Hanging By A Moment

"Impossible is a big word thrown around by small men who find it easier to live in a world they've been given rather than explore the power they have to change it. Impossible is not a fact, it's an opinon. Impossible is nothing..."

START: Wow, what a week it has been, actually wha a weekend its been. I dont even know where to start right now. I have so much in my head going on that I feel like I'm blastin holes in the midnight. Okay, so if this entry seems a little emo juss bare w/me, I've got a lot going on in my mind. So where to begin hmm well for starters I juss like to wish my peebs a very special birfday. I know I posted her pic on my last entry, but didnt a get a chance to talk bout how cool she is. She's a great person w/a great personality, incredibly funny and easy going. Next time you see her, tell her she's one cool person! Hope you had a great birfday peEbs!

CONDITION: I feel hmm in a sense lost right now. Dont know where to exactly go and wha to exactly do. Well God closed another door for me yesterday. It was something that I've asked others to pray for and something I've been praying really hard for. Yet, I guess right now its not His will. When I found yesterday I was real upset. YOu know when you there's a real desire in your heart for something. Then you find out you can't get it, well it sucks. It makes you have a difficult time understanding God's will in all this is. Two get to slammed doors in the same week, two things I had my heart set on denied. Ahhh! So yesterday I sat there confused, upset, angry aghh all that. Basically I felt stupid and dumb, I still kinda feel that way. Oh why?!

SOLUTION: At the same time, I must admit its a wake up call for me. To push harder at some of the things I've been slacking off in. I know God is the ultimate provider and maybe thurrs something greater in store? Who knows...though I cant seem to let go of well wha happened. Guess it time to rethink things out, reorganize my priorities, set things straight, and pick up them pieces and glue them back together again.

WANT: I want to get away, go on a vacation for a while. Get away from all this stuff and juss ease my mind. One of my favorite pics from hawaii. Totally describes the mood, real chill, relaxed ahhh I miss it. Vacation is always a great temporary stress reliever, helps you forget bout errthang else thas going in your life. The only problem w/vacations is that they're only temporary and once its over...ha well as soul2soul once sang, 'back to life, back to reality.'


Hawaii

POSITIVES: I couldnt leave this entry w/o talking bout the positives from this weekend at least. Obviously, my kids made thurr first communion last sat. I know I already talked bout that, but I'mma talk bout it again. They said on thursday, they felt accomplished and happy. Praise God cuz it is an accomplishment, a big one on thurr continuous journey of faith. Erryurr its a different set of personalities and struggles that I get. Though in the end, I know its all worf it. Sasha's kids want her for next yurr, ha they dont like me cuz errtimes I sub for her class I make them think. Sorry, thas juss the way I teach the faith. Thas wha life is about thinking and analyzing things. Making decisions based on thought rather than emotions.

1st Communion


kids II

THE EXCITEMENT: After 4 yurrs of a good portion of these kids, they made it! I felt so proud and so accomplished. They look really, really good, and I praise God for each and errone of them. I praise God for giving me the experience to be thur shepherd and guide(on a temporary basis at least). Now the hard purrt is gonna be letting go, knowing they're off. During the bishop's homily, he left them w/3 challenges. #1) to be the face of Christ to those they come across. #2) to get involved w/thurr parish community in some way. #3) To lead others back to the church. It was great to see leslie thurr showing her support. Wow, as of tuesday, its bye, bye, bye.


confirmation


kids

POST PARTY: A couple of my kids invited me to thurr confirmation post party shin dig. I was kinda getting frustrated w/some of them before mass even sturrted! How sad is that! ha I called them all the nite before to be on time, no later than 9am. Agh, I hate it when people arent on time, especially when it comes to something big. Then some of them were already giving me attitude after mass was over in the hall. I looked at leslie and I said, 'one cross that we bear.' She laughed and replied back ot me, 'one love that we share...' haha Anyway, so I went and it was cool. I had to sing freakin magic mic oh why?!


the guys


some moe

CONCLUSION: Despite the closed door on saturday, the weekend was nice. Before I forget, thank you Mama Mary for always praying and being that loving example of obedience. Please continue to guide all of us, lead us closer to your sons most sacred heart. Protect us and continue to intercede on our behalves. Hail Mary full of grace...Saturday nite was a great way to take my mind of things. Praise God for juss being able to chill w/the peeps again. Praise God for heif, whos always thurr when I need her. Saw Kingdom of heaven on friday nite, it was good. I still need to see House of Wax, I heard it was good.

SIDENOTE: I got back into reading my St. Catherine of Siena bio book. Wow, I didnt realize how much she had done for the church. How much suffering she went through and all the drama going on w/the church during her final days. She was thurr during the whole schism when the church had 2 popes. Thas stuff is crazy! Interesting book, I suggest you read bout her. Especially the suffering she offered up during her final days. St. Catherine of Siena pray for us...

1 week till surgery


"Be still my heart..."im done, im out God bless!