"Don't wait for the right person to come into your life but be the right person to come into someone's life."

wow this quote made me think a lot when it was given to me last nite. When i first read it, i only thought of it pertaining to bf/gf relationships. Now that i look at it again, it pertains to many different things. I guess the simplest way to see is, the bf/gf one. How so many people look for the "right person" the person that would fit their defintion of a "mr./ms. right." THough until now i realized you cant juss sit and wait for your princess or prince to arrive juss as LL cool J had said. You could be that right person to walk into someone;s life and juss totally change it unexpectedly. So basically you cant always focus errthang on "you." You could be a gift or a blessing to another persons life. Same goes w/friends too, dont sit around and wait till you find the right crowd to chill with. Be the person that will help change the wrong crowd into the right.

Ha i was juss thinking of something in the car on my way home from mcdonalds. Its actually a funny story, well to me it is. Errtime i watch that movie mulan it reminds me so much of this girl i was so crushin on for the longest time. I dont remember if i told this story already in a previous entry. I guess if i did, oh well im sure not erreone would remember it. ANyway, my cousin use to work at the edwards theatres in westminister. By the way, that theatre no longer exsists there. So he was the asst. mananger of that theatre. It was d0pe cuz id always be the first one to see all the latest movies. On the weekends or whenever i had no skool id go and spend the day @ work w/him. Id bring my big ol cup and my little tupperware thing to get popcorn.

Well there was this girl there and her name was zena. So errtime id go to see a movie, id talk to her and what not. I was i think 15 at the time and she was 18. She was 5'5 w/brown eyes, smiled like the sunrise haah jk . No forreal she was like 5'5 short black shoulder length hair. Pretty much looked like mulan to me. So i guess picture her looking like that. Errtime id talk to her id get all excited, and then id wait in hurr line to my drink refill juss so we can talk. Ha this is gay i know but id even go the point where id go into the bathroom and dump my drink out and then come back later for a refill. Or when id go to see a movie w/my fam bam tribe, id look in the parking lot to see if hurr car was there. i ended up finding out later she only lived right around the corner from me.

ANyway, my cousin quick the theatre cuz he got a better job. Which meant that i woudlnt see zena anymore cuz that was my only way of seeing her. Well time passed and errthang, soon before i knew it was a jr. Prom was coming up and i think the thought of her came into mind. One day i decided well since i hadnt talked to her in forever i wanna go see her. it was 042499 so i was pacing back & forth debating whether i was going to do this or not. I finally did and i rang the door bell and at the time my cousin's cousin(so i guess 2nd cousin) mom was dating zena's dad at the time. So basically my aunt opens the door and we do small talk. After all the long anticipation the moment comes and i ask if zena is home.

At the time errone in my fambam knew i had this thing for her and they all told me she had a bf. Of course me liking her and all, i didnt want to believe it. This is sad part, i made up this lie pretty much so i can get a pic of her. I told her i had to do this eng. proj and i needed to ask 15 different people whom i didnt know too well wha love meant to them. I think she read right through my lie cuz she was kinda puzzled why i asked her. All of a sudden we dont talk in a long period of tmie and next thing you know, im @ her door. ahh my foot fell asleep!
So she writes down her response for me saying this, "Love is a very misunderstood concept. Although many people believe they are in love, they really arent. A very concreate example is the unbelieveably high divorce rate of the last two decades.I may sound very cynical about romance but love really does suck!"

Wow i cant believe i still have that little note. Then i told her i needed a picture also, but she told me she didnt look good so to come back another day. I come back another day and her bf was there. At that time i was still i denial about her having one, and plus her negative response bout love. Whenever id pass by her house there would be a black toyota truck there. Thas how i knew whether her "bf" was there or not. So when i was there, he pulls up and im thinking oh why?! She intro. me to him but didnt say it was her bf. As i was bout to take the pic. the camera gets all jacked up. I felt really embarassed and stuff cuz her "bf" was there too. Being the camera wasnt working she juss gave me one of those photo maker pics she took i guess a couple weeks before. I was all excited and happy when i got it. Actually she had me borrow it and told me i had to return it. i go home and i scan it right away and print it out. haha i don got the pic anymore though, i ended up throwing it away. It got ruined from one of my frames i had.

Weeks later before prom comes, i decide after getting encouragement from a friend whom i was close to at the time to ask. I go over there and i remember i ended up waking her up from her nap. On 050799, i went over there and then i pretty much bluntly asked her if she could go w/me. I remember i had hinted to her bout it the first time we talked. She told me her prom experience wasnt very memorable cuz the guy wasnt very gentlemen like and besides that after prom he boned out on her. This was in the pi too, cuz she went to hs there. Well the main reason i went over to her house was to follow up and say the eng proj i lied bout went well. Then i asked her to prom and it was amazing cuz she said yes! haha she invited me in and told me bout some dress she already had from sears.

Prom was coo, except she was late picking me up! i guess she was having probs as she was getting her hair professionaly done. We danced and ate @ the mac grill w/some of our other friends. We took pics and blah blah the usual. At the end she was tired and we juss went to the norms to get dessert. I wanted to go to some party w/my other friends btu she didnt want to. wha could i do, she drove and was my date too! ha Wha was crazy was the day after prom my little "crush" ended. I didnt like her anymore, those feelings of butterflies were all gone.

So thas my story for today! my feet hurt ive been on it all day! Wha happened today, i went to mass really tired. Though after i felt waken up and i wasnt tired anymore. Talked to kuya online as i usually do err morning. I said to him kuya is...then he had to fill in the blank. ha so he put kuya is yummy! haha then i said yummy huh like yummy boba and he said heck yah. haha Then i was talking ot jaymee forever on the phone. Went to go rent mulan for work. You know if she was a real life person, i bet you shed look d0pe! oh hurr is another of those if you really know me...If you really knew me youd know that i loved that movie the debut and that girl joy bisco is oh so hot! woooo

Work was alright, i finally got to see the slideshow from yesterdays luncheon. Went to an elementary skool to talk bout camp stanton coming up. I hope i was able to convice at least some kids to go. As of now, no one has signed up for it. Which totally bites cuz i dont know what'll happen if we dont get sign ups. Agh that week is gonna be so tiring cuz we have the big egg hunt for work also that sat before easter. Then the next day is easter...agh! Work on commodities all day long, pretty much. Thas why my feet hurt, though we got it all done today. I had help from my kids and some parents. I really enjoy working w/the new girl shes outgoing adn easy to talk to. I invited her to come to prayer meeting also.

Went home to eat, then went to the blessed sacrament for a little bit. Prayer meeting was chill, the usual amount of people there. Though we did have a new guy there this time. He fit into the "elders" catagory. Then after went to mcdonalds for the usual fellowship. It was fun, we ate told jokes enjoyed each others company. boss lady came too which made it even more exciting! Speaking of her, she looked really pretty tonite. She had a whole spring motiff thing going on. The colors, the capri pants errthang was juss shouting out its spring time!

Kuya and i are most likely going to drop our Cis class. he was informed today by a csulb cousnelor he was wasting his time w/that class. So we figured we mine as well juss drop it. Then we could juss chill on wed. nites, which i dont mind. It'll help ease my mind and not stress on tues. nites bout whether our hw was done or not. No more going to the labs and my days will be like mon nites. ahh yes, it was fun while it lasted though. I guess now i know wha its like to take a class w/kuya. FRom now on kuya is gonna be spelled kooya, the hijo lingo. Please take note of the minor change in the spelling!

Then strider, el huego and kooya were all outside of mcdonalds talking forever. Talked bout obeidence to God and living in the present moment. Two important yet hard things to try to remember. agh kooya said brb and he hasnt came back yet. I asked erik de jesus for bess' juss to see if i had the write one or not. Apparently i did, at least it was the same # i tried to call the past couple times. Oh well, whateveas i guess for right now. Well its almost 2am and i should go to rest. ahh look gail juss signed on! Enjoy this long entry again, i think im picking up the pace again! haha woo i cant wait to spend the week @ kooyas!

"And youer the kind of girl i think about,and youre the kind of girl i dream bout im done. My heart is telling me that i need you in my world. Cuz youre my kinda lady, youre my kind of girl." im done, im out God bless!