"You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You must do the thing you think you cannot do."

Through all the struggles we go through in life, it helps us pick ourselves up. We gain the strength, courage and confidence in these experience which make us stronger. They boost up our self-esteem to not be afraid to take the giant step foward into the next level. Its like how that expression goes, "you gotta do, what you gotta do." Meaning, if we continue to persevere and rise against our struggles, we will be able to do the things we cannot do. If we work hard at what we think we cannot do, then we will be able to overcome that obstacle thas stopping us. Dont deny yourself a great opportunity to move up, you gotta do the thing you cannot do. Hmm it's like learning to ride a bike. Youre so use to the training wheels, when it comes time to learn to actually ride the bike you hesistate. THough if we push ourselves and think in our heads we can do this, then youll be able to get it.

Today was quite an interesting, busy, none the less of a tiring day for me. I shouldve slept in some more this morning, agh and i cant sleep in tomorrow either. oOh Why?! Kuya doesnt have time to spend w/hijo on fridays anymore when he's off. awww hijo is going to end up back on the streets w/gangs again cuz we have no more at risk youf program. hahaha Hijo is going to join the crips cuz there is no more at risk youf program to stop me and counsel me. hahaha Then hijo will get caught in a gang battle and end up at the memorial center cuz i got caught in the battle. Kuyas gotta help get hijo back off of the streets and into skool again. hahaha

Dang my car is soo dirty inside and outside, i think on sun. ill wash it. Hopefully if it doesnt rain or something cuz i cant stand looking at it. I went to pick uP jl and we went to mass @ 1215pm. AFter went to get lunch @ mcdonalds and we juss talked bout old times. jl is my rtb and we havent taken one in a while, so it was d0pe chillin w/her. After lunch, i took her to washignton mutual to get $$. Taught her how to fill out one of those slips cuz she said she didnt know how. I got a couple of funny stories, that happened @ the bank. Well as we pulled up there was this girl and jl was like "aaww she looks so pretty w/long hair and look shes athletic too!" i wasnt paying attention so i was like okay cool. Then we get out of the car and it was my cousin! haha i said hey, then we did small talk and i invited her to prayer meeting.

Second funny story, we go inside and jl tells me this guy in the line looks like her friend. So when we were done, i told her to go tell him. As we were walking towards the door, she tells the guy real loud in passing "hey you look like my friend." haha It was loud where errone stopped what they were doing @ looked at JL.. haha jk no the guy juss looked @ her and smiled. Then she thought he was cute, so we go back inside and she makes a convo w/him. Explaning how he looks like her friend and what skool JL's friend goes to etc. It ended up being his turn to go, so she was like ill wait for you. hahaha We wait for the guy and we do small talk outside. HE asks wehre we are from and tells us he lives in la palma but goes to skool @ poly. He has an apt @ poly so he comes errweekend. He asked us where were from, so we told him bp. Then we learned his name was jay and he goes to cal poly. Jl invites the guy to prayer meeting but then was like well you probably cant come cuz youre live far. He was like naw, i usually dont do anything anyway. hahah roooight, so i guess this is a test to see if he comes.

Went to the buena park mall, looking to get pants, a tie and a shirt. Went to ross and i didnt find anything there rreally. Then we went to malvern towne center to the ross there and i still couldnt find anything over there. Went back to ross and i got pans and tie. Then went to dsw to get shoes there, but i was having some issues there so i left. Cuz i was looking for kenneth cole dress shoes, i know its expensive. Since i dont have any dress shoes i decided to get some, i figured i mine as well go in stlye for tonite. After that i decided to go last min. to robisons may in cerritos mall. I got the shoes that i wanted, the kenneth cole shoes. Then there was an accident on the streets. After that i took jL home, then got ready and went to the soratorios.

Went wif banne to kappa formal, a charade of pretty girls like whoa!! banne did a wonderful talk using the rose as an analogy. I ran into a variety of different people there also @ the formal. The food was aiight, we had salad, then for the main course, mash potatoes w/gravy and some vegetables w/chicken. Since we couldnt eat the chicken we took it home. ONe of the kappas from one of the previous classes asked me to take a family picture for her. So of course i wasnt going to say no, hurrs the catchy part, it was in the mens bathroom. I guess its some kind of tradition for them or something like that. We got into the bafroom and it was kinda weird cuz hurr i was the only guy in there w/a bunch of girls. Though before the fun could start security came in and busted the girls, so they got one pic and we had to get out. That was whack!

I saw when i got in there, darwin from love & faith. He was one of the pledges escorts for the formal. Then i ran into during the brief time banne and i were dancing an old SRe student. She came up to me and was like 'excuse me, whas your name?' then i asked for hers. She told me cat, then she asked kinda like how do i know you type deal. I realized that she was my sre student for 2 years straight! haha thas sooo crazy! Gosh, that was let me see back in 98! ohhh man, that was 5 years ago! sheesh, its weird i always run into old sre kids ive had in my class or people ive subbed for. Then this zeta came up to me and was like "hey werent you at the rally on sat.?" i was like yeah, then he intro. himself to me and blah blah. Those were the people i had ran into there.

The whole nite, was cool, it was pretty interesting to see all the hectic stuff going on. I wanted to dance a little bit more, but its all good i was getting tired anyway. Like i said earlier, so many girls! woooo I felt special my name was in the program and i had a little name tag w/my name on it. hahah wooO! wha else happened, the pledges made the kappa emblem i think as a gift or something. So many people there too, it got crowded pretty quickly.
All these different orgnaizations too and errwhere you turned there was either long hair, short hair or shaved head. haha I had great convos w/banne in the car too, its crazy we have got the charism of understanding online convos! hahah like we can pick up the tone and understand the mood of an online convo. ha i dont know its weird, i never knew anyone else had that! hahaha

Tomorrow is another busy day, i got a retreat to sub for from 745am-230pm. Come home for a little bit, hopefully i can take a nap then leave for liawang till gosh who knows when. I was thinking tonite and i think imma retire from teaching sre after my confirmation kids make their confirmation. Maybe i wont even do bof tues. and thurs. next year cuz its getting to be too much. I need to make sure to slow down a little bit, and not always be on the go. Thoguh we'll see where God leads me by the time SRe rolls around next year. Oh btw i learned that a certain person isnt w/another person, which means that certain person is free! woOO which means i can make a move now! wooOO! haha yeah right i dont do the whole approach thing, i do the ill wait to be approached.

"I see you looking at me I can tell by your eyes that you're feeling me, And I really want you to get close to me
So won't you dance with me, dance with me..."im done, im out God bless!