"Success is the ability to go from one failure to another with no loss of enthusisam..."

Ha im such a fatty, i got fed and ate 3 different times in 3 different communities. No, i didnt even plan on eating that much either. As arch would say, see wha had happened was...haha well i went to my first friday mass and novena for YFC. We had it this month at St. Philomena in carson. Actually, it was kinda going thurr and not seeing LF. Anyway, so we had mass which was great and then ended it w/benediction which was even better. Felt so good to recieve Jesus especially on this new year. So praise GOd i was able to feel his true presence inside of me. Then being able to juss sit and talk to him for a while.

So afterwards we had a great praise & worship session to start off the new year. Gee, i havent had praise & worship in ages. I really felt the spirit moving inside errone that nite. Afterwards the CFC elders brought us food to feed us! yay! IT was crazy errone rushed to the food as if they had never eaten before. It was nice seeing the community again after not seeing them in a while. Had a nice little chit chat w/julie, which is always a pleasure to talk to. I guess there were some yfcers from up norf and some from over in the east. Pretty crrazzzy! SOme of them were gonna go to the yardhouse afterwards, so juile said she was gonna call me.

I called fred to see if he wanted to go w/me, so he came down. As i was waiting for fred, i thought id go back into the church and sit w/Jesus. After all, what a better way to kill time, then to sit w/Jesus. As i walked into the church i was drawn in by this girls most beautiful voice. She was singing some song that was so wow. So as i came in i saw all these youf sitting in front of JEsus on their knees praying. Each one of them took turns going to the mic and shurring their prayer w/Jesus. Then after each prayer the girl would sing a song. It was really peaceful, so as i sat thur praying i was thinking whether or not to invite them to the spirit games.

After they were done i thought id go and find out who they were. The lady who kinda oversees them was really nice to me. Her name was emily, and the group was called the 'alliance of two hearts of Jesus and Mary.' It was a youf group and i dont know exactly whurr theyre established out of. But i guess they come to first friday each month to pray and sing. Afterwards they had some mini snacks and they invited me to eat w/them as i invited them to the spirit games. So that was pretty cool, a new community! haha so thas meal #2

Then as i was waiting for julie to call me bout yardhouse, fred spotted raymond from LF. I figured if there is one lf around, then thurrs gotta be an abundance of them. I walked in that direction, low and behold thurr was a whole community full of LF. THey were helping the nini family decorate the hall for their recpeition taking place the next day. Now thas what i call fellowship! Fred and i figured wed help them out too since we had time to kill. I thought it was real fun helping them and juss bonding w/their community. Charisse ending up ordering buffalo wings and pizza later on. Dang, what a pig i am cuz i ate again! ITs okay, im not on project sexy so i can eat all i want. haha

So i was up in carson till about almost 2am. What was the best part was them having adoration. Errtime i go to adoration and i spend my time thurr its like i dont want ot leave. I have the greatest time thurr and its juss so peaceful. Especially the times lately ive been spending at St. DOminic Savio. I love that church! Praise God for all nite adoration 24/7 cuz thurr are days when oh man you juss totally need it. You can have the worse days and juss being w/Jesus makes up for it all. I love serving God, i love being able to serve in the church and i juss love how ive grown deeper in love in serving Him. Although ive fallen and felt broken into thousands of pieces, He's always been thurr putting them back together again.

AS i was reading and reflecting back on my old journal entries i wrote back in hs, i realized one thing: I was so OA. I felt like what a lot of youf feel commonly today, that no one loves them. Aww kawawa meeee! haha THe world sucks, i dont have this, i dont have that, i got screwed over by such and such. Aww kawawa me! I should juss kill myself and then i wouldnt have any troubles anymore. HA thas totally what i wrote all the time when i was in HS. Juss when things werent going the way i wanted them to.

Funny thing is, i was filled w/so much hate and anger inside of me. Geez, im suprised i didnt go mad! Praise God that He called me pretty much at the right i guess you could say. Kinda fresh right out of HS, He called me by name and asked me to come follow him. He said, 'Jason, I want you to serve me, i want you to minister to my sheep even more then you do now.' Before you knew it, i said 'yes' and one thing led to another and bam hurr i am today. I can pretty much remember the day he called me to serve, it was right after mass on a sun. morning in jan. THough i wonder what id be doing, i wonder my life would be like if i didnt say yes.


What a great day!

"Its a great thing to praise the Lord, its a great thing to praise the Lord, its a great thing to praise the Lord, walking in the light of God..."im done, im out GOd bless!