"Sometimes you end up with the person you'd never expect to be with. Sometimes it hurts looking back and then moving forward, but as long as you're happy now, insecurities are bound to fade..."

Im running out of quotes hurr, it took me a while to find a good quote. haha soo if you know any send them my way! an old friend of mine wrote this quote, in fact i use to like her back in hs. haha pretty crazy cuz i told her too...well i did after skool was over the chicken way...online. It was the nite right before i was leaving for vacation to minn. It was that sun. right after skool had juss ended. The way i liked her though was kinda different. See, one nite i was online and she had imed me out of the blue. So errday wed talk online forever, and she was really cool. Like a down to earth person, so i fell for her personality before i even saw wha she looked liked. Then when we talked @ skool, the looks came second.

So i told her that i was feelin her right before i left for vacation. oh i remember, i emailed her and told her. yeah i know how gay, haha but i was skurred. i even i think unsent it cuz i was unsure, then i juss said oh well. Then when she came on that nite, i was all nervous. forreal, my hands were kinda sweaty and my puso was beating fast. i didnt im her cuz i was testing to see if things would change, apparently not. She imed me and was like "too cool to say hi?" oh i have the convo printed out and saved, haha these are things i like to look back on and juss laugh. anyway, that nite we carried on a normal convo as usual then right before i was signing off, i told her thanks for being coo bout it. Then she was like no worries, like you said nothing has to change. She told me i appreciate your honesty thanks for keepin it real.

That helped me a lot knowing that like errthang was all good between us. and she was right, nothing did ever change between us. She didnt become weird talking to me, or avoid talking to me or anything like that. So i guess me telling her was like a blessing. 2 years ago, over the summer i took her out to eat @ some korean bbq place in cerritos. It was d0pe cuz we pretty much chilled the whole day. I picked her up from work in long beach , oh i remember i got her like i think it was a purple carnation or rose that day. Anyway, so we ate @ korean bbq cuz she was feelin for it. We had a chillrific time cooking the meat and errthang else together! mmm korean bbq. I dont think id go back to the place cuz we both got up and went to the bathroom. Then while i was waiting for her the people there told me i didnt pay tip. We were both kinda perturbed cuz it was like they were forcing us to pay tip.

After we went to the cerritos mall, to walk off the food. ha i remember we saw like errone that @ the mall. i think she was shopping for a birfday gift for her cousin. So we went into all the different stores, like forever 21 and stores like that. Then we went to the buena park library cuz she was looking for some books for her AP lit class for skool. We ended up hitting up the cypress library one too cuz i guess they didnt have some the ones she needed. I took her back to her cousins house cuz she was spending the nite there. It was a really d0pe day, cuz we bof had a chillrific time, at least i did.

Back to the quote, i really like this quote cuz its reality. Though i cant really relate to it, but its true from what ive seen from toher people. Check it, a lot of times you fall for the person youd least expect to see yourself with. Youre insecure cuz you dont know whether you made the right decision or not. It hurts to look back on the past from the previous relationships, though you gotta move foward w/life as well. Which isnt the easiest things when it comes to ending relationships. But if youre happy now, w/where youre at, the insecurities you have bout yourself are bound to go away.

im sleepy, im trying to make this blog long for kuya cuz he's been complaining that my entries are short. Theyre short cuz i get so tired by the time i start blog. OoOh check this, i found this in a filipino book..."The Phillipines: Pacific Crossroads" by sullivan, margaret W. Why i am soo dark: "In the beginning, God formed the first person just like a cook makes a cookie. Then god put the person on the fire to bake, but God got busy and left the person on too long. That person came out all burned and black." hahah

i found that a long time off of somenoes profile. Its funny i think cuz some filipinos are so dark or get dark too easy. i wanna get darker, that was my goal last summer and i think i did too. Working at the park all day and sitting in the hot sun. I remember errone asking me, "did you get darker?" that whole first week of work errone was asking, did you get darker? haha eww i dont like too much sun cuz then i think start to peel. Like i started to shed and my old skin comes off and i have new skin. haha

today was a busy day, i was craving oreos and milk last nite, but we didnt have any milk, so i had to eat chips instead. So i ate chips till like 230am while watching the news on tv. Went to sleep and i had the craziest dream, bout i dont know wha. I remember beyonce was in it, lyn lyn, boss lady my real boss, kuya and i think some others. it was weird, i woke up and i shouldve written wha happend down. So i was hoping to sleep in but i couldnt sleep in any longer then 930am. Got ready and went w/lyn² to US toys in garden grove. We bought a grip of stuff there for work. Like bulletin board stuff to put up for our programs.

Had lunch w/kuya today, we ate at that chinese restaraunt in westminister. i got to see midway city again! haha midway city is great! We had an overwhelming amount of food left over, so i took it home. lunch was tight, kuyas one funny guy i tell ya! forreal forreal, where would my life be w/o him...i could name a few right now. ha jk much mahal goes to him haha He kept singing some song he made up in the car while i was trying to listen to my fabolous and ashanti. The song went like, "r-o-bb-y, r-o-bb-y he;s so fly, he;s so fly." something like that it was very catchy so its been stuck in my head all afternoon. Kuya sang only like 1200 times! haha

Stopped by the bank, ross and tillys inside the little cypress shopping center. I need to wash my car its so dirty. The wherehouse inside the mall @ westminister is going out of business, so they had errthang liek 60% off, i like going out of business sales! I got my dad this elvis dvd from his first movie, "love me tender." Man i havent watched a strong bad cartooni n forever, i gotta catch up on those. Came home for a little bit, still full from lunch so i didnt eat anything. Besides dinner wasnt even ready yet before i left for mass. Went to mass then talked ot el huego, jeanne and achie outside after mass for a while. jeanne looked really pretty today, she was going to el hugeos roommates going away party.

Went to duke and dutches after mass, bought this billabong warm up jacket. Imma return its too small and i dont really need it either. My celli was trippin after i got out of mass, the time was reseted and it wasnt letting me fix it. So i stopped by the place where i usually do all my cell phone stuff at. The girl fixed the problem, by juss taking the battery out and putting it back in. Ha i shouldve thought of that myself, im dumb! haha Kuya made me this i guess id call it, the "kuya hip hop mix." with songs by justin timberlake, jay z, fab, and the clipse. Its pretty d0pe now i gotta something new to listen to in the car. He added his own touch to the Cd too by putting his pic on the cd. now i always remember who i got the CD from, thanks kuya! hahaha

Went to watch JLs musical w/beyonce and boss lady. The show was really good, it kept you awake and entertained. Though i kinda felt like they were insinuating a lot of things related to sex. Though, errone was really good and put on one great show. Jl had one of the main characters or leads in the play. There was this one girl who can sing really well. it was like hardcore singing, she could sing at a bar or something like that. haha Jl looked pretty tonite too w/her hurr all nice and wha not. Congrats JL on doing such an extrodinary job! you did really well!

After kuya met up w/us and we ate @ islands, cuz boss lady and i were oh so hungry! i couldnt even finsih my food though, it was so much. Island was fun, it was the food we needed to fill our little stomachs. Dang i realized im getting fat yo! i gotta start working out and eating smart or else imma clog my arties w/yucky stuff. i dont want tog et a heart attack or something like that. I wanna be healthy and stuff, so when im old im healthy too. its crazy how people can read you. Like they can totally tell something in you or see it in you, that you never knew they knew. That happened to me today during lunch, it was pretty crazy!

Well im gettnig sleepy, i hope this is sufficient enuff for you now kuya! haha oh btw errone hurr is the line up for this tues. It was suggested to me that i post it up on hurr.

Warm up~
lulaley
Im free
ive got a joy down in my heart

Contrition~
Come juss as you are
I want to praise you Lord

invocation~
come holy spirit we need you

Praise & worship~
the nails in your hands
i worship you almighty God
There is none like you
good to me

After prophecy~
God will make a way

Interecessory~lyn² will be leading my intercessory that nite
Servants puso

closing~
Let the fire fall

"Vacation all i ever wanted, vacation have to get a way..."im done, im out God bless!