Dissapointed

"It is no use walking anywhere to preach unless our walking is our preaching..."

I found myself really dissapointed in something I found out the other day. I didnt pay too much attention to it or dwell over it that much when I first found out. Then today, it was brought to my attention again and so it was like thas whack. You know wha I love bout yfc-uci? Is that they really make an effort to reach out and invite people to chill w/them. Whether its official yfc activities or not, they still make it an effort to do that. Thas one of the things I admire them for, thurr true hospitality. I remember mark anthony use to invite me, and he still does to whatever they were doing.

For example right after conference, that sunday he called me and asked if I wanted to go w/them to this yfc after purty. It was pretty crazy cuz the call was random. Hmm then randell while talking to him online last week he had invited me to go w/them to haunt. I thought that was coo, it made me feel welcome. So I guess it goes to show the importance of hospitality. It sucks when expectations turn into dissapointments. Though thas juss purt of life, it God's way of reminding us not to 'go all in' with w/others. Yet go 'all in' with Him and Him alone.

Today was a pretty chill day, I cant believe I slept in till almost 11am. Helped my dad erronce in a while fixing up the bafroom. Did some cleaning around the house, read a little bit from my gift of faith book. I still need to post all the stuff I've learned in the past couple of chapters. It's really good! Wow I'm slowly learning juss wha it means to have such faith. Its been a rough week, full of trials, dissapointments, realizations, and more. Praise God though for his grace, which I constantly have to remind myself. His grace is sufficient for me. I miss listening to that song eternally yours.

CLP was pretty good tonite, I cant seem to find my name tag. I dont know wha happened to it. It seems like a lot of people whurr absent tonite. Georgia gave a good talk bout importance of family and having a Christ-centered family. I talked bout in my group importance of praying together as a family. We should try and model after the 'Holy Family' cuz they're a perfect example of a true christian family. Then I shurred the whole, 'the family that prays together, stays together.' Then eleanor gave a good talk bout who the Holy Spirit is and went into the description of the baptism of the holy spirit. I thought her analogy on more than words and the gift of tounges was good. To me, this isnt the easiest talk to give and I'm extremely picky over how its delieverd. Eleanor and I were talking bout it afterwhurrds how you dont want to overwhelm them nor scurr them yet you dont want to compromise either the importance of the gifts.

WEnt to go watch teh grudge w/fred at krikorian tonite. I kinda sturrted to get sleepy cuz some purrts whurr juss too slow. One thing bout japanese directed movies is that thurrs no freakin ending! It leaves you like 'uhh whas gonna happen now?' Juss like the movie the ring! Agh! I hate those kinda movies. Saw was a lot better, though the grudge had some pretty creepy purrtts to it also. Juss the thought of her face was pretty creepy. I skurred calvin last nite before he went to bed as I embedded images from the movie saw into his mind. ha! He got tricked yess! aha isda 1 calvin 0! haha

Thas it for now, I got stupid work tomorrow @ 2pm. Agh! Hopefully this week will be a better week, its been a while since I've had a stupid kinda week. I sturrtted the consecration to Mary prayers too last nite. So I must start day three of the prayers before going ot bed! Oh I found this on eleanor's xanga, ha thought it was pretty funny...im sure many of you may relate. Have fun! haha

REMEMBER THESE?
1. You've ever ended a sentence with the word "SIKE".
2. You watched the Pound Puppies.
3. You can sing the rap to the "Fresh Prince of Bel Air"
4. You wore biker shorts under your skirts and felt stylish.
5. You yearned to be a member of the Baby-sitters club and tried to start a club of your own.
6. You owned those lil Strawberry Shortcake pals scented dolls.
7. You know that "WHOA " comes from Joey on Blossom.
8. Two words: M.C. Hammer
9. If you ever watched "Fraggle Rock ".
10. You had plastic streamers on your handle bars.
11. You can sing the entire theme song to "Duck Tales".
12. When it was actually worth getting up early on a Saturday to watch cartoons.
13. You wore a ponytail on the side of your head.
14. You saw the original "Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles" on the big screen.
15. You got super-excited when it was Oregon Trail day in computer class at school.
16. You made your mom buy one of those clips that would hold yourshirt in a knot on the side.
17. You played the game "MASH" (Mansion, Apartment, Shelter, House)
18. You wore Jordache jean jacket and you were proud
19. L.A. Gear....need I say more
20. You wanted to change your name to "JEM " in Kindergarten.
21. You remember reading "Tales of a fourth grade nothing " and allthe Ramona books.
22. You know the profound meaning of "WAX ON, WAX OFF"
23. You wanted to be a Goonie.
24. You ever wore fluorescent clothing. (some of us...head-to-toe)
25. You can remember what Michael Jackson looked like before his nose fell off...
26. You have ever pondered why Smurfette was the only female smurf.
27. You took Lunch Pails to school.
28. You remember the CRAZE, then the BAN of snap bracelets.
29. You still get the urge to! say "NOT " after every sentence.
30. You remember Hypercolor t-shirts.
31. Barbie and the Rockers was your favorite band.
32. You thought She-Ra and He-Man should hook up.
33. You thought your childhood friends would never leave because you exchanged friendship bracelets.
34. You ever owned a pair of Jelly-Shoes. (and like #24, probably inneon colors, too)
35. After you saw Pee-Wee's Big Adventure you kept saying "I know you are, but what am I?"
36. You remember "I've fallen, and I can't get up "
37. You remember going to the skating rink before there were inlineskates.
38. You ever got seriously injured on a Slip and Slide.
39. You have ever played with a Skip-It.
40. You had or attended a birthday party at McDonalds.
41. You've gone through this nodding your head in agreement.
42. You remember Popples.
43. "Don't worry, be happy "
44. You wore like, EIGHT pairs of socks over tights with high topReeboks.
45. You wore socks scrunched down (and sometimes still do... gettingyelled at by "younger hip" members of the family)
46. "Miss MARY MACK MACK MACK, all dressed in BLACK BLACK BLACK "
47. You remember boom boxes vs. cd players.
48. You remember watching both "Gremlins " movies.
49. You know what it meant to say "Care Bear Stare!!
50. You remember watching Rainbow Bright and My Little Pony Tales
51. You thought Doogie Howser was hot.
52. You remember Alf, the lil furry brown alien from Melmac.
53. You remember New Kids on the Block when they were cool.
54. You knew all the characters names and their life stories on "Saved By the Bell ", the ORIGINAL class.
55. You know all the words to Bon Jovi - SHOT THRU THE HEART.
56. You just sang those words to yourself.
57. You remember watching Magic vs. Bird.
58. You cut your t-shirts in half and wore it with your homemade Levi shorts.. (the shorter the better)
59. You remember when mullets were cool!
60. You had a mullet!
61. You still sing "We are the World "
62. You "Pegged " your pants ritually. You're still singing shotthrough the heart in your head aren't you!!!
63. You french rolled your jeans.
64. You owned a banana clip
65. You know who said "Whatch you talkin bout fool!"
66. You ever walked like an egyptian
67. TRAPPER KEEPERS


Dissed two yurrs in a row, thas whack!


"That you love me and I already know..."im done, im out God bless!