"WHat a man sows, that shall he and his relations reap..."

Another busy day in the world of isda! Met up w/randell this morning and the bizlock and did our business deal. Then we juss walked around the block and then ate lunch at carl's jr. Good stuff, ahh yes i love it! That guy is one d0pe guy, i shurred w/him the 'God's lay away plan.' We were talking bout how being in a community is a blessing. Then talked bout how we got to whurr we are today in our walks. Praise God for good conversations w/d0pe people. Halloween event went really well tonite, im exhausted mang! I had a game called, 'guess the ooze.' I put together 3 different buckets full of mixed food. ONe bucket i had rice w/cinnamon drops and ketuchup mixed in. Then in the other i had graham crackers, top ramen noodles, cheese mixed w/italian dressing. The last one had pasta noodles, choco chips and milk. THye had to dip their hand in durr and guess wha was inside w/o looking in. Haha gross stuff mang!

Alright, i read another cool story that i feel compelled to shurr w/errone. This one was found in the 'on love.' Its called, 'Promises Kept.'

My Father was not a sentimental man. I dont remember him ever 'ooohing' or 'ahhing' over anything i did as a child. Don't get me wrong; i knew my dad loved me, but getting all mushy-yed was not his thing. He showed me love in other ways.

I always believed that my parents had a good marriage, but just before i turned sixteen my belief was sorely tested. My father, who used to share in the chores around the house, gradually started to become despondent. From the time he came home from his job at the factory to the time he went to bed, he hardly spoke a word to any of us. The strain on their relationship was obvious. However, i was not prepared for the day mom told us kids that dad decided to leave. I was stunned. It was something i never thought possible. I went totally numb and pretended like it wasnt happening until it actually came time for him to leave.

The night before my dad left, i stayed up in my room for a long time. I prayed and cried. I wrote him a long letter. I told him how much i loved him and how much i would miss him. As i folded the letter, i stuck in a picture of me with a saying i had heard: "Anyone can be a father, but it takes someone special to be a daddy." Early the next morning, before my dad left, i sneaked out to his car and slipped my letter into one of his bags.

Two weeks went by with hardly a word from him. Then one afternoon i came home from school to find my mom sitting at the dining-room table. I could see she had been crying. She told me dad had been over and that they had talked for a long time. They decided there were things they were willing ot change-and they decided their marriage was worth saving. Then she looked at me.

'Kristi, dad told me you wrote him a letter. Can i ask what you wrote to him?' I mumbled a few words and shurgged. Mom continued, 'Well, he said that when he read your letter, it made him cry. It meant a lot to him. Ive hardly ever seen your dad cry. After he read your letter, he called to ask if he could come over to talk. Whatever you said really made a difference to him.'

A few days later my dad was back, this time to stay. We never talked bout the letter. Over the next sixteen years, my siblings and i witnessed one of the truly 'great' marriages. Their love grew stronger every day, and my heart swelled with pride as i saw them grow closer together. When mom and dad received the news that dad's heart was rapidly deteriorating, they were hand-in-hand throughout the ordeal.

After dad's death, we had unpleasant task of going through his things. I opted to run errands so i wouldnt have to be there while most of his things were divided and boxed up. When i got back my brother said, 'Kristi, mom said to give this to you. She said you would know what it meant.' My brother was holding the picture i had given dad that day. My unsentimental dad, who never let his emotions get the best of him, my dad, who almost never outwardly showed his love for me, had kept the one thing that meant so much to both of us. I sat down and the tears began to flow as i realized what i had meant to him. Mom told me dad had kept both the picture and the letter his whole life.

I have a box in my house that i call the 'Dad box.' IN it are things that remind me of my dad. I pull that picture out every once in a while and remember. I remember a promise made many years ago between a young man and his bride on their wedding day, and i remember the unspoken promise made between a father and his daughter-a promise kept.

Wow isnt that story juss d0peness, now thas what marriage is all about. Sticking by each other in the good times and bad. Keeping true to the vows of that special sacrament we call...matrimony. I looooooooooove it!

"I, ________, take you ______, for my wife/husband, to have and to hold, from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, until death do us part."

"If I speak in human and angelic tongues but do not have love, I am a resounding gong or a clashing cymbal. And if I have the gift of prophecy and comprehend all mysteries and all knowledge; if I have all faith so as to move mountains but do not have love, I am nothing.
If I give away everything I own, and if I hand my body over so that I may boast but do not have love, I gain nothing. Love is patient, love is kind. It is not jealous, (love) is not pompous, it is not inflated, it is not rude, it does not seek its own interests, it is not quick-tempered, it does not brood over injury, it does not rejoice over wrongdoing but rejoices with the truth. It bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails. If there are prophecies, they will be brought to nothing; if tongues, they will cease; if knowledge, it will be brought to nothing. For we know partially and we prophesy partially, but when the perfect comes, the partial will pass away. When I was a child, I used to talk as a child, think as a child, reason as a child; when I became a man, I put aside childish things. At present we see indistinctly, as in a mirror, but then face to face. At present I know partially; then I shall know fully, as I am fully known. So faith, hope, love remain, these three; but the greatest of these is love."


Let's get skurry tonite!

"So take my hand and hold on tight and we'll get there this I swear..."im done, im out GOd bless!

"Eternity. It is the sea mingles with the sun..."

Alright, alright, alright, alright, alright! My day was a long yet difficult one, praise God though. Took Jennif w/me tonite to yfc and was juss oodles of fun! She met all the coo peeps that i was able to meet a long time ago. Then we went to in n out and ate, then we were dancing in the curr to this like ol skool techno music i guess you could say. haha it was lots of fun, we were able to catch up. I remember that one time when reirich said to me online, 'catch up ketchup' it was funny cuz it was so random too. Speaking of the fellow, i saw a reirich look a like at mass on sun. Craziness i tell ya! Wel lthat bout sums up my day, i read another d0pe story that im going to shurr w/yall. On top of that, the author of this particular story is catholic.

The Joy of Easter
Eight years have passed since the day i pulled into the driveway of our family home to find my life forever changed. I looked up to see our seveenteen-year-old son writhing in excruciating pain in our front yard. He was so incapacitated, he was unable to tell me what was the matter.
Once at the hospital, he was diagnosed with an extremely rare and deadly cancer called 'Burkitt's lymphoma.'

Arrangements were quickly made to fly him south to vancouver general hospital where he could receieve the care he needed. On thanksgiving day our family gathered together and prayed in the hospital chapel for courage and strength. Later that nite, my son and i boarded the air ambulance. Looking out the small window, i could see the darkening blue sky. For a moment the beauty spared me from the fear and pain i was feeling.

Then the darkness of the night sky was upon us, and everything was suddenly silent. I remembered Father Forde once saying that we couldnt find God in nature, and at that present moment i experienced just that. I felt God's presence. It was at tthat moment that i was able to surrender our difficult journey into God's hands.

When we arrived, the medical staff were ready and waiting, and within minutres i was told that he would not live to see the morning. I asked them to please do what they could for his pain, then i softly said, "Only God knows when someone is going to die." Judging from the looks on their faces, i was sure they all thought i was some religous nut.

Morning arrived, and he had made it through the nite. Days and then weeks of radiation and chemo followed. Gradually, the cancer was forced into remission. A bone-marrow transplant was his only hope, and miraculously both his older sister and younger brother were perfect matches. Soon healthy bone marrow was flowing into his depleted body.
The transplant was only a temp. success, however, and all too soon the cancer came back with deadly force. Once again, we were told that there was no chance of survival, and this time we knew it was true.

That evening in the darkness of his hospital room, my son bravely asked, "Wha will it be like to be dead?" I didnt know what to say. I felt so unsure. I tried to be honest and tell him what i felt or believed. I told him how each day i was glad to be alive, that i awlays looked forward to going to heaven, and now he would be there to greet me when i arrived. We could not talk anymore. OUr words were choked by sobbing tears, but words werent really necessary. Death was no longeer our enemy. After talking about it and praying, it all took on a different meaning. It was the start of a new journey, from life to death, to eternity and to God.

The following days were spent planning his funeral,which he called his 'going away party.' He had very specifici requests for this event, down to wanting balloons at his funeral. I told him that i had my doubts as to balloons, but he said, 'Ask Fr. Forde.' He'll let us have them.'
He wanted to be cremaed and have his ashes scattered at his favorite places. He wanted a small wooden cross overlooking the ocean at his grandparents' home in Nova Scotia that said, "Peace is seeing a susnet and knowing who to thank." I had my misgivings, but he said, "Mom, just do it. God will understand."

He was quickly slipping away from us. He had been fed by IV for months now and had waited patiently for the day he could eat pizza again. I lost control and screamed that even the worse criminal on death row gets his choice of a last meal, and my son couldnt even have pizza! I heard his soft voice say, 'Mom, i had Holy Communion this morning. I have all the food i need.' I knew at that moment that all our prayers were being heard. He was no longer afraid to die, and i was no longer afraid to elt him go. He had surrendered himself to God.

He died in my arms on Ash Wednesday. His last words were, 'MOm, it is a beautiful day to die."
His funeral was a celebration of life. THe chuch was full of his friends holding balloons that were to be relased with prayers inside them. HIs ashes were scattered as he had asked. His grandfather lovingly made a wooden cross that stands facing the sea.

A few years passed before i was to visit his cross again. Walking across the moors towards the sea, i saw a man and his two children placing willdflowers on teh cross. AS i approached he looked up. "DId you know the family?" he asked. My reply was joyous as i said, "This boy was my son."

I stayed for a while as we all silently watched the sun set into crimson sky.
My eyes turning toward the engraved cross, and i took in the meaning of the words as if for the first time. My heat was full, and the moment brought tears to my eyes. It was clear to all of us who to thank for this moment, and i could hear my son saying, "God will understand."

Highlight of the day: Chillin w/jennif laughing, talking and juss being thankful to God for all the continous blessings i receive from him.

Im going to jars of clay concert! yay!


"So I wear my disguise till I go home at night and I turn down all the lights and then I break down and cry..."im done, im out GOd bless!

"It must be recess in heaven if St. Peter is letting his angels out..."

FIrst off, i thought this comic was funny. The halos being used as like eurrings on the nose and wha not. haha it must be recess in heaven in that comic right thurr! haha good stuff, i loooove it!
I juss got home from adoration and i feel great. It was one of those last min. plans that Jesus tells me. ONe my way home He called me to come and visit w/him for a while, i almost said no but i went. Praise GOd that i did cuz He always has a message that i have to hurr from Him. PRaise God that St. Dominic Savio isnt millions of miles away from me so i can visit often. That place is special cuz thas whurr St. Therese picled for me my rose that was a sign for me to go to yfc camp.

I juss read this really d0pe story called,'the days we prayed.' A story bout this teacher who almost declined taking this special ed. teaching position. Well she took the job and she ended developing this special relationship w/her student. THis kid has a condition called 'spina bifida,' a congential defect of the vertebrae. He had undergone dozen surgeries, and his family anticipated more. His prognosis on top of that was poor. Like i said they ended up developing this relationship whurr they would pray together. Even in class when one was having a hard day or needed prayers they would make a sign. Two pencils laying in the form of a cross was their sign.

Well one day right before the kid was bout to get into heart surgery the two of them prayed for what would be the last time. She wasnt sad cuz she knew she would see him again one day. THough w/o a wheel churr that bound him as a child. In her mind she sees the kid standing w/a friend, the same friend who once answered his prayers and who, from heaven, watched over the kid(coincidently named jason,) as he toiled and struggled with life's situations below. The struggles now are gone, but the happy smiles remain, and with laughing eyes and open arms he makes his way toward the teacher. "Welcome, friend. It's so good to see you!"

Class tonite was hectic, i sent one kid to the office cuz i wasnt going ot tolerate his behavior and talking while i was talking anymore. Having leslie in class as my aide is such a help and a huge blessing. Its like now i have good po po and bad po po. She tells me how it is when they dont behave like they were tonite. I gave them candy tonite cuz i was compassion isda even though most of them didnt deserve it. Though praise God we got through the class with a lot of different issues talked bout and being accomplished. I debriefed the lesson bout 'realtionships' from last week. I reviewed w/them and a lot of them remembered the message i sent out. Praise God!

We did praise reports for the first time tonite also, that worked out well. Helps them to understand praise God at all times, through the suffering, the trials and the good times. I had them journal bout wha their biggest 'rock' in their life is right now. HOw they can overcome it. We talked bout wha the word 'holiness' really means and why a lot of people are turned off when they hurr the word. I went over their saint research project, i decided to have them do it in partners cuz oh man itll take me forever to read 28, 2 pager research papers. We did a lot of scripture reading bout seeing Jesus in errone and how you gotta be able to love. Read 1 cor. 13:1-13 bout wha love is and you cant be love if youre impatient, rude, boastful etc. It was discussed out Blessed Teresa as i said before is a perfect example of love. How she sought out her life seeing Jesus in each and errperon she meets.

I tell you thats gotta be the hardest thing i personally struggle with. Especially when you work w/people errday. Like today at work oh man these people who were renting out the hall i was taking curr of their file and it was juss one thing after the other. I had to take a deep breath and remember that i needed to see Jesus in them. To love them as Jesus would. It got a little bit easier, though it was hard. I think God tests my patience to see if im able to show and be love. Ha too bad many times i ende up failing those tests.

Jaymee and i were talkin this morning bout how God and the saints must really laugh at us when we do or talk bout stupid stuff. Ha im actually laughing to myself rethinking of the conversation. Example, last tues. jaymee was over and as she was bout to bone out she couldnt find her keys. So we looked all over the floor and on the counters, it came to the point whurr we thought wha if she left in the curr. HA we went outside looking through the window of the curr for them keys. I prayed, 'St. Anthony, help us find jaymee's keys.' Well we come back and its inside the recliner churr. St. Anthony and God probably laughed at us and thought, 'HA! you got punkd!' Im sure God plays jokes on us and in the end he laughs and says, 'you got punkd!' hahahahaha funny stuff.

Funny thing pops and i were talking bout chicken soup for the soul books. Im sure youve seen them before, cuz they got one for errthang. CHicken soup for the nurse, chicken soup for the teenagers, christians, pets, golfers, dads, moms, grandparents, ninang and ninongs. Well they should make chicken soup for the gangsta's soul! hahah thatd be crazy! SO youd have on the cover which would be blue cover and a red font and a small red section w/gang symbols and signs. Then it would say, 'Chicken soup for the gangsta's soul-101 stories of crips, bloods, drive-bys and more that will make you want to juss go out and shoot somebody' hahahahahahaha Then you open it and the sections are like bloods, crips, joining gangs etc. The first story is titled, 'My first drive by in bPc.' hahaha oh man im laughing again. Then they could make one also on 'chicken soup for the playa playa's soul.' and then make 'chicken soup for the pimp's soul.'

Dang, i didnt realize until how bad of a condition socali is in right now. First off, we got a huge budget crisis well that effects all of cali. Then we have the strupid strikes, the supermarket ones and now OCTA. Now two popular bball atheletes cant even get a long anymoe cuz one cant take constructive critcism from another. Then you have the recall with a new govenor coming into office next month. I guess last but not least is the fires that juss dont seem to get any better. Wow whas going on hurr?! Sad part is that none of these issues cant be resolved over nite. Let's continue to pray for the healing of our state. Sheesh its like cali has a huge black eye and cuts w/band-aids all over.

Theresa one of the office aides from SRE told me she had clicked on my, 'now with isda on the hot track, melt like its hot wax' link and stumbled across my blog. Shes funny she said she couldnt stop reading it once she came across the page. She said i read like 4 days all in one day. I guess her daughther asked her are you sure youre suppose to be reading that? Its like youre all up in his business. haha Thas funny i guess thas whurr all my 'hits' keep coming from. PRay for her(theresa) she found out she may have breast cancer.


Highlight of the day: Watching the kids sing and do the actions to 'be by your side.' A couple of them keep requesting to sing, 'Shout to the Lord.' I guess well ahve to sing that one next week.


What was the highlight of your day?

"Wake up, wake up its the first of the month..."im done, im out God bless!

"True thanksgiving means that we need to thank God for what he has done for us and not to tell him what we have done for him..."

I bought this really, really d0pe book tonite called, 'Chicken SOup for the teenage christian soul." I thought id be able to use the stories in there as meditations/reflections for my confirmation class. Theyre at the stage whurr theyre searching for their own idenity, i thought these stories are coo cuz Christ is in the center of all them. I was reading a couple of the stories, theyre so inspirational that it makes me read one right after the other. Actually theyre stories im sure errone could relate to. I look forward to tues. nites not only cuz of prayer meeting but juss cuz i get to talk to my kids. Working w/them is one of the many great gifts God has blessed me with.
Ha last mon. of my kids IMed me and the convo went like this...

SRE student:My birfday is tomorrow ja$on, wha are you gonna give me?
Mr. ja$on: A special prayer on your birfday
SRE student:ahh typical ja$on
Mr. Ja$on:hahah

Tomorrow we have lots of stuff to talk bout, i may teach them another action song, depending upon time. Id like to go over saints and some of the popular ones. Well see maybe well watch teh youf rally video of Chris' from SOL's tlak on St. Maria Goretti. Then imma debrief them bout relationships, i found a story in the chicken soup book tha confirms errthang i said bout break ups and relationships. Then well read this reflection email i got last week. I usually juss kinda improvise my lesson plan as i go along. I guess i juss let the spirit use me and tell me wha the kids should do that nite.

Had online prayer meeting tonite w/LF and nimz from liwanag, we prayed for the families of the fire victims. I felt a random calling to do online prayer meeting. Gosh i remember when we use have those more often. I remember one nite, almost errone was online that nite and we all prayed together. Online prayer meeting is coo, why not do something productive and d0pe while being online. AHh yes i love it! So much is going on this week that i cant wait till its over! November is creepin up on us slowly, which means time to start planning for the holidays! yay! Which means longer mall hours and more crowded lines! haha By dec. or after thanksgiving i should have my long christmas list of who and whom i need to get gifts for. WHoa thas crazy even thinking bout that now.

Highlight of the day:Online prayer meeting is juss d0peness! Yeah of course there is 'in person' prayer meeting, but hey its always nice to pray in other ways like over the phone or online. Like phone rosary! phone rosary rocks, maybe i should start that up again.

Well thas it for now, im getting sleepy yos. Im out like trout take curr of yourselves and each other!


WAR online prayer meetings!

"My favorite line was can i call you sometimes..."im done, im out God bless!

"If death reigned through the disobedience of one and only one person, how much more will there be a reign of life for those who receive the grace and the gift of true righteousness through one person, Jesus Christ..."

TOday's gospel was about the blindmen who no one wanted to give the time of day to, until Jesus came. To be honest i didnt realize the analogy of the man being 'blind' referred to our spiritual lives. So are we blind? Its a question we need to ask ourselves, 'are we blind?' If so how can JEsus heal us? The blindmen had an overwhelming desire to be healed as it proves it when he yells out 'master heal me' twice, on top of that, his faith in JEsus is total. That is enough to heal him. Likewise in our own spiritual life, a strong desire to follow JEsus all the way and a great faith in him can cure us of our blindness(arrogrance, pride, selfishness, hate, etc.) Though how can we obtain this faith? The only way to obtain this 'cure' is obtained through prayer.

Fr. Paul mentioned today how this little boy went to confession and well he made his 1st communion like two years ago, but yet didnt even know his prayers. How sad is that. It made me realize how important my role as a teacher to help kids like these remember these prayers. It also made me realize the important role parents have as well. Fr. said families arent praying together anymore. Theyre too caught up on whas happening on the TV. The TV is taking over teh community life. The sad part is the TV is taking place of the blessed sacrament in many homes. There was one time whurr Fr. told one family, 'why dont you juss put some candles around it and then kneel down and pray in front of it.' Wow talk bout harshness!

THOugh i see that happening w/many young kids today. Especially today, they can name you what channel and wha time a certain show is on, yet they cant even recite back the "our Father.'
So imma bring up that issue this week at SRE, and encourage the kids to spend some time in prayer w/their parents at home. Even if its juss praying the rosary, cuz there cant be a future if parents arent teaching Jesus in the home.

Hightlight of the day:Spending time at home w/the fam bam tribe. We went to the mall today and it was good stuff. Trips to the mall w/the parentals can be fun! haha I got a couple of items today shoppin around the mall. The mall was freakin packed juss how 915am mass was. Praise God!


Doesnt this weather look like were in that movie ID4?!

"ANd i heard of true loves that needed each other, didnt argue, fuss or fight..."im done, im out God bless!

"If you pray, you will believe. If you believe, you will love. If you love, you will serve..."

Funny thing happened yesterday at the buena park mall. I was walking into sears w/the mexican and there was this little girl probably like 16 or 15 or so well she was walking out into the mall w/whom i assumed was her bf. Anyway, as she passed by me she smiled at me, so i returned the friendly gesture and smiled back at her. Probably one of my ol sre students or something being that i see them errwhurr i go. haha fun stuff!

The last line of this quote stands out to me, 'if you love, you will serve.' I see it as this if you have love in your heart you will serve to His people. Love and serve go hand in hand, juss like faith and good works. YOu cant juss believe cuz if you believe and yet dont do the works, then your faith is dead. Same w/love, you cant juss be love, but you gotta show love. Youve got to reach out that love to each and errperson. That means loving the people whom you may not like. Loving the people who hurt you the most. Loving the people who irritate and bother you the most. Bottom line folks, we gotta pick up those crosses and keep on moving.

I love swapping faith stories and experiences with other people, whether it be people from my own community or whether it be people i juss meet. Its always an inspiration to hurr wha others have gone through. In some ways it also humbles you, but yet you can learn so much at the same time. YFC camp was like that a lot of faith swapping stories and shurring. I guess in way theyre like praise reports. I gotta start incorporating that back into my SRE classes. I think its important for my kids to understand that we should praise God for errlittle thing. Praise God for suffering, praise God for healing, praise God for good times and hard times. Through suffering we become closer to Him. The closer we can become to Him, the more we learn from Him.

Its been said that meditating upon the passion of our Lord for at least 1 hr a day is more pleasing to Jesus than any other penance. St. Paul of the cross found total interest in our Lord's suffering. St. Peter said, 'Christ suffered for you, leaving you an example that you may follow in his footsteeps.' We are called each day to follow in Christ's footsteps, He left us the examples, not only Him as an example but His apostles and the saints. People who like each one of us who struggled day to day with sin and evil. Though they overcame it, they chose to turn away from it.

I remember reading bout St. Catherine Dei Ricci of italy, who relived Christ's passion each week from noon on thurs. to 4 pm on fri. Although she was unconscious she reenacted all the events, the scourging, the crowning of thorns, and the nailing to the cross. She was known as one of the first saints to bear the stigmata on her own body. Crazy thing is, she didnt like the stigmata and the reliving of Christ's passion. In fact she felt that it was an embarassment and inconvience to her. She even prayed that God would take back the unwanted gift she recieved. Funny thing is, God did back wha He gave her. So when you pray, start to really reflect on Christ's passion. I have a d0pe prayer that St. Catherine wrote that reflects on the passion, if you would like a copy of it, let me know. Let us participate in His passion, so we may participate in His ressurection.

Highlight of the day:Spending time at adoration and soaking in prayer in front of Him.

I thank you, O good Jesus, because i have learned with some experience what you did condescend to suffer for me on the cross, where your most holy body was not even sustained with cords, but hung by your hands and feet, transfixed with hardest nails.

For the sake of His sorrowful passion, have mercy on us and on the whole world...


I offer myself to suffer anything for love of you.

"In surrender i must give my every heart, Lord receive the sacrafice of a broken heart..."im done, im out God bless!

"If you cannot return the favor...past it on."

Geez you know whas funny, is errwhurr you turn there's a mcdonalds. I went all over looking for mcdonald's alexander happy meal dolls for my mom. I hit up all the nearby mcdonalds, even the one in the cerritos mall. I was juss thinking wow mcdonalds is juss around errcorner, its kinda like a catholic church, always around. Mcdonalds are unviersal also! hahah There's one mcdonalds the only thing its not catholic and their employee handbook isnt apostolic. Literally though when you think about it, mcdonalds is universal! From bangkok to mexico there's mcdonalds. Wow mcdonalds is hugge!

So imma start something new in my daily day to day blog entries. Im going to add a 'highlight of the day.' A portion whurr ill talk something that helped make my day a little more exciting. You know it added the 'bam' spice emril lagassi uses when he cooks. That guy is freakin d0pe yo! I want be able to cook like that guy! Forreals. Cali has the weirdest weather, it has mood changes! haha WHen its happy then its sunny and warm. When it's really happy then its blazin hot. Well tonite cali mustve felt despressed or real emo cuz it was foggy like no other. When i left to irvine it was coo then when i got on to the 73s i couldnt see no more. I wonder how cali will feel tomorrow.

Adoration was nice tonite, i love sPv adoration. Angie was suppose to meet me up there on her way from irvine. Maybe she ended up getting too sleepy and went straight home. I only went to mass on mon. this week. So i reflected and read the gospels for the rest of the week. Then afterward i juss kept writing my prayers in my bible diary. I just let the spirit guide as i was sitting in there, i let my prayers become his. Its crazy seeing older people inside adoration soo late, like i mean older people meaning seniors. Praise God that they still are able to come and even so late at nite. It was cute i saw this old man come up to alter and drop a pic of the holy father in between the huge frames of Mama Mary and JEsus. Then he bowed down and prayed.

Highlight of the day:Monte Carlo nite was d0peness! Praise GOd they were able to meet the goal they wanted. Praise God it attracted a lot of people even outside the UCC community and irvine to come support. I was given $400 to start off with, i played mainly blackjack and that dice game. I was tryin to conserve my $$ also so that i would have a lot to auction off later on. They had a good orderves i was diggin the celery and carrots. No one touched the broccli for some reason. Later one that nite i made a broccli sandwhich. That one dice game w/the animals on it are tricky and risky. ITs one of those double or nothing games, but really addicting. See they have this mat w/different animals on it. You place your bets on teh different animals. Dealer shakes the dice and rolls it out. Whatever animals come up on the dice it doubles your bet.

IT was funny, while the make it clap song was playing i bet $30 on the isda and i ended up winning $60. Monica was laughing and pointed out to me, how crazy that i won that w/the song title of my blog, and then winning on the isda. There was one time whurr i even became card dealer for poker. They were bidding high over there w/$200, sheesh too risky for me. At the end i was the banker and had to go around collecting all the left over $$. I tried to do coorupt vegas style politics w/the $$. haha At the end we were told to team up with a friend(s) and put our $$ together. I had a the box w/all the $$! PEople were bidding high on small stuff like in n out gift certicates. Nothing went under $1000 i tell you. Finally, the grand prize of $100 gift certiciate came up. John Pv, chris, janzel and i put our $$ together which became $10gs and we bought the gfit certificate. Though we gave it back and said to return it to use the $$ for interfaith needs.

WHich makes sense cuz how were we gonna split w/the 4 of us. We really wouldnt of been able to do much w/it at souf coast plaza. Afterwards, team work was accomplished by cleaning up and putting interfaith back together again. Then i watched mark anthony, chris, john, small tall white guy named mike do stunts. They were doing all these different things like jumping over the stick judo style and wha not. I only participated in the long jump, which reminded me of when we did it at the beach. ALl in all i had a really great time, juss like any other time i go to uCi. Chillin w/uci peeps makes me smile. wooo!


Happy Anniversary Boss lady and burr!

"Could you be the most beautiful girl in the world..."im done, im out God bless!

"Maturity begins to grow when you can sense your concern for others outweighing your concern for yourself..."

So whas crackin for the weekend, Mostly eerrone is gonna be in daygo for that one day conference. Tomorrow nite imma go ot uci for their monte carlo nite, i made an agreement w/tuy that if she came to SH anniversary then id go to montecarlo nite. Besides its for a good cause, i hope theres a lot of people who go. Though if there isnt then more chances of me getting a tighter raffle prize such a $100 to souf coast plaza. The $100 youd only be able to get like one thing being how errthang there is so expensive.

Wow the first dya whurr i didnt talk to the burr. We talk almost errday whether on the phone or online, agh he didnt call me today! I made this really d0pe pene pasta today w/the kids. I had mushrooms, broccli and kalbasa sausage. Errone really liked it, probably cuz the sasuage mixed w/the cream kicked in some extra flava. Julie and i this morning were looking and thinkin of all kinds of recipes to do. Despite the fact that it took us forever to cook, it turned out really well. I should get myself a chef hat, thatd be d0pe! Maybe thas wha ill be for halloween is a chef! Chef isda on isda live! haha

Liwanag has asked SH music min. to participate in their benefit concert. Something that is like SH cafe but more mellow. I thought that was totally cool. The leaders at liwanag are tight, their really friendly and always willing ot help out. I know theyre planning to come down as a community one tues. to bPc. Leo told me last nite that there are a lot of people wanting to come to an SH prayer meeting. Im really happy to see how SH has great relationships w/these other commuities. Especially w/them UCi and carson folks. Good stuff, i loooooove it! How funny i was juss thinking yesterday i havent had a caesar tag in a while, ha i guesss i spoke to soon.

Highlight of the day:It put a smile on my face tonite, seeing my kids know most of their basic prayers. THough some stumbled majority of them knew wha they were doing and saying! PRaise God cuz it makes easier on me so we can go over and cover other important material in class. The kids are growing i can see it, slowly but surely.


Who was your favorite r & b & hip hop group from the early 90's?

"All because i love you..." im done, im out God bless!

"The greatest use of life is to spend it for something that will outlast it..."

So a confession was made to me last nite. I found why i had weird people like 'vietboi2oo3' and other weird people IM me w/such things as 'ASL.' The mexican who fronts as friendster as a girl has given my info. email and sn out to the guys who message him saying, 'youre hot' or 'lets hook up' etc. etc. Meaning when he replies back he tells them to talk me on my sn. Thas freakin sick! Someone has a psychological problem if theyre frontin of someone of the opposite sex! haha Booo on him! I should expose him on friendster and let errone know that micray is a guy not a girl.

In class today we were watching this video called, 'bluffing.' Its about this middle aged man in his like late 40s who struggles not being able to read or write. Pretty crazy huh for an older man to be able to read or write. This movie takes place in the late 80's and so he get this promotion in the factory he works at. Theyre changing their whole factory into computers and they put him in charge of it. They give him all these binders of manuals to read on how to operate them etc. etc. ONe day they bring in the test comp. system and the guys boss wants him to do some stuff. Well the guy gets frustrated and ends up getting fired.

Keep in mind the only one in his family that well knows bout him not being able to read or write is his wife. His son's frustrated w/dad cuz he thinks he doesnt love him cuz he wont read his essays from skool and wha not. We didnt finish it we ended up whurr he ends up getting into an accident calls 911 and tells them he doesntk now whurr hes at cuz he cant read. I juss was amazed #1 on how the guy couldnt read or write and how much of a struggle he was going through. #2 the importance of being able to read and write. Gee, i think errwhurr you go now a days it requires you to read and write. Why even juss filling out the job application. What a hard struggle youd go through not be able to do those two.

Agh! it was still so blazing hot today! forreals i come out of class and its like agH! why is it so hot! Why cant it be cold! Why cant it rain so i could hurr the raindrops falling from the rooftop. WHy am i using my airconditioner in the fall inside the curr?! Why oh whY! FUnny thing i was reminsicing on ol stuff like last week. I was reading ol blog entries i wrote, and fred wrote. Then going through the official v2 website. Ahh yes the memories...i was particularly reading entries from the spring through summer. WOw so much has gone in my own since spring. That sounds dramatic, but forreal things have picked up heavly since spring time.

I had to regulate at work today on the kids. I finally got fed up w/all the running back and forth and back forth. The whole playing in the bathrooms and screaming and yelling. Then the whole yelling back to each other. THe backtalking and using the 'n' word. After repeating myself over and over again. Its like agh im a broken record. So once they were done playing in teh bathroom i had all of them go back to the club and well the director yelled at them cuz she was tired of it as well. So i had a huge talk w/them bout whas been going on and how it needs to stop.

Example on mon. i was putting aprons in the council chambers for the parks and rec comission meeting later that nite. Well i had the kids help me and then they kept playing on the public speaker mic. I told them all like 3x times to stop playing cuz its not a place to play inside. One of the kids comes in goes on the mic and says the 'n' word. He brings up the issue today and tells me its not a bad word. I told him i dont curr if you dont think its a bad word or not. Bottom line is i dont want to hurr at all inside this place. Ahh those kids are so OA! Nothing i say phases them cuz they keep on coming back. ::sigh:: i juss dont know what to do w/them anymore.

I was helping this girl today do her maf hw, we were doing the problems on the board. It was writing them on the board and doing them together. I felt like i was a real teacher in a classroom teaching her after skool. I remember when i was in jr. high i had this vision of wanting to be someone famous, leave a nice mansion, have my cousins and close friends(at the time) live w/me inside my huge mansion. Haha Now things have changed, i realize more and more how much i enjoy working w/kids. Despite the fact i have kids that are OA, but juss working w/them and how they can make me feel sometimes. Even juss working w/the kids on tues. and thurs. nites. Juss the joy you get out of working w/them. I know banne can attest to this.

Highlight of the day:Taking yearbook pics w/YFc and the UCC groups! Its tight errtime i leave that place, i leave w/a smile. I had tanya come w/me tonite! yay for tanya! We walked in, in a middle of reflection they were doing. So we broke up into the groups and talked bout how the reflection spoke to us. I shurred w/my group bout 'God's layaway plan' cuz the whole point of the scripture was about trusting and relying on God alone. Resting in His spirit to guide us and lead us. Then we took yurrbook pics, it was fun we took a formal pose then a crazy one. After we had the whole ucc groups come together for a group pic also.

Maan there's so many filipino groups durr. I guess wha do you expect its UCI. THey have a group called 'puso' for like med students. Thas the group that whurrs 'puso' gurr. Then they got another group called 'fusion' and theyre a filipino engineering group. Then they you have liwanag
Then you gots your yfc, then you got kaba or kababayan. Then down the hall was girls errwhurr sitting down waiting to get their yearbook pics taken. I felt like i was backstage at some pageant or something. They were pretty much all asian and woooo thas all i can say. Oh i saw a cute girl at starbucks last nite, she was one of jeannes ol classmates. Then the guy who the girl was with, was in my eng. class like 2 years ago. haha good times, good times

Yesterday was raymonds birfday i forgot to text him happy birfday so i did it today. Then i heard it was leslies birfday also last nite. On top of that today was gails birfday, then tomorrow is anthony's birfday. Geez thas like our november back to back birfdays. AHh one more day of work tomorrow, then i can sleep in. THe best days are fridays when i sleep in while listening to the rain dorp fallin from the rooftop. haha The mini iron chef doesnt know what to cook tomorrow, any ideas? The picketers at the albertsons across from my work suck, they dont really do anything. Theyre not like hardcore picketers in fact they dont even curr if you go in the store. haha Guess theyre loosing energy chanting or something.


Happy BIrfday anthonyeezy fo sheezy!

"Aiming your pound pretending they proud But when you leave town they go around they running they mouth..."im done, im out God bless!

"You can give without loving, but you cannot love without giving..."

First off can we say wha the heck is up w/this weather! Can we say its juss been blazing hot these past couple days! Geez it feels like summer all ova again, pretty soon imma have to turn on the air conditioner inside the house. Cmon give us cold, cold, cold wind, so i can go out and wurr my nice brown jacket i bought for the fall and winter! Make it rain so i can lay down and listen to the raindrops falling from the rooftops(ooh baby tell me whyd you have to go?!) haha get it anyone? Naw forreal i need cold wind juss how winter should be, none of this really hot weather so im wurring shorts. Cali weather always is weird.

I love my confirmation class, despite the fact that its extremely huge! Praise God i have a good aide to help me deal with all 28 of them. THough its mostly juss the guys who do all the talking. It was harder tonite w/o having an aide to get all my admin. work done. For example i have to check off their mass cards, take roll(which makes it hard cuz im still trying to learn names, almost there.), check off these confirmation info sheets they needed to turn in. Have them turn in the rest of their homework as well. At least with an aide that person can do my work for me while i focus on giving to the needs of the kids.

Tonite was great class, errtues nite i look forward to be with them. I truly want to help them grow. Next week i think were gonna discuss apologetics bout the church. ANyway, tonites discussion was about relationships. I had them first journal what qualities they look for in the opposite sex. I was reading/grading most of the papers tonite. Pretty good stuff for being that young of an age. It was tight how some of them perferred that the 'significant other' be catholic. SO after i broke it down to them, i said look im 21 years old i dont have a girlfriend, i never really had one, and do i mind? do i curr? Not really, cuz i know GOd has a plan for me. I said im fine being who i am and not having anyone.

Gave them the whole speel bout whurr they should focus their time. I explained that Jesus didnt spend his years of public ministry looking for that 'someone.' He didnt go from city to city and try to spit game at some girls. He spent his time doing God's work, crying out the gospel. Jesus didnt care about who he should date or wha not. I told them how im at that age whurr its no more lets juss date for a while. I said im at that age whurr i need to focus on whether i see myself spending the rest of my life w/this person. If i say no then obviously then thas not the right person. I said use this time while you can to develop a closer relationship w/God. TO develop a prayer life cuz thas so important

Then i went into the whole say you do find that someone. I shurred w/them that the person that God sends has to be catholic. No doubt. Juss so we shurr the same type of faith background. I told them to look for someone that will help you grow closer to God. Not become a distraction or hinderence. I asked them if theyve seen other people or gone through their own experience of a break up. They all said yes, i said it sucks doesnt it? They said yeah. Then i said why go through that experince if you know wha its like already. One said well youll get experience from it. So i said okay youll get experience, but wha happens when it happens over and over again. Good stuff, i like having class discussions with them cuz it allows them to open their minds and see other things. A girl asked bout the expression, 'seeing each other, ' and my opinion on it. I said to me if theyve been 'seeing each other' for a at least a a couple months or more then i already see them as bf/gf.

Man its tiring reading all these journals especially being that i got almost 30 to read and comment on. Along w/the whole focusing their life priorities on skool and God, i advised them to get involved w/church functions. One of my students is involved with this youf group at St. Boniface called 'El Shidai.' THey do typical youf group activities, praise & worship, service, bible study. So as im reading these journals, i was suprised w/all the qualities they really wanted. It was cool most of them really put thought into it and not juss put 'nice, caring, swe3t...blah blah' SOme of them actually put their reasons behind it. One girl stated that she didnt want anyone who swears. One guy said he didnt want a girl who was going ot be insecure with herself. Meaning when he talks to other girls that are friends, she wont get upset and jealous. THough i noticed the girls put more effort into what they wanted then what the guys did. Good stuff, good stuff! I shouldve read 1 cor 13:1-13 and used that .

SH turned 6 last nite, wow o wow. UNfortunately i missed the mass but i was there for the buffet style potluck! Thought the turn out wasnt as much as last years, its all good. We did though have a couple of cool vistors. A girl named tuy whom i had the pleasure of meeting last wed. at the yfc bonfire came. SHe also brought a couple of her friends from her group @ uci called 'mustard seed.' They asked me how come i missed the mass and i explained ot them how i teach confirmation on tues. nites. I asked when does mustard seeds meet, and she told me on mon. nites. So they asked wha i do on mon. nites. I said well thas probably the only nite whurr im not at a church function. Then they said well you cant leave mon. nites lonely. haha

Christy also came from lf, the only lfer to come. I love their community cuz whenever i go there they make me feel at home. Lf is my 2nd home away from home. I remember the time whurr i was able to go there every sat. Thas whurr i would be on my sat. nites. THough this past yurr ive found it more difficult to get there cuz of my busy schedule. Ill make it up there again soon. Speaking of them, charisse, anthony and christy are going to be coming next tues. I think if theres one group who comes to our prayer meetings the most, it has to be them. THough i gotta return the favor and go up there some more to support them. Its funny when charisse and i were talking how sometimes we want to go elsewhurr, but its juss the drive over there. Thas the killer part and esp. when you dont have anyone to accompany you it gets harder. Praise GOd for loving communities who support each other. There was good food, good people, good fun, good stuff! ahh yes i love it!

IM excited to get started to plan the United Nations, so far i havent really gotten a whole of responses back from the communitites. Looks like charisse and i may juss have to call the different groups to remind them. Its gonna be coo coming together as ONE huge community w/the rest of the communities to shurr ideas and get this 'friendship games' project going. Im going to call it, operation fellowship w/friends. A lot of interesting things have been taking place, not only within my own little world but within the big world as well. I juss read in the paper how recalls in 4 other states have been started thanks to california. That juss totally sucks, see wha message we has californians sent out. Next you know, people will want to recall elected city officials as well. Geez...its becoming a circus!

A 16 year old girl from la habra died early this morning from crashing into a octa bus. She was the passegenger w/her best friend who juss got a new mustang. They were traveling down ball and euclid at tlike 430am this morning i guess popos are trying to figure out which one of them ran the red light. Whether it was the bus or the girl in the mustang. Thas crazy how tragic it made me think how people drive so crazy now a days. Especially teenagers, who speed and rush to get errwhurr. Well im like that too sometimes, if im running behind schedule i try to rush so i can make it on time. So i guess its a sign that your life isnt worf loosing so take things slowly. The pope also installed of the 30 new cardinals, praise God! I love the Pope he juss keeps doing more and more great things to the church, especially within the past month. NEw saints, new cardinals wow, wha more cna you ask for?!

Jennif is gonna accompany me next wed. to my weekly yfc meetings. Shes gonna invite a friend also who goes to yfc, thas gonna be fun. Its always great being able to bring someone else from my community to join me. Speaking of jennif it was great seeing her again last nite, being i ahvent really talked to her in forever! We were able to catch up for a bit. Arisa also made an apperance last nite, until reirich decided ot bone out w/o helping to clean up.haha jk, we kept telling him now that hes on core he has to help clean up. Got to talk to lyn lyn for a bit yesterday when i picked up pics from the soratorios. I miss having her as my co worker. WHo else did i get to catch up with, i guess thas it. Fun stuff taking crazy pics outside last nite juss messin around w/digi cams. Thas the best thing bout digicams you could take endless stupid pics and not worry bout whether youre gonna waste the film or not. Its so much better having a small one then that huge one i use ot have. Thas so ol skool now. haha

Funny thing happened yesterday, so i was calling the burr on my way to work or somewhurr. The phone rings, 'hello?' i thought the burr was on lunch eating at subway cuz i could hurr chewing. I said, 'agh wha are you doing?' Then the person was like huh? whos this?! i thought the burr was messing around so said again, 'agh wha are you doing?!' turns out i got the wrong #, i hung up on the guy i felt retarted, but it was funny.


Teaching SRE is funnnn!

"We gon' clap back, we gon' clap back..."im done, im out GOd bless!

"Do not wait for leaders; do it alone, person to person..."

Oh man i juss got off the phone w/charisse, we spent the last hour talking bout commuities, leadership roles, visions and wha not. Ha its funny were bof so alike as far as personalities goes. We were talking bout how when we plan something its start off w/a visision then carries out and then when something goes go according to plan then its throws errthang off. I guess were bof anal like that. Its funny i can talk to her forever bout ministry work stuff and wha not. I guess thas why were on the phone for an hour.

Alright, i wanted to the post the SH logo being that it is Servan'ts Heart's 6th anniversary! yay!! IM exctied for another core term to start, last year was a busy one. Shroud of turin, Caroling and more, Mission trips galore, Eucharistic & GRowth Seminars and LSS, fellowship w/pentecost picnic, SH cafe and all winding down to the homeless out reach w/liawang. Wow i cant believe all that stuff has happened in a year. Whurr does the time go by? I know God has a lot more planned for the new administration this year. This is the true story of 12 people picked to serve a community, find out what happens when they stop being polite and start being real...the real world servant;s heart core. haha jk My goal or i guess my vision for my ministry to create more fellowship/social events. A time to juss chill and get to other people better. Hopefully ill be able to carry that out, well see what God wants me to do.

I love Servant's Heart cuz we have puso gurr! hahajk (i think only mike would get that.) Servant's Heart is a community who has a mixture of errthang. Thas one of the reasons i like the group, it doesnt minister to a particular group like youf or adults but administers to the community as a whole. This group has gone through a lot within the past 6 years. The best thing bout the changes, is that there's always new faces. Servant's Heart becomes home to people. It sure has become a home to a couple of sfcers too. Its gone thorugh its ups and downs but juss like any group. Through God's grace we continue to grow strong and eager to serve. I dont see myself leaving SH for any other group. Meaning i wouldnt sell myself out to another community. SH is my home away from home, i take SH w/me whurrever i go. SH is whurr i started and its whurr i belong!

Lord please continue to work through this community. Norish it, cleanse it and help it grow. Watch over the leaders of this community and work through them Lord. May everything they do, give You all glorly, honor and praise. May the people they serve to, not see their eyes, but see You. So they may see Your fruits being carried out and done. Keep them humble and may they never loose site of who You are. HElp them focus on Your passion, on Your suffering so they may fullly serve You. Make them an instrument of your peace. May this community and the leaders only grow to love and serve you more and more each day. Lord God, watch over Servant's Heart on this special day and may all that this group seeks out to do, may they do it love, prayer, faith, service and peace.

toni11bologna: happy anniversary SH


Happy 6th Anniversary Servant's Heart May God continue to make this community grow!

"Lord through your grace, your mercy, your love, youve shown us how to live with a Servant's Heart..." im done, im out GOd bless!

"Beauty isnt about looking like everyone else, Beauty are the things that make us different from everyone else..."

Today was the beatification of Mother Teresa, how exciting it wouldve been to sitting in at mass. Im sure Tita linda will have lots of stories to shurr w/us when she comes back from her trip. I would love to go to italy, take rides in the gondolier, visit the sistine chapel, see the arts of michaelangelo and most of all dun dun dun see the vatican yay! The only thing that i would have a hard time doing is sitting in the plane on the way over durr and on the way back. As most of you already know i can sometimes have a difficult time sitting still and always gotta be moving around doing something. haha Anyway, that would be cool juss going durr and visiting all those historic sites.

If there is anyone who lives out to serving to others and seeing Jesus in each person it has to be her. For it was her who said, "love until it hurts." Which will lead me to my next point, im going to shurr w/you this story and tell me wha you got out of it...
THE MISSING RIB
A girl in love asked her boyfriend..

Girl (g): Tell me... who do you love most in this world?
Boy (b): You, of course!
(g): In your heart, what am I to you?
(b): The boy thought for a moment and looked intently in her eyes and
said, "You are my rib. In the Bible, it was said that God saw that
Adam was lonely, during his sleep; God took one of Adam's rib and created
Eve. Every man has been searching for his missing rib, only when you find
the woman of your life; you'll no longer feel the lingering ache in your
heart."

After their wedding, the couple had a sweet and happy life for a while.
However, the youthful couple began to drift apart due to the busy
schedule of life and the never-ending worries of daily problems...
their life became mundane....

All the challenges posed by the harsh realities of life began to gnaw
away their dreams and love for each other...The couple began to have
more quarrels and each quarrel became more heated..

One day, after the quarrel, the girl ran out of the house... At the
opposite side of the road, she shouted, "You don't love me!"

The boy hated her childishness and out of impulse, retorted,
"Maybe, it was a mistake for us to be together! You were never
my missing rib!"

Suddenly, she turned quiet and stood there for a long while...He
regretted what he said but words spoken are like thrown away water,
you can never take it back. With tears, she went home to pack
her things and was determined in breaking-up.

Before she left the house, "If I'm really not your missing rib, please
let me go...She continued, "It is less painful this way... let us
go on our separate ways and search for our own partners..."

Five years went by....

He never remarried but he had tried to find out about her life
indirectly...She had left the country and back... She had married
a foreigner and divorced...He felt anguished that she never waited
for him.

In the dark and lonely night, he lit his cigarette and felt the
lingering ache in his heart. He couldn't bring himself to admit that
he was missing her..

One day, they finally met... At the airport, a place where there were
many reunions and good-byes...He was going away on a business trip.
She was standing there alone, with just the security door separating them.
She smiled at him gently.

(b): How are you?
(g): I'm fine. How about you..Have you found your missing rib?
(b): No.
(g): I'll be flying to New York in the next flight.
(b): I'll be back in 2 weeks time. Give me a call when you are back...
You know my number... Nothing has changed.

With a smile, she turned around and waved good-bye..

Good-bye.....

One week later, he heard of her death. She had perished in New York.
In the event that shocked the world..

Midnight... Once again, he lit his cigarette... And like before,
he felt the lingering ache in his heart....He finally knew, she was the
missing rib that he had carelessly broken...

I was watching this movie tonite called, 'beautiful girl' on the abc family channel. The whole theme of the movie was beauty isnt bout looking the same way. Beauty is setting trends and being able to be different. The movie was about this girl who was id say late 20's early 30's. Well ill admit she wasnt who we would picture the 'hottest' or even the 'cutest.' In fact she was a bit heavy set, she entered this beauty pageant to try and win a trip to hawaii for her and her fiances honeymoon. Her fiance who was played by kelly rippa(from regis and kelly). I thought that it was coo how they portrayed the girls fiances to be somoene who wed never expect.

Thas the thing now a days the media portrays people that they have to look or act a certain way in order to fit in. Now a days its hard for people esp. the youf to be their own idenity. Thas why i like working w/the youf, cuz they are the future generation. To let them know God doesnt look for style or trends, all He looks for is whas inside your heart. So back to the show the girl ended up being runner up in the pageant which she was cool with. She realized she put her best out there and thas wha counts. Good stuff!

Had some pretty interesting conversations w/some people today. I talked to toni this morning after mass, i think shes one of those 'ill talk you later people.' The ones who say, 'let me call you back later' yet really mean 'let me juss talk to you later.' haha Found out Gail is now head servant leader of the youf in Lf. We had a heated discussion bout our communities. She asked for my advice yet didnt like wha i said. hahaha jk no that didnt happen, we were more less discussing and passing along advice i guess. Pray for their community, and their core team. Finally talked to arch today, i havent talked him in forever since well the cafe. Apparently errtime he tries to return my calls he gets my vmail.

So the mejia administration is now complete. I can only pray that these newly elected members into the administration will only bring good fruits. Im trusting that they were all chosen there for a specific reason. I pray that the new members will help lead servant's heart in the right direction for the better building of God's kingdom here on earth. We will see what God has in store for the administration this year. I know there will be ups and downs but hey as long we have God on our side we will get through them. Juss gotta remember what our focus is and that errthang takes one step and a time.

Went to sPv for confession tonite, and well the line was forever long! It was fr. grace and i know how he can talk a while cuz he likes to counsel. Well being i know how sPv cofession policies are that once mass starts they quit confessions. So i saw fr. paul walk into the sacristy and i went over and took the chance to see if hed listen to my confession. Praise GOd he did so i didnt have to wait in the long line. Fr. Paul is one of those priests who really listen to the people and is there for them. He told me feels bad if he says no cuz its like saying 'buzz off.'

YOu know whas always hard? Is being able to adjust to changes, i think most people find that hard. Especially when youre comfortable w/the way things are and how GOd seems to throw that stick into the mix to stir things up. Ahh yes changes are in the air and let me tell ya its one thing im having a hard time adjusting to. It can be even more difficult when you may not totally agree on all of them. I guess its kinda like when the pres. canidate you want to win looses. When the opposite political party looses. So then you gotta deal with the whole change in policies, changes in errthang. Though some times changes are for the good and some are for the bad. Basic point juss pray for me that i can quickly adjust to the changes and be coo with it. I think adjusting ot changes is one of my weak points, esp. when im not feelin' them.

Ever since i changed my cell phone plan to the new '7 for 7' plan i cant text message! Errtime i tried to text message it would say 'no system for messages.' Booo! which sucks cuz text messaging is good when yu dont feel like calling the person up. haha Though it can suck also cuz your fingers start to hurt after pressing all the keys to make the words. I gave toni guilt card for not coming to the anniversary. YFc is going to support yfc sdsu at their meeting this tues. I spoke to jay da banker tonite for a bit, he told me he's seeing this one girl. He was like she's really into church, which is always good. On top of that theyre bof the same religon so i guess thas double points. Shes cute too, which makes triple points.

Christy informed me this week, is a triple header birfday week. With Raymond's starting on tues., gail's on wed. and with anthony's ending on thurs. Gail is gonna have wha they called a 'gaybu' i think a celebration of combo of all 3 birfdays. haha THas funny a 'gaybu' Like a debut but a party with gail's name in it instead! I was thinking today each yurr i make new friends, well if i become close friends them thas like an extra person to add to my christmas list. OH you know i was watching road rules/real world challenge and well tmatt the bible geek was on durr. Anyway i thought it was d0pe how right before competition he made the sign of the cross. Thas coo how he isnt ashamed of being who he is, even if on tv. Well thas all from me today, i need a blog face lift. Errone else in SH has seemed to done some 'blog face lifts.' Though i kinda like mine cuz its OG ya feel me! Check out the new link updates!

Please keep the people who have asked me to pray for them in your prayers!



The fruit of silence is PRAYER.
The fruit of prayer is FAITH.
The fruit of faith is LOVE.
The fruit of love is SERVICE.
The fruit of service is PEACE.
-Blessed Teresa of Calcutta


SH redeeming love remix mix mix mix is off the wire!

"Feel the beat of the drum, gotta get with that bass..."im done, im out God bless!

"Live your life from your heart. Share from your heart. And your story will touch and heal people's souls..."

I wish i can post pictures! agh stupid websites who dont let me juss use them to post pics. I was extremely exhausted when i came home this afternoon. ALl that driving gets to me sometimes. Then i hate it when you cant sleep cuz its juss too hot! Though at least i was able to get a good nap in before my family party this evening. Woke up early and helped out w/liawang's homeless outreach. I was amazed when i walked into interfaith and i saw the workshop they had going. Praise God for people who are so giving of their time to help out. That totally describes what i was talking bout yesterday in blog. I felt bad cuz a couple of people whom i met over the summer at liawang was like 'hey ja$on, remember me?!' and i felt bad cuz i couldnt remember their names.

We were entertained by the lovely angie singing and telling jokes, along with other peoples riddles and jokes. It was funny this guy was wurring this shirt that said, 'Puso Gurr' i showed mike that and we were bof laughing. I guess puso is some pre medical orgainzation they ahve on campus. Geez, uci has pretty much errthang. So we packed bananas, chex trail mix, sandwhiches, bottled waters and napkins. Theyre hardcore when they do this cuz they have it done a certain way. They even fold the bag a certain way too. Liawang was grateful for SH's help and representation in the homeless outreach, im sure it meant a lot to them. The whole going down skid row is kinda crazy. At first i was a bit skurred and paranoid but to see all that poverty out there...wow. It always makes you think twice bout the life you live and wha you have. PRaise GOd that there were other organizations out there besides us helping to feed those people.

(Whachu doin?) Nothing chillin at the Holidae In...haha thas exactly wha i was singing as i went to my uncles 50th suprise biriday party @ the holiday inn. Good stuff, typical filipino dj played only the songs he liked. Which he ended up dancing to, there was a little girl there who was pissing me off like no other. I kept getting mad her and telling her to move away. For example my uncle was using the mic trying to give a speech and the girl was right in front of him pulling the mic saying give it to me. OoOOOh i was like whurr are your parents?! Then she was dipping her finger in the cake before it was even cut. Man thas one things thas wrong w/some kids today, theyre not disciplined how they should be. Though i dont completely blame the parents cuz society has changed since i was little. I know if i was that little girl my parents would sure take curr of me real well.

ANyway, i wish i could post pics, but i cant so im going ot leave yall with this, think of it has food for thought!

CHRISTIAN SURVIVAL KIT

MUSTARD SEED: To remind you that nothing is impossible

NEEDLE: To remind you that it is easier for a camel to go thru the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter the Kingdom of God

CLAY: To remind you that He is the potter and we are all the work of His hand

CANDLE: To remind you that God is the way, the light

HEART: To remind you that the man who loves God is known by God

BLOCK: Though you may stumble, you will not fall for the Lord upholds you with his hand

DIME: To remind you to give back to God 1/10 of the blessings he has given you

TOOTHPICK: To remind you not to try and remove the splinter from someone else's eye until you remove the plank from your own.


Jars of clay anyone? Jars of clay anyone? Jars of clay anyone?

"My eyes chinky, I'm wit Chingy, at the Holidae In..."im done, im out GOd bless!

"What we do for ourselves dies with us. What we do for others and the world remains and is immortal..."

I like this quote cuz its talks bout doing the good works. Doing the corporal works of mercy that our Lord asks of us. For He said in Matthew 26:35-36, "For i was thirsty and you gave me drink, a stranger and you welcomed me, naked and you clothed me, ill and you cared for me, in prison and you visited me..." Then he goes to say, "Amen, i say to you, whatever you did for one of these least brothers of mine, you did for me." So in other words, service to our own brothers and sisters are important. As the quote says, what we do for the world and for the others never dies. What glory does it bring it when you only serve for yourself? Nothing, it ends up dying with you when you pass away. Okay so thas my speel for the day.

Lets boycott stupid angelfire website apparently as of today they took down my webshell cuz i only used the site for posting my pics. Now i gotta figure out how to use geocities instead to post my pics. Thas why the pics are big 'X's on my blog. Alone w/mine, burrs and moms angelfire website pages also got cancelled. BooOO on angelfire! lets start a picket line in front of the angelfire or lycos company building! haha speaking of picket line i crossed it yesterday when i had to get materials for my cooking class. They werent much of them when i went and on top of that they looked bored. They didnt even try to stop me from going inside the store. When i came out a lot of them were juss chillin on the side. haha So much for protesting!

Todya nothing exciting really happened, a real chillful day. Had lunch w/former secretary of music min. as well as senator, moya(R. Cali)Im intrigued to see the outcome of the rest of the mejia administration. I was thinking of becoming pr but then i figured i dont see anyone who would be able to take over my position as fellowship. So i decided im more called to do that then PR. Ill do have to admit i already people in my head who id like to see be in the administration. THough ill juss keep that info. to myself. Well juss see wha happens within the next couple days. The former secretary/senator and i discussed the creation of a united nations of prayer/youf communities. I had informed him that the idea was already in the works of being created. Then i forgot my phone in his car and he became terrorist and held it hostage! agH!! so in order for me to get it back i had to negoiate w/the guy! agh!

I finally got to see the new baby joshua aka burger king! awww isnt the little bebe sooo precious and cute. haha Im probably one of the last few people to see the baby. Next tues. will be his initation into the prayer community. With that i got to see the rest of the kids. It was cute i asked elijiah today if he missed me. I had said, 'Elijiah did you miss me?' He then hugged me! aww that was probably the hightlight of the day. So i hung out for a while at the king's castle and chilled there. Good times, had a lot of stuff to talk about. Looks like moms will be doing youf alpha this yurr. I told her they need her ot be transparency girl! haha we should make a SH cabinet position to be overhead transparency ministry leader. haha That person would make sure we have all the transparencies, make new ones if we need to and juss slide the transparencies up and down during praise & worship & intercessory.

Pops told me i should make a shirt that says, 'I've confirmed over 2000 kids and serving.' Im like the pope imma be celebrating my wha 8th year as SRE teacher. Ive probably confirmed juss as many kids as the pope as canonized/beautified/venerated saints into the church! haha Imma probably end up confirming the king's kids & leilani as well! hahaha id be super old by that time! I was invited by monica to watch 'Kill Bill' w/the yfcers but it was too late by the time i saw the message! doh! Banne told me tonite of a kid who she was helping last nite during the rosary. HE asked her if they were able to keep the rosaries and at the time she said she didnt know. I guess he looked like he wanted to keep it, so she went to her car and gave him hers. Aww kawawa sre kid! hahaha thas my new word, 'kawawa.' So if youre being emo imma say, awww kawawa so and so.

Oh yeah so back to the kid, banne went to her car and gave him her own rosary. She said to him, 'IM going to give this to you, its special cuz it protects me and my car.' Then she went on to say, you have to promise you that youre going to pray with it though and learn your prayers.' The kid said, 'i will, i promise!' i thought awww how swe3t! Im sure that really made the kids day knowing that his rosary was special. Now thas a true example of what the quote in today;s blog speaks about. Giving to others, a feeling that will last forever. Its crazy, i can do nothing all day yet end up making my blog juss as long as if i had an excitiing day.

Aww at this time last fri. i was hurring the talk on,'God's Love' while still pondering why God sent me to the yfc camp. ::sigh:: memories! I walked by that rose garden whurr there no roses grow except for that one time last fri. Tues. i saw there was a rose in the process of blooming, tonite i passed by durr and its gone!! Crazy stuff meng! Tomorrow is quite a long day for me, hopefully ill be able to set myself up for a small nap. I should sleep now. I want to get to silverado days this year. I dont think i went last yurr, which was the first time in forever long. Thas whurr you see all the bPc gangstas! haha When i was younger it was worse. Thas another place whurr you send up seeing errone and their father. Maybe on sunday ill be able to go!


Anyone up to go to the Jars of Clay concert on nov. 14th?!

"Don't say you never heard of me, til they murder me, I'm a legend..."im done, im out God bless!

"The hardest of all is learning to be a well of affection, and not a fountain; to show them we love them not when we feel like it, but when they do..."

This quote certainly applies when youre working with kids. Sometimes i have my days whurr im 'bad mood guy,' and im juss irritated with errthang. As im sure errone else does, but its different when youre working with kids. There are many of my kids who i work with who i know come juss to get attention. To be perfectly honest, there are days whurr i juss cant give them that attention. There are days whurr im juss agh w/errthang. So im working on being able to show and be love to them all the time. Im striving to be patient with them but its juss so difficult at times. Like today for example, some kid called 911 on the pay phone and boned out of the room. I saw him and i chased after him, as if they think im stupid.

Tonite was another one of those challenges. Along w/my fellow SRE teachers we had to form together a living human rosary. So i had to get these kids into a circle to start to form a rosary type shape. Then asign them which prayer theyre gonna do. I was getting mixed up cuz i would forget which prayer theyre suppose to be so i would have to go back and count. After we finally get errthang organized were about to start then sandy brings in the other SRE classes which i had no idea about. Then we finally start it some kids werent taking it seriously and there was these couple of guys who were in jeannes class who were testing me. He was like i dont want to do this can i go sit down over there. I snapped and i said no! Then some of the kids werent even talking loud and speaking into the mic. One of teh teachers interuppted and said they had a difficult time following along cuz they couldnt hurr which bead they were on.

ALl in all praise God it went really well at the end i summed it up w/a review lesson on why we prayed the rosary tonite. I gave them a small lesson on who the Pope is and what does he do. I asked the kids who is the our Pope? ONe of the kids volunteered and said, 'JOhn Paul II!' I said yeah thas right very good, our Pope is John Paul II. THen i asked what does our Pope do?One kid raised his hand which i thought was cute and said, 'He's a priest!' hahaha i said yeah thas true hes a priest but wha else does he do. They didnt know so i explained to them as simple as i could w/o them getting confused! haha Then i asked whurr the POpe lives and the kids knew which was good. Then i emphasized the importance of learning and memorizing the 'OUr Father, 'Hail Mary' and 'GLory Be.' I think for most kids the hardest one is the Hail Mary cuz it can be a tounge twister for them. THe glory be was always easy for me cuz its like saying the sign of the cross. So im sure our Holy Father enjoyed this anniversary present!

Went out w/ann last nite to chill, i havent really talked to her since her bonfire. FUnny thing, we ran into jay's mom and jay so we invited them to sit with us. I actually bought a drink tonite, usually when i go out i dont buy anything. SO anne, jays mom and i all bought margaritas. We talked forever bout houses, SRE and other stuff. THen after ann and i sat in the car forever talking bout relationships and stuff. We were talking bout the whole dating thing bout how shes through w/that. Meaning she wants to find i guess you could say 'the one?' Juss someone shell want to settle down with. Juss cuz its useless to go through the heart ache of a break-up and blah blah.

That pic is funny above is funny, it looks like an afghan women and a robber. Toni is freakin hillarious! ANyway silverado days is this weekend! yay! i love silverado days cuz its fun thas when you see errone there. I noticed this year they didnt make it thurs.-sun. only the weekend. Usually they do but whatevers maybe cuz its for saftey reasons. Im excited to do do the homeless outreach. THen its my uncles suprise birfday party at the marriott sat nite. Gee i cant believe how its already been a week since i got my answered prayer. IM still having last weekend withrdawls. haha Supposedly im suppose to see the burger king today. Ive been trying to go since last week but cuz of our schedules have been so hectic.

So next fri. theyre having this interfaith fundraiser to help raise $$ to build a new interfaith. INterfaith is the place whurr UCI students go to have mass and meet for their religous groups. Well theyre going to demolish the building i forgot for wha reason. SO theyre having this fundraiser cuz if the big people see that the students curr about the building maybe they'll build another one. THeyre having this casino nite fundraiser, which sounds fun. I made this deal with this girl from mustard seed at hte bonfire, if she comes on tues. ill come to the casino nite. ITs $15 to get in! aww heck!!! but cuz im compassion isda ill probably go and help out. Theyre gonna have raffle prizes like cheesecake factory, $100 shopping spree to souf coast plaza etc. ectc. I got some weird random email from 'angels1jose' and they said 'hi' thas it. weird...




Happy 25th anniversary Pope John Paul II!

"Stand up! When I move you move, just like that?..."im done, im out God bless!

"The biggest disease today, is not leprosy or tuberculosis, but rather the feeling of being unwanted, uncared for and deserted by everybody..."

That was a picture from the YFC 'bomb fire.' As them irvine folks call it, they decided 'bond fire' is too played out so they came up w/something more creative. The fire was blazing hot! haha juss check out the pic of kristel mae heating up her marshmellow. The bomfire was corona del mar, brought back memories of SOL bonfire. ::sigh:: SOL bonfire was whurr i met whas her name, alma! I wonder if shes still serving for SOL anyway, havent seen that chick in ages. ANyway bomb fire was cool, we played games, did some praise & worship and ate hot dogs while roasting smores. PLayed tic tac toe w/kristel fama and took pics of toni and her afghan whurr. haha
ALl in all it was good times, good times! Bonfires remind me of summer!

Work we played talk show w/the kids. The topic was something like i once was bullied bout being ugly but now im all that. That was funny but it ended up getting too carried away. I did good politics during the city manager's wife's baby shower. I sat w/council members, city clerk and city manager. City manager gave me and my chef's club program props. He was telling the council member how weve evolved from baking cookies and cakes to making hardcore stuff like adobo chicken, fried rice, etc. THen one of the parks & rec commissioners dropped off 14 aprons she made for my class. My director told me she gave me props as she stopped by last thurs. to check out the program. Yay!

I was talking w/the pryde counselor about the most beneficial part about our jobs. She counsels at risk youf for free. Let me tell you the youf that comes in there for counseling gots some hardcore drama going on in their lives too. Im sure that gets mentally exhausted and physically on top of that following up on them and doing the paper work. THough praise God cuz working w/kids is also a blessing in disguise. Knowing youre out there making a difference for these kids lives. THough it may not seem like it to them inside, they know you love them. With my kids no matter how many times i kick them out and yell at them they keep coming back.

Speaking of the youth, i decided this morning im not gonna bring my kids to the anniversary mass. IN fact im not gonna go either to mass, i realized i have to have a serious talk w/my kids about priorities in life. I realized as i finished reading all their reflections, which took forever too. Most of them are worried bout skool which is understanding, theyre still making that transition from jr. high to hs. Its only the second month of skool and a lot of them are skurred theyre not doing very well in their classes. Then there are a couple who are worried about finding a bf/gf. As i read all this i realized i need to tell them to set their priorities straight. Concentrate more on skool and less on other small stuff like that. To focus on developing a prayer life w/God. Explain why go through all the drama of break ups and all that stuff. WHy go through all that over and over again. So thas wha class is gonna be about next week. Pray that they get something out of it.

Hot doogs anyone?!



Ahh im sleeeppy

"Problems, they say when it rains it pours, but I'm sure together we could work through the storm..." im done, im out GOd bless!

"God doesn't give people talents that he doesn't want people to use..."

A crazy follow up story upon my 'rose' answered prayer. Well thurs. nite i was asking for confirmation from St. Therese juss to make sure i was suppose to be at the camp. Friday after going to mass, i was walking to set up for apologetics. As i was walking by inbetween the statue of our lady and the coffee and donut there's that small garden. I passed by and there was a red rose juss one single red rose bloomed. I thought whoa thas crazy i dont think ive ever seen roses in this area of church. I didnt think much about it after that. Tonite after prayer meeting i thought let me pass by and see if that rose is still there. I walked over durr and the rose was gone!! Now i realized dang St. Therese put me on check telling me foo im forreal go to camp! So besides toni rose that mustve been my confirmation to go. Praise God, thanks St. Therese!

Well if you thought that was crazy! I got something even more whoa! I was talking ot one of my parents today at work. Really nice lady we talk bout catholic stuff all the time and ask each other to pray for each other. She was telling me today how over the weekend she was kinda stressing bout getting this other full time job. She was praying right before she ended up falling asleep. Well she woke up by someone tapping her on her arm and telling her, 'Dont worry God is taking care of you, juss trust in Him.' She asked her daughter who was downstairs at the time if she came up to wake her up. HEr daugther said no mommy i didnt go upstairs, she asked her son the same question and he gave her the same answer. Besides that her son is 5 and her daughter is like 7. I told her after she told me the story whoa praise God! I said it had to ahve been your guardian angel juss looking out for you. Wow, so many d0pe things have been happening, praise God!

SRE went really tonite, i had them attempt to sing 'redeeming love.' THough i made the font point too small on the transparency and then on top of that the woman on CD sings it real high. Though i got a compliment from the next door teacher telling me how she could hurr us sing. The kids thought the actions were funny especially yhe 'worship' westsider rider one. I figured theyd get a kick out of that. So i guess imma start them off w/basic common praise & worship songs like Shine JEsus Shine, Lord i lift your name on High, Shout ot the Lord etc. This way theyll be preaped for youf alpha at the same time.

The mediation/reflection we did tonite, went really well praise God. I heard a lot of sobbing and sniffling throughout the whole time. I think i got to their emotions, i kinda changed things around as i was being lead by the spirit. JEsus ended up telling me to use the prodical son story as an example. I used that parable as a way of letting them know that no matter wha happens, Jesus is always there w/arms wide open. He's always ready to accept us back when were ready to choose Him. As i read this story i felt heavy hearts, i saw young kids who felt there was no one to turn to. THough later on i felt that the spirit was leading them to the right direction. To focus on the cross and not to let go.

Lord Jesus, i pray that you continue to shine your light upon these kids. That you open their hearts and mind so they make seek you all the time. Lord may their hearts never grow cold but only rejoice in Your eternal love. Let them know Lord that youre all they need. May they seek you throughout their hards times and good times. Answer their petitions Lord according to your will. Help guide them to understand your will for them. Most of all may they never get tired of seeking You. In this I pray by the power of the Holy Spirit through the intercession of the angles and saints along w/our Blessed Virgin Mary. Amen.

Fr. Kevin talked about accepting the bible as teachings of teh church. How many people often protestants may not accept the bible as teachings of the Church. He said that God works in mysterious ways and its up to us to listen to His word. A real hersey is thinking and saying that we dont need the church. All i need is Jesus, the bible and me and thas when the whole you gotta accept the whole pie concept comes into place. You cant juss pick and choose to accept the bible yet not the teachings of the church. For its because of the church we have the bible. If start to disregard the teachings of the church, then we start to form our own images of God. We start to form our own likeliness of who and what God is. Thas when we try to pkay God or try to 'become' GOd. Again we project our own image of God, which is wrong! Bottom line, if youre gotta accept the bible you gotta accept the teachings of the church.

IT seems that errone needed that email that i was sent out. Praise GOd cuz im sure it was a great reminder that often we forget bout surrending ourselves to Him. How that without Him we are nothing. THat without him we can do very little. 'Youre all i want, YOu're all i ever needed, You're all i want, let me know that you are near..." Cool thing the SLY ryhdas stopped by tonite for prayer meeting, which i thought was d0peness. Mark called me tonite and asked me for directions. I didnt know that his brother was mike the one whom jeanne and i had met back in april when we to visit SLY. Cool kids, praise God for youf!


Get well soon strider!

"Every three minutes and thirty seconds of every day And every chorus was written for us to recite Every beautiful melody of devotion every night..."im done, im out God bless!

"The rose speaks of love silently, in a language known only to the heart."

YOu know what would be funny! Well as we all know SoL has a annual dance called, 'SOL winter formal.' Remember that formal gail?! haha how could you forget! haha anyway, on top of that they also have a sadies dance. A sadies valetines dance, who forget that one too! I was sweating like no other that nite. How SH came together not a couples but as a community representing the u to the p to the rM. I havent worn that shirt in a while. Well over the weekend at camp, i hearf YFC puts on a 'YFC Prom.' So you have a formal, a prom and a sadies, whas missing folks?!

If you said Homecoming, then youre win a prize! yay! So wouldnt it be funny if SH put together a homecoming dance?! We'd have our own SH football team play their game on fri. nite agaisnt hmm perhaps men of promise or knights of columbus?! Then the next day will have the dance! Well use the theme, 'Arms of Love' and then put up all the LSS paintings and posters as decorations. Then well call each communtiy to nominate a court. Then using the mexicans truck well put a float for nominees to sit on. At that time well announce who the king and queen of SH homecoming 2004 would be. Hahaha i told toni that and she said thatd be ' toni11bologna: thatll be soo frickin hilarious' haha

WEll thas all i got to really say for now. I sent out emails inviting errone to SH anniversary next tues. Geez its hard to believe its already been 6 yurrs. Too bad ive only been 1.5 yurrs in the making. Its great when i get to see all these different communities come to my community. IM excited to do the homeless out reach w/liawang this sat. Im also looking forrward to Yfc bonfire. So many great things happening this month! yay! ITs crazy i was talking to julie and she told me she knew some ol hs friends of mine! Friendster makes you really realize wha a small world it is! I also sent an email bout the united nations of prayer/youf groups. Charisse and i are trying to get friendship games 2004 started. Hopefully well get enough support and help to do it.

I was talking to burr today and we were talking bout different communities and groups. I said no matter how many communities i hook up with or get involved with, i will always remain faithful to Servant's Heart. Servant's Heart is whurr i started, is whurr my roots are. To turn away from SH and be somewhurr else well to me thats kinda messed. I dont think i could go anywhurr else. I will stay loyal and true to my community until the end of time. With SH its helped me grow and learn more about my catholic faith. SH has opened the doors for me to meet new people. SH is like my 2nd family, and like every family we have our ups and downs but through God's grace and love we always get through them. I couldnt ask for anything better. I guess im an SH ryda until i die yo! haha


Awwww Kawawa burr! hahaha

"Lifted my face, wiped the tears from my eyes with forgiveness in his voice, he said, son do you know i still love you..." im done, im out GOd bless!

"The saints give little thought to changing the world around them. They are too busy changing the world within them..."

I developed a theory called, 'God's Lay Away Plan.' Whas that mean? YOu know how it is, we go shopping we see something we like, we want to buy it, yet we know we cant afford at that time. Because we cant afford right now, cuz if we bought it, it very well may put us into debt. We end up putting the merchandise on lay away until we know we can afford it. To me thas the same way how God works with us. We'll have a particular intention and sometimes yet we want it answered so bad. Though God knows that were not ready for that particular need. He knows at the moment in time, we wont be able to handle it for other reasons. So God being the loving God He is, puts the need on 'hold' or 'lay away.' Until He sees we're ready able to handle what we asked for.

THough sometimes we get so frustrated w/God that we'l go up and do whatever we can to get that intention answered. Yet we end up facing the consquences later. Its like buying the piece of merchandise knowing you cant afford it and going into debt. The good part of putting on 'lay away' you could always come back to it. Same way w/God He knows your intentions, He hasn't forgtten about them, He's juss waiting to see when youll be ready to handle it. The best part of the whole 'lay away' plan is that when God does answer our intetion later on, we understand why it took so long to get answered. I know banne can attest to this for sure. Thas when we find ourselves maybe even laughing about it and saying, 'ahh good looking out God!' or ' I realized now why you waited so long to answer my intention.' So take God's 'lay away' plan into perspective and dont fret cuz God only wants the best for all of us. He'll make things happen if He knows in your best interest.

Im very happy i was able to get away for the weekend. God knew exactly what i needed and he gave it to me. I think all last week i was running close to 'E' on my spiritual life, and God filled me up again over the weekend. As i said during my last entry, i asked God to send me a sign and i asked St. Therese to pick me a rose from God's heavenly garden if i was called to be at this camp and St. Therese did exactly that for me. Jeanne told me thurs. nite go ahead and make the plans to go and if there are obstacles in the way of getting there, then its not God's plan for you to go.
To be honest i was skurred and hesitant even after the whole 'rose' confirmation on whether to go or not. I asked mark anthony last min. thurs. nite if there was room to go to camp still. Praise God cuz he said there was. He told me to meet up w/randell at interfaith before 4pm. So i thought well so far so good praise God.

Friday comes, i pack up and im still doubting whether im suppose to go or not. I told my mom last min. i was going and she was coo w/it. Again, so far errthang was running smoothly, which for some reason i was unexpecting it. I kinda had a feeling i may have to cancel out last min. I leave for uci 315pm, i got there skurred still wondering if i was doing the right thing. I was holding back cuz i thought oh man im walking into this my w/eyes closed not knowing whas going to happen. THen i was thinking wha happens if mark anthony forgot to tell randell i was going. So all the doubts and 'what ifs?!' kept running through my head like scrolling marquee.

I got to interfaith and i didnt see anyone i knew. So i got worried, i asked some of the people there and they didnt know anything about it. THey told me some guy was in the building for a whle then left. I started to think what happened if that was randell and he left w/o me. I didnt want to go home looking stupid. The time was like 350pm and i was skurred, so i thought do i call mark anthony?! But then i hate calling people who i dont talk to on a normal basis. As i walk outside i see randell coming up. The anxities go away and im like praise God!

We headed up the mountains w/a full load. Eileen, jermy and a new person named kristine. I was randell's co-pilot for the weekend. We hit hardcore traffic going up there, stopped once at target in riverside for snack and bafroom back. Randelle and i estimated we'd arrive at St. Anne's at about 830pm. Thas the exact time we got there. It was pretty empty when we got there. Mark anthony, chris b., chris p., tanya, michelle as well as some others were there already. I sat there as errone kinda messed around until the other bus loads came. Like UCR, USC, and whurrever else errone else came from. I sat there chillin was talking to tanya and michelle off and on. Found out that were gonna have talks this weekend. When i found out they were the same exact talks from sfc i was like agh!! Well for those of you know who know me, then you know how i am.

I told the girls saying, these are the same exact talks from SFC! They told me juss to listen to them and i may get something different out of them. So i sat there pondering on wha am i doing there? How was i suppose to get fed, if they were talks ive already heard 1000 times. From LSS' to Youf alpha's to SFCs. I was thinking i know who Jesus Christ is, i know what the Holy SPirit is, i know Wha God's love is all about. Something really d0pe was they had a small chapel in the retreat center, so i went there as often as i could and i sat in front of the blessed sacrament talking and talking and talking. Then i started to get impatient juss sitting durr not really doing anything, i ended up playing snake for a while. YOu know how how i hate lag time too! agh!

Finally, they get things rolling around hmm 10pm. As the other groups started to storm in, all i saw was like youf, young kids 5-6 years younger then me. I thought oh man im gonna be the oldest one hurr! Once they settled in, we played this ice breaker called 'signs' i think? Anyway, you get into groups and you come up w/some kind sign or gesture. Then you battle the groups by doing your sign then copying theirs. The group who messes up i guess has to split up and break up into the other groups. That was a d0pe icebreaker. Then we had a whole intro. orientation whas gonna happen for the weekend, open your mind and have a right attitude. You know the whole, 'youre only gonna get wha you put into the weekend' speel.

Later on like around 1130 or so they split up the groups into young adults and youf. Which i thought was coo, so they had same talks but different speakers for the groups. Chris P. gave the first talk on 'God's Love.' Then we split up into small groups, so errone wasnt really in the whole 'shurring' mood that nite, so i ended up taking the floor. I said well to me, God's love is right over there in the tabernacle. The eucharist for me is God's love. Thas how im reminded of His love errday during mass when i receieve Him. Knowing thas the most intimate physically relationship i can have with him for 15 min. My group leaders were like whoa, thas some deep stuff. Probably seemed like a lot in one group shurring to say, but hey thas how i perceive God's love. Im not going to sugar coat it.

Finally we got to go to our cabin's and get ready for bed at like 1am. Our cabin was freakin packed like no other. It was like a small house, really nice. So we had a house stocked up with at least 10 guys. Two story mini house w/5 beds at the top and small living room. This is the true story of 10 guys picked to live in a house and have their lives taped. Find out wha happens when these Christians stop being polite and start being real...the real world yfc big burr! haha

There was this guy who evidently was forced to go the camp and did not want to particpate at all. Supposedly he was originally wanting to go then had a change of heart last min. but since his mom paid already he was stuck. The whole fri and sat. people tried to talk to him and get him to participate he didnt want to do anything. He ended up leaving late sat. afternoon. I sat outside on the bench in front of my 'house' reflection on scripture and juss relfecting on my whole purpose of being at the camp. Charles came(the drummer from exodus) and we started our own mini praise & worship jam session. REally d0pe guy!

We had to wake up early sat. morning for we had a long day ahead of us. I wanted to wake up early and watch the sun rise but that didnt happen. We had a good breakfast, sausage and hotdog mixed w/scrambled eggs and rice. After the whole breakfast thign was over, we had praise & worship session again, they were teaching new songs. WE split up and had the 2nd talk, 'Who is Jesus Christ?' then there was two testimoniesm then split up for group shurring. I shurred that Jesus Christ to me is the person who started and established teh catholic church 2000 years ago. After the shurring one of the guys in my group came up to me and was like, 'Ja$on how do you know so much about the catholicism.?' I told him about taking aplogetics and why it was important to me to understand bout what it means being a catholic. HE goes yeah i need to read up on catholic apologetics, i said yeah it only helps in the long run.

SO we did this rock activity, which was pretty interesting analogy. Came back in for another talk on 'Faith, Repentance and forgiveness.' That was probably one of my fav. talks cuz a lot of things she said made sense. I really liked how she talked bout as far as realtionships go, being able to compliment the other person. Then after charles gave a really d0pe testimony bout forgiveness. It was to the point whurr i got emo and i had a turr in my eye. The testimony was inspiring to me cuz no mattered wha happened to him, he held on to his faith. He knew God was with him and would carry him through the pain and suffering. Please keep that guy in your prayers please.

After we had soaking prayer which was also time to write a letter to your parents. I ended up usng the time to pray, reflect on scripture and listen to what God was telling me. We had a whole like 3 hrs of time to kill before mass @ 4pm. They only had at that parish 4pm sat. mass cuz the parish is so small. So i walked around kinda chilled did whatevers. Walked up and down the hill, had a one on one w/my group leader. He was telling me what was going to take place later on in the evening. The whole baptism preparing me so i wouldnt be weired out, i told him yeah i understand and blah blah.

Crazy thing the service/core team was preparing themselves for the baptism they were doing praise & worship inside the chapel. As i looked inside people were getting prayed over. For some reason God was calling me to go in there to go in there to help. I kept passing back and forth wondering what to do. I finally went in there and did what God called me to do. Totally felt the spirit moving, people being healed and opening themselves up to God. Offering errthang they had to him that nite. LAter on as i was talking my w/my group leader i told him bout going in there. He goes to me, 'You got balls to go in there and do that, thas really awesome how you were able to do that. ' Anything to help praise God and help.

Went to mass, we filled up the church. The padre was in need of a eucharistic minister and i guess there wasnt one from the parish there. So he opened it up to see if there was any other ones from a visiting parish. No one raised their hand, so i did i thought i know how to distribute communion. Something that was totally different was during the distribution of the eucharist, the padre didnt pass it out. He sat down and gave the job to the eucharistic ministers. I was like whoa thas different. Anyway, i was holding the blood and passing that out.

After mass i took a nap for a while, woke up and errone was juss chillin hanging out. I walked into teh kitchen and funny thing was tanya and michelle had juss woken up too. Ate dinner, intro. more songs. then had the next talk bout the 'power of the holy spiirt.' Intro. the whole baptism of the holy spirit. It was funny the guy who gave the talk on the gifts was mainly focusin on the gift of tounges. He compared tounges to one of michael jackson's old songs, 'Wanna be Startin something.' Whurr he goes at the end of the song, 'Ma ma sa, ma ma coo sa, Ma ma sa, ma ma coo sa..." haha i started to bust up cuz i thought what a funny way to compare or to describe what tounges is.

Had the whole baptism in the spirit, i was a little dissapointed cuz my pryaing over was like 5 min. long! Its all good so during the soaking prayer, charles was playing/singing, 'the nails in your hands.' and 'lead me Lord' on the geetar. I had a propehcy to sing, 'I Love you Lord.' I was hesitant to shurr it but i kept getting the message so i told tanya to tell mark anthony to ask him if we could sing it. She comes back w/the song book asking me to look up to see if hte lyrics and cords are in the book. Well they werent, so she asked if i knew the lyrics i said yeah i do. I actually volunteered to sing it acapella stlye. So she told mark anthony and well so i went up to the front. That girl arlene found the cords she played it and this oteh girl sang it once. Then i started it up the first by myself. Praise God cuz i felt good after that.

After errone was all happy after the baptism. The whole hugging and jumping feeling. Michelle told me that her and tanya recieved the gift of tounges during the baptism. I was like praise God! I remember my first time experiencing the gift of tounges. ANywya after the whole huge praise & worship concert, errone did their own thing, i sat around w/some of the peoples and listened to jokes and stories and wha not. Woke up 7am this morning got ready and did my daily rosary in front of the Mama Mary statue. Thas what i would do errmoning wake up, get ready and pray my rosary for the day. yay!

Sunday we had one more talk bout like wha do i do now w/my life. You know the talk on the prayer wheel. So they talked bout the 4 spokes into making that wheel possible. IT was cool arlene used me as an example bout community. HOw i serve in my own community at Servant's Heart yet doing yfc also. She said Sh was a youf group haha i laughed and i thought oh man were not a youf group! all good though! From there, we had yfc personal testimonies on how its changed their life. Then they had parents come in as a suprised visit, it was some of the parents of the partiicpants. So they had quality time to do their own thing. ALso letters were given out. Kinda like a confirmation retreat activity.

Before the dedication ceremony they asked if the participants wanted to shurr their thoughts on camp. So i went up and shurred errthang from not expecting to go to the whole rose story. Some tita afterwards complimented me. Then we had the whole dedication ceremony, in order for us to get our name tags we had to do a dance. We had to do the whole 'pharoah, pharoah' dance. haha fun stuff! As of today im an official yfc member now! So im yfc and sfc, next yurr ill be cfc! haha

After errthag was over i got to talk to a lot of cool peoples. I was talking ot this guy americ and giving him some ideas bout how to help make his yfc community grow @ SDSU. I marketed SH and invited them to the anniversary and to prayer meetings. THey usually have theirs on tues. also but he was telling me well give up on tues. to come check you guys out. I thought that was totally cool. He told me i was an inspiration to him, i was like wow praise God. IT was coo i had SH business cards n my backpack so i passed those out like candy. On the way back we were all gonna join errone else @ mcdonalds at walmart but we missed the exit so we go back on the freeeway exit and we cant find it. So i told randell well i guess well go up to this next light and if we cant find it, then well juss eat some whurr else. Turns our after we eat the walmart was one more light. haha

Good convo on the way back home, jermy had a lot of questions bout catholiscm so i did the best i could to help answer those. Talked bout the differences between protestantism and catholisicm, which i totally love talking bout. Then we were talking bout relationships, the 3 of us randell, jermy and i. I told them bout the triangle relationship and how you gotta be able to spiritually compliment the other person. YEt i said the single life is coo too cuz who knows God could be purifying that special person for you. OR it could be the other way around. Randell told me on the way back he goes, 'The service team really appreciated you being at camp. Erwin said you really helped the discussion group.'

So with that im going to close w/this. I really made the best out of the weekend, spending a lot of time w/Jesus at the blessed sacrament, a lot of prayer time which you can never go wrong. A lot of reflection on scripture and juss on God's creation. THe mountaints the perfect place to get away for the weekend, away from the whole city life. Sat. nite after praise & worship i realized God called me to this camp, not only to get served, but yet to help serve as well. To help the service team pray for these participants. I pray that the all the participants continue to build upon the foundation that was made this weekend and make it grow.

Met a lot of d0pe people like that girl julie who put together the bball tounry. We were like weve seen each other before but whurr?! haha This weekend was like a flashback from sixth grade camp! Music, food, fellowship, cabins and education! yay! That they only produce good fruits of teh spirit and keep their heads up in rough times. Tanya and michelle were totally awesome this weekend w/their hospitality and always smiling. Praise God for such a great community!

"Complete me, consume me Lord..."im done, im out GOd bless!