"If you’re going to be able to look back on something and laugh about it, you mine as well laugh about it now..."

Thas the way i see a lot of things now, especially looking back on the past as i have been doing lately. Like errthang that happened to me in the past, i consider funny. I look back on it and i juss laugh, thas why i dont mind openly sharing those stories w/errone and their mothers on blog! =) Besides it helps make my blog longer so i can please kuya. hahaha But its true though, a lot of stuff i look back on that i did was stupid, but its funny. Its kinda like oh man, i did that? Juss like the stories about prom, sh, hs, etc. etc. Yu knwo whas crazy i only got one detention out of my whole jr. high/high skool career and i got a detention cuz i was stupid. Its long sotry and hard to explain online. If you wanna know juss ask me and ill be more then happy to tell you.

I remember homecoming my senior year, how i got stranded at dennys. I was a scrub back then well part scrub cuz i had a job. haha anyway, well we all ate @ dennys after homecoming, the one on beach and orangethrope across from the church. Wait no, i think it was the one on beach and ball, oh man i forgot. Anyway, so we were all joking around and me and my friends. Well i went too far and i called this girl a name, she got upset and decided not to take me home. She was my transporation, cuz we all kinda car pooled together. She literally, left me stranded on dennys and boned out. I apologized and wha not, but she didnt want to accept it. Well my friend came back w/her date and they picked me up back up at dennys. I guess supposedly my friend;s date wasnt too happy they had to come back to pick me up. I forgave the girl and we ended up talking again and became friends alter on.

So i was sad last niet when i went to bed, and when i went to mass i prayed errthang was only a joke. That i was getting played on and things would go back to normal. This is wha happened, i was talking to kuya as usual online last nite. Then all of a sudden his mood totally changed, i felt like as if i had done something wrong. After i come home from mass, i im him and things are still the same. It made me sad and i was getting worried cuz nothing was changing. I still thought maybe i had done something, but i was too skurred to confront and ask. i know youre probably thinking wait how can you tell someone's tone through an online convo. Well after years of experiencing online convos and analyzing them, i could tell these things. Anyway, it was real skurry and i didnt know what to do or say. All of a sudden he tells me something bout him and boss lady...agh!

Praise God if it was only a joke! Well i had a feeling it might be an april fools joke, but i mean cmon i had to be supportive. i couldnt say right away, ha yeah right, i dont know. so i guess i was hoping it was a joke, and i was like speechless i didnt know what to say. I couldnt say anything, i was skurred and upset and whoa all at the same time. haha it was weird i had all these mixed emotions inside of me that i was like ahHHh! what do i do? waht do i say? ahhh whas going on hurr, no this cant happen! im suppose to live w/them haha were all suppose to live happily ever after like goldilocks and the 3 burrs. When i found out it was a joke, oh man i felt so relieved! like the type of relief after studying forever for a final or finals, then when its all over you can breathe! or when your belt is too tight! haha

Then i played this kinda mean april fools joke too. I planned since this morning, w/jeanne and jaymee. About what i called the "dillema." haha dillema like the nelly song, and i need you, and i love you...hahaha anyway i had said that i had gone to mass w/jeanne and then we had breakfast @ ihop afterward. Then i was talking to ______ online and she told me she basically wanted to get to know me more. Later on that day, ____ called me and apologized for not calling me back. How she didnt want me to think she was avodiing my calls etc. She wanted to make it up to me, so we decided on dinner @ the cheesecake factory @ old town pasadena. This got errone excited and happy for me. I felt bad afterwards when i said april foos. Sorry errone for the joke, hope yall aint mad! ha watch now im going to be destined for both things never to happen! oh man!

So hurr is my day, i went to mass that was cool of course. When is mass not cool? its like saying when is prayer meeting not cool to go to? haha i dont know if that made sense but okay. Went to work for the staff meeting, ah so much stuff coming up. i cant believe it! Were givng our spring day camp till next wed. for sign ups. We have to have 15 by that time or else were cancelling it and doing something else. Which i dont mind either, i juss hope the supervisors dont look down upon us rec leaders and think we didnt do enough to market the program. In reality there is only so much you can do to market a program.

I was getting upset today cuz the kids from the boys and girls club were running back and forth back and forth. Which was irritating to my boss and so he told me to take care of it. So i had to go there and do ctrl+d, which is never easy to do. I had to raise my voice and get mad at them. it sucks cuz on tues. is my free day kinda of not working w/kids, cuz its movie day. So i gotta pop in the movie, feed them snacks and boom, i can leave. Now i gotta watch them, which prevents me from doing the work i gotta do and get done. Its hard cuz i dont have a lot of time outside of my programs to do the other responsibilities i got. Besides that im limited on hours cuz of the whole fiscal year budget. There;s no way i want to take work home and do that either cuz i know it'll end up taking forever. ANyway, that was the run down of wha happened @ work today.

Went to SRE tonite, and discussed about faith and good works. They understood the concept, which is good and i talked to them bout how to answer if someone asks 'are you saved?' Then we talked bout the sacarment of reconciliation and how important it is. Especially now in the season of lent and stuff. One of the kids asked what if you leave in the middle of it. Then what if you dont want to go face to face. With them whenever we talk bout stuff, they alway throw @ me, the "wha if" card. It was funny tonite, one of the other kids threw the god card @ the other kid. hahaha it was funny i told dont throw the god card @ him.

The fellowship @ mcdonalds was fun, boss lady and i had a blast do the straw wrapper thing. You know if you tie together and when you pull it, if it comes out even and not in a knot then the person is thinking of you. haha Then we were messing around w/blessed reirich of de bling. jeanne and iare going to make saint cards tomorrow nite! wooo! i posted achies resume last nite on monster.com and she already got like 22 hits! meaning 22 different employers looked at it, i guess she even got a call from a temp. agency this morning! Talk bout being marketable, hopefully she'll be able to find a good job through this experiment. Anyway, i should go now im gettng tired and i need to print out pics for tomorrow too. Pray for kuya cuz he wasnt feeling good today, aww he had a headache and stuff. Pray that he gets all better! =)

"I only think of you on two occasions, That's day and night..."im done, im out God bless!