"Our souls should be like a transparent crystal through which God can be perceived. This crystal is sometimes covered with dirt and dust. To remove this dust we carry out our examination of conscience, in order to obtain a clean heart." -Mother THeresa of Calcutta...she then goes on to explain what she means...

"God will help us to remove that dust, as long as we allow Him to, if our will is that his will come about. Our examination of conscience is the mirror we focus towards nature: a human test, no doubt, but one that needs a mirror in order to faithfully reflect its faults. If we undertake this task with greater faithfulness, perhaps we will realize that we sometimes consider a stumbling block is rather a rock we can step on."

I really liked what Mother Theresa, we gotta be open to God for him to help take out the dust in our eyes. When we look at ourselves in the mirror errday, thas our examination of conscience. We always gotta look in that mirror to see if that dust is still there holding us back from seeing all of God's wonderful creations. Though, not all the time it takes a mirror to see our own faults. Sometimes we may see it through our own brothers and sisters actions. Though we can overcome those sins and faults by putting all our faith in God and put our trust in him to help weed out those nasty sins. The more we have faith and trust in God, what may seem like a huge task to carry out trying to defeat that sin, it only becomes a rock we could step on and crush.

This seemed like a long weekend for me, maybe cuz of all the recent events that had taken place over the weekend. I really praise God for all the different wonderful creations he put on this earth. These past couple weeks had made me really realize how great these creations are. I mean last friday, i went snowboarding juss going up there through in the mountains was juss d0pe. Look how wonderful the trees are, the snow is and the mountains, it makes you really enjoy life.

I think most of all young kids, are one of God's greatest creations. Why? They bring us joy, happiness, they put smiles on our faces w/o understanding why. They make us laugh till we cant stop and when were sad, then theyre sad. On friday i had gone over to the soratorios for a little bit, and after i came back w/banne from the docs, i saw ninni's smiling face as i walked through that door. She was lauging and juss all around really excited. it was fun cuz i was able to play w/her that day. As i was watching her, she walked over to a box and took out the packaging stuff and threw it in the air and said, "snow!" I walked over there to the box and threw some over her head and said snow! From there we couldnt stop playing with it, we woudl throw some up then pick it up. Then throw some again and pick it up. There was one point after all the chasing and running around the house i stopped cuz i was tired. I was sitting on the couch and ninni comes up to me and puts a piece of the packaging stuff on my lap and said snow. How could i refuse to say no to her radiant smile that was shinning so brightly when she came up to me.

Today at my family party, my little cousin who juss turned 5 and my godson who is 2 were playing on the swing. They were sitting down together smiling and having a good time. My little cousin started to sing happy bday to errone who was outside. When it came to me he started to sing, "happy bday to you, happy bday to you happy bday dear manong ja$on, happy bday to you." As my godson heard him say manong ja$on he instantly replied to my cousin, "No! its ninong!" so then they went back and forth till one of my older cousins explained it to them. That made me smile, cuz i never realized that my godson knew me i guess that well? Its hard cuz i dont get to see him as much as i would like to. When i do see him, its a great blessing to add to my day as well as my life. Hopefully that last sentence made sense, i dont know haha

It was my Grandmas bday today, she turned 78 and is still healthy as ever. I really am greatful for God has blessed my family with so much! Both of my grandparents are still alive and are both healthy people. They dont smoke or arent sick in bed. Its a real blessing to see both of them doing so well. To have the family get together for a time of good fellowship. Of course every family has their struggles, but those struggles help us unite closer together and help build stronger realtionships w/one and another.

I was talking w/a small group of my cousins today. The 4 of us, use to be really close and to a certain extent we still are. Well you know how it is, we all grow up and some times go on different paths. So anyway, we were sitting there lettign the food settle in our stomachs and we started to reminsce bout the past. We started to talk bout how our aunts and uncles would split the kids up between the "big" kids and the "little kids." How we would have a seperate table from the big kids. Or how one summer we were all really into rollerskating/blading. We would go through centralia skool and juss having a ball. Its hard sometimes i feel that i cant relate to them cuz im different than the rest. Though wha i dont realize is how BLESSED i am to have family to be around with.

Thoughts for the day~
1. count your blessings errday, take time out to enjoy them.
2. Continue to persevere and become stronger in your faith.
3. Dont look as a small trial as a stump in a road, rather than a rock youre going to crush.

"When i think how life use to be always walking in the shadows. Then i look at what you've given me, I feel like dancing on my tip toes. I must say that everyday i wake and realize you're by my side, I know i'm so Blessed."
im done...im out God bless!