"Memory is a way of holding onto the things you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose."

ahh so hurr i am bout to reattempt to do this entry i jacked up on last nite. Ah you dont know how pissed i was after that! man a whole good entry down the drain, i could be using a different quote tonite. BUt nooooo stupid AOL had to shut down on me. I was gonna try to do it @ work, well thas a whole different story. ive been kinda stressed these past couple weeks @ work. Especially cuz its only me in the afternoons.

Memories! what a great thing to think bout, they make us laugh, sad, happy, joyful, angry. Actually they make us full of different emos. These past couple weeks, ive been really reflecting on different memories. Mostly all the happy ones cuz this past year basically all the memories have been happy. Tonite was another memory to file inside the filing cabinet. See its like inside our head we have a personal filing cabinet, inside that cabinet are files. Each file is labled on the tab for specific memory, like tonite would be labeled "fellowship @ mcd 030403") Then whenever i wanted to, i could pull that file up again and reflect on those happy moments. Its great how those memories are never lost. I mean no one could ever jack them away from us, cuz they'll always be with us. No matter if were far or away, the memories will never go away. So i guess with that being said, let me reflect upon some of my memorable moments in life!

Right around this time is when i first came back to the community. I remember that one tues. after prayer meeting aela how come i leave so early. She was going to tell me to chill w/them @ starbucks cuz thas where they go after prayer meeting. I got excited, i was like aww man j wanna go next time. That was back when i was still joining the community. The coffee shop @ fcfc was d0pe, well when i first met up w/errone i was only really talking to kyle and nicole. We were talking bout my cousin cuz they both knew him and stuff. That was the nite kuya juss bought his brand new car. He was so excited too cuz he was tellnig me how he didnt have a good car before hand. I got to ride in that car too w/boss lady that nite. We played 20 ?'s in the car haha they were trying to get to know me. When i saw them perform i was like wow theyre good! then mizike met us there and he wore his uPrM hoody and i wanted one right then and there! i thought to myself, that sweater is d0pe!

Its crazy, i remember when kuya was only like 21 and him and boss lady came into my class. At that time i was teaching a eucharist III class. My kids were preparing to make their 1st communion that spring. Kuya and boss lady taught my kids all these praise & worship songs and cheers. It was really cool, and the kids were all into it and stuff. OH! then i remember that sat. was the youth alpha retreat. Then i gave the two of them the thank you cards the kids made for them. kuya was excited cuz they spelled his name right. its weird i remember the smallest details sometimes. he was sitting on the stool looking through them and i think he was like "look hunni! they spelled my name right toO!" hahah i wonder if they still have those thank you cards. Man that was forever long ago! its crazy, now im close to them.

That sun. mizike imed me out of nowhere too. It was hvnboundrockr has sent you an instant message, woud you like to accept? I was like hmm okay i wonder who this is, then he said, "hey wassup ja$on, this is mike from servant's heart. THanks for the signing the guest book!" i was all happy haha cuz i made a new buddy to put on my buddy list. hahaha It was kinda weird cuz i didnt know really what to talk to him bout. So i juss asked questions bout how he did the website and stuff. Next time he imed me, asking if i wanted ot be a priest in their skit. then i was like whoa! haha i was excited so i said okay! haha Oh easter vigil mass i bought an uPRm hoody off of him cuz i thought it was d0pe!

ha youth rally was tight, i was really feelin it too! That day i went there, it was kuya and fred talking outside of el capitan. They were talking bout cellis, cuz they had att & t and el huego comes along showing them how to take out the "at & t" thing off the screen. I felt kinda weird cuz i didnt really any of them at the time. So i twiddled my thumbs and waited for errone else. haha Then i remember sitting on the couch @ el capitan and i met anne and justine that day too. The skits and the talks and wah not were good. oh i didnt understand why people were crying @ the end of the nite. During the exposition, let alone i dindt even understand what that was. I thought to myself why is errone crying? hahaha how funny. i had thai food bbq for the first time that nite, it was greasy!

OoH the SOl bonfire, when i met alma from SOL! haha our group put together our hmm a little presentation to advertise our lss. Alma told me that my dance was coo or something like that. The memorable fellowship sh movie nites and what not. I think thas how i kinda got to errone through the fellowships. i felt stupid cuz i think we were gonna watch scorpion king. Anyway i didnt know they were meeting @ el capitan, i thought it was @ archs. So i get lost trying to find archs house, and then mizike calls me and asks where im at. Then lets me know theyre meeting @ el captian.

The day after the youf rally i was all tired from the long day. Anyway jeanne invited me the day before that to her birfday celebration. errone met up @ the lbtc to eat @ lucilles. i only had fries that day and mr. pibb cuz i ate lunch before hand. i was frustrated too before hand cuz i wanted to put the group pic. of the youf rally into her frame i got her. Well the stupid printer wasnt working, so i couldnt do it. aww booo the printer head broke or something. ooH WhY!? haha i rememeber the skit practices too, we did one @ aelas, we also did one @ my work @ the daycare. Agh i had to work @ 6am the next morning too! Ooh that was during the time, someone ran into the door. So in the other room, the district made this huge barrier, the kids werent suppose to go into the other room.

ahh who could forget lss! i know i cant fo sho! haha all the hard work we all put into advertising it. I was able to get a grip of my friends to go too! it was so much fun, then the sat. after lss, we all came to mi casa to chill. Then there was an emergency, but praise God errthang came out fine. I was so tired that sun @ the end of lss i went home and i tried to take a nap. Then arch calls me telling me we were all going to eat after. Though in the mean time to meet @ the soratorios cuz errone was unloading lss stuff in their garage. Good thing the guy called me and godo thing i went otherwise...well im sure you guys coudl figure it out on your own! haha ::sigh::
The different SH movie nites from spider man and star wars II that was cool. We would always watch it @ fullerton amc and el hugeo would plan it. He would buy the tickets ahead of time and then we juss had to wait in the forever long line to get inside.

oH!!!!! another of those good times, good times! when boss layd asked us to critique her essay or presentation for skool. Like it was about why she chose to be a recreation major and stuff. Oh i remember cuz the nite before, we all went to watch spys "youf nite." They did this skit thing and there was only us to watch them. haha it was kinda sad yet funny cuz i mean they did in the church and it was empty except for the front two pews of the church. Then after we went to stater bros to help pick out stuff for tacos. We bougth taco supplies to make our own tacos. I came later on that nite after SRe all excited haha and i brought dessert too!

Trying cow tounge for the first time and not even knowing it was cow tounge! haha tita coras birfday party it was a suprise. i felt kinda awkward cuz i didnt know that well yet still. I remember i was the first one there and like i was sitting there by myself, then jeanne and Jl comes. i was like whew now i have someone to talk to. i That nite, arch and mizike had to leave early cuz they were going to some concert. ha there was that one time, where they had Music ministry practice. Well jovie and i went to go pick up babyvee so i call and sh as like no i cant go cuz i got hw to do still. Then later on she went to archs w/errone else. Then erone told i was pissed haha but i really wasnt.

oh man all our buddy chats, when like we would stay up till 3am. haha thas when the velascos went to NY and babyvee would be online w/us till like 3 am! that was pretty much like a year ago! shessh! ha i remember that one time i went to study @ starbucks for my phil quiz w/a couple of my friends. I ended up seeing el huego there and he was getting something for him and jeanne. Ooh hmm i was impressed when i found uprm could play like secular songs @ tita emmys birfday party. i was liek wow thas so d0pe! haha that one sat. when arch, mizike, jovie and were chillin after a party @ mikes. We were talking bout the different tourist things in bp. So arch was asking if ive gone to medeievel times or wildbills and so all of them i had said yes. Where has he said no. Then he was like "maan you really kick it in your city." hahaha i thought that was funny!

Who could forget vI! ahh i cant thas for sure i think it was my first time being away from home w/o being w/fam bam. oh man i remember that fri. i had to work and i was extremely tied after a long day. When i got to kuyas i ended up knocking out on his couch till it was time to go. It was fun cuz we all prayed in a huge circle before we left. it reminded me of that one beverly hills 90210 episode i think it was their senior year. When they all went to the mtns. to make their class year on the hill. haha the trip over there, i was under the impression we were going to salt lake city, utah. So errtime i saw road signs i would count down the number of miles left till we got there. The couple of friends i made on the way over there! haha the peace offering i had to share! The buffet @ mandalay...wooooooooooo that was soooooooooooooooooooooooo good! yum yum chocolate chip honey diP! haha when kuya would tell me to dance in the middle of the casino, id end up doing it.

elijiahs birfday party was pretty fun! it was at the park in cypress and the games boss lady came up with was cool. The newspaper one was hard, the ducky wucky or something like that was funny. i think thas when kuya hit his head on the cement after playing ball. We were all worried for him too cuz he actually hit on the cement, which was hard! ouch...good thing hes okay otherwise id have no kuya. ooH that unexpected hmm "cry for help." that was hard cuz well i didnt know exaclty what to do. Though i did tell el huego and strider they helped me. haha i remember i did a findapix ad to last year, i wonder if i deleted it. haha i guess ill find out soon.

Ha i remember when i first joined the community, i was trying to do the events co too @ the same time. So err mon. i was going to their meetings and stuff and i remember telling myself it was weird. Cuz id be w/two different groups of people. The exact opposite groups, i realized it was too much to do so i had to choose one or the other. Well its pretty obvious which one i chose. haha im reading in my organizer bout this girl named ruby. i think i met her online i forgot bout her, it juss says "talked to ruby online. Wants me to sing to her." haha hmm i wonder wha eva happened to her.agh that one thurs. when i was irriatated cuz someone didnt wanna be where i wanted to be. The person didnt wanna juss chill so i had to take the person home i think and come back.

OOH man when justine hurt his knee! i had to go into mizikes car and justine was in the back. he was restng his knee on my legs. I had to use the bathroom like no other and we wer running around all over the place! i lost my nike towel too that day. i dont know what ever happen to it, cuz i think they were using it for him. hmm man and that towel was expensive too. Then we all went to burger king to chill afterwards. That same day i told babyvee id go w/her to her prom. awwww! that nite was d0pe! i remember going there for a whole week straight getting prom things organized. Then my tux felt small and too tight on me, agh it felt uncomfortable. I remember the place looked like you were going to the academy awards or something. Then we went to the beach afterwards @ newport, that was cool! her friend got lost trying to find the beach. We took a group picture that didnt really come out cuz it was too dark.

hmm wow we had buddy chats like err nite for 4 nites straight in a row! back in may, wow i wonder what we talked about. haha im reading this one part from may 28 in my organizer, "mike asks me if i like jennevee" cuz i was going to prom w/her. haha that was funny, i was like oh naw i juss want to go w/her so she can have a good time. ahh boss ladys grad. dinner i remember that nite. Babyvee revealed something quite interesting to me. oh the cotton cnady swe3t and roll let me see that tootise roll nite was cool! jaymee brought her cotton candy machine from work and we all made cotton candy @ my house! then we all went to eat fridays for some more fun! back in the days i always having buddy chats errnite w/the group.

ooH the suprise birfday party for kuya! haha i remember @ prayer buddys birfday dinner. Which i had the hardest time getting there and was having car trouble on top of that. Then i remember seeing two girls mack out which was whoa! and sick at the same time. So we were all eating at the crab pot in long beach and kuya was suspicious there was something going on. He was asking mizike and jay like "you know you guys are my boys right." then he said something else, then he said, "You know if there was something going on you would tell me right?" haha and they were like "umm yah of course." haha i cant remember who i rode home with that nite. i think it was kuya, we were in kuyas car cuz i remember the car being cold and we were listening to laker game. hahaha yeah i think it was kuyas i was sitting in the back and i think boss layd was in the front. but my legs were cold!

striders birday party was d0pe! haha i ended up getting dizzy that nite and my stomach was hurting. We watched the SOL video that day too over @ his house. The food was good and we also celebrated all the other june birfdays like mo rices. Then we all went to starbucks to talk bout the exciting upcoming VI trip that was coming up that week! ha we picked up babyvee @ her work in the lbc @ juice it up too! oh that was the nite the girls wanted to listen to JL sing on my vmail.

ahh the eve before VI trip we had music ministry practice @ mizikes. ti was quiet and interesting nite too, i got to see the uprm house they had planned on buying for the future. JL calls me and i had to take jovie home cuz it was getting late too. Ha i remember playing playstation in mizikes room, i forgot the bball game we were playing though. Ooh then my backyard boogie oogie oogie! i was happy cuz i got to see bof groups of friends and i got to chill w/bof groups too. ahh i remember the summer nites @ kuyas swimming and chillin. the one spit game through those pool toys. hahaha that was cool! hahah

OoH! playing mafia @ ninnis birfday! hahaha that was fun we played like forever long too! i kept getting killed right away though. aww boo i remember we were playing those other games @ sizzler and @ ninnis birfday. Those mind concentration games! like black magic! oohH it took me forever to finally understand the game. hmm the picnic game and other ones. haha i remember playing mafia @ sizzler and outside of sizzler! we weer crazy back in the days! mmm the one experiment we tried one nite @ mizikes, it was tasty!

the summer days @ the park, talking to jaymee like almost errday on the phone. haha when i was on the news on Cnn. i taped it too! hahah the whole samantha runion thing, how it became such a huge thing. it was crazy cuz it happened n the city i juss started to work at too. I remember people were iming me, hey i saw you on the news! haha it was cooL! that one nite i was up forever the nite before lss talking to godwin online trying to get him to go to lss. that was the only time we talked too online after that haha we quit talking. how i was happy cuz i got to pray the rosary w/a special friend. Ü

Making friends over @ carson, by going to their prayer meetings. Their lss was cool, very hot and crowded though. It made me miss my own community. making me feel "community sick" and how during praise & worship i was expecthing to do the "i worship you/there is none like you mix." how i was expecting the high note too in i worship you, like the way we do it. THen i was excited when i got to archs cuz i got to see errone again! oh the end of the summer jamboreezy fo sheezy bonfeezy i planned. that was cool SOL came and oxnard came to chill. Though i was called to work last min. after i was told i got the day off. i never went into work @ all that day. Talk bout your celli getting blown up! ryan, michael and i got to the beach way tooooo early. In the end errthang turned out cool though.

pentecost picnic was great! like the korean sh signs mizike made! haha then someone got offended and took them down. The games were fun, like the capture the flag! haha that was soo much fun! when tita cora jumped over archie! or the game when we took errthang we had off to see who could make the longest line. that was fun! good times good times! oh the conferences i cant forget those! ncfc and scrc whoa! when i saw the holy spirit @ scrc while praying! ran into a former co worker over there too. One of the best weekends i had @ scrc!

well i think my entry was long enough, i pretty much reminisced on errthang except all the recent stuff. wow so many different memories. Hopefully this brought back some memories to yall as well. enjoy! im tired, ahh im happy though cuz phil class is cancelled! wooo kuya lets have lunch!

"I really like what you've done to me. I can't really explain it, I'm so into you..."im done, im out God bless!