Starting Fresh

"Things come and go but it all starts and ends with family..."

REALIZATIONS: Its funny how a tragedy can open your eyes to see a whole new perspective on different things. These past 5 days have felt like a month for me, often times Id find myself figuring out what day it was. Then coming to grasp thinking wow its only wed. things haven't completly sunk in for me. Tomorrow will be a week since his passing and it feels like he's still here at times. As I wsa going through my day today and Id look at the clock and think 'oh my gosh at this time he was already in the hospital.' I think tragedy can be seen as a blessing in disguise as well. The past 5 days have allowed my family to come closer, at least my cousins and I. Despite their own lifestyle they lead, I've learned to accept it. Even though I may exactly agree w/what they do, I still love them cuz they are my family.

PICKING UP: With errthang thas happened, like I was telling heif today, where do you pick up all the pieces? With life coming back to normal, its like you're lost. All my family frmo out of state left today. It was kinda sad cuz I enjoyed seeing them and having them around. On top of that I really odnt know when is the text time I'll see them. The thing bout the whole situation is we anticipated it to happen, but never expected to as soon as it has. It makes me wonder now if the hospital never moved up to 2nd floor, would he still be here? I believe so, I think he would've been able to fight this one and come out of it. However, maybe it wouldve been even harder for him this time around. There are those moments where you reflect back and you cant help but to have a tear in your eye. I look at the pictures and when I see them it doesnt feel real. I know though he's happier where he is, and although we miss him dearly here, he always out there looking out for us. Praise God for family.



i like that song burn by christian bautista

"Sunshine without rainy days..."im done, im out GOd bless!