Capture The Moment

"It's ironic how the things you thought you never wanted evolve into pieces of your life you can't live without..."

GROWING UP: My aunt and I were talking today on how when you were kid you hated to take naps, you hated to stay home, all you wanted to do was quickly grow up. Ha yet now that you're grown up, you only wish you were younger again. Taking naps seem rare now a days with the busy schedules we all lead, staying home is rare with obligations to be here and there. Each day comes with a different set of responsiblities, that sometimes make the days seem so endless. Praise God for faith that keeps me sane at least, something I can constantly rely on to keep me going. THings quickly change before your own eyes, with an instant the day is already gone, the hour has passed, the minute can't be given. I dont know what I am getting at, Im juss tired...

NEW TOY: I bought a new toy today, something I've been wanting for a while. I got a new digicam yay! So I changed my mind and ended up getting the other sony, the flat kind. It's pretty cool, I cant wait to use it now! I juss have to read up on the manual to find out wha certain things mean and wha not. Now I can give back rob his old one yay cuz I have a new one yay! Thanks friend for letting me yours on a interim basis! I gotta either order or find a case for the camera, cuz I feel like imma drop it. It has this tight loading dock you can place it on, when it's not being used. I love getting new toys!

EAT CRABS: Joe's crab shack was real good last nite! Went there w/the familia to celebrate my bifday. Im glad we went early cuz it started to get real packed later on that nite. I couldnt decide whether I wanted asia buffet or joe's. I was craving for something that had seafood and crabs, yet wasnt too expensive. Im glad I went to joes cuz I love watching them do all those coreographed dances. Then they freakin put me in this pirate costume and sang this pirate birfday song to me. They dont give you any free mini dessert though, which kinda sucks. Most places bring you out a small something something and let you blow out the candles and all that jazz. Anyway, I juss love joe's crab shack!

BONDFIRE: Decided last minute after dinner to go to SOL's annual summer bonfire. I miss having bonfires on the beach, thas so part of the whole summer experience. Being it was $10 for parking, and there was no point for me ot pay (since I was only gonna be there like 2 hrs.) I found this good spot inbetween two cars, which meant I had to parallel park, which I didnt do too bad doing. Usually I get so tired and impatient of trying to parallel park, I end up juss looking for something else. The bonfire was fun though, the skits, the fellowship, the company, I havent really gone and visited other communites in a while. It felt good...bonfires are always a way to get to know people and bond w/them.

INTERESTING STUFF: I dont know if you ever go or come across juss random people's blogs and read them. I think by reading someones myspace comments or their blogs, you can probaby get a good feel on their personality. Who they are, what they're into, what they dont like all that stuff. Anyway, I came across this guys xanga and he had interesting perspective or perception of love. Its more less a definition of his own how he defines love now a days. Read for yourself, below.

ON LOVE: Many people expect love to be their salvation from the complications of reality. The thing is though, love is an enigma of it's own. Love won't pick you up from shallow water. The water level only rises and your pressure to stay afloat condenses with the weight of another. Love is a weight of cohesion, explicit vulnerablity, dimensional authenticity...a crude dissection inward. It's something that begins narrowly and expands outward from the healing of its bruises. Don't drown yourself with fantasies of harmony. Simplicity gets lost at the surface. If you want something deeper, acknowledge that we are all flawed people. When you love someone enough to allow them to hate yourself as much as you do sometimes, you're there. You want love? Embrace the chaos that comes with it and learn to love that.

OPPOSITES: So while saving fred's seat the other nite at krikorian I ran into this guy who I had confirmation class with. He was sitting one seat over and he goes to me, 'your name wouldnt by any chance be jason?' I said yeah why? THen he told me we were in confirmation together, and he doesnt know if I remember him. I barely recognized the guy, so we were kinda sittng there carryin a small akward convo. I found it funny cuz I always run into my old students but never people I had a class with. Speaking of students, it was weird cuz sat. morning I was on myspace and I was looking at one of my old student's profile. I thought to myself, i wonder how he's doing cuz i havent seen him online n a while. Then later that nite he calls me asking me if I could pick him up from knotts. Being I was on my way home I picked him up. It felt like I was picking up my own son haha oh yeah the fridays at knotts is open now yay!

i want to write more but im soooo tired!

"Even if she promises me the world..."'im done, im out GOd bless!