"Anyone can give up, it's the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength."

well i had to do a kinda last min. change on my quote for the day. I had some long quote bout how hugs can make the difference but i realized ill use that some other time. So i was on the website i use for my quotes and i found a variety of differents ones i liked. I picked them out and emailed it to myself, from there i asked my friend tina to pick one she would use. Funny, how she chose this one cuz i was really leaning towards using this one as well as another one for today. Anyway, as i saw this quote it was the very last one on the page. It caught my eye cuz there are a couple of people whom i truly admire cuz of their strength.

To me this quote kinda speaks for itself. A situation could occur where you juss could say "screw it, " and let errthang go. Mainly give up cuz thas what we want to do a lot of times. We are afraid to try to persevere even through the most difficult moments. Why? cuz its the easiest way out of things. The quickest way to avoid confrontation and to forget bout the whole situation from happening. A person with true integrety and strength is the person who can stand up straight despite the most unexplainable negative situation. They have the ability to keep the smile, to keep the laugh going, most of all to keep their head on straight in the midst of trial. A lot of times, since we give up or since one person gives up errone else expects that one person to do so also. That one person who says no and continues to be that same person he/she was before, is a person w/true courage, values and in my book a very honorable one. i give that person props, cuz YOU prove errone else wrong. YOU prove that despite the struggle i am going to stand up straight and lift my head up high. To those people, whom im sure they know who they are, i commend you. I congratulate you, but most of all i look up to YOU!

With that being said, it was quite a day for me actually another interesting day. Man as i told boss lady im so not looking forward to the week at all. Too bad we cant skip mon.-wed. and then jump to thursday. For once i think im not looking foward to work either, but thats another story ill get into later. I was actually thinking of changing my blog and abandon ship and try a whole new blog server. Then i decided, #1 too much of a hassle, and #2 i have too much history on blog. its like that cheers theme song, i think boss lady was the one who sang it to me online recently, "where everybody knows your name..." haha

I went to mass @ 915am and this is mean, but as i saw spy came up for the childrens liturgy, i wonder if they actually enjoy doing what they do. Or is it mores less for all them to come up to chill. it was kinda sad cuz on thurs. one of the girl on the bus on the way back talked bout how they wished they could have fr. tony as one of our priests. Then the kid responded back, "yeah but then wed be in church for two hours. you wanna stay in church for two hours?" i was disgusted as i heard that, and especially dissapointed cuz it came from a big spv staff members son. Though, the attitude is understandable cuz look at their age. They dont know any better probably, i guess i have to understand i was like that too at one point.

The readings were really good and Fr. brennan(who is now my spiritual director)had a really convicting homily. in fact its kinda cool how he writes them down cuz then if he serves at another mass its that same one. Then you can talk bout it w/another person bout it, juss how boss lady and i did today. So fr. told us the homily was gonna be based on love story within a love story. He gives us the history of hosea and who she was, what she went through etc, etc. Then he talks bout someone else and gives us some background on them. Towards the end of the homily he talked bout faithfulness. How that one person(i cant remember his name, though i do know it starts w/a "G" i think...)was unfaithful to hosea. How another person was unfaithful to the israelites. But how no matter what, Christ is ALWAYS faithful to us. When i heard that i was like juss amazed and was like wow how true that is. Its somethign to really think bout, boss lady and i were talking bout inside kohls. Juss how were always on unfaithful to Him, by sinning even the simple venial ones we still are unfaithful to Him.

The second reading, i got out of it pretty much what the bulletin said it was. How we are God's letter of recommendation. He sends 'us' out, so that errone will read His letter, to hear His message to us. We are the living examples of this letter. Though He has not written on our hearts with an ink but with the Spirit of the living God. He has written on our hearts, and this letter He has written constantly gives us life. It is His gift to us, to show to errone. its kinda like to me, when you receieve that special letter from an old friend. You tell errone and show errone that you heard from an old friend and that person said this in letter. Well its kinda the same thing w/God. Except, its not on paper but on our hearts, and we as being catholic-christians have the duty to show errone what God's letter says to all. We cant take credit for what is being said in the letter cuz its not from us, but from God himself.

After mass we had a little shin-dig hurr at my house for my dad's birfday. it was coo, my mom made cheeseburgers and my sister made this d0pe snickers cake. Hmm i wonder fi there are any pieces left of it. Man im getting hungry thinking bout food. I should go look if there is any food in the fridge. Well right after mass actually i had gone to carl's jr to finally the gift certificate. i was glad this carl's had one, otherwise i dont know what i wouldve done.

Had core group meeting, it went very well took a while cuz people came in late. We ended up planning our whole year out into a little more detail. Our community has many great, wonderful events coming up in the next few months. The Eucharistic seminar is something to really look foward too, especially cuz we have two great speakers. Tito Jess and Father Angel, both really, really d0pe speakers who know their stuff. The nature walk should be fun too! a good way to get away from all the nonsense of the world and truly juss reflect on God's creations. The green trees, the blue sky, the beautiful birds singing in the sky, all this and more!

I went w/boss lady today to run a few errands. it was fun, i love when i get to chill w/her. She told me earlier she had this fri. off, hopefully her and i can get to do a "at risk program." haha I havent had one of those in a little while. We went to chilli's to get a gift card and the one she got matched the little gift card holder too. it was kinda funny how we picked out. There wasnt much of a selection to really choose from. Then we went to the brand new store across from the bp mall, "Kohls." Its like a mervyns and tj max, thas how i would compare it to. I didnt like it when i came in though cuz boss lady and i were bombarded to fill out a credit card app. They were pushing us to, right when we walked in the door. I should take that online survey huh boss lady and tell thats not cool. BOss lady fell in love w/the frames they had there. There was quite a creative selection to choose from. We saw these chinese characters that said different things like, "love, wisdom" and so on. She bought one for herself which said "love" and one for kuya that said "happiness." So we get to the cashier and boss lady finishes paying for the stuff, the cashier gives us this paper that has a website to take a survey. The cashier explains to us how to get there and what not. Then boss lady and i sit there expecting more, like if we take this survey well get 10% off or something like that. We were bof laughing after cuz we thought she was gonig say well receieve something if we take the survey. I guess we were bof wrong bout that one! haha oh well it was juss d0pe chillin w/boss lady.

Went to the starbucks and then went to the velascos to meet up w/my old friend there. it was great seeing him again cuz we had such a blast last nite. I didnt get to do the song i wanted to sing, its okay there will be other times. I had an unexpected thing happen to me, but im cool now. It juss this time the devil knew exactly where to hit me especially since i was kinda pondering bout it off and on throughout the weekend. I felt bad cuz i had to leave in the middle of all the fun, but i couldnt shake off the feeling. It only ended up getting worse for a while too. As i was showering, i was soaking in the warm water, yet at the same time the devil was taking more punches at me. To the point where i almost completely fell down. Though to the devil's dismay, after the shower i picked myself up again and proved him wrong.

Gosh, it kinda sucks cuz im trying to talk to an old friend of mine whom i use to chill with. yet hes not even really talking to me, and his response has only been one word. Even w/my other friend the other day it was kinda the same. like as if they werent interested in talking to me and what not. Oh well i dont care, they arent true friends anyway. They didnt really make an impact on my life, as others do now. agh i hate banner ads that pop up where youre trying to find something. They only make things more complicated! Its hard to talk to people who only see things through one perspective.

i was watching tv, watching that movie "salem witch trials." As i was watching i was gettinf sleepy cuz i was laying down on top of that. My eyes were getting heavy and i kept pushing myself to stay awake. ha i ended up falling alseep i guess then kuya called me. Whew good thing he called otherwise i wouldve knocked out.
We had a interesting phone convo. tonite, i was able to understand some things. Talking to him made me feel better too for some reason. Though i had a hard time explaining to him what was going on w/me earlier. He's such a great bro to have. Very fortunate to have him in my life, cuz he always helps me out whenever im in need. Man, if i had to i could write a whole essay on how d0pe of a bro kuya is. forreal! itd be like this, "My Kuya, by ja$on p. fish" hahahaha

Wow i have the greatest prayer buddy! im glad its someone whom i can easily talk to bout anything thas going on. Shes always brigthens up my day w/her oh so cute smile and juss is another great sister to have. pb gives me advice and explains to me things that i may never thought bout. Always there praying for me, as i am w/her too. We have karaoke battles, rosary nites and more!

Im blessed to have true people by my side. Ones who i feel comfortable talking bout almost anything to.
I decided for lent this year, imma gain and improve on something. Because i dont get to go to daily mass, except maybe on fri. cuz im off. Im going to go to mass err morning @ 8am, make that the first thing i do. I know its gonna be a struggle and difficult, but i know ill make it.

i think this is a long entry for tonite, i remember when i first started blogging, errthang would be crammed together. imagine if it was still like that? hahah oh man i dont think anyone would wanna read my blog. theyd get dizzy trying to figure out what im trying to say. good thing i do it in paragraphs now, though sometimes they tend to become really long.

"Sometimes you want to go, where everybody knows your name, and they're always glad you came. You wanna be where you can see, our troubles are all the same. You wanna be where everybody knows your name." im done, im out God bless!