i dont like the way my hair looks in that pic. it looks like i got a gerry curl going on or something, hanging down on the side. i guess my hair was flopping side to side as i was groooooooooving from side to side hahaha. Anyway, the picture you see above is a picture of bess and i. awww haha yah right, this purdy lady is an SOLer whom i had the pleasure of meeting last summer @ our LSS. Then i got to know her more @ the dinner @ applebees that nite. ah yes, i clearly remember that nite(cut to the mind flash back hurr.) it was a clear warm sunday evening. The SH core has juss finished putting on their first youth/young adult life in the spirit seminiar. We all had decided to fellowship and chill @ this restaraunt called applebees in like la habra or something. hahah imma stop hurr i wasnt going to actually write bout errthang that happened that nite, oh man that would take forever! haha though i will say this, that nite definiently made me smile! ::sigh:: that was dramatic...hahaha

Well my day consisted of resting like i stated in my entry yesterday. I think my headache finally went away. i had a small headache ever since this afternoon. i got to sleep in today, it felt nice. i love being able to sleep in, its juss the best. i rememeber last spring semester, oh man my schedule was the worst. well juss on tues. and thurs. it would be. Check it, i would work from 6am-9am, which meant get up @ 515am to get ready for work. After work then go to skool from 930 till 2pm. i had the afternoon off though for work, so it was nice. Though sometimes i would have to come back and work. I remember the spring semester before that, i would work on wed. from 6am-10am, then skool from 1030-2pm, then come back to work from 2pm-6pm, then go straight to skool from 630pm-10pm. Man those were the most hardest times, but Praise God that i was able to get through them. I thinK God has truly blessed me w/a lot of energy to keep awake, even when i have the longest, most hardest, tiring days.

I finally was able to pick up my formal pics. today @ carson. Dang, St. Phiomena mass' are jam packed! Praise God though, its like errone coming out after a concert or bball game. The pics looked pretty d0pe, im feeling them. My parents and sister didnt really understand the concept of the two different pics. though. oh well, i like them and she likes them thas all that matters. Now i ahve something else to add to my desk tomorrow afternoon @ work! wooo! i love looking @ the pictures on my desk, each one i look it brings back memories of that occassion. awww haha When i get them scanned imma have to post them on hurr.

After carson i worked on redoing my AOL homepage. Each time i attempted to work on it, something came up and i woudlnt get the chance to finish it. So i finally fished it today, cuz i had the chance too. come look it after you read my blog! http://hometown.aol.com/jpfish187/ i think the last time i updated it was like back in sept. or aug. or something like that. i actually changed a grip of pics and some of the quotes i had on there.

As i was telling boss lady and strider today online i was going through my journal and i happen to come across this stuff i printed out from a website. This girl wrote bout her thoughts on relationships and wha not. Well i was rereading her thoughts and they were really good. Only thing is there was one section i didnt print out, which sucks. I think when i had printed it out, my intentions was that, i only wanted the song lyrics that were posted above all the relationship stuff. so i thought maybe, it might still be there and maybe the girl didnt hasnt updated her site since then. Crazy thought i know, but some people build a webpage then quit working on it. haha So anyway, after reading her thoughts, i decided ill post them to help make my entry tonite longer. haha jk no, not to make it longer but juss food for thought, anyway hurr they are, these are her thougthts and opinions not mine.

Love for a liftetime
By jason P. fish hahaah jk!

Romantic love is probably the biggest lift in life. Its gives you a buzz cler to the bones and brigtens the landscape around you. Even in the dead of winter, you feel like the middle of spring. Trees seem greener, the flowers brighter, and tomorrow's history exam less threatening. But true love, if it is indeed true, is more than emotional rush. Good-time feelings ceom and go, but love endures only if its nurtured in an environment of trust, respect and sacrafice. Without trust, love erodes. Trust says: i will remove all the "No trespassing" signs from our relationship, not demand we spend every minute together, and give you the freedom God does-to return my love if you so choose. I will allow you to be yourself-at risk of knowing others maybe attracted to the very things that attracted me. Without respect, love withers. Respect says: i will honor your privacy, listen to your thoughts, learn from our differences, and treat your body like God does-us as the temple of the Holy Spirit. I wont try to mold you in my image; doing so would merely ensure one of us isnt needed.

So there you have it, the first two main points in love. Sacarice is the one i didnt get to. So then wha does sacrafice mean? Well when i first think of the word, the word times comes into mind. Being able to set aside time to spend w/each other. Whether its a full day, half day or juss a small portion, dedicating it to that person. Which means i would you gotta organize your time and priorities. you cant really act on impulse, cuz well that would suck. For example, if you already made plans to chill w/your significant other, yet your homies from the g funk era ask you to kick it w/you that day, that would suck to drop your plans w/your significant other. I think it means to be aware of errthang thats going in the both of your lives. PLan accordingly! I dont know i guess its not giving up a lot, cuz it doesnt have to be like that. I think the two people have to meet each other half way. They both gotta make sacarifices for each other. Anyway, thas my two cents for today! haha those are juss randumb thoughts, i dont know if they make sense or not. I havent been in a relationship, so im only going off of wha ive seen from other peoples.

My sister and my mom redecorated my bathroom today. Basically it now looks like the aquarium of the pacific in long beach! haha forreal! so if you go to my house and you use my bathroom, youll get to see the aquarium for free! haha I use to have black bathroom mats, well theyve been replaced by these bright blue ones now. I use to have plain white walls, well now i have fish tiles in the different areas of the bathroom. I use to have plain soap dish, now its a fish one. I use to have a shower/bath sliding door, now its a fish curtain. I use ot have plain window curtains, now theyre fish ones. I even have a fishbowl w/live fish inside the bathroom! hahah see i told you my bathrooms looks like aquarium of the pacific! haha

anyway, heres one more thought to ponder on for today. Its another thing i got off that girls website a while back. Again i didnt write this, she did and its called swe3t love.
Everyone's experienced their share of love...love lost, found, and lived. The power of love is one of the most amazing feelings that ever be felt. Love has the strength to make the "strongest of men go weak, and the weakest of a powerful man." As we live our experiences of love we we learn lessons...lessons of joy, romance, passion and sadness, and heartbreak. These moments bring out the life in us, revelaing deeper thoughts and feelings in our hearts that lead us to a point of expression that can never be explained. Thus begins the journey of love that is endured, lived, and can never die...

wow deep stuff huh! well i guess thas it for now, this whole relationship stuff fits in w/this month beings its valentines day. Enjoy! oh whew i was going to anotha website and i got skurred that i almost lost the entry! good thing i didnt thas was skurry!

"And the dearest love in all the world, is waiting somewhere for me...is waiting somewhere, somewhere for me..." im done, im out God bless!