A Beautiful Struggle

"Sometimes you end up with the person you'd never expect to be with. Sometimes it hurts looking back and then moving forward, but as long as you're happy now, insecurities are bound to fade..."

BLogger has this great new feature to enhance the blogging world. Its called 'recover post,' if only they had thought of this earlier. It pretty much speaks for itself, so those times when something happens and you lose your entry. Well click on the 'recover post' and it should come back to you. Im glad that hasnt happened to me in a long time, maan I remember those days. THough now I always 'copy' the whole entry first, so incase it gets lost I still ahve a back up. You know how that is, after putting errthang down, thurrs no way you wanna do it all ova again.

Tonight, yes TONIGHT, my community, yfc uci campus base will be hosting thurr 5th annual, 'praisefest 2005-Beautiful Struggle.' Wha exactly is a praisefest? Well its a nite of skits, talks, music, and more! A nite to give errthang to God and glorify Him. I really like this yurrs theme, 'Beautiful Struggle.' Focusing on embracing our struggles, and sending that message to hang on, cuz God is through it all. So you say, 'well why would a struggle be beautiful? that doesnt make any sense.' Well if life were to go on without any sturggles, then why would one need God? Struggling is a sign saying that we need God and we can do very little w/o Him. It's a reminder to us that throughout our most difficult and durrkest times, God is thurr holding us through it all.

The theme fits perfectly with the many different things going in, in my own life. My own personal struggles Ive had within the past couple months, is juss God's way of telling me to keep on trucking. You know that quote above is one of my favorites, in fact it came to mind on the way home from UCI tonite. Even though its dealing in the 'relationship-bf/gf' context, it could also fit in other ways. The things that Ive been seeing really sucks and it's been a constant battle back and forth dealing with it. It made it even more difficult knowing thurr was nothing that could be done. Sheesh this is sturrting to sound like the terry schavio case.

Anyway, through it all though God paved the way for something to new to come. A new adventure to go on, another mission. We all know how God can take us out of comfort zones and place us in a whole new environment to be that light he needs in that new area. Well this is how I see it now, God has taken me out of a place whurr I felt comfortable and is now asking me to possibly tend his sheep elsewhurr. So as the quote says, 'sometimes it hurts looking back and moving forward.' It does hurt looking back on the past, the things you've established the memories you hold on to. Personally, one of my weak points is dealing w/letting go. I have a hard time accepting change at times.

The focus point of this past week has been to 'move on' with the past. Especially these past few nites, its been confirmed to let go of those things that are holding me back. To sturrt looking to a 'promise of a new day.' Run and don't look back, to keep your eyes foward and set on the prize. It's kinda like the suicide skit; you know in the beginning how errthang is all good, until we set our eyes off of the direction God is pointing to us. Thas the route I'm trying to take right now, to move forward and not look back.

And as the last piece of that quote says, 'as long as youre happy now, insecurities are bound to fade.' Which is true, of course its always kinda skurry not knowing whurr God is gonna lead you. Being that whurr human, its only natural for one to be nervous and inscurr bout God may ask you to do. Yet as long as youre happy bout wha God's new plan is for you, those insecurities are soon gonna be gone. THen you find yourself in a place/position that you'd never expect to be, it all ends up working out. It's all part of that whas it called again? Oh yeah, that beautiful struggle.

So hopefully you can make it to 'praisefest,' I promise it'll be a great experience. One that you definitely wont forget! On top of all that, all the proceeds going to GK777. To help build houses in the pi, yay!! Remember Jesus said, 'for I was naked and you clothed me.' Doors will open 6pm! Thurrs gonna be a spirit games music video also yay!!! Come check it out! Do it for God ha He wants you thurr!

Eagle’s calling And he’s calling your name...promise of a new day

So what comes out of beautiful struggles? Ahh yes, thats right....beautiful fruits.

My grace is sufficient for you, He says.

"Open my eyes Lord, I want to see your face..."im done, im out God bless!