"To me, contemplation is not to be shut up in a dark place but to allow Jesus to live His passion, love and humility in us, praying with us, being with us, sancitifying through us." -Mother Theresa.

Wow, that was a really good thought, and something i think we should all strive to be. I guess you dont gotta be in a dark room to really mediatate or to pray to Jesus. Everyday we should allow JEsus to work in us and not deny him. ANyway, thas juss some food for thought. I gotta lead prayer meeting in a few weeks, im kinda excited cuz i wanna intro. this new song. hopefully well be able to get ti during music ministry practice on sun.

TOday was pretty coo today, i was struggling kinda in the beginning to keep myself busy. I was trying to do my lesson plans for the whole month for my after skool program. I didnt really get too far, but oh well it'll give me somethign to do kinda on mon. when i come in. I dont like doing arts & crafts really, im not really into the whole messing w/glue stuff. i dont know why i dont get into it, i guess, plus i have a hard time figuring out things to make. I remember @ the daycare my old boss would be able to whip up something in a min. out of like any kind of material given to her. THas tight though, i wish i could do that. i changed the display case outside finally. I kinda procrastinated on doing that cuz i thought it was going to take a while...it didnt though.

I finished running all of kuyas errands for him today, haha i got his CD that he wanted burnt then during my lunch i went to go deposit his check for him. haha it felt like i was his administrative assitant or something like that...ahh i feel so used! hahah jk My co worker took us out for lunch today @ the olive garden. That was coo of her, it was nice cuz the 3 of us rec leaders have been trying to plan a time where we could all go out for lunch. Usually every time we try to plan something comes up like one of us would have to stay back. IT was coo cuz it all ended up working out today. Praise God! Though i was rushing to get back cuz i didnt have much time cuz my break was almost over.

I was kinda expecting a bigger turn out for my cooking class today, thinking i would have a lot more kids then last time. Oh well I guess God has other plans for that class, it was coo i worked with what he gave me. 3 of the kids from last time came back to retake the class. We made chocolate chip brownies today, it was kinda messy but the most important part the kids were able to make it. Its nice to see these precious little gifts God gives us smile. To see them happy and enjoying themselves makes me smile and feel good inside. I made a batch for the city manager too! ha gotta get up there and play my cards right.

I felt really tired after work today, i dont know why maybe it was the calmari i ate or the walking back and forth from city side to parks & rec side.blah blah blah what to say what to say. so yeah i was watching real world for a while and i almost fell asleep too laying on kuya bear. I never realized how comfortable he was to lay down on. i found this picture from the xmas party, w/me holding up kuya bear after i opened the gift and right behind be was blue8312 hahaha how funny i thought.

Went to SRe tonight, it was nice seeing the kids again but i missed having jennifer helping me out. ITs coo when you got a partner in crime working w/you. We talked bout the magi and how it all went about w/the wise men. I dont know sometimes i think i might be overwhelming them w/too much stuff. i also talked to them bout how Gods love for us isnt wrapped up in some kind of gift box, its in us already. THen we had this mini reflection on that song heart of worship, i had them listen to it, then tell me what thye got out of the song. I had a new student in the class too, she goes to the same skool as my sister does. No wonder she has big vocab and her sentence strucure is whoa! hahaha For their hw i had them read in their books about who the Holy SPirit is and then tell me how the HOly SPirit has guided them for the week.

Went to drop off kuyas stuff @ the soratorios after SRE. It sucks cuz boss lady is getting sick cuz shes probably been overwhelminly tired. Ive had that happen before, it sucks to be sick. SPeaking of sick my best friend called me today shes been sick too for the past ocuple days. Thas the one bad part bout working w/kids, you can catch their viruses as quick as a piegeon can find comfort on your windshield. I remember two summers ago i caught one of the kids cold right before my vacation to hawaii. he coughed on me purposely and thought it was funny...agh i felt os mad on my there cuz i wasnt able to sleep cuz my nose was stuffed and blah blah. i got over it towards the end of the trip though.

KUya came w/me to eat carls jr. after leaving the soratorios. im really glad that ive gotten close to him. He's one great guy! (not that anyone else isnt) Ha its funny when we talk cuz we juss talk bout anything and everything hahaha besides that ive learned valuable life long lessons from him too. Its great how certain people can come into your life and really hmm i guess make a difference in it you could say i guess. anyway i have the best times when we chill. "popcorn & butter" hahahahaha

well as i was going through some old mail right now i came across this, "The greatest challange in your life is to find someone who knows your flaws and differences but yet still willingly embrace you with so much LOVE and CARE." thas true as in real world wise when looking for that person. But actually weve all found that "someone" thas Jesus! Check it, he knows all of our flaws, he knows that we continue to do them time after time again and again. Yet he still embraces us no matter what with sooo much love & care. How great is that! Unconditional love for us he has...

"well whod have thought? well bless my soul! whod had known well who indeed. well whod had guess theyd come together on their own. its so peculiar we'll wait and see a few days more, there must be something there that wasnt there before. there may be something there that wasnt there before." im done...im out GOd bless!