"Being willing to suffer often brings great rewards..."

okay im attempting to redo my thoughts from last nite. I know i wont get errthang i had said, but hopefully i can get most of it. Anyway, jaymee had told me last week that sometimes when we get attack, it means our spirituality is about to rise. For the past couple weeks ive been getting numerous attacks, im sure like many other people in core. Never had i felt all at one time, so many different mix of feelings, like anger, sadness, frustration, impatience, anxiety etc. Of course it sucked, but i finally realized on sat. why im probably getting attacked so much. The attacks were ceased up until early early sat. morning. Later on that day it was making sense what jaymee had said earlier that week.

Though its hard to suffer like this, the greatest reward in the end is getting through it. To me each attack that we suffer is an experience. An experience to grow in holiness to grow stronger in our faith. To grow stronger in our commitment to the Lord. Maybe errthang im saying isnt making sense, i dont know. For us, the greatest reward in Christ;s suffering is our life. Each time we go through suffering its, God telling us to persevere throught it. Pushing to fight off the demons and the attacks of the evil one. I know these are not the end of the attacks, though i know next time it happens, im going to want to fight even 10x stronger than last time. The devil is a strong foe and will stop at nothing till he gets what he wants. OUr spirits are stronger and if we continue to push and fight agaisnt the devils evils, he will fall down as he does always.

THis weekend was an intereresting one, many different unexpected things took place. I learn valuable lessons through this weekend. Also there are plenty of things i need to work on within myself. I dont think ive gotten attacked so hard until this weekend. The attacks were getting so bad that i was telling myself, that i didnt feel like i was fit to serve the community anymore. I wasnt beign a leader to the community and it would be better to step down. Man it was to the point where i was wishing something bad happen to me. Though i know those were the devils words and not my own. I realized i must stand strong and not bite into that bait. YEs, i will fall and there will be plenty of other times where i feel stuck, but as phil 4:13 says, 'i can do anything through Christ who strengthens me.' ITs all about trusting and depending on Him.

Something i realized to over the weekend. That often i want to grow up faster, though i know i still have a lot of growing up to do and learning. Its like when your younger sibiling tries to copy errthang you do cuz they want to be the same w/you. Which is hard on bof parties. For the younger one understanding that we cant be the same. But yet understand you can still give something back to the older one. As for the older one, understanding that yeah he's younger then me. His mentality may not be the same as mine. He might not see the things i do cuz i am older. THough juss as the younger sibling can give back, so can the older one. Its not a authority thing, wehre cuz i am older i am know more. Its gotta be a 50/50 relationship, bof giving something ot each other.

So sat. was elijiah;s birfday party at crescent. I got there at around 2pm, i wanted to go earlier that way id get close parking. I still got good parking though so it was cool. It was good times good times we played a lot of fun games. Like the boom chicka boom boom boom boom, ha atche and i cant seem to lead it. haha its coo i dont mind being @ the end of the line. I think thas a game i can attempt to play maybe w/the kids @ work someday. Its fun seeing errone ni the circle juss doing all kinds of different things. The girls were d0pe playing that game. Especially lyn² prayer buddy and boss lady. Jumbo was d0pe too! haha

Then we played this mafia game using cards. Its hard to start it cuz theres things you gotta remember. THough once you get the hang of it, it get pretty funny. I think through this game you see the beauty in each other. haha after going around and staring at each others eyes. 'I get lost in your eyes...' hahah i can still hurr people saying, 'im dead' or 'im alive now.' hahaha I can still hur that crazy guy jumbo saying, 'where the hell is the doctor?' or 'Where is the popo at? he;s not doing his job! catch the dang killer!' hahahaha oh man that game is hillarious.

The differetn card games that we learned too that day! The puso attack was d0pe! We got all intense and into playing the games. I nevr learned so many different card games all in one day. Jumbo is hiallious to play abny kind of game with. He makes it exciting and teaches you nwe things too. Or tryign to play 'spoons' w/pennies instead. Or that name/color game where you gotta say the person's color or name of the person who matches your card. haha thas funny cuz you start of speechless or stuttering like, 'umm umm blue!!!' haha there was that one where you play w/partners. That one was more of skill game and a little bit difficult trying to giev your partner a signal. haha good times, good times!

YOu know the two additions to our community, sfc guys are d0pe. They bring so much to our community, i think one things they bring out is liveliness. THey show us new things, and get us all excited. Actually i dont consider them sfc guys now, but more less sh guys now. Its coo cuz they bof fit in so well and get along w/errone so well also. Praise God for a community that only continues to grow and to serve more and more each day. Maybe thas why most of core is getting attacked so much. The devil sees how much we as a whole are growing and to prevent it he starts by trying to tear up relationships.

I finally came up w/a nickname for jumbo. From now on he will be called ju ju bees like those candies! hahaha so jumbs if youre reading this, that is your new nickname. Ha ju ju bees is one funny guy, always happy. I see God through him. Like me, he's like a sunflower himself blooming w/happiness. Whenever youre with the guy you cant help but only to laff. THas what he does he brings happiness to our group. The guy has so many different talents, his swing dancing not to mention his creative jokes! haha even the tagalog ones that i dont understand. haah Him and the mexican are both strong soliders for Christ.

Well i guess you cant talk bout one w/o talking bout the other. The mexican man, haha i remember seeing him and saying to myself, 'so he isnt mexican after all!' This brother is tight cuz he gets along w/errone and he makes an effort to talk to errone. He's d0pe cuz of all the wisdom he carries, on errthang. I really admired him on sat. for making the effort to bring errone together for fellowship. Its coo cuz it seems like from the moment he started in our group, he seemed already comfortable. Maybe thas cuz he knew the lopezs already. He's like one of those guys who you can talk to. ITs great how i feel comfortable myself joking around w/him and not worrying if he'll get mad. PRaise God for the diversity in our group, now that we have a mexican! hahahaha

Not only do i have wonderful brothers to serve God with, but some groovy sisters too.
I love my prayer buddy! shes the bestest prayer buddy i could ever have. What do i say bout her? man she's cute, atheltic, strong, smart and cute too! haha She's alaways available for me to talk to and even if its juss asking her to pray for me. We joke around w/each other all the time and juss another person who you can rely on for help. Boss lady is juss all around awesome, she shows me God's love. This sista is helps me out w/a lot of different life issues. She also shows me where to get good boba! woOo mmm! Jovie or sunshine, haha her style is one of a kind. She taught me how to do the pony! haha jennevee or babyveee my prom prom prom buddY or my fake gf(inside joke she knows what i mean.) I love chillin w/her cuz she always makes me laff and juss helps me out whenever i talk to her.

Achie, man she always finds a way to force out of me whas wrong. Shes my right hand woman on thurs. nites. Achie guides me and juss helps give me direction. Atche woo one thing i can say is always, always listen to her when she gives you advice. I give her mad props for juss being able to handle so many difficult things at one time. It takes a true leader to stand up when it seems like errthang else be falling down. Tita beyonce shes helps me in soo many ways. Juss spiritually, especially this weekend, always checking up on me and juss helping me to trust in God more. Jaymee is funny, she helps me w/things i need to do like a mom does! hahaI guess shes like my Mom in Christ. haha i dont know if there is such thing, but oh well ill make it up then. haha Jennif is another one of them girls whos got the moves. i told her that when i see her that she needs to see the boom chicka boom boom boom game. Jennif is a wonderful person to talk bout almost anything. She cracks me up though a lot.

Rtb #2, well theres that saying bout how happiness radiates to other people. I think thas what she does, radiates her happines to the people who need it. HA when i see her, it reminds me of the song caramel. 5'5 w/brown eyes, smile like sunrise. hahaha man i feel like im writing some kind of dedication at the back of a yearbook or something. ANyway, my coworker is juss totally d0pe! Shes got all the dance moves, in fact she should have her own dance video. ONe of those whhere you learn how to dance. It could be like 'all you need to know bout dancing w/roselynn. haha forreal i wanna take her polynesian dancing class to do incorporate my figure 8 and box step together! haha jeanne or as i like to say, john ha my ditching buddy. Another wonderful sister who i love joking around with. i like to stalk her too! hahah jk

ha reirich juss told me that girl rhea from SOl thought i was him! hahah oh man oh man thas funny. Well there you have it, the women of sh our own justice league. I hope i didnt forget anyone, if i did my bad. Maybe in my text entry, ill write bout the superheros of Sh. Wow this entry is long! haha well hopefully you enjoyed it, till next time keep hittn up the tagboard! it was funny on sat. lala called me hijo. hahahaha

"Ill give you the moon at night, ill give you the stars to light your eyes, ill give you the sun to make just one more dawn so another day may come. Ill give you my heart and soul, ill be there to catch you when you fall. When you ask me what i'd give to you, girl i'd give it all..." im done, im out God bless!