"The devil doesn't fear austerity but holy obedience..."

I really praise God for this beautiful soul hurr in this pic. I really praise God for her cuz she helps me out w/so much. Its so crazy how GOd had brought the two of us together, to help start up the spirit games. Through working together, i have come to learn so much. Charisse is d0pe, oh man whenever we talk we always have the longest convos. I guess thas wha happens when you get two people who talk a lot together. I mean geez i dont think thurrs a day that goes by whurr we dont communicate w/one another. Shes d0pe cuz she keeps it real, almost too real sometimes...haha HEr sense of humor is juss off the heezy. She understands things from a whole new perspective. Its great to know i can really depend on this wonderful saint in the making. The best part is when the times that i cant get myself to pray, or the times when i'm struggling the most, she's right thurr at my side praying for me. Thank You Lord for this sister who always shurrs your love with me.

Had a great lunch today! Jay da banker and i had gone to red lobster for fish friday! yay, i had this really good lobster and shrimp pasta! OoOh it was the greatest, it made me crave for mandalay bay and rio seafood buffet from vegas. I can taste that sucluant shrimp in my mouf, ooH i cant wait for v3!! Now that im 21 i can chill w/the big crew now, no more arcades for me! haha Yum! i think the best part of vegas are the buffets that are way tasty and good prices too! oH yeah! v2 was pretty fun, well actually it was a lot of fun. Especially during the curr rides, thas when you get ot bond w/errone! Once errone is finished w/'project maui,' theyre so gonna be on 'project put it all back.' So i guess its actually only, 'project temporary.'

I was a bit frustrated earlier in the afternoon, but instead of soakng in anger i had went to the blessed sacrament. Fr. told me the reason im so frustrated is cuz im not meditating. Which makes a lot of sense. Within this past week, God has sent me a lot of crosses, wow it juss seems like errlent gets hurrder. Not hurdd has in giving in to what i gave up, but hurrd as far the trials sent my way. But...Praise God for them cuz they help me grow to become a better christian. Fr. Paul told me, 'God never gives you anymore then what you can handle.' So as i thought of that, i started to think, 'Gosh God you really think i can get through this huh?!' And He answers back, 'Yes with my grace and my spirit.' ITs obviously His way of saying, 'hey kid, dont doubt me, i got yo back on this one.' Along the way, He puts people in your path, to let you know, you will never walk alone. I love it!

I really like how Fr. Paul says mass, you know he tells the people when praying, 'pray for GOd's concerns for you. Not wha you want of God, but what He wants from you.' How often do we really take the time to ask, 'What do you want me to do Lord God?' Its always, 'Want, want, want, want' When talking w/Fr. Paul on thurs. he goes watch me. He's sitting down facing the altar and he goes, 'Oh GOd, i have work tomorrow. Oh GOd im tired. Oh God i need money. Oh God can you send me money?' He told me that's not praying. I started to laugh cuz i said oh man thas so like me Father. How often will i sit and ask or complain to God! He told me prayer is submitting yourself to GOd's will. Tell God that youre have mercy on you for being such a wretched sinner. Let your will be done, not mine.

So i guess in a sense, Fr. Paul has taken on the role of being spiritual director for now. Him being thurr for me REALLY helped out a lot. Its great to know he has offered his services to help me. He told me that he's not a lot of responsibilities like the other priests. Which makes it great he's not so busy! I really reccommend you talk to him if you need advice or spiritual help. Praise God for priests that really reflect God's love. Sometimes it can be so hard to find the right priest you feel comfortable talking to. I love it more!

Java and Jams at St. Paul of the Cross was great! It was tight St. Lucy's came out and supported. It was like ol times seeing a full ensemble of music min. up thurr. It also was a great way to look forward to SH cafe 04. The blended drinks were good, the kids had a great time it seemed like. Performances hurr and thurr, i like the 'thank you' song. Except i kinda made up my own verses to the song. I loved Pops' freestyle battle rap last nite too, wow! ANyway, so i started to sing, 'Thank you for showing love on my blog. Thank You for the lobster on my plate. haha Good times, Good times! Afterwurrds we prayed over banne, and it felt soo good. Its been too long since ive actually prayed like that. Juss felt like the wings of the dove wrap its wings around me, as i was praying. Wow, great times!


Liwanag Spirit Rally today!

"From age to age and heart to heart..."im done, im out God bless!