"Happiness is time spent with a friend and looking foward to sharing time with them again."

That was the quote i had used yesterday when blog got all jacked up. Well today is HOly Thursday, were slowly coming to an end of lent. What i have gained? Well ive gain a discipline to go to daily mass errmorning.
Juss the importance of sacrafice and discpline. Lately ive been really irritable and impatient w/juss people, things errthing and errone. I try not to show it or let it get to me otherwise then thered be drama. On top of that trying to stay from being the whole 'emo' thing. haha The story last week w/the handicapp man proves my point w/impatience. As for irritable it juss goes hand in hand w/the whole impatience thing. Though i pray that my heart may be pure and cleansed.

You know ive been really taking advantage of the sacrament of reconciliation. I dont think ive gone so much in my entire life. haha im juss full of sin or something hahah its all good though. Actually im proud of myself for making an effort to go more now. Where as before it was the whole do your basic duty as a catholic and go once a year. NOw i go like errday, ya heard?! haha jk Naw its juss good to get errthang thas hindering up inside of you out and cleansed.

Work was aiight, another long endless and tiring day. I got into trouble this morning for the paint on the carpet. The carpet in my room is kinda thrashed. Long story, but after that talk w/my supervisors i began to think. I realized that ive been getting small attacks, nothing big or major though. Though im happy that ive been able to get over all of them yet so far.

The rest of the day went smooth, juss really busy and stressful. Did some easy craft w/the kids, then took them to the park to try to kill time. Kuya had lunch w/me, we went to rubios. That was fun, kuya came to me this time! wooOo Then he calls me and tells me this story how he was approached by some lady wanting him to model. kuya said no cuz hes no into that whole scene. Whas funny is she told kuya, he reminded her of Mario lopez. hahaha in case youre wondering why thas funny cuz i remind him of that erronce in a while.

Went to st. lucys and met some people there, it was cool cuz they were really hospitable towards jeanne and i. thas d0pe cuz i like going out to a different community and being welcomed there. I hope we at sh are like that welcoming and not where we shut out people. We left @ like 6pm to get there and good thing we did otherwise we woudlnt of foudn parking. There group is small, and its filled basically with youf. Basically the group is under any real guidance, its kinda designed to bring youf together to keep off the street. So we got there and we did a couple songs of praise & worship. Two action songs, woo we did lulaley it was fun. Then thye had an easter egg hunt and there was a prize for the person who collected the most eggs. I only found 4 which was like average i guess, where as jeanne found one egg.

After we went outside to watch this spanish group put on "the way of the cross" skit. The skit was very powerful and convicting. FRom the very beginning till the very end when they put Jesus into the tomb, it was so whoa. In the beginnign they had the roman soliders bring in Jesus to pilate and juss watching that sent chills down my back. IT felt as if i was there in the crowd watching the whole time. Then the guy who played Jesus did a great job, he made me feel as if that guy was really Jesus. THe whole crucifcixion part made me juss realize errthang in life. WHen they were pounding ni the nails, it looked soo real. When they put up the cross and there was Jesus now crucified, that was juss i dont know how to explain it. This was the first year where i guess i really paid close attention to the crucifixion and the whole lenten season. Oh yeah and the whole mood was set for the whole stations of the cross. IT was dark, cold and it was crazy cuz right behind the cross was a full a moon.

At the end of it, jeanne and i both didnt knwo waht to say. Like we went up and juss looked at the cross and the feeling i got looking at it was juss guilt. Anyway, we went back to say our goodbyes and exchange email info and what not. Theyre having a bonfire next fri. @ seal beach so i think jeanne and i want to go. Ill send out an email to ask if anyone else wants to join us. I love bonfires, those are the best! wooO I remember the one i had last summer, errthang didnt go exactly to plan but oh well it was still fun. This year the bonfire will be even bigger, since i know more people in different communities now.

Went back to cpe to meet up w/errone else there. The guys were playing ball and finishing up their games. IT was quite of collection of people from all over. We had the football team durr, then we had sfc people there and we had uprm there. I on the other had had to do something athletic haha so i went for a jog. I shouldve stretched out before cuz at the end i got dizzy and sore. It reminded me of my younger days haha when id run a lot. ha that all went down the drain, though i should start to pick that up again. Dont wanna become a fat, lazy heifer in life.

Then we went to cerritos towne center ate and chilled there for a while. Heard some pretty interesting, yet skurry conversations being stirred up. I didnt leave till almost 1am cuz many of us were sitting there talking bout relationships. I guess it was like one of those on site singles for Christ household meetings. Interesting points came up and experiences from the past were talked bout. IT was coo cuz errone had a say in something and it was good to look at things from all different perspectives. Like what people want, what they fear and what thye look foward to. Good times, good times i must say, even though we were forever and it was cold.

Aela is d0pe, i really like listening to her talk and her stories. She's so wise and juss errthang she says makes a lot of sense. MAybe thas why shes our servant god haha But forreal cuz of all the experience she has and the stuff shes been thorugh, errthang she says is juss yeah how true. I guess thas why its important to listen to elders and not try to do things our own way. When we try to do things our own way instead of taking their advice thas when we ourselves into trouble. THough with that comes the experience part and learning from that experience. I think thas the way we our w/God sometimes, or maybe a lot of times for me that is. We hurr Him telling us to go one way yet we turn the wheel and decide to take a different direction. I guess certain things now made me really realize the importance of listening to advice is. Yes, its only advice but yet the advice isnt given for no apparent reason. Its only to help us grow and to make us see outside the box, not juss inside of it.

Agh my aol is jacked up again i cant add people to my buddy list for some reason. I keep getting an error occured when i try. Stupid aol cuz i got all these new buddies to add to my buddy list. NOw its making a beeping sound for errthang and not the regular sound its suppose to make. agh so frustrating! well i cant wait till this week is over, all the stress and the anxiety ive been feeling will be over. Well actually once im finished w/work on sat. then ill be relieved. Ill be able to breath again! i have to take al unch @ 2pm which is a long time away, hopefully prayer buddy will be able to take it w/me.

"Jesus rememeber me when you come into your kingdom..."im done, im out GOd bless!