The Man in the Mirror

"When we hear people talk of riches, honors and amusements of the world, let us remember that all things have an end, and let us then say: "My God, I wish for You alone and nothing more..."

NEW LOOK: I updated my whole blogger dashboard thing, blogger once again has updated itself. Rememebr when we all first started blogger and how simple it was? Now it's become all crazy and complex, well not too complex. Along with the blogger new look, I also cut my hair for the winter ha. I was trying to think of something different to do, but nothing came ot mind so I juss did the usual minus the bleach. You know what else has a new look too is the internet explorer and windows media player. With the new internet explorer you can tab up the windows the same way with the firefox. Pretty cool eh?

REFLECTING BACK: Sometimes I like to look back at my old entries and see wha exactly was going on in my life a year ago. Last December was unforgetable, the first youf min. retreat and then the suprise guest speaker. Oh man talk bout one December to remember! Yeah, I remember exactly all the anticipation for the special guest speaker...Yet wha else was memorable was the first youf min. winter retreat. How I was fresh to the advisor group and juss that excitement and passion there was to serve. On top of that I had the best retreat group, we were juss bomb. What sucked was we put one of my other dogs to sleep cuz he was juss suffering, man talked bout hard times. The one thing that stuck out to me as I was reading my old entries was this... WOw...

CLARITY: Through the moments of suffering, it can be so difficult to find God in it. Yet I guess you can't look at the cross and think there was no suffering. With love comes suffering, a mom delivering her baby in a delivery room. I looked at the cross tonite then back down to the blessed sacrament and juss asked a lot of whys. Though he showed me that through the midst of suffering, there is love, I juss have to look a little deeper.It’s difficult to “trust” God when you feel like He has abandoned you. It becomes easier to trust God when we look at just how faithful He has always been to us. It gets harder to trust God when we look at our faithfulness toward Him. The truth is that we abandon God, each and every day, in little and big ways. During tragedies and through suffering, we are far wiser to become more abandoned TO God, than to abandon Him outright. Its like the sacrifice skit, the guy went through it all juss to show her what sacrifice was all about. 'For you I will bear all, live my sacrifice.'

CRAZINESS: Times are changing alright! Last nite I ran into some people I went to skool with from elementary all the way up to high skool. I didnt even recgonize or even realize who they were until the girl came up and gave me a hug. In juss 3 fast years will be my 10 year high skool reunion...dang! I was talking to heif the other nite and this girl whom we use to be real good friends at the daycare is having her baby the day after christmas. The interesting thing bout it all is that after the baby is born her and her bf along with the baby are moving back in w/her parents for a good while. Their wedding is in March too, which is funny how they're doing it all backwards. Interesting the people who you run into and the ones who you use to be friends but no longer keep in contact with. It becomes even more interesting when you hear all the chismiss about them! ha

WEEKEND UPDATE: I started this post last saturday, but ended up getting too tired to finish it. What a busy weekend it's been, I didn't end up going on the youf min. retreat this past weekend. As much as part of me wanted to go, I had a job and responsibility to attend to. On top of that, I didnt want to risk getting snowed in and then not being able to go work on Monday. However, after hearing all the stories I know I'm going to wish I had gone to the retreat. Oh well, I had a great time over the weekend. My Harajuku lovers jacket came in on Friday woOo! I love Harajuku lovers, my goal is to find the other jacket I wanted in a size medium. I dont know why they only carry the bigger sizes. ANyway it's a pretty tight jacket, on top of that I know I dont have to worry about other people having the same thing woOo!

CAROLING: One of the things I love about the holidays besides the late holiday hours is the caroling. I think I mentioned earlier bout listening to christmas carols. Wednesday, some of the youf and I went caroling at this home in fullerton. Despite the fact there was only 5 of us, and we probably sounded horrible it was great. We sang twice in two different dinning rooms, and even though we had no instruments and it was all acapella, the people there really enjoyed it. It was kinda sad cuz it brought back memories of when my lolo was one of those homes for physical therapy. Friday and Saturday nite I went caroling with the young adults, it was fun, they're juss majorly hardcore. When you watch these people smile from the singing, you really start to feel that love and joy of the Christmas spirit. Caroling really does help brighten up someones day!

CHRISTMAS PARTIES: You know the goal was to work out and try to loose weight but with all the christmas parties happening, there's really no point. I figured I'll juss work extra hard during break when I wont be so tired and I'll have a little more time to myself. THe parties all started on Wednesday with the church christmas party, for the volunteers and staff. Good stuff, the part that sucked was juss the cleaning up part. LAter that evening was the young adult one where there was good food and games. There were a couple of new people that came so I'm glad to see that the ministry is growing. Im sure by next year It'll be even bigger. Friday, after work went to Ruby's for her birfday dinner and caroling...more great food! Saturday Religous Ed. Christmas party ate some more, and then that nite I had some more food at donne's house. Yeaaah I can't believe how much I ate this entire weekend...then more parties and food! woOoO!

LIKE OL' TIMES: Saturday Francis I went to chill, I miss hanging out w/that guy. I got really lucky pairing up w/him as my core member last year. Despite the fact we had some rough ends, we always ended up smoothing them out. This guy has a lot of dedication and passion to serve. When we first came together that guy was lost not knowing anything of what service is suppose to be. He came through w/it and the fruits of his projects were always bountiful. ANwyay, we attempted to do the whole mac grill but the wait was forever long!! We waited for almost an hour then ended up deciding to go to donne's to watch the caroling!! FYI, I guess you can make reservations at that restaraunt. I was always under the impression or at least thought you couldn't. Well after donne's we were still hungry and ended up going to albertacos then to his house to eat it there. Good times that nite, felt juss like ol times.

BUSY SUNDAY: Mass was great as always, there seems to be more members this week in youf choir. Fr. Antony's homily was about the invitating to show kindess and compassion juss like Christ to others. After mass went to RCIA christmas party for some good food and games. Micah took some great shots of me by the Christmas tree ha! You should check out my myspace pictures theyre new! haa Took a nap for a little bit then went back to the church to pick up billy. Chilled w/the kids at LBTC took pictures, ate in n out, good times! Dropped off billy at the aiport, saying goodbye at airports are always a sad thing to say goodbye at. Met this guy standing in line and he was on his way back to boston...how funny right? ha Him and his friend were driving to utah and then got into an accident or something, so he's been living at his gfs in daygo for a while. Anyway, on the back brandon and I were juss talking bout sitting in prayer and reflecting. I took him to St. Dominic Savio, oh man I haven't been there in ages! Being there juss brought back soo many memories...made me realized how I really need to do more sitting and reflecting.



Christmas is almost hurr!

"No on else comes close to you, no one makes me feel the way you do..."im done, im out GOd bless!