"Forgiveness is even more necessary for our survival than theirs, not always because they deserve it but because we do..."
That picture above is my cousin cjay, i got that off his lj. haha i guess his sister told him to get into durr. I thought the pic was funny when i first saw it. IT made me laugh so i thought id put on durr. haha i guess it could be something to laugh to start your morning off. haha So i was at the spectrum tonite and i saw this shirt @ hot topic. It said something like, 'your lips are moving yet all i hear is blah blah blah." i thought of robby when i saw that shirt cuz sometimes when i talk or tell stories he does that to me. He'll use hands and start mimicing me and will say blah blah blah. haha its funny durrs another shirt i saw that reminded me of him as well. I forgot what it said though. I keep seeing that west coast choppers thing errwhurr. I wonder what kind of music they play. I wonder if its emo music haha boo to emo music it brain washes people!
Wow summer is almost over for me, two more weeks. ::sigh:: THas me sitting on top of the roof trying to throw myself down haha jk Trying to commit suicide like i did during v2. haha jk that was funny when i did that in v2. I cant wait till v3 and then i can do it again for errone. Well im worn out from today. Those kids i tell ya they can be so OA! I wish kids were more behaved these days. IN today's society younger children have no respect for elders. The way many kids are raised are they can do whatver they hell they want. THen they bring that attitude with them to their skool or daycare of whoever ends up taking care of them. Thus making it ten times harder to discipline the child when the time comes.
I would rather have 1 or 2 kids that are really behaved in my program then 5 kids who dont listen for anything. Im sure a lot of other people feel the same way i do. I realized more and more errday how GOd has placed me in the work environment i am today. One of my parents was talking to me this morning and told me how she's a victim of domestic abuse. She was married to this hispanic guy who made her cook for him all the time. The lady was forced to learn how to make a variety of different spanish dishes to cook for her husband. She was verbally abused as well as emotionally abused. On top of errthang else she became physically abused by her husband. He would hit her i was told i dont know for wha reasons but she he would hit her.
She put up w/it for so long cuz she wanted ot keep her family together. They have 2 kids and so she wanted to keep her family together. Thas how she was raised, do whatever she had to do to keep the family together. After she became physcially abused she realized that she didnt have to go through this torment anymore. I guess they went through a paralegal to go throught the divorce. SO now that the divorce is being fianlized she';s trying to rebuild up her life again. She works @ a noon playground supervisor @ twila reid skool. IT sucks cuz she has no car so she has to take the bus errwhere she goes. Her ex in laws are accusing her of trying to make the dad have nothing to do w/the kids. THough she says that shes not making it her decision shes leaving it up to the judge. What sucks even more is that the family she has out hurr, she has 2 first cousins. One lives in daygo and the other living in oxnard. Bof dont even give her the time of day. She said theyre stuck up and dont even bother to help her out.
I was really moved by her story that she shurred w/me this afternoon. Why i shurr this story? I shurr it cuz its God telling me i need to stay and help provide for families like this. For kids who dont really have anywhurr to go for parents who need some place for their kids to go but cant afford childcare. So it's God telling me to do whatever i can to help these families out. Of course there are hard days, especially like today but praise GOd for them. I juss got remember its not bout me, its about them. God has given me the strength and the motivation to build up a program from scratch and turn into i guess you could say a 'safe-haven' for after skool kids. I pray that GOd continues to strengthen me and helps me to remember its not about me. I pray that GOd continues to work through me to help me become a someone to these kids. Help me to be kind, compassionate, loving and most of all patient.
Each day i dont even go by a lesson plan anymore, i kinda juss let the kids come up w/activites they want to do. Its pretty much all spontaneous stuff. LIke today i was given these plastic hose tubes and beads. I cut small pieces for the kids to make bead hose tube bracelets and necklaces out of. They seemed to really enjoy that. After we went to the market and picked up materials to make our peanut butter fudge. I thought of jeanne as i was melting the chocolate chips into the pot. haha chocofreak she is! So i had to harden the fudge after in the freezer. After i only tasted a little bit but it was the big hit of the day. Errone at city hall as well as the kids seemed to enjoy it! yay! The mini iron chef strikes again!
OH yeah whas a good thing bout having large group of kids i can use them to help me break down the tables and chairs in hall. That works out to my advantage. I had thai spicy chicken and rice today for lunch. MY co worker let me have the rest of her left overs cuz she didnt want it. Oh man it was spicy alright! juss a couple of bites and i had to take a drink. THough it was really good. I didnt get the chance to try the brown rice that came wiht it. Its still in the fridge at work. My other co worker who is the othre rec leader thas almost fifty( dang shes old to be a rec leader i know talk bout senior rec leader now! haha jk) anyway as the past couple days it seems like shes been giving me the cold shoulder. Maybe shes a little upset cuz of summerfest cuz i told her she wasnt suppose to leave her boof until told to or asked.
She expressed intrest of the youf outreach coordinator position but i informed her she needed a ba for the position. She figured 3 years would be coo. THough i told her on the description it said a ba was needed. THen she was worried bout hours and stuff wehn fall comes around. Being the kids @ the park will be going back to skool whurr will that leave her. SO i tried to explain to her errthang will work out. I guess she wants to buy a house and needs more $$, which is understandable. Though i told her that its also important the kids @ the park have stability. Errone they had @ the park ended up leaving them. If she leaves it reflects on our whole park & rec program. Reflects back on my boss and errthang else in my dept. I juss hope she doesnt leave. She said the kids are one of her concerns also. I dont know...please pray for her that she makes a decision to stay. I dont want to have to through the whole finding a new re cleader process again.
I knocked out when i got home and slept till bout 815pm. IT was a nice long nap that i needed. Things have been so busy as of lately i dont give myself a chance to juss chill. IM always going, going, going and w/skool around the corner also its not gonna help. So i think im kinda caught up on rest and errthang else. Tomorrow starts my busy weekend, i have 2 appts one w/one of the otehr scrc core members @ 1230 @ the block and the other one @ 830pm w/my sfc faciliator. Agh i dont see why 2 one on ones are needed. It doesnt make any sense to me. I hope he doesnt ask anymore personal questions. I hope the meeting is nice and short too. I dont want to spend a couple of hours in durr.
I went to the specturm w/leslie tonite. That was fun, though we got off 2 exits early. Robby told me to exit jamboree which was wrong, cuz we ended up @ the tustin market place. Then we hopped back on and i exited jeffery which was still too early. Then errone i tried to call in Sh didnt pick up their phone. The third one we finally got it. Good thing the place closed @ 11pm. So anyway, we juss walked around and talked bout whatevers. This was the first time leslie and i actually hung out by ourselves. haha Though leslie is cool ive watched her grow up into being a mature young lady. I think of her in a way like a younger sister. She told me her ex bf met jl through another friend or something like that. ANyway he told leslie that she looks like jessica alba and that she's really adamant bout her catholic faith. Leslie also said that the first time she heard fr. ray serve mass @ church he sounded like God. hahahaha i thought that was funny. YOu know i wouldve thought the same thing w/fr. ray being tall and his deep loud voice. haha So anyway, all in all it turned out to be a great fun day!
Check out that beautiful sky!
"And everytime i see your face it makes me wanna sing and every time i think about your love it drives me crazy..."im done, im out God bless!
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