"I would rather be the type of person who takes the ride and gets hurt, Than the person who takes the safe route and never feels pain."

I dont get it, i wrote a whole blog last nite and then it doesnt even come up today. It doesnt even show the post on hurr, thas weird. I know strider wrote one too and his doesnt even show up. agH!! blog is so frustrating, thas why i hate using this stupid thing sometimes. It only pisses me off!!a agh! that so puzzling why it did that, now i gotta write a whole new entry over! agH!!! stupid blog!!! i guess the good part about redoing blog is i wnot be so tired and i could write a litte bit more.

This was the same quote i had used yesterday too. Hmm the theme of this quote is all bout experiences and going through them and understanding why things had happened in those experiences. Its like i rather be the person who takes the risk goign through the experience and gettnig hurt then the person who doesnt take that route and is afraid. Experiences help us become a better person in a way, going through the experience we understand what went wrong and we can look to change it. How are we suppose to get anywhere w/o goign through the experience. Experiences help us get to other places too, cuz weve gone through it and now were ready for something bigger to come our way. With experience comes risk taking, we take the risk by goign through the hurt and pain. Often times were afraid to step out the boat and risk seeing what'll happen cuz were so use things be the same way. Skurred of moving into change, therefore resulting in not going through the experience. Experiences help us grow, so dont be afraid of risking new things to get the experience!

Well i use my phone errday as my alarm on my phone to wake me up errday. I had set for 715am to get wake up and get ready to be @ spv @ 745am. The alarm didnt go off, i woke up at almost 8am! agh which made me rush getting ready, which resulting me in being late. If you know me then i hate rushing to be late to get to things! Like on mon. the same thing happened, when i spent the nite @ kuyas. The alarm didnt go, but good thing kuya had an interenal alarm in his head. Otherwise, oh man he couldve been late for work! whew good thing that didnt happen. I think i need to get my phone checked out cuz its doing weird things anyway. i want a new phone like the one mo rice has, thas tight!

We had the first communion retreat yesterday. It was pretty fun, they didnt do much like we did in the previous years, though it was still fun. I think it was God telling me maybe i shouldnt retire from SRe anytime soon. When i got tthere it brought back memories of the youf alpha reunion picnic. The one that well there wasnt a grip of people, but there was enough. I guess that was when music ministry performed also. I never even knew that until recently, probably cuz i didnt come till later on. ha i remember that day, i was doing a first communion retreat then when when it was over, i was hesitant to go out there. I was debating whether i was going to go or not cuz i think of insecurities. Actually no it was another reason, haha but i cant post it on hurr cuz its well nm. haha
Anyway, i ended up going out there and it turned out to be pretty fun. They played handball and other stuff like that. Wish i could find those pics from that time. aww the memories! haha

So back to the retreat, well techincally i dindt really have to be there cuz the teacher who ive been subbing for was back. Then i had to lead the praise & worship for the songs theyre goign to be singing for their first communion mass. oh man we had to do that song, "if God loves you and you know it..." we done that song like 3x in a row! they were probably sick of the song by the end of the day! Then we practiced on how to receive communion w/the unconsecrated bread. All the teachers showed them before hwo to receieve it and what to do after taking it. Man it was dissapointing cuz when they all came up a lot of the kids didnt know how to take it. They didnt know what to do after taking it. It made me wonder what those teachers are teaching them inside their classes. To me the kids should know this already cuz its april and they shouldve been practicing this all year long.

Though i think i got through to the kids about Eucharist being the real presence of Jesus. At the end fo the day i had to stall time cuz sandy wasnt ready. So i had to redo the songs they were gonng be singing. Once again we did if God loves you and you know it song. Then we did i love you Lord, which i had to sing all the songs and on the mic too, in front of millions of kids and parents. haha no im exaggerating, juss like maybe almost a hundred. It was like oh man though! haha they probably man this kid is whack. haha oh well its all for God. Anyway, so after the songs were done. I asked them what do we say after we receieve the Eucarist. They yelled back to me "Amen!" and i said and what does amen mean? They yelled, "i believe!" after then i said and we say "i believe cuz?" Then they yelled that "cuz were receieving Jesus!" i thought to myself, yesss ive done my job! wooO

Then the older kids the Hs kids i had to take care of for a portion of the time. Well first off i dont think they even like me cuz im strict w/them. So all they had to do was put decorate this cross. The cross was already put together they juss need to decorate it. I knew it wouldnt take them long to do, so i was emphasizing the importance of the eucharist. They were getting bored czu they asked, "when are we going to start." i got mad cuz i was talking and they interrupted me cuz what i had to say was imporant. I replied back the more you ask when can we start, the more ill keep talking. They stopped askign after i said that, but then talked within themselves. i was getting irritated, but oh well. I told them what the crosses that theyre making represent and how we need to carry our own crosses errday. I know they dindt want to hurr it, but oh well if i juss got my point across to one kid, then its cool. I told them that when judgement day comes, i dont want to be declined of God's glory.

After i was really tired, but i didnt get a chance to sleep cuz of other things to do. Went the spirit rally @ uci wif kuya, strider, JL, mizike, ariel and reirich. haha there was 7 of us representing which kinda sucks cuz whenever we go anywhere now, theres like only 2 or 3 people to represent our community. SOl was there and they brought like maybe 10 different people. The rally was aiight, i met a couple of new people, and they all said oh you look familiar. As if they knew me or something, i get that a lot. We left early during the intermission cuz i guess errnoe didnt want to stay for the whole entire thing. JL, mizike, strider, kuya and i all went to eat @ fridays by souf coast plaza.

JL brought up a good point during our conversation at the dinner table. How people make their out to be worse than it really it is. Which is i guess dangerous in a way, but still its ridiculous and makes me mad. I hate it when people are all caught up into themselves and are like 'oh man my life sucks' or 'woe is me.' Its so gay, it sucks that they dont appreciate their life. They probably wont appreciate it until something happens or until they finally die and then they end up some place where they dont want to be. Or what bugs me is when they rely on other people to make their happiness. CErtain people whom i know well enough do that, and its juss like oh gosh. They make that person the center of their life. Im not trying to sound bitter or anything, but for example this person's bf broke up w/them. Then after that the person made their life out to be a waste. Then i guess juss recently when they started to talk again bout getting back, they were happy again. Its like oepn your eyes to see the other things that are out there. There;s so much more to life then rely on other people to make you happy.

After fridays, us guys went to starbucks and had quite an interesting nite. I ran into shannel there, it was weird i saw her from afar and i thought she looked familiar. Then she finally saw me so we hugged and said hi. Ha its crazy how i guess friends w/them, being im a lot older then them. Anyway, we talked about a lot of interesting topics there. It was d0pe juss spending time together cuz well we havent done that in a while. We havent all chilled as a whole uprm in a long time. Hopefully, that can happen tonite @ the cheesecake factory. Well thas my thoughts for today, hopefully this time it'll post my entry.

"BAck in the day when i was young im not a kid anymore, but somedays i sit and wish i was a kid again..." im done, im out God bless!