Beautiful Disaster
"Accept as blessings the casualties that befall you, assured that nothing happens without God..."
DRAMA FOR YOUR MOMA: I took my girls from the youf action alliance to universal studios today. Note to self, never take a group of teenage girls anywhere. Too bad most of the trip was spent arguing and fighting each other's pride. For the past month, I've really gotten a long w/my new job assignment w/the yaa. Then when I got the approval to take a trip to universal studios, I was excited cuz it was gonna be really fun trip. Apparently it didnt turn out exactly the way I envisioned it in my head. From the moment we stepped into the car all I heard was girl's complaining. Then it continued even at the theme park, this and that. I admit some of the battles could've been easily avoided, but I've done my best to give them all they wanted. Apparently, it wasnt good enough and they wanted more. We came home 2 hours earlier then expected, and they felt the need to complain to my supervisor bout the trip. Oh well, good thing it only kinda backfired in their face.
DISSAPOINTMENT: As if having drama all day w/5 teenage girls wasnt enough, I had to be given a dissapointment. Im not going to go into details bout it, but it juss kinda suprised me coming from this person. The news kinda killed the rest of my day er rather trip. It was kinda like one thing after the other. Yet, God gave me the grace to juss accept for now and continue on w/the rest of the day. It was juss suprising and taken back that someone would make such a comment bout well nevermind, I guess I'll stop dwelling over it.
MISS THEM: Since last friday, my parents have been missing! ha kidding, no they took a trip to yosemite. Its quiet around the house w/o them. No one to greet me hello how was my day when I come home, no one to tell me there's food in the fridge before I go to work. I guess this is what it feels like to live away from your parents, in a sense. I dont know if I'll ever move out ha! Im so attached to my way of living now that whoa moving out would be crazy!
good stuff I found...
LOSS: Dissipation is a mentality. We love, we lose, we learn, we grow, but eventually we reach a turning point in our lives that push us back to realize that life is internal. You can't lose what made you who you are. Some things may be harder to dig out, but effort...real effort...can restore anything. A flame can reignite. A memory can float to surface. We often intertwine the meaning of impossible with the improbable. Don't be so quick to tag an element of your life as gone. Fight to keep afloat the things that time burries away. Life is an onward struggle towards maintaining perspective, but at the end of the day we have to realize that love needs no restoration. It just needs to be remembered.
CHOICE: There are those profound moments where words escape you and silence evokes substantial gratification...and then there are those moments where the stillness of it all knaws at the back of your neck. There are extremes to every situation. Your reaction to one thing can change dramatically with a shift of environment. Surround yourself with positivity. When you underestimate your worth, you overestimate your adversit
NEGATIVE TO POSITIVE: After a day full of negativity, God some how managed to take the sun out. I guess in a sense the drama was good that it happened cuz it allowed me to still make it on time for holy family. It was cool tonite cuz chie and aela came to support also. I love coming there errweek cuz I get so much out of it. Praise God for the Holy Spirit juss filling me up especially on last min. circumstances. Praise God also for the Holy Spirit using them as well to be open. Praise God for aela and chie for praying for me and helping me out. At the end of the day, despite some thorns, beautiful roses still managed to bloom. Thank You Lord.
MEETING JESUS: I met Jesus today through jan michael and francis, who juss inspired me all over again. Well, I went to bjs cuz I thought erorne was going there, but none of the advisors went so it was a little awkward at first. Then some of them decided to pack up and leave cuz it was juss too busy at bjs, on top of that it was the gratuity was goingn ot be killer. So 6 of us decided to go to some place cheaper and faster...jack in the box. It was really cool cuz I got to know some of them better. Sharing our first moments we fell for God, wanting to help out youf more etc. Its funny cuz jan michael totally remind of chris baclig when I see him. In fact he kinda looks like him too. On my way home, I looked up at my cross hanging from my rearview mirror and all I could say was 'thank you.'
You have turned my mourning into dancing...
(even though I wasn't exactly mourning but you get the point)
"And be by your side forever more..."im done, im out God bless!
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