"No day is so bad that it cant be fixed without a nap..."

I love taking naps! I love juss jumping into bed after a long day and juss resting my eyes. Till i fall alseep. Though sometimes its hard waking up, especailly after a 2 hr one. Even when i take a long nap, i still have enough energy to get myself into bed again. I was planning on taking a nap today, unfortunaltey it didnt work out that way. I was pretty much in and out running around all afternoon. Man! i didnt even get a chance to start my literature homework too. Thats gonna take a good long time, maybe ill do it on sunday. Im not a huge superbowl fan anyway, i dont even remember what i did last superbowl. I also need to adjust my talk and insert some more stuff into it. For the past couple months now ive been preparing for it. Well juss in my head ha juss thinking bout stuff hurr and thurr. Now i need to really put it on paper!

Went to red lobster for my aunts birfday today. I love red lobster, but today the service juss sucked! Okay, okay, maybe it was the servers first couple months or something but maaan it took forever to get errthang back. I was so tempted to talk to the manager and complain bout how slow our service was. Anyhow, i got the endless shrimp deal and it was so good. The best thing bout red lobster i think is their bread! Mmm i can go and juss eat their bread! haha Im sure thsoe have been to red lobster can attest to that. I had like all these different kinds of shrimp and it was soo goood! INcredible i tell you!

I was driving around all afternoon looking to buy a new celli. Yes, my 8390 is pretty outdated, the time i got that phone they were the hottest thing on the market. Soon they were outdated juss like a comp. and phones w/cameras and color screens came out. Agh! i so wanted one at that time, but i settled for what i had. I finally settled for too long cuz my contract was a 2 year agreement. 2 years is a long time when new phones come out! So i decided to go check out some phones, in my head i was looking for the flip phone. As much as i loved nokia and its easiness, i wanted a flip phone. FLip phones are cool! haha THough ha! after searching all day, i ended up sticking w/a nokia. I got a new phone yay! Its nokia 3100, theyre brand spanking new too. I consider what i got a pretty good deal, being that i went errwhurr and errone was pretty much offering me the same thing. THas what i did 70% of my day, i had gone to 3 malls and 2 little cell phone stores.

Suicide skit practice went well. Next time i want to be the devil, since this time i was sin, then last yurr i was Jesus. Next time around im going to request to be the devil. Its good to get a mix of all the different roles. THen i went w/calvin to go watch, 'You got served.' Oh my gosh can we say it was so ghett0 at krikorian! I wanted to go to cerritos figuring no one would be in thurr. BUt since i had to take liz home and the mall was juss right thurr, i settled for it. I was bothered cuz i had these ghett0 girls screaming each time marques houston and omarion from b2k came on.

I loved the movie! haha Arch and babyvee figured id want to watch that movie. Let me tell you if thurrs one type of movie i like, its like them black urban ones. The movie made me think and i like movies that make me think. THe theatre was jam packed, i ran into the guy who i have in my bio class thurr also. The same person whom i let borrow the scantron. LUckily we found seats at the very top. I want to see perfect score, butterfly affect, and barbershop 2. Oh man thurr was this really hot girl in the movie, in the movie her name was 'keke.' Totally fit the outside standards of what i like in girls! wooO! If you see the movie shes the asian girl that joins up the in the dance crew. Thurr were many corny purrts in the movie, but overall i give it two thumbs up! yay!

ALright it seems like bout 4 different parishes are having their confirmation retreat this weekend. Including sPv, and it seems like sPv;'s confirmation program are the only ones who will be staying in the homeland. I heard thurr is snow in the mountains! maan i want to go ot the snow! Okay, my point is please pray for all those little souls going through the retreat this weekend. That they will be open to it and feel the warmth of God's love through it. PLease pray that the Spirit will also guide the leaders/faciliators giving the retreat. That whatever comes from them will be from the work of God. Wow, these weekends are juss never ending arent they?! Praise God!




The dance moves in you got served are crazzy!!

"She got a white skin friend that looking like michael jackson, she got dark skin friend looking like michael jackson..."im done, im out God bless!

"Charity is the form, mover, mother and root of all the virtues... "

Maaan! i forgot to pray my chaplet today, i juss realized that! I shouldve prayed it when i had thought about it earlier. Ahh! the first time too since i brought the idea up and emailed it to the committee! Well besides that, i feel really happy right now. Im juss overjoyed cuz today was as toni says super 'uber' cool. Everything went really well today, talked to some cool people and some of the best conversations. I love having conversations w/people who are juss so filled w/the spirit. Grace and i have those type of conversations, theyre juss so freakin happy w/what the Lord has dont to their lives that you cant help but to only be happy as well. Theyre light shines so bright that it hurts my eyes. But Praise God cuz it allows me to see the light of God through and in them.

Skool was pretty coo, though my discussion group for my literature class wasnt too happenin. Thurr was one guy who juss didnt seem like he was interested. One girl who was juss totally into it, another girl who was kinda like that. Then thurr was this other asian guy who didnt really talk much, then me. Im having a hard time getting back into the whole eng. mode phase. IM trying to really learn how again to analyze and find hidden messages in the readings. Im sure slowly ill get back into it again. Before class started i had 15 min to kill, i ran into some guy trying to sell me middle eastern philo books. He was pressuring me into getting them and then so i said to get him off my back, 'okay.' But then he wanted donation and then i lied saying i had no cash on me right now. THen he offered to take a check or credit card. What the freak?! why would i give you my credit card # or write you out a check? He left me alone once i told him i had no $$. haha

Work was tight, we were all cracking jokes today at work. My boss and one of my other coworkers is coaching a tball team together. So they were tlaking bout the agenda for practice and all. Then i said well end it w/a closing prayer. My boss laughed and he siad i can see you now, 'okay kids let all gather around for our closing prayer....our Lady of Victory...pray for us!' hahahaha Then later on i made this vegetable hamburger stir fry w/the kids. It was tight, it was real good too. I love cooking, its soo fun. Mini Iron chef strikes back again gail! haha Im telling you i want to get a camera in the kitchen when i cook on thurs. Put together my own cooking show, on the reals yo!

SRE went well, achie and i's class size has really gone down since the very beginning of the year. We went over how to make a confession today in class, worked on that all nite. What to do, wha to say etc. Achie and i made a 'mock' confession to give them an idea of wha itll look like. Except, she was the priest and i was the kid making the confession. haha JOKING! i was the priest and i put over me this red ribbon to make it look more hardcore. Then i asked the, 'how many times' question. FUn stuff, then we ended it w/a quiz on the white board. Majority of them got it packed down. We also started to teach them the act of contrition. Man that prayer has changed so many times.

Afterwards chilled w/fred and jay at del taco. Good stuff, we cracked so many jokes! I saw tiffany and richard truijjo some ol classmates from hs. Tiffany is preganant w/her 2nd child on her way. Wow. Its good seeing classmates, though. So jay, fred, and i sat cracking so many different jokes. From how to practice for my talk to the word 'tight.' haha Oh man i coudlnt stop laughing. THen fred brought up the whole times when we would 'perp' as each other. Example: JpfishI87 or blu8312 hahahaha oh man the people we punk'd! Or wha bout the 'hey man wink!' hahahaha or the 'tagosanging man wink' hahahahah ahh he did hook us up though w/chicken joy, cant complain thurr! Then we had the whole 'tight' joke going again at the end!

Talked to charisse for a while on the phone. She's such a charcater, her and grace. Maan shes gonna be gone all weekend, who am i gonan talk to?! haha jk AS i was talking ot grace i came across another fire engine. Earlier duringthe day when iw as talking ot her anotehr passed by. She said, 'dang, you must be hot on fire since you be running into all those fire trucks.' hahaha jk no she didnt exactly say that, but it would make for a better story! haha I got home and i was talking to vanessa wha i like to call my 'blind valentines LOC date.' We have some things in common, though it was like 20 ?'s! haha Were suppose to meet up prior to the dance that day at dennys across from sPv. Then i was talking ot cyril forever online bout spirit games stuff and juss wha not. Leo came on and we briefly talked, he asked for prayers and i wll lift him and liwanag up in my prayers. They have their monthly homeless outreach going this sat. Please pray for them and their commuinity.

Wow tomorrow, i got a birfday luncheon w/fam bam tribe, followed by youf alpha training @ 6 then closing w/turn around skit practice. Maan when are my days not so busy?! My whole year is pretty much packed already. Jay da banker called me juss to say he saw reirich and arisa at lucille's. Im like okay?! anyway thas it for now, pray for all these retreats going on!


I love Holy Spirit Saturday!!

"Turn around, make it bounce shake it like you come from out of town..."im done, im out God bless!

"Grant me, O Lord my God, a mind to know you, a heart to seek you, wisdom to find you, conduct pleasing to you, faithful perseverance in waiting for you, and a hope of finally embracing you..."

So Pops told me about this weird dream he had the other day. HE told me that he had dreamnt that he had AOL 10.0! hahahahahha That he was all excited bout and checking out all the features it had and errthang. HE goes i dont know why i dreamnt that before cuz i dont even really go online! haha Crazy ol maurice! i juss thought that it was hillarious! Pops and i couldnt stop laughing. I love my pops! haha

Yesterday in class, i was so sleepy! Sunday and tuesdays i need to sleep earlier so that way im not so sleepy in class. I really like my bio class, the instructor is cool. We had a quiz yesterday and my classmate next to me didnt have any scantrons. HE asked me if i had two scantrons he could have and being i had extras(neeeeeeeeeeeyyyyyyyyoowwww)i gave him some. Ha i always curry extra scantrons(neeeeyyyoowww)juss cuz i know how it is when you forget scantrons. That juss sucks if you forget scantrons and you cant take a quiz or test. Moral of the story, curry extra scantrons w/you juss in case.

I had received another email the other day bout the guy matt, whos battling i think cancer and is undergoing some pretty hardcore chemo right now. He's very weak and almost fainted trying to walk. Also the treatment has made him very depressed. So im asking if you guys could possibly write him letters to help cheer him up. Or if you teach an SRE/CCD class maybe have your kids do so. I cant imagine how painful and tiring it is goign through a disease like that. I remember when my dad was going through chemo, it was hard on all of us. MOst especially him, he was always weak and tired. Praise God that he got better and he recovered. THat was a real difficult time for my family, but through his grace we got through it!

Went to yFC last nite and it was fun. I love those guys over thurr, we did this cool activity called the wheel of morality. There was different types of acts, like love, service, friendship, etc. Whatever the wheel spun on, then the group had to present the topic thorugh a skit as well as bible verse. IT was really funny, then we had a nice praise & worship that genieve lead. Great stuff! Then we went to taps which is fun. Im not a real boba fan either. IM real picky bout my boba and whurr i get it from. Also the flavors that they have, i like my boba blended and not like all watery.


Yum YuM yUm!

"We are the reason that he gave us life..."im done, im out God bless!

"God doesn't see the ribbons or medals, he sees the scars..."

I love that quote and yes leo, youre right this quote defiently applies to serving. In God's eyes it doesnt matter how many communities or ministries or church activities you were involved in. In His eyes its how you served through those communities, through those events. Whether you served by example and actions or juss words. It was really cool in father's homily on sun. he said gandhi had once said, 'my actions, are my words.' I thought that was so inspiring and i really believe that, Gandhi was a man of actions. Thas why he so many people admire the guy, juss for his actions and his efforts for peace. I think if he was a catholic he probably wouldve been venerated, beaitified, or even saint status by now.

So then what then bout God seeing our scars? I think in my opinion, scars from our battles. In every battle, in every war there comes scars from it. THose are the memories we have from those particulars wars. With our spirituality its the same way, the scars are the temptations we were able to fight off. The ones we were able to over come. The big picture is how much you put up a fight in the end. The souls that you fought hard for, the ones you may never meet or see, but juss knowing you helped save them from the hands of the devil. I cant wait to give my talk for youf alpha next week. This weekend when i get a chance i need to brush it up w/new analogies.

I guess ill be going to the Lambs of Christ Valetine's Dance on Valentines day. The theme is, "my heart belongs to you..." awww thas juss like the song we sing for at prayer meeting. MY hurrt, my hurrt belongs to you, my sooul, my sooul, belongs to you, i could never leave you, yorue all that i need...haha I love that song too! I miss going ot prayer meeting! Oh yeah so anyway this girl jasmine from that community, hooked me up with 'blind date' from their community. IN other words were gonna be going together, i guess. This should be interesting, now that i think bout it though i shouldnt of have obliged right away. Only cuz the drive is killer and especially after a dance on a sat. nite imma be real tired. Ahh well see wha happens, though it beats not really doing anything. I remember last valentines day, burr and i went out for lunch at this philly cheese sandwhich place in fountain valley i think. It was suppose to be one of the best ones, awww i love the burr! haha

YOuf alpha was good, i cant wait for the retreat this weekend. Im juss excited bout the music, being that well actually ahve the real music min. performing the songs. I remember the first youf alpha at the knights of columbus hall. I didnt really know the community back then, but i do remember that i gave boss lady and burr the currds that my 1st communion class made them. I also remember how excited burr was cuz they spelled his name right. haha Its funny how juss certain memories tend to stick out in your mind. Like for example i was going through my organizer and some of the stuff i wrote in it before. Well i write in it errday like what i did and wha happened, basically a mini blog but more details. Anyway, i ran across a dec. 22 entry whurr reirich took the whole community out to eat at Fridays. Or the days when el juego and i had class together at nite. How thurr was that one handicapp lady and she accused jay of trying ot look at her answers and he wasnt even trying to! hahah ohh man the memories!

Well i must get going so i can try and attempt to finish my eng. homework. This way when i come home from yfc tonite, i dont have to worry bout it. Agh! i dont want to be staying up forever tyring to finish it. Reading, analyzing, and critical thinking takes forever! agh! WOw the weekend is almost hurr, its gonna by real fast. AGh! i hate the stupid street construction on lincoln. Im so tempted to go either BP city council or cypress city council and complain. It is sooo inconvienient and causes soo much traffic! Geez! I hate it stupid street construction, i really do! So Sen. Kerry took New Hampshire last nite, i predict he'll end up taking it all. Oh last nite it was funny, one of my SRE kids told from my class that if anyone ever is messing w/me tell them and theyll take curr of it! haha thas so funny, i love my kids!


Prayer meeting was explosive last nite!

"Watch out, my outfit?s ridiculous, In the club lookin? so conspicuous..."im done, im out GOd bless!

"Faith is the foretaste of that knowledge which hereafter will make us happy..."

The point of my entry yesterday was not to focus on the things ive been involved in. The point i was tyring to make is the importance of leadership. How a persons 'yes' into wanting to become a leader in a community is so important. You cant become a 'cafeteria' leader, pick and choose when you want to be available. A leader to a community, is a job, respsonsibility, and as burr said, an obligation. When you fail to do your job, then you fail to help win back souls for God's greater glory.

The empty Chair

A man's daughter had asked the local minister to come and pray with her father. When the minister arrived, he found the man lying in the bed with his head propped up on two pillows. An empty chair sat beside the bed. The minister assumed that the old fellow had been informed of his visit. 'I guess you were expecting me.' He said.

'No, who are you?' said the Father.

The minister told his name and then remarked, 'I saw the empty chair and i figured you knew i was going to show up.'

'Oh yeah, the chair,' said the bed ridden man. 'Would you mind closing the door?' Puzzled the minister shut the door.

'I have never told anyone this, not even my daughter.' said the man. 'But all of my life i have never known how to pray. At church i used to hear the pastor talk about the prayer, but i went right over my head. I abadoned any attempt to at prayer.' the old man continued, 'until one day four years ago, my best friend said to me,' JOhnny prayer is just a simple matter of having a conversation with Jesus. Here is what I suggest. Sit down in a chair; place an empty chair in front of you, and in faith see Jesus on the chair. Its not spooky because he promised, 'I will be with you always.' Then just speak to him the same wayu youre doing w/me right now.'

'So, i tried it and ive liked it so much that i do it a couple hours everyday. Im careful though. if my daughter sees me talking ot an empty chair, she'd either have a nervous breakdown or send me off to the funny farm.'

The minister was deeply moved by the story and encouraged the old man to continue on the journey. Then he prayed with him, annointed him with oil and returned to the church. Two nights later the daughter called to tell the minister that her daddy had died that afternoon.

'Did he die in peace?' He asked.

'Yes, when i left the house about two o'clock, he called me over to his bedside, told me he loved me and kissed me on teh cheek. When i got back from the store an hour later, i found him dead. But there was something strange about his death. Apparently, just before daddy died, he leaned over and rested his head on the chair beside the bed. What do you make of that?

THe minister wiped a tear from his eye and said, 'I wish we could all go like that."


Wow here comes another busy week!

"I feel so dirty, i feel so dirty wash my feet..."im done, im out God bless!

"The measure of love is to love without measure..."

YOu know i realized today that man all my life since elementary skool ive been active in some type of club/ministry/etc. Through those different things ive been active with, ive seen, learned, and developed types of leadership skills from different leaders who trained and taught me. Its amazing what you can pick up within so many yurrs. Elementary skool i was in saftey patrol(neyyooww), and student council two years in a row. Junior high, i was elected into ASB, i was then elected the position of historian. Keeping track of the memories of the different events ASB had put together. I was also historian one yurr in elementary skool also! ha! My eight grade yurr, i moved up and became activities commissioner. I was in charge of making sure each wednesday, the skool had noon time activity.

High school came and i was part of ASB again. MY freshmen yurr i was asked to be freshmen class treasuer. I ran for ASB the end of my freshmen yurr and sophmore yurr. ANother neeeyooww! So i was a loser and didnt get elected into the positions i had ran for. Although it sucked and i was upset that i didnt make it, praise God cuz it allowed me to serve in other ways. Sophmore yurr i became 'founding father' of a spanish club, i became president and ran the club pretty well i think. Junior year i became involved in the skool the newspaper, it was brought back to life after geez so many yurrs of not having one. I became the editor-in-chief, in charge of publishing and putting together a monthly skool newspaper.

That same yurr i got involved in the development of the our annual 'international week.' This was like planning for an LSS or a youf rally. In a sense its like planning for the spirit games now. I was the co-coordinator who helped put this event together. Senior year i got to be in ASB and i became inter club council commissioner. I was in charge of all the different clubs/organizations on campus. I had to hold monthly coloabo meetings w/the different leaders of the different clubs to tell them what was up. On top of that my main responsibility was to over see and plan international week. Like i said it wasnt an easy job and it took a lot of planning to do. Praise God for the fruits that it produced afterwards.

Even after HS i became active in teaching confirmation and 1st communion. Became asst. site director/enrichment coordinator at the day curr. Now yurrs later, im still involved w/so many different things. Praise God that He's pretty much kept me on the right path throughout my whole life. Praise God that my life was so consumed and still is by outside activities thurr was/is no room for getting into trouble. The reason why i say all this is cuz through serving to clubs/ministires/organizations throughout my whole life, ive seen leadership. Its through these different things, whur ive learned what leadership is all bout. How to become a leader and wha a leader is.

To me being a leader in a community is a pretty big job with many resposibilities. It takes a lot of commitment and dedication. This also means you and the rest of the leadership of the community is responsible for the souls of the community. You gotta be available and truly be committed in the service youre doing. That means going to core meetings as well as prayer meetings, not when you feel like it or when youre free but ALL THE TIME! The core group are the pillars holding up the community and when one of those pillars fall, the rest of the pillars have to carry the weight. When another one falls, thas one more less pillar carrying the weight. Point is all the pillars have to be thurr in order to hol it together.

For me personally, i have tons of other responsbilities, though i do my best to prioritize and balance my time out. Example, i teach confirmation each tues. from 7-830pm. BUt you say, 'hey dont you have prayer meetings also on tuesdays?!' Why yes i do have prayer meetings on tues. but i always make it a point to go straight to prayer meeting right after. Why? Cuz its my duty, its my job and its my resposibility as a core leader. Juss like an apple if the core on the inside is rotten, so is the rest of the apple. It takes a combined effort of whole entire core to produce good fruits for the community. I learned that if you cant be committed than, dont be in it. If you cant give your full 100% effort into the community/ministry, then step down or dont be part of it. Its not fair to the community when you cant put your whole effort to serving. The community starts to suffer when as a leader you neglect your duties.

The point is, if youre leader step up to the responsiblities of the position. A real leaders words are its actions, in wha they do and how they do it. Jus like in todays readings, St. Paul says when part of the body suffers they all suffer together. Same way with a core team and a community. I loved how nick said at the end of the meeting how we have souls here. A while back SOL had done a 'victim of his love' retreat at St. Bernards. It was a difficult one cuz of the participants werent very active, or responive. Though they said Praise God anyway. Turns out a year later, during a retreat or something a kid who went through that retreat at St. Bernards stood up and gave a testimony. Gave a testimony bout how SOL's retreat was the one thing that prevented him from committing suicide.

We have to be ready for the spiritual attacks of the devil. When youre life is juss perfect w/nothing going wrong, then something is wrong. Attacks are merely obstacles getting in our way of accomplishing our purpose. No one ever said, that serving God was going to be an easy job. When the attacks come, we gotta keep praying and stand firm. Think of those souls that you will be able to touch. Yes you may not see them right away but who knows later on you may come in contact w/that soul. Then praise God that you helped win another soul for God's greater glory. We cant let the attacks of the devil be excuses for serving God. Embrace the attacks and offering up your trials to God. He will guide you, He will direct you.

Leadership is avaiblity, commitment, intesnity, desire/dedication. Most of all it's YOUR service to God. We must love until it hurts.

"Eternal Father,
I offer Thee the most precious blood of Thy Divine Son, Jesus,
in union with the Masses said throughout the world today,
for all the holy souls in Purgatory."
Amen

"Blessed are they who stand firm when trials come; when they have stood the test, they will win the crown of life." -James 1:12


Let's get up and pick up our crosses today!

"Wake me up, wake me up to a new day..."im done, im out God bless!

"That man is truly humble who converts humiliation into humility..."

Agh! Burr woke me up yesterday jumping up on my bed. So i woke up and we loaded the bed that we gave him, into the curr. At the same time my parents were putting in my sisters new window. Now its onyl a matter of time till she gets her room back. Which means her junk will be out of mine! yesss! So i drove burr to his house and we unloaded the bed. ALl he has to do now is put it together. From thurr i went and ran some mini errands, picked up my ties at the dry cleaners, got a gift for the wedding, got a card at the 99 cent store. FOr being a 99 cents store, they really have nice quality currds. Go check it out sometimes, i recommend it!

1130 am was turn around skit practice. Praise God it was productive and errone showed up, which allowed us to get our skit stuff done. We've played around with different type of endings to have. WE have opition one whurr suicide grabs the leg of Jesus and tries to overtake him, leaving Jesus to stab suicide killing him for good. Then we have opition two, whurr suicide grabs the leg of the girl and bites it. Leaving the girl to kick suicide and then stab him w/a sword. Or...we have #3 which is my favorite, after Jesus takes on the sins of the little girl, suicide jumps up inbetween the girl and Jesus while they hug, pushes them and says, 'thurr is no happy ending hurr boys and girls!' Personally, i like opition #3 cuz its unexpected, so its not one of those 'and they lived happily ever after.' Man those kids would be really balling after that! haha

Came home then i got ready for tthe wedding. I figured since i was already late for the service, ill skip it and juss go to the reception. Besides, its not like i would be missing much, since it wasnt a mass. I had gone to my grandparent;s house to see if my grandpa could tie my tie. He's so funny cuz he attempted to do it a couple of times, but i thikn he forgot. THen when i went back to say bye to him he wanted ot try again. haha I ended up having to go to my pops to have him do it for me. So thanks pops for tieing my tie. Since i had some time to kill i got gas since i was running low. The reception was at my work, it was nice though. Small and yet intimate, i guess their dj cancelled out on them last min at the ceremony. How sad! The couple were running around last min to try to see wha they could for music.

The food was prepared by the bride's family. They had rice w/mushrooms and this cheese and ham inside a chicken. Quite interesting, then these small finger food type things. They had a shown a power point slide show of the couple growing up until now. Lots of city staff was thurr, at least one person in each dept. It was nice getting together and chillin w/co workers. We all got our jam on later on the dance floor. They had to juss use manual CDs being the dj wasnt thurr. Ha my boss told errone that i was going to the seminary and they all believed him! THye were all like, are you really going to the seminary? I was like huH?! HA what a trip he is. I left thurr all sweaty and hot ha from dancing. haha That cotton eyed joe dance mix song is the jam yo!

Came home changed and then i went to carson to meet up. I walked in and errone was like prayer meeting is over. ha So we all went to the crossroads, so we wont be lonely and chilled thurr. I actually enjoy it more then going to taps. I dont have to worry bout being shot over thurr. ha joking! Man thurr was tons of action going at the starbucks. MEt anthoneeze's girl who works at loft, very nice. I told her how i loved the loft's spam masaubi, maan i need to get my pb to make me some of those! those are bomb! I also met some of christy's ol hs friends, nice girl. Then we had a group of guys who were beatboxing, freestyling and altogether juss jammin. Later on, it all turned out to be people jammin' to all these different song.

It was d0pe as i heard peter and his crew sing, 'surely the presence.' Wow its like i could actually feel the presence of the GOd's angels among us. Then we had ginuwine;s pony song going, gm busted the 1st verse out and oh man it was hillarious! Charisse thought she could get hooked up w/free coffee by tryin to spit game at the guy. 'So rey you work hurr a lot?' haha Then thurr was this girl who looked like aayliah only shorter. Diocel and i had the whole 'aayliah called and she said she wants her hurr style back' hahahaha we were bof crackin up like no other. Man those are the best times up thurr at teh crossroads. Anthoneeze let me borrow to burn this CD he made, its sooo tight! I like going over thurr at crossroads, best time of fun you can have, is w/people who shurr the same interests as you. Amen!


See you at the crossroads, crossroads!

"So i stay up every night and on my knees i keep praying..."im done, im out God bless!

"We must fear God out of love, not love Him out of fear..."

Well, today is saturday and wow it looks like my sunday wont be as busy as i thought after all. Turns out the wedding i thought i was suppose to go to on sun. is on saturday. Ha good thing she called me yesterday and told me that the wedding was actually sat.! Otherwise, as i told anthony, i wouldve went on sunday all dressed up at this protestant church looking like a foo! haha So praise God cuz now ill have time inbetween core group meeting to go to mass and then still have a little bit of time inbetween before going to SOL. Actually, im kinda skurred to drive over thurr only cuz the last time i had gone, on the way back thas when i gotten into my car accident! Cuz the way i take to SOL, thurrs always so much traffic down thurr.

Oh man, its 11am already which means i gotta do a rush blog then head over to the SRE office for suicide skit practice. Ahh life is so hard, aww kawawa me! haha yeah right im joking bout the whole life being hard. haha Life isnt really hard, its only you the person who can make it so difficult. Anywya, so my throat is still pretty sore, im praying that it gets better soon. Though i did sleep really well last nite. It was soo nice, up until burr came into my room and jumped on me, waking me up! agh stupid burr! haha I felt so relaxed and warm and juss wanted to sleep.

Yesterday i had gone to confession/mass at sPc. I like fr. andrew, i always go to him now for confession. He's pretty d0pe, and gives you some really good advice, So next time you have to confession at sPc, go to him. Though its always hard to tell whos in his line cuz its outside behind the glass doors. Like one time i was waiting forever cuz it seemd like all these people were cutting in front of me! Its not like i could really say anything either cuz mass was going on at the same time. Ha imagine if i made a scene, oh that would be something. agh you cutted!!! agh, no i was hurr first!! agh go to end of line! agh, no youre dumb! agh no now imma have to tell father! haha

After confession i had time to kill before meeting up for lunch w/grace. So i went home and watched my soap. haha Then went to the lbtc for lunch w/grace and her friend rachel. I havent gone to the lbtc in forever, its seems thurrs more stuff then before. We went to this japanese/chinese buffet. IT was really good, except they charged extra for soft drinks! booo!THey had a wide variety of sushi, then most places. The music was like chinese music or something so it sounded like i was on the ride 'small world' at dineyland. Lunch was fun, maan grace could eat! She out ate me and her friend rachel put together! haha She said rachel and i were not good buffet eaters. haha We were cracking jokes on rachel and her 10 o clock curfew. Thas crazy, she's 18 and has a 10 'o clock curfew. WE asked her if she has one of those time clocks inside her house. Like she has a time currd that she punches in and out. hahaha Then grace said, 'when i turn 21, i want to go a shooting range.' Then rachel asked, 'wha do you do over thurr?' hahahahh

After lunch went home and took a nap before planning to go to St. LUcy's prayer meeting. So i went thurr and praise God cuz their community is growing. Gail gave a talk bout prayer, it was good. SHe's got good speaking skills, thas probably why shes a comm major. neeeyooww! haha She hardly ever said 'um' or the word 'llike' or mumbled her words. So good job gail, that a girl! hahaha
Fred and i were throwing questions to try and test her! haha fred said it is said that singing is a prayer also? And then when you dance its also a prayer? haha Then i said how come other people who are not catholics dont do the sign of the cross. Does that mean theyre not praying? hahah

Afterwards, the jfish and his pal fred show rolled along to cal bowl for bowling. It was fun i think im getting better or slowly improving. Watch by spring time and summer oh boy you betta watch out! With anything practice makes perfect yo. The more practice the better youre gonna get at it. Well thas it for now i must be going to suicide practice. I mean suicide skit practice, ha suicide practice, can you imagine?! haha

LAter on i charisse called me for our daily check up and daily routine talk. It was so funny earlier in teh day we were emailing each other back and forth like as if we were pen pals. So in one of my responses back i said hey this is kinda like that movie 'youve got mail.' Like weve never seen each other, but we communicate through email! haha it was fun, let me show you one of the emails she sent...oh this was only a joke, nothing of this is really true. haha

Dear Jason,

I'm so glad to have met you! I have never been to America before and hope to visit there some day. But before I can leave the Philippines I'm going to need a green card. Maybe you can help. Also, we are very poor and I have never been to--what you call--a dentist before. But I still have about 4 or 5 good ones. I used rice to stick the rest of my teeth to my gums--when rice dries it hardens. Maybe you can take me to the dentist when I go with you to America. Also, I will need some new clothes. All I wear are the skins from the carabao. But these skins are about 9 years old and when I scraped my elbow the fleas in my carabao skin laid eggs in my scar and now I can't move my arm. Maybe if you send me some money in the amount of 1,000,000 pesos I can see a doctor. Please take me to america soon, but first send me money.

I responded back...

dearest charisse,
the thought of you wearing carabo skin juss tickles me to death. Mi amor i would do anything to make sure i have you with me. Each nite, i look at your picture next to my bedside and i juss sigh. I wish you were here in my arms, we could be snuggling next to the fire while drinking red whine. i hope you like red whine. well it doesnt matter. ALl i know is that soon you will be hear by my side. Iv e been working out everyday thinking bout you. i would hold you in my arms and release your fears. Soon you will become my wife and no longer my girl. Until then youre in my heart! you are my mahal!


Ha pen pals are so much fun!

"THough im missing you, ill find a way to get through..."im done, im out God bless!

"The value of life does not depend upon the place we occupy. It depends upon the way we occupy that place..."

Ever since i woke up wed. morning ive felt this sore throart, as well as mild stuffiness. My body's letting me it needs rest. My tounge is pasty white color, it gets like that when i have a cold. I really need to push myself to go to bed earlier during the weeknights. THis way i dont get real sick and i give my body the rest it needs. I think that nap did it for me yesterday, taking that 1 hour nap messed me up. Oh well, Praise GOd for sufferings cuz its through them we become closer to Him. I really love that quote in regards to mass and suffering that St. Pio had said. I love the saints, dont you?! haha THey have the best quotes that have so much meaning to them, its wonderful!


I didnt achieve my goal of going to mass errday, though i did go thrice out of the week, counting that im going ot go today also. NExt week ill try getting to mass errday, cuz i gotta receive my daily bread. To fill my body w/his holy presence. YOu know it never crossed my mind until i read it today, but Mama Mary endured a lot of pain and suffering in her lifetime. I mean to asked to carry the son of God inside her womb w/o exactly being murried. Thas like captial punishment back then! On top of that to walk/sit on donkey for thousands of miles and then to have the birf of our Lord in a manager. Then, later on watch her son get beaten, mocked, scourged you name it, she watched it. To see her son she loved so much die on the cross for the salvation of man. Despite all the pain she went through, she never once complained. Wow!

Skool was aiight, my lit class instructor is letting me turn in the hw on mon. Praise God for that cuz the hw was a little confusing. I really dont like critically analyzing things unless its something that pertains to my interest. THough it was pretty interesting today when we broke down the whole short story. I found out that every word in a short story in literature has a meaning. That each words specifies something and that all those words didnt juss come together for no reason. Critical thinking is a lot of thinking haha, it requires me to be in a perfect calm, quiet area to focus. Cant wait to do my homework, now. Oh joy! Im so retarted i was sort of rushing from home thinking class was @ 11am. Took me a while to find parking, but praise GOd i found it. I was even able to park in those wicked parrell parking spots too and i made it! yay!

Work was coo, went to the market and got all my cooking supplies. The kids had fun making it and i did too. It was that dish my mom made for the spirit games meeting. I had received a lot of positive comments on how good the dish was. Even the city manager walked to my office to compliment me. THat was tight! Since i had to work till 830pm, i thought id be able to concentrate on doing hw. Ha yeah right, thurrs too many distractions going on thurr. Thurrs music playing, kids yelling, tap shoes tapping. SO to sum it all up, work was fine. I was going to go to the happy hour but i figured even if they were still thurr @ 830pm, most of them wouldve gone home within the next 10 min. I juss decided to stay home and chit ctat.

I got a email from crystal regarding next month;s meeting. Wow its gonna be hardcore, shes hookin up her wireless internet lap top to the projector. THis way the notes will be able to be typed for all to see and be able to be sent out right away. ON top of that she's providing all the good and drinks for us. Praise GOd! Then sehs gonna have like greeters to greet us and make sure our visit was hospitable and pleasnt. WE talked on the phone for a bout 45 min. shurring ideas, and talking bout spirit games stuff. After talking ot her, i felt inspired to call errone else on the committee and see how theyre doing. I think as leader you need to check up on your people. So i think over the weekend if i dont see them ill call them juss to check up on them. To me its always nice when someone asks how youre doing.

Then i had a nice long phono covo w/charisse before uprm council meeting. I think a lot of people are starting to feel the devil hit. THough like i told charisse, we arent gonna juss give in. We gotta fight and defend our church or else evil will sleep through it if were not gonna take curr of it. THe devil will hit hard cuz thurrs is juss too much going on. All these things that are coming are bearing the good fruits of good. Man when im sleepy i can figure out my thoughts. AHh i need rest, uprm council went well, praise God. Annd sccccceeennnnnnnnnne!


Praise God for living w/the communion of staints hurr in earf!

"WHenever i reach for you, ill do all that i can..."im done, im out God bless!

"THe flower does not bear the root. The root bears the flower. The rose is merely evidence of vitality of the root..."

I juss came back a bit ago from hanging w/my liwanag family. Yay! im in a liwanag family, inside the community they have small mini communities or families. I guess juss a way to get to know each more intimately and to build bonds/relationships w/people you may not know. My family is called, 'Shepherd's flock.' Which is funny cuz its a cross between SH music min. 'Shepherd's Voice' and the formally known group 'Lord's Flock.' haha There's about like 7 of us in my family, leo and angie are in it. We went to chill at the taps on the jambz. It was funny cuz a lot of the convo that took place was bout skool. While waiting in line to purchase my drink, kathee's sister told me to go in front of her cuz she wasnt ready. She said to me, 'im still deliberating on what to get.' haha neeeyyyyooow! Thas uci for you, home of the academic scholars! wow

ANyway, i had the hardest time waking up this morning. I was up all nite talking to grace online till like 2am. THough it was a fun convo, she works w/elementary kids who have emo problems. SOmething ot that extent, wow i thought my job was tiring. IM sure thas even worse! I can only imagine wha kind of kids are in that type of place. So anyway, were meet up for a late lunch on fri at the lbtc. Its been like 10 years since ive been to that place, no im exaggerating, but it has been quite a while. I love making friends and meeting new people, its the greatest! So thas whas on the agenda for this fri. Im probably gonna go to their charasmatic prayer meeting that nite too. There is juss too much going on these next two weeks.

So my part II story bout skool, i had my bio class this morning @ 8am. Praise God cuz i found purrking right away. The teacher is pretty interesting, though oh man he was sweating at like 8am in the morning. Im thinking why are so sweating so early in the morning? He had like sweat spots on his shirt and his hair was still wet. I dont know maybe he did a lot of running around before class started. Pretty busy class, but it sounds fun and interesting. ONce again, there arent any real cute girls in class. After bio i had maf and thurr was this girl who sat inf ront of me and she kept flipping her hurr. I was getting irritated cuz her hurr was coming all over my desk!
Agh! i was almost gonna move over to the next desk, but class was almost over.

After class i had a huge break before work, so i ran a few errands then went home. After eating lunch i was tired so i figured id take a nice nap to renegerize myself for the evening. Bad idea! The result of my nap made me real sleepy and tired the whole day through. My eyes were feelin heavy and whoa juss tired. It was to the point whurr i had barely any energy left for the day. Work was coo, went to the apt. complex thurr and did programming thurr. I told my boss that i enjoy going thurr. He told me, 'see i told you the spirit was calling you thurr.' He's so funny he told me today how bout we see if we can invite bishop jamie soto to bless the new community center. haha

I was going to go to mass today at St. Peter but i had to get my books for skool. So i went home and got my books for class. AS usual during the beginning of the semester the bookstore across the street was busy. THough it didnt take long for me to get wha i needed. THe girl next to us was trying ot get her books and her credit card was declined. Ouch! I dindt get to see wha she was going ot do. Went home and tried to get some rest but i couldnt. I felt like i had to be doing something. At about 830pm i finally got up and went to tito jess talk at sPv. Great talk even though i only heard the last half. Praise God for tito jess' class to help those who are not grounded in their catholic faith, understand it better. ANgie told me she's planning to take the class in march. I think that will be a pretty big class, i know charisse is going to take it also. IM trying to get leo to take it also.

I was laughing to myself cuz on the way to irvine, that song 'all by myself came on.' It was juss funny cuz i was all bymyself in the curr. No, i didnt start to feel emo im not all bymyself really cuz GOd is with me! yay! THas it for now, i should get rest for another long day!


Praise GOd for apologetics!

"When i was young, i never needed anyone those days are gone..."im done, im out GOd bless!
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"Christ made my soul beautiful with the jewels of grace and virtue. I belong to Him whom the angels serve..."

Wow today was my first day of skool and boy it was a long day today. I started off the morning w/mass and i was so lazy that i almsot didnt go. Praise God that he made it cold enough for me to push myself out of bed and get up. Ahh! im going to miss sleeping in till 9-10am! Actually i should be going ot bed real soon since i got class @ 8am. Anyway, went to mass and it was a great way to start off the morning. Mass was nice, fr. i dont know his name gave a real good homily this morning @ St. I. I like the 830am mass thurr its kinda mid morning ish. not too early, but not too late. After mass got ready for skool then left.

It took me a little while to find parking, but as always GOd provides. He found me a nice front row parking spot. WEnt to my first class which was maf, it was a small class of only 16 of us. I hope they dont cancel or change it to the 11am class. THis is the only class that fits in w/my schedule to take it at the 10am slot. After class i had a this huge break so being the heifer i am and not having a projekt sexy or a projket maui to worry bout i endulged myself at Jack in the box. Ha! I walked over thurr then walked back. I didnt want to loose my parking spot siince i was oh so blessed ot have front row. Came back from jack w/a half hour to kill, so i wandered around campus seeing if thurr was anyone i could talk to. I ran into wendy whom i ahvent seen, talked or kicked it w/in forever. It seems like things are still the same w/her.

THen candance walks through the door and oh man! Double take! She was totally different since the last time i saw her. I had to forreal double check to see if it was her! She told me she had lost 15 pounds over break. She goes its funny normally people put on weight during holidays but i ended up loosing it. Praise God for will power! Before she wasnt fat or anything not even real close to being heavy set. Now shes lost it all, which is whoa! Turns out we have the same eng 102 literature class together. So which brings to me to my intro. to literature class. THe instructor ive taken for like 3 semesters in a row. Very challenging teacehr as far work load and grading goes. But she makes you really learn a lot and helps you grow. Very passionate bout seeeing people for who they are. The whole seeing Jesus in each other type lecture, she gave. Though w/o adding any religous beliefs in it. The class is going ot be a challenge i can say that right now. Ha i sat in the front row, front desk too! neeeeeeeeeyoooowwww haha

In the two classes i had today, there are no girls. Maybe this will be good so i wont get distracted forom dazing off in class. I have one more class which is bio tomorrow morning @ 8am. Hopefully there are some cute girls in thurr, but i honestly doubt it. Most people take classes @ like 0930am which is peak time for most people. Theyre probably be all neeeeyyyooooows inside that class being that its so freakin early in the morning! Agh! i was upset this morning i wanted ot eat waffles for breakfast, but my sister ate them all! agh!!!! So i had nothing ot eat for breakfast, aww kawawa me! WOrk was coo, same ol, watched the lion king and then i started to fall asleep during the stampede part whurr mufasa dies. Aww kawawa simba! I so wanted to take a nice long nap. I was watching my soap today, 'days of our lives' and i found out who the salem stalker/killer is! NOw its gonna take forever for them to catch her. agh!

YOuf alpha was great, i love my group even though at times theyre non responsive. I like teasing jerel and making fun of him. There this one kid abaraham whos in pops group(pops lets swap kids)who is very involved. He's very active and participates in the songs and everything. A while back ago i had complimented and thanked him for his efforts. I was touched cuz our last song was the 'by your side' song. I taught them the actions and the songs and they seemed into it. Praise God! I was touched cuz as that kid abraham was walking out, he was showing his friend the actions! awww I threw out cany again too that i got way back from halloween! hahaha i needed ot get rid of it since i dont eat it.

Prayer meeting was nice, it was great to see nicole and krystal again. Gosh its been forever since nicole has came back to prayer meeting. Let alone krystal too, i remember the summer she brought all her friends to prayer meeting. Those were the days when it was standing room only. We were so packed that there was a point, whurr we thought we were gonna be able to have prayer meeting inside the church. :Sigh: now were a small group again, hopefully that will change by the end of april. Granted the SH congress votes and passes the SH bill 8736 regarding LSS in the spring. So im praying for that. Raymond and anthoneeze came out and prayed w/us also. I didnt expect to see them tonite, but praise God they came out. I forgot theyre rushing for uPrM so they kinda have to. haha It seems were back to the whole mc donalds for fellowship again which is nice. I enjoy fellowshiping afterwards, but tonite i was juss out of it. I think its juss been a long day and well my energy level was decreasing.

Favor to ask all of you, i was sent this email bout this 20 yo guy named matt who has been diagosned w/lekumia. They had originally asked people to send online e-cards to him but juss yesterday alone he received 145! Wow praise God but now theyre asking if anyone would be nice enough to send snail mail letters/cards juss to help the guy. As catholics, thas one of our corporal works of mercy. To help the sick, so matt is sick and needs our prayers and help. Even if you dont know the guy, send him a card and even maybe a prayer card or rosary to go w/it. Im sure if that was you even if you didnt know people youd still want their encouragement. In fact i sent the guy an ecard juss the other day.

Hurrs is the address:
Matthew Binns
c/o Fr. J. Sichko
P.O. Box 22872
Lexington, KY 40522


Pray for me cuz its gonna be one busy semester!

"Someday when im awfully low, when the world is cold i will feel a glow just thinking of you..." im done, im out GOd bless!

"Where words fail, music speaks..."

Alright today was cool, mass was juss great. Fr. Ed talking bout our spiritual life is like a bird w/two wings. If we wish fly high in our spiritual life, we need two things: Prayer and Penance. If you have one but not the other, its like having only one wing. Like a bird who is helpless on the ground cuz one wing is broken. He was telling the story of a crow he saw while walking one day. AS Fr. got closer the crow didnt move, and he was wondering why it hant flown away. Its wing was broken, and so i thought aww kawawa crow, now its gonna get eaten by some cat! That sucks, its sad to see a helpless animal on the ground.

Back to the lesson, so we need prayer and penance to fly high in our spiritual life. He said americans are not fasting, you have all the others faiths, who know how to fast, except for us catholics. So why do we do penance? Well Jesus said if we dont do penance then were gonna perish. Meaning were gonna go to hell! So, here are three reasons on why we do penance:

1. We are all followers of Jesus. WE are called to imitate Christ in every way, Jesus life was full of penance. During the first part of his ministry he fasted up in the dessert for 40 days and nites.
2. WE have to do injustice for our sins, its kinda like we either pay now w/penance or we can pay later and suffer the consquences of doing that.
3. The more youre willing to suffer for the salvation of souls, the more you will be able to help bring eternity to. Are we willing to suffer for a loved one?

We must compare ourselves to the saints, they had one thing that we dont have. That's will power, the Saints had no problem giving up things they didnt need. Will power is the one thing that seperates us from them. So after mass i was checking out some of the xangas, blogs, blurtys etc. I ran across JOsh from yfc's xanga. It was inspiring cuz he talked bout how he went all last week fasting. To lift up the camp core team and participants. It was d0pe cuz each day he gave up something new and different. I told him that his sacrafice helped bring souls into eternity. Praise God!

Im feeling this online adoration, juss viewing Jesus from my computer is great. I reccomend you check it out @ www.savior.org. I think cyril was the confirmation i needed bout spirit games venue. She received from her sister a name tag that said, St. Therese on it. With the name tag came a cross and cermaic plate that had flowers, which said 'confirmation' on it. I guess St. Therese was her sister's confirmation name. I told her my story bout the white rose. In any case i asked the whole committee to continue to pray for the venue and encouraged them to pray the 9 days novena. This way by next month we will all have the same clear answer and there will be no doubts. I love this committee!

Well i found this really d0pe relfection upon the adoration today and it inspired me. So im going to shurr it w/yall. Its from St. Matilda, its juss so wow! I copied it and printed it out and put it on my desk. Juss as a reminder, i shurred the online adoration site w/all my coworkers today also. Thas sooo d0pe!

At the moment of Consecration, I come down first in such deep humility that there is no one at Mass, no matter how despicable and vile he may be, towards whom I do not humbly incline and approach, if he desires Me to do so and prays for it; secondly, I come down with such great patience that I suffer even My greatest enemies to be present and grant them full pardon of all their sins, if they wish to be reconciled with Me; thirdly, I come with such immense love that not one of those present can be so hardened that I do not soften his heart and enkindle it with My love, if he wishes Me to do so; fourthly, I come with such inconceivable liberality that none of those present can be so poor that I would not enrich him abundantly; fifthly, I come with such sweet food that no one ever so hungry should not be refreshed and fully satiated by Me. Sixthly, I come with such great light and splendor that no heart, how blinded soever it may be, will not be enlightened and purified by My presence. Seventhly, I come with such great sanctity and treasures of grace that no one, however inert and indevout he may be, should not be roused from this state.


Skool starts today, agh!

"In the still of the night, i held you, held you tight..."im done, im out God bless!

"You cannot shake hands with a clenched fist..."

As i was going through this evening highlight certain scripture passages i came across one that i really liked. Ephesians 4:7-16, the verse talks bout using the gifts God has given us to build up his church. How we should grow together in faith in love, with Christ being the head and we being joined together at by every supporting ligament with the proper functioning of each part, brings about the body's growth and builds itself up in love. Meaning that each one of us must support each other. In order to grow and build the church up we have to work together. This seems to be a lesson that ive been constantly being reminded bout especially this weekend. I think ive gotten to the point whurr that ugliness i was feeling inside has left.

Mass was nice this morning, the second reading was one of my favorites. The one bout the spiritual gifts of the holy spirit. On how each one of us has a special gift, a special talent that God has blessed us with. The second part in being blessed w/that gift is using it wisely. Wisely meaning using it for God's best interest. Which, isnt always the easiest thing to do. In the talk bout backsliding last nite fr. raymond mentioned that if youve been doing real well and you happen to backslide and yet dont repent of your sins. All the righteous things you have done in the previous life will be forgotten. Pretty skurry, but it makes you want to work so much harder in repenting than before.

Speaking of the Fr. raymond's talk, i loved how he said, when you stand in the front, the devil will work on your soul twice as hard. This way you will fall flat on your butt. What does it mean by standing on the front? Standing in the front as far as leadership goes. The devil knows who is really out thurr to bring the kingdom of God to earf. So he is going to work extra hard on those people who are doing his work. Example priests, priests are people who stand in the front line. THe ones that devil constantly attacks cuz he knows priests are very powerful men of God. It only takes one person to be converted. ONce that person is converted then he will be inspired to go out and convert others.

I guess my whole point is as leaders of anything when doing the work of God we gotta be always ready for the attacks. We have to be alert and not sleeping on the job, cuz it only takes one time to be hit real hard and not want to get up again. The attacks the devil will try to throw at us should be expected. We can't say i dont know if i should continue to do God's work cuz im going to get attacked. By doing that youre throwing down your cross and saying i give up. When you give up, youre loosing a soul, a innoncent soul in which couldve been brought back to the church. God equips us w/the weapons we need, St. Pau even tells us that in ephesians 6:10-17.

OKay im tired, im going to sleep now. I wish i had tomorrow off! agh! Oh well, work i shall go to. I wish i was able to go the casitas at St. Lucys tomorrow. BUt thas at 5pm and i dont get off work till 6pm. I want to start like a bible study up, thurr is juss so many great things in the bible to discuss and talk bout. It helps you understand it better also when youre shurring it w/a friend. I had a blast going through my bible and highlighting all those d0pe verses. Oh yeah i got to talk to nicole again today. She might help us out and sing for youf alpha! Oh hooray! Have a great week, errone!


Read your bible daily errone!

"Never wanted to see things your away, had to go astray oh why was i such a fool..."im done, im out God bless!

"Conversion is not a once upon lifetime conversion. Conversion is something that should happen everyday..."

I thought id start off my entry by telling yall something really nice that happened at work the other day. It was bout 30 min before closing and one of the parents whos children attend my program comes in. She hands me a flyer for Tito Jess' talk thas happening next wed. SHe told me she was juss at St. Joseph's book store and thought id be interested in the talk. I told her i had taken his class before and i know tito jess personally. I thought that was totally cool juss how she took the time out to promote tito jess' talk. Praise God for catholics in the work place!

The day was pretty busy, one thing right after the other took place. I had gone to bannes for breakfast, she made me her infamous hawaiian grilled cheese rolls. On top of that we had omlett w/kalbasa sasuage w/cheese. It was really good, so next time its gonna be my turn for the mini iron chef to whip up one of this dishes for her. Despite the fact i was tired, and was almost gonna postpone it was really worf it. It was good way to start the morning w/a great breakfast. THen i had gone home for a small nap, until charisee called and woke me up. Ha its coo though im glad to help out a sista in CHrist. I guess ti was good she woke me up cuz it was time to get ready to leave for turn around skit practice.

I had gone to LF last nite juss in time for fr. raymond talk bout backsliding. It was a really good talk that had a lot of meaning. Backsliding is like a spiritual cancer that eats away at your soul. In fact like the disease you dont even know you have it. Its like going back to sin. This condition is a gradual, worsening condition weakens our spiritual condition. Frustration, emptiness, discouragement, dryness and laziness all feelings and experiences of backsliding. SO wha are the causes of backsliding? Hurr are some of hte common causes:
1. Lack of sufficient grounding-you cant do it on your own, you gotta get yourself in a community.
2. Love of the world-no closure to the previous life.
3. Temptation
4. Santanic Reception-He knows our weaknesses
5. Persecution and affliction
6. Offenses
7. Breakdown of Spiritual discipline
8. False conversion

With causes there are results of wha happens to us when we fall into Spiritual backsliding.
1. OUr condition grows worse then in the beginning
2. Bondage and oppression-you feel as if youre being controlled
3. Cursing, dissapointment
4. Shame & guilt
5. Spiritual unworthiness-Feel as if no matter how big youre sins are the Lord will never forgive them.

The talk was something i really needed to hurr. The talk was very motivational, it made me realize how really deadly this spiritual disease is. I had asked fr. raymond too if hed be interested in possibly giving a talk later on in the future for prayer meeting. Fr. raymond is d0pe he tells you how it is, but always in a loving way. One of those priests who really currs for the souls he administers too and wants nothing but the best for them. He's got quite the sense humor also. So in conclusion hahaa jk but on the reals, its something that spoke out to me and inspired me.

Afterwards, we had all gone to starbucks at the crossroads. LF is always down for some good ol fellowship after prayer meeting. IT was tight we were all jammin to these ol skool jams errthang from lisa lisa, the go gos to even montell jordan! ha i think the best was the ginuwine pony song we were all singing. Earlier charisse called me and told me bout her answered prayer after confession. We bof talked bout juss working together has become a real blessing. Always good to know that there is someone out thurr walking the same walk w/you. Had a good convo w/anthony bout family and spirituality. Also why he'll randomly bone out while talking online. ha now i understand, so next time he bones ill know why.


And it's coming soon, uPrM turns 2!

"THat is the reason why i wanna spend forever with you..." im done, im out GOd bless!

"Definition of forgiveness: The perfume a flower leaves on the shoe that crushed it..."

I think SH and SOL are probably the only groups ive done to, whurr we can sit down during praise & worship. I personally, perfer sitting down and letting the spirit soak in me. I hate standing cuz then my feet start to hurt and who knows how long you can be standing. Especially, when youre being lead by the Spirit. Oh man you can be standing forever!! ALl the other groups ive gone to stand up during praise & worship, which is nice too. Juss me personally im always on my feet at work and errwhurr else, so i juss perfer sitting down. Ha whur did that thought come from? No whurr really, juss a ranDUMB thought that popped up.

I bummed it out the whole morning, it seems emailing charisse back & forth come into my daily routine. Haha forreal well email each other back & forth about 10 times until she finally or i finally say i have to go. Its almost like our hour long phone conversations. It sucks when you aint got no curr cuz i cant do the things and errands that id liek to do. So the whole morning i did nothing but sit around. Laziness has seem to got the best of my mornings. Especially, when you wake up late in the morning. For me, i like sleeping in but i also like getting up early but not too early. I think ideal wake up time is about 9-930am. The morning isnt completely killed and im juss in time to go to sturrs when they open to take curr of errands.

Afterwards, when my sister and mom came home i left to pick up my sunglasses at work. The past couple days ive seem to have keep forgetting them. Then from thurr i had gone to sPc cuz i needed to go confession. Im the type of person, spiritually that when i fall from grace i need to get back up thurr asap. Went over to sPc finding there was no priests around to hurr confessions. I saw wha it looked like SRE groups instead of priests inside confessionals/offices. I thought oh why?! I have to be some place @ 630pm so i cant come back later on. I sat in front of Jesus asking him to send a priest cuz i wanted to get to confession. After finishing my chaplet of divine mercy, i saw fr. greg walk in. I guess this other guy was going to go confession. Father asks if i need to go to confession and i said yeah! So i had answered prayer!

From confession, i went to rent a video to kill time before 515pm mass @ sPv. I had rented marci X and open ranger. I havent had the chance ot really sit down and watch the movies though. LAter on this afternoon i think i will. From thurr i had gone to 515 sPv mass. It was a nice feeling only cuz i havent gone to sPv daily mass in forever! I told myself i have to go to mass at least once a week. At least on fridays, since i dont got work on fridays. Was able to receieve Jesus once again, so that was great! Saw Tita linda and banne after mass and chatted it up briefly w/them. RUshed home and dropped off the movies, and i was off to St. Lucys.

I had went and checked out St. Lucy's in Long beach the charasmatic prayer group. Theyre juss babies over thurr. Gail and charisse met me up over thurr. It was really d0pe cuz the adult servant leader had a propehcy bout i guess the 3 of us coming to their prayer meeting. She was really thankful for coming out and supporting them. Theyre structure is like lf, especially w/the food part at the end. Yum! Maybe if our community grows real big, we can have food too. Then again maybe not cuz theyre strict on food and we gotta be outta thurr by like 10pm. Anyway, they split up the youf from the adults after the praise & worship session. Charisse started a joint brainstorm session on wha Grace would like to see for her community. Errone kinda put in their two cents, how to make the community grow.

Bof charisse and i agreed, we see a lot of growing in numbers and in the spirit. Im really excited to see the outcome of this community. Theyre all so eager to really grow, which is a good sign. THey expressed how theyd like to have more knowledge regarding scripture wise. To me i think that is juss d0pe. I gave them SH business cards, which totally come in handy. I also told them bout aplogetics and tito jess' talk that's coming up. Which reminds me i need to email grace bout the talk. So i had a purpose to be thurr last nite and it turned out to be real productive as well as fruitful. Praise God! I had offered my assitance into the growing of the community, so if they ever need anythng i told them to let me know. Ha it was funny when the jang, the adult servant leader said her praise report, she said how she emailed gail a couple of times but gail never replied back.

Afterwards, we went to cal bowl for some good ol fellowship. Mark and rolled w/me over thurr, he's like my navigator while in the lBc. He's a funny guy, makes me laugh w/his very open personality. So we got thurr and we had to wait forever cuz they other party was taking forever. Grace wasnt joking when she said she needs to work on her punctuality. Yall know how i am bout people that arent punctual! agh! So anyway, we played 2 games of bowling. Fred had joined us and we turned into a competition. Maan thurrs got be a mike in every community! So the teams whurr, mike, mike deleon and grace. Then on the other side was nem, mark and nem's friend aaron. I had totally sucked butt in the first game, though torwards the end i picked up. So we won the first game, but then we kinda evened out in the second game. Fun times!

So we were hungry after bowling and went to dennys to eat. Well it took them like a 30 min. and still hadnt helped us. We ended up walking out maan they were real slow. It must be a denny's trademark to have sloppy, slow service. Luckily, there was a del taco in the same area, so we went thurr instead. Though the dinning area was closed, so we ate and chilled outside. Some sherrif's came around and they went through drive thru too, but looking at us to see if were causing trouble. Then like 15 min. later all of a sudden the sirens went off and they boned out. Ahh yes i knew i was in the lbc when i hurrd sirens. Towards the end of the nite, mike deleon, grace, nem and i jammed out w/action song parking lot jam. We did it all from making melodies, to builds the faith. Ha oh for fun! i love it!

Well it seems that i wont be going on any time of camps this or next weekend. TOo much stuff going on. Thas it for now, until next time, please keep some of my special intentions in your prayers!


Praise God for charasmatic communities!

"Bob Marley reincarnated, pupils dialated emancipated, concentrated, debated, rated many times..."im done, im out God bless!

"Happiness is not a destination, but a journey..."

I juss finished watching 'Bring it on again'THe movie wasnt as good as the first one. In any case thas wha happens w/most sequels and prequels, its juss not as good as the first one. THough it did bring up lessons on leadership and humbleness. Two qualities a leader definetly needs to have. Other than that it was aiight, im glad i didnt go watch it in the theatres. A movie i want ot see though in the theatres, is 'you got served.' Yeah i like watching those urban type dance movies, even though theyre all pretty much the same thing. That doesnt come out until the end of the month though. Geez, i cant believe this month is over in 2 weeks. Already one month into the new year, 5 months away before white wedding in maui and 6 months away before spirit games.

Yesterday i had lunch w/burr at htb, i had to fufill my debt to him. We make up these weird games like whoever says 'hi' to each other first online gets a point. Then whoever gets 10 points first wins. Well the past 2 times we did it, it ended up being a tie. So no one won and it evened out, this time he won. When i sign on, my buddy list kinda lags coming up so i cant IM him right away. Hes got the advantage only cuz he's like a hawk awaiting for its prey. Point and case, burr won that time cuz i let him win. So kawawa me had to take him out to lunch. They had a lot better selection this time then last time for lunch though.

Work was chill, it seemed some of us were pretty dressed up for a casual day. I got many compliments on my shirt that i was wurring yestreday. Actually that style of a shirt was something i was looking for to wurr on Christmas. Though never was able to find anything like that. I had the kids make brownies w/walnuts, they had fun doing that. Its hard to eat brownies w/o milk. Your mouf gets all gooey and chocloatey until you get some milk up in thurr. Mmm milk and brownies taste the best! Remember those brownie bites! i use to love those, i wonder if they still them at the markets. I could eat a whole package full w/milk!

After work went to SRE, jeanne's class joined mine for a bit. Theyre class is juss total opposite of mine, her kids are a lot older then mine. SO we did this small icebreaker bout right and wrong, since that was wha the whole lesson was about. Then we discussed mortal and venial sin. Talked bout Adam and eve, bout original sin. I felt i threw out a little too much and kept jumping from place to place. THough i juss felt the spirit juss move me and take me over. SO wha was i to do, tell the spirit to stop moving in me?! haha But praise God cuz the class was pretty responsive, which always is a good sign. Then we had a review at the end and i was quite impressed. They did a great job, remember errthang that was thrown out ot them.

Then after they left, i was talking to my class about adultery. Subjects like that are kinda iffy to touch on only cuz i have some kids who are in HS and then i got some kids who are in juss barely in 7th grade. But i tried to put it to them as easy as possible. I told them its like watching stuff in a rated R movie that only couples who are murried should be doing. I hope they got the concept, but the class was very productive. I think its a lot easier when theyre all sitting on one table, easier for me to keep an eye on all of them. Afterwards, i had gone to the blessed sacrament and prayed the 4th day novena and my chaplet.

WE had a nice fellowship at the block last nite, the guy plus, liza and richelle came out along w/angie, jason and leo from liwanag. Man im craving a crunchy roll right now, theyre soooooo good! ANthoneeze called me once they got to the block cuz they were looking for kojis. I had welcomed them out of the skirts of teh ghett0 and into the sun of the OC. Ha i said, 'welcome to the OC.' haha We had a great time getting to know each other, laughing and having some drinks. It was d0pe cuz at first they werent gonna let angie in cuz i guess afer 930pm, its 21 and over only. Well that sucked, so they sat at the edge of the patio and talked to us a bit. Then bout 10 min. later the security guy let angie in. Yay!

I had let angie in on a little secret, secret last nite. It took us forever to get waited on, i had to go in like 3 times and ask to get someone out on the patio. The place wasnt as packed as it was last time. Probably cuz its not summer too. Fred and anthoneeze did karaoke. THere was this ol man who had done i forgot wha song but he did it so well. I had one drink which lasted me the whole nite, im not into the hard strong stuff. I like the swe3t and sour type of drinks. The hard ones dont really mix too well into my system. Arch came too pretty much towards the end and as much as i wanted to stay i couldnt. Got home and was pretty disturbed by an email that i had received.

In fact the email ruined my nite of fun. I was telling julie last nite bout it and it was juss frustrating! agh! Funny thing this morning charisse emailed me and told me she had lifted up a situation i had told her bout in her prayers. She said for some reason she felt inspired too, i emailed her back telling her how angry i was when i got home last nite. I guess the spirit knew i had a rough nite. Well bout the question i posed yesterday, hurr is the answer most people came up with. Basically they all said, 'once youre a priest always a priest.' Though anthoneeze had a slight different one.

I dont know wha is in store for this weekend, my last free weekend before skool starts. Im thinking of going to St. Lucy's charasmatic prayer group tonite and meeting the leader thurr. She has joined the spirit games committee too now, so i think i'll pay a visit. Either that or ill look and see wha else is going on. Seems many people are going away for the weekend, either camps, summits or family stuff. MAybe ill go to LF tomorrow evening, well see wha happens. Well until then, pray for me and for each other.


I love reading Isaiah 49:15-16!

"Could love be so real, and if it is, I will... I'll give you all I have ..."im done, im out God bless!

"Hope is a good thing, maybe the best of things, and no good thing ever dies..."

So im gotta take burr out to htb today to fufill my bet obligation to him. I really dont want to go to htb for lunch only cuz they dont have a nice selection. I only like going thurr for brunch cuz they got a better selection thurr. :sigh: But bets must be fufilled, so htb it will be for lunch today. Work was aiight yesterday. I love goign to the park plaza apt. complex on wed. It was so cute there was little kid yesterday who was juss so involved. At the end when i was putting all the stuff away, him another kid who were really small, were carrying one of those carrom boards. Well those things arent the easiest things to carry. I was suprised they were carrying it, but it was so funny cuz they were on each side carrying it. So i told them juss to put on the side of the truck, ha they ended up putting it inside the truck. What great kids! He was helping me put errthang away till the very end. Great kids, they juss need something to do.

I finally got my hawaii reservations squared away. Thanks to aela who take curr of the hotel and ride accomodations for me. Its gonna cost $700 for a whole week, which includes the hotel and ride accomodations and airfurr. So i think i got a really good deal. As the months pass by hawaii is getting to sound better and better. Im excited, its gonna be a great way to get a away and juss relax. Weddings are a great thing! Its like you see the whole congregation of heaven also juss smiling down upon the couple and their commitment to each other. So im gonna pose a question that my boss asked me on tues. He said he had a friend who was a priest before, but then later down the line he felt his calling was not to be a priest anymore. He resigned and then ended up getting murried and starting a fam bam tribe. The question im posing, is do you feel once a priest always a priest? or do you think God could call them to serve elsewhurr later on?


I had spend most of the morning emailing charisse back and forth from work, while watching real world daygo. Which reminds me i need ot pray the 4th day of the novena today. ANyway, it was like we were on the phone talking except juss emailing. haha It was pretty funny, we did that like 12 times before we bof had to go. I think she's a great person to help me when i tend to loose focus. REal world daygo is pretty crazy! I dont think thurss anyone attractive in that cast. But imagine if they made a real world put together of different community leaders. HA! that would be pretty funny. I remember when we were at the mission trip last yurr, jennif and i were doing our own rendition of real world. IT was pretty funny, juss like how we acted out our own dismissed during mike g.'s grad party. HA! the memories...

After work i had really felt the need to go to confession. So i had gone to sPc, and i had gone to a different priest too. I really like that guy fr. andrew i think his name is. I went to him last week and he was a really good priest. A lot different from the rest of the sPc priests, he actually served mass last nite. He sang the whole 'holy, holy...' in latin too for mass, it was pretty crazy! But i really like going to him for confession, his confessional is the one as you first walk in. Right before the glass doors, i was kinda getting impatient last week when i went cuz i felt all these people were cutting in front of me! Though i was able to go, so i guess thas all that matters.

Went to irvine last nite and went to yfc for the first time this yurr. It was pretty fun, it was great seeing all them kats again. Randell's has hurr now, ha its pretty different seeing him w/hurr. Only cuz when i first met him his head was shaved. We had played this fun game called electricity. I think its a game id like ot bring up for spirit games. Our group had won the game yay! Then we had put this puzzle together, the annual winter quarter puzzle. Then leo, mark anthony and i had prayed over ed before he was to lead the praise & worship. Praise & worship was really nice. Felt the spirit moving and i felt peaceful too probably cuz i had juss gone to confession prior. I got to see angie again that foo is hillarious, her and her guru! hahahahahahahhaha oh man i was busting up last nite. Then she had ralph on, i love that smell!

Later on leo, took me out to ihop for a meal. I thought i was hungry, but i guess not cuz i didntr even get to finish most of my meal. I ended up taking it home, it was cool, ha i guess we finally got hang out. Derek came too and so the three of us were talking. Ha it was kinda funny cuz leo didnt that the crystal cathedral wasnt catholic. He told me liwanag did suicide skit for their first meeting. Wow theyre hardcore they go out and buy flowers at the flower shop for the little girl. I really need to make myself over to a liwanag meeting some tues. nite. I love that community!

I guess liwanag is having a 'chill' retreat next weekend up in big burr. ITs only $20, so i may go. When he first told me bout it, i was under the impression it was at interfaith. I told him yeah maybe ill stop by or something, no wonder errone was like 'huh stop by?!' YFc is having their campus base camp too this weekend up in running springs. Thas whurr they had all the furrs and wha not. Thas $30 to go, but i think imma have to choose one or the other. Well see wha comes up during the week. Its too much to be gone bof weekends in a row, but i dont know i may have a purpose in going to bof!

AH yes the work week is finally over! annnnnd sceeeeeene!


Thanks Leo for last nite, i owe ya!

"YOure all i want, youre all i ever needed, youre all i want, help me know you are near..."im done, im out God bless!

"Don't call me a saint - I don't want to be dismissed that easily..."

Wow oh wow, i feel so lazy the weeks i dont have a car. Im juss so unproductive and real lazy. Ever since ive been back to work, i wait for fridays to come. I think being off for 2 weeks was nice cuz i didnt have to worry bout going to work in the afternoons. Oh well i gotta make $$ some how otherwise someone wont be able to go to hawaii this summer. Burr came over for lunch today and we had bahon together at my house. It was fun i fed him teriyaki chicken my mom made from the nite before. After i ate i felt so tired that i wanted to sleep, you know that whole laziness feeling after eating lunch. So he took me to work and it was coo. Pretty chill, real kick back. Honestly im trying to look busy from the time i come in till bout 3pm.

WE watched a bugs life today at work. I dont think ive actually sat and watched the whole entire movie before. Today was the first time, its a really cute movie. IT makes you think is a bugs life really like this?! ha no not really okay, anyway i enjoyed the movie. THough i did kinda fall asleep at certain parts of the movie. I sit thurr and watch the movie and i start to get sleepy. My eyes will start to shut off and on. ha Good thing none of the kids really see me. Man i tell you the kids i work w/are sooo OA. They swear i treat them soo bad! Example today they were eating top ramen in the room. Well they were eating it from the bag, so its not cooked, still hard and raw. I dont know how they could eat it like that. Anyway, i told them they make a mess theyre gonna have to pick it up and errthag else on the floor. Well they did make a mess so i told them to pick it up and they made the biggest deal. They were like, 'Wha am i your slave ja$on?!' i juss thought oh gosh, theyre so OA!

ANyway, i was glad 6pm came so i could go home. I got home rested briefly, then went to SRE/prayer meeting. Youf Alpha was nice, pops gave his talk bout the bible. Im really excited to give my talk! I told my group after the retreat were gonna have a confession party. Meaning were all gonna go to confession together as a group. Then imma get them boba afterwards. I was teasing jerel most of the nite. haha He's a good kid, he takes it real well. Fr. Brennan came and told the kids a couple of jokes. Some of them didnt get it but laughed anyway. I told them oooh imma tell father that you were frontin. That you really didnt understand the joke but laughed anyway. haha They got kinda skurred cuz i got up out of my churr. haha

Prayer meeting was phat, actually it seemed real lively like tonite. PRaise reports juss went on forever only cuz tito tom loves to talk! His praise report bout the 'effin man' hahahahahaha oh man thas something well never forget. IT was great that our friends from Carson and Long beach came to visit. I love have visitors from other communities come and visit us. So big ups to SLY and LF for coming down. I think the de leon brothers are totally d0pe. Mark is so funny, i love it how he always makes an effort to say wassup to me. Mike makes a really good leader. I told him that too that juss watching him last wed. i saw Jesus in him. Cryil and mikee are a great couple, theyre like a mini version of burr and boss lady. So full of God's love and growing together w/Him in the middle of them. I love it! Geez the two of them have visited more communities than i have. We talked bout putting together in SOL daygo trip. Then like spending the nite down thurr.

WEll thas all i really have to say for tonite. Im excited for Holy Spirit sat. to come. I started this year to update my daily organizer. Meaning that ill write something in like wha i did daily errday. Today is day 3 of the St. Therese novena, and day 1 of the Chaplet of Divine MErcy novea. I praise God that he has allowed such a great group of leaders to come together. THey all give so much into Spirit Games. Its like the scripture verse on charasmatic gifts of the spirit. Im so glad has allowed me to work in this committee. PRaise God! Marylou and i are gonna go to yfc meeting tonite, thats gonna be tight!


Thanks SLY and LF for coming out!

"12 AM on the way to the club..."im done, im out GOd bless!

"Only you can create your own happiness. Even if you think someone else can, they can't. Even if it is hard to get up, do it anyway..."

So anyway, as i was saying yesterday before my stupid blog was ruined. Sunday's gospel pretty much confirmed wha i was talking bout on sat. bout doing God's work. I love how St. John the baptist said, 'i must decrease, so he may increase.' Totally humility into doing the work of GOd. I think thas something we all have to remember. In the homily on sun. I learned that we are all equipped w/the gift's GOd called to use, to build up the church. God the father wants to receieve that gift, then pass it on. Be receieved, transformed, and transmitted. Let him begin to finish the work that he has started in us.

I had gone to the youf mass @ heaven sent later on sunday afternoon. Let me tell you how i love fr. joe! He's one priest that is totally supportive in anything a ministry does. Even though i kinda juss met him, great guy. FUll of love, and a great sense of humor. He even heard my confession on his way to the curr one time. I love it! Anyway during his homily he posed a good question. If Jesus was born w/o sin, then why did he need to be baptized? I thought oh thas a good question, never really thought of that one. So i learned the reason for Jesus is baptism was #1 as we all knwo the beginning of his public teach min. #2 this was done all in accordance to God's will. Then lastly, the most important reason was the batptism was meant to wash away the sin of mankind. I thought ahhh now i see!

THen i loved how he said, 'Why is Jesus the beloved son of God?' Because he obeyed the will of his father unconditionally. Wow, thas great stuff. THen even better he went on to say, 'Our mission as baptized Christians, it is to show Christ in errthang we do, to the point people will see Christ in us. Then we have done our mission.' Amen! The mass was great, it was fun doing 'who builds the faith' at a mass! Ha it wouldve been a lot funnier to see the whole congregation doing it. After mass i had met and ran into Lisa marie who is mark and mike deleon's cousin. I thought that was pretty funny only cuz cyril, michael and mike were talking bout getting her and her group St. Paul of the APostle involved. Anyway, she's really swe3t and a very friendly person. We had talked the whole evening bout different ministries, watching the youf in our confirmation classes grow and errthang else. I love how you can juss have some of the best convos w/the people you juss meet.

ANyway, later on some of the kids did the suicide skit. They did a fantastic job for only practicing for a week. They had put so much emotion and effort into it, which any person doing the suicide skits has to do. THough errone does it differently too, they done it the SH way. Each time i see that skit, it only reminds me of myself more and more. GOing through the motions, feeling that whole world revolves around me. Aww kawawa me!!! hahaha I remember hte very first time i saw the skit. I thought hey i want to be in the skit, that looks fun! hahaha Then i was able to be Jesus last yurr for youf alpha. I love it! I totally see the hunger in these youf's eyes to learn more bout the church. I praise God for the young adults, banne, jei franxis, dorthee, michelle, i forgot the other girl's name, glen and all them who play such an important role into the feeding of these youf. These are the people the youf are gonna totally depend on to help them and guide them throught it all. I only pray that the fruits for this group only become even better than they already are.

Later on sunday i hung out w/lf again. THey had a bowling parish fellowship nite. Fred came also, it was a lot of fun. It brought back memories of the weekly bowling sesssions during the summer. Those were great!!! Thas when errone came and met up to chill. I love bowling! Afterwards, we attempted to go to albertos, but they were closed. I had a a wild time in gail's curr on the way thurr. I felt like i was on mr. toad's wild adventure. haha She let me borrow a Cd too, shes tight! yay gail! We ended up going ot dennys to juss kinda chit chat and wha not. Ive gotten to know more and more the lf community this past winter break. CAnt think of a better way to spend break then to chillin w/Christ-centered people.

Yesterday, work was aiight, im trying to find thing to do to keep busy. Its real dead around this time cuz we dont got a whole lot going on. Im still waiting to get my eval too. Agh! had a nice little convo w/the city clerk also later on the afternoon. I like tues. cuz the afternoon goes by faster cuz of the whole movie matinee. I like picking out movies that i havent seen yet too! haha Im looking forward to seeing all those yfc kids again this wed. nite. I havent seen them since geez break time. So it will be fun, im also planning a trip to the big ox sometime soon too. AHh

LAst nite after i got home from work i was on the phone w/charisse till like oh man 740pm. A whole hour and a half convo. Though we always have the funniest convos. I think were on hte phone so long cuz we bof can talk forever. I love how this spirit games collabo w/her and i working together, has also helped us to really get to knwo each other better. Praise God for great friends. After that, i was talking to leslie from SOL and to see how she was doing. Juss making sure she was coming tonite for youf alpha. I really apppreciate her and all that she does to help out. Praise God once again! Then i was talking to my ol boss afterwards bout coming back tot he daycurr. I was kinda thinking bout it, working on fr. to make extra $$ for hawaii. Though i dont know w/all those changes in the company and errthang. Ahh thas one thing i have to really pray bout. Do i want to loose my fridays?! ahh! i guess w/all things you gotta sacrafice.

It was funny later online we had this mini spirit games via chatroom conference. Actually it was real fun, we had lf, SH,Yfc and Log in thurr juss chatting away bout random stuff. Well thurr was a purpose, i asked the committee to start praying the Chaplet of Divine Mercy between now and spirit games. A way to unite ourselves in prayer as a team and i juss feel the more united we are in prayer, the better these games will be. Besides prayer doesnt hurr anything, it onyl allows to grow more. So if you would like to join us each day and pray the chaplet that would be great also! After i prayed the St. Therese novena w/Charisse to lift up our venue for the games.

THen at like 1am, Leo from liwanag called me so i was talking ot him a bit. I was up till 2am this morning talking to matt from SCA. It was tight, cuz i got tknow a little bit more about the group and bout himself as well. I figure you gotta get to know these people in your group on a more personal basis if youre gonna be working w/them for the next 7 months. Anyway, SCA is a very Marian-oriented group, which i think is totally d0pe. Theyve been around for bout 4 yurr but on the DL due to the Arch-Diocese of LA and Caridonal Mahoney. OUr convo was very productive i think haha

Like i said i figure you gotta knwo these people better that youre gonna be serving with. I found out that he knows corn, and corn and his friend kevin joined SCA. Looks SCA will have a football team of their own pretty soon! hahahahaha Its funny matt even said it himself, that corn has a lot of homies. WEll at least its good to know that corn is still active in his faith w/something. I know how hard it can be depending on a group to build your faith, then having to leave them. SCA is one community im bout to hit up next on my list. Or lets say im putting a lot of my stock in this community. I guess SCA was suppose to hold this summer's bball tournament. Ha too bad there isnt gonna be anymore bball tournaments! haha I think spirit games is a lot better idea. MAtt is also in YFC like i am! wooo!

Anyway, totally cool guy and im excited to chill w/this new group. Im telling you, you can never have enough friends to help you build up the kingdom of God. In fact we gotta a little project of our going on for now. Cant give you the details, but lets hope that itll work out. haha Well thas it for now, this is one long blog already. I heard LF is coming tonite, that should be pretty fun. I think weve even out the times we've visited each other. I decided today t to try the whole bold face errones name. Trying ot be creative hurr, but its too much work! My arm is starting to hurt from all this typing. Until next time, take curr of yourselves and each other!

ImyourPapie: alright man had fun talking to u
ImyourPapie: obviously since its 2 am

DaYsL33pR: LOL
DaYsL33pR: hahaha
DaYsL33pR: friendship humor!!
DaYsL33pR: thats a good one

haha ill go over this one in my next entry. Love taps and friendship humor!


Yay for spirit games & SCA!

"Im in love, im all shook up..."im done, im out GOd bless!

"A special friend is a blessing that you should treasure with all your heart."

AGh! a stupid pop up add blocked the whole screen, and when i ended up trying to close it i also closed my AOL! NOw i dont feel like blogging errthang i said. Oh well, ill juss gail is a GREAT driver, maan she almost got me killed in two accidents! I think she nervous haha cuz she gets so excited when someone is in the curr w/her. Either that she was juss excited cuz i was in the curr w/her! hahahah ill bog details bout errthang later today...


I hate pop up ads, i really do!

"Just call my name and I’ll be there..." im done, im out God bless!

"When you look at your life, the greatest happinesses are family happinesses..."

I present to my grandpa's brother, meet mr. julian parel who is now 100 years old as of the 7th of this month. Wow can you believe it 100 years old! My grandpa is 97 and i pray that he too will soon be on his way to 100. When youre a 100, youve seen it all and this is certainly true for both my grandpa and his brother. MY granda's brother served in WWII, he's seen 18 different presidents, and a whole lot more. He's lived past Bob Hope even! The best part is that he's still strong and healthy. In fact he goes fishing all the time w/his two sons. Why even today juss before his party, he had gone fishing. My grandpa's brother is a happy go lucky guy, always smiling as you can see in the picture.

It was so cute when my grandpa saw his brother walk into the room, he started to cry. The tears from bof of my grandparents were flooding the room. Tears of joy and happiness, knowing that my grandpa can see, remember and witness his older brother's 100 birfday. You know whas crazy, my grandpa and his brother came from a family of 6 kids. 4 girls and 2 boys, these two are the oldest and only surviving members of their family. My whole family were juss full of joy in their hearts. My grandpa's brother was honored w/a special frame w/all this medals from the army, a special birfday card from the mayor from LA and a special framed card also from the President BUsh. Yes, the President of the US.

The place was pretty packed, geez i saw cousins whom ive never even met before. My family is so huge its crazzy! Each kid from his family gave a special presentation and some of the grandchildren did as well. They had a variety of entertainment, one was from Sampaguita Youf Dance Troupe from carson. THat was pretty d0pe, they did all kind of different dances. Then they ended it w/errone's fav the tinkiling. They even had volunteers to go up thurr and try it. IT was so funny cuz my grandpa's sister in law went up to go try it. Then they had family sing a special performance song, which was real nice. WHat was real funny was they had a belly dancer! They put bof my grandpa and his brother out in the middle of the dance floor and she danced for bof of them.

My grandpa's heart was touched, he was able to see his family and see his brother's families fruits. Im telling you thas why marriages are so important now a days. In fact my grandparents will be celebrating their 59th wedding anniversary this april. Thas why its so important to have a strong relationship w/God in the middle of it. He will bless you abdunatly for that. Juss check out my grandparents. The whole entire time my grandpa had turrs in his eyes. Inside the hotel room, when he first saw his brother they were sitting down on the couch together. As they sat my grandpa took his brother's hand and held it tight. God is happiness, God is peace and joy, God is comfort but above all, God is love.

What more can you ask for then a family thas bore the fruits of God. Its juss crazy how you dont really pay so much attention to your family until you get older. I think its then you only realize all the blessings you have in life. How there is juss so much to grateful its not even worf asking for anything more. I only pray that my my grandpa will be able to reach 100, he'll be 98 this septemeber and from thurr he's only 3 yurrs away. Praise God that he's still strong physically, that he can get up each morning and walk. Praise God that he's not lying some kind of bed in a nursing home or in a hospital bed at home. Praise God most of all that he can go to mass each sun. w/his family and receieve his daily bread.

Yesterday i got to chill w/jennif, we had lunch together at paul's place. Then we walked around the bp downtown cuz she wanted to see the changes. We had a fun time even though we didnt go anywhurr furr. Its a great feelin when you either hang out w/a homie whom you havent talked to in forever. Or juss when you get that random call from a homie or you calling that homie. Though sometimes, ha i dont like to do those 'random calls' cuz sometimes i get that feeling the person i call is like 'uh so whatd you call me for?' Oh well all good, the intentions are what counts. I was checking friendster(yes i still use it) and one of the peeps from SCA on the spirit games committee, is friends w/corn! yes corn! Pretty crazzzzy huh?! I gotta ask him next time i see him how he knows corn.

ANyway, i rented freddy vs. jason tonite cuz i was curious to see how the movie went. It was only a $1 to rent so its not like i wasted a whole lot. Kelly from destiny's child is in the movie, you know the girl that sings dilemna w/nelly. Anyway, yeah shes on thurr and this other guy i forgot this name i think hes on charmed or something. Well the movie was pretty retarted and im sure you couldve figured that by juss checking out the previews. Why am i so glad that i didnt go watch the movie in the theatres. So who wins? It turns out to be a draw and at the end of the movie, jason comes out from the lake(after being thrown in thurr, killed already again)holding freddy's head, while freddy winks. The movie is about freddy bring jason back to do some of his work only cuz freddy is too weak to kill. Then freddy gets his strength back and is pissed cuz jason is juss killing errone. Like i said, it was only a freaking dollar, so i didnt loose out.

I was telling Charisee on the phone last nite, so many great things are taking place this month. Good things coming about church wise, and im extremely confident by time december rolls around and were looking back at 2004, were gonna say, 'wow 2004 was such a frutful productive yurr.' I mean geez juss take a look of whas already started even before 2004. The spirit games being produced and juss the bonding, the whole getting to know the already familiarized communites even better and getting to know the new brand new ones. Then SOL has the leadership outreach project already in the works. And we all know when SOL plans something it gets done.

So we have 2 major inner-community projects going on. Then on top of that, we have the annual relays we all go to. SOL youf rally thas in march, then before that we have Liwanag SPirit Rally. Then inbetween all that were gonna have LSS'/GSS', benefit concerts, homeless outreaches, service projects, caroling and why even another SH Cafe! So many great things are happening w/in the catholic communities hurr in Socal that no doubt heaven is smiling down upon our own communities. I am confident too by the end of the yurr our own spirituality will have juss grown trememdously from all these great events and projects. Praise God that were juss so blessed to have not juss one community doing GOd's work but 16 why even more then 16 different ones, all striving for the same goal, all having the same passion inside of them. Wow, i get goosebumps thinking bout it!

Well hurr are some pic to enjoy from today's party!






Yeah i know they spelled congratulations wrong...haha oh well its the thought that counts! This is a combination of two families coming together for one huge celebration. This is my grandparent's kids and my grandpa's brother's kids. Wow my grandparents have 8 kids, and his brother has 4. Yet bof of our families are so huge.

Hey you know whas funny, the dj played tonite the 'ocho, ocho' song and the 'sex bomb' song i dont know the title to that one. BUt it was the one they were playing at the nini's anniversary party last weekend. Gosh, that was already a week ago, whurr does the time go!? This month is half way over and pretty soon february is gonna be hurr. Time sure does fly, when youre having fun working for God. I know this is real random but hey did yall know b2k broke up?! Crazy huh!


Never let any day go to waste.

"Although we?ve come to the end of the road still I can?t let go..."im done, im out GOd bless!

"Where your pleasure is, there is your treasure: where your treasure, there your heart; where your heart, there your happiness..."

So first off i had this really crazy dream last nite. Its beyond weird and i dont know how i came up w/that type of dream. I woke up thinking to myself,'whoa thas crazy, howd that happen?' Youre probably gonna laugh and think im retarted too, oh well ha take as humor. Anyway, i had a dream that i got this letter from the carmelite sisters in alhambra. THey were inviting me over for some reason and in the letter it stated that Method Man was gonna be thurr. THough the weird thing bout the letter was they had put last weekends date for the time he was coming. So the whole time im puzzled as to when hes gonna be at the carmelites. Then i think i woke up or something like that. ha i know it was a weird dream, but its funny method man meets the carmelites sisters! Whoda ever thought! haha

Today was pretty chill day, not a lot of excitement went on but it was still nice. I had set my alarm for 10am juss so i can get up and go to confession before meeting jennif at mass @ 12. Anyway, that didnt work i ended up juss shutting the alarm off and sleeping in till 11am. Its nice waking up to an empty house. It sucked butt when i had my uncle hurr, i dont really like having company spending the nite @ my house. TOtally cramps up your whole living style. He was SUPPOSE to leave right after CHristmas, but ended up staying till way this mon. cuz he got sick. Agh! So him staying longer and getting sick allowed some of us hurr to be vulnerable to his germs. My parents both kinda got a piece of it. RIght when he left though, we febreezed errthang in the house.

Ha! i juss got off the phone w/charisse, its funny whenever we talk on the phone we always end up talking forever! We were on the phone for like almost an hour and a half. Its real coo though, i praise God that were guiding each other and helping each other w/these games. She's such an motivating person also, which totally helps. Its so funny cuz when we talk we always have the same views on issues. Truly a wonderful servant of God who always looks out for the best interest of the community. Which to me is a great leadership quality. I look up to her and admire her a lot for her leadership skills.

Well i got stood up two friday nites in a row, by two different girls, two different leaders, in two different communities! Last fri, julie from yfc was suppose to call me bout going to yardhouse, but never did! Now tonite gail was suppose to call me bout going the movies, but she never did. Apparently i guess she lost her phone or cant find it. SO she was relying on raymond to call errone but he lost his phone too or cant find it. Oh well, i ended up watching a movie bymyself at cerritos towne center. Wow that place is empty now a days. Its like no one likes to go watch movies over thurr no more. Ended up watching chasing liberty the new one w/Mandy Moore in it. Great movie! She's such a great actress, ha ever since i seen gretchen's friendster pic from SOL i always think of mandy moore now. haha


Happy 100th birfday Grandpa Jullian!

"Mami, shake it like you care for me You know I like it when you do that little dance for me..."im done, im out GOd bless!

"Storms are necessary; at some points in our life, we need to look through the Eye of the Storm to truly see the calm in the chaos..."

Praise God, great day today. I was hoping and suppose to get my eval for work today, but i didnt. Oh boo! I guess ill have to wait till mon. to see how i did. Though my other boss the director said it was really nice. So im assuming its not that bad or nothing real bad. It doesnt really matter too much anwyay, being that i already got my raise. Its kinda nice at the city cuz i always get the same amount raise each yurr. Like at the daycurre, the outcome of your eval depending on how high of a raise you would get. Which only makes sense, youre rewarded for the work you put in.

I got this strange email the other day from this lady. See her husband died 4 yurrs ago in kuwait. Well before he had past away i guess he deposited a sum of $3.6 million dollars into a security fund. This lady has cancer and is really sick, on top of that she's dying. Her doctor told her she would not last 3 months. Being of her condition she has decided to donate the $$ to a church or a christian indvidual who will use the $$ to build up the kingdom of God hurr on earf. She told me she made this decision only cuz her inlaws are not christian and the couple had no childrne. So im suppose to respond if im interested. I dindt reply back only cuz its sounds really sketchy. The email wasnt even directly addressed in my name. THough if God wants me to take it, ha then im sure she'll email back.

Great time tonite w/some of the guys from LF. Ive been spending a lot of time in the carson/long beach area as of my break. ALmost the same way i was spending lots of time in irvine during the semester. Great group of people over thurr and i totally love their community. Theyre juss so welcoming and really treat you as a child of God. The best thing about it too, is that theyre real genuine and not fake. YOu can tell usually when people are fake right off the bat. I know a lot of people who try too hard to be real when you know theyre juss frontin. The worst part is when youre decieved, when all this time you think theyre real nice but then in reality they backstab you. Hmm sounds something really similiar to what i went through recently. THough i wont name any names now.

Anyway, when megaroom combines forces w/too big then its like were forming the ultramegaroom. The biggest force of them all! I love the wings at wingstop juss cuz i dont think ive ever tasted such a good variety in chicken wings. Despite the fact that theyre real greasy, theyre still good. Then we went to play pool at some place, it was really cool. I havent played pool in ages, and juss the other day while playing carrom boards maybe me think oh itd be fun to play pool. Its great how SH and LF get along so well. Hand in Hand, working together to build up the kingdom of God.

So tomrrow whurr going ot LA to celebrate my grandpas brother's 100 birfday. Wow 100 yurss, please pray for him that God continues to strengthen him and keep him young at heart. I gotta read this book gail gave me, 'the great divorce' by cs lewis. It seems pretty interesting, i onyl finished reading the prolouge tonite. Its one of those books you could read in one day. I like it already! Im gonna hang out w/jennif today, yay! Maybe i can see if she'll wanna watch chasing liberty w/me since she wants to see the bP mall. I never knew mandy moore was catholic, i found that interesting. LOC is putting together 'ave idol,' real similar to the american idol. It sounds pretty cool. ANyway, thas it for now until next time, pray for me while i pray for you!


This week went by fast!

"Before i let you go, before i let you go can i get a kiss goodnight baby..."im done, im out God bless!

"The easiest way to escape from current disappointment is to rejoice in constant blessings..."

Wow this week went by pretty fast. I cant believe its already thurs. So im pretty coo now cuz i got my Spirit Games folder all organized and set. See my three hold puncher is messed up, so i couldnt hole punch all the notes and agendas. Now its all set to go and put together. Yay! MAn this community contact roster that ive put together is always changing. Im always having to update that thing, whether it is to add or delete. Which reminds me i need to input into my cell the #s of the people on that roster. Juss so if they happen to call me, then ill know who it is. For example, errone keeps calling me from my community for nick from SOL's #. Only i dont have it in my phone, only on paper so ive added it so in case somene calls asking for it, then its thurr.

Work was pretty cool today, i went to the apartment complex and progammed from thurr. I was playing carrom boards and oh man do i suck. Its the same concept of playing pool, but it a little bit more difficult. The kids at the apt complext totally love that game. Gosh they were playing it over and over again. Id get sick over playing it even juss once. And man do they cuss up a storm. its one word right after the other. Ahh kids these days, thats the bad part of the youf of today. They dont understand what discipline means or it doesnt even phase them. Thas why they need so much help. Praise God though there is so many young people out thurr read to show them God's love.

WEnt over and visited SLy tonite, being i had the evening free. I was doubting on whether to go to not cuz i was kinda tired. Praise God i went though, cuz i had a great time and i guess i had some kind of purpose thurr tonite too. Theyre so funny over thurr and always welcoming me w/open arms when i visit. We did an icebreaker game, praise & worship, a good testimony and teaching. This girl gave her personal testimony kinda through song and wow she had a really d0pe voice. Then mike and some of the other youf did a 'new life' skit. I think God was calling me to shurr lessons on accountablity through the skit. So i asked permission if i could shurr and i got permission.

Juss wanted to emphasize how we are all step laders in order to get to heaven. That we need each other in order to get to that prize. We are all accountable for are brothers and sisters and not one person is more important then the other. Through the eyes of God were all the same and he loves all the same. So i shurred how we gotta help each other out and take accountablity for our actions as well as the actions of our brothers and sisters. I told them i know i personally do not want to fall short of the glory of God. Juss also how we shouldnt be ashamed of who we are as catholic-christians. YOu know like praying in public or getting all crazy over praise & worship music. Cuz as it says in the bible, 'those who deny me, i will deny them before my heavenly father.' So good for thought for errone.

Afterwards we rolled over to carson cuz the lBc was juss too ghett0 for fellowship. Markfizzle rode w/me and we had a nice chop chop in the curr. I got to know the guy a little bit better. He's a really coo kid who always always makes a point ot say wassup to me when i visit sly. Now thats hospitality right thurr. We went to taps and geez errone was over thurr. It was pretty packed, i saw a couple of lfers thurr. It was kinda funny seeing them. I called anthoneeze and christy juss to tell them i was in their hood. haha Had a great convo w/mike and cyril tonite while eating. I love those two, theyre juss so supportive and full of love. The three of us get along pretty well. We talked a lot bout some spirit games ideas and suggestions to talk bout for the next meeting. I think we all agreed that so far were at the right pace. Though once we find a venue(please continue to pray for us)then errthang else will fall into place. Praise God.

Had lunch w/jay da banker today, he told me his girl that he was seeing broke it off the other nite. Awww kawawa jay da banker, he also got a new cell phone. I guess this is the perfect season to get new cell phones and wha not. Anyway, its pretty funny how jl and i juss randomly met this guy at the bank. Now almost a yurr later, were friends, at least him and i. I guess there was a real purpose in meeting him. He's a really cool guy, very faith filled in serving God. Its cool that he invited me to chill w/his community erronce in a while. YOu can never have too many Christ-centered friends. Im exhausted, so im going to cut it short hurr. Please pray that this place im going ot call for spirit games venue will accept us. We really need your prayers for a venue, i know God will provide for us in the end.


Lord help us find a spirit games venue.

"Your love is extravagant, your friendship is intimate..."im done, im out GOd bless!

"Failure is a gift from God, reminding us what is it to be human but, most importantly, revealing to us how much we need Him..."

So this quote kinda hit me as i jacked it from anthoneeze's blurty. Failure in my eyes i also see as obstacles or mountains. In order to get over those mountains, we need God, cuz w/o Him wed be stuck. The failures we face, the trials are juss constant reminders that we are human and not to worry. Like i tell bur, agh dont fret! haha Thas what God tells us aghh dont worry ill help you, agh relax. Its his way of juss really humbling us and letting us know that we cant do really anything w/o him. To seek him his guidance and to put our trust in Him for he will provide.

The same way im going to relate to the spirit games, we ran into the obstacle of finding a venue. This is only hard cuz of the number of people we are anticipating to participate and come. This whole finding a venue thats real central for errone has been on my mind all day. I guess only cuz i was talking to burr bout it half the day. Though i know God will provide he will show us the way, he will give us something. So in a way im not too worried, i guess i gotta juss relax myself and let him do the work. Kinda funny that tonite's youf alpha talk was, 'how can i be sure of my faith?' Maybe that was God's friendly little reminder saying to trust him.

This is my SRE class,majority of these kids ive had for the past two years. This year though ive added some new ones. One of the greatest blessings God has blessed me w/was these group of kids. Each week while we were in class, i could only see the eagerness and hunger to want to know more bout their faith. God is really working in the lives of these kids and i praise him for it. Before youf alpha started in dec. my class and i have bonded so much. With the ones who have been in my class the past two years, its great watching them grow.

There's marvin, who can be a handful at times but his faith is strong. Always eager to wanting to be fed. He told me one nite that he prayed the rosary before he went to bed. Or sometimes he'll be the only one who will volunteer to lead opening prayer. Jerel, one of my new students this year, who is also in my youf alpha group. I always got him and charles mixed up for some reason. THeyre so funny cuz theyre like buddy buddy. Except charles is the quiet one and jerel is the louder one. Another one of my new ones, kathryn a real swe3tie. She emailed me right before we left for break shurring w/me something she felt was God's love.

Mitch has this really low but deep voice, i always have a hurrd time hurring wha he has to say. Joseph, jett, justin m. and deanna, the bp hs gang. Theyre so funny, joseph told me today were you at church on sun? I said yeah at St. I, he goes i saw you! YOu were wurring glasses i was gonna go up to you but i wasnt sure if that was you or not. He'll even talk to me online sometimes. Then thurrs Paul, who has the most deepest journal entries ever. Filled w/so much love inside of his heart, even to those who have hurt him the most. Wow thas inspiring! Then thurrs Justin P. the one whos family always sits either in front of us or in back of us during 915 am mass. I always like to use the 'mom currd' on him, threatning to talk to his mom at mass if he doesnt behave. haha

Each one of these kids inspire me in some sort of way. Even the ones who are the shyest and quietest. I praise God for each and everyone of them, for theyve showered me w/their blessings. I pray that their faith only grows and that they only fall deeper in love w/Jesus. And that they never loose hope in his love and grace. I cant wait till next yurr when they stand before the parish community and all that they love and give their 'yes' to live the life of a catholic. Fully armed and ready to serve God and his Church. Thank you Lord for bringing me these saints in the making.

So an ol friend of mine one of my minor friends...imed me tonite.

JordanThrees: just wanted to sey sup to u b4 i sleep cuzi havent talked to u in ages
JordanThrees: she didnt believe in high school love till she met me..isnt that cool

He was telling me how excited he was with this girl hes been going out with. Rather his girlfriend more less now. Ha aww young love.


I love my SRE Class, theyre the best!

"Thinking of ways that I can win your heart But, I'm so confused I don't know where to start..."im done, im out God bless!

"Don't draw back, and worse still, don't stop going up the Calvary of life. Jesus will extend His hand to steady you. The thought of the sustaining grace of God and the prize that Jesus has reserved for you will be a sweet comfort..."

I present to you a piece or part of the Spirit Games committee for 2003-2004! Praise God for a really fruitful and productive meeting. I mean juss the fact that people are coming from San Diego, the valley, Temecula, etc. all over so cali for GOd's work. I praise God that each one of these people have answered His calling and said 'yes' into serving him and others through the spirit games. Today we came across our first set back/obstacle. Venue, whurr are we gonna have these games. Some of us were relying on sPv but unfortunately due to insurance liability and all that, its impossible.

Tonite's meeting went well, we had it in the coffee and donut room and oh man it was packed! I liked the way it looked though. I set up so we had the way i had envisioned it in mind. The whole united nations type setting. Name tags, water bottles and agendas for each person. Im real anal on the way things are set up and put together. The only thing we were missing were headphones and translators! haha So as you see in the pic we have SCA, YCT, SOL, YFC, Liwanag, SH, SOL, LF, SLY, SOL daygo. The only groups we were missing were, LOC, LOG, and HOJ. Though i know within the next couple months as the word starts to spread, it will only get bigger.

Does anyone know of a central location we could have the games as well as mass? Perhaps some parish or park. If so let me know! Im really excited cuz so many great fruits are going to take place from these games. August is going to come by really fast, sooner then we all know it. A great way to go into SCRC to end the summer. Like the salad of SCRC or something i dont know. YOu know whas funny, one of the guys frmo SCA works the video store whurr i rent my movies. I saw him in front of the church as i was going into the coffee and donut room. I thought i wonder wha he's doing hurr. Then i come to find out he's part of SCA, ha what a small world!

These first two 'getting started' meetings have been extremely productive and fruitful. Praise God that errthang we discuss gets done. Im really glad that errone is actively participating in the discussion and giving their opinions. It was so funny to hurr the games each community came up with. The wet t-shirt contests, the gauntlent, knock your socks off etc. ha oh man the creativeness of these communities! haha Big ups to my friend cyril from LBC who was our secretary for the evening. Ha there was like 4 pages front and back of notes. Next time we said well make it hardcore and she'lll bring her laptop. This way at the end of the meeting she can send out the notes right away. haha

Another great part of tonite, was being able to see some of these people face to face. FOr a lot of these different groups i communicate via email or phone, so i dont get to see wha they look like. Tonight i can picture a face with the voice now. I was telling myron we could see halo halo at the games! ha thatd be tight, something going around in a small rining a bell, 'fresh halo halo!' hahah Then some of us went to mcdonalds for the post fellowship spirit games meeting. Thas when gail met a new friend while standing in line. haha that was pretty funny, all of a sudden she comes to 'SH patio' section of mcdonalds and has a piece of paper in her hand. For some reason errtime people come to the beach mcdonalds they get all excited cuz of all the stuff they ahve inside. Its pretty funny, dan from oxnard was excited his first time.

Anyway, praise God for a pretty fruitful day. I kinda miss not working and juss kinda chillin. Oh well, really good day. ITs also my grandma's 79th birfday today also! GOd is juss doing so many great things in my life and i cant thank him enough for it. Errday is a new gift juss waiting to be unwrapped. Fr. Paul this morning gave me a really good scripture verse on leadership. Its in 1 timothy chapter 6 i dont remember the exact verse though. WEll i got a schedule lined up for me on things to do for tomorrow. Hopefully ill be able to get them all done. Then youf alpha starts up again woo! I think imma go to SLY on wed. cuz you know how it is, i get around...haha inside joke form the meeting tonite. Ha its funny, jay da banker asked me this morning how come i dont send out anymore emails. hahah Good times, good times! Thank you Lord for a very productive, fruitful day!


Inside look at the UNited Nations...hahah


Spirit Games-Sat. Aug. 7-SAVE THE DATE!

"Your Hotter Than Summer Day, In California/Ya Got Me Meltin Like A Sundae, And I Want Ya..."im done, im out God bless!

"When hunger knocks, love jumps out the window..."

Today was juss great! i think im still a little woozy from all that running in circles from suicide skit practice. I was so weird when i was younger as i was reading my ol journal entries from HS. i finally finished the zena chronicles. Banne knows i think wha im talking bout. Its actually pretty fun the things i done to get a girl i was totally head over heels for to go to prom w/me. Then the nite after prom my forever long crush ended. As i was reading them i thought ha wha retard i was. Hey banne i keep forgetting to show you those pics! I have them in the curr too, id post them on hurr but ha its a little to emburrsing.

I had helped w/the HS planning meeting today. It was pretty fun working w/them kids. It made me miss my SRE kids and youf alpha kids. We showed them how to do 'who builds the faith,' theyre funny. Jf was teaching them during the lower part to lower their voices, but then some of the girls were like, 'but then were gonna be off key.' haha Then we decided to do it the SH way and have lower mean softer. Like that song whurr it goes, 'little bit softer now, a little bit softer now, litte bit louder now...' Its funny how each community does things differently. Especially when it comes to the suicide skit.

Thas the next we showed them cuz they were gonna do it for the next HS meeting. Fred played the devil, el juego was Jesus, banne was the little girl and i was jealously, alcohol, lust, anger, selfishness, pride and last but not least dun dun dun suicide! SO you ask how can one person play all 7 sins? Im hardcore thas why! haha So anyway, jf was talking bout how he's seen the suicide skit whurr the sins actually have white make up on. Thas hardcore status, we juss use the plain ol black sunglasses. It was so funny, when the kids were raising their volunteering to be in the skit, all you could hurr was 'i wanna be a sin, i wanna be a sin!' Id say im all suicide skit out for one day. Im still dizzy from running in circles!

The upper room came together tonite and formed megaroom. It was good times, we havent had a uprm nite out in a while so it was cool. WE all met up at uprm headquarters, HTB in cerrritos. I think the last time i was at that hTB was almost a yurr ago when we had that incident w/that girl. WHat id like to call the 'dollar incident.' Anyway, good times we always have a blast when we form megaroom. These guys are probably some of the greatest friends and brothers one could ever have. Upper Room has gone through a lot within the past couple yurrs, though God's grace we always manage to defeat the obstacles. I love uprm!

Form feet and legs, form arms and body...and i'll form the head!



And i'll form the head!

"The simple touch of your head and everything feels right, the simple way you look at me when we kiss goodnight..."im done, im out God bless!

"Marriage is not only the beginning of a realtionship but also the end of a life long search for the other half of your soul..."

You know what one of the d0pest blessings of 03 was? How ive made some of the cooolest and closet friends through the different communities ive met. I dont know if that makes sense but praise GOd that ive been blessed w/the communion of saints hurr on earf. It seems like my calling for now is to obviously continue my studies and focus on skool. In the meantime, continue to serve God w/all that i have through the different ministires that ive met. To me its all bout networking and getting to know others and helping each other w/carrying the cross. As we all know Jesus fell three times and Peter was thurr helping him each time to pick up that cross. Jesus didn't send his apostles all by themselves, he sent them in purrs. HE said, give me two purrs, i need two purrs. Ha joking! THough forreal you cant build up God's kingdom all by yourself, youre gonna need back up. And as the ol saying goes, 'when the going gets tough, the tough gets going."

Anyway, i juss got punk'd right now by juile. I asked her if YFc was going ot participate in the spirit games and she told me no. She made up some lie and said that yfc needed to free one weekend up or something like that. Its gonna be the weekend right after their huge conference so they needed one free weekend. Then i started to think dang that totally sucks. FInally she said she was joking. Oh man she really had me going thurr for a min. So it seems like this spirit games is really gettting out thurr. The word is being spread like wildfurr. Praise GOd, im really excited for mon. meeting!

SO today Charisse, christy, noel and chuck's paren't's 25th silva anniversary. It was really nice, LF sang for the mass. I love ANthony's ave maria, it;s really good. THe mass was great, i loved it! To see the all blessings and fruits of 25 yurrs of marriage. Weddings are always nice to see, esp. inside the catholic church. It was awesome to see their parents renew the promises they made 25 yurrs ago to God, to themselves and to the whole parish. As i was talking to Christy its funny how juss a simple promise can create so much good fruit. I mean juss check out her parents, they started the LF ministry and it only continues to grow. I look my grandparents and i see all the fruit theyve produced.

When i was younger family, weddings and all that stuff didnt mean much to me. Which is probably cuz i was real immature and didnt curr. Though now that im older and well more mature i totally value family. Juss how much of an importance it is to me. Ithink for a greatest accomplishment for any murried couple, is overcoming each obstacle w/love. During the homily at mass, the priest was talking bout how he asked one of his parishoners how he managed to stay w/his spouse. The response was, 'There are times when we feel like killing each other, but never divorce.' I guess point being you gotta ask God to guide you through the those tought times. I liked how well imma call him tito albert, how he said there are going ot be mountains to climb but well climb them with love & faith. Ha and no not talking bout their community love & faith, but in w/GOd's love and faith.

Praise God for marriages that are match mades in heaven. Im excited my grandpa's brother is turning 100 this weekend! Were going to LA for the huge holiday in purty. Gee, i dont even know if ill make it to 90. Can ya believe that freakin 100 yurrs old, when youre 100 youve seen and live through it all. Wars, presidents, music, trends sheesh. I was telling fred the other day while watching 'remember the 80's' show that when were old, theyre gonna have 'remember the 90's' However old i live up to, i only pray that i die w/the even stronger faith and love for the Lord than i have now.

I know i posted this before, but hurrs a glance at wha my wedding is gonna be like...
The Wedding of Mr. & Mrs. Isda yay!

Wedding PLanner: Banne

Ceremony~
sPv @ 12pm gotta make it even yo!
Celebrant-Fr. Paul: Take note church will be sectioned off into communities. People will sit with their respected communities.
Music~Shepherd's voice w/pb doing, 'ill offer up my life' solo
Flowers-Sunflowers; colors baby blue and orange
closing recessional-Who builds the faith
Guests will throw snow(foam popcorn) @ church exit.
Transporation to reception hall-OCTA bus 'Juss murried' on the back

Reception~
Stanton Community Center immediately following ceremony
Decorations~
Centerpieces-Computer w/AOL running man ICon
Namecards-w/pic of a snake and Mr. and Mrs. Fish top scores
Instead of table #'s-Placecard of community names
LSS posters/paintings to keep it Christ-Centered
Cake~
4 turr cake at the top w/mulan and shang in red and white
Barbie and burrbie around the cake
Giveaways~
Kids-Little nemo toys; box of starburst candies only the green and blue package
Adults-Book: The best of makeitclap.blogspot.com w/open mouf pics of me and wifey on the cover
Entertainment~
Bridal party entrance-Who builds the faith instrumental
MC-Fred
Performances-Music ministries; burr-piano; banne-ukele w/pb, lyn² & ninni hula dancing featuring my figure 8; and of course uprm and tbfnt fo sho!
Dj w/80;s freestyle music-freestyle rockin in the house tonite move your body from left to right...
Magic mic yay!
First dance~Reflection sung by Boss lady yay!
Food~
Snacks-Goldfish crackers & buffalo wings all you can eat baby!
Main course-Chicken alfredo
Noise makers~
Spinning drums and a bell that rings 'agh' when you ring it.
Cherishing the moments~
Programs-Jennif
Video & Photography-Michael Tandiama
Available on DVD...wedding & Reception Video & slideshow
Honeymoon~
Italy

hObo jO fA shO: farewell and Godspeed mr fish
hObo jO fA shO: may the angels shine upon u alwayz

I love my SRE students, theyre the best!


I love weddings!

"From this moment life has begun, from this moment you were the one..."im done, im out God bless!

"Success is the ability to go from one failure to another with no loss of enthusisam..."

Ha im such a fatty, i got fed and ate 3 different times in 3 different communities. No, i didnt even plan on eating that much either. As arch would say, see wha had happened was...haha well i went to my first friday mass and novena for YFC. We had it this month at St. Philomena in carson. Actually, it was kinda going thurr and not seeing LF. Anyway, so we had mass which was great and then ended it w/benediction which was even better. Felt so good to recieve Jesus especially on this new year. So praise GOd i was able to feel his true presence inside of me. Then being able to juss sit and talk to him for a while.

So afterwards we had a great praise & worship session to start off the new year. Gee, i havent had praise & worship in ages. I really felt the spirit moving inside errone that nite. Afterwards the CFC elders brought us food to feed us! yay! IT was crazy errone rushed to the food as if they had never eaten before. It was nice seeing the community again after not seeing them in a while. Had a nice little chit chat w/julie, which is always a pleasure to talk to. I guess there were some yfcers from up norf and some from over in the east. Pretty crrazzzy! SOme of them were gonna go to the yardhouse afterwards, so juile said she was gonna call me.

I called fred to see if he wanted to go w/me, so he came down. As i was waiting for fred, i thought id go back into the church and sit w/Jesus. After all, what a better way to kill time, then to sit w/Jesus. As i walked into the church i was drawn in by this girls most beautiful voice. She was singing some song that was so wow. So as i came in i saw all these youf sitting in front of JEsus on their knees praying. Each one of them took turns going to the mic and shurring their prayer w/Jesus. Then after each prayer the girl would sing a song. It was really peaceful, so as i sat thur praying i was thinking whether or not to invite them to the spirit games.

After they were done i thought id go and find out who they were. The lady who kinda oversees them was really nice to me. Her name was emily, and the group was called the 'alliance of two hearts of Jesus and Mary.' It was a youf group and i dont know exactly whurr theyre established out of. But i guess they come to first friday each month to pray and sing. Afterwards they had some mini snacks and they invited me to eat w/them as i invited them to the spirit games. So that was pretty cool, a new community! haha so thas meal #2

Then as i was waiting for julie to call me bout yardhouse, fred spotted raymond from LF. I figured if there is one lf around, then thurrs gotta be an abundance of them. I walked in that direction, low and behold thurr was a whole community full of LF. THey were helping the nini family decorate the hall for their recpeition taking place the next day. Now thas what i call fellowship! Fred and i figured wed help them out too since we had time to kill. I thought it was real fun helping them and juss bonding w/their community. Charisse ending up ordering buffalo wings and pizza later on. Dang, what a pig i am cuz i ate again! ITs okay, im not on project sexy so i can eat all i want. haha

So i was up in carson till about almost 2am. What was the best part was them having adoration. Errtime i go to adoration and i spend my time thurr its like i dont want ot leave. I have the greatest time thurr and its juss so peaceful. Especially the times lately ive been spending at St. DOminic Savio. I love that church! Praise God for all nite adoration 24/7 cuz thurr are days when oh man you juss totally need it. You can have the worse days and juss being w/Jesus makes up for it all. I love serving God, i love being able to serve in the church and i juss love how ive grown deeper in love in serving Him. Although ive fallen and felt broken into thousands of pieces, He's always been thurr putting them back together again.

AS i was reading and reflecting back on my old journal entries i wrote back in hs, i realized one thing: I was so OA. I felt like what a lot of youf feel commonly today, that no one loves them. Aww kawawa meeee! haha THe world sucks, i dont have this, i dont have that, i got screwed over by such and such. Aww kawawa me! I should juss kill myself and then i wouldnt have any troubles anymore. HA thas totally what i wrote all the time when i was in HS. Juss when things werent going the way i wanted them to.

Funny thing is, i was filled w/so much hate and anger inside of me. Geez, im suprised i didnt go mad! Praise God that He called me pretty much at the right i guess you could say. Kinda fresh right out of HS, He called me by name and asked me to come follow him. He said, 'Jason, I want you to serve me, i want you to minister to my sheep even more then you do now.' Before you knew it, i said 'yes' and one thing led to another and bam hurr i am today. I can pretty much remember the day he called me to serve, it was right after mass on a sun. morning in jan. THough i wonder what id be doing, i wonder my life would be like if i didnt say yes.


What a great day!

"Its a great thing to praise the Lord, its a great thing to praise the Lord, its a great thing to praise the Lord, walking in the light of God..."im done, im out GOd bless!

"The man on the moon is smiling, cuz he's in love with the girl in the world..."

If some of you didnt understand yesterday's quote, ill explain it better. I was at the soratorio's today for new years. Unlike most families, they still had their christmas tree up, full decorated w/the lights, ornaments and errthang. I only say unlike most families, only cuz majority of people today do their 'after christmas cleaning,' the weekend after Christmas. You know take down tree ornaments, return gifts, throw out leftovers in the fridge, etc. Soon before you know it, errone is back to normal routine and schedule without taking the time out to relfect, 'what has changed in your life?' What is different in your life?

SO as you take the time out and reflect that we all have become better in some different way. Whether it was learning to pray more, learning how to discern, whatever it is even if its the smallest thing, you were a better person because of Jesus, his birf and the fact that Jesus is going to come again. Its kinda like how that one christian song goes, 'people get ready Jesus is coming..." WEll what does this all have to do with Christmas trees? Ill tell you, yesterday my coworker and i were taking down the tree decorations at work. It sucked cuz the tree was dry, the needles were coming off and it look like it was falling apart.

Thas like our own spirituality at times, i know ive experienced that a lot. Our spirituality like the christmas tree gets DRY! And at times, we feel as if were falling apart, we cant go on anymore. In the same way the artificial christmas trees relate too. On the outside we may look great, we may look like were holding it together, but we know on the inside juss like the tree many times in our lives we know were not keepin it real. Yeah, that means were FAKE! So i had read how it came bout that christmas trees became 'christmas trees,' how it was associated with Christmas.

Back in the eight century, St. Boniface was a missionary who brought Christianity to germany way back in the 700s. Most of the germans were worshipping false gods at the time. St. Boniface cut down a giant oak tree(sacred to their patron false god) and taught of how it was a symbol of Christ. He talked of how it was a sign of peace and of life(since its branches were ever green). The Christmas tree points to Christ, home in the heavens, waiting for us and calling him to join him.

THas when i realized that the CHristmas tree is not dead, nor is it fake. We are the Christmas tree and not the symbols or the ornaments we decorate it with. As a christian, we are the symbol of Christ's love and light and life in this world. We are the ones who point up to Christ, we are real, living and breathing, despite the times we may feel were falling apart. We are living cuz Christ lives inside of us by the virtue of baptism. So this is what yesterday's quote means. I know i gave a whole long explaination over it ha but i coudlnt think of a shorter way.

May your legs, like a trunk, stand firm in the truth this year.
May your arms, like branches, uphold all of God’s creations.
May your holiness, like the tree’s scent, draw others closer to the Lord.
May your joy, like the lights, make others smile.
May your life, like the treetop, point directly to Heaven.

uPrM bEaR: agh i was talking t thiese 2 ladies in the place over hurr then she said
uPrM bEaR: wehre are u from,i saud, anaheim and she said oh i' m from anaheim too!
uPrM bEaR: the i said agh wehre neighbors
JPFish187: hahahaha
uPrM bEaR: hahhaaaha
uPrM bEaR: agh then i said, u need to clean your yurd
JPFish187: hahahahaha
uPrM bEaR: it's ruining my property valuie
uPrM bEaR: agh then we played house
JPFish187: hahahahaha
uPrM bEaR: hahahaha like we did with nin's
JPFish187: hahahahaha
JPFish187: thas funny
uPrM bEaR: then i took over her house
uPrM bEaR: yes!
JPFish187: agh!

uPrM bEaR: agh i can't wati to come back


How was your new yurrs?

"My favorite line was can i call you sometimes..."im done, im out GOd bless!

"Christ died on a tree, so that we might live like one..."
REAL LOVE
Moses Mendelssohn, the grandfather of the well-known German composer, was not handsome. He had a grotesque hunchback. One day he visited a merchant in Hamburg, who had a lovely daughter named Frumtje. Moses fell hopelessly in love with her. But Frumtje was repulsed by his misshapen appearance.

When it came a time for him to leave. Moses gathered his courage and climbed the stairs to her room, to take one last opportunity to speak with her. She was a vision of heavenly beauty. After several
attempts at conversation, Moses shyly asked,"Do you believe marriages are made in heaven?"

"Yes." she answered, looking at the floor. "And do you?"

"Yes, I do," he replied. "You see, in heaven at the birth of each boy, the Lord announces which girl he will marry. When I was born, my future bride was pointed out to me. Then the Lord added, "But your wife will be humpbacked." "Right there and then I called out, 'O Lord, a humpbacked woman would be a tragedy. Please, Lord, give me the hump and let her be beautiful.'"

Then Frumtje looked up into his eyes and was stirred by some deep memory. She reached out and gave Moses her hand and later became his devoted wife.

There's a wonderful line that describes this kind of love from the writings of the apostle Paul which says love "always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres."

Bennett Cerf relates this story about a bus that was bumping along a back road in the South. In one seat a wispy old man sat holding a bunch of fresh flowers. Across the aisle was a young girl whose eyes came back again and again to the man's flowers. The time came for the old man to get off. Impulsively he thrust the flowers into the girl's lap. "I can see that you love the flowers," he explained, "and I think my wife would like for you to have them. I'll tell her I gave them to you."

The girl accepted the flowers, then watched the old man get off the bus and walk through the gate of a small cemetery.

Love is a very special kind of gift.... in order to be loved it is given without thought of a reward coming back. Let's always remember to love in action as well as in words.
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DEAR LORD, thank you for all the blessings of the year about to end - the blessings of faith and hope that make us go through life courageously and joyfully. Thank you most especially for Your love that continues to dwell in our homes and in our hearts. As I watch the old year go by and welcome the new year, I pray that by Your grace I can live up to the standard of Your love. In response to Your unconditional love for me, I dedicate myself to living for You, and loving others the way You have loved me. Hold me in the palm of Your hand and bless me and my loved ones with the same kind of joy that we bring to others for Your sake. Lord, thank you for this new year in our lives.


Happy New Yurr to you and your loved ones!

"By the reflection you seem to be so damn unpretty..."im done, im out GOd bless!