Things on my Mind

Our merciful Loving Lord seems to be showing me so much more lately. It just hits me and the graces open up my spiritual eyes to much understandings.

One is that Jesus lets me see how I am growing so very close to Him each time that sufferings come to me. And the closer that I grow to Jesus through sufferings the more I know how far away from Him that I really am and so much desire begins to over take my very soul as I can only desire my Lord. I pray that I am making any sense.

I so desire to be good for Jesus. These ugly temptations come to me to try to get my focus off God. Some temptations are so hidden and I do not even know that they are temptations until I grasp onto the temptation. And when I grasp onto the temptation it is like getting myself burnt on the stove and then really fast I am shocked into being aware that I was being fooled and that it was in fact a horrible ugly temptation and I hurry and ask Jesus, oh so fast, to please send me the graces that I need to ignore the temptation and to keep my focus on my Lord, my God.

Many times the graces do not seem to come to me to help me and so it seems as if I am all alone trying to fight off these temptations but Jesus is really there holding me up and He is my only strength.


Lord help me to be patient juss as you are patient with me.

"Lord i give you my heart, i give you my soul, i live for you alone..."im done, im out God bless!