"Good nature begets smiles, smiles begets friends and friends are better than a fortune..."

YOu know, It's often the simple heartfelt gesutres in life today speak most loudly of friendship. Ask yourself today, "what can i do to bring a smile to the face of a friend? What can i do to bring a good cheer into the life of someone who is need, trouble, sickness or sorrow?" Follow through on your answer. It's not a gfit you are giving as much as a friendship you are building! So those are my two cents for today, goodnite errone! haha

agh i had like 3 paragraphs typed up and then i accidently pushed ctrl+a and then i typed something and i lost my whole entry! agh i hate that, booo!!! Anyway, i realized i have so much going on in my life, i need to make sure i get enough rest. During the weekdays, i dont get much rest at all, cuz im always going to bed late. Tonite i wont be able to go to sleep till 2am, then wake up @ 730am for mass. My weekdays are so hectic cuz errthang is back to back to back. I dont have time to really rest except on mon. nites. I gotta try and do blog earlier in the evening so i can at least be done w/it by 12am. We'll how it goes, but then i get caught up also talking to other people while doing blog @ the same time. ahh the joy of sleepin in till 12pm!

I had this crazy dream this morning when i woke up. I kinda jotted them down as notes. Oh yeah theyre two different types of dreams also. A lot of it isnt even really clear cuz well i cant remember errthang. This is wha happened though, errone i guess was going out some place and boss lady wanted to go. She asks if she can go out, she's told no for some reason. Boss lady gets upset cuz she wants to go but she cant. Then i remember kuya driving off cuz he ahd to go home and change or something. he ends up coming back to spend time w/boss lady. Then the second part is i guess in sunny hills theatre, i see people i know but their faces arent clear. I end up getting stabbed somehow and then the paramedics come. It was a pretty skurry dream!

I was so tired i wanted to go mass @ 830am @ St. I. Though i remembered it was adoration so i had to go @ 8am @ SpV. I went to mass then came home and i slept for little while, i need to attempt to catch up w/my rest. Checked my mail, sent out my daily lent stuff and checked out wha was happening w/the war. Its so disturbing to watch anything on tv now, it makes juss frustrated and like agH.

Went to class, phil was boring as usual. The discussion was about free will and some other boring stuff. I was playing snake, while the guy next to me was paying his bills off. I was happy i got there like 5 before class started and i found parking right away! wooo praise God! Went home to check mail and talk to boss lady briefly online before leaving to work. Agh we got stupid commodities to pack @ work tomorrow. At least i know i wont be alone tomorrow packing them. Its boring when there is no one to talk to when im doing that. Though lyn² seems to enjoy donig them, i told her how i get bored cuz i have no one to talk to. She suggested to me that i pray.

Lyn² started to turn the senior lounge into her new "preskool playtime" activity classroom. You guys gotta come and see it. its so nice and colorful and w/all the posters on the walls. Its soo d0pe! her and my other co worker did a d0pe job. By the time its done, its gonna look so bright and juss wow! i liked how she's hanging stars from the ceiling. Her bulletin boards are nice too! we need to get more butcher paper like different color ones to do more boards. We only have like orange and white, well hardly any white left. I guess next time we all take a trip down to stanton, yall can check it out. By that time the room should be up and running too.
Her classes are going to go so well, i can tell already! Im excited and so proud of her! Im glad they were able to hire her! She juss so creative and what not!

My class today was a bit hectic though. The kids were suppose to be working on their lyp syncs, instead i get a lot of drama. Man the boys and girls club dont have any sense of discipline @ all. Thas why my kids are all wound up and juss like whatever. They didnt even really accomplish anything in my class today at all. Mostly messed around and got mad @ each other. Though im tryign ot be patient cuz i dont want to loose these kids, cuz theyre the only ones i got! haha its so hard to kids too, thas why i gotta learn to be patient and take deep breaths.

After work, i went to visit Jesus @ the blessed sacarament, its adoration so i had to take advantage of the time. So i stayed there for a about half hour or so, i prayed my rosary and juss sat and looked @ Jesus. I guess kuya went straight to my casa after he got out of work. haha he called me on my way home asking me wheer i was. He told me he wasnt going to come till like 630pm so i took my time. haha apparently he was excited to hijo! hahaha Kuya comes over and he has dinner @ my house. We had turkey meatloaf and squash. He tried squash for the first time, but it was too swe3t for him. I forgot to tell him to peel off the shell! Then we juss messed around and aruged back and forth like we always do. He was making fun of me cuz i had on my cork board of pics, the little movie card to the "flip side." My old neighbors who lived right next door to us for the longest time came over and visited also. it was nice to see them cuz gee i havent seen them in forever long. IT was a nice little suprise for them to come to visit.

Well i made another attempt again to call. Once again i got the vmail and it was some girl talking. Though she was speaking so fast that i didnt understand whos # i called. I didnt wanna call it again cuz, the person whos ever it was might think im weird. haha So i was flusterred cuz i got the wrong # or i think i did at least. i asked darwin from SOl if he knew the #. He gives me some other # thas 909 area code which i thought didnt seem like the right one. I called it anyway and i got some girl name rebecca's vmail. After that last call i was like agh!

Small little chit-chat w/kuya bout the whole phone call situation. I have to call cuz i feel like i cant be content w/myself until i talk to her. Its juss one of those things where i feeel like i have to do. Like errone else had said i should wait till she calls me, though how is that suppose to happen if i keep getting the wrong #. Then him, jeanne and el huego said its not meant to be. El huego brought up a good point tonite, that made me think. He said sometimes God shields us from getting hurt, cuz he knows before hand someone might get hurt. So in order to prevent that, He tries to stop us. Though we dont want to listen so we do it anyway and learn the hard way. Then el huego said i shoudl jsus wait for the youf rally and ask for it there. it was ncie cuz he said he doesnt want to see me get hurt over this i guess.

Anyway kuya told me that someone once told him, that in order to get over something, you gotta say no. Easy said but the words being said conveys much truth. In order to give up something, juss say no. Then he brought up an example. HE said you do something and then it makes you frustrated causing you to sin. Therefore the only way to deal w/that temptation is to say no. The more you say no, the moer it becomes a habbit. Leading me to eventually not want to call her. Kuya also related to the who moved my cheese story, how the story relates to not only the iob style but lifestyle as well. I cant stay in one place but i gotta explore and look for more opportunities. Which is something jeanne told me tonite too. I should keep my opitions open cuz if i keep focusing on that one person (whom we all know), then i might be missing our on someone else.

There are some questions i need to answer for myself and to really think about. I took kuyas ending advice and i delted the # from my phone, then when i see her @ the youf rally ill ask for it. If it's God's will that she becomes available for me to at least talk to her. Well see wha happens but i guess in the meantime i need to focus on trusting in God and answering those questions for myself.

Talked to my AOl best friend tonite, ti was coo cuz we havent talked on the phone in forever. ha we remicised on all the different things that took place in our lives. Liek the bet we made last year and now i owe her teddy crafters some clothes. Or the time when she wrote to me in hawaii, the risk i advised her to take. ha how she found $$ to go to winter formal in her locker @ skool. To this day she still doesnt know who gave her that money to go. Ha or the time her and i went to starbucks over the summer, she saw her cousin there. HEr cousin asked her if i was her bf and she was like no. haha we bof laughed cuz she's like 12(not really, more less 15). Im like 20 so im like 5 years younger then she is. haha she wrote this bout that time we chilled in her dead journal.

"-i went home cleaned a little did a buncha nothing then talked online and jason offered to go to starbux and we ended up going
-we went to starbux but i went to cold stone and i saw my cousin nicole, christian and carlo. my cousin christian didn't member me but whatever. i haven't seen that lil boy in like YEARS.... jason and i went to goldilocks and he checked out more girls and bought some polveron. hahaha. yep yep"

oh the memories! or how i went to her cousin mary;s birfday party too cuzi was invited. hah iwas stuck there w/a bunch of hs freshmen girls. I was the oldest one there, it was weird i dont knwo why i went. haha I lost playing dollars to this one ghett0 chick. Though my cousin ended up winning it back for me! woo I love my aol best friend, she's so fun to talk to! wha up heif! hope youre reading this really long entry! haha thanks for all the good times!

Went to dennys w/el huego tonite for a little bit. Saw an old hs friend there also, i invited her to prayer meetng but she had some bbq to go to tomorrow. OH well, though ti wouldve been coo if she went. I got fries and ranch though i shouldnt of even gotten it. I dont know why i knew i wasnt really hungry, but i got food anyway. Came home and talked to reirich for a while online. He gave me a good quote to use for tomorrow's entry. Well thas it for now, i gotta long day tomorrow! please keep me in your prayers, i hope nothing bad happens tomorrow!

"Doesn't really matter what the eye is seeing, Cause I'm in love with the inner being. And it doesn't really matter what they believe, what matters to me is you're in love with me..." im done, im out God bless!