can you play an instrument : naww dawg
5. Type of music listened to : hiphoppopfreestyleslowjams
6. Type never listened to : ive listeneed to almost errthang
[ Religion ]
1. Do you detest religion : no
2. How do you think this universe was formed : by GOd of course
3. If you currently follow a religion, do you think people who belong to another religion are ignorant:: hmm well i guess to a certain extent
[ Homosexuality ]
1. What is the first thing you think when you see two gay guys or lesbians holding hands : eww thas sick when i saw them kissing in the christina aguilera video! yuck
2. do you agree or disagree with gay or lesbian couples bringing up children: yeah
[ General Questions ]
1. Whom do you believe is the smartest man alive at the moment : eerr GOd
2. What do you prefer, a sunny or rainy day : sunny
3. Do you consider yourself lucky : yup very lucky and blessed!
4. Do you feel pity for people who commit suicide : well i donnt know
5. Choose one word to describe how you feel most often : stressed but all doritoes as brotha anthony would say
[ Stuff ]
1. Do you own any plaid clothing : yup! like my green holister shirt
2. Do you own Converse shoes : yup my brown ones
3. Do you own Saucony shoes : naw
4. Do you own old school Nikes : naw
5. Do you wear tight pants : naw
6. Is there more than one zipper in your pants : naw
7. Do you know what a squatter flap is : naw
8. Do you own a messenger bag : yes from ol navy
9. Do you wear your messenger bag across your chest : naw
10. Do you own braces :nope
11. Are braces worn anywhere besides the mouth :naw
12. Do you have short, shaggy hair : its wavy and getting long
13. Does your hairstyle exceed a height of 3 inches : i dont know
14. Would you classify your hair as a deadly weapon : haha no.
15. Do you think mohawks are "neat" : sure i guess
16. Is your hair black or red : black
18. Do you own a bandana : no but my kuya wears one al lthe time when he works out
19. Do you wear plugs in your ears : no
20. Are you amused by safety pins : umm no
21. Have you ever used duct tape as a sewing substitute :no
22. Do you own one or more objects with studs or spikes in them : no
23. Do you own one or more articles of clothing from Dogpile, Lip Service, or Tiger of London : no sir
24. Do you enjoy leopard print : not really
[ Habits/Beliefs ]
25. Are you disgruntled (having a general hate for everything): nope!
26. Are you an anarchist : naw
27. Does the American flag anger you :nope
28. Are you "working class" : heck yeah i am
29. Do you dislike "preps" : i like em.
30. Do you dislike Hot Topic : no
31. Do you smoke cigarettes : uhhh noo
32. Do you smoke cloves : uhh no again
33. Are you a thin waif : wha?
34. Are you vegan/vegetarian : nope.
35. Do you think meat is murder : nope.
36. Do your nighttime activites usually involve drunken underage vomiting : no
37. Have you ever slept in an alley or park :no
38. Do you wash your hair less than once a week: no sick!!!!
39. Have you ever gone a week without a shower : ewww
40. Have you ever been avoided due to your odor :nope haha
41. Do you know who Jack Kerouac is : no
42. Do you like Mr. Kerouac : dont know
43. Should Mumia Abu-jamal be freed from prison :no hes in the for a reason
44. Are you a member of the Makeout Club : sick no
45. Do you say "rad" : no

[ Other ]
Name : Ja$On
Do you like it : sure
Nicknames : jfish, jay, jase, hijo, angel fish, fish., big fish, etc etc
Screen names : jpfish187, itsvokal, uprm isda, phildeagony,gotzisda
location : buena park
School : CC
Virgin : actually no im a cancer
Shoe size : 9
[ Family ]
Parents : NEta & clarence
Siblings : Lisa
Live with: parents and sister
Favorite relative : kuya!H haha jk isaiah

"Excuse me miss, what's your name? Can you come, hang with me? Cause I see some ladies tonight that should be hangin wit robby & ja$On..." im done...im out GOd bless! its finished! haha remember that song kuya? hahahahahha

ahhhhhhhhh! i hate blog w/a passion i lost my whole entry!!!! agh all my thoughts went to waste aghh!! OH WHY!?!!! i copied but then i ended up loosing it after copying something else!!!!!a agfghhh@jkEFklSJgklfjkzdfjkllt i hate blog! agh!!!!!! oh whY?!!! im sooooooo angry gosh !!!!!!!
im gonna have to redo my whole entry later! gosh gosh gosh why?!!! blog is dumb!

"...And you help each other realize that all the things you want to be...you already are."

i found out last nite, that our friendly community Love & faith in carson are disney characters. How funny being that Servant;s heart is Lord of the rings characters. Well hurr is the Servants Heart Lord of the Rings-Fellowship of the Ring cast: Compliments to strider for making this cast list available for me.
Fellowship of the King

Cast:

Frodo - Marianne Soratorio

Sam - Jennifer Felisan

Merry - Jemmelee Velasco

Pip - Roselyn Soratorio

Mikedalf The Grey - Michael Tandiama

Jaygolas - Benjamin Castaneda

Aragorn - Alfred Perdito

Gimli - Jason Fish

Elrond - Robert Moya

Galadriel - Aela Mejia

Eomer - Archie Mejia

Boromir - Maurice King

its 1234am right now, and ive yet to fully accomplish my studying before tomorrow. Its been a bleh type of day, i feel so out of it. Went to skool and it took me forever juss to get a print out. I was feeling mad cuz they only had like 2 people in the front. Well i know why cuz of the whole budget cuts, but i mean gosh the line was cruved around the door. This one girl wanted to get up on a computer to help, but i guess her boss told her no they have enough help already. I was like wha? what the heck are you talking bout!?! theres two people assisting students and you have a line full of other students waiting to be helped. You think thats enough?! gosh, thas whack, thas not what im paying my increased skool fees for. aghh!

Went home for a little bit, got ready for work then went to work. It was nice, our printer finally works for the computer in my office work. man that took forever to get it fixed, liek almost 2 months. Well the important thing is that its fixed. i was listening to this tight Cd lyn lyn brought in...it was very soothing. i ffeel so blah bleh right now. I cant seem to focus on anything right now except my worries and fears. I got off of work and went to skool to try do my hw, and well that was a joke. The lady there was trippin out w/kuya trying to help me, as if it was some test. How gay is that, i was frustrated so i was like forget it im not giving you the time. I walked out there, feeling stressed and unaccomplished.

Went home to eat and to check mail before going to SRE. The kids were alright, the usual i guess you could say. Though i did get more then one mass card today. I tried to do the Jesus; meditations w/them, but they seemed like they couldnt understand. Or wasnt interested at least, so i had to a spontaneous one instead. Im anxious to read their responses they wrote. One kid fell asleep tonite, the boy mustve been really tired. haha
Prayer meeting was nice, it looked like we had a little more people. i was going to go to mcdonalds or i wanted to but i had hw to do. ahh this sucks i cant focus on anything right now. i cant wait till its friday!
Finish computer hw, now all i gotta do is finish studying for the quiz. Hopefully i did the hw right...
i cant think of anythign else to say, its so bleh, my entry is retarted for tonite.

"Be like alice in wonderland, jack in jill holding hands and every afternoon well watch the cows jump over the moon. And if we happen to run into lil bo peep we can help her find her sheep..." im done...im out God bless!

"A friend is someone who, upon seeing another friend in immense pain, would rather be the one experiencing the pain than watch their friend suffer..."

Well i saw this quote and it reminded me of a great brother of mine. $5 if you can tell me who im talking bout! ha sike! im trying to multitask hurr. im talking to anthoneezy, gail from carson, el huego, a ol friend of min from the ol skool crew, and strider. whew and tring to do blog all at the same time. Its a little complicated cuz im using interent explorer to blog instead of my AOl browser, for some reason blog wasnt coming up. grrr! anyway, this d0pe brotha of mine is one who goes out of his way to help his people in need.
This quote totally describes what kind of person he is. He hates seeing the people whom he loves so much hurt and in pain. I always knew how great this guy was, but i really praise God that these past couple months ive been able to get a lot closer to him. His sense of humor cracks me and never leave me w/a frown. Truly he is a brave warrior, always willing to fight that battle. He has his sword ready in one hand, and his shield ready in the other. Ive learned so much from this warrior, i owe part of my faith to him.
I am ready to help fight that battle w/him, you have my axe strider!

Today was a busy day, nothing but back to back things going on. ah its gonna be busy skool week for me got like a test in errclass this week. I woke up to go to mass today @ 12 @ St. Dominic Savio in bellflower. It was funny today cuz i was sitting in the car waiting to see if people will show up for the mass. Being that i told errone to meet @ 11 @ SPV, so while waiting i was reading my bible. Father Kevin told me to read matthew chapter 25 and he said it was a long chapter. Well im reading and reading and by the time i know it i was like @ chapter 27. I was like whoa craazzzzy! i had to stop cuz i had to get to bellflower, no one ended up meeting me @ spv anyway.

Got to mass St. Dominics and i was quite dissapointed, cuz i didnt know they werent gonna have mass cuz of the holiday. Its all good though, we had a blast being talking to Jesus @ adoration! I love that church sooo much, its so nice and warm and cozy. I love how @ adoration youre juss so close to Jesus. He's juss right there to see and to do nothing but completely smile at him. After that, we all kinda took some more pictures. I think lyn lyn wanted to finish the film so we took all kinds of pictures, w/ninni and others. That was chillerific. Had lunch w/errone like mizike, tital linda, tita beyonce, lyn lyn, ninni and achie @ this one sushi joint. It was alright, though i do miss going to karutas. I dont think any sushi joint can beat their crunchy roll, thas ultimately the best! They had an all you can deal that was $17, but you had to finish it all in an hour. man! thas like rushing to finish then throwing it up afterwards cuz you ate too much! hahaha

it was funny today cuz achie and ninni were in this filipino bakrey store. So i open the door and im like "psst" real loud, well the store was big or anything. Right after i went pssst, errone turned around and looked. hahahahaahahah mizike and i couldnt stop laughing, at least i coudlnt. then we saw this slogan on this meat truck it was funny. Picture this big truck, white background on it has a picture of a cow. In an arch style has the name of the brand, then under it the cow and then the slogan, "cant beat our meat!" hahaha that was hillarious! Well maybe not you, i guess you juss gotta read it for yourself or see it. We went to golidlocks afterwards to have halo halo mmmm! Whenever i have halo halo though, i dont like adding all the other stuff. I juss like the milk and the shaved ice. My family doesnt usually put ice cream ube in it either. Though i like the ice cream ube in it. Anyway, by the time i was finished w/my halo halo i only hadl ike a big chunk of the fruit, the swe3t beans and all the other stuff they put in there. It was funny cuz well i dont really understand tagalog, only small words or phrases. I saw this sign there and i ask achie waht it said, and she was like it says, errone works well w/team work or somethignl ike that. So im like oh okay coo, then i looked up and she read the english sign that said teamwork thing on it. hahahaha it was funny she read this english sign when i wanted her to read the tagalog siign. Tita linda gave us some more good stuff today. I need to take notes errtime she talks cuz its really good stuff! i love listening to the stories she had and the loving relationship she had w/tito leo.

Went home for a little bit, so tired i juss wanted to take a nap. We went to have dinner @ my aunts cuz it was her birfday today. Man there was 4 birfdays in a row. First ryans, then my aunts dog pennie, then lyn lyn and now my aunts. It was alright, the cake my aunt made though was sooo good. It was like chocolate w/snickers inside the cake and outside of it. soooo yummy and swe3t! She makes the best cakes forreal no doubt no doubt. I realized today, that a person whom was a cross i had to carry for so long isnt my cross anymore. Ive been able to umm let go towards the feelings i had for the person and juss focus on seeing Jesus; in him. it was so blazin hot inside my aunts apt. agh kuya wouldve died in there cuz i know how hot easily hot he gets.

After that, i went to go study w/kuya @ rubios. I like studying w/him cuz he helps me understand things and makes sure i understand it. He's a great study buddy! wooo! We had a funny discussion tonite in the car too. haha it was quite humurous, yes it was! i had a some interesting chats w/my friends from carson. Actually i was sharing w/them the stuff tita linda told me this past weekend. It was really great cuz they felt the same way too. GAil had told me how some peopel are so involved w/finding the perfect one that in a sense it starts to distort their spirituality. hmm that was interesting point she made. Oh before i forget, i saw the end of joe millionare tonite. all i gotta say is, "oh gosh, must be nice." I thought the end of it was kinda corny, well not kinda but it was corny. The guy needs a haircut too! So she finds out the guy isnt this 50 dollar millionare but they both end up receiving 1 million dollars anyway. When they were dancing that song, "slow jam" by usher and monica came into my head.

Well i havent done one of these in a while so i thought id do it one for ol times sake. Nothign else to really do right now anyway. Enjoy!
I got this from my cousins live journal, i need to change the links on my blog to their live journal ones. I shall do that after i get finish doing this.

10 Bands You've Seen Live
1. Super band
2. Happy Hour
3. Never On time
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09 Things You're Looking Forward To
1. Fridays!
2. celebrating urpms 1 year anniversary
3. school ending!
4. spring break!
5. Congress!
6. chillin w/uPRm
7. my 21st birfday
8. talking to kuya online tomorrow morning haha
9. making my tag person for boss lady! ha =)

08 Things You Wear Daily
1. my cross that i got from SRE for making my confirmation
2. my scapular that aela brought back from the pi
3. my bead cross necklace that the velsacos gave me
4. my rosary bracelet tita beyonce gave me, that im soo careful with
5. curve/candies cologne
6. my fossil watch
7. this gold ring, well its not Gold anymore. haha
8. a smile!

07 Things That Annoy You
1. fake people
2. people put up fronts
3. inconsiderate people
4. people that follow you around
5. when in class the role sheet doesnt get pass back the way its suppose to go
6. when my kids in class talk when im talking...that bugs!
7. when people take things to the puso for somethign so little

06 Things You Touch Every Day
1. my keyboard
2. shampoo
3. my keys
4. the doorknob
5. the car
6. the rosary! oh yes!

05 Things You Do Every Day
1. showeer
2. pray the rosary
3. talk online
4. blog
5. laugh

04 People You'd Want to Spend More Time With
1. kristin kreuk! oh yeah!
2. boss lady cuz shes oh so d0pe!
3. uPrm
4. my other fambam tribe! haha

03 Movies You Could Watch Over and Over
1. light it up! yeah i know im ghett0
2. roger and hammersteins cinderella(the brandy and palo mantablan version)...i cant believe i put that on hurr. Oh well haha
3. titanc! haha soo juss kidding

02 Of Your Favorite Songs At This Moment
1. any 80's ol skool freestyle song!! like take me in your arms, point of no return, etc etc
2. one of those days remix

01 Person You Could Spend the Rest of Your Life With
1. Jesus of course!

"Never imagined you would be a painted picture, I'm emotional. You saw me leaving no deceiving, it's official I'm emotional." Im done...im out God bless!

"Marriage is an unconditional commitment to an imperfect person..." Tita Linda Soratorio

My head hurts right now, when i left the soratorio house and got in my car i got a headache. I think i got motion sickness from watching the video. agh i guess looking @ this computer isnt helping either. Anyway, tita linda gave us a "how to live a good relationship w/whoever your signifcant other might be." She gave us like a whole lot of different pointers, i wrote some down too cuz they were good stuff. Well as i read that quote it reminded me of another that i once read. It went something like, "love isnt trying to perfect person perfectly but learning to see the imperfect person perfectly." the other quote i used at the top it doesnt necessarly mean only in marriage but any relationship. Ill give the tita linda pointeres later on when i get to that part.

Today was cool, i havent been home at all really this past weekend. Its hard cuz there is so much going on, always something coming up. Let's see i went to mass today, i sat next to kuya. At first we were in the very back but we had to move cuz i cant stand sitting in the back of the church. I always have to be at least in the front or near the front. I dont like sitting too far back cuz well i juss dont. haha So yeah we ended up moving to the front to sit down. After lunch i went w/the soratorios to forest lawn to visit their dad. Went home for a little bit, then went back there for lyn lyns birfday.

It was fun we did a lot of dancing, eating, the food was good! We were listening to a lot of the ol skool freestyle. I love listening to that stuff i dont know its juss d0pe. Thas like where all of todays music is made out of too. It was coo cuz mostly errone was dancing, except for a few. You had strider breaking doing the ol skool stuff. Kuya doing windmills and wha not. Jovie showing errone how to harlem shake. Corn was doing what they do now @ the clubs...whoa!! babyvee doing her boxstep. Arch shaking his shoulders to the harlem shake. lyn lyn trying to learn some of the stuff they do now today. el huego shimm shimmying errwhere. Tita beyonce jamming to lisa lisa cuz her music is d0pe!! can you feel the beat w/in my heart...hahaha It makes thing a lot more exciting when errone participates and not only juss one person dancing. Thas why it was tight cuz there was so much participation going on!

Then we all got worn out and was like blah on the couch! haha well actually we took pictures of all kidns. group pictures, solo pictures, and more pictures. We had a uprm picture since it was uprms 1st anniversary, that was really cool. Its nice to see how much our relationships w/each other have grown within the year. Throughout the struggles the group had whether it was invidiually or as a whole group, we managed as always to get through them w/God's help of course. They all are a great group of unique brothers with pusos of gold. We know we can rely on each toher for help and one us falls, and we cant all be there, someone else is at least there to pick the brother up. Someone once said, "People say true friends must always hold hands, but true friends don't need to hold hands because they know the other hand will always be there." thas is exactly what uprm is to each other. Happy one year upRm, May God's grace and light continue to shine upon the group to guide and to lead us to another succesful year!

I found this quote right now and when i read it, i was like wow i have to use this one too. it reminded me of the relationship boss lady and i have together. "Once in a while you meet someone, and soon you both discover the two of you are truly something special to each other... you share your thoughts and feelings so relaxed, so openly, and right away you know your friendship's truly meant to be." it was really nice cuz i got to bond w/boss lady today to get cheesecake. We had a nice conversation that was juss like focusing on listening to one another. Sometimes thas all you need is someone there juss to listen. Not to make comments or to scold you, but juss to listen what you have to say. I really really really enjoy the moments when boss lady and i get bond together, its not very often we get to do that. She's such a wonderful sister, who is so compassionate, loving, warm, friendly, trustworthy and not to mention cute too! haha kuyas soo lucky! hahahaha. She's very giving of herself to other people. I never thought befoe that there was as someone who can get as crazy as i can. Who can fool around and learn juss to have fun. haha i remember meeting her at youth alpha when she gave her testimony i was wow! i went up to her and complimented her on it and stuff. Then i remember i asked her if i could borrow to burn the SH music that they had made. She was like oh yeah sure, and juss really nice bout it. haha i dont think she even knew me really. Then wha else, oOh i remember how her and kuya came to my class and taught my kids praise & worship songs and cheers too. i was like wow she's soo cool! hahah anyway, boss lady has all the qualities of a good friend, but she goes way past & beyond them! thanks God for sending me boss lady! Ü

random thought, ive been thinking its crazy im so use to calling robby, "kuya" that it feels weird when i call him by "robby." haha jus like its weird when i hurr el huego call me by my first name cuz im so use to hearing him call by my last. haha okay anyway moving on. We watched the videos from the mission trip and christmas party tonite, i got motion sickness! haha Before that tita linda was sharing some valuable information bout relationships. I like listening to her talks cuz her stories are always so amazing and nice.
SHe mentioned that your mate that you woudl want should be someone who will help you get closer to God. Where God will be the basis of your relationship. Tita also said dont be so negative thinking, there is no one out there for you and what not. She made a really good point how you shouldnt lookin online for a gf or through classifieds or psyhics cuz its an insult to God. I never thought bout it that way either. ALso dont stress over looking for the "one" concentrate more on how you can help out your brotthers and sisters, through like community service and what not. I thought id share some of the food for thought to ponder on! Really good helpful stuff to remember.

Well my head still hurts and i cant type anymore cuz i dont wanna feel bleh tomrrow. So i shall end with someone tita beyonce said bout finding the one. She said "if God really wanted to be w/someone then created particular person out there juss for you." ahh juss gotta let her come to you i guess? its so hard to find a good catholic girl now a days. I thought i found the one i wanted before...but apparently not. ::sigh:: haha woe is me! hahah jk

"Take me, take me in your arms and dont you let me go i need more and more..." im done...im out God bless!

"A sin that is not blotted out of repentance is both a sin & a cause of sin." St. Gregory I

i decided to go w/that one and not a friendship quote this time cuz well it reminded me of today. How wonderful that our Lord gave us two d0pe sacarments to learn more bout today. The sacarament of reconciliation and the sacarament of the Eucharist. wow!! thas "coolnesity" haha Lyn lyn did her testimony on the healing power of reconciliation and her talk was great. It was very touching and it juss made you realize how cool that sacrament is. So from there ill start talking bout the growth seminar.

We had our 1st growth seminar today focusing on the innerhealing through the eucharist & reconciliation. It was open juss for our community, give them a chance to learn more bout these great sacaraments. There was a talk apologetics style bout the Eucharist by strider. Though i wasnt there to listen to that one cuz i had get the radio for work for the mediation. oh wait before we had the talk we did praise & worship which is juss excellent. i like the new speakers we have i can see a difference or actually hear a difference now. We played that song, "eternally yours" man i love that song! on the way to church this morning i couldnt stop listening to it. In fact i have that song playing and lead me Lord playing in my head.

So after the talk we had group sharing, between the guys and the girls. It was split up, so each gender can better bond w/some people in the communtiy we may not know. The topic of the discussion was, "what was something you need healing of, whethers is spiritual, emo, physically etc etc." It was a very annointed conversation cuz we were able to discuss our own struggles. The struggles that push back errtime we try to step foward in our walks. Also we helped each other by giving advice on how to solve/overcome that situation. I think the basic theme for the whole conversation/discussion was "trust in God's timing and be a living example unto others." For me probably the biggest struggle i have as of now is my family. It took me a while to be where i am today, yet im not even done in my walk. I havent reached the end of the journey, though i can say that im not lost in the dark anymore. I can say that my community has lit the path for me and i know what path to follow. And if i get sidetracked i know where to go, to help put myself back on track.

A year ago, i wasnt as nearly as what i am today. I was a practicing catholic...though only to a certain extent. Kinda like a practicing cafteria catholic, i picked and choose on my own what i wanted to do. I went to mass errsunday w/my family, though i honestly didnt think much of it. SOmetimes id even fall asleep. I taught SRe yet, i ddint have the knowledge that i do bout who the church is. What it means to be a catholic and what a blessing it is. I had gone to prayer meeting a couple of times, though i was like ehh whatever i was bored. Yeah i prayed, but only when i needed something. Only when it was convient for me i guess you could say. God was in my life, though he wasnt where he shouldve been. I wasnt to the extent where i did drugs, swore, had pre-marital sex etc. etc.

One tuesday, i decided i wanted to take my confirmation kids up to prayer meeting, since ive been there before so i thought id take them. At the same time my cousin was doing youth alpha, so i would go meet him up in the hall after it was over errtues. Well that tues. nite (feb 12 to be exact) i went up to prayer meeting after youth alpha was over and i remember it clearly that tues. Father Grace was talking i dont remember wha but the chairs were all facing the wall where we have the overhead and stuff. I remember i was getting impatient cuz i had to take chris back home still and i still had ot ask i think it was boss lady(obviously i dindt call her boss lady @ the time. haha) if it was okay to bring the kids up there. So at the end of the whole prayer meeting, i got to ask one of the two and i got their okay. I think i was told to email her to remind them so they could set up the chairs.

That next tues.(feb.19) i brought them to prayer meeting i sat in the very back watching them to make sure they were gonna behave. I tried ot get into it but i dont know if was able to. Then i ended up goign back up there after i took my kids down cuz they had to go home. I think errsince that last tues. i would go back up there after SRE was over. My cousin both would, and i remember jaymee & mo rice talking to me after prayer meeting was over, while there was healing prayer going on and music ministry was cleaning up. I guess has time superpassed, i kept going back up each tues.

I remember how my protestant friend had "church friends" and how he would always chill w/them. Anyway, it was funny cuz when i was asked(i forgot by who) anyway to go the FCFC coffee shop i was kinda excited though nervous and insecure too. Well i was insecure/nervous when i would go to prayer meeting after SRE was over. Juss cuz how i use to go then i stopped going then i came back again. I guess i was afraid of being judged. I also kinda remember clearly that nite oF FCFC coffee shop, i met up w/errone @ spv that nite. I was talking to kyle and nicole a little bit cuz thye knew one of my other cousins cuz kyle went to skoool w/him @ the time. Kuya was excited cuz he juss bought a new car that day, the civic he has now. The day was mar. 15 2002. haha i feel like on that MTV show "diary." That nite i got to ride in kuyas car w/boss lady it was us 3. being i didnt really know anyone i was quiet haha. Though i remember in the car they were trying ot make convo w/me it was kinda like 20 ?'s hahaha it was cold that nite too cuz i think it was raining earlier that day. The coffee shop was cool, i saw my friends whom i chilled w/at the time there. After we all ate @ rubios i think @ the cerritos towne center. I think i got something i didnt like, so errsince then i didnt like rubios. Though now i do! haha wow to think im kuya and boss lady's "hijo" now! haha

oh i forgot that one tues. when i was talking ot jaymee and mo rice after prayer meeting, jaymee told me to go to the website and sign the guestbook. I remember then one sun. afternoon after i was chillin in the park juss waiting for the sun to go down. haha jk anyway, though it was one sun. afternoon i was lookin @ the SH website and i ended up signign the guestbook. it took me a while cuz i was tryign to think of wah to put on there to sound cool for some stupid reason. Well on mar. 25 haha mizike imed me sayiing, "hey ja$on this is mike from servants heart, thanks for signing the guest book." you probably think im lame cuz i remember all these days and wha not, the only reason i do is cuz i use to write errthang that happened to me errday in my organizer. i dont remember these days off the top of my head! haha That day he asked me to be part of their skit and stuff. i said yeah sure cuz i thought it was really cool i was asked. Being he didnt even really know me.

Then i guess going to skit practices and stuff i was able to a get a "feel" of errone and more the i gradually chilled w/errone the more i got to know them and they got to know me. I remember the first skit practice @ aelas house. I got there and it was kinda uncomfortable cuz i didnt have anyone to really talk to. The very first face i remember seeing is jennifs. she was on the couch where the tv was w/allegra i think she was crocheting. That was a long practice i think we were waiting for errone for a while before we even begun to practice. I remember jay was trying to dload the "i got a crush on you" instrumental. While talking to mo rice and someone else bout this words he woudl make up. haha I think each time i got to chill w/SH one candle was lit to start the fire. After being w/them for a year now, ive grown to where i understand how wonderful our God is and how d0pe it is to be a catholic.

wow that whole flashback took pretty much all of my blog. i still didnt even touch on the grwoth seminar yet! So back to the whole point of the flashback, my struggle is my family cuz i only want them to be where i am now. To be able talk bout the church and great stuff like that. Though its all in God's time and sometimes it takes a tragic accident for them to realize how important God has to be in their life. So i only continue to be a living example and pray for them. Pray the Jesus; light will be able to shine through me unto them.

Tita beyonce gave this great teaching bout how to give a great confession. She used great analogies also in her teaching. It reminded me of that one bibe talk i sent before xmas. how it talked bout being a "pack rat" and how we need to clean out our spiritual closets often and not juss pack errthang in there. The whole seminar was great. Went to reconcliation again cuz i needed to talk to a priest bout something. Then went to mass, father brennan;s homily was good. Talked bout doing acts of kindess while reaching out and touching those who we would cast away.

After mass, we went to eat @ the china star in la mirada. i got full easy and only ended up eating one plate. THen after dinner well most of us went to watch daredevil @ fullerton amc. Honestly, i liked spiderman better for some reason. I thought this daredevil couldve been made better. There was a lot of corny parts like for example, "where i can find you" "dont worry ill find you!" oh goodness! haha the action scenes were tight, action packed and what not. There was a few suprising scenes in the movie. The catholic church stuff tid bits they had were nice. THe stainglass of Mama Mary and the statue of her inside the church.

Wow this is probably one of the longest blogs ive ever typed! I juss realized if i wasnt for sh, wow a lot blessings wouldnt of came about in my life. Goes to show how there really isnt no coincidences in life. Errthang happens for a reason, God puts certain people in our lives for a reason. Through Sh God has helped me learn to make new friends and meet other people from all over. He has blessed me w/not only one great community but two! He has blessed me w/not juss one group of good friends, but two! they all have made a powerful impact in my life. I wouldnt be who i am today w/o them.

"There can be miracles when you believe. Though hope is frail, it’s hard to kill. Who knows what miracles you can achieve. When you believe, somehow you will, You will when you believe..." im done...im out GOd bless!

"Life is full of people who will make you laugh, cry, smile until your face hurts, and so happy that you think you'll burst. But the ones who leave their footprints on your soul are the ones that keep your life going..."

Reading that quote is like whoa thas very true! yes yes it is so true. Throughout life youll meet or come across people that have certain affects on you personality. They make you feel happy, sad, joyful etc. etc. but to me the true people God sends you are the ones who really make that difference in your life. The ones who dont need to say, "i care for you or youre my friend." But only by the affect they have on your soul.

Another long day for me, and this time i mean long! My eyes are heavy, i yawn sitting hurr thinking of what to say. Number of different thoughts come across my head, yet none of them i wanna put on hurr. Im talking ot jackie right now, she was telling me her valentines dillema. "And i love you, and i need you..." hahah get it?
THough she expressed clearly to me, she enjoys the single life and is not looking for a bf at the moment. For these past couple days, actually more less this whole week ive eaten soo much junk! haha im suprised my stomach isnt bullging out right now. I saw these kids i think practicing for track, well they were running. Anyway, it made me wanna go out there and join them. ahh wha use to take me a good 5 min to run the mile before, probably would take me 10 min now! haha i honestly need to start excercising again even if its juss running.

Well today kuya and i had our "at risk" youf program! haha i love those days, it was our big brother day! wooo what fun it was. Kuya's exciting to chill with, forreal always makes me laugh and stuff. it was quite dissapointing this morning cuz we were planning on getting down our cis hw today. We got to skool and find errthang closed, which is whack cuz now it puts us back behind schedule. ahhh i wanted to get the hw done and over with, maybe we can do it on mon. nite instead of tues. nite. Mon. are kuyas work out nites though hmmm well see. I juss hate doing hw last minute. So being that the skool was closed for some apparent reason, we decided to go visit aela & jay @ their work. We didnt know how to get there, so cross that idea out. haha Boss lady wasnt really @ work, so we couldnt go and visit her either. Since we had nothign else to do, we went to the cerritos mall and walked around. It was crazy we saw Jl's friend who she brought to prayer meeting before. I take it he was w/his girl cuz the way they were. Dang, that foo is tall!!! hes as tall as the empire state building! haha forreal! haha jk After the mall, we went to check out this phillysteak fast food joint. The place is in fountain valley, its really good and it gets quite packed in there. Its coo cuz they kinda make it like a diner sorta, then they have all this stuff from philly on there. Kinda made you feel like you were in philly. After lunch we went back to the mall and got these two shirts. Kuya has been buying some d0pe gear these past couple days. hmmm looks like imma have to raid his closet and borrow some stuff one of these days! hahaha yessss We were getting sleepy in the car from the food. Then after i had to go the flower shop to get some flowers of course.

Went to my grandmas house to drop off some stuff. it was nice being there and seeing my grandparents. There was an unexpected accident that occured, but praise God that errthang turned out fine. God has truly blessed me by looking out and keeping safe the people whom he knows i love & care for very much. I went to claim jumper for dinner, i didnt think i was going to eat since i had a big lunch. I was wrong i ate again, i saw something on the menu and i was like oh imma get this! I didnt even finish it, the thing i got was alright. Wasnt really what i was expecting. It was funny cuz i asked the lady for a box and she gave it to me. Later on my cousin(from out of state) asked for one too. Well the waitress was messing w/him and shes like,"no im sorry youre juss gonna have to eat the whole thing." Then my cousin got defensive and was like "but you gave him one." haha i was thinking kick back dude it was a joke!!

After dinner i met up w/the gang for mass @ reconciliation @ St. Peter Chanel. It was nice to be cleaned up during reconclilation. The mass felt good too being that my new schedule this semester doesnt really allow me to go to daily mass. So after mass we all went to eat @ jolibess in cerritos. i didnt think i was going to eat once again but i did! i ate chicken and rice, i never knew changing your chicken order could be such a hassle. I had a breast and a drumstick, well i only eat the wings when it comes to chicken so i had to see if i could exchange it.
So much of a hassle cuz then i had to pay extra for the white meat and what not. Antonio chilled w/us tonite, it was great seeing him again. I missed seeing the guy around and his jokes that keep me going! haha

Went to the soratorios after dinner to chill and watch tv. I was playing w/ninni for a while it was fun. Though i am tired now! haha its all good she was having fun and enjoying it. I heard her so my name tonite, more than once too! woooO! that was tight!!! Tomorrow is the growth seminar, another long day...cant wait till mon. im sleeping in. Sorry this entry is kinda boring tonite, well it is, no kinda. haha It was nice to spend valentines w/the people you love most in your life. Though i didnt spend w/juss one special person but w/15 other special people! till tomorrow my friends...

"I gave my heart and soul to you, girl . Now didn't i do it baby? didnt i do it baby?Gave you the love you never knew, girl, oh (Didn't I do it baby, didn't I do it baby?) I've cried so many times and that's no lie.It seems to make you laugh each time I cry. Didn't i do it baby, didnt i do it baby. Didn't i blow your mind this time, didnt i..." Im done...im out God bless! Hope yall had a great puso day!

"A good friend is someone we can count on, as well as being so much more. A friend is someone with whom we can relax and just hang out, have fun and share our innermost thoughts--deep dark secrets, lofty and noble goals, or our hopes, joys, and fears. A good friend allows you a safe space to share your deepest thoughts and needs--without worry of being judged, criticized or made to feel silly for feeling the way you do. Friends cheer each other on, laugh and cry together, and just plain commissrate and listen to each other. That's why friends are friends"

i juss got back from uPRm field trip conference, man im stuffed. On my way home from dropping off kuya i was thinking how well this is gonna be corny...then again im always corny...so brace yourself! anyway i thought how upRm is kinda like the kids on captin planet. We all have a special talent that we bring into the group. For example el huego holds the "spirituality ring" so he calls out "spirituality" and helps better our group when we may be falling. Strider holds the "apologetics ring" so he calls out "apologetics!" haha then we all come together and hold up our rings to have MEga room come out or something. yeah,. yeah thas corny i know but its kinda true well bout each of us bringing a certain talent to teh group. its a "coolnesity" as my brother anthony from carson would say, when all 6 of us are together. Thas another i forgot to add to yesterday entry, being w/them brings a smile to my face. We ate @ molca salsa tonite, i ate too much once again! haha

im sleepy, but the blogger must go on. So let me tell you bout my day. Well i didnt wanna go to class, i was like ehh i dont wanna go to skool. But then jennif told me to go for her cuz it was her birfday. I couldnt say no to jennif on her birfday, skool i went! Praise God cuz ive been finding really good parking spots almost errday this week. Went to class and juss sat there did nothing. Listen to lecture to see whas going on in class. Good thing mon is a holiday. Ive been having that lost in emotion card playing in my head all day. "Hit the beat now, (lost) when im feeling (lost) hit the ceiling (lost) in mootion (lost) i cant reveal it (lost) i wanna be with you (lost) but i found out how (lost) then my heart breaks i can feel the beat now..." hahaha man i love that song and the dreamin one too. beyonce do you remember that one? Its by will to power, "dreamin" i think im going back into my 80's freestlye music phase.

I went to work today, i did a lot of nothing for the first half. browsed the web a little bit, checked out some kids cooking recipes and other stuff. the clerk was telling me how her first marriage 10 years ago, well her husband made her have to have dinner on the table by 6pm. Then errdinenr had to have meat, vegetables and salad. Man thas harsh, i would never make my wife to stuff like that. Geez, my wife aint gonna be no slave in the kitchen, shes gonna be a princess in her own little corner, in her own little chair. Why? cuz i want her ot be whatever she wants to be so that on the wings of her fancy she could fly anywhere and the world will opens arms to her. haha
Today in my class, we made peanut butter fudge. It was really nice and simple, the directions didnt seen as complicated as i thought they would. The kids liked it i didnt taste any though, it looked too rich and swe3t for me. While we were waiting for the fudge to cool down, the kids and i did an craft proj. Well originally i was going to have them make a frame like i did. Then i coudlnt find the frames and some kids already done a frame from yesterday.I ended up finding these "tag people" theyre like decorable paper chain dolls. Thas what they look like paper chain dolls. So thas wha the kids made, they got to decorate it the way they wanted. I couldnt sit and watch them, so i made two of my own. I made boss lady and kuya tag persons! haha i decorated it w/fabric and construction paper. haah it was fun!! i wish i had more time to work on it, so i couldve made them neater.

Went home for a little bit, our realtives from out of state came in @ like 10am this morning. We ate dinner together and then i was off again to SRE. yay! i got to pray the rosary w/another new person today! El huego and i prayed the rosary before class tonite, lifting it up for our class. I think imma make point to do that err tues. and thurs Class went well i think, i went into detail bout the 4 different marks of the church. I defined each one and explained to them their significant meaning to us. Achie really made some good points bout being the true church. Participation was nice, a lot of them were asking questions and stuff like that. I saw denise tonite! i havent seen hurr in forever. We were talking bout our old jobs and stuff like that. Its great how God has a plan in errthang, we juss wait to see unfold right before our eyes. Which is something that happened to both denise and i. So God has a plan for errone and errthang, juss always gotta remind ourselves that.

Strider, el huego, and achie came up w/this theory well you know how we have so many different "cards." We got the emo card, the friendship card, the GOD card, the attack card etc etc. Anyway i said its funny cuz when we throw out these cards @ people its like pokemon or yu gi oh. haha "God card i choose you!" haha or "Emo card attack mode!" Since my God card whiped out your emo card, you only have 400 points left. hahaha thas funny its like picking and choosing the best ones to fit that situation.

I got to visit boss lady and kuya today after SRe. i gave them their dolls, boss lady wants to put them in her scrapbook. Wow my eyes are getting heavy right now. Boss ladys scrap is really, really nice, you should see it next time. She put in a lot of time and effort into the book, thas why its soo nice. Boss layd and kuya are so cute together, God knew they would be perfect for each other. im very grateful to have them as part of my life! When we live together, imma draw a picture of us 3 and our dog charrrrlie and then boss lady will smile and kuya will say "Good job hijo" and then put up the picture i made on the fridge! hahaha Our fridger will have all these pictures i would draw in class. hahaha Then well all cook mac & cheese together and then well go shopping together. Kuya will teach me how to drive stick, while boss lady will teach me how to umm i dont kno gardeN? hahaha When i go to bed, imma have one of those things they have above a babies crib. ohH! a mobile! hahah imma have a solor system mobile hanging above my bed. hahaha Then boss lady will turn on my nite light, so i wont get skurred! hahaha

I think the quote above really describes our uprm bond together. Thas how i totally feel bout them, i can share my innermost thoughts and know i can count on them to be trusted. Theyre reliable friends that are always there to pick me up. They dont judge me or criticize me when i cant retarted or stupid. They laugh w/me, cry w/me, hope w/me, most of all they are there for me. Dependable and trustworty, two valuable traits of my brothers in uprm. Theyre more then juss people i can count on. Where would i be w/o them in my life. Praise God for each and errone of them.

I must go to sleep now before i end up falling alseep typing this blog entry up. Well to show how tired i was, i couldnt even think clearly. haha Anthony was probably thinking, dude this guy cant think straight tonite or something! haha Check it:

FusionBoy3: BIG FISH
FusionBoy3: how art thou brotha
JPFish187: wha up !
JPFish187: im great
FusionBoy3: woohoo
FusionBoy3: good stuffers
JPFish187: bout yourself
JPFish187: how was yoru day
FusionBoy3: i'm chipper
FusionBoy3: it was a blessed day
JPFish187: hjahah
FusionBoy3: kids in confirmation were a treat
JPFish187: i like your vocab
FusionBoy3: i'm all doritoes
JPFish187: thas cool
JPFish187: hahah
FusionBoy3: hehe
JPFish187: my class went well tonite too
FusionBoy3: praise God
FusionBoy3: =)
FusionBoy3: one of my students sang to me hahaha
FusionBoy3: it was sweet
JPFish187: awwww
JPFish187: thas tight
FusionBoy3: hehe
JPFish187: nice entry on your dead journal
JPFish187: ha
FusionBoy3: it was cool
JPFish187: thanks for tagging on my blog
JPFish187: haha
FusionBoy3: i didn't know my kids thought i was cool
FusionBoy3: lol
FusionBoy3: np
JPFish187: haha
FusionBoy3: "dead" journal?
JPFish187: i meant live
JPFish187: haha
JPFish187: my bad
JPFish187: long day
JPFish187: haha
FusionBoy3: lol
FusionBoy3: haha its all good
FusionBoy3: which one hehe
JPFish187: haha live
FusionBoy3: hehe which one was the niec entry
JPFish187: your live journal
JPFish187: haha
FusionBoy3: lol
FusionBoy3: hahah
FusionBoy3: ya...
FusionBoy3: the whole thing?
FusionBoy3: hehe =)
JPFish187: yeah it was nice tough
JPFish187: err toch
JPFish187: haha
FusionBoy3: thanks
JPFish187: err touch
JPFish187: w/the ims convos
FusionBoy3: haha oh yayer
FusionBoy3: u know
FusionBoy3: u had awesome quotes onurs
JPFish187: oh thanks
FusionBoy3: hehe
FusionBoy3: "coolnessity"
JPFish187: haha
JPFish187: right on
JPFish187: wha else did you do todau
FusionBoy3: i ditched class again tho
JPFish187: haha i wanted to do that today too
FusionBoy3: hehe
FusionBoy3: and thats bout it
JPFish187: but then it was my friends birfday she was going to class and she said go to class for me
FusionBoy3: i wrote super jornals
FusionBoy3: i c i c
JPFish187: super journals?
FusionBoy3: hehe i LJed like 7 times today
JPFish187: hahahahaha
JPFish187: wow
JPFish187: you mustve had a lot to say
JPFish187: hahaa
FusionBoy3: hehe
FusionBoy3: kinda sorta
FusionBoy3: how bout u
FusionBoy3: didja do u daily
JPFish187: im in the process of doing mine now...haha i ate too much like 20 min ago
FusionBoy3: lol
FusionBoy3: what was the menu
JPFish187: umm mocla salsa its like albertos but better
JPFish187: i had carne fries
FusionBoy3: oh wow
FusionBoy3: there you go
JPFish187: ah i couldnt event finish half of it
FusionBoy3: hehe train for the team husky triathlon
JPFish187: hahahhaha
JPFish187: actually i think imma join 24 hr fitnes
JPFish187: s
FusionBoy3: coolnessity
FusionBoy3: charisse works for LA fitness
JPFish187: oh yeah she told me bout that
JPFish187: our servant leader works @ ballys fitness
FusionBoy3: ya?
FusionBoy3: maurice?
JPFish187: oh naw
FusionBoy3: lol
JPFish187: hahaha
FusionBoy3: i just said that cuz he's BUFFSKY
FusionBoy3: lol
JPFish187: hahahahaha
JPFish187: buffsky
JPFish187: hahaha
FusionBoy3: "ya, i said it!"
FusionBoy3: hehe
JPFish187: hes tyson buffsky
FusionBoy3: yups
JPFish187: whas your plans for later today
FusionBoy3: haha
FusionBoy3: movies with the fellas!
FusionBoy3: lol
JPFish187: forreal
JPFish187: thas tightr
JPFish187: hahaa
JPFish187: wha you gonna watch
FusionBoy3: hopefully daredevil
JPFish187: oh d0pe!
JPFish187: that looks like a cool movie
JPFish187: i wanna see that too
FusionBoy3: hehe
FusionBoy3: hey bro imma go to bed gnite and GOD BLESS
JPFish187: alright man God bless!

Well since it is valentines day...haha thought i find a lyric that fits the occasion...more less a song! this song goes out to that special girly girl out there! hahah that was corny again! haha oh wait btw boss lady, i think i wanna do 24hr fitness now. forreal cuz its like "now thas fried chicken, curry chicken damn im getting fat..."

"There’s not a star in the sky, that could equal to the sparkle in your eye. This heart is only one way, to let you know jusat how I feel...Will you be my valentine girl, And I gave you my heart forever. Be my valentine girl, And I won’t let you go, no never. All of the flowers that there, could never take the place of being there. Although we only just met, you’re everything to me. Be my valentine Girl, I need you, I want you I want you in my world, valentine..." anyone remember the name of that song and the artist of it? if so let me know and win a prize! hahaha im done...im out God bless

hApPy VaLeNtiNes dAy errone!!!

"If I could reach up and hold a star for every time you made me smile, the entire evening sky would be in the palm of my hand."

im racing this really cool guy, anthony from carson right now, hes writing in his live journal like a blog. Carson does the whole "live journal thing" while i told him Servant;s Heart does the whole "blog thingy" haha We were talking bout our prayer communties and he added this bout Servant;s Heart. Praise God!
anthonynezzy: i really appreciate SH, to see young adults maintaining their spirituality
Then he wanted to race me w/our online journal entries for tonite. Of course i couldnt say no to the guy, haha check it:
anthonezzy: so wats on tap for u right now sir
JPFish187: not much going on bout yourself
JPFish187: bout to write in my blooooggggggggg
anthoneezy: haha same here
anthonezzy: i'll race you
anthonezzy: lol
JPFish187: haha okay!
I ended up winning though suprisingly knowing that it takes me a long time to write my blogs. i have to use my critical thinking skills when making my entries, thinking bout errthang that i did today and my feelings right at that moment.

Anyway, my day was pretty cool, it was raining hard oh man!! i hate driving when it rains hard its kinda skurry. The rain is nice though like i said i like listening to it in bed. Knowing the fact you can sleep in and juss ahhh relax! haha i have realtives coming frrom out of state tomorrow morning. Theyre gonna be hurr for one week, that be interesting. My grandma(on my dad's side) she always use to say, "Fish and relatives begin to stink after a couple of days." hoopefully you understood the analogie she was giving. haha i always use to laugh when she said that. So i didnt do the two things i had to do today, its okay though.

I got ot have lunch w/kuya today! i was kinda feelin for the chinese buffet so we went there to eat. i loove hanging out w/kuya he's one of the greatest big ruff neck brothas (jk bout the ruff neck part) that i eva had! wooo haha. He bought this d0pe puma warm up jacket today! its d0pe, after lunch we walked around the mall and we saw this deal @ pac sun. "Buy 2 things, and receieve a free shirt." So he saw these things he wanted and i guess he ended up getting them. i like the puma warm up its tight, i guess imma have ot borrow it from him someday. hahaha after i get puma shoes though, i have to make sure it matches. Im anal like that when it comes to certain things. For example if im wearing a nike jakcet then i have to have nike shoes on. I cant be wearing like addidas or something else cuz it doesnt match. hahah

Work was cool, kinda kick back i guess you could say. When i came in i saw mike there, i was like whoa! what are you doing hurr? i guess him and lyn lyn went to lunch so he was helping her make some fliers for her class. She's gonna teach polynesian dancing for kids! that'll be cool, i hope she gets a lot of kids in her class. Then she can teach them to do the figure 8! hahaha figure 8 is tight! haha So yeah its coo how my boss really kick back w/other peopel coming to help us out. At other places theyre very anal bout who they let in and what not. For my arts & crafts class today, the kids made these valentine frames. Woo what a mess it turned out to be. They had fun though making it. they were able to put their picture in it too, so its all ready to juss wrap and give. I made a sample pattern so they could see what it looks like. its sooooo corny though! hahahahaa ask lyn lyn! hahaha though i must admit looking @ it did put a big smile a on my face! Ü <~ like that! haha

CIS class was alright, i guess we moved classrooms. Kuya was funny in class, he was snacking on some spinanch. i cant eat it like that plain like he does, I have to eat it cooked. i like the way my momma makes it! The lecture was alright, i guess it wasnt has bad as last week. meaning the instructor didnt go off on as many tanjents as he usually does. We have a big hw assignment to do as well as a quiz next week. Kuya and i are going to skool on fri to work on it. he let us out early like a half hour early tonite, which was nice. As i went home kuya went to his other home 24 hr fitness to get all buff like tyson and tyrese! hahahaha it was d0pe cuz when we were helping tito jess move, i got kuyas back and he carried me up the stairs, he kinda ran up! hahaha man i guess i dont weigh that much, though ever since i started kickin it w/SH i have gained a lot of weight. haha it was funny kuya made friends in class tonite, i didnt though. haha kuya also drew this cool picture of our family! haha he drew this nice small little house and inside there was him and boss lady and then there was a picture of me! haha awwww kuya you forgot our dog fido though! hahaha

Its coo cuz this whole week so far ive been able to pray the rosary w/someone from the community. I think each nite has been a different person too so far. let me recap for a min. sun. it was beyonce, mon. boss lady, tues. jeanne and tonite fred! woooo gail showed me this website called the "confraternity" i cant really explain it. Though im interested in joining, i gotta research it some more though. Speaking of Gail i got to talk to her online tonite! she's really fun to talk to and i got to learn more bout her too! Im telling you, AOl brings people together! hahaha iit was cool tonite cuz i got to talk to people from carson and oxnard online.

Well the two pics you see above is, el huego and jennif, great people who love and serve the Lord. i really admire el huego cuz hes in the process of discerning to be a priest. Which is totally cool or coolnessity as anthony says. Praise God for all the people who are so open and discerning the religious life. its a hard decision to make and its not easy at all i can imagine. There are other people who are in the process of discernment too, jeanne and beyonce. now that i think bout, a thought came into mind. A good brother of mine, reirich would make an excellent priest i think. let us continue to pray for all those who are considering the religious life.
"Dear Lord, i ask that you send down a special blessing for all those who are considering a religous vocation right now. May you guide them through their discernment and help them decide what You need them to do. Please Help them be open to it, if you are calling them O Lord. Let them openly greet You at the door when you knock. All this i pray through our Lord who lives and reigns with our Father in heaven and forever and forever." AMen

Jennif. is such an inspiring person, she helps keep me moving too! haha her energy flows through my body and helps me keep my body movin! haha Shes a very generous sister who goes all out not only for our community but for our Lord as well. man jennif. is also so creative when it comes to projects and putting things together. I cant wait till we can both come together and go dance together out of "club mind." haha i think wed be up all nite if that was the case. I'll never forget that nite(flashback start hurr) it was a fri. nite and i had to get some pens for the mission trip reflection i was doing. So i asked her if she could take me to my house. Well on the way there we alsso had to stop by the 99 cents store for some other supplies. In the car though oh man it was d0pe! the both of us were feelin the music and all up in our clubs juss dancing like no other. hahaha shes so fun to be around! her energy reminds me of boss lady!

I like that quote cuz man if that was the case, well id have bags full of stars right now. Everytime im out w/the people i love or even if im talking to online im smiling!

I smile when im praying cuz i know Jesus is right there sitting next to me.

I smile when at prayer meeting cuz i see heavens looking down at us.

I smile when im w/my community, cuz i see God in each person.

I smile when im online writing in my blog cuz i get to recap and relive the day.

I smile when im @ work cuz i enjoy what i do each day.

I smile when im w/kuya or boss lady or even w/bof cuz theyre so special to me.

I smile when im @ the soratorio house cuz theyre house is so full of warm love.

I smile when im in my car, inside club mind cuz im dancing w/jennif at the same time.

I smile when im praying the rosary w/another person cuz Jesus said when two or three people are praying together he is w/us.

I smile when i get to talk to beyonce, cuz she makes brings joy to my puso.

I smile when i get to see the bebes lelilani, elijiah & ahulana cuz i love playing w/them.

I smile when i talk to strider cuz he helps make me laugh, even when i may be having a bad day

And I especially smile cuz i know God loves me!


"Sometimes I wonder if I am in your heart. Even though I don't live there yet. I'm afraid it'll be cold and dark. I'm lost in emotion.Telling you things you really shouldn't know I'm lost in emotion. Am I a fool, at least my friends think so Que sera sera..." thas lyric is dedicated to you beyonce! hahah im done...im out God bless!

"The best part of life is when your family becomes your friends, and your friends become your family..."

I think its great to know i have 4 different families! haha woo thas a lot, actually more less 5, even though i dont see 4 & 5 a lot. Youre probably reading this thinking, 5 different families? geez how can one have so many at one time. its easy, i say! Well my first family, obviously in my own imediate family. Then my second family would be my Servant's heart community, theyre my other fam bam tribe cuz i spend so much time with them. My third family woo im yawning im getting tired! haha anyway, my third one is kuya & boss lady, they adopted me! hahahaha Then my fourth, would be my other community in carson that i go to errone so often. Its great cuz they invite me when they do things and stuff. Theyre very hospitable to me, thas why i enjoy going there so much. Then my fifth family, would probably my ol skool crew that i dont really talk to that much anymore. So there you have it 5 different families.

Ahh yes, another great picture! two wonderful inspiring people in my life, two people that have also made a impact on my life. Well i'll start w/beyonce say, since her picture is first. I remember meeting her back @ youth alpha(cut to mind flash back again). She gave a talk w/boss lady, i forgot what it was about though. Shes another person whom ive been able to become really close to these past couple months. Its cool cuz whenever i talk to her, i feel so motivated after. She is also such a valuable member to our community. LAst weekend was d0pe cuz i got to dance w/beyonce!! We were talking bout how we like dancing to like 80's freestyle! wooo! haha Beyonce helps me understand things in different perspectives. Her faith is so strong, i can only hope one day to be as strong as her. Im truly grateful for the bonding experience we shared during winter break. She is my big sista as for i am her sunflower! Ü

Now this strong, buff, uPrM ruFf ryda is the one and only frreeeed! I think december was all bout bonding and getting to know my fellow brothers and sisters on a more individual level. I love how aaragon is very organized w/himself. He's a great guy w/a strong muscles and a strong puso! Hes the one person i can come to when i have questions bout my faith. He gives it to you "as is," he doesnt make things difficult or try to go around to avoid it. Aaragon truly has a heart of gold, always there ready to lend a helping hand when needed. Not only that, right when you think youre falling, there's aaragon right behind you holding you back up. I give this guy props for all that he is, talented muscian/singing artist, master apologetics, comp. knowledgeable w/hTml stuff. So compassionate in all that he does, thas why i look up to this guy! Hes like a perfect handy man! I know fo sho whatever girl picks up this lucky catch, will surely be lucky and i do mean lucky!

Dang you knwo wha happened this morning? Well last nite i went out w/kuya and i didnt know it was going to rain today. Anyway, i didnt roll up my window all the way last nite, so my mom wakes up @ 7am telling me i need to roll up my window cuz its raining. I was like oh man! i got up, got towels and half of the drivers seat was wet! i had towels there drying it for most of the day. I made sure tonite, that my windows were rolled up.

Today was one of those lazy days cuz of the rain. I didnt wanna do anything, i woke up this morning and to check my mail. It was weird cuz kuya wasnt online and usually errmorning i always talk to him before i go to skool. i didnt today so it threw off my whole day! haha jk not really, i was able to find parking early again praise God! So i had talked to old friend to kill some time before class. Class was alright, tomorrow is my long day. I have to finish reading the second half in the comp. book or else i wll get in trouble by kuya. I cant have that happening now, i dont need kuya to ground me! haha take my cell phone away or the keys to my car away! haha

I totally forgot to wear my staff shirt for work, so i had to keep my sweater on all the day to so they dont know i forgot. hahaha work was alright, i had to make our easter egg-hunt flyer like several times. My boss wanted it to be real springy/eastery looking. I did the lay out then i asked my boss to help and he pretty much took it over that was nice! haha i had my other boss and the clerk in the office looking at all my pics. It was funny cuz my other boss saw the winter formal pic and said "oh she's cute" then he saw babyvees pic and he goes "oh shes cute too." Then the clerk was like oh yeah thas ex. i was busting up and i was like noo she was juss a friend i went to her prom with. Oh man theyre funny @ work. The kids watched that movie "Spirit" the one bout the horse. I saw the last 30 min. of the movie, its looks pretty good though i could tell there were many sad parts in the movie.

Went home for a while after work and juss kinda chilled and did whatever. Class was alright tonite, i was going to do a mediation w/them but i forgot the CD @ prayer meeting. Then i coudlnt find it when it was time, so i was like ahhh. i didnt really prepare a back up lesson, so i gave them a lecture instead. Its juss upseting when they dont turn in their hw to me. I dont give him anything big or complicated to do. The only homework i really only give them is to fill out a mass card, then turn it in on tues. They make it seem like its such a big chore to them. Then sometimes ill add a little extra to it. last weeks hw was the mass card and they were suppose to go to the lifeteen.org website. They were to email their expecations before going to the website and what they saw after they explored it. Out of 19 kids, i onyl got 2 responses and for mass cards like only 3 of them turn them in. I told them im not hrur to play games, and by May if i feel theyre not ready to move on to dedicate themselves to make their confirmation im not gonig to pass them. I told them they ahve to meet me halfway cuz right not theyre not putting the effort i need them to. Hopefully they'll get something out of that talk.

After prayer meeting we all went to mcdonalds to chillllll. Before that though, babyvee asked me to be her valentine! awwwww i said okay ill be your valentine, imma bake her valentine cookies w/the hearts in the middle! hahaha kuya, el huego, babyvee, prayer buddy and i played DDR. haha it took 4 us to play that game! haha boss lady wanted more nuggets tonite, so i said okay hurr so i prented to throw it up back into the box. hahaahah it was funny, boss lady was laughing. Errday i spend w/my familes is a not only a privelege, but also a blessing. i love them all so much!

it was coo today, cuz i was able to pray the rosay 3 different times using 3 different mysteries. I did on the way to work this afternoon, lifting it up for kuya's test. Then i prayed it w/my class tonite, lifting it up for them and their special intentions. Then i prayed it tonite, w/jeanne lifting it up for our prayer buddies, the community, the core and the growth seminar. Rosary phone is nice, cuz i pray the rosay before i go to sleep. Sometimes i end up getting too tired, i fall asleep off and on trying to pray it. SO it helps err now and then to pray it w/someone else together.

Well its getting late, so that means i muss go to sleep and rest my body! haha man i still gotta find my checkbook, i dont know where i put it! I wonder if its in my car, i should check in there tomorrow. ahhh this rain makes me juss wanna sleep all day. I love listening to the rain while laying in bed! so relaxing, too bad my spa isnt up working...now thas relaxing!!

"If you leave me now girl, after all the things weve been through. And would you come back to me? i think you should know that ill be loving you..." you guys remember that song? its old its 80's freestyle, if you do hit me up on the tag. The person who gets receives a prize!! wooo! im done...im out God bless!

"Sometimes in life, you find a special friend. Someone who changes your life just by being a part of it. Someone who makes you laugh until you can't stop. Someone who makes you believe that there really is good in the world. Someone who convinces you that there really is an unlocked door just waiting for you to open it. This is forever friendship. When you're down and the world seems dark and empty, your forever friend lifts you up in spirit and makes that dark and empty world suddenly seem bright and full. Your forever friend gets you through the hard times, the sad times and the confused times. If you turn and walk away, your forever friend follows. If you lose your way, your forever friend guides you and cheers you on. Your forever friend holds your hand and tells you that everything is going to be okay. And if you find such a friend, you feel happy and complete because you need not worry. You have a forever friend, and forever has no end."

haha that quote is paragraph in itself...anyway mad props going out to strider first off for editing, and putting up this picture fo me. Thanks mucho my friend, and if you would like to borrow my axe sometimes, let me know, i dont mind. It seems to me that jaygolas is being shesity w/the bow and arrow right now, maybe we can switch weapons instead. You know, i can borrow your sword while you borrow my axe. Wha you think huh? sometimes we need to use a variety of things, cuz if you loose your sword and if you find an axe, you may not be able to know how to use it. Anyway, strider my axe is there if you need to borrow it! haha

awwwwwwwww im feelin this picture! i really, really like that combo. cuz i have a solo pic w/my boss lady and a solo pic w/my kuya and we have our family portrait! hahahah i think we need to take one @ sears or something hahaha jk!!!! today was a nice day, too bad i didnt have the day off like all the skools did, that wouldve been tight. I juss realized kuya wont be online tomorrow morning, so its gonna throw off my whole morning schedule! agh wha am i gonna do! hahaha jk

I better say this now before i end up forgetting later on. I praise God that i can see my grandparents whenever i want. Its great that they live only around the corner from me. I felt bad yesterday cuz i went to my grandmas to borrow tabascco sauce and my grandma was asking me where ive been and stuff. I told ive been busy w/work/church the usual stuff. Anyway, she told me she was sad cuz she has so many grandchildren, yet none of them really come to visit her. its true though, i really need to make more time to go and visit them cuz im sure it gets lonely. I praise God that hes blessed them w/a new day to look foward to. Especially w/my grandpa, hes like 96 and he's strong. God is truly looking out for them. I was talking to my cousin bout this too and he realized the same thing. As much as i hate to think bout it, but who knows when their time may end. No one does, except God, therefore its up to us to make an effort to make errday they have a blessing. I can only pray that hopefully my other cousins will reach common sense too.

OKay, skool was aiight, actually it was boring. I had to redo my math review hw that i turned in last thurs. apparently i had done the wrong page for hw, so hes giving me a chance to redo it. During the break i was in the comp. lab checking my blog and thsi girl next to me was trying to sell her cell phone to her friend. So she was online checking her bill, and she told her friend it was like $1000. Well me being "curious" i had to see for myself, so i kinda turned my head to look @ her monitor and dangggggggggggggggggggg she wasnt kidding. $1000 for a cell phone bill, she had to have her friend explain it to her, i take it she didnt know what her plan was. i was juss like whoa!! thas so high, thas why we have house phones to talk on, or get a bigger plan or something. BOss lady was right, i did put the whole cell phone in my blog! haha ANyway before class i ran into john or jr or one of the two. We were talking for a while cuz i had time to kill before class. Hes a cool cat, he told me how he looks foward to prayer meeting errtues. I was able to get to know him better and errthang, so that was fun. In phil i was falling asleep, lecture was boring i didnt even pay attention. I hate though when a roll sheet is getting passed up and down the rows and then instead keeping going in the oder it should be, it gets sent to the next row over. Then it messes up the whole flow of things and it takes forever for your turn to get the role sheet. That happened today in class, these two girls had the role sheet forever. i was getting irritated cuz someone mustve passed it to them or they mustve asked for it.

Work was alright, nothing special i guess. My boss had asked me wha happend on thurs. w/the whole car situation. I explained it to him and he was cool with it. I like how he doesnt scold me when something goes wrong. He talks to me and asks me what went on and how he could help me to correct the problem. Before i use to get yelled at over the phone and wha not. boooo that! I notcied lyn lyn had added some stuff on her desk today. I redid my little cork board above my desk after my class. I kinda made it a collage of pics, most of them are from the mission trip and last fri. It looks more colorful now, im feelin it!

i was feeling lazy after work, i wasnt as quite as productive as boss lady was. I was going to do my math hw, but then i decided not to cuz i was searching for my check book. I dont know where its at, man i gotta find that! i had a nice little convo w/ryan tonite on the phone. i havent talked to the guy in forever, so i had to check up on him to see whas going on w/him. Please keep him in your prayers that God continues to strengthen him through his trials. Im glad were still close, despite the fact we dont talk to each other as much we use to. Before we use to talk to each other all the time online and wed go out a lot on the weekends.

After that convo, kuya dropped by and him and i went to jollibees to chill. I wasnt planning on eating anything but watching him eat, while staring @ the teriyaki bowl poster they had made me hungry. So i did end up eating dinner there. We had a nice long discussion bout our families and some of the similarities we have w/each other families. Speaking of the guy, please pray for him also for he is taking the nortary exam tomorrow. I can talk to him for hours and probably never get tired of talking to him.

im glad God has allowed me to be open and have personal relationships w/a lot of different people in the community and other people from different communities. I think ive said this before, but i would feel perfectly comfortable if i happen to be stuck in a room w/anyone in Sh or outside of Sh. I guess i dont feel shy or timid where i have to hide and not be talkative. maybe its juss cuz i talk too much hahaha. Whatever it is, im glad i can get along w/errone and anyone.

I think tonite was all bout spending quality time w/people one on one. Whether it was phone convos. in person or online convos. whatever tehy were it was really nice. I got to talk to ryan on the phone, got to chill w/kuya, then i got to pray the rosary w/boss lady and have a great long convo. w/her on the phone afterwards. She's so fun to talk to, i love it when i get to talk to her. She told me people who read my blog probably might be getting sick of hearing the same people over and over again. haha they probably think i dont have any other friends, except for the people who i mention in my blog on a daily basis. Its okay though, its my blog so ill put however many times i want to how much i love "the family", beyonce, strider, el huego, prayer buddy, jennif, prayer buddy or whoever else i mention on hurr on a daily basis. i realized that i could be left w/only maybe these people and others in my life as my friends and still manage to be happy and content.
Now im talking to strider online bout upRm's one year anniversary coming up! woooo thas exciting, were gonna go all out on that one! forreal forreal!

i read this that was convicting for me tonite, so i thought id share it w/yall. majority of you who read this will probably be recieving it in your mail, but its cool.

“The law of the LORD is perfect, refreshing the soul. The decree of the LORD is trustworthy, giving wisdom to the simple.” – Psalms 19:8


SITUATION EXPLAINED
Do you ever get overwhelmed or stressed out? Do you let it effect your attitude? I try not to, but I’ll be honest…


SOLUTION OFFERED
Oh, if only…

If I could start the day excited at the first moment that I saw other people…
If I was cheerful every time someone walked into the room…
If I was really, sincerely grateful for each and every meal…
If I was more understanding when my loved ones were too busy for me…
If I could always be instantly forgiving when people got mad at me…
If I would take others' anger or criticism without resentment…
If I could find complete happiness (just) in sleeping…
If I could find more pleasure when riding in my car…

If I could do all of these things…
I’d be almost as good as my DOGs.
Some days I wonder if my dogs aren’t more Christian than I am.

Now, it’s obvious that a dog’s life is far simpler than a human’s life, but that is not to say that I cannot learn from these furry “simple ones” on how to simplify my own life.

The law of the Lord that today’s verse is speaking about was uplifted and perfected through Jesus Christ. Christ’s law is one rooted in love and founded on the golden rule. Christ’s law is one that affirms and challenges us, calling all of us to greater patience, thankfulness, peace and simplicity.

Sometimes the best and wisest thing we can do in our lives and, definitely in our faith walks, is just to SIMPLIFY. The best way to do that is to take a look at ourselves, see what areas of our life are out of control and then, through prayer, put them into perspective, seeing those areas not just through our own point of view, put through the point of view of our Lord.

While dogs are great, it is Christ who is truly “man’s best friend”. He is that SIMPLE…and He wants us to be, as well.

Okay thas it for today, i know, i know it was a long entry. So youre eyes are probably getting blurred from reading all this text. Thanks to those who make a positive impact in my life, you guys are great! Ü

"I’ll be your cloud up in the sky, I’ll be your shoulder when you cry, I hear your voices when you call me, I am your angel..." im done...im out God bless!

"Friends are friends forever, if the Lord is the Lord of them. And a friend will not say never, cause the welcome will not end. Though it's hard to let you go, In the Father's hands I know, That a lifetime's not too long... to live as friends." -Michael W Smith

I like this quote a lot! It's actually a song that he wrote, and just reflecting on this weekend and hanging out with errone made me think how i'm blessed. I was juss thinkin' how its going to be UPRM's anniversary, and how close i've gotten with the guys! Praise God for peeps like them, especially Kuya since he takes care of me all the time. NO MORE KUYA! I SAID QUIT TELLING ME WHAT TO DO hahaha jk. No I love how it talks about the Lord being the Lord of the friendship. that's tight because i've learned so much from meeting peeps and getting to know them more. so much inspiraton! That's what you call a friend!

So i was looking through my emails from like forevever long ago, and i happen to stumble upon the Alex Jones email. So when i saw it i was thinking that was the day that upper room got started. Then i was thinking we should go celebrate since it's gonna fall on Feb. 16, this sunday!! woo hoo!! go UPRM, it's yo birfday, were gonna paatee lik it's you birfday hahaha. yea, so i thought we celebrate and have some event like, i dunno, mass, then go to hometown buffet and so i can mack on HB chick haha. nah, i think i better just wait for mulan. Thinking back, I'm glad i got to know the boys more. They've helped me grown a lot, and I'm just glad that they always there for me. It's nice to see them helping each other out when times are stuff. Truly these are real men of God.

I studied yesterday for my classes. Man kuya gots me on check now, makin' sure i do my studying. AGH the pressure!! haha. naw but it's kool cuz i know i should study for my class and "better myself" right kuya? I'm still sore from the moving of books that we did for Tito Jess. i guess that's what they mean by no pain no gain! watch i'm gonna be massive like el huego and fred. Then i can be the ever powerful Hi-JOE hahaha.

argh! I was so mad this morning because i woke up and I was going to get some breakfast. so when I opened my refrigirator, i was gonna get some orange juice and there was none. I was like argh! So i asked my mom how come we don't have orange juice, and she was all oh i didn't get to go with your sister to the market yesterday. That sucks! I guess i'm gonna have to go get me some before i go to school this morning.

I talked to boss lady online last nite. she's dope! it's really kool how i have someone i can talk to bout anythin, and she's there to listen to me. Kuya is really lucky haha. We were talking about relationships and other things. But it's nice to know that I have somone who give me advise on things. Wow, i can't wait till i move in with the family! haha.

random thought, so before I was going to the sol on saturday, kuya mentioned that i could borrow his camera. I said i was going to call him, but it ended up i didn't and that sucks cuz i wanted to use it! *sigh oh well, it's k, cuz if i would have broken it, that would have been skurry haha.

well there you have it! i guess that's it for now since i have to be in class in a few. I was bored and i just wanted to kill time haha.

"All I need in this life of sin, is me and my girlfriend, me and my girlfriend!" haha i'm done. . . i'm outs God bless! One!

oh by the way. . . . this blog was written by yours truly kuya! haha since you wrote fro my blog and sounded like me, i figure i return the favor!! Hijo u got one now baybee!!!!! =) Have a good day everone!!!!

i dont like the way my hair looks in that pic. it looks like i got a gerry curl going on or something, hanging down on the side. i guess my hair was flopping side to side as i was groooooooooving from side to side hahaha. Anyway, the picture you see above is a picture of bess and i. awww haha yah right, this purdy lady is an SOLer whom i had the pleasure of meeting last summer @ our LSS. Then i got to know her more @ the dinner @ applebees that nite. ah yes, i clearly remember that nite(cut to the mind flash back hurr.) it was a clear warm sunday evening. The SH core has juss finished putting on their first youth/young adult life in the spirit seminiar. We all had decided to fellowship and chill @ this restaraunt called applebees in like la habra or something. hahah imma stop hurr i wasnt going to actually write bout errthang that happened that nite, oh man that would take forever! haha though i will say this, that nite definiently made me smile! ::sigh:: that was dramatic...hahaha

Well my day consisted of resting like i stated in my entry yesterday. I think my headache finally went away. i had a small headache ever since this afternoon. i got to sleep in today, it felt nice. i love being able to sleep in, its juss the best. i rememeber last spring semester, oh man my schedule was the worst. well juss on tues. and thurs. it would be. Check it, i would work from 6am-9am, which meant get up @ 515am to get ready for work. After work then go to skool from 930 till 2pm. i had the afternoon off though for work, so it was nice. Though sometimes i would have to come back and work. I remember the spring semester before that, i would work on wed. from 6am-10am, then skool from 1030-2pm, then come back to work from 2pm-6pm, then go straight to skool from 630pm-10pm. Man those were the most hardest times, but Praise God that i was able to get through them. I thinK God has truly blessed me w/a lot of energy to keep awake, even when i have the longest, most hardest, tiring days.

I finally was able to pick up my formal pics. today @ carson. Dang, St. Phiomena mass' are jam packed! Praise God though, its like errone coming out after a concert or bball game. The pics looked pretty d0pe, im feeling them. My parents and sister didnt really understand the concept of the two different pics. though. oh well, i like them and she likes them thas all that matters. Now i ahve something else to add to my desk tomorrow afternoon @ work! wooo! i love looking @ the pictures on my desk, each one i look it brings back memories of that occassion. awww haha When i get them scanned imma have to post them on hurr.

After carson i worked on redoing my AOL homepage. Each time i attempted to work on it, something came up and i woudlnt get the chance to finish it. So i finally fished it today, cuz i had the chance too. come look it after you read my blog! http://hometown.aol.com/jpfish187/ i think the last time i updated it was like back in sept. or aug. or something like that. i actually changed a grip of pics and some of the quotes i had on there.

As i was telling boss lady and strider today online i was going through my journal and i happen to come across this stuff i printed out from a website. This girl wrote bout her thoughts on relationships and wha not. Well i was rereading her thoughts and they were really good. Only thing is there was one section i didnt print out, which sucks. I think when i had printed it out, my intentions was that, i only wanted the song lyrics that were posted above all the relationship stuff. so i thought maybe, it might still be there and maybe the girl didnt hasnt updated her site since then. Crazy thought i know, but some people build a webpage then quit working on it. haha So anyway, after reading her thoughts, i decided ill post them to help make my entry tonite longer. haha jk no, not to make it longer but juss food for thought, anyway hurr they are, these are her thougthts and opinions not mine.

Love for a liftetime
By jason P. fish hahaah jk!

Romantic love is probably the biggest lift in life. Its gives you a buzz cler to the bones and brigtens the landscape around you. Even in the dead of winter, you feel like the middle of spring. Trees seem greener, the flowers brighter, and tomorrow's history exam less threatening. But true love, if it is indeed true, is more than emotional rush. Good-time feelings ceom and go, but love endures only if its nurtured in an environment of trust, respect and sacrafice. Without trust, love erodes. Trust says: i will remove all the "No trespassing" signs from our relationship, not demand we spend every minute together, and give you the freedom God does-to return my love if you so choose. I will allow you to be yourself-at risk of knowing others maybe attracted to the very things that attracted me. Without respect, love withers. Respect says: i will honor your privacy, listen to your thoughts, learn from our differences, and treat your body like God does-us as the temple of the Holy Spirit. I wont try to mold you in my image; doing so would merely ensure one of us isnt needed.

So there you have it, the first two main points in love. Sacarice is the one i didnt get to. So then wha does sacrafice mean? Well when i first think of the word, the word times comes into mind. Being able to set aside time to spend w/each other. Whether its a full day, half day or juss a small portion, dedicating it to that person. Which means i would you gotta organize your time and priorities. you cant really act on impulse, cuz well that would suck. For example, if you already made plans to chill w/your significant other, yet your homies from the g funk era ask you to kick it w/you that day, that would suck to drop your plans w/your significant other. I think it means to be aware of errthang thats going in the both of your lives. PLan accordingly! I dont know i guess its not giving up a lot, cuz it doesnt have to be like that. I think the two people have to meet each other half way. They both gotta make sacarifices for each other. Anyway, thas my two cents for today! haha those are juss randumb thoughts, i dont know if they make sense or not. I havent been in a relationship, so im only going off of wha ive seen from other peoples.

My sister and my mom redecorated my bathroom today. Basically it now looks like the aquarium of the pacific in long beach! haha forreal! so if you go to my house and you use my bathroom, youll get to see the aquarium for free! haha I use to have black bathroom mats, well theyve been replaced by these bright blue ones now. I use to have plain white walls, well now i have fish tiles in the different areas of the bathroom. I use to have plain soap dish, now its a fish one. I use to have a shower/bath sliding door, now its a fish curtain. I use ot have plain window curtains, now theyre fish ones. I even have a fishbowl w/live fish inside the bathroom! hahah see i told you my bathrooms looks like aquarium of the pacific! haha

anyway, heres one more thought to ponder on for today. Its another thing i got off that girls website a while back. Again i didnt write this, she did and its called swe3t love.
Everyone's experienced their share of love...love lost, found, and lived. The power of love is one of the most amazing feelings that ever be felt. Love has the strength to make the "strongest of men go weak, and the weakest of a powerful man." As we live our experiences of love we we learn lessons...lessons of joy, romance, passion and sadness, and heartbreak. These moments bring out the life in us, revelaing deeper thoughts and feelings in our hearts that lead us to a point of expression that can never be explained. Thus begins the journey of love that is endured, lived, and can never die...

wow deep stuff huh! well i guess thas it for now, this whole relationship stuff fits in w/this month beings its valentines day. Enjoy! oh whew i was going to anotha website and i got skurred that i almost lost the entry! good thing i didnt thas was skurry!

"And the dearest love in all the world, is waiting somewhere for me...is waiting somewhere, somewhere for me..." im done, im out God bless!

"Friends in Christ are friends forever"

my legs are sore i think its a combo from the bullriding last nite, the moving of books and all the dancing. Its okay though, it was allllllll worth it. Man i dont even know where to start, i had to write blog before i went to sleep otherwise my nite woudlnt of been complete. Well you know sorta like saying a bedtime prayer, before you go nite nite. The ending of tonite was quite interesting, but ill get into that when i get to that part. In fact ill fill yall in w/a treat! haha

I woke up @ 815am and i went to kuyas to help tito jess move. When tito jess asked me last week to help him move books, i didnt think anything of it. i was in for a suprise when we got to the old office! Books like whoa!! not juss regular books, but like books that look like encyclopedias. We had to move books and book shelves from the old office in anaheim to the new one in La Habra. it took a while cuz there was only really 3 of us, strider, kuya and i. It was hard cuz there was no eleveator so we had to walk up and down the stairs carrying heavy boxes and tubs full of books. Although it was a hard task i didnt mind it, it was actually fun. After we went out to eat @ this chinese buffet place. I ate a grip there, i was so full i didnt think i would eat @ sol. Tito jess is a trip, he's so funny. He told me hes gonna apply to teach @ rosary, so he can find me a gf. hahahah strider has become inspired to write a book, its kinda like a sequel to a previous book thas already out. Though the title of the book will actually read what it means. haha i wonder if he's started on it yet. After we were all done moving, we had to return the uhaul we rented. So the ol man comes out to check it, and he complains cuz the gas isnt 3/4 full. We were like really close and he didnt juss give it to us. ahh he was anal about it! kinda like haha nm hahahaha kuya had to go gas it up otherwise there was like a fine or something.

i got home and i was like exhasuted from all the up and down and the lifting. I went online for a little bit then i got ready to go to meet up @ spV. I had to get film and chicken for the dance tonite. So we all went to the dance @ sol. We had mass first which was d0pe. A great way to start off the nite of course! Then we ate, i ended up eating again. Maan i probably weigh like 140lbs now, ive been meaning to go to cypress college these past couple fridays to go run miles. haha though it has happened yet. Went to the blessed sacarament for a little bit after dinner. Then wooooo it was time get my swirve on! it was so mcuh fun dancing. the djs were aiight, though they didnt play the ymca/macarena mix like most djs do. I was fine w/it, they did play like 80s music! haha it was funny cuz beyonce, lyn lyn and i were hoping theyd play something like that. Then when they did, beyonce got excited and her and i looked @ each other and laughed. hahaha they played cool it now, lost in emotion and something other ones. i like 80's music, especially freestyle ones cuz you can really dance to those. besides most of the songs today are sampled from the 80's or at least early 90's. Then they had a band there and it was funny cuz they started to play a song and it was suppose to be an action song. So lyn lyn and i were like itd be funny it was the who built the faith one. hahah turned out it was that one, the rock version! hahahahahahha
i dont know i juss couldnt stop dancing tonite, i was "shake shaking it" hahaha i met this really cool girl ria from SOL. i guess she knows me, but i dont remember her. haha shes tight cuz she was very hospitable w/us and stuff. I liked tonite a lot juss dancing the whole time. it was even more fun cuz i got to dance w/lyn lyn and beyonce! I wouldve like to dance w/this one person, but i guess i didnt get the courage to ask her when she was sitting down. ha oh well, next time i guess. ooh strider put me up on his shoulders during the rock group and it was feelin the crowd! haha now thas wha you can mega room! my camera dropped, i thought it was broken, but supposedly it looks like it was juss the battery. hopefully my pics arent exposed...if they are then awwwwwm that'll suck. man i feelin goin clubbin now! hahaha

after the dance we went to molcasalsa to get food and ate it @ the soratorios casa. i didnt buy anything except a drink, i started to eat lyn lyns carne, but it got too hot for me after i added the hot sause. ahha i couldnt finish it cuz my mouth was burning. one the way to the soratorios after dropping el huego off @ spV, i saw my cousins @ dennys on beach. THough i tried to wave to both of them, only one chose to wave and acknowledge me. The other one seemed on the stuck up side, she saw me but decided not to wave nor smile. oh well i dont care, i wasnt gonna let that get to me. Besides i have my other fam bam tribe anyway.

We had a interesting convo bout relationships tonite. Well actually it was more less wha i was looking for and what i wanted. el huego wants to go to the cerritos mall tomorrow to see this kappa that beyonce told me bout. hahaha i think imma rest tomorrow after i pick up my formal pics. So we talked bout wha i was looking for and age limits. i think lyn lyn asked me if the girl was 25, would i still go for her. then i said well i guess it kinda depends on wah she looks like. At first i didnt mean for it to come out like that, but then after beyonce came to join the convo. she made a point that you do gotta be attracted to that person. Which makes a lot sense i have to be physically attracted in order for me to like them. Though yet @ the same time, you could fall in love w/the persons inside before even meeting the outside. Then after meting the outside the looks juss comes naturally, or you learn to accept the physical outside, i dont know if that made sense.

Well i remember my senior year in hs, i had liked this one girl. We went to the same skool obviously, but it was crazy cuz out of the blue one day she IMS me while i was online. Befoe then i dont even remember seeing her @ skool. Anyway, we would talk for a while errday online. i think we even talked on the phone a couple times too. Point being i ended up falling for her personality cuz thas what i met first. Then when i saw her in person, it was like shes pretty. haha nothing happened between us, though i did tell her i liked her. She was d0pe bout it too cuz nothing changed between us, even to this day. She told me she appreciated my honesty and for keepin it real. Wha made even moer tight was she was only a soph. though a very wise and not to mention mature for her age.

jennif asked me a question the other day online. She asked would i go for someone who isnt catholic. Well i woudl like them to be catholic, i think they would. Honestly cuz i dont wanna end up debating bout religion w/her say we end up being together. Yeah i would like for her to convert, but if she doesnt want to, then thas hard too.
So then she asked say she was cathoilc yet not a praciticing one. i would stil go for her, though my intentions would be to change her into a praciticing one. It would be unfair to not go for her, if she had a d0pe personality and d0pe looks, yet not a praciticing one.

Well i thought i would add a little bit extra tonite, for those who are curious wha i would like then here it is: i dont know if these are complete thoughts, i think theyre juss very basic. haha

i like short hair, almost all the girls ive liked had short hair. like how mulan has it during the movie.

i perfer filipina, all the girls ive liked were that, so i guess mine as well stick w/it.

I want someone between the ages 17 youngest, 23 the oldest.

d0pe personality, outgoing like me yet also conservative.

listens to the same type of music or if we have similar music interests.

catholic, dont need to retype wha i said above.

someone who doesnt mind juss to chill and not have to go out all the time.

a open person, not picky bout errthang.

not girly girly, like always worried bout their nails getting down and hair and wah not.

well i guess it doesnt matter if theyre a little bit taller than me, id like at least the same height.

i think thas all i can think of, it might seem pretty vague, but its juss basic. well i must go for i am sleeeeepy. thanks for a wonderful day for all those who helped make my day! Ü Thank you Lord for another great day!

"Cmon shake shake it, cmon cmon shake shake it..." hahaha that song lyric is for you beyonce! haha im done...im out God bless!

"A friend is one who strengthens you with prayers, blesses you with love and encourages you with hope"

i like that quote! im feelin' it like how i was feelin; tonite @ the block! today was a great, though i was a little upset w/something that happened tonite, but i wont get into it. i liked today it was another i cant stop smiling type of day. i like that quote cuz it says a lot for my community and the group of friends i have now. Theyre there to strengthen you w/their prayers and the prayers of errone when we pray together. They bless you w/soo much love, the love we share for each other is almost the same love we have for our own families. Last but not least, they pick you up when you fall, they make sure errthang gets all better. Now those are qualities of a true friend!

I felt nice to sleep in an extra hour this morning, it was warm in cozy in my bed. I had turned on the furnance last nite, and i felt soo warm. For a while yesterday my body was shivering and i kinda got chills. So i woke up @ 10 and well lounged around the house till 12. As usual i was talking to kuya when i woke up. Thas like my usual daily routine when i wake up. haha i watched that cartoon on mtv called clone high. hahaha that show is funny! it makes you laugh

i got ready and then left to eat lunch @ westminister w/kuya and mizike. before i left though, my sister threw out the God card. i juss said okay whatever and i left the house. We ate @ don jose mexican restaruant for lunch. AS we ate, we had a nice discussion bout politics and govt. Then after we watched days of our lives and passions. Actually only i did, the other two were conversing on their own. After lunch i walked around the mall for a little bit and picked up jennifs birfday gift @ bath and body works. I got her this "pleasures" combo, sun ripped rasberry lotion, body cream and bubble bath. She could use all 3 if she wanted to, all in the same day!

After lunch, i picked up my book for Cis class so i could study for kuyas mini quiz. I had to read the first section of the chapter or else if i didnt kuya wouldve been mad @ me. hahaha i guess im in the process of learning how to be a high achiever like him! Ü after i picked up the book, i went over to the daycare to visit. Ahh it feels like juss yesterday i was there working. Brought back memories, i miss running outside playing w/the kids. Having drama w/temper tantrums and doing lesson plans etc. etc. one of the parents told me she misses seeing me and how its not the same. Her son told me its boring now w/o me i was liek awww Though i have moved on w/my life, that place will always hold a special spot in my puso!

I went home and read the whole first section of the book, trying to prepare and comprehend the material. So many different types of words to learn and memorize. I had a hard time studying cuz i was excited for jennifs birfday party dinner. I got ready for that, then i was off to the block of orange. I was the first one to get there and so i when i saw jennif it was funny. I told her this feels like a blind date like youre meeting this person for the first time. haha Then mike came and it looked like elmidate or dismissed. haha you probabyl think i watch a lot of tv, but honestly i dont really. When i do, sometimes these shows are on so ill watch it for entertainment purposes.

The dinner birfday bash was nice a lot of people were there. i met a couple new people there, jennifs friends and cousin. Wow the "block is hot, the block is hot!" haha nuff said there! I ate calamari @ to tu tango tonite, i was craving for it tonite. mmm it was soo good i had to get another order of it. Good thing peopel helped me eat it, or else i wouldnt of been able to. It was fun cuz we took a grip of pictures like it was the last week of skool. haha you know how that is right before you graduate, let me take pics w/so and so. I tasted some of the dessert and it was mmm good, swe3t but good. i cant wait to see the pics jennif took w/her cam.

Tonite, i have this war scar on the bottom of my chin. I had to ride this bull @ the block. el huego told me to go ride it, and i said okay give me $6, so he pays the fee and i get up on that bull. The first time i thought i was going to last a little while being i was holding on to his horns. I ended up falling, so i got back up there and whoa nelly! haha i couldnt hang for long the 2nd time and i fell back. it was fun, but my thighs are sore! haha strider did it too right after i did. he hung on for a while, then he finally got knocked off. Those things are pretty fun to do!

I walked around the block w/jennif and el hugeo. It was a good excercise we went in and out of different places. I got kuya a lil something something too. haha i guess when i was there this thing reminded me of him so i had to get it for him. haha he deserves it too thas why! haha it was funny cuz when jennif and i got into the virgin records megastore, we both rushed cuz we saw two different CDs from two different music backgrounds. hers was lionel richie and mine was 50 cent. I heard today the song wangsta he done, was towards ja rule. Supposedly i guess ja rule stabbed him before in the past. Anyway, then on the way out jennif saw this one cd and she thought it was something else. hahaha its one of those "you had to be there" type of things. To end such a wonderful evening off, the 3 of us prayed the rosary together.

random thought, i was in the car on the way home listening to this Cd i made july 2 years ago. I decided i think i might change my wedding song hahahaha weird thought i know. Well before i wanted to have the spend my life w/you w/tamia and eric benet. I love that song, one of my favorite slow jams. Then i heard you make me feel brand new by the stylistics. I use to love lsitening ot that song, it was the first time i heard in a while. So as i was listening to it, i was feeln the chorus and the lyrics. I thought oh this would be a even better wedding song to use. haha its a long time away, if it even happens...haha

well i must go, for i am helping tito jess move tomorrow morning. My eyes are heavy and i am sleepy. so until next time...so long farwell to you my friend, goodbye for now until we meet again!

"God bless you, you make me feel brand new For Gods blessed me w/you, you make me feel brand new. i sing this song cause you...make me feel brand new..."im done...im out God bless!

its 124am, i sit hurr cold and sleepy thinking how nice itll be to sleep in tomorrow. Though im really tired, i must blog cuz the blogger must go on!

"a person who finds a true friends, finds a real treasure."

i heard that quote today @ work and i was thinking bout it in the shower. I was juss thinking how its crazy how my new friends/family well how ive only known majority of them not very long. Yet i feel like ive known them all my life. its hard to believe i think it was around this time i started to go back to prayer group. Praise God that i did otherwise, id be on the streets right now ruffin' it up! hahaha jk no i would juss be online doing nothing rihgt now. People come and ago in your life, and its funny what kind of mark they leave w/you. Meaning like what type of things you pick up from them. These people i know now, are i think to me are probably my biggest inspirations in life. I guess you could say thas how much they affect me.

Today, was nice i got a chocolate stain on my sleeve sweater today. I was like agh cuz its a cream sweater too and its one of my favs. Went to skool, i got there early cuz i found parking right away. As i was chillin outside i was kinda standing in my uprm picture pose. hahahah i dont know why i started laughing to myslef. I took my math test today, i think i did well hopefully i did. I checked my answers juss to double check. After that i went home and juss chilled till it was time to leave for work. i saw xavi @ skool today too, it was kinda awkward talking to him @ first but i guess it went got easier. Maybe its juss difficult being that i dont talk to him reguarly as i use to. Or how i dont keek it w/them like i use to, though at least we can still talk and be friends.

I told lyn lyn tonite its really cool how now i have someone to talk to at work bout not only catholic stuff, but juss stuff that goes in my life. Where as before it was a little more difficult or different i guess you could say. Its cool how like if i need a prayer, shes right there to ask. Im glad that shes feels comfortable @ work and she enjoys the work that she does. errtime i come into work, shes sitting so peacefully and calm @ her desk. haha its like a little kid doing their hw for kindergarten. awww hahaha work was cool i got caught chatting online today haha but they didnt say anything thye juss laughed. I was scared too they might say something, but they didnt. Whew!

I had to get gas on the city car today, it took me forever to find the place. Then when i fianlly got there, iw as having problems for a little bit sliding the card though. I thought the machine was off, but its juss the brightness of the sun that makes it hard to read. So i get that done, then i have the hardest time getting the stupid nozzle on. I got irritated so i switched pumps, then i couldnt get it to gas up. I was thinking wha am i gonig to do? Finally this city of westminister public works guy comes to my rescue and helps me out. It wasnt for him i wouldve still been there. Then i had to get the car washed and my supervisor came to switch cars cuz i needed to be back for my program. I hate driving the big truck, its so big and plus theres so many blind spots which makes it even more difficult.

I had the kids make chocolate candy apples today. they enjoyed it, but most of them ended up throwing away their apples cuz they were tired of it. It was melted chocolate spread around the apple w/sprinkles sprinkled all over the apple. It looked cool when it was finished. I didnt eat one, it looked too swe3t. The kids had chocolate all over their faces and hands. ewww haha i guess your typical kids stuff. Then i had them write down their favorite recipe. I was able to finish one of my many bulletin boards i put up this week. So one actually has kids work on it. i really like how the room turned out, it now gives it a sense of color and imagination.

Went to SRE w/achie and explained the lesson for tonite. fred came to help her out, which im really grateful for. His knowledge bout the church is very good, so he was able to help spread that knowledge to the kids. I guess there was one kid who didnt believe the catholic church is the ONE TRUE church. I guess i gotta review w/them next thurs.

i went to see late nite catcheism tonite, w/the moyas, soratorios, jem, alea and mike. oh man that show is nothing but pure comedy. Youre laughing from the time you get in, till the time you leave. That actress did a really good job portraying a catholic skool nun. It was funny there was one audience member who was protestant. So the sister asked wha religion she was after asking wha church she was from. Then the audience member was like im protestant, then the sister was like wha? youre a prostitute? hahahahahahahah oh man tha was hillarious, i couldnt stop busting up. there was a lot more hillarious jokes too, juss that was one of my favs.

i saw boss ladys scrap book shes making for kuya. one word say it w/me now, "awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww" hahahahaha that bout sums up that whole scrapbook, well besdies the wow, thas nice, so creative. She put a lot of hard work into it, i could tell she enjoyed doing it too. Im sure it made her take a trip down ol memory lane. Probably in her head she was doing one of those "relieve the memories" like they do on tv. They have the music playing, then they show all these different scenes from past episodes and waht not. hahahaa i can actually picture that now. haha. Nice work boss lady! soo creative, pretty soon well have to start a kuya, boss lady and hijo book! hahahahaha jk

I had a nice chat w/lyn lyn tonite. we talked bout a variety of different things from like automechanics to work. haha it was a very enjoyable conversation. Then i had a nice convo w/kuya online, it got sentimental, my puso was hurting after the talk. hahaha jk no but it was also a warm good hearted convo. jennif asked me if had a good time @ club mind. I told her yeah i was dancing to that song, bump bump, bump and now i have one of those days remix in my head now. For those who dont know, club mind is when youre dancing in the car while listening to a CD or radio. its the "feel free, no insecurities" club, juss where you choose your own music. You dance the way you want to and you juss feel the music! hahah "when i hear music it makes me dance..." haha like that feeling. i like that club, cuz no one there is watching me or anything. haha go to club mind sometimes and tell me how it feels! hahaha

well a thought came into mind, sometimes i talk to many of you and when i mention peoples names i use nicknames. Then the person i talk to is like huh? whos that? hahaha so i decided to give you a key to help fill you in on some common nicknames i use on people.

Kuya-well pretty much errone knows who that is...for those who dont, its robby

boss lady-emeline

beyonce-marianne (banne)

el huego- jay

achie-jennifer Velasco

babyvee-jennevee

heif-my best friend jen

jennif-jennifer felisan

mizike-mike

lyn lyn-roselynn

mo rice-maurice

JL-jenilee

jeanne-jeramee

atche-aela

kuya bear- my white bear stuffed animal

so there you have it, a mini dictionary of nicknames i commonly use. hopefully this wil help you better understand whom im referring too, when i use certain names. Well the weekend is hurr, which means, "look out weekend cuz hurr i come, because weekends were made for fun! jumpin music, slick djs, smoke machines and laser rays!" this saturday @ the dance, "Check the peapod, cuz the vibes is STRONG
Selenas, Philipinas, they come one by ONE" well thas it for now hope you enjoyed tonites entry...i feel a bit warmer now that ive turned on the furnace! ahhh nice and cozy!

"There's only one God sonny, and there ain't no replacement And anybody thinkin different jus get locked in the basement..." im done...im out God bless!

If you independant lady get ya hands up
ya wanna buy ya own Mercedes get ya hands up
If ya rollin wit bIG isda, upRm get ya hands up
and if ya like the simple things get ya hands up

hahahahaha im feelin that song!! errtime i listen to it i cant help but to grooooooove hahahahaha
wooooo!
dload it-one of those days remix, whitney houston & nelly

i hate it when youre looking for something and you cant seem to find it! then it starts to bug you until you find it. grrr...

"Holiness does not consist in doing extraordinary things. It consists in accepting, with a smile, what Jesus sends us. It consists in accepting and following the will of God."

A lot of people, mostly young teenagers, when hear/see the word "holy" they thing that person is like a saint or close to being one. I think the word holy is taken out of context w/young children. IN this quote its saying, if youre holy basically youre juss accepting w/a smile errthang God sends us and constantly trying to follow his will. It doesnt mean you have to pray 1 million rosaries to be holy or going to daily mass makes you holy. Being holy simply is accepting errthang God gives you and doing that w/a smile. To know God wants nothing but the best for us, for that is how much he loves us. Accepting the things he gives us, also means to accept the struggles and obstacles he gives us, but overcoming them w/a bright smile. Juss like the same feeling when a young learns how to first ride their bike. Hmm this is another good discussion i could use for my class next week.

Skool was boring today, aww booo. i started to fall asleep in class in phil cuz the lecture was juss so boring. I couldnt wait to get out of there. Came home for a bit, then i was off to work again. Work was cool, the kids helped me put some bulletin boards in the room. The yellow butcher paper adds some more color to the room. There was one little boy who was getting on my nerves cuz he wasnt following directions. I had to tell him more than once to stop playing w/the blinds. I also had the kids punch out bulletin board letters haha ive been planning since last thurs. to do it myself, but i figured hey the kids are hurr i mine as well have them help me.

oh btw, boss lady i know youre gonna be reading this, i noticed in the job flyers you guys are hiring a rec leader for the tiny tots program? The flyer juss got put into out iob flyer binder today. i forgot to ask you that on the phone tonight. Whas going on w/that? i think imma apply so you can really be my boss lady haha jk Well since im on the subject of her, i had a nice long chit-chat w/boss lady on the phone tonite. she's fun to talk to on the phone. We talked bout errthang too from work to scenarios and what not.

another interesting convo i had was w/kuya @ jack in the box tonight. We had a discussion bout acting on impulse, critically thinking things out and analyzing the scene. That talk made me think a lot, thas what i need to work on. A lot of times im very impulsive, well i dont got impulsive behavior, but sometimes i say stuff and i dont think things through. Or ill do stuff w/o analyzing the situation and rushing to make a decision. thats always been my problem since i was young was rushing. Even today, i rush to get things done, so i need to learn how to stop and smell the roses. Though its hard not do that sometimes, like you can juss get into the spur of the moment and randomly decide something. Bottom line, work on slowing the roll, and looking at things twice. it doesnt hurt to always double check things, before making a final decision.

Another thing ive noticed is people like to avoid confrontation. To me, i think they shouldnt avoid it cuz it ends up benig no closure to the situation. W/o closure it only leaves the wound open and it doesnt give it anything to heal. A lot of people hate to be confronted especially when it comes to something they did. Or they hate confronting other people cuz its intimidating. If theres something thas bothering you and you dont confront the person bout it, then youll only sit and wonder, "wha if" of "i shouldve" of course think bout the situation and what youre going to say before you confront the person. Avoiding the situation doesnt help, but only leaves a big gap inbetween you and other person.

The Cis nite class started tonight, we were worried @ first cuz we needed 18 people to make a class otherwise they were gonna close it. Well luckily people kept walking in, so i guess we aint closing class down. The instructor is old, but cool he told a lot of jokes today. Hes one of those instructors that go off on tanjets inbetween things. To a certain extent i dont mind, however sometimes it only makes the class end up being longer. there are a few interesting people in that class though do i must say! hahaha But no fly shawats
::sigh::

speaking of fly shawtys, beyonce told me her and jennif chilled w/their kappa girls. she told me jennif and her were thinking i wouldve loved to been there. haha im hoping there would be some there on fri @ jennifs birfday. I wanna be on a show like the bachelor or joe millionare but theyll call mine the catholic guy. The plot would be for me to be able to pick and find the d0pe catholic girl out of all these other girls from different demoniations. hahaha jk thas corny haha i remember that show singled out on MTV i remember i use to play that when i was in like jr high. id be the host. hahah mo rice told me before how he was on one of the episodes.

Theres a grip of birfdays this month, another busy month full of different peoples birfdays. Lets see tues. was ahlauna's, sun was tita lindas, tomorrow is gregs, then next thurs. is jennifs, then on vday is ryans then my aunts dog, then lyn lyn, then my aunts then my friend swatis at last but not least is my mommas. woo too many birdays, i cant wait till i turn 21, maan its sooo on in vegas or hawaii or africa or alaska or wherever i end up being its soo on!

tomorrow imma see if i can be @ two places in a short amount of time span. i got invited last min to celebrate Greg from carson birfday in long beach @ this buffet. Then i gotta be back by 730 or 745 in la mirada for late nite catcheism. i cant be late to that or else kuay will kill me! haha and i mean literally kill me! hahaha jk! no pun intended kuya! hahaha its only mad mahal for ya big bro! hahaha so anyway the catch is the dinner is @ 5pm, i work until 6 my cooking class i teach @ work ends @ 5pm. I gotta find something easy and simple to do so that way i can hopefully leave by 430pm. then be there in the LbC by 5 then leave by 7 to be in la mirada by 730. ahh decisions, decisions...well see i hate rushing to places though, i dont wanan get into an accident either. thas bout wraps up my day for me, until next time you know the sn, and you know how to use the IM feature, so wha are you waiting for? hahaha oh btw please pray for me cuz i got a math test tomorrow and pray for my achie too that errthang works out for her. thanks!!

"you my tenderony tell the homies no dibs and erry lil step you take is my perogetive hey..." im done...im out GOd bless!

It is sad to realize so many believe that Jesus is Truly Present in the Blessed Sacrament and seldom visit Him. Men travel across the oceans to see ancient ruins, paintings, landscapes and celebrities, but they do not think of going into a church to visit the Creator of all beauty."

wow when i read that quote i thought, "thas so true bout our society today, its so true bout many catholics today." majority of people will go pretty much anywhere to go and see like b2k or nelly or whoever. Yet, its so hard for people to spend a few minutes to go and visit Jesus. Where Jesus is probably not even that far from them. i chose that quote cuz it juss stood to me, thas something imma emphasize to my class next week.

hmm i guess one work would be able to describe today...interesting. I was talking to kuya today before skool, he was telling me we gotta sit down and plan when imma transfer. haha im so grateful for him, he really takes good care of me. He's like the older brother i never had, i appreciate errrthang he does for me, cuz he does soo much. so i go to skool today endlessly searchign for parking again, this time i got my usual end of the lot back parking space. I was getting a bit frustrated cuz errtime i saw one, someone else already had it. I was afraid i was gonna be late to class and i hate that feeling. Praise God i was able to find one, w/some time to kill also, so it worked out. I juss always gotta leave around 1015am to find parking. Class was good i guess, we have our first test on thurs. pray that i do well! you know i see all these fly shawtys around campus, yet none of them are in my classes! ooOhh WhY?!! hahahaha

Went to work after skool, it was a very productive today i got a lot done. I talked to lyn lyn for a little bit when i got in. Im really happy that we work together, itll be cool cuz now i have someone else to talk catholic stuff with. I cant wait till she puts some pictures and stuff on her desk. I talk to heif today, and told her bout the open position @ work. She's interested in taking it, so hopefully she'll get it. I know she's gonna have a really difficult time leaving the daycare being thas been her first and only job since she was 16. Though errone needs a change in their life sometimes. Thas why God placed me where i am at today.

So anyway, i was able to put bulletin boards at work inside my room today. I thought i was going to have a difficult time but i guess not. ahh i cant think right now, my thoughts have been disturbed all of a sudden and i dont know anymore. umm i did my boards it made the room look a lot brighter now. i think the welcome sign thing i put up that probably feel down got thrown away last nite. Which i was frustrated cuz now somethings missing in that room. Imma put up some more boards tomorrow i got yellow butcher paper.

dang i cant concencrate on this right now...i juss feel all of a sudden lost. umm wha else went to class i found out my cousin and his girl broke up last tues. THough when i asked why he said i dont know. hmm okay? i told the kids in class tonight, i decided to stay w/them cuz i made a commitment in the very beginning to be w/them. we talked bout the eucharist, though i shouldve actually prepared a lesson plan cuz i was really stumbling off and on. okay i took a small break to pray the rosary w/my prayer buddy. thanks prayer buddy for praying w/me, i feel a lot better then i did before!

Anyway, so in class we talked about the eucharist. I juss got went into further details bout it and what it meant. I told them theyre suppose to fast an hour before mass. they were like what?! you mean i cant even eat a donut? they had a lot of "what ifs" like one kid said, "what if youre gonna be executed and something something." i said bottom line, no eating an hour before mass, only drink water. then we talked bout being in mortal sin, how you cant the eucharist unless you go to confession. So it was a pretty productive class i guess you could say.

Im forever grateful right now cuz beyonce well she gave me a very, very, very special gift tonite. She gave me her own rosary bracelet, cuz i told her how mine was broke. Now im naked on my right hand anymore! thanks soooooooooo much banne, you dont know how much i will cherish this gift! i almost dont want to wear it, in case it might break again! ha thanks again banne, i really appreicate it!

prayer meeting was nice, we had it unplugged tonite. prayer meeing accoustiac version, juss the geetar and congo drums. kuya led tonite, im sure he did a d0pe job leading. I had to do his intercessory, i wrote it out in class this morning! hahaha we all ended up going to the towne center after prayer meeting. Even kuya went too, i was suprised! haha usually he doesnt go cuz he has to wake up early for work and he has to iron his shirt before he goes to bed. i was able to meet some new people tonite too. I got their email addresses to add them to my bulk mail i send out.

Tonite there was something that caught my attention, im not going to say what it is. All i could say though is, whoa! i guess it was one of those, "there must be something there, that wasnt there before" things. it was cool cuz i got to talk to arch one on one tonight. its not often that i get to talk to him like that and when i do, i enjoy it. We usually see on the same level, and if anything he helps me to try to look at in a different light. i cant think of anything else to say. I need sleep for there is skool tomorrow!

"Puerto Rican mami's call me Papi Cuz they see me in the hood, poppin wheelies on my Kawasaki..." im done...im out God bless!

So hurr i am @ work, browsing the world wide web and i came across this, hopefully youll enjoy as much as i did!
I am excited...He knows what that is like.
I am tired...He knows what that is like.
I am smiling...He knows what that is like.
I am frustrated...He knows what that is like.
I am busy...He knows what that is like.
I am needing alone time...He knows what that is like.
I am lonely...He knows what that is like.
I am joyful...He knows what that is like.
I am angry...He knows what that is like.
I am abandoned...He knows what that is like.

I am saved...He made it possible.

Jesus - what don't you know?

"Jesus, youre the swe3test name of all..." im done...im out GOd bless!

"He who has a heart full of love always has something to give..."

I like that quote cuz it says we could be poor and still have no money, but as long as we have a heart full of love, then were set. juss always remember a loving heart, is also a giving heart.

it was d0pe, i juss got off this conference call w/fred and jenn F. We prayed the rosary together on the phone tonight. I was sitting hurr online and i think God was telling me to ask Jenn to pray the rosary w/me. So i asked her, then we were able to add fred on the line. it was really cool, it helps to pray the rosary w/someone especially if youre really tired. I think imma ask my prayer buddy to do that w/err nite from now on. Hopefully i can remember for tomorrow. haha that was the 2nd time ive done that, the first time was over the summer. the first time was tight, cuz i got to not only pray the rosary, but pray w/a special someone! haha praise God for unlimited weekends and conference call plans on cell phones! If you would like to pray the rosary w/me also @ nite, hit me up and let me know! The more the merrier ya hurrd!!!

So today was an interesting day, something unexpected came up @ work, ill get into that later on. i go to skool and well i was looking for parking and as i was going in the circle the security officer was signaling @ me. At first i was liek aww man i thought she was tellng me to pull over cuz she was writing tickets for people who didnt have a parking pass. So i thought she was gonna write one for me, since i felt i was going kinda fast. Turns out she was pointing at an empty parking space! it was a good one too right smack down in the front! i love those type of parking spots theyre the best! God has been really helpful w/me finding parking @ skool. That was really nice of the security lady too! anyway, i went to the bookstore to get the access book for class. It was $57 cuz they had no moe used ones, i was thinking maan this is expensive i should go across the street to see if htye got it cheaper.

i went to phil today and we had an discussion in groups bout whether God exsists and if so how do we know. So here i am in this group w/a protestant, a fallen away catholic now athesist, and one other guy who juss doesnt catagorizes himself as anything, but believes there is a God or something out there. i felt kinda pushed back into the corner cuz there was at point where it felt like they all joined together agaisnt the church. the athesist doesnt believe there is God, obviously and was telling me something bout darwin and natural selection and something bout scienftically proven. I said we are living examples of Gods existence. The non catagorized guy said w/catholics he always felt he had to be on his "p's" and "q's" How he felt he couldnt juss lay down and pray. How he had to be on his hands and knees. The protestant joined him and said yeah w/christians, you dont have to do that. its more kick back and relaxed. a tatto man could walk into the church and itll be all good cuz were praising the Lord. so i didnt really say anything, i didnt wanna make enemies only 2 weeks into the semester. hahahaha im sure the topic will come up again, ill be more ready next time. People juss like ot think they know errthang there is to the catholic church, when really all theyre doing is assuming.

lyn lyn started her first day @ work today! wooo i saw her when i walked in sitting all nice and peaceful @ her new desk. she tells me one of the other rec leaders put in her two weeks today, which caught errone off guard. Maan i dont know whas gonna happen now. well i know shes requested a lot of time off cuz shes getting married in like 3 weeks. Then shes taking a 1 month off for her honeymoon right after that. I began to decorate my after skool program room w/bulletin board stuff. The door looks really nice, im feelin it! it catches your attention when you walk in. thanks lyn lyn for your help w/it! were gonna be great coworkers!

Went home and i filed for my taxes, im getting back $300 something from the fed and like $45 ssomething like that from the state. I had to show my sister how to do hers, she's funny. I told her she cant mess up or else she'll go to jail for lying on her taxes. she said somethign funny after she was done filing for her state. She's doesnt have to owe anything nor is she getting back anything. So she puts the forms into the envelope and as she looks for which label to put on the envelope, she says "so do i have to write a check or something to put into hurr?" hahahahahah it was soo funny! i started to mess w/her and say, "hurr gov. davis, im not suppose to give anything back to the state this year, but you know i thought id give a couple hundred back anyway!" hahahahahahahahahahah oh man it was funny i guess you had to be there.

i have a new older sister, her name is beyonce. isnt that tight?! haha i got her # and so i can call her and talk to her. haha if you look in my celli, almost errones name in there isnt their regular names. i dont know if that made sense. Basically if you have a nickname then thas wha name youre under in my celli. fo example, banne is beyonce, emeline is boss lady, jenn. V. is achie and so on and so on. haha speaking of banne, she said something funny today, check it...
beyonce: you're so one of us!
beyonce: jason fish soratorio
beyonce: haha
hahahah i thought that was funny! well imma go now im pretty tired. Pray for kuya cuz hes leading prayer meeting tomorrow, also pray for a friend of mine who might be going through a difficult time. Please pray that he finds the peace, joy and comfort withinin this struggle. Last but not least, please pray for me cuz im doing intercessory prayer, maan i have done in that in forever! thanks!

"the most entrancing side of all is yet for me to see and the dearest love in all the world is waiting somewhere for me..." im done...im out God bless! btw did you know kuya can speak three different languages wow that guy never stop to amaze me! perhaps thas why he is still kuya from the block hahahaha, juss like how mo rice was still mo rice from the block on sun.

"Love is a mighty power, a great and complete good; love alone lighten every burden, and makes the rough places smooth. It bears every hardship as thought it were nothing, and renders all bitterness sweet and acceptable. The love of Jesus is noble, and inspires to great deeds; it moves ut always to desire perfection."

So where do i begin? im tired from all the dancing and singing of karaoke tonight. Well imma dedicate this entry to a little ol friend of mine whom i had the pleasure of meeting this past summer. I think it was august when i had met him. Anyway, magic mic im dedicating this entry for you! haha thanks for help brightening up peoples day w/laughter and cheerfulness! haha

This weekend was another great one, juss like last weekend. let me recap! ready? Okay! lets see, friday i got to have lunch w/boss lady and kuya. Then i got to watch a movie w/kuya in the afternoon. Later that evening i got to keek it w/my best friend for a while. After went to watch Lord of the Rings part dos @ the soratorios. Saturday i got keeek it w/kuya pretty much all day except in the morning. I was able to play w/kuyas fam bam tribe. Then did a little "rearranging" of things @ the soratorios again. Which leaves me wha i did today.

Today was another of those days where you couldnt help but smile all through out it! Actually the whole weekend was like that for me. I went to mass this morning, went well as usual. After i got to eat @ hometown buffet, no not the one @ south street. The one by my casa, i was telling my aunt this morning during brunch how ive had hometown 3 weekends in a row and they all happen to be sundays too! hahaha
ive been eating way too much this past weekend. let me think, umm friday i had chinese buffet, wasnt planning on eating for the rest of the day. Ended up eating fridays later on that nite. Saturday ate a grip of spaghetti. Today 4 country fried steaks w/other stuff. Then a grip of chinese food to add on top of that. After lunch i cleaned my room a little bit, ive been endlessly searching for this thing i gotta give reirich. I dont know wha i did w/it last sun. when i came home. I couldve thought i saw it like beginning of last week on my desk, so i looked behind it and it wasnt there. booo

Had core group meeting today to discuss the upcoming event were having in 2 weeks. it sounds like its gonna be a very educational event. Im sure itll help errone's spiritual growth, grow even more that saturday. Thas always nice to look foward too. I did my phil reading when i got home, man that was a lot of wooo stuff i read. Like i think it went over my head, probably cuz i wasnt really concentrating even though i tried. i started to slack off towards the end of the last page. oh well im sure the professor is going to go over it tomorrow in class. awww booo skool tomorrow...im already feeling skool laziness and were only 2 weeks into the semester! haha geez this sucks! when's spring break!? oh wait i think we have a holiday coming up! wooo!

Went to the soratorios again tonight, man thas like my other house now or something! haha ive been there all weekend practically, actually i was there on wed. too hahaha i love going there though, its like i feel so @ peace and have nothing to worry bout. that family is so loving and warm hearted that im blessed to be there. So yeah we were all there today to celebrate their fam bam tribe;s february birfdays. it was quite an exciting day there, so much fun as always! i got to play court today in the back patio room w/kuya, fred, mo rice, jaymee and jeanne. i was the judge and fred was on trial for so many different counts. Kuya was representing him, mo rice was the prosecutor, jaymee was the clerk, and jeanne was the jury. hahaha we never got to finish the game though. Then later on i was playing shrink w/jeanne and jaymee. we all took turns laying on the couch discussing our problems as one of us played the doctor. haha that was also d0pe!

We had a healing mass today too which was something we all needed, especially myself. I havent gone to one since like september. I felt so at ease and relaxed as well as at peace. freds prayers were as strong as aragorn's swords tonight. He help find the innerpeace i was looking for and the healing. The mass was juss good itself, like the homily and errthang else in it. At first i thought the priest was indian then i thought he was filipino for some reason then i realized he was actually indian! haha im really glad we had the extra healing session after the eucharist, wha a perfect time to do it.

We did more magic mic tonight, it was really fun cuz we were all dancing. Jem was singing dancing queen and i couldnt help but feel the groove hahaha. i got tita lovie to dance w/me! wooO! that was fun! i was able to score 97 on a karoake song which the title of it i shall keep. haha i was sweating from all the dancing too, and well as i told lyn lyn the other day...hahahaha well i think you could figure it out. i knwo fo sho lyn lyn knows wha im talking bout! haha but yeah i love it how we can juss be free and not worry bout impressing anyone or acting dumb. its fun juss dancing and messing around while getting all crazy. The my hi jo side came out tonight too hahahahahah

then some of us were tired and began to lay down in the family room. kuya gave me a really good massage tonight, i remember during the summer i got this free one @ the body shop. then sheree gave me a really nice masage too before. massages are so relaxing and make you wanna juss close your eyes and fall asleep. hmm a perfect resting scene, getting a massage while listening to someone play the piano. Then waking up w/someone massaging your back still and w/someone playing the piano still. ahhh juss thinking bout it makes me wanna close my eyes and sleep! hahaha

I feel wonderful feelings of love and motivation when im around my community. I feel safe, protected from all outside harm. Im at peace and yet have nothing burdening me when im around the community. I love being around them. I love how i can easily be myself and not worry bout impressing anyone. I love uprm cuz they errthang they do for me is love. we help each other carry our crosses and we do it generously too, which makes our love for each other stronger. i love how kuya and boss lady make me smile all the time. ITs hard to imagine ive only been part of Sh for not even a year yet, though i feel like ive known them for all my life. God has tremendously blessed me this past year. gosh id be no where right now w/o them and my weekends wouldnt be as fun. My online conversations wouldnt be as exciting. I wouldnt have met so many different wonderful faces. My puso only continue to grow w/more and more joy each day i get to be w/the people i love.

uprmfred: i pray that u find a nice young lady that appreciates u, as much as u enjoy the presence of some of these other girls that dont deserve u.
thanks fred for being a wonderful big bro to me as well as helping me to teach the ropes in life. Youre not only a inspiration in my life, but also someone whom i truly admire and look up to as well. i appreciate all that you do for errone one of your brothers and sisters. thanks for your prayers today and for always taking care of me! uPRm fo life my brotha!

"Did you ever know that you're my hero, You're everything I would like to be I could fly higher than an eagle, Cuz you are the wind beneath my wings..." thanks for the memories SH, uPrM and magic mic! hahaha i love yall im done...im out God bless!

"I ask you one thing: do not tire of giving, but do not give your leftovers. Give until it hurts, until you feel pain."

The other day was my 2 month blog anniversary, happy anniversary make it clap! hahaha
its great when you have one of those days, where you enjoyed err minute of it. err minute of your day, had put a smile on your face. Thas wha today was, it was a busy, productive but d0pe day. im watching this movie right now, well some people could probably guess what it is. I like this version of it cuz of the diversity they used in it. its not sterotypical, this movie a great example of diversity in culture. i remember when this movie came out on tv, i was a jr. still in hs! hahaha man that was forever long ago, the memories!

I woke up @ 10 and i took care of the one thing i needed to do yesterday that i didnt do. Well first i went to lil sistas to pick up kuyas geetar for him cuz i knew he needed it. Then i went to go and get gas cuz i was running low. Went to the US toy store in garden grove, i had boughten a grip of bulletin board stuff for my office. I cant believe how fast you could spend $100.the store wasnt as far as i thought it was, the couple other times i had gone. it was funny the manager rememberd who i was from last visit. I was relieved i got that stuff out of the way.

On my way back i went to target to pick up a bday gift for cha cha. I got him this gamebody advance charger. so when his battery runs low or something he could juss use the charger. Went home for a little bit, to rest before leaving again. I had gone to the 99 cents store to get a bag and card for cha cha's gift. i was impatient there @ the 99 cents store, cuz well i only had 2 items and i was hoping this lady would let me go in front of her. Actually i was in this other line and i shouldnt of moved. its like when you take a test, yo uchange your answer from your first. Well thas wha i did kinda, well i thoguht this other line was shorted but it wasnt. This lady had gone and left her cart in line to trick me! i was frustrated cuz she got like 1000 pot pies and well they were 2 for 99 cents. i guess they were ringing up as 99 cents for each on the register. So the worker had to reset and start over, so wha she does is, is she scans the pot pies and gives the lady the 2 for 99 cents deal. She was putting 2 pot pies in the bag. The lady didnt understand so she was questioning the concept and i dont know how many times the cahsier had to explain to the lady. i was getting frustrated to the point where i almost said, "look lady, shes putting 2 pot pies in the bag and giving you the 2 for 99 cents dea, okay?!"

Went to cha cha;s bday party, it was fun. kuya, ria and i were talking bout w/kids when they come to parties they arent interested in the food. As for us, thas like the first thing we see when we walk in the door. wha kind of food is being served and the quanity. hahahaha it was fun chillin there. actually i was with kuya pretty much all afternoon till now. we had another kuya and hijo day! woooO! i love days like that, theyre so d0pe! anyway, there was this one kid there @ the party who had the same name as me. Dang, he was so loud and so hyper he was yelling juss talking. it brought back memories of workign @ the daycare. Working w/kids who are like that all the time for so many hours a day. he was a fun kid though, i enjoy being around children. That kid told kuya, he had dimples juss like him! hahah aww how cute!

Went w/kuya to mike cao's house to listen them make music. I felt like two things, like i was in this recording studio w/babyface and some other artist. Then i felt like timbaland and magoo making beats in the basement. It was d0pe i got to see how they record the music and how it all works. The music they made for the pcn sounded really good. it made me wanna take a nap w/someone playing piano then wake up w/someone playing piano still. ahh soothing beats was relaxing that they made. i was really feelin it, forreal! such talented people! after i went back to kuyas to eat ria's really good spaghetti she made. haha i was craving for it @ mike caos house. i ate soo much today, i had skittles, spaghetti and ice cream. what a mix! hahaha

After dinner i help clean out @ the soratorios. Since ive been helping them clean the past couple days, ive learned a vauable lesson. Well there are three piles that we use to sort out. There is "t" "d" and "s." The "t" stands for trash. When we find things they may not need anymore, we trash it. The "d" stands for donation, the stuff to be donated to the salvation army. Last but not least, "S" which means to save cuz they need to sort through it. I think w/the time limit we were one, we accomplished a lot. Also when in doubt, throw in the garage or closet! hahaha It was fun, i enjoyed helping them out. Cleaning can be chore but it also can be fun at the same time. im so tired right now! haha i could juss sleep all day tomorrow.

"you played w/my heart, right from the start and i will get over you." haha that song has been in my head ever since this afternoon. im done...im out God bless!

"The vitality of friendships comes from honoring differences, not by just merely liking each other's similarities"

i like that quote cuz it represents a lot of truth in it. With friendships not errthang has to be the same, you dont have to have errthang in common. its great to have differences cuz thas the way God made us. He made each of us unique in our special way sharing w/errone a special gift.

Today was a great day, despite the fact i didnt get what i needed to done. Actually i got two out of the three things i needed accomplished. I went to sleep really early last nite, before 12am! haha i was really tired and worn out it was a long day. I was suppose to go visit my cousin in newport beach but i was too tired to drive out there. I juss realized i made my entry too early so now it messed up my whole blog flow again!

Anyway, i was able to wash my car this morning. its been bugging me for a long time so i finally realized i should wash it today. I did the inside and the outside, so now its back to being clean again. Geez, the last time i washed it was end of last month. wow a whole month of not washing my car! its hard cuz im either too busy, too tired or too lazy. I wanted to go run laps @ the track @ cypress, but by the time i got done washing my car it was tooooooooooo hot! i like driving when my car is clean, makes me feel clean. haha

Wha else, hmmm oh yeah, i got to have luncH @ china star w/my other fam bam tribe! it was fun, i havent been there in a while so the food was good. What better way to enjoy a good mean, then to share it w/people you love.
After lunch i went home for a little bit, then went out w/kuya to watch antwone fisher. i recommend you see that movie, its only playing @ the block but the drive is worth it. Its that movie w/denzel washignton where he's in the navy as a shrink. Then you got this other guy who is constantly fighting w/his shipmates so he gets sent to denzel for treatment. Denzel ends up helping him find his lost/abandoned fam bam tribe. The movie is based on a true story so its really good. i didnt realize the movie came out back in dec. so there wasnt anyone in the theatre really.

i got to hang out w/heif tonight, i went to go and visit w/her. Im glad that despite the fact we may not see each other let alone talk to each other on a daily basis, were still close. Its great that when we talk there isnt any awkwardness in our conversation and what not. we have a friend who we were close two that we use to work with, but once she left, i guess it seemed like she seperated herself from us. So yeah, heif and i went to eat, well first we went to chillis @ the bp mall but it was a 30-45 min wait so we went to fridays instead. We were able to catch up and pick up where we left off. Then i went w/her to look for OC family newspaper thingys. im really blessed to have her as my best friend.

Went to watch lord of the rings part dos @ the soratorios tonight. I enjoyed it more then the first one, though i still need to see the second disc again. There was more action in this one, then in the first one. It kept you hanging off the edge of your seat. it made you wanna go out there and really fight that battle. Pretty much errone was there tonight, it was a great nite juss to enjoy each others company. i think ive come to decision bout something i was discerning bout since tues. nite. Now that i think about it, this movie along w/other people helped me reach my decision. Well i guess thas all i can think bout for today, until next time!

"Do i love you because youre because youre wonderful? or are you wonderful because i love you? are you the swe3t inventions of a lovers dream or are you really as impossible as you seem." im done...im out God bless!