"People love others not for who they are, but for how they make us feel."

sorry for the no blog last nite, i had a whole entry ready to go. Then i was trying to edit the one from sunday, then i got jacked up. Which ended up jacking up the whole blog entry, therefore leaving me w/no chance to blog. I lost the email where i had my entry posted to and then when i tried to retype it, it didnt let me post anything. I kept getting a stupid error and i was already pissed off cuz i lost my entry. So i went to sleep blogless agh!! so that is why i had no entry, and the pics are the only things i had cuz mizike put them up sometime durng the day. Now you know why i had no blog entry last nite, sorry for the inconvience! haha

Well imma try taking some people's advice and type out my entry on hurr first. After im done hurr, copy and paste it to blog. I guess imma experiment w/this idea to see how it works out. I like this quote even though it wasnt the one which i used yesterday. It great cuz you know w/certain people before it was like you always gotta work on impressing them. Work on a whole image thing, doing certain things, being a certain way juss to be accepted. Now its totally different, with the friends whom i have now, i dont like them cuz of who they are. But cuz they make me feel a certain way when i am with them. I feel secure, comfortable, at ease, juss dotn gotta put up a front.

Monday, i was feeling a little down pretty much most of the day. it was my grandma's(dad's side) 2 year death anniversary. It was sad cuz during the months before she died, she was going through so much pain. Errday it was the same thing, it seemed like it wasnt getting any better. I felt bad cuz the time she was over hurr, i didnt spend a whole lot of time w/her. I was always out and about w/my friends. Then when she passed away, it was hard cuz thas the first time i had someone whom i was close to die. Like errone else was juss people that i never really knew. She was the best though, always so warm and kind! Though i know she's in a much better place, away from all the pain and the suffering. She looks and smiles down upon me from heaven! Ü

I felt better later on cuz kuya came over for a little bit. That song he wrote for the pcn its pretty d0pe! i like the whole instruments he used for it. Especially the piano in the beginning, kinda reminds me of the song all my life for some reason. Kuya saw my whole pic collage on my board! wooo then i got to pray the rosary w/boss lady on the phone and talk to her too. So that was d0pe! we talked bout our jobs how we find ourselves explaining what we do. Then people will say in response either, "oh" or come up w/their own assumptions of wha we do. haha

Today was pretty coo, very busy though and tiring not to mention! Went to work and pretty much worked all day. We had the cpr and first aid training this morning. I relearned things i forgot bout cpr when i was trained 2 years ago. haha good thing i got this training to help me remember. I learned adult, child and infant, so if youre unconscious i could do cpr on you. Or if youre choking i can do the i forgot whas it called. Where you push the food out to help clear their passage ways. The trainer was cool, he made the class funny and not boring. Besides that he told us he was a good catholic, which was d0pe!

Took a small lunch and then went back to work. I met the new girl who is starting tomorrow, she seems pretty nice. Hopefully she'll be cool to work and real easy going. I was bit frustrated this afternoon and almost lost my patience. See this couple came in from this square dancing organization to check out the hall. I had to a walk thru explaining errthang that they need to know bout using the hall that day. So i do the walk thru and the whole time shes doing nothing but commenting. I felt bad for her husband cuz he would try to tell her its going to be alright. Then shed snap back and agh it was juss irritating. On top of that, there was this kid wathcing the movie. He keeps coming out complaning bout errthang thas going on. Or saying hes hungry or what not, he was the same way last tues. too. I was juss all irritated cuz of that lady, she finally ended up calming down. though it took me a long time cuz she juss got on my nerves.

Went to class and well the kids didnt help much either. I had to get back into the groove of things cuz i was @ youf alpha last tues. its juss hard cuz they talk a lot and they dont pay attention or they always got comments to say. Though i gotta remember theyre still young and have a lot to learn. For most of them you could really see that they are in jr. high. Went upstairs to prayer meeting, it looked a bit bigger tonite then usual. Strider led second half and he volunteered me again to answer one of the sharing questions. haha Its coo i dont mind though cuz the question was really hard. He did the same thing to me last tues also! beyonce came back to prayer meeting which was tight! she told me last niet she was coming back which made my day! wooo

So last nite i thought i hadnt talk to bess in a long time so i decided to call her. I call and the number is no longer in service like she changed it. At first i was like noo oohHh whY!? then i thought of something, i thought i wonder if her # is on one of their newletters. I went and i went through all the ones i had and i found it! i found her new #, i realized those things would come in handY! ha after going through that whole thing i called her, but i got her vmail. I left her vmail last nite, hoping shed call back but she didnt. The song on there was d0pe! it was in my head off and on all day. I was able to find who the artist was tonite.

As i drove to mcdonalds listening to the song, it made me remincise during the summer when wed text message each other. Ha i remember one where she text me, "you have a wonderful day too! your texts make me smile!" i was like awww haha the memories, ah yes. i called her on the way home from work today juss to see wha song that was on her vmail. ha she didnt answer though again, aw boo. oh well, hopefully she'll call back though!

After prayer meeting, we all went to mcdonalds tonite. i like going to mcdonalds cuz its a lot closer to home and its inside too. We had like a small snake tournament, kuya almost beat my score, but we ended up tying. Though i do have to say, he did beat me but i guess he didnt save his score. Which means im still on top, watch he beats me tomorrow. haha then its going to take me months to beat his score again! agh too much competition, cant handle it! haha jk oOoOH im hyped cuz imma get to spend the nite @ his house again next month. Man thats going to be sooooo d0pe! its going to be like umm i guess kinda like almost living w/him. hahaha i caught him tonite! he tried to run away, but i was able to catch up this time and well i didnt get to take him down. Next time on safer grounds ill be able to, though i guess i shouldnt really chase him cuz of his asthma. Dont want kuya to overwork himself now! haha

"and i, im desperate for you and im lost without you..." im done, im out God bless!