"The Eucharist is something more than simply receiving Christ. IT supposes that we satisfy his hunger.
Christ invites us, "Come with me."
Christ hungers for souls.
Nowhere in the gospel has Christ ever uttered an expression of rejection. Rather, we always find an invitation:"Come to me."

i feel so sleepy right now, probably cuz i was up @ 7 this morning. at least tomorrow is sleep in day woo! Today was pretty good day, it was kinda kick back i guess you could say. Went to have breakfast w/the fam bam tribe this morning @ ihop. It was coo i had country fried steak and eggs w/panacakes and hashbrowns. woo it was a grip of good food. aFter today i probably gained so much weight. haha after breakfast came home and talked to fred and kuya online forever.

Got ready for work then went to meet up w/errone @ the Golden steer. It was a bonvoyage party for my co worker. I had the teriyaki kabobbs w/fries and salad. I only ate a little bit of it though cuz i wasnt that hungry, i ended up taking the rest home. Went to work and was moving things around inside my new office location. I put my up my collage that lyn lyn did for me last nite. Its soo d0pe i love it! i guess there was some more drama at work this morning. i dont even want to get into it, its been one dramatic week @ the community center. Though through out it all i missed every scene that took place! aww booo haha

I got off work @ 6pm, went home rested a little bit, then went to SRE. Class was nice, we talked bout wha makes the catholic chruch different from other demominations. They seemed pretty into it or amazed to know there was major differences. Its good they try to understand it now while theyre still young so they have a better knowledge or understanding to this later on. I was gonna go visit sarah and get boba w/her and mark, but on my way to church i felt tired. So i decided not to go see them, another time.

Fred and i were kinda analyzing this Mama Mary sermon the preacher gave @ FCFC. in the document they said she was only a virgin up until Jesus' birf, that she had other kids, and other nonsense like that. Fred and i were juss i guess irritated that they think like that. He said weve been honoring her for 2000 years while others stopped 500 years ago. He made a good point, i think this document would be a good lesson to teach for class. i dont knwo wha else to say, i know this blog is boring tonight. IM too tired to really think of anything interesting that happened today.

"It's everyday I go out and say hey to the people all around me, but then I see someone lookin' back at me, and I think...it's JFTB" im done...im out God bless!

you know i forgot to add something on my previous entry from umm tues, when i talked bout boss lady and kuya. Im going to move in w/them after they get married and find a house or whatever theyre gonna live in. Then inside my room imma have this portrait of starry nite by van gough on one of the walls. haha imma help pay mortgage on el casa for them. hahaha

"Suffering in itself has no value. The greatest gift we can enjoy is the possibility to share Christ's passion."

Im feeling a little bit better today, still have a lot of things on my mind that i cant let go of. This morning i was running kinda late to class. i was talking to kuya for a long time, he was helping me out like he usually does. Then i looked @ the time i was like oh no i gotta go to skool! praise God i found parking right away and i was only like 5 min late. so class was aiight i was bored and i know my shawty aint there to entertain me no more. ::sigh:: haha. i had a 30 min break, so i ate in the car then went online to blog real quick.

Went to work and i guess there was drama there w/some seniors. There are these two filipino seniors and i guess they were bout to throw it down. One of them likes to pray the rosary errday on the buss when she gets to the community center. When she prays the rosary though she doenst like anyone talking. So i guess one of the other ladies were talking and she dindt like so they got into it. One of them called the other ladies mom a whore in tagalog. It got so bad that she had her fist in the air bout ready to kill someone while she was holding her rosary in the other. hahahaha Then she had a butcher knife w/her and it wasnt no ordinary butcher knife it was whoa! my boss confiscated from the lady and told her he would give it back to her later. so thas the that happened @ work.

We had commodities today, it went really smooth and easy. These two ladies called me bastos cuz they were sitting in front of the wrong door waiting. Then when i came i told errone which door they were gonna go into, so they had to switch it up. haha mizike heard them as he was walking in and he was laughing. oh man i shouldve said something then they wouldve shut up. hahaha that was pretty funny. iits been pretty busy @ work in late afternoons the past couple days. People wanting to come and rent out the hall for parties and wha not.

Its weird my burner was working earlier tonight, but now its back to the same old stage it was before. i dont know what the heck is wrong w/it. I think i juss a brand new burner itself or something. why cant i juss be a normal computer user? agh, why do i always have to get stuck w/all the bugs and bad stuff. maaan!

Lyn lyn helped me, well she practically put it together for me this collage. its a collage of pics of all the different sh events. its d0pe! im feelin it cuz imma put in my office on my wall. i cant wait! woooo! i helped out banne and jenn clean out the garage. it was fun, i learned a lot of different things in the process. I stumbled across theyre old pcn progams. i saw freds baby pic, saw fred in pcn attire, saw fred w/hair! whoa!! i also found out his middle name is michael, something i didnt know of. I guess i still have a lot to learn bout my fellow uprm brothers. haha I saw a grip of pics of jenn and banne. im sure they can tell lots of stories bout the frat life. There were many cute girls too inside the programs...wooooooo!

kuya and i have the d0pest online conversations...nuff said! tomorrow one more work day...tues and thurs are long days for me, errday i guess is long for me now. cant wait to sleep in! woooooooooo! pay day tomorrow too!
pray for boss ladys physical recovery she's sick...awww =( thanks!

"Engine, engine number 9 on the new york transit line. if my engine gets off track, pick it up, pick it up, pick it up!" im done...im out God bless!

Well i gots hmm 10 min before i gots to head back to class, as i was walking up the stairs to class random thoughts came into mind. So here i go...
dang those stairs are killer @ skool, man im already sweating and for those of you who know me well enough...well you know how i can sweat haha ewww sick! anyway, time to focus! Here is my random thought for the day, a list of people mainly friends who inspire me in my life now. They are in no particular order either...

well i gots to go! haha jk

upRm homiEs~
Fred-his passion and knowledge bout our Church...all the stuff that he has taught me bout it.
el huego~his humbleness, to do whas best for errone else despite his own personal struggles
arCh~always watching out for me, when it comes to certain things. Making sure im doing the rihgt thing.
MIzike~a person whom i can depend on and talk to bout almost anything. Helps me out tremendously!
kuya~a walking inspiration to me, in all that he does. Knows how the game works, always there when i need someone. My political advisor!

Boss lady~swe3t and helps radiate joy unto others who need to feel Christ's Love. my twin seperated from birf hahahaha
beyonce~Her spiritual walk and faith is juss a motiviation for me to be like. I dont knwo how to describe it, besides its soo great!
lYn lYn~her comforting smile helps me to know errthang will be alright. my new coworker!
aela~her courage and stregnth to carry out the community, especially when times get rough. A great person who cares about her community and the people in it.
achie~my aide, my assitant who helps keep my on track, listens to my struggles and problems and helps me carry my cross.
my prayer buddy~a wonderful prayer buddy, a person whom i deeply admire, shes helped me out soo much w/in the past couple weeks. Im very grateful for her. she makes a bomb spam masubi
Babyvee~wooooooo my prom queen! haha her openess to her faith and perseverence, puts a smile on my face when i see her.
antonio~his sense humor is off the wall, i think hes one heck of a guy always willing to put himself last and help anyone else who might need his assitance.
jenniF~always laughing which makes me smile. A very warm friend, whos very generous, she's helped me out a lot even when i may not have needed help.
JaymEee~a person whom ive gotten closer to this past summer. she listens to me when im mad haha and gives me advice on wha i should do.
jeanne~weve become closer the past couple months, we help each other out in our daily struggles.
JL~my rTb, ive also gotten the chance to become closer to her. She is my road trip buddy, always willing to accompany me when it comes to mini community road trips.
jackIe~juss a person whom ive juss recently gotten to know. Her openess to her faith, and to meet new people is d0pe. God is making her a messenger to help spread his gospel.
PoPs~wow wha i can hes my pops haha his love for the Lord is great, how he is so open to share it w/other. Helping errone see God's love, he helps me to always keep on dancing.
anne~her perseverence to keep on going, even when times seem the hardest. shows great strength in her faith.
last but not least heif~ha we dont talk as much as we use to. Though she's always in my prayers, a best friend whos helped me out in times when i really needed somene.

apologies if i might have missed your name, it does not mean youre not an inspiration to me. anyway juss a few random thoughts, i must leave for class! Gots to go to class now, oh btw for sho shawty transferred out of math...=(

"its big isda in the place w/muRph LEe and i got what it takes to roc the mic right yeah!" im done...im out GOd bless!

"Love is, just like Christ himself showed with his death, the greatest gift."

love is one of the best gifts anyone could ever give. Its non-materialistic and comes straight from the heart. You dont have to worry bout wrapping it or if its too cheap or too expensive. Most of all this precious gift, is a gift you can share w/anyone and it doesnt even have to be for a birfday, anniversary or anything in particular. That gift of love is one of the greatest anyone could receieve. I think i truly felt that gift tonight.

I think shawty had transferred out of math cuz she aint there no moe. 2 days in a row, i wonder if she got her transcripts and moved up to stats. Im assuming thats wha happened, for some reason i think she's juss been absent. Today i got to class and that one lady who sat next to me yesterday wasnt there. I was able to save a seat too for shawty, unfortunately she didnt show up...oOOhHH wHY!? haha i thought she would stick to the clas since she told me it fits perfectly in her schedule. If she doesnt show up by tomorrow, then probably for sure she transferred out.

It was a little bit of a struggle this morning to find parking. Though w/a little bit of patience i was managed to find a good spot w/o having to switch parking lots. wooO! Praise God! im really feelin this Cd right now that fred made uprm. its like our uprm soundtrack, cuz it has all the songs that pertains to us. The i need a girl songs, #1 stunna, and our recent hit, "in da club." Theyre d0pe! being that my burner doesnt work now i have something new to listen to in the car. Thanks Fred, youre great!

Went to work, and i started to bag commodities right away. There wasnt that much this time around, last itme in nov. there was a grip! I got most of one side done, the rest of them will take care of the other side tomorrow. Although i hate doing the commodities w/a passion, i know it helps make other people happy. Therefore instead of complaining errtime, i should jusst lift it up. It was coo today cuz i had some parents help me out, which was great cuz i wasnt by myself. They helped out tremendously! this one lady i felt bad for cuz her youngest son, died i dont know from wha. Then her oldest one is in jail and has been there off and on for the past 4 years. How tough is that to run a family, knowing one of you sons is in jail and the other one is in heaven. She seems very strong though, i commed her for that. Its gotta to be hard raising a family like that. At least she;s married so she isnt doing it by herself.

My burner isnt working right now so i coudlnt burn errone Cds of the mission pics. I dont know wha the heck is wrong w/the thing. Its been weird ever since july..::sigh:: So anyway, i ended up printing a lot of them out and bringing them to prayer meeting. I forgot to talk to my kids bout the trip and show them the pictures. Sandy asked me tonight, if i would want to do youth alpha. Which means, switch classes w/another teacher cuz he doesnt feel comfortable doing youth alpha being he hasnt gone through the program. I dont know its a very hard decision to make, especially after the conversation we had tonight in class. Pray for me that ill be able to make the right decision.

i had a nice conversation w/achie tonight. she's always a great person to talk to, thas why i admire her and her faith. Shes always there to talk to me too and make me feel better. Tonight she made me open my eyes a little bit to see things from a different perspective. A perspective that ive been trying to look at, but it juss hasnt been that clear. After our talk i ended up kinda breaking down...well not breaking down, but i felt sad. I kinda started to cry a little bit, i think its cuz of other stuff that was bothering me tonight or that was on my mind. I ended up going to the blessed sacrament @ St. Dominics in bellflower for a little while. I ended up kinda crying there too hahaha oh i guess i was in one of those emo moods. After i felt a little bit better, im alright now i guess or i think. Hopefully tomorrow ill be aiight, im sure i will. hey carson never came to drop off my pics! aww i guess thas where ill be on sat. to go get them. ANyone care to join me for prayer meeting? hehe Ü

"We gon' party like it's yo birthday, We gon' sip Bacardi like it's your birthday. And you know we don't give a It's not your birthday!" hahai had to add it since its been in my head all day long! hahah thanks fred for the song! im done...im out God bless!

woooooo! im feelin this picture too! i love all the pictures i took this past weekend. BEfore i get into my day, im dedicating this entry to my kuya & boss lady! Well as you can see its pretty obvious who these people are in the picture, me, emeline and robby. Thas kuya and boss lady in other words, for those of you who didnt know that. So why do i call them that and how it all come about? Well i'll be more than happy to tell you! Ü

well once a upon time on a cold november evening in the land of cerritos, there was great rain and thunder. We all had juss wrapped up another quick edition of music ministry practice @ mizikes casa. Music ministry was trying to get jaymee's song underway for tues. nite, since she was leading. Since it was raining hard and there were many things to cary out to the car, kuya asked me to help him. I was chosen to be his steel, haha like a horse. So as i was holding the keyboard, he was making room in his trunk for it. I felt the drops of rain fall on to my face as the wind was blowing on my body. I was messing around and i said, "kuya its cold, i want to go home!" he replied back, "hijo its okay." or something like that. Ever since that rainy novemeber evening, the nickname "kuya" kinda stuck on him and i guess the name "hijo" stuck on me. Therefore i am his hijo, meaning i think son or something and he is my kuya. From then on we share a common bond that is juss as strong as uPrM and we lived happily ever after.

I would say the end but i didnt explain how i came up w/boss ladys nickname! well she's a recreation supervisor for the city of la mirada. I am a recreation leader for the city of stanton right? In all reality if i were to ever work under her, she would be my boss. SInce she is one purdy lady, put em together and wha do you get it? bibiddi boppidi boo! hahah jk! hahahaha boss lady! She's really a pure gold hearted swe3t person. Her intentions are always good and is always there to help out when needed. Were alike also cuz well cuz we were so hyper active! My boss lady helps raidate joy unto others, thas why she is soo d0pe! like kuya she has given me a nickname of her own, she calls me "angel fish." hehe i like that name!

The two of them are a wonderful example of a loving couple! its so exciting when i get the chance to be able to kick it w/them, juss to chill. They treat me so well and im blessed ! The highest love of all finds its fulfillment not in what it keeps, but in what it gives. Thas wha they have given to me, their give of love. Which is the best kind of give i could ever receieve from them! hopefully that made sense. yes, i see beauty in their eyes along w/joy, laughter, dreams and hopes. They put a smile on my face and a love in my heart that makes me happy. Ü Thank You God for sending me a wonderful family!

My day was pretty good, im a bit tired. I cant wait till i can sleep in on friday! i didnt get a whole lot of sleep this weekend but it was all worth it. Went to skool, it took me forever to find parking. I always pray when i get into the parking lot for God to help me be patient as i endlessly search for parking in that parking lot. Today it was coo cuz i gave this guy a ride to his car in exchange for his spot. It was @ the last row in the back, but its still in the vincinity of where i wanted to park. i always gotta park in that same parking lot, cuz the building where my class happens to be is right there. haha i guess you could say im anal like that! (sounds familiar huh kuya?)

I got into class hoping to see shorty, but she wasnt there. Well this one lady happened to take her seat that she usually sits in. I couldtn find any other two seaters either when i got into the room. I guess i gotta get there early from now on. haha errtime someone walked into the class i was hoping it would be her. haha I hope she didnt transfer classes or something. Maybe tomorrow she'll be in class, good thing its a 4 days a week class! haha
i saw erica on my way to the car after class was over, didnt get a chance to talk to her though. Phil was aiight, kinda boring. which reminds me i need to email my instructor before i sleep tonite. We talked bout the rest of the class semester and wha phil is and is not.

Work was pretty smooth, i still need to set up my after skool program room. Move things around a little bit so there is more room for the kids. I want to have that back office, well its pretty much mine i juss need to double check w/my bosses. Its official lyn lyn got hired for the rec. leader position @ stanton. She called brenda today and brenda(city clerk) offered her the position! yay! im really excited for her to start and then she can decorate her desk w/all kinds of frames and pics. It'll be d0pe being able to work w/a friend again! Praise God! I taught the kids pantomime today. I think i was expecting a little too much when they were practicing. I kept having to tell myself theyre only beginners and this is practice. The kids enjoyed working on it though, at least from what it looked like.

My other coworker was happy that lyn lyn got hired too. its cool cuz she doesnt even know who lyn lyn is or let alone has seen her. Its nice to work in a happy environment where errone is juss so open. the lady who was happy that lyn lyn got the iob, started a prayer chain. i asked for to pray for lyn lyn that shell do well on her intvw and she called her mom to pray and offer up a rosary for her. She did the same exact thing when it was kuya getting intvwd. shes like our work mom, always looking out for us!

Well thas bout it, that bout wraps up my day. enjoy the pics, tomorrow ill see if i can mizike or fred to post up the beach picture on hurr. its great to have such reliable and dependable friends. Friends who dont need to ask for anything in return, but they do things out of love. The computer probs are coming back again, pray that they'll go away, thanks! please also pray for a special intentions of mine too...

"Blessed for everything you've given me, Blessed for all the tenderness you show. Do my best with every breath that's in me, Blessed to make sure u never go..." im done...im out God bless!

::sigh:: so imma try to attempt to rewrite waht i had on hurr. I accidently closed AOl and i lost my whole entry! oHhH wHY!?! i was like half way done too! agh! its so frustrating, okay deep breath.

"Do not be afraid of loving to the point of sacrifice, until it hurts. Jesus' love for us led him to his death."

Where do i even start now? I think imma switch it up from the entry that got erased. ill juss so straight into the weekend. It was a unforgettable weekend, with memories that will last a lifetime! It was a great weekend to enjoy God's wonderful creations and to create bonds of divine love.

We met up on fri nite @ the mejia residence for dinner and chit chat. I think we were all pretty much hyped up for this weekend. At least for me i was, ive been waiting for this weekend to come for a while now, so i was excited.
After prayer and more prayer, we left the house at like 830pm to head to ventura. It was like a parade kinda haha cuz there was like 5 cars and we were all lined up in back of each other. I had a d0pe time in the car w/boss lady, lyn lyn and ninniiiiiiiiiiiii. We prayed the rosary then we sang our hearts out to all different songs. it was fun we sang from disney to praise & worship then we ended it w/slow jammmmmmms. Even though the trip was forever long i had a fun time being in the car w/boss lady, lyn lyn and ninni. Theyre great!

We got to ventura @ around 930 pm, we all unpacked and kinda did our own thing for a little while. I went to chill in the spa, that was blazing hot! there was these two guys in there, one was from minn. and the other frmo daygo, i think theyre fishermen. As i was listening to their convo, they were juss talking bout the different type of places theyve been fishing to and wha they have caught. It was quite interesting convo, actually i kinda learned something. Anyway, strider came out later to join me in some fellowship. We started thinking of all these different r & b songs, from back in the day all the way till now. It was fun, cuz a lot of songs we sang you dont hear anymore. later on that nite, we all met up in the girls room for some sharing. I was able to get to know things i didnt know before bout others. I realized that i could be in the room w/these people, not be able to say anything or hear anything but juss looking around and smile cuz im aroudn the people whom i love.

Sat. morning we woke up early to get ready for the first mission trip. Kuya was able to make it out w/us! wooooooo! that was cuz boss lady and i were kinda sad he wasnt gonna go on fri. Antonio was able to make out too haha that guy is a trip! he cracks me w/up his sense of humor. So we all went to town and got somethign to munch on before going to the mission. This weekend i was really able to get to know jackie. She rode w/kuya and i pretty much the whole weekend. Shes a really swe3t person w/a d0pe personality. Im one of her kuyas now! wooo im called kuya fish and the kuya is called "kuya bear." hahahaha yay!!!

Mission San buena ventura was really beautiful. INside the museum they all these different things preserved inside the glass. There was so many fascinating object to read and look at. The church was sooo beautiful, the altar and all the statues there. You couldnt help but want to juss sit there and stay there forever. The presence of JEsus was really there w/us. It was d0pe cuz i was able to take pictures inside the church. When i was younger i didnt think much of the missions, now i have a total different outlook on it.

After the mission we walked to the beach for a mini prayer meeting. It was perfect day, bright blue clouds, birds in the air, a nice breeze. God's love was shinning down to us by the bright reys of the sun. The prayer meeting was great, we had praise & worship to go along w/it. We sang our hearts out to God juss telling me how much he means to us and how blessed we all are to be together to give him all glory and honor. Then we had this excercise where we were to find something beautiful bout our community. Servants HEart is so special to me cuz the love we all share for each other, is the same type of love Jesus shares for us! Then we were to write bout something bout each other, what made them so special to us. the exercise will help me lift myself up when i might be feeling down or sad. its was exciting to read what errone wrote bout each other.

After having some fun @ the beach, we continued on our journey to mission San Fernadno Rey in alhambra. Some of us got misguided but all in all we made it. That was another great mission, the church was so mesmerzing once you step in youre filled w/awe. It was really peaceful w/many different things to look at. They had a madonna room w/all these pictures Of Mama Mary. We took pictures err where we went, juss like typical tourists! i wanna come back to these missions some day, itd be cool if i were able to take my kids there. Im sure they would enjoy it and find it juss as beautiful as i did.

Well after leaving san fernando rey, we rolled over to dennys to eat. haha we were all pretty much starving cuz we hadnt eaten since that morning. I ate a grip that nite, i ate mine then i had the rest of jennifer. Munched on some country fried steak and then fries. Oh boy...imma getting fat! hahaha After dinner we went back to our hotel, this one didnt have a spa to chill in so i was a little bit dissapointed. oh well i got to jump on el huego and turn him inside out w/my savage arms hahah jk It was fun i guess sorta wrestled, but i had to stop cuz i was getting hot and i already had taken a shower so i didnt wanna stink then have to shower again. Arch got us all some starbucks mmm which ended up making me sleepy. Jackie was getting taught how to play the incubus song. I ended up taking a mini nap @ 1030 then ended up going to sleep @ like 130am. As much as i was trying to sleep it was hard. I think cuz it was hot, it felt like summer over there. I heard the guys make a food run like @ around 2am for del taco. Then they were talking bout war and the draft...oooh scary thought.

ahh fred set the alarm @ 7am so he could get continetal breakfast in the morning. I couldnt even go back to sleep after that so i decided to crazy and jump on el huego and arch. haha i was jumping from one bed to the other landing on el huego. i was going back and forth, i was feeling a bit hyper in the morning. it was there i got the new nickname hi-jo by arch and jay. (pronounced high joe) the way the hotel was kinda set up it reminded me of the real world. so jenn and i had some fun acting pretending this was servants heart real world mission hills. im curious to see the footage that el huego got. After starting the morning in prayer we then left going back down to mission san gabriel archangel for mass.

The church was really nice, they were selling this delicious corn after mass. Mizike was able to join us, so that was d0pe! Mass was nice, father talked bout how when we sing we our praying twice. Thas what i told my kids on thurs. so i guess it juss kinda confirmed that having the kids do praise & worship is important. Father also said how its important to try and participate by singng throughout the whole mass. it was blazing hot up in the valley area, on man! Anyway after mass uprm came together ot form megaroom. Fred had done a d0pe favor on behalf of his two brothers. i really admire him for that. God gave him what he asked for though i told him cuz hes strong. His intentions to put his brothers needs before his own, something thats truly honorable. Mother Teresa once said, "IN CHrist, who died on the cross for us, we can definitely confirm the fact that suffering can transform itself into a great love an extraordinary geneorsity."

With that it leads me to saying i woudl be honestly lost w/o uprm. God put all of us together for a reason. We came from different walks, different paths one by one. These guys i truly admire and look up to, without them i wouldnt be part of who i am today. They motivate me, inspire me and also keep me on check. My love for them goes deeper then anything i could imagine. I love them w/my whole heart and soul. When one of is pain we all feel the pain together, but we all get through it together. Theres that saying that says, "blood is thicker then water." The bond we all share together is thicker than water and is stronger then 10 gorillas. I am proud to call them my brothers and i am proud to stand by them to fight till the very end. They are my gangstas my thugs, cripts, but most of all they are my guardian angels in disguise! Thank you Lord for not only sending me one big brother but 5 of them instead!

We traveled back to cerritos after leaving the final mission to end our weekend @ hometown buffet. i saw that girl again from last sun. she said ive been starting @ her since last sun. i didnt think i was staring, but oh well. This whole weekend has been such an experience. Its taught me many different things, life lessons that i dont think ill forget. Well its 1am i should get going cuz i gots skool and work tomorrow. Thanks God for taking care of me and the community this past weekend. Thank you for a great weekend that offered me so much! Thank you for these special brothers and sisters whom i love soo much!

"Look in to your heart, you will find there is nothing there to hide. Take me as I am, take my life I would give it all, I would sacrifice..." im done, im out GOd bless!

Upper Room
mission San Gabriel 2003

Strength now, Courage always, UPRM ABOVE ALL!

random thought:
so i come home from the mall today and my mom is watching that show on channel 4, "The other half." well tyson beckford was on as one of the guests. As i was watching his invtw, a thought came into mind...kuya reminds me of this guy! haah then i noticed something else, mario lopez(the guy who use to play saved my the bell, slater.) well he reminded me of kuya also cuz of his dimples. hahahahahahahahahahahahaha
therefore, kuya=a filipino version of tyson beckford and mario lopez! hahahaha wooooooooo! well i wont be blogging until sun. cuz well imma on a mission! haha

"wit out a way to tell i want her, i tell her i know fo sho we belong togetha..." im done, im out GOd bless!

i dont know right now...i have a feeling of mixed emotions right now. A lot of them are frustration, anger as well as sadness and more sadness. tonight i was talking to jay before SRE and as we were talking all i felt upset. He's stuck and he's having a hard time getting out. ::sigh:: uprm felt this pain tonight as well as other people. As i was talking to banne, for some reason i had tears stroll down to my cheek. Hes one of those people whom my quote from yesterdays blog pertains to. He doesnt worry bout himself, he worries bout other people that he loves and cares for. He puts himself last, and puts the ones who are in his heart first. That's what's really great bout the guy, is compassion for errone. I ask for you all to please pray for him as he's struggling right now.

It sucks when people are decievable, they make you think one way yet they have other intentions. i dont like that feeling, thas wrong. To me honestly, maybe those people are insecure w/themselves so in order to get wha they want they front it. Why? thas so gay to do that, it juss goes to show how small of a person you really are. To front to errone to try and twist them around your finger while laughing at the same time. thas irritating, it bugs and well i think what goes comes around. You want a prize, you'll get a prize!

Well on more positive note, class went pretty well today. it seemed longer today though, i guess cuz we stayed for the whole almost hourt. I had a nice convo again w/shorty, i sat down first then she sat down by me. Its coo cuz we were talking bout poly sci, and hwo cool the instructor was who teaches it. What made d0pe was she was aware of the tuition increases. Its great to talk to people who understand govt and pay attention to stuff thas going around them. I think thas something i would like my girl to have. I might be irritated if she was juss totally oblivious to things that go on around her. its turning out to be good semester after all...haha

Lyn Lny got the job today @ my work. I was so excited to hear the great nerws! wow God is soo great to us! now she'll be my new coworker, and i have another person to share my faith w/a work. A lot of people were happy that she got the job. i cant wait til she actually moves in and sets up her desk w/pictures...woo!! Congrats lyn lyn on your new job working @ the City of stanton!!

SRe went well tonight, it was good to have jennifer back helping me out. The kids did an inventory of life, like where they are in their spiritual life. I was almost hesitant to do it, being theyre so young still. Though i did it anyway but really explained it to him. Im curious to read their responses now. I taught them Shine Jesus Shine, though i dont think theyre diggin the whole singing praise & worship. Theyll get use to it, its a gradual learning process. I juss feel its important aspect in teaching bout giving ouor thanks to God. Theyre learning heart of worship & shine Jesus shine, i guess in a way a preperationg for youth alpha 2000 and something.

Went to the soratorios tongiht after SRe, it was fun. Its also great to see people whom i really love and cherish in my puso, smiling again. Its a warm feeling to see that, it makes me happy. i dont wanna name people off, but its juss my love for these people is juss soo overwhelming that it kills me inside to see them sad. I dont know if that made sense, its late. i dont think ive ever felt so strongly before bout certain people other than my real imediate family. "True love causes pain. Jesus, in order to give us the proof of his love, died on the cross. A Mother, in order to give birth to her baby, has to suffer. If you really love one another, you will not be able to avoid making sacrifices." that is one thing i will not hesitate to do w/the people i love most in my heart...

"My love for you will never end..."

"If we worry too much about ourselves, we wont have time for others."

You know i forgot to mention this in yesterdays entry. I got my computer back from antonio yesterday. Its d0pe cuz i got windows xp on it! wooooo its soo cool. I picked this quote cuz i feel it pertains to antonio and other important people in my life that i really care bout. It pertains to antonio cuz he doesnt worry bout putting himself first, he puts himself last. He's always so giving and always ready to help out anyone who is in need. He did my intercessory last nite, it was very annointed. A lot of people felt the same way too. It was his first time too, praise God that he even came being he wasnt feeling the best last nite.

Well i think mon & wed are gonna be the long days for me. Skool was pretty busy today, especially in the afternoon. i saw roselyn and my two cousins, though theyre were too busy talking. Math was coo i got to sit next to the shorty hahaha oooh yeah haha i told her my name is j hova ahha jk It goes by pretty quick in the class though. He let us out 30 min. early, which was good cuz i was able to get butcher paper @ champions. I was able to find parking too in time for class and eat my lunch! wooo! time was on my side today! Phil was aiight, they moved the classroom so i kinda got mixed up @ first. We had to do this invtw thing w/the person next to you. ehh i dont like doing those things...i dont know why. The class seems coo, more work then cooneys but maybe easier...i hope. Saw francis today, i told him how our music ministry played the eternally yours and he told me no one could ever do the song as good as FCFC. I said whatever, we did and we did pretty well too.

I dloaded the incubus song, as i sit hurr listening to it, all i can see is archie standin up w/a mic stand leaning down singing it. hahah hes one funny guy! hahah he was singing that song on sun @ music ministry practice.

Work was aiight, not much action going on. Lyn lyn has her invtw tomorrow for the rec leader position, pray for her please! Her and mizike came over today to do a backdrop for my dance im planning out. Praise God for reliable friends! Im thankful for friends who take time out to help other friends in need. Im thankful for having friends w/all kinds of talent. its really cool how i can ask them something and not have to worry whether or not they will be able to do it or not. Im very blessed to have these friends in my life! Ü

i hate pop up ads/banners, its like they dont leave you alone. Youre online searching for somethign important then all of sudden 1000 things pop out of no where. its irritating, its like juss leave me along, idont wanna see what youre trying it offer. its juss junk anyway, nothing important to me that i need. aghh theyre so irritating!

"Girl, your stare, those eyes I (Love it when you look at me, baby) Your lips, your smile I(Love it when you kiss me, baby)" Im done...im out GOd bless!

"Seeking the face of God in everything, everyone, everywhere, all the time, and seeing His hand in every happening-that is contemplation in the heart of the world."

Good stuff huh! As i read that quote, to me i think its a goal to strive for. We gotta try to see out God's face in errthang we do. Its gonna be hard thing to do, but w/a lot of prayer and the effort of wanting to do it...well itll work out. God is everywhere and in everything, his love working through us is so great!

Well i started skool yesterday, ehh something that i dreaded to come. I onyl have one class though on tues. & thurs. i figure i rather take math for 1 hr 4 days a week then to take it 2 hrs two days a week. I cant sit still that long, imma end up leaving class or juss not going at all. haha This instructor is pretty d0pe, real kick back and easy going. Praise God, that it didnt take me long to find parking either. The first month of skool is the worse to find parking, its like once you find a spot dont leave. I know some people in my class too, so its should be pretty coo. One of those people is my co worker in fact, haha i think she'll help keep me on my toes...i hope!

It was my supervisor's bday yesterday, and my co workers and i had planned on a potluck for him. Only we all forgot to bring something! hahaha its all good though, the city girls took him out for lunch. I made him a nice little sign though! haha Praise God for an easy work environment, one where its friendly and warm. PLus you can openly share your faith w/others who share the same beliefs. Im really content on where i am and i dont think i could ask for more rigt now. I think God had pulled me from the daycare for a reason, he knew i needed a better place to work at cuz the other place was juss too much. Though, i do @ certain times, miss not having big major special events as well as the closeness of the place. Like i said, im in a happier place, where i can go home feeling relaxed and not worry bout waking up @ 5 to be @ work @ 6am. agh those days were the worst!

i was able to watch the movie i rented for the kids today. It was ice age, ive never seen that movie so i decided to sit in and watch it. I wanted to fall asleep though, i felt really tired. The movie was good, there were funny parts, was expecting it to be funnier though. There was one part where the mammoth saved the saber from falling into the hot lava. After he saved him, the saber asked why he saved him. Then the mammoth said, "youre part of the herd." it reminded me of something, im sure most of you already know what i mean. So that i guess kinda stuck out in my mind from the movie.

I led prayer meeting tonight, there wasnt many people, it was nice and quiet. Durign praise & worship, we couldnt find the transparency for one of my songs, so we ended up juss having to sing it w/o it. It went well though, so praise God for that. During the whole time i was up there, all i could do was feel His presence surround me, as i was reading my prayers i juss couldnt stop smiling. I was nervous at first cuz i wrote them all out last wed. and i hadnt touched them since then. As i writing down my prayers last week, i came across this: "HUngry for love, He looks at you, thirsty for kindness, He begs of you. Homeless for shelter in your heart, He asks of you. Will you be that one?" it was juss whoa and overwhelming when i first read it! soo powerful, yet moving and inspirational at the same time!

I dropped off katrizzle and cjay home last nite after prayer meeting. I told katrizzle was still doing research on her ?'s cuz i didnt want her to think i didnt care. cjay posed something for me to ponder on too. So there;s scienftific proof there are dinosaurs, how come it doesnt talk bout it in the bible? How come it wasn't part of God's creation when He made the earth. Thas what he asked, it was something i never thought bout before. I like it how they ask ?;s its good for them. What i dont like is peopel who juss say "juss have faith" when theyre asked ?;s by kids. I mean at least try ot make a effort, people like that probably juss dont wanna bother...sad

I was watching american idol tonight. Man some of those people cannot sing @ all! yeah it sounds mean but my goodness...then those who dont make it are in total denial of it too! Its like get it over it and move on you didnt make it! I think kuya, fred and jay should try out for it, they can try out for it as a trio! haha they could sing praise & worship songs. Some of those people put on quite a performance! hahaha

Well thas it for now, i wrote this out earlier last nite, but then it got erased...ah! i hate that so now imma try it again hoping it'll work.

"Oh, Maria Maria, She reminds me of a west side story. Growing up in Spanish Harlem, She's living the life just like a movie star..." Im done...im out God bless!

"Jesus comes to meet us. To welcome him, let us go to meet him. He comes to us in the hungry, the naked, the lonely, the alcoholic, the drug addict, the prostitute, the street beggars. He may come to you or me in a father who is alone, a mother, in a brother, or in a sister. If we reject them, if we do not go out to meet them, we reject Jesus himself."

Mother Teresa such an inspirational writer as well as a person. SO much compasion whenever she talks, errthang comes straight from God. That quote kinda hit me, it made me realize that i need to be more loving and patient w/certain people. Who knows, that oculd be Jesus himself im being harsh to yet, not even seeing it. Then when final judgement comes, JEsus might tell me i was the one crying out for you, yet you rejected me. I think imma try to do it, cuz i never thougtht bout life that way.

It was pretty skurry cuz the phone rang @ like 1210am, my house phone. So i go to pick it up, thinking what if its a family emergency. I pick it up, "Hello?" all i hear is a long beep, i repeat myself couple more times with "hello?" same thing happened. Reirich said i was trippin, but he thinks maybe someone got the wrong # and was trying to send a fax. I dont know i juss got skurred, cuz it rang out of no where and well the no one ever calls this late @ nite.

I praise GOd for dependable friends who i can count it. Ive had friends whom i needed to help me out w/in the past and theyve become flakes. Today was my kids final performance @ work today, i was pretty nervous cuz they kinda looked uprepared during practice. So i was praying for God to give them strength and the courage to go up there on stage. I know how skurry and frightening it could be, especially being it your first time. They did really well though, except the Cd kinda skipped a little bit. Maybe weve played it out w/in the past couple days repeating the song over and over again. haha Im glad lyn lyn was there to help me, basically she did all the work in getting these kids together. If it wasnt for her, then i wouldnt of had this show today. The kids parents enjoyed it and they wanna see a big production @ the end...thas gonna be a huge challenge for me. The kings came today along w/banne. They got to meet and talk w/my boss today, it was nice he enjoyed them. im glad they were able to come out and support me. They got to see my office and what i do @ work.

The rest of the work day went pretty smooth and fast too i might add. I like days like that, where theyre not hectic. I hope tomorrow is like that too, i remember last time i led prayer meeting i got attacked @ work. ahhh please pray for me, for i will be leading prayer meeting tomorrow. Im still tyring to get over this sinus thing, but i think God has hmm healed me enough to dance to the closing song tomorrow. hahahaha Well see wha happens, another long day, its gonna be like that too for a while. Skool starts...oh joy! then i got work, which will be pretty smooth, i think imma watch the movie. i havent seen ice age yet, which reminds me i gotta get the movie tomorrow.

Went to go and visit the velascos tonight, along w/errone else. It was really nice to see them back again. I had realyl missed them while thye were gone forever. Now my prayer buddy is back! wooo!! i love her! im glad shes my prayer buddy cuz shes juss as active as i am, maybe thas why were prayer buddies.

please pray for a special intention of mine, they really need errones prayers right now. I know God will help them through these ugly thorns, in order to let the rose bloom!

"We ain't to tough to pray! You walkin' around like a gangsta, gangstas pray! Thugs pray!" im done...im out GOd bless!

"SOme people come into our lives and quickly go. Some stay for a while and leave footprints on our hearts. And we are never, ever the same."

IM very fortunate to have the people i do in my life. They make a huge impact on my life and really affect the way i see things. Gosh id be lost w/o them, i wouldnt be where i am today. Thas why God has placed these certain individuals in my life for certain reasons. TO help me out in certain areas where i need strength. so thas it for now until next time, send me more emails! haha jk!

Naw, im really lucky to have been accepted my the uprm guys. HOnestly i dont even know how i really got accepted into uprm. Let me check my organzier and look back into the months of march-april hahaha jk
the bond that 7 of us share, is so incredibly strong, i dont know if there is anything that could break it. We pick each other up when we fall and clean each other up. Were always there to support one another through good times and bad. Unlike other people ive known in the past, who only end up setting me up for a dissapointment. Well ill get into that later, thas another issue itself. Anyway, yeah the friendship uPrM share is the greatest, i can juss be myself. UpRm...stands strong, no doubt, no doubt! and if you dont like uprm well i dont know wha to tell you then...

im a bit dissapointed right now, mixed w/i guess anger? yet i shoudlve known this and maybe im stupid for trying to keep on trying. Well i have this old friend whom i use ot be close w/before uprm. He's a ex catholic now a non practicing protestant going ot fcfc, who thinks catholics are "boring." boooo on him, he doesnt even practice his own faith so why put mine down?! ya heard! anyway, ive been trying to invite him to prayer meeting for a while, he came only once when i had gone the very first time. Ever since then he doesnt wanna go, last time i was leading i invited him to come. i thought if i told him im leading maybe i can get to come to show support. Well he said yeah well see and wha not. He never came, i figured though, he's always ended up setting me up for dissapointments in the past. so tnight i invite him to go, i threw in the friendshup card too. i had too though cuz i mean gosh ive always gone to him and our other friends bball games. There was one time where i would go err sunday, i would drive to cerritos college juss to go out and support them. Why? cuz they were my friends, thas what friends do is support each other. He told me he would see and that hes juss not as good of a friend. Dont get me wrong he has done positive stuff and has helped me out, but i dont know. boooo on him as of now!

Well today was a really interesting day, yeah it was. Went to mass, after came home washed 2 dogs ate lunch. my parents were cleaning out the stuff n the storage in the garage today. I foudn some old childhood memories going through that stuff. ahh the good ol dyas, when the only you worried bout was wanting to get new toys and turning in your hw. Now...we got plenty of other stuff to worry bout. haha

Had another edition of music ministry practice today, which was fun. Did a lot of singing, haha then again thas wha music ministry is bout! After upRm minus two, ate at the infamous hometown buffet @ south street. The place where uprm feels @ home. What a interesting visit, well we got there i thought it was gonna take forever since there was two lines. One for paying ofr your food, another for to be seated. i stood in the lets get seated already line. so as the line progressed there was this girl who looked like this girl iw ent to prom w/jr. year. We had a little bit of small talk, when i went got up to the front.

So we ate, talked, ate and talked some more. We asked the server bout the girl since some of us felt she was coo. I guess he ended up telling her like we were interested in her or something. her reactiion was whoa, really. haha im assuming excitied maybe? in the meantime she keeps pacing back and forth our way. As we were leaving she comes up behind us real loud and says "bye guys!" telling me we were loud and how she could hear us from afar. i kinda told her uh huh whatever, and blah blah. As were stading outside debating what to do, she comes back out of all sudden out of no where. Gives me this dollar and says, "oh i think one of you dropped this." oohh whY!?! hahaha ill juss leave as that, if you dont understand sucks for yoU! hahaha

Went to the soratorios house tonight, it was fun to chill and not woryr bout a thing. We were singing, talking and juss really enjoying each others company. i think thas something thasreally important, i mean honestly i dont feel it necessary to be spiritualy productive ALL THE TIME. we cant do that, i wont do that, and thas it. there are times to do that and other times where we need to enjoy the people God sent us to be with. To me too often the whole point of enjoying each others company is being missed. Dont get me wrong, i enjoy being spiritualy productive but there is a time and a place. i juss like being able to sit and talk, while juss bonding w/my brothers and sisters.

Kuya is one of them, who's company i really enjoy. SUch a great guy, who is goign to make one d0pe father some day as well as a husband. a friend who is alwyas there for his friends & family no matter what. He stands for wha he believes in and knows how the game works. as the old saying goes, "a friend in need, is a friend indeed." and yes that is my kuya! he's juss always fun to be aroudn with, ive always known that too. Its juss now that weve gotten closer i really see it. I do see God in his eyes! I love that guy! maybe thas why i named that white bear after him?! hahaha forreal though i dont know what i would do w/o him...thank you God for sending me a big brother!

Martin Luther King Jr. said a long time ago, "I have a dream, i have a dream that one day people will not be judged by the color of their skin but by the content of their character." Praise God for his dream did come true, yah of course racism still exsists, but now we can actually be w/someone of a different ethnicity and not put ot jail or beaten to death. Thanks for your patience Dr. King, im sure youre smiling down knowing your dream did come true! Ü

"oh i see her face everywhere i go, on the street, and even @ the picture show...have you seen her? tell me have you seen her..." im done...im out GOd bless!

hmm ive been lagging on my blog entries...i think its blog laziness mixed in w/me not feeling well for the past couple days. There hasnt really been a whole lot going in my life, so maybe thas why i had no "real" need to make an entry. I think errone has hopped off the blog train, except maybe for a couple. haha I remember the days when errone would update theirs daily, now youre lucky to see one of them updated at all. hahaha

"In loving one another through out works we bring an increase of grace and a growth in divine love."
i like that quote, the more we love our own brothers & sisters, the more we continue to grow in divine love. Im using the gift of love as my theme for prayer meeting on tues. I pray & hope im feeling back to normal by tues. otherwise, i might not be able to put in my full effort into the closing song i chose. Well i guess being were on the subject of love, the reason i chose that as my theme is cuz ive been seeing a lot of it lately. The different people ive been with, i see them sharing that special gift of love. Like the other day when i saw lyn lyn and leilani together, how fun it was to see them playing together. The Sh community, no matter where we are, whether @ prayer meeting or someone's house, we always share the gift of love w/each other. Even when were online we show that special gift. So anyway, juss some shed some light on that.

Ive caught this mini cold and it really sucks cuz my nose is running, and sore. i dont know where i caught this cold from either. It started sat. nite w/a stuffy nose then waking up sun morning feel like ehhh! Then as the week went by it kinda let up a little bit. i hate being like this too cuz then i cant function fully. Usually i only get sick once a year, so maybe this will be the one time this year. What else is going on...

Work has been going pretty well, in fact lyn lyn is gonna be my coworker soon! one of the other rec leaders had put in her 2 weeks. So it left a open position, i was able to offer it to lyn lyn. It helped too cuz she got her foot in the door helping my kids coreogrpah their hawiian dance. She met my two supervisors too and errthang they were coo w/her. ONce she becomes my coworker then she'll get to share the office w/me! woo!!! how exciting to work w/a friend again! Monday afternoon the kids in my theatre class is gonna be showign their dance to the city staff along w/their relatives and all. It should be good, they put a lot of hard work into it.
Hopefully this will help expand my after skool programs @ work.

It was pretty coo, i taught my class on thurs. nite, to sing heart of worship. I wanted to do a fast song, but i didnt have any music for the fast songs.Which reminds me i need to bring an extension cord for thurs. nite. i told the kids when we sing to GOd, we arent only praying once, but twice! they were like ehhh cuz they didnt want to sing, but i made them. haha sounds mean, but cmon #1 i didnt put them on the spot, #2 i told them its not like vokal class, so who cares how you sing, #3 if they can sing their pop/emo/r & b/hip hop/rock/alternative songs they i think they can sing a simple praise song.

its been a coo day so far, i went to support boss lady @ her work for the park dedication. I was able to help her blow up balloons and pass out cake. haha it kinda felt like i was @ work again. i didnt mind doing it though, it wasnt anything hard too. Being their city if bigger, they got a lot more staff, like rec leaders and what not. Shes got a grip of rec leaders, one of them seemed really old too. haha how funny.

Went to the santo nino today @ sPv. it was busy juss like any other event that goes on @ church. There was a grip of food like lechon, pansit and what not. Anyway, i didnt like how some people were pushy and rude in line. Sadly to say, but many filipinos are like that when it comes to food. Theyre such in a hurry to be the first ones in line when it comes to food. rush, rush, rush...

Kuya told me ive been lagging on my entries to here is my entry dedicated to him! haha oh yeah my kuya bear is now naked cuz i accidently pulled off his red bow tie. aww boo...boss lady said to put clothes on him like leilanis hahahahaha how funny anyway, i should get ready to go to freeeeeeeds now.

"The most beautifullest thing in this world, is just like that!!!" im done...im out GOd bless!

Well i havent been a blog entry in two days! whoa! i cant believe that i totally forgot to do one, those were my intentions too.

"JOy is prayer. JOy is strength. JOy is love. Joy is a net of love with which we can "catch" souls."

Wow isnt that such a powerful quote, if you really read it and look into it. i dont know if this will make sense but check it. FOr me when i pray its joy, prayer is strong which equals out to strength and with prayer comes love. ALl which i guess point happiness. Now that i read the last sentence, it got me thinking of something i was told tonight...hmm how interesting is that.

Well going to my day, it was pretty coo you could say. I really need prayers though cuz im struggling w/my sinsues. i need some physical healing cuz its hard for me to function. Its basically only my left side of my nose thas messed up. Im constantly blowing my nose and now its all red, agh this sucks!! Woke up @ 10am thinking it was 1pm @ first. I took the whole rest of the morning to do my prayers for prayer meeting on tues. I was also able to do my line up right quick too!

I got to chill w/kuya and mizike today, we went to lunch @ toF's china buffet. haha it looked pretty good too, there was such a selcetion. As i drove back to work from the mall i realized it only took me 10 min. to get back to work from Westminister mall. So perhaps in the future i might be able to have lunch w/kuya again. He has a pretty nice little area. its spacey, roomy and pretty big too you could say.

Works been going pretty well, praise God! Since monday the kids in the beg. theatre class i teach have been working on this dance routine from Lilo & Stich. Theyve done really well in learning the moves and getting down in such a short time. In fact theyre going to be doing a performance for the city staff this monday @ 1215. I hope it all well go well. im very thankful for lyn lyn cuz shes really been helping them out since yesterday. THe kids like her too. GOsh if it wasnt for her id be lost trying ot help them fill in the empty dead parts. Praise God for reliable friends! Jenn and mizike came out today too, they were able to help out and give pointers. My boss was really impressed by them. I really praise God that this time around my program is going pretty well. I juss hope the kids will stick around till the end.

After work, i ate dinner then went to give my idea for the excercise i wanted to use for the mission trip. It was fun cuz i got to spend time entertaining ninni! ahh i love that little girl she's soooo cute and sooo adorable. I really do believe kids are truly a wonderful creation of Gods! They touch our heart and give you so many long lasting life memories. As i was watching ninni play w/banne and boss lady, you could see the love in their eyes for each other. Love beings by taking care of the closet ones-the ones at home. As i was putting on a mini show for ninni i kept trying to encourage her to dance on the "stage" w/me. SHe ended up pointing back on the stage wanting me to go back and dance for her. Then when i saw her play w/her mom and she told lyn lyn, "Dont worry, be happy." it was like aww. it was one of the best feelings in the world watching the two of them. i truly see Jesus in their eyes. Lyn lyn is such a great mom, praise God for such wonderful caring parents in the world.

So often today, we see many parents who dont have a lot of time to spend w/their children. A lot of times theyre left behind inside the walls of daycare for daycare teachers to take care of them. When i use to work @ the daycare so many times i would see parents who totally take advantage of the system. They drop their kids bright in early when it opens, then picks up when its pitch black outside when the center is closing.
MOther Teresa said this, "Everybody today seesm to be in a hurry. No one has any time to give to others: Children to their parents, parents to their children, spouses to each other. World peace begins to break down in the homes." wow, good stuff huH!

aww i accidently pulled off the bow tie on my kuya bear last nite. now its totally naked! hahaha oh no! hhaha cant have my kuya bear naked. haha you know i was talking bout this w/jay as were saying how we feel at home when were @ the soratorio house. its so warm, nurturing, cozy and more. They really make you feel comfortable there. It was great being there juss talking and enjoying each others company. It was hard to even leave their house! i really see the three of them as my own older sisters! Ü

Went to meet up w/the guys @ CpE in cerritos though by the time we go there bball was practically over. We kinda juss chilled watching them finish up their game. After we went to the towne center once again to eat and talk. I got to bond w/jay for a while it was nice to talk to him again one on one. I havent been able to do that in a while. PRobably since skool back n oct. ahh those were the days haha

I must go to sleep now and rest, though im waiting for this CD to finish burning! as strong bad would say,"until next time email that guy! what guy? me!"

"Ooh, where we go, nobody knows And what we do, is between me and you. So come on and take my hand, to that special place, I don't want this dream to ever go away..." Im done...im out GOd bless!

"We will never know how much just a simple smile will do..."

A simple smile does go a long way, if we make that effort to do so. A simple but yet meaningful smile, not a fake let me put up a front smile. I read in the kindness book, a smile can turn someone whole day around, they could be having the worst day but a smile could change that all around.

Well i think im catching a cold or something like that, i woke up w/a stuffed up nose blah! or its allergies or something, it got a lot better throughout the day just wish it was cleared up. Went to mass, and i had the hardest time cuz of my nose. It was hard for me to concentrate cuz i had to leave to blow my nose. Agh i hate when my sinuses act up like this, for some reason the claritan i took didnt clear it up either. usually thas the only thing it takes to clear it up. i took some tylenol sinuses medicine too, i think thas working. I think i juss cant be in hot stuffed up place other wise my nose will get stuffed up too.

Came home went to jays trying to search for that song, "one little candle." I guess i gotta wait till the velascos come back to borrow my prayer buddies CD. Anyway, we couldnt find it so i went home, ate lunch and then took a nice little nap. THe nap felt good, woke up and went to music ministyr practice. We got to practice the new song imma intro. when i lead next tues. wooooo! The practice went well, they got the new song down and i cant wait to play it! Aela picked a great line up, her lineup is kinda similar to the same songs i picked out when i lead.
Im still debating whether imma go to uci on tues, cuz mizike isnt gonna go anymore cuz he wants to play. so i gotta figure wha imma gonna do. At first i thought i would juss go, but now that i think of it i might not.

Went to cerritos mall w/boss lady & kuya after practice, we were looking for JL's bday gift. Which reminds me i shoudl text her right now to say happy birfday! Mizike met up w/us too later on @ the mall. We all pitched in to buy her gift. Its fun chillin w/boss lady & kuya, to me i think theyre good examples of hmm smile that could warm up anyones day. its great cuz theyre so radiate joy to other people! THeyre a beautfiul examples of love, kindess & generosity! i see Jesus' light shine through them when i see them or talk to them. haha changing subjects right quick my sister is trippin out cuz the satellite signal got lost ro something. she said "Great now we cant watch Tv cuz of the sattelite signal." hahah she swears its the last thing on the earth. THas what i mean bout being dependent on materialistic objects. Anyway going back to kuya & boss lady to sum it all up, to me theyre exaclty what 1 corinthians 13:1-13 says bout love. I think i said this before, i know its corny but its true... i think when the met and came together thas when the angels whispered, "perfect!"

Went to eat @ el torrito w/the fam bam later on that evening. I dnt think ive ever been there during dinner, im not really into mexican food that much. i was getting kinda irratated cuz our server sucked!! first off i think he was well nevermind. THen it took him a long time to come over to even greet us or at least give us water! so he finally comes and gives our drinks but that took forever. I dont like service that sucks, it kinda ruins your whole meal in a way. We didnt even have silverware @ our table ahh booo.

Met up w/aela, fred, arch, anotiono, jay and mike later on for some fellowship @ starbucks. It was pretty fun, yes yes good times good times! aela had cracked a few jokes on jay on some stuff he had said. i was busting up cuz it was hillarious! i dont think jay had realized what he said the first time hahaha. IT was funny cuz jay told aela what skool he wanted to transfer to, then aela told arch, arch told fred, fred told mizike and i told antonio soon enough errone heard it. hahahah it was so funny you had to of been there. then she later on told him he should be a panda bear instead of a bear for such reasons. ahhh fun & games yes yes, its fun when we can get together and juss mess around.

well thas bout it, i should some things together to go to work. Wooo work! ahhaa i will leave with this thought though, "in loving one another through our works we bring an increase of grace and a growth in divine love."

"Keep On' Keepin On, Cause you came and you changed my world. Your love so brand new. Keep on keep kickin' on. Doin it right, right,right..." im done...im out GOd bless!

"Like Jesus, we belong to the whole world, living not for ourselves but for others. The JOy of the Lord is our strength."

Wow how great is that quote! i think that speaks for itself, i dont really need to interpret it. THough i really like how it said "The joy of the Lord is our strength." Thas so true cuz he is our strenghth, we can turn to him any time of the day, any hour he's always there. Thas how great our Lord is!! It brings me joy to be around those who smile, laugh, joke around etc. etc. I can give you a perfect example later on.

Well yesterday was pretty jam packed day. Wasn't home much well not until the end at least. i had plans back to back to back. I almost didnt end up going to the youth alpha training. I kinda felt like, 'why should i go, im not actually really doing the program." Good thing i went i guess cuz i found out im giving a talk w/jay, "on how to resist evil." whoa! i was looking at the topic and i kept thinking and thinking what are we gonna say. Oh well we have a while, well 3 months. its not till march anyway, so im sure things/ideas will arise between now and then.
You know i realized, well not juss not now but a while back. Well i realized that if i didnt do youth alpha mostly likely i wouldnt of met SH and i wouldnt of been where i am today in my walk. Pretty crazy, though is probably no coincidence that i met them and found out bout the prayer group through them.

Went home after that long meeting, had lunch @ home. i wanted to take a nap before core group meeting but i didnt have time. I was trying to keep myslef busy trying to do other things. I finished grading my SRE papers for tues. i juss gotta put together a lesson plan right quick for mo rice. Ever since wed. when i heard fred singing the "bump, bump, bump." ive been hearing it a lot on the radio. i guess cuz the song has a pretty catchy beat to it as well as the lyrics. hahah im feelin that song, you could really dance ot that one! haha

HAd core group meeting @ 2pm, its pretty funny cuz while some of us were waiting for the others to arrive we were playing skool. hahaha it was fun, like jaymee kept askign your typical first dya of skool questions. Can i add the class? is the write edition? when do we get the syllabus. the meeting went pretty well for the most part, we were able to "tentatively" plan out the whole year, what were going to do and stuff like that. Looks like a pretty jam packed rest of the year.

Went to SOL after core group meeting, w/Reirich, fred, mizike, and jenn. IT was pretty good, it wasnt as busy as it was the last time i went though. It can get pretty crowded over @ there prayer meeting. We did this one i guess ice breaker time of activity. You had white paper taped to your back and people had to write their first positive first impressions of you. haha i didnt get much cuz i didnt know that many peopel there yesterday. Though a friend of mine from SOL wrote on my....woooO! she said i was swe3t and funny. It was nice to see her again, i havent seen her in a while either. we got to do small talk so it was pretty nice. she gives the best hugs though, well at leasti think so cuz when she hugs its so warm and she like embraces you. i know it sounds kinda corny but oh well.

Well thas bout it, i went home after sol and caught up on some stuff i needed to finish. Well im outs gotta meet up w/some my "bravehearts" @starbucks hahaha.

"Baby turn around and let me see that sexy body go bump, bump, bump." im done...im out GOd bless!

"Seeking the face of God in everything, everyone, everywhere, all the time, and seeing His hand in every happening-that is contemplation in the heart of the world." -Mother Theresa.

i borrowed this book called "Mother Theresa In the hEart of the World." Its thoughts, stories, and prayers. I got it from my aunt its really good. Ive been kinda juss picking and choosing parts to read though. ITs really inspiring, i saw a couple other books that i want to buy @ the catholic book shop, but i'll juss wait on them.

hmm today was quite an interesting day, many different things came up that were umm unexpected? Praise God though cuz i finished apologetics, i graduated! wooo i thought i was going to have a difficult time trying ot get through the course but i made it! woo i guess it helps when you have someone there taking it w/you. Juss like in college it helps when you take the class w/someone else.

Went to mass @ 1215 w/mike, then went to the catholic book store w/reirich in stanton. we were gonna go to the other one in anaheim but we didnt have time. Maybe some other time, went to watch drumline @ the amc in fullerton w/mizike. it was a d0pe movie, i didnt exactly know what it was gonna be about but i was impressed. The whole moving to the beat and the music made me want to dance. haha i would see it again actually haha there was pretty much no one in the theatre except mizike, me, this old lady and this couple. Figures, the movie is pretty old now came out wha before xmas? or something like that. Went home then went to apologetics for the graudation, now i have the notes. Im planning on takin the second parts, its only 5 weeks, i figured if i could do 15 then i could do five. BEsides its not like i really have anything planned on fri nites anyway.

Went to xavis bday party @ this hotel in orange by the block. ehh it was aiight well no its sucked to be honest. you couldnt be loud, there was no music, no food totally wasnt what i expected it to be and then freaking jorge makes a dumb comment. ah i never really understood their motives when i use to chill w/them all the time, i really didnt. Check it, they knew they were gonna kicked out or at least was anticipating it...yet they were telling people to be quiet at the same inviting errone and their roomates to the hotel. I have to admit though, the hotel room was pretty cozy. Its like a mini towne house, you have kitchen, stove, 2 baths and then 2 beds. also a nice fire place to get warm to cuddle hahaha. jen left w/todd so that was my cue to leave too, we told them we were gonna get some fresh air but decided not to go back in. From there, ended up going to jays to chill for a while. i heard this d0pe song from whitney houston w/nelly on it. it soudns d0pe!
"Come back to me, Can you feel me, Hear me callin’ for you, Cause it’s..." im done, im out God bless!

"To me, contemplation is not to be shut up in a dark place but to allow Jesus to live His passion, love and humility in us, praying with us, being with us, sancitifying through us." -Mother Theresa.

Wow, that was a really good thought, and something i think we should all strive to be. I guess you dont gotta be in a dark room to really mediatate or to pray to Jesus. Everyday we should allow JEsus to work in us and not deny him. ANyway, thas juss some food for thought. I gotta lead prayer meeting in a few weeks, im kinda excited cuz i wanna intro. this new song. hopefully well be able to get ti during music ministry practice on sun.

TOday was pretty coo today, i was struggling kinda in the beginning to keep myself busy. I was trying to do my lesson plans for the whole month for my after skool program. I didnt really get too far, but oh well it'll give me somethign to do kinda on mon. when i come in. I dont like doing arts & crafts really, im not really into the whole messing w/glue stuff. i dont know why i dont get into it, i guess, plus i have a hard time figuring out things to make. I remember @ the daycare my old boss would be able to whip up something in a min. out of like any kind of material given to her. THas tight though, i wish i could do that. i changed the display case outside finally. I kinda procrastinated on doing that cuz i thought it was going to take a while...it didnt though.

I finished running all of kuyas errands for him today, haha i got his CD that he wanted burnt then during my lunch i went to go deposit his check for him. haha it felt like i was his administrative assitant or something like that...ahh i feel so used! hahah jk My co worker took us out for lunch today @ the olive garden. That was coo of her, it was nice cuz the 3 of us rec leaders have been trying to plan a time where we could all go out for lunch. Usually every time we try to plan something comes up like one of us would have to stay back. IT was coo cuz it all ended up working out today. Praise God! Though i was rushing to get back cuz i didnt have much time cuz my break was almost over.

I was kinda expecting a bigger turn out for my cooking class today, thinking i would have a lot more kids then last time. Oh well I guess God has other plans for that class, it was coo i worked with what he gave me. 3 of the kids from last time came back to retake the class. We made chocolate chip brownies today, it was kinda messy but the most important part the kids were able to make it. Its nice to see these precious little gifts God gives us smile. To see them happy and enjoying themselves makes me smile and feel good inside. I made a batch for the city manager too! ha gotta get up there and play my cards right.

I felt really tired after work today, i dont know why maybe it was the calmari i ate or the walking back and forth from city side to parks & rec side.blah blah blah what to say what to say. so yeah i was watching real world for a while and i almost fell asleep too laying on kuya bear. I never realized how comfortable he was to lay down on. i found this picture from the xmas party, w/me holding up kuya bear after i opened the gift and right behind be was blue8312 hahaha how funny i thought.

Went to SRe tonight, it was nice seeing the kids again but i missed having jennifer helping me out. ITs coo when you got a partner in crime working w/you. We talked bout the magi and how it all went about w/the wise men. I dont know sometimes i think i might be overwhelming them w/too much stuff. i also talked to them bout how Gods love for us isnt wrapped up in some kind of gift box, its in us already. THen we had this mini reflection on that song heart of worship, i had them listen to it, then tell me what thye got out of the song. I had a new student in the class too, she goes to the same skool as my sister does. No wonder she has big vocab and her sentence strucure is whoa! hahaha For their hw i had them read in their books about who the Holy SPirit is and then tell me how the HOly SPirit has guided them for the week.

Went to drop off kuyas stuff @ the soratorios after SRE. It sucks cuz boss lady is getting sick cuz shes probably been overwhelminly tired. Ive had that happen before, it sucks to be sick. SPeaking of sick my best friend called me today shes been sick too for the past ocuple days. Thas the one bad part bout working w/kids, you can catch their viruses as quick as a piegeon can find comfort on your windshield. I remember two summers ago i caught one of the kids cold right before my vacation to hawaii. he coughed on me purposely and thought it was funny...agh i felt os mad on my there cuz i wasnt able to sleep cuz my nose was stuffed and blah blah. i got over it towards the end of the trip though.

KUya came w/me to eat carls jr. after leaving the soratorios. im really glad that ive gotten close to him. He's one great guy! (not that anyone else isnt) Ha its funny when we talk cuz we juss talk bout anything and everything hahaha besides that ive learned valuable life long lessons from him too. Its great how certain people can come into your life and really hmm i guess make a difference in it you could say i guess. anyway i have the best times when we chill. "popcorn & butter" hahahahaha

well as i was going through some old mail right now i came across this, "The greatest challange in your life is to find someone who knows your flaws and differences but yet still willingly embrace you with so much LOVE and CARE." thas true as in real world wise when looking for that person. But actually weve all found that "someone" thas Jesus! Check it, he knows all of our flaws, he knows that we continue to do them time after time again and again. Yet he still embraces us no matter what with sooo much love & care. How great is that! Unconditional love for us he has...

"well whod have thought? well bless my soul! whod had known well who indeed. well whod had guess theyd come together on their own. its so peculiar we'll wait and see a few days more, there must be something there that wasnt there before. there may be something there that wasnt there before." im done...im out GOd bless!

dang it my whole entry got erased...
my day
1. picked up relative @ LA
2. slept till 1
3. got ready for the day
4. met up w/kuya @ wesminister mall w/mizike, lyn lyn and ninni for lunch
5. walked around the mall
6. went to mass
7. watched the guys play vibe ball
8. ate @ cerritos towne center.

"Youre all i need and that's all i can do to surrendar my will in submission to you your grace is sufficient for me, Eternally yours." im done...im out God Bless!

Imma make a quick post bout my day yesterday. so i can make my entries all flow and not get it all jacked up again. i guess im anal like that! hahaha

Went to work @ 10, went aiight, i had a hard time trying to keep busy, trying to find things to do around the area i guess. I cleaned out the supply room, worked on some lesson plans for next week and rest of this week.
The movie matinee went real well, i had a lot of kids watch the movie. we watched the flinstones, a movie i havent actually sat down and watched in forever. I remember seeing the cartoon all the time, i dont know i wasnt too into it. i got bored of it easily, i juss like their prehistoric househould objects they would use. Those are d0pe!

i got off @ 6pm, my mom bought me some kfc for dinner ate that. then off to church, for SRE class. i think for the most part class went well. Father Brennan came in and told them a few jokes, i dont know if they quite understood it. Theyre still young, its good i guess in a way that they dont. I had a hard time w/them towards the end of class though. Went to prayer meeting after, it was coo to be back again. it was a great feeling to feel and see errone again. got starbucks on the way home from prayer meeting and thas bout it.

it was a pretty lay back, kick back kinda deal i guess...good times...good times!

"i'm capable of anything, my imagination can give me wings" im done...im out God bless!

"Be faithful in little things, for in them your strength lies."

i wasnt feeling all the best earlier, in fact i didnt even think id be able to make a blog entry for today. But God helped me get through it. Adoration a great way to help relieve any kind of pain you might be feeling.

Today was a pretty boring kick back day for me. I couldnt really sleep this morning cuz of the hard pounds of the wind. I didnt sleep til almost 3am, then i ended up waking up @ around 9am, and then i couldnt go back to sleep after that. i wanted to watch Lord of the rings~fellowship of the rings, but my mom was taping something so i couldnt do that. Sat around went online till 11am, i got ready went to mass @ 1215pm. Father kevin told a funny joke, he goes, "you know why the magi were wise? cuz they asked for directions." hahaha After mass i went to go the Buena park & cypress libraries trying to get this book for work. Luckily i was able to find it @ the cypress library. Ate lunch, went online, watch more strong bad, ate, wanted to sleep.

Went to work @ 230pm, i thought i was gonna be late cuz the train was gonig through and it was taking forever. it caused a whole traffic backup, but it finally went through. I started my after skool program classes today, it was beginning theatre today. i had 8 kids, which is normal for the first day. That always happens for the first couple weeks you get a nice turn out. Then they end up leaving for something else later on, thas what happened in the fall. oh well, hopefully ill get a lot of kids this time so i can put on a mini production.

got work @ 530, dropped some flyers off @ the soratorios and then juss lounged around the house gonig online and watching tv. Reirich;s sister had to go to the hospital cuz she was having a hard time breathing, sweating, hives and fainting. They found out it happens when she eats shrimp and sweats, cuz i guess the same thing happened a while ago. Praise God cuz she's alright and its nothing major.

kuya started his new job today, he said it was pretty kick back for him. thas coo cuz sometimes the first day of work can be real intimidating. NOt really knowing anyone or what to exactly its hard. I guess he saw my sister there today too @ the mall...how funny. We had a new guy @ work start today as well. His name is omar dadadboy, hes the one who got the job kuya went for. Hes coo i guess, he looks young i think hes middle eastern or something. He told me i shoudl try bleaching my tips or asked if ive tried...haha

I dont know what happened to me tonight, i was feeling great up until later on. NOw that there is peace within errone else the devil wanted to tear up the peace within myself. I think thas what he started to do for a while tonight. i was feeling i guess in a way down, jealous and sensitive, i couldnt shake off the feeling. So i felt compelled to go to the adoration @ St. Dominics in bellflower. I think the devil tried to prevent from going there cuz btoh jay and i couldnt exactly find out to get there online. We knew the directions, but not the compass directions. Luckily i looked up St. JOhn Bosco HS and from there i got the directions to St. Dominics. My mom didnt want me going cuz it was late and it was really windy, i went anyway. I really had to go otherwise i wouldve felt like crap the rest of the nite. Sometimes when you get God's call to go out and do something, you juss gotta do it. Thas why i went to St. Dominics, i juss had the compelling feeling to get over there for Jesus to heal me.
ahh its great to know there is a parish w/24 hr adoration, now i know if feel like this again i can go there. yeah its a bit of drive, but its all worth it in the end.

"Oh buddy oh pal oh chump friend of mine stayin' close like ketchup..." im done...im out God bless!

"Our souls should be like a transparent crystal through which God can be perceived. This crystal is sometimes covered with dirt and dust. To remove this dust we carry out our examination of conscience, in order to obtain a clean heart." -Mother THeresa of Calcutta...she then goes on to explain what she means...

"God will help us to remove that dust, as long as we allow Him to, if our will is that his will come about. Our examination of conscience is the mirror we focus towards nature: a human test, no doubt, but one that needs a mirror in order to faithfully reflect its faults. If we undertake this task with greater faithfulness, perhaps we will realize that we sometimes consider a stumbling block is rather a rock we can step on."

I really liked what Mother Theresa, we gotta be open to God for him to help take out the dust in our eyes. When we look at ourselves in the mirror errday, thas our examination of conscience. We always gotta look in that mirror to see if that dust is still there holding us back from seeing all of God's wonderful creations. Though, not all the time it takes a mirror to see our own faults. Sometimes we may see it through our own brothers and sisters actions. Though we can overcome those sins and faults by putting all our faith in God and put our trust in him to help weed out those nasty sins. The more we have faith and trust in God, what may seem like a huge task to carry out trying to defeat that sin, it only becomes a rock we could step on and crush.

This seemed like a long weekend for me, maybe cuz of all the recent events that had taken place over the weekend. I really praise God for all the different wonderful creations he put on this earth. These past couple weeks had made me really realize how great these creations are. I mean last friday, i went snowboarding juss going up there through in the mountains was juss d0pe. Look how wonderful the trees are, the snow is and the mountains, it makes you really enjoy life.

I think most of all young kids, are one of God's greatest creations. Why? They bring us joy, happiness, they put smiles on our faces w/o understanding why. They make us laugh till we cant stop and when were sad, then theyre sad. On friday i had gone over to the soratorios for a little bit, and after i came back w/banne from the docs, i saw ninni's smiling face as i walked through that door. She was lauging and juss all around really excited. it was fun cuz i was able to play w/her that day. As i was watching her, she walked over to a box and took out the packaging stuff and threw it in the air and said, "snow!" I walked over there to the box and threw some over her head and said snow! From there we couldnt stop playing with it, we woudl throw some up then pick it up. Then throw some again and pick it up. There was one point after all the chasing and running around the house i stopped cuz i was tired. I was sitting on the couch and ninni comes up to me and puts a piece of the packaging stuff on my lap and said snow. How could i refuse to say no to her radiant smile that was shinning so brightly when she came up to me.

Today at my family party, my little cousin who juss turned 5 and my godson who is 2 were playing on the swing. They were sitting down together smiling and having a good time. My little cousin started to sing happy bday to errone who was outside. When it came to me he started to sing, "happy bday to you, happy bday to you happy bday dear manong ja$on, happy bday to you." As my godson heard him say manong ja$on he instantly replied to my cousin, "No! its ninong!" so then they went back and forth till one of my older cousins explained it to them. That made me smile, cuz i never realized that my godson knew me i guess that well? Its hard cuz i dont get to see him as much as i would like to. When i do see him, its a great blessing to add to my day as well as my life. Hopefully that last sentence made sense, i dont know haha

It was my Grandmas bday today, she turned 78 and is still healthy as ever. I really am greatful for God has blessed my family with so much! Both of my grandparents are still alive and are both healthy people. They dont smoke or arent sick in bed. Its a real blessing to see both of them doing so well. To have the family get together for a time of good fellowship. Of course every family has their struggles, but those struggles help us unite closer together and help build stronger realtionships w/one and another.

I was talking w/a small group of my cousins today. The 4 of us, use to be really close and to a certain extent we still are. Well you know how it is, we all grow up and some times go on different paths. So anyway, we were sitting there lettign the food settle in our stomachs and we started to reminsce bout the past. We started to talk bout how our aunts and uncles would split the kids up between the "big" kids and the "little kids." How we would have a seperate table from the big kids. Or how one summer we were all really into rollerskating/blading. We would go through centralia skool and juss having a ball. Its hard sometimes i feel that i cant relate to them cuz im different than the rest. Though wha i dont realize is how BLESSED i am to have family to be around with.

Thoughts for the day~
1. count your blessings errday, take time out to enjoy them.
2. Continue to persevere and become stronger in your faith.
3. Dont look as a small trial as a stump in a road, rather than a rock youre going to crush.

"When i think how life use to be always walking in the shadows. Then i look at what you've given me, I feel like dancing on my tip toes. I must say that everyday i wake and realize you're by my side, I know i'm so Blessed."
im done...im out God bless!

"Friendship is the hardest thing in the world to explain. It's not something you learn in school. But if you haven't learned the meaning of friendship, you really haven't learned anything." -Muhammad Ali

I was looking at a page full of friendship quotes and out of all of them that one stuck out to me the most. I dont think i need to analyze the quote, its self explanatory...besides ive been over analyzing too many things these past couple days already! haha

Its d0pe how you can spend quality time not only w/a group,but individually w/a vast variety of different people. We come from all different walks of life, we all struggle invidually but sometimes its not the easiet to self express yourself w/a group of people all @ one time. Other might not as feel comfortable expressing themselves as others do. I dont mind cuz i guess im juss open like that, though i do enjoy when i can talk to people one and one. it helps me understand more and focus my attention on them w/o distractions. Sometimes when im in a big group it can go over my head and im too distracted by outside things.

Im tired had a long busy day, though i was able to get many things needed to get done, done. Went to drop off some stuff @ kuyas house and then chilled there for a while. i was finally motivated to go and wash my car! yay! God helped me not to be lazy this time, its been soooooo long probably like two months since i last washed it. It was coo cuz i got to spend pretty much the whole day w/kuya again! haha we have a lot of fun when were together, we can act all crazy and juss enjoy each others company. Its great cuz ive learned a lot from like how to handle things or juss things in general i never knew or thought bout it before. See the things you can learn from juss getting to spend time w/someone one on one!

Went to the cerritos mall, exchanged some christmas gifts that i receieved. Theyve been in my car for the past week so i decided to take care of it. I was able to get a good deal on the items i exchanged it with, so that was cool. I got these pants @ robisons may from a shirt i exchanged there and two shirts from aero from something i exchanged there. it feels good to get things taken care and out of the way. Praise God for accomplishments!

Went to meet up w/upRm for a little bit, watched them eat @ mcdonalds. Then left to carson for prayer meeting, i havent been there in ages! it felt good to be @ prayer meeting, since i havent been to one in like 3 weeks. I need that spiritual development there, so it helped me a lot tonight. We had a bible baseball game, ahh i got called up there and i got my ? wrong! it was who was the apostles that Jesus took up w/him @ the garden of Gethseman? I knew peter was one of them but i didnt know the rest. it made me realize i need to pick up my bible more often and really read it. It was fun though, i love being around carson;s community cuz they make me feel so welcomed and warm. i juss realized i got to know raymond fromt here better through talking to him invidiually @ apologetics on fridays. so i think it is true sometimes in order to really know/understand someone you gotta talk to them invidiually. So i was convicted to read my bible more and to reflect upon it more also.

From carson went to a birthday party, man kuya and i were the oldest ones there. i didnt know you could rent out a space @ pnoy grille. Thas what a friend of mine did for her bday party, i guess thas kinda smart and cheaper if you cant afford to get a hall and not expecting that many people. Watching these kids dance made kuya and i reflect on our days in hs. He asked me as he looked aroudn the room, which one were you? The person sitting there chillin w/the girls, the person juss standing there doing nothing, or the person there in the middle dancing. Well i said i was the one juss chillin talking to the girls haha Thas how it looked like tonight, "i juss wanted to dance w/somebody." haha the music was getting me hyped and i felt like juss dancing, i almost did too. I was thinking who cares im in college these kids are in hs, its not like im really going to see them again anyway. Jeanne came later to chill and to eat, it was nice the three of us had a nice little discussion. We all realized we need to worry bout our individual selves rather then other people. Well there's an exception to that, like if you need a pray request or juss someone to talk to for advice. Im tired, its been a long day.

Thoughts for the day~
1. Try to get to know someone you dont know too well by talking to them individually.
2. Worry ourselves before we try to worry about others.
3. Pick your bible and start to read it more often.

"And when I play them, every chord is a poem telling the Lord how grateful I am cause I know him..." im done...im out God bless! Ü

"True friendship multipies the good in life and divides its evils. Strive to have friends, for life without friends is like life on a dessert island...to find one real friend in a lifetime is good fortune; to keep him is a blessing." -Baltasar Gracian.

Wow where do i begin? It was such a busy day for me with so many things happening. Went to register for skool wkuya. Went out to eat @ rubios w/kuya, boss lady and their co worker. Went to help kuya sent up for apologetics, went to archies, went w/banne to the doctor, went to toystory 2 on ice, went to the soratorios and now i sit here typing n blog.

"When you have to cope with a lot problems, youre either going to sink or youre going to swim." This "journey" that God has sent to us in an important one. Many people were "lost" on this journey and they "fell behind." Why? cuz the journey affected all of us, we all chose i guess in a sense to follow in on the journey. Though we chose to follow along cuz we are bravehearts. Hopefully that made sense, its late and i dont know if im thinking correctly. The quote above is tellings us, yeah weve fallen, we lost our path, but do we juss sit there? do we ponder what path to follow next? No, of course not we get up, dust the dirt off of us, wash our eyes and open up to get back on that path. We cant sit there and fall back in water, weve gotta push ourselves up. Yeah, maybe we may not have a map right in front of us. Trust in God he will lead you to the way, to the solution. Once weve gotten back on the path, forget bout how you were once lost. Regain the self confidence in yourself!

"Other people may be there to help us, to teach us, guide us along our path. But the lesson to be learned is always ours."

its time to rise from the troubles, from the thorns and vines that hold us down and we need to radiate joy out to errone! Cheerfulness branches off the virtue of charity, so make it a habit that/shoudl be acquired. Cheerfulness of attitude and manner is a great way help to those who come in contact iwth you. if you are sour, unsocialable, gloomy looking person, you will make people feel uneasy, and you will intesifty your own temptatons to give away sadness. On the other hand if youre cheerful, you will lift the spirits of people invite their confidence, and increase their hope of serving God well. Within cheerfulness also comes hope! Remember hope floats! Have hope that the thorns will die and from there will come a beautiful white rose. St. Therese of the child of Jesus used to say,"We can never have too much confidence in the good of God. He is so mighty, so merciful."

A smile can bring out so much joy in a person. Actions speak louder than words right? Remember this a smile says, "i like you. You make me happy. I am glad to see you." If you dont feel like smiling, smile anyway; make yourself smile. It doent cost anything but creates much! a simple smile creates happiness in the home and fosters good will among men. It is a rest to the weary, daylight to the discouraged, sunshine to the sad, and natures best remedy for trouble. Let all enjoy the beauty and inspiring cheer of your smiling face. Above all, smile at God in loving acceptance of whatever he sends in your life, and you will deserve to have radiantly smiling face of Christ gaze on you with special love throughout eternity.

Let us take the "muta" out of our eyes, rise up from the fall, and get back on that road. "Redirect" ourselves, pray for guidance & patience ask for the Holy SPirit to help you lead you on your way again. We cannot sink to the bottom of the ground in sadness or any other kind of negative feeling. Swim ahead, swim hard and push yourself. If you get stuck again, find happy thoughts to help motivate and inspire you.

Thoughts for the day~
1. Being in pain sucks...though it helps become CLOSER to Christ.
2. Hope floats!
3. Smile like the sunrise.
4. Swim ahead and not concenrtate on sinking to the ground.
5. NEVER CEASE TO STOP PRAYING!

"I am the light of the world says the Lord, whoever trusts in me will have eternal life..." im done...im out God BLess! Radiate your cheerfulness starting today w/a simple smile! Ü