"hope is faith handing out its hand in the dark..."

Praise God for today, i knew he would get me thorugh today and he did. I woke up this morning, wantng to sleep in. Lyn² called me this morning too, makng sure i was up. Thanks co-worker, youre great! Anyway, i still had the anxities and the fear that i might do something wrong to mess up. Ever since i messed up at the breakfast w/santa, i have this fear when it comes to events we put on. Juss a weird feeling that i might mess up something. The set up went really quick, easy and well. Then i was worried bout the djs nto making it or not playing the right music. Errthang went really well though today, smooth and easy. My bosses liked the music and the djs. ahh Praise God im relieved, juss one other thing really bothering me now. I can only pray it'll be all over soon.

Hope is an interesting word to talk bout. So many things come to mind when i think of this word. I think hope is pretty much saying hol up and dont stress. When errthang seems crumbling down, dont stress theres still soemthing otu there. To hang on and not to give up already. Hope keeps sane when we think were bout to go crazy. It can ease fear and stress cuz with hope comes prayer. Hope gives us that little spark in the dark when it seems like there is no more light. ahh its telling us to hold on a little bit longer, to persevere thruogh the darkness to find the light.

So my day was bout resting and chillin. I finally was able to finsih my line up and my prayers for tues. I havent been in the right mind the past week to start them. anyway, so i was able to do that and i came across some interesting stuff. I found out that katrizzle has a live journal now, so you can check that out. Jaymee changed her blog, thas something to read bout. I invited her fam bam tribe to my easter celebration @ the park tomorrow. Being her fam bam tribe is in vegas, i thught they could join my fam so they dont be alone. Hmm the 'mexican' called me today, talked to him for a while. Then ended up talking to him later on, online. HAd an interesting discussion. He gave me some good advice and told me he does the same thing i do. The whole st yourself up for a dissapointment cuz of expectations.

Talked to antonio for a little bit, to see how he;s doing. Finished sending out the last lenten devotion of this lenten season. So tomorrow we can start going back to our regular routines. Eat meat, candy, soda, cursing haha jk bout that one. Whatever you gave up yu can do woOO! you know its hard for me to look forward to family events now. I dont see some of them as i did before, cuz well many of them changed. Changed for the good? no, i believe like ariel had said many of them wont be in heaven. Theyre too into themselves and their outside world. They say theyre not trendy but they are. They are the biggest trenders out there, thas what i think. oh well, gotta love them though, theyre still my family...

"A little bit of Monica, in my life, A little bit of Erica, by my side, A little bit of Rita's, all I need, A little bit of Tina, is what I seek, A little bit of Sandra, in the sun, A little bit of Mary, all night long, A little bit of Jessica, here I am, A little bit of you makes me your man..."im done, im out God bless! Happy Easter!