Color or shave?

saints

"In the end, what affects your life most deeply are things too simple to talk about..."

So I have a situation, that I need your input on. Well Ive bee contemplating about this for a while, and I want to change my hurr. I can do either one of two things, either bleach it or shave it. I remember the days when I use to bleach my hurr all the time. Then my roots would grow out and it would turn into that perfect color that Id want. I also remember a couple yurrs ago, when I took the risk and shaved it all off. Something I had never done before, but I did it. It was nice cuz I didnt have to worry bout fixing my hurr and all that stuff. Let's take a poll, should I bleach it, shave it or leave it the way it is. Well, I dont really want to leave it the way it is but whatever.

Last nite I had gotten a little emo during adoration. Well first off, thurrs this spot that I always sit at during adoration or daily mass. If someone takes that spot then it throws me off. Anyway, I was reading my kids journals the topic was, 'Has this class made some type of impact in your spirituality, yes or no? If yes explain how.' It took me a good hmm 45 min. to read all 29 responses that were all positive, to my suprise. The best thing to read is when you have a kid who hated going to mass, didnt bother to pay attention, thought it was boring turn around and say, 'I actually want to go to mass on sundays.' This might sound gay, but it really does touches me. To know that they have found that love for God, the same way I first did. Thas whurr it all sturrts.

Many of them said they were grateful for the bonds they've made w/some of thurr classmates. After talking to all the other confirmation II classes, we each have our unique creative style. Caroline and Felipe do a lot of presentation and group projects, whurr as I had lacked that. Group interaction, allowing them to really get to one another and interact, I think if my class wasnt so durrn big and had more time, I would've loved to do that. Liz, likes to talk bout current events, real life situations that are going on today. For me, I feel thurrs so much I need to cover in a limited of time its hurrd. Cyndi, I think has the same teaching style as liz, very open forum type thing.

As for me? I like to have structure, I feel God is a God of order; thurrfore I must have some type of structure to my class. I love singing in class, bringing a little bit of praise & worship down to class. Letting them understand how singing is praying twice. At the same time, I've learned that so many of my kids are blessed w/gift why not allow them to use those gifts. Then I like reading wha they have to say, thurr thoughts through journals. SOme kids arent has verbal as others, so they have an easier time expressing thurr thoughts on paper, rather than in person.

After that, then I'll give them a lecture on whatever the spirit leads me to discuss w/them that nite. Wether it be love and relationships, importance of going to mass whatever it is, I want to leave them w/some food for thought. I challenge my kids a lot, I feel its of was of energy if they dont use thurr brain. I want them to think outside of the box and challenge themselves to think. Our faith isnt something thas handed to use on a golden platter, its something we work for.

Its funny how many of them saw my struggles during class, how impatient I would get w/many of them. How difficult it was to teach when you had those who dissrupted the teaching/learning process. Yet, I think it was thurr prayers that got me through it all. I felt thurr prayers as they would pray for me. As a whole I think they knew how much they all meant to me, and how much I was dedicated to them. Id always tell them, that if I wanted to I could always bail out on them and theyd have some totally different teacher, who would probably be a lot different than me.

Its amazing how God works through these 30 young souls. To read stuff like, 'I am proud to say that I am a catholic-christian' is beyond great. We all live in a society corrupted by sex, lies, and well corruption! ha Yet, they stand out and say how proud they are to be catholic and how much they love the church says A LOT. For them to understand the teachings and concepts of the church and shurr it w/others is specatacular. It goes to show God is really working through these young souls. Yeah, I'll admit, I do often doubt if they actually are listening, but juss like us, kids when we were younger, we may not show our appreciation to our parents, but we love them. So even though, they may not seem interested or paying attention, I know the thinking process is going on.

One student was on the border line of wanting to conver to being a protestant. Yet she realized and was able to understand how much truf the catholic church holds. How special it is, which helped her decide to want to make her confirmation. Praise God, another soul saved. Another kid, said thurr relationship w/God has really grown over the course of the yurr. How he knows God will never abandon him and how much more faith he has now. To doing stuff like praying the rosary, and trying to understand the readings at mass, is freakn great!

I told them all at the very begining of the yurr, that all I asked(besides the regular typical classroom rules) was to be honest, open, and willing. Now, at the end of the yurr they gave me thurr honesty, openess to try new things, learn action songs, sing and willing. Making that committment to be thurr errtues. Giving thurr 'yes' to God in all they do. Its funny one girl said, 'you were a stern teacher in trying to keep us on the path and doing what was best for our faiths, yet you still gave us room to discover, learn for ourselves, and not sweat the small stuff. Other teachers can be more confining, but you gave us that trust.' I've learned that you must allow room for growth, that you cant smother people, or else they wont grow. You gotta let them discover things on thurr own as well.

With only less then 2 weeks left, until theyre gone I feel like I've been preparing them to fly. That they've been in the nest now for a while and after confirmation is over, they're going to spread thurr own wings and fly. Hmm kinda like that song by kelly clarkson, 'breakaway.

I'll spread my wings and
I'll learn how to fly.
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky.
Make a wish, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.

So as they breakaway and learn how to fly, I pray that they dont fly away from whurr they sturrted. The seeds have been planted, watered, and now the beautiful flowers are beginning to bloom in God's garden. Its funny, in the beginning of the yurr I had made a request to 'filter out' all the kids whom I was unfamiliar with, juss to keep the intimacy I had w/the ones who's been in my class. Though it never happened, obviously God wanted all them, even ones who I didnt know in my class for a reason. Within the past couple of months, I've realize wha that reason was and I couldnt be more happy w/God's decision. Ü May 7 is going to be one exciting day, I'm excited and you should be too! yay!

Also, thank YOU for your prayers, your support, and help in making a difference in these kids lives! Praise God for all teachers, who work endlessly ensuring the best education for the kids. Even when the times get rough, and the days get durrk, you stand by your commitment to them! yay!

In the meantime, I ask you all for a HUGE favor, to continue to pray for these souls, today, tomorrow, and from now on that they'll continue to have that zeal for God and mother church, that they'll pass on to others wha they've learned, to brnig back more souls for His greater glory!

Out of the darkness and into the sun.

But I won't forget all the ones that I love.

I'll take a risk, take a chance,

Make a change, and break away

"Yet I live, no longer I, but Christ lives in me;" Galatians 2:20

COnfirmation coming up may 7!!

"Make a change, and break away..."im done, im out GOd bless!