"It is one of the blessings of friends that you can afford to be stupid with them"

Thas i think one of the best parts of having a friend, is being able to act stupid and not get judged. YOu know you got good friends when you say something stupid and they laugh with you at the same time. Not where youre insecure about what you say cuz youre afraid to be judged. Friends shouldnt judge each other, but only give advice to help them. If friends are judgemental then there would be no time for fun and games. The whole friendship would be based on drama! haha and well im sure no one likes to have drama. Especially when it comes to friends, close friends. Well for me i cuold say ive had that happen one too many times and it still occurs till this day. Its stressful, it hurts and and it sucks when you got a friend who is upset w/you or youre worried if a friend is. Though i guess thas part of a true friendship when trials occurr to come out of them. Not alone, but togther holding each others hand.

It was nice today, i got to sleep till almost 11am. As many of you know my week has been pretty stressful worrying bout this event tomrrow. I know God is with me and errthang will go well, cuz i messed up one event, i have this fear of messing up again. All this pre-event anxiety of expectations from supervisors and making sure errrthang goes smooth to their expecatations. Hopefully the day morning will go fast, the set up and the clean up. So i can breathe again and carry on the rest of my day. Juss gotta remember to take deep breaths. God knows this event is going to be successful, thas probably why ive experienced so many small attacks almost errday this week. Either that or its cuz im leading prayer meeting on tues. Praise God ive been getting through them, and not letting them get to me. LAtely ive been going through some struggles and some obstacles, but God has been holding my hand the whole entire way. I have full confidence he will lead me through this hurdles.

Man i keep running into people from my past. Forreal i met two different people frmo my past again today. Either that or i end up meeting new people to become friends with. Like today, i was at the walmart in the bp mall, this guy comes up to me who works there and was like 'hey wassup jason.' At first i didnt recgonize who it was but i think i remembered who it was, i didnt see his name tag so im not fo sure. That was coo we talked for a little bit and i invited him to prayer meeting. Then later on that day, angela calls me and asks me what time mass and confession scheule is @ spv. So from there we talked for about a good half hour catching up on stuff. Because i coudlnt explain how to get to St. Peter Chanel, her and i are gonna go tomorrow after i get off work.

God's telling me something bout all these people ive been running into. Its no coincidence i know thas for sure. But what does it all mean? Looks like im going to have to turn to the old oujia board and tarot cards for those answers. Right fred? hahaha you know how that goes, gotta try and experience new things. hahaha jk im only joking bout the practice of oujia and tartot cards. Thats stuff not somethign to mess around with. Though i always wanted to go and get my fortune read. MY old boss would always go to a fortune teller, shed read things from your jewerly and give you names. I use to do tarot cards too, well id pretend i knew how. haha errone always thought i did, but i never knew how to use them. I didnt understand how to play the game and the book ddint really explain it either.

There was this one fri. evening like 2 years ago when i was w/my secular friends. Well the weather was raining and cold, so we didnt wanna go out. At the time wed always end up going to the block anyway. So we decided to stay in and order pizza and do tarot card readings. I always made up 'spontaneous tarot card' readings. My friend got candles, lit them and turned off the lights. It totally seemed like a beginning to some corny skurry movie. The wind was blowing hard, it was stormy and raining hard too. Then i gave out some fake readings but i struggled giving them cuz at times id be like uhhh, ummm. haha They believed my readings too, thas the funny part.

Ran errands w/my mom, wal-mart at the bp mall is so huge. Went to the 99 cent stores, then went to good friday liturgy. After went to confession, father hussey gave errone absolution cuz the line was so long and it was already almost 10pm. That was tight that he did that, though i still want to talk to him. Man hed make a good spiritual director, too bad hes not a permanent priest at spv. After i met up w/the velascos, aela, reirich, mike and lyn lyn @ the south st. We all talked bout relationships again and played 20 ?'s bout relationships. It was quite interesting conversation. I am now freds 'sd' hahah i tell him to go the opposite direction he should be going. haha jk I love hurring aela give talks bout relationships, i call it 'aela wisdom.' haha

So today at sears in the bp mall, i walk in. I pass by the checkout stand and i see from afar a somewhat cute girl. As i pass by her she smiles at me, i could shes like hs still. I pass by and she smiles at me, i was like whoa, no girls ever smile at me. hahaha Well i decided maybe i could talk to her cuz ertime i passed by that area she kinda look. I thought well ill try to make a move and take that 'risk.' I was getting nervous cuz she always having customers so it was like ahh! When it was finally clear, i walked up and i said, "cuz youre so hot, that you must be a reason for global warning." hahah jk i didnt say that, yeah right it was more less like this, "are you as beautiful on the inside as you are on the outside?" she was like awwww that was so swe3t. haha yeah right too i wish haha Naw i simply said oh you look kinda familiar(cuz she did, not trying to use a pick up line.) have we met before? Then she was like naw, i dont think so. Looking at me trying to i guess read me? or something but she didnt seem really interested, so i said oh forget it! haha I felt retarted after that, but hey like i told strider i took that 'risk.' haha I wish i was brave enough to do that more often, too bad i dont got that courage. hahaha

"Head over heels It seems so real I feel like I'm falling in love..."im done, im out God bless!