::sigh:: so imma try to attempt to rewrite waht i had on hurr. I accidently closed AOl and i lost my whole entry! oHhH wHY!?! i was like half way done too! agh! its so frustrating, okay deep breath.

"Do not be afraid of loving to the point of sacrifice, until it hurts. Jesus' love for us led him to his death."

Where do i even start now? I think imma switch it up from the entry that got erased. ill juss so straight into the weekend. It was a unforgettable weekend, with memories that will last a lifetime! It was a great weekend to enjoy God's wonderful creations and to create bonds of divine love.

We met up on fri nite @ the mejia residence for dinner and chit chat. I think we were all pretty much hyped up for this weekend. At least for me i was, ive been waiting for this weekend to come for a while now, so i was excited.
After prayer and more prayer, we left the house at like 830pm to head to ventura. It was like a parade kinda haha cuz there was like 5 cars and we were all lined up in back of each other. I had a d0pe time in the car w/boss lady, lyn lyn and ninniiiiiiiiiiiii. We prayed the rosary then we sang our hearts out to all different songs. it was fun we sang from disney to praise & worship then we ended it w/slow jammmmmmms. Even though the trip was forever long i had a fun time being in the car w/boss lady, lyn lyn and ninni. Theyre great!

We got to ventura @ around 930 pm, we all unpacked and kinda did our own thing for a little while. I went to chill in the spa, that was blazing hot! there was these two guys in there, one was from minn. and the other frmo daygo, i think theyre fishermen. As i was listening to their convo, they were juss talking bout the different type of places theyve been fishing to and wha they have caught. It was quite interesting convo, actually i kinda learned something. Anyway, strider came out later to join me in some fellowship. We started thinking of all these different r & b songs, from back in the day all the way till now. It was fun, cuz a lot of songs we sang you dont hear anymore. later on that nite, we all met up in the girls room for some sharing. I was able to get to know things i didnt know before bout others. I realized that i could be in the room w/these people, not be able to say anything or hear anything but juss looking around and smile cuz im aroudn the people whom i love.

Sat. morning we woke up early to get ready for the first mission trip. Kuya was able to make it out w/us! wooooooo! that was cuz boss lady and i were kinda sad he wasnt gonna go on fri. Antonio was able to make out too haha that guy is a trip! he cracks me w/up his sense of humor. So we all went to town and got somethign to munch on before going to the mission. This weekend i was really able to get to know jackie. She rode w/kuya and i pretty much the whole weekend. Shes a really swe3t person w/a d0pe personality. Im one of her kuyas now! wooo im called kuya fish and the kuya is called "kuya bear." hahahaha yay!!!

Mission San buena ventura was really beautiful. INside the museum they all these different things preserved inside the glass. There was so many fascinating object to read and look at. The church was sooo beautiful, the altar and all the statues there. You couldnt help but want to juss sit there and stay there forever. The presence of JEsus was really there w/us. It was d0pe cuz i was able to take pictures inside the church. When i was younger i didnt think much of the missions, now i have a total different outlook on it.

After the mission we walked to the beach for a mini prayer meeting. It was perfect day, bright blue clouds, birds in the air, a nice breeze. God's love was shinning down to us by the bright reys of the sun. The prayer meeting was great, we had praise & worship to go along w/it. We sang our hearts out to God juss telling me how much he means to us and how blessed we all are to be together to give him all glory and honor. Then we had this excercise where we were to find something beautiful bout our community. Servants HEart is so special to me cuz the love we all share for each other, is the same type of love Jesus shares for us! Then we were to write bout something bout each other, what made them so special to us. the exercise will help me lift myself up when i might be feeling down or sad. its was exciting to read what errone wrote bout each other.

After having some fun @ the beach, we continued on our journey to mission San Fernadno Rey in alhambra. Some of us got misguided but all in all we made it. That was another great mission, the church was so mesmerzing once you step in youre filled w/awe. It was really peaceful w/many different things to look at. They had a madonna room w/all these pictures Of Mama Mary. We took pictures err where we went, juss like typical tourists! i wanna come back to these missions some day, itd be cool if i were able to take my kids there. Im sure they would enjoy it and find it juss as beautiful as i did.

Well after leaving san fernando rey, we rolled over to dennys to eat. haha we were all pretty much starving cuz we hadnt eaten since that morning. I ate a grip that nite, i ate mine then i had the rest of jennifer. Munched on some country fried steak and then fries. Oh boy...imma getting fat! hahaha After dinner we went back to our hotel, this one didnt have a spa to chill in so i was a little bit dissapointed. oh well i got to jump on el huego and turn him inside out w/my savage arms hahah jk It was fun i guess sorta wrestled, but i had to stop cuz i was getting hot and i already had taken a shower so i didnt wanna stink then have to shower again. Arch got us all some starbucks mmm which ended up making me sleepy. Jackie was getting taught how to play the incubus song. I ended up taking a mini nap @ 1030 then ended up going to sleep @ like 130am. As much as i was trying to sleep it was hard. I think cuz it was hot, it felt like summer over there. I heard the guys make a food run like @ around 2am for del taco. Then they were talking bout war and the draft...oooh scary thought.

ahh fred set the alarm @ 7am so he could get continetal breakfast in the morning. I couldnt even go back to sleep after that so i decided to crazy and jump on el huego and arch. haha i was jumping from one bed to the other landing on el huego. i was going back and forth, i was feeling a bit hyper in the morning. it was there i got the new nickname hi-jo by arch and jay. (pronounced high joe) the way the hotel was kinda set up it reminded me of the real world. so jenn and i had some fun acting pretending this was servants heart real world mission hills. im curious to see the footage that el huego got. After starting the morning in prayer we then left going back down to mission san gabriel archangel for mass.

The church was really nice, they were selling this delicious corn after mass. Mizike was able to join us, so that was d0pe! Mass was nice, father talked bout how when we sing we our praying twice. Thas what i told my kids on thurs. so i guess it juss kinda confirmed that having the kids do praise & worship is important. Father also said how its important to try and participate by singng throughout the whole mass. it was blazing hot up in the valley area, on man! Anyway after mass uprm came together ot form megaroom. Fred had done a d0pe favor on behalf of his two brothers. i really admire him for that. God gave him what he asked for though i told him cuz hes strong. His intentions to put his brothers needs before his own, something thats truly honorable. Mother Teresa once said, "IN CHrist, who died on the cross for us, we can definitely confirm the fact that suffering can transform itself into a great love an extraordinary geneorsity."

With that it leads me to saying i woudl be honestly lost w/o uprm. God put all of us together for a reason. We came from different walks, different paths one by one. These guys i truly admire and look up to, without them i wouldnt be part of who i am today. They motivate me, inspire me and also keep me on check. My love for them goes deeper then anything i could imagine. I love them w/my whole heart and soul. When one of is pain we all feel the pain together, but we all get through it together. Theres that saying that says, "blood is thicker then water." The bond we all share together is thicker than water and is stronger then 10 gorillas. I am proud to call them my brothers and i am proud to stand by them to fight till the very end. They are my gangstas my thugs, cripts, but most of all they are my guardian angels in disguise! Thank you Lord for not only sending me one big brother but 5 of them instead!

We traveled back to cerritos after leaving the final mission to end our weekend @ hometown buffet. i saw that girl again from last sun. she said ive been starting @ her since last sun. i didnt think i was staring, but oh well. This whole weekend has been such an experience. Its taught me many different things, life lessons that i dont think ill forget. Well its 1am i should get going cuz i gots skool and work tomorrow. Thanks God for taking care of me and the community this past weekend. Thank you for a great weekend that offered me so much! Thank you for these special brothers and sisters whom i love soo much!

"Look in to your heart, you will find there is nothing there to hide. Take me as I am, take my life I would give it all, I would sacrifice..." im done, im out GOd bless!