i dont know right now...i have a feeling of mixed emotions right now. A lot of them are frustration, anger as well as sadness and more sadness. tonight i was talking to jay before SRE and as we were talking all i felt upset. He's stuck and he's having a hard time getting out. ::sigh:: uprm felt this pain tonight as well as other people. As i was talking to banne, for some reason i had tears stroll down to my cheek. Hes one of those people whom my quote from yesterdays blog pertains to. He doesnt worry bout himself, he worries bout other people that he loves and cares for. He puts himself last, and puts the ones who are in his heart first. That's what's really great bout the guy, is compassion for errone. I ask for you all to please pray for him as he's struggling right now.

It sucks when people are decievable, they make you think one way yet they have other intentions. i dont like that feeling, thas wrong. To me honestly, maybe those people are insecure w/themselves so in order to get wha they want they front it. Why? thas so gay to do that, it juss goes to show how small of a person you really are. To front to errone to try and twist them around your finger while laughing at the same time. thas irritating, it bugs and well i think what goes comes around. You want a prize, you'll get a prize!

Well on more positive note, class went pretty well today. it seemed longer today though, i guess cuz we stayed for the whole almost hourt. I had a nice convo again w/shorty, i sat down first then she sat down by me. Its coo cuz we were talking bout poly sci, and hwo cool the instructor was who teaches it. What made d0pe was she was aware of the tuition increases. Its great to talk to people who understand govt and pay attention to stuff thas going around them. I think thas something i would like my girl to have. I might be irritated if she was juss totally oblivious to things that go on around her. its turning out to be good semester after all...haha

Lyn Lny got the job today @ my work. I was so excited to hear the great nerws! wow God is soo great to us! now she'll be my new coworker, and i have another person to share my faith w/a work. A lot of people were happy that she got the job. i cant wait til she actually moves in and sets up her desk w/pictures...woo!! Congrats lyn lyn on your new job working @ the City of stanton!!

SRe went well tonight, it was good to have jennifer back helping me out. The kids did an inventory of life, like where they are in their spiritual life. I was almost hesitant to do it, being theyre so young still. Though i did it anyway but really explained it to him. Im curious to read their responses now. I taught them Shine Jesus Shine, though i dont think theyre diggin the whole singing praise & worship. Theyll get use to it, its a gradual learning process. I juss feel its important aspect in teaching bout giving ouor thanks to God. Theyre learning heart of worship & shine Jesus shine, i guess in a way a preperationg for youth alpha 2000 and something.

Went to the soratorios tongiht after SRe, it was fun. Its also great to see people whom i really love and cherish in my puso, smiling again. Its a warm feeling to see that, it makes me happy. i dont wanna name people off, but its juss my love for these people is juss soo overwhelming that it kills me inside to see them sad. I dont know if that made sense, its late. i dont think ive ever felt so strongly before bout certain people other than my real imediate family. "True love causes pain. Jesus, in order to give us the proof of his love, died on the cross. A Mother, in order to give birth to her baby, has to suffer. If you really love one another, you will not be able to avoid making sacrifices." that is one thing i will not hesitate to do w/the people i love most in my heart...

"My love for you will never end..."