So It Begins...

"Prayer is to our soul what rain is to the soil. Fertilize the soil ever so richly, it will remain barren unless fed by frequent rains..."

WORKOUT PLAN: Today is where I begin my journey to start loosing some pounds. Yup, I want go down to waist size of 28! haha jk thas gross. Forreal though, Imma try and do wha I can to eat less, eat healthier, and all that stuff. Im really determined to get skinny again like I was when I first met errone three years ago. Boy, those were the good ol days, I never thought Id gain so much weight. I bought a jump rope that has weights on today, so between that and doign some laps around the track, and other additional stuff, hopefully by the new fiscal year I can look at least someone close to near to wha I was before. Here's a new life! ha watch I only get fatter or stay the same! yikes!

NO MORE BAGS: I went back to the docs today and they removed by 5 stitches. It looks pretty sick w/o them in. THe nurse said I scabbed real well, whatever that means. Im juss happy that I can get the foot wet now! yay! Its nice being able to shower and not have to wear a bag over my right foot. You dont know how much of a hassle that was making sure that I wasnt getting my right foot wet. Getting a produce bag taping it all around real tight, then cutting the tape off after I was done in the shower. Its kinda scary wearing that thing at times I felt like I was going to slip and fall. So its still in the healing process, there's still pain every once in a while. Though Im jusss glad its nothing where I cant stand it.

MOM AND ME: Spent the afternoon running errands w/my mom, which was kinda fun. I know Im not home a whole lot, so the times I get to hang out w/her are cool. We went to wal mart and I was going to return the shoes but I totally forgot the receipt in my other wallet oh whY?! Now I gotta go back tomorrow and return the stupid things. Went to smart and final and then to the market. Its always hard to go to a market where youre not use to where everything is. A short trip that was originally planned can turn out to be an hour long one, trying to search for everything. Oh yeah, my mom is on a new project, she;s making these like purses out of jeans. Im telling you she could start a little booth at the swap meet and we'd be rich! haha

LIWANAG: Headed down to irvine tonite for the final liwanag meetingn for the year. I really love that community, you can see the love of Christ through them. THey had a couple of their founders there, gerard and jei. Im sure for them they truly praise God to see all the fruits that have come ouot of the group. To think it started off as something small and yet it bloosomed into something bigger. Jei had some good inspiring words to say but I cant think of it all at the moment. Something bout your smile being evident of Christ's presence. Imma have to ask him to repeat wha he said. Im juss glad and thankful that I've got to know some of these d0pe groups at uci. Uci is like my home away from home.

JOB OPP: So I found this job flier for the diocese of orange today. Its like a part time youth minister type of position. Oh man if I got that job thatd be perfect! One of my second choices! So rob is helping me put together a resume to forward over. Please keep me in your prayers, I would love to have this job! Itd be so ideal cuz I can do all the stuff theyre asking for. Juss thinking bout staying at the city for another summer is aghh! Help! ha I want to get out! I need ot get out!

PROLIFE: Nick Cannon made this song called 'Can I live' its basically speaks out on how he was given a chance to live. His mom was bout to get an abortion but at the last minute changed her mind. I voted for the video to be played on TRL, I think the video and the songs portrays a strong message. Its juss good to see that in the midst of all the secular hip hop, there's someone out there speaking out on strong issues, like abortion facing youngins today. Praise God for using the gifts and talents God has blessed us with to be a light. I know he's not the best hip hop artist out there, but at least he's doing something w/the gifts hes been blessed with. His song is sending out a strong positive message on how abortion is wrong. I can only pray that souls wiil be touched through the song.

Can I Live


[Talking]
Talking Ma
I know the situation is personal,
but it something that has to be told
as I was making this beat
you was all I could think about;
you heard my voice

[Verse 1]
Yeah Just think Just Think
what if you could Just
Just blink your self away..
Just Just wait just pause for a second
Let me plead my case
Its the late 70's Huh
You seventeen huh
and having me that will ruin everything huh
its alot of angels waiting for their wings
you see me in your sleep, so you can't kill your dreams
300 dollars that's the price of living, what?

Mommy, I dont like this clinic
hopefully you'll make the right decision
and don't go though with the Knife Decision
but it hard to make the right move
when you in high school
how you have to work all day and take night school
hopping off da bus when the rain is pouring
What you want morning sickness or the sickness of mourning?

[Chorus]
I Will Always Be a part of you
Trust Your Soul Know His Heart Is True
If I Could Talk I Would Say To You
CAN I LIVE
CAN I LIVE
I Will Always Be a part of you
Trust Your Soul Know His Heart Is True
If I Could Talk I Would Say To You
CAN I LIVE
CAN I LIVE
[Verse 2]

I am a child of the King
ain't no need to go fear me
and i see the flowing tears so know that you hear me
when i move in your womb that's me being scaring
cause who knows where my future holds

yo the truth be told you ain't told a soul
yo you ain't even showing I just 2 moths old
through your clothes try to hide me, deny
me went up 3 sizes
your pride got you lying saying ain't nothing but a migraine
it ain't surprising you not trying to be in WIC food lines

your friends look at you funny but look at you mommy
thats a life inside you, look at your tummy
what is becoming ma I am Oprah bound
you can tell he's a star from the Ultrasound
Our Sprits Connected Doors Open Now
Nothing But Love And Respect Thanks For Holding Me Down She Let Me Live...[Chorus]
I Will Always Be a part of you
Trust Your Soul Know His Heart Is True

If I Could Talk I Would Say To You
CAN I LIVE
CAN I LIVE
I Will Always Be a part of you
Trust Your Soul Know His Heart Is True
If I Could Talk I Would Say To You
CAN I LIVE
CAN I LIVE[Repeat 2]

[Talking]

Its uplifting for real y'all
I ain't passing no judgement
ain't making no decisions
I am just telling ya'll my story
my love life
I love my mother for giving me life
we all need to appreciate life
a strong women that had to make a sacrifice
Thanks for listening
Thanks for listening
Mama thanks for listening

Agh back to work tomorrow...

"I will celebrate sing unto the Lord a new song..." im done, im out GOd bless!