"Cease to your own happiness, do away with your anger..."

THe Miracle of love. The more we love the more we desire to love and our capacity for love is increased. Those who selfishly decide to ignore others, are locked within themselves. They lose the desire to love and end up in utter loneliness. Not showing love destroys the capacity for love. Love is a feeling that grows and multiplies when given away. The more we give away, the more we have.The more we give of ourselves, the more we have to give away. The spirit has the capacity to be multiplied and to grow by giving itself. Its richness and creative power generates happiness and relationship.

When i was in 'exile' it sucked hard. I felt bad for the hurt i had caused, for the wrong that i had done. Even though i dont understand why i had done it. Even though i gave into the devil's wants that horrible evening, there was a reason why me, Ja$on Fisher had to go through it. There was also a reason why my fellow brothers especially one of them had to go through it too.

I apologized to all three of my brothers for the hurt i had caused. For the pain in their hearts, i knew though they were still angry with me. I felt it inside their hearts that's why the pain for me was ten times worse. I was angry too that though they said i was forgiven there was still anger inside of them. I felt as if i was forgiven but yet there was strings attached with it. I was sorry for what i had done, i knew i had done wrong i said my part. More than anything i wanted to be forgiven whole heartedly. I asked myself, 'why am i not being forgiven uncondtionally?'

Day after day i prayed, i prayed for the gift of love to open into their hearts. To accept me for who i was and to love me with no strings attatched. May 7, that evening, i saw a king rise up. HE realized that hate in his heart would only consume him too. He realized that forgiving means accepting. Accepting the person for who they are and not obliging them to anything in return. God doesn't do that to us, He doesn't say im only going to forgive you for part of your sins. No, he said im forgiving you for errthang.

A king realized that things must happen to him, so that things may happen in him so that things may happen through him. Through a king's reflection of unconditional love, relationships that i thought would be lost forever, came back to life. A king now rises up to the challenge of being reflection to errone else he comes in contact with. A job that isnt easy to do and is meant only for the strong. One must have an open mind and an open heart for many times blows will be taken agaisnt him. THough the king knows what he has to do and will not the gift of love be broken. Two simple words that meant a lot to me today..."im hurr."

We are called to love everyone (family, friends, enemies…even your school janitor) with this sacrificial, unconditional love. The foundation of every relationship has to be love, freely given, with no strings attached. Love that is total, with nothing held back, no reservation or self-protection. Love that is faithful, true to the other person, honoring them and their dignity as a human being. Love that is fruitful, giving life to the other person, never taking away.

Remember we are all part of that same body of Christ. So if one part is hurting, then we are hurting as well. OUr battle is not with the flesh, but with the devil himself. We must have a clean heart to be able to see: no jealousy, anger, contention, and especially no uncharitableness. Allow Jesus today to live his passion, love, and humility in us, praying with us, being with us, sanctifying through us. Every act of love is a work of peace, no matter how small...Let us run back to the arms of love w/open arms, for thas the way Jesus waits for us.

"There are many kinds of alms giving of which helps us obtain pardon for our sins; But none is greater then that by which we forgive from our heart a sin that someone has committed agaisnt us..." St. Augustine


So much to do, so little time...

"Holding me close, holding me still, in your arms of love..."im done, im out God bless!