"From every human being there rises a light that reaches straight to heaven and when two souls are destined to be together find each other, the streams of light flow together and a single brighter light goes forth from that united beam..."

I feel really bad right now, i guess my sufferings and what i go through in life, especially now are nothign compared to this kid. Let me tell you a story about this kid i had met a while back ago, this is my story and it goes something like this...well one day i was online and i get one of those random accidental ims from this guy. He turns out to be dan's cousin from oxnard's youf group. It started off w/juss conversations bout the catholic church. Things he didnt understand, things he didnt agree with, he wanted to convert cuz some of the people who were closest to him were protestant. I guess his gf at the time too was protestant also. Anyway, as time passed by we became close. I became his kuya and well i guess he ended up becoming my 'hijo.'

I came to learn that the kid was sick, he was 15 and living w/cancer in his stomach. At one point, it was starting to spread too. Off on and he gets sick, there are times where hes okay and times where he feels like crap. As of now the cancer is stable, so hes doing okay for now. He struggles through life knowing he has this terrible sickness. He searches for answers and well hasnt found the ones he's looking for. Juss tonite, he told me that a part of his body became swollen. I asked my prayer buddy whos like my medical expert, what the symptoms could be. He also told me that juss last year he had testicular cancer and well one of his things were removed.

I realized tonite that the stuff ive been stressing bout, or i tend to stress bout is nothing. My suffering is no way as great as his. To be soo young and to have to wake up errday knowing you have an uncurable sickness. He goes to skool off and on when he feels like going. The poor kid has a hard time accepting what he has and doesnt even understand why he has it. He gets frustrated when he gets sick, knowign theres nothing he can do. It kinda reminds me of the girl in the movie a walk to remember. I do waht i can to help the kid, be the big brother i can to him. Someone he can talk to or juss to be there to listen. I try to be the best kuya i can, juss as my own kuya does to me. So i aks you please continue to keep him in your prayers, man i think id loose it in a way if something happened to him. ITs skurry when he talks bout his illness and when hes not feeling good. He told me tonite, youre the only one that cares, then he said, 'i love you kuya.'

Well with that in mind, this quote for today talks bout soul mates. Bout how errone is destined to find their soul mates. When two people destnied to be together find each other, their lights shine straight up into the heavens. NOt as two indvidual beams of light, but more less one ray of light, shinning straight into the heavens. A now united ray of light, showing the unity between two individuals perfect for each other. BOss lady and kuya are two perfect examples of this quote. Ü

Went to skool today and well it was nothing special. Despite the fact i was late i still found good parking. woOO! Came home for a while and i was talking ot jl and that guy jay online. I guess the guy is suppose to be coming to prayer meeting tomorrow. He asked what we do and waht songs we play. Ends up he knows most of the songs were playing tomorrow nite. I like that striders blog entry tonite, bout 'waht a wonderful world.'
It makes me think of like a big hill grassy area w/a nice blue sky. The sun is shinning out, the birds are singing all over. Actually this song is, what im sure heaven is like...if i go end up getting there. haha

Went to work, had only like 7 kids but that was cool with me. As long as i have kids to work with to keep me busy. Lyn²'s polynesian class is pretty popular, i always hurr people talking bout it. I was in my club room storage room the other day and i was reading her steps to the song theyre doing. I got stuck though, cuz there was this one word i didnt know which was like a step. The class looks fun and im sure she makes real fun and exciting too! i dont understand errnite, ialways get these like nats inside my house. Then the fly around my computer and i end up killing them.

So i attempted to learn how to html tonite, this wya i dont rely on other people like mizike, fred, kuya and reirich to post pics for me. But it juss wasnt working out, maybe i wasnt in the right mind state to do so. Strider said he'll teach me in person. wooO thatd be d0pe then i can do pics all bymyself at my convience! i talked to angela today for a bit, she told me she might be stopping by prayer meeting tomorrow. Thatd be cool if she did being she hasnt came in forever long. Ever since she started her new job @ urban outfitters.
i cant wait till july, till my birfday comes up so we can go to vegas. We started to plan it out yesterday, some of my fam bam tribe will be coming. ONce i turn 21, im gonig all out especially in vegas. Imma hit up err club, err bar, err casino err karaoke bar haha its on after years of waiting and anticipation its gonna be hurr!

Somethign that helped me today that aela emailed to me. i love aela wisdom, err she says makes a lot of sense and it so true. Thas why i listen to whatever aela says cuz i know shes right. "Don't let anyone take the joy in your heart...for your heart is a reflection of your Creator's beauty". There is nothing bigger than Him. So no matter what we go through, He will always conquer it for He is the Lord of Lord and the King of Kings. The joy of carrying your cross is knowing that you will have the rewards of the resurrection. Thanks aela, i needed that for today. I juss need to continue to remind myself that errday.

"The colors of the rainbow, so pretty in the sky are also on the faces of people going by I see friends shaking hands saying, 'How do you do?' they're really saying, 'I love you...'im done, im out God bless!