Count Them All..

"If we are facing in the right direction, all we have to do is keep on walking..."

HOW: I have a friend whos kinda in a difficult situation at the moment. One of his closet homies, has been staying at his house for bout 2 months now. Im not exactly sure why he's staying there again something bout his dad getting remarried. His parents didnt kcik him out or anything, I think he juss chose not to stay w/his dad cuz he disagrees w/him. So my friends at the point, where's real irritated w/the whole thing and getting real impatient w/the guy. Which I understand, I'd miss living a private life too. On top of that, its not fair to my friends parents either, to pay for food and utilities for the guy. Then he doesn't make it a point to really help out around the house, unless told to do something. I told my friend, he needs to get the guy out of the house, 2 months is a lot! Talking bout cramping up your style...sheesssh! Though, that has to be hard to let a homie know that well you gotta go...

BLESSINGS: I realized that life is too short to be all kawawa me all the time. Of course, we go through our personal trials and struggles. And of course, suffering does suck sometimes. However, God always gives us the grace to bear and to carry it. It's sad when you have these real emo people who dont appreciate the stuff that they have. I mean honestly, there's a lot more to life then letting certain thigns get to you. Appreciate the breath of life God has given you for today. Smile cuz youre a sunflower too, in GOd's eyes at least hahah

JOB SEARCH: Im trying to hook one of my student's brother up w/a job at hte city. Were hiring for intern rec leader. Hopefully it works out it's cool to work w/people you kinda already know. We'll see how it all work out in the end. I went to the skool district my mom works at and well the only thing theyre hiring for is buss drivers. Oh why?! Agh!!! doesnt anyone need an instructional aid some place?!! I feel so trapped at teh city, it feels like I cant go anywhurr until I find another job, like imma be thurr forever! I really want to find another job!

CHEESECAKEFACTORY: Went to lunch yesterday w/fr. paul, took him to the cheesecake factory in brea. He really liked the place, he had this shepherds pie he didnt realize the portioon was gonna be so big. I had the shrimp scampi, which I wished I had gotten some else instead. Anyway, so he was telling me a story of this saint I think her name was St. Raphaela. Well she started an order called the Sacred heart something. She was able to get her sister and her sister's friend to join in the community. St. Raphaela since she started the community, was the Mother General. The community ended up growing and growing, bringing in more people. SOmething happened and the sister and friend, sent St. Raphaela over somewhere and had her clean corridors till she died. Yet she was silent the whole time, until death. Never complained or anything, and later JPII canonized her a Saint. Wow, such humility! St. Raphaela pray for us...

GROOVY: After lunch, I took him out and we walked around the brea mall for a little bit. He's so funny cuz as we passed by a & f, he wanted to go inside and listen to the music. So we went inside and he goes this is real groovy place! haha Then we went to a & e and he said the same thing wow this is another groovy place. It was so funny it was like taking someone out whos been freezed up, away from the world. He had a good time, juss being he doesnt really get out too often. Even though he'll be at a different parish, its good to know he wont be too far, he'll still be in the diocese.

BJS: Went to bjs w/fred and jei last nite, it was jam packed there! It took us a while to get a seat in the bar area. I think errone was done w/finals already, so needed some good food, and company to kick off the memorial day weekend with. Im so glad that I'm past the 21 and over limit already. Before it felt like forever until I was gonna be 21. Now that I am well over 21 I can do all the fun stuff I couldnt do before yay! Thas why I'm soo excited for this weekend! woOoo!

PHATTY: I was talking to rob the other day bout food and stuff. He told me I need to start eating healthier cuz it's becoming more obvious that I've gained a lot of weight. Unfortunately, he's right now ha in all my pics I've taken over the past year, you can totally see my fatiness. Ahh I remember the days when I was skinny, when i was able to run around w/the kids on the playground at the daycare. Oh man...whatever happen to me, how'd I end up getting so fat! ONce my foot is all healed up then imma start up a work out plan like kanyeeezy. Agh remember project sexy?! Hopefully by summer I can be slime again...36 isnt that big! hahahaha!

MIXED UP: It was so funny I was talking ot banne on wed. and we were juss catching up. I told her I had gone to UCI's pcn, and she asked wha was the story line about. So I began to think, trying to remember wha theirs was about. Then I said, oh well its bout this kid who comes in from the PI and tries to be accepted by his peers. Banne goes to me, 'wait...that was alaine's pcn! I was there for that, remember we went together!' hahahahah Oh maan then I realized I got them all mixed up! haha I told her I had gone to one too many pcns this year, I must've gotten all the story lines mixed up! haha It was fun real funny!

VEGAS BABY: Im so excited for this weekend, it's been a couple of years since I've last gone to vegas. Ever since I turned 21, I havent gone w/friends to vegas so I'm hyped that I can chill at the bars, walk around on the floor, play at the tables, go to the clubs, and all that stuff! I wish I was there for the whole weekend, but one day there is better than none. Let's hope that I win it real big cuz lola needs a new purr of shoes! Ive been seeing a lot of vegas on tv, so Im getting even more excited to go. Juss how watching fity first dates before hawaii, got me really hyped to go to hawaii!

GRATEFUL: One thing I am extremely grateful is my parents, who never cease to support me time and time again. Its great that they're so lenient on me when it comes to letting me on small weekend trips, week long vacations, and other stuff to that matter. Probably cuz they know my friends well enough that they trust them and me. I am blessed to have such supportive parents who are always there to help, support, and guide me. Its juss kinda funny we tend not to see that until we get older and realize all the junk that have to go through.

THROUGH THE FIRE: Oh man, so at around like 730ish last nite I was hearing some weird noises. It honestly sounded like someone being kidnapped or hurt. It was pretty trippy, so then I walk outside to check things out. Well I go out and I see at the end of the block and I see something bright. I go down and I see its a fire, someone lit this type of advil bottle on fire. It wasnt anything real big but it was still a fire never the less. I walked back home and then I got paranoid cuz I heard kids playing in the field. I took a cup of water then went back over to the fire and poured it over. Then I heard the kids calling for me, it sounded like they were climbing over the fence, but I couldnt tell cuz I couldnt see. Then I wanted to run cuz I got skurred, but then I didnt want to ruin my twentys I was wearing, ha so I juss walked real fast back home.

Look out weekend cuz here I come...

"And I wish I never met her..."im done, im out GOd bless!