"There's something in a simple hug that always warms the heart. It welcomes us back home and makes it easier to part. A hug's a way to share the joy, and the sad times we go through, or just a way for friends to say they like you because you're you. Hugs are meant for anyone for whom we really care. From your Grandma to your neighbor, or a cuddly teddy bear. A hug is an amazing thing--it's just the perfect way to show the love we're feeling but can't find the words to say. It's funny how a little hug makes everyone feel good; in every place and language, it's always understood. And hugs don't need new equipment, special batteries or parts--just open up your arms and open up your heart."

whoa thas a long quote! hugs are d0pe! haha kuyas hug story tonite was funny. well i took me forever to find a freaking quote to put on blog. At the same time i was talking to errone and playing paper rock scissor w/gail while arguing what the wafers are pronounced, either nila like manila or nee-ya. anyway i was going to use this quote a while back the ni found a different one. hugs are d0pe cuz theyre special and juss like a smile it can warm someones heart in a instant. Theyre comforting, helpful, friendly and most of all priceless...

anyway, i was searching for the longest time for this letter from this girl i use to like. haha actually tonite i was going through a "remisince" stage in my life. Well i was looking for a quote and then i took out my journal to look for one. From there it led me to a whole lot of different interesting things. like i found this one of my old entries.

032602 "i was bored and started reading some of my past entries. Wow, how things easily change. I havent actually been going out lately. I dont want to sound dramatic, but my social life right now is empty or at least seems that way. Everyone has either their bf/gf or just dont call me anymore. I hardly do anything w/jen or erin cuz theyre too busy w/their bfs. The rest of them dont even call me anymore. its kind of sucks cuz b/c i feel so left out. Thas why ive been trying to do other things. Get out more and meet new friends.Its cool, last nite this guy from church asked me if i wanted to be part of their skit. Of course i said yes, mine as well. im going to the thing theyre doing it at anywya. Im glad ive been going to prayer group lately. It makes me feel better about myself and who i am. PLus ive made some nwe friends on the side. So thas life right now..."

thas crazy huh! thas like almost a year ago. now look im constantly out w/them now and i actually know know them. Ive been able to become close to errone and feel so comfortable w/errone. I remember i was trying to do that stupid events co. too on the side. THen it got too much for me and i knew i couldnt handle both so i quickly had to choose one or the other. whoa dejavu this sounds like ive talked bout this already in a previous entry.

Then i came across this one conversation this girl i met onlnie a long time ago sent me. This guy tried to spit game w/her online. He told her bout this old love life like how him and his ex had a distant relationship over the summer. he lived in La she lived in daygo, one nite they went to her house and they were listening to slow jams together. They ended up falling asleep together on the couch, blah blah. Then he suprises her w/roses at the beach during a bonfire. Well summer ends and they figured they had to break up cuz they both led busy lives. He did volleyball, she did drill team so i guess their social lives would end up clashing. The girl i guess really made a big impact in his life yaddah yaddah. interesting story huh

today was another interesting, yet sad day at work. One of our seniors had like a mini heart attack this morning and they had to call 911. So they put her in the hospital and i guess shes had like heart problems in the past and she never told anyone. I think shes ona breathing machine and doing all kinds of tests on her or something to that extent. Though part of her heart attack was pushing herself to do too much. Shes a very devoted senior @ the city. Juss very grouchy and mean most of the times. You gotta be careful not to get in her way and you gotta have patience w/her.

We finally hired a new rec leader, i didnt get the chance to meet her though im interested to see her. I guess she use to work for the program before under the previous dept head. On top of that it was one of those youf cafe thingys, were theyre paid to work and help do wahtever stuff is needed. Ryans sister didnt get it, cuz she told them she was only avaiable certain days czu shes was going to work both jobs, La Palma and stanton. Which is practically impossible, theres no way you work in both cities part time. At least not in a rec leader position that is.

Being that im the senior rec leader now, im trying to ease my way to get my own office! i was joking around bout it w/my boss earlier this afternoon and he was juss laughing. He left early today and he asked us to cover for him in case anyone asked where he was. So i todl him its going to cost you, then he said remember im @ the boys and girls club. So i said hmm i need a new office space too, and he juss laughed. I saw this position open in norwalk for a rec leader. Im interested in applying but im kinda skurred too @ the same time. The pay is really good, but i dont know. I gotta pray bout it and figure out waht im going to do.

SRE was alright, still a lot of kids out sick w/something. Man that bug is really going around right now. After that we all went to marie calendars to chill. That was pretty fun, had some pretty skurry convos bout gangs and our past lives. Man i remember this one time, OH it was the same nite after the first holy spirit sat. Anyway, my friend gary(leslie;s older bro) went to some party in la habra or something like that. Well on our way over there, we saw all these cards kinda bone out. A lot of them too were getting pulled over by the popos and stuff. So i had to turn around and go back the other way. Well we ended up going to albertacos off of valleyview and lincoln. We were all chillin then someone ran back saying someone has a gun and theyre gonna shoot. Gary and i boned out in my car afraid something might happen.

Or that one time my senior year when i was walking home and i almost got jumped for not giving up my pager. that was one skurry moment for me, praise God nothign happend to me though. I think those are my two most skurry incidents. I dont got crazy war stories to tell, which i guess is kinda coo. i was getting chills juss hearing bout the past ones tonite. This mornign i felt bad cuz after communion one of the eucharistic ministers was walking back up the steps. Well as she was walking she tripped over a step and fell down. I think right at the moment she fell i felt pain. it was sad, but shes alright though and was able to get up and walk.

I found this little poem a while back when i use to go w/my aunt to CSULB in their library to study. Anyway, there was this poem written on one of the desks of the skool. its called "dedicated to love"
I wish i was your pillow, so i could lie next to your beautiful face every second of the nite
i wish i was the ground, so i could catch you every time you fall.
I wish i was the air, so i could feel your soft and tender lips for everytime you take a breath.
I wish i was an Angel, so i could give my thanks to God for putting a window into heaven in your eyes.
i wish i was a dream, so i could find my way into your eyes.
I wish i was the earth, so i could stop time and turn it back to the first time i felt you in my arms
but most of all...
i wish i was a feeling, so youd know where that i would love you more in a single dy that anyone else could lvoe you think w/all ther power of their souls in a liftetime.

Ask yourself~
Whom do you admire the most? in what does that person inspire you. hit up the tagboard i need answers! thaks

"two people, together it was just a dreak until you came along, my heart was waiting juss for you..."im done, im out God bless!