"Things must happen TO YOU, so that things may happen IN YOU, so that things may happen THROUGH YOU..."

Gail told me this last nite, and reading it again, i come to a lot of conclusions. The good things and the bad things that take place in our life happen for a reason. God lets it happen so he can purify our souls for making something better happen. Through this process we can shine His greater glory on to our brothers and sisters. The hardest part of all this, is actually being able to understand this whole reasoning. I know i can realte to this quote through many of the events that have taken place in my life. I know God is preparing me for something big right now and He is testing my faith, trust and patience in Him. Patience is one of my greatest flaws, i have the hardest time waiting. I do the best i can to work on that one though.

G to izail is d0pe, i love errconversation we have cuz i always end up getting something good out of talking ot her. There's always a purpose to our conversations and i look up to her cuz she's so happy. Well except that time, when she didnt the sprite commercial joke. hahah jk On the real though, the help she has given me is wonderful. I guess in a way she's my guardian angel who helps pull me into the light. Well her and some other people like banne. Im a fallen angel who cant soar or fly right now, and i imagine the Lord knows why. Thanks dj g to izail for errthang.

Father Grace told me some good stuff on sat. during confession. He had me explain to him what happened when Jesus came to the disciples. I told him he showed him the scars from the nailings in his hands. Father told me that's right, yet though the scars still remained the glorified body was still there. Which is like us, when we mistakes, those are the scars in our hands. Yet what's always going ot be there is our glorified body through God's grace, mercy and love. So we can say, yes were gonna fall down, yes were going to continue to make mistakes.

Then he talked me bout prayer life comparing to friendships. How its like were in a boat and were at the surface level of the boat. Thas basic prayer, juss surface level going up down the waves. Though if we want to see what's under the water, we have to go deep. When we go deep thats contemplative prayer which brings things to a whole new level. Like a friendship once weve gone deeper, it strengthens it tightens it together. He told me something rather interesting, he said it takes 3 years of marriage to really, really know someone. wow, thas forever long time!

So im doing all that i can to not loose this game. To play hard and try again each time i loose my turn. There have been many different, yet difficult changes made in the game. Many of them ive struggled to understand and accept, though i have to in order to win the game. Father grace talked bout in his homily today bout changes. How many people are customed to change and so use to things being the same way. Thas like me also. When change comes many times im afraid to accept it. THough after a while it becomes easier and easier.

Today was a d0pe day, i felt good for the most part. Work was coo, i learned there's another new church in HB. Its called St. Vincet De Paul, so thas something to check out. I learned the pope canonized 5 new saints, thas tight new saints in heaven! woOo Went to chill w/my cousin @ newport beach tonite, we went to the spectrum and ate cheesecake factory. Ha, that's one place that i'll always remember thas fo sho. I got core group stuff, i had to do out of the way. Oh i got this coo thing for the mexican tonite, imma give it to him tomorrow. Haha its funny, when i saw it, i had to get it.

"Please repeat after me - there's only one rule, I WILL NOT, LOSE!" im done, im out God bless!