"We'll see things today we shouldn't have to see, but listen up, we'll do it together. We'll be together, and we'll all come back together."

so after a long nite of emo, i was moreless motivated and inspired. wow its 133 and i need to be up @ 615 to be @ church by 645am. maybe i juss wont sleep...yeah right. Anyway, its been a day full of hidden messages, that were inspiring and juss picked me back up. Ive been stressed with tons of thoughts in my head, and juss within these two days ive been able to express them. I decided that i cant fall down right now that basically im going to "win." I know were gonna win and get through this cuz i have great people standing next to me.

I went to class today(yeah i know), it was boring though. Well first i was pissed cuz i got this parking spot i was signaling for it. The person backs out to leave and this girl pulls in and snags it. aghh i was so irritated cuz it was good spot, but then God said, "kick back yo, dont worry i got you." Ha, right before my eyes another person pulled out and i was able to take his spot. It was better one cuz it was closer too! wooo. So these girls did some presentation on buddism and stuff. i didnt really pay attention i was more less focusing on other things. I ended up falling alseep during this other discussion i forgot what it was. We got out 15 min early, which was great!

Went home ate lunch and got ready for work. Im upset cuz im down to 12rhs a week now. I need to find out whats going cuz my hours are decreasing and well thas only 24hrs for 2 weeks. Where before i had at least 30 or more per 2 weeks. We had commodities today, so the people walked in and took their bags of fun. Its kinda funny seeing these people so excited. There was this one swe3t old lady so very kind and warm, that help brighten up my day. She was like "Good afternoon!" juss so cheery and full of swe3tness that it only made me smile.

Actually i woke up today, feeling like whatever. Checked my mail, checked my blog and boss lady tagged my board. i read it and i felt better like i guess i knew that today was going to be a better day. Man it juss seems like the past 2 tuesdays have been sorrowful. Then i heard that song "win" by brian mcknight in the car and well that helped get me up too. it was like wow, i cant let go, i cant loose hope or faith. Though i know its gonna be a struggle, i know i can get over this. If i fall or slip, then im only gonna come back 10times stronger. Its like kinda like playing snack on the celli. haha im trying hard to beat kuyas score, i die and i die. But i keep playing knowing that i will beat it! Yeah i know doubts & insecurities are on their way, yet i know im only gonna let pass by and not in me.

Cis class was good and interesting nite. I was relieved cuz i did better than i expected on the quiz. I missed only one, so did alright. Im greatful for the people in my life. Strider whos walked me through this struggle, truly truly being a big brother to me. Juss so wonderful to me and has always been someone i admired. How much he means to me is unexplainable. Arch, this past week has been on my side. Ive been weak and he was there to help pick me up. Dust the dirt off of me, and push back up into the ring. Kuyas support that hes given to me, always makes me feel better. I think all the time weve been spending together, he probably can read through me. He shares the good times, yet always, always listens to the bad times. Boss lady is my quiet angel who sits on my shoulder and lifts my wings when i forget to fly.

my life w/people like them would suck. I dont think ive ever have had friends who take care of me the way they do. Their smile makes my day, such a simple act but w/so much meaning behind it...

"Dark is the night, I can battle the storm. Never say die,I've been down this road before, I'll never quit, I'll never lay down, See I promised myself that I'd never let me down..."im done, im out God bless!