"The strongest oak tree of the forest is not the one that is protected from the storm and hidden from the sun. It's the one that stands in the open where it is compelled to struggle for its existence against the winds and rains and the scorching sun."

I am tired, though praise God for a productive day. It was filled w/many different blessings, w/things to think about and juss a time to really communicate w/people one on one. I considered ending my blog this past week, making a concluding entry, but i decided not to. Well partly cuz dj g to izzail was like nooo, so i said okay, ill continue to blog. Its amazing to look back on all the different things that have taken place in my life since nov. Its funny to read back on my past entries and juss see how a lot of things happened to me. I wonder how big my blog book would be if i kept this up for a whole year. Whoa, thas one hell of a lot of reading to do. I dont even know if it;ll all fit in one 3" binder. It juss keeps growing and growing.

I went to talk to Father brennan this morning, my spiritual director. He tossed me a coin and let me two different sides of it. Two different similiar yet different perspectives of it. I ask for your prayers cuz there are some really important decisions that im going to have to make within in the next couple weeks. Not to sound dramatic but they could really change a lot of things for me. So i ask juss ask for your prayers that errthang will go according to God's will. Praise God for spirtiual directors who help you understand things and do their best to make you accept them.

Stopped by the ol daycare today to see what was crackin there. I kinda thought bout going back juss to work on fridays again. In a way i miss working those kids and the staff, though i dont know f it's the best move. There's always the good points and the bad points. We'll see what happens once the company switches over, who knows i may not even be able to go back. I shared a lot of exciting memories over at that place. Some of them are even shared w/many people in the community. Like the time we all practiced the skit for the youf rally. Agh! i had to open the next morning too, i remember that! man last sprign was hard opening on tues. and thurs. thas one thing i hated, waking up @ 515am to be @ work by 6am, work 3 hrs then go to skool. Or when that van ran into the door and praise God no one got hurt or injured. That place will always hold memories for me, thas where i met my best friend too. shessh to think that all happened not too long ago.

Had lunch @ in n out w/ju ju be, that was d0pe. I havent had in n out since gosh i think that time jay and i had gone after class. Anyway, it was really good being its been such a long time! Chillin w/ju ju is fun, the jokes that he makes and the things he says cracks me up. The typical 'compare & contrast' conversations or why dont you call so and so. haha After lunch we went to encore to get my mother's mother;s day gift. Then we had gone to the bp mall and visited my other old job. That was coo catching up w/some people whom i havent seen in a while.

Went to mass and the priest who was doing the mass must be another outoging visiting priest. So many come and go, but yet none of them are hurr to stay. Anyway, the way he conducted mass was quite interesting, man we didnt have a chance to really 'peace be w/anyone.' Right when you turned out he already started the "Lamb of God..." Then his homily was really convicting also as well as some of the closing remarks said right before mass was over. Pretty much how when we fall carrying our crosses, that we gotta keep on trying.

Met up w/'Gina' at St. Peter Chanel tonite, ahh that wonderful church! We went back to west covina, had dinner w/some scrc people to talk bout upcoming plans. It's exciting to see errthang come into play, things being put together. The two of us are really looking foward to the new young adult track. Were gonna push to see if our music ministry will be able to play. IF not be able to play for the whole track, then maybe @ a Jesus and java concert the nite before. We'll see by next fri, what things we'll be able to do and things we may not be able to do.

Spending time w/'Gina' tonite was totally d0pe. It's funny cuz i never realized how alike we were until recently. Juss like how we have many different things in common. I guess thas why we became so close and we get along so well. She's helped me out in so many different ways, its juss coo. Praise God for her being a blessing in my life. For her helping me out w/things i dont understand or things i need to understand. Her soul is so beautiful inside that, God has really worked wonders on this awesome sister! woOoo! Despite the fact we had we kinda got 'misguided' on the way home hah it all worked out cuz we got to talk more. I

guess thas our once a week hang out type activity. haha Gina im praying for your answers, its all in the 'box.' Don't worry the answers are slowly coming. Its kinda like super mario how we gotta get the things we need by jumping and hitting the ? boxes. When we hit those boxes something that we need comes out. The same thing is happenign w/you right now i can see it. More boxes are coming your way, w/the answers you need. Were in this together gina, dont worry! haha

"They said it wouldn't last we had to prove them wrong 'cause i've learned in the past that love will never do without you..."im done, im out God bless!