"At times I feel this void within me...wondering and hoping I would find that ONE thats meant for me...I get tempted at times to just go for whatever is there...but then I think for a moment and I know that ALL THIS WAITING WILL BE WORTH IT...when SHE FINALLY ARRIVES..."

I sit hur watching that movie a walk to remember, while talking to tita beyonce bout relationships. It was weird, i came home and took a shower. Then i felt the need to watch that movie a walk to remember. Maybe God wanted me to see this movie again for some kind specific reason. Hopefully ill be able to get the message he wants me to get. So banne and i had this long conversation bout relationships. It was really good and this is how it all started...

I had read bannes blog about what may have seemed like her never ending car shopping search. Then she asked errone to relate the car shopping to finding a mate. Then i responded by saying you cant on impulse when searching. Take time and think things throughly and completly. THough sometimes you wanna juss get the first thing you see, like at a store. You find something you see that looks d0pe, you juss wanna buy it. Not thinking bout how it might affect your finances or anything, in the future. Anyway, in the end dont give up, tell yourself in the end errthang will be worth the wait. Which is gotta be the most head spinning, difficult, hardest, task to do. ::sigh::

I have this wha is called the beauty and the beast theory. Well i pretty much talked bout in my previous entry a couple days ago. Let me reexplain my theory, i guess its not really mine but disneys. haha so it goes like this, how sometimes you may not see something in someone rgith away. Then something happens, something different sets a different tone in your mind. Next thing you know, you realized something in that person which you werent able to notice before. Whas probably the greatest feeling is when it happens to bof people. I think a perfect example is that movie a walk to remember. Goes to show how there was something there, that wasnt there before.

Today was coo, something d0pe happened tonite @ church. It like pretty much made my day for me. Ill get into that later though, let me recap the rest of my day. Another hot day, full of hot wind and hot heat. It was like blazin hot outside again, im gettting anxious for summer to come. On the reals yo! man i hope summer will be juss as fun as it was last year. I found out that my cousin has planned his wedding on my birfday, which sucks. If it does land on my birfday, i aint going. Imma go out to a club and drink till i get drunk or something like that. hahaha jk no forreal though, imma go out and do something. No way i wanna be a wedding on my birfday, i wanna be out celebrating it some place else. And if errone i know is busy that day, then well ha i guess ill be going by myself out somewhere. Cuz im lonely, im mr. lonely i have nobody to call my own...haha jk

Went to mass this morning, then ate @ hometown buffet for brunch after. I didnt see anyone i knew this time like i did last time i went. THough i ate more this time then last time. Went w/my sister and mom to anchor ble inside the bp mall. Didnt get anything though cuz there was nothing that caught my attention. Took my AOl best friend to western for this asian bball game she wanted to watch. That was fun, i havent seen the heif forever long! We caught up and were reminiscing all the great memories. Like when we went to the spv carnival last year, and she won we three 2 liter pepsi bottle. Or how she wanted to go on the rides and i didnt want to. Or when she saw her friends and they asked if i was her bf and she had to tell them im her cousin. Cuz its too hard to explain errthang to people. ahh the memories, where does the time i go?

Picked up Jl and then rolled over to mizikes for music ministry practice. That went pretty fast, we got errthang down and packed. Being it was so hot we went to get dessert @ goldilocks. It was refreshing and warm! mmm ube ice cream was great! i wanna get ube ice cream w/pandesal thas so good! zena told me that idea a while back ago. Warm up your pandesal in the oven for a little bit. After baked a little bit, add ube ice cream in the middle! ahh thas the best kind of stuff.

After we juss chilled for a while and did nothing. Took JL back home and i went stand in line for confession. The line was jam packed forreal! like waiting in line for viper @ magic mtn. or something like that. They had all the 2nd graders who go to pius, doing their last min. reconciliation so they can turn in their card tomorrow. I saw tito jess and jesty, geez my eyes are really bad cuz when i saw jesty walking i thought it was kuya @ first. PLus he was wearing that billabong shirt that kuya wears too sometimes. Well because fr. kevin was celebrating mass he told us to come back after mass.

Came home and did some stuff, ti was still hot inside the house! eww yuck, thas the worst feeling like feeling all sticky when its hot. Then i talked to heif for a while online, caught up a little bit w/her. She gave me a little advice and said, "good things come to those who wait." ahhh like i said earlier, waiting the hardest thing to do at time. Especially in certain kinds of situations! Waiting can take forever and who knows may not even happen.

I come back to church after mass is over and im back in the same line again. Though this time its not as long as before. It was funny as the mass was ending, they choir had played amazing grace. Jesty and i bof were saying how we felt like we were at a baptist church or something cuz the way the choir was playing. Wow this movie is liek almost over pretty much...aww its so sad. i saw in the theatres when it came out, i wish the ending was better though. ha we were talking bout this movie in SRE on thurs. i forgot why this came up though.

Well fr. kevin tells us he isnt going to do confessions inside the box but in the church rather. He threw the guilt card cuz he told us he;s been doing confessions for a long time. Majority of the people left and there was only like 3 people left. HUrr is where how my day was made came in. So i see this little filipino boy sitting in front of me. He turns around and says to "youre cha cha;s friend from the party." i was laughing so we were talking and stuff then i said hurr ill sit next to you. He wanted to play games but i took his focus off of that and on to praying. We prayed the Our father and hail mary together. He remembered my name!!! it was d0pe he knew my first and last name too! the kid is only 8 years old too! what a memory, the boy has. Then he asked like what skool i go too, how old i am, if i iive bymyself. Then he asked something bout kuya. The kid was so cute that i wanted to take him home and have him for my younger brother! awww

After confession i spent like an hour cleaning the church. I was mad cuz i was only able to do like a half of the church and one section. I had like 2 more sections left, but the custodians wanted me to go. I picked up all the trash from inside the book holders. I rearranged the books and fixed them nicely, setting them up the way they should be set up. it was fun, juss singing and working by myself. It sucks that people dont care how their churhc looks and juss throws errthang around like its their home. Man it takes forevet to get the churhc back into order, though the feeling i got after i was done was great!

"I'll always remember... It was late afternoon... In places no one would find..."im done, im out God bless!

"The flower that blooms in adversity, is the most rare and beautifulist of all."

I got this quote from that movie mulan, mmm mulan. Ya know if mulan was ever a real person...haha anyway, i dont think kids would understand what this meant. This was the part after mulan had saved the country and saved the emperor's palace. So she runs off going back to her village, then oh man i forgot that captin of the army looked at the emperor. The emperor turns and tells him that quote. Its cool the meaning behind this quote. The flower that blooms out of unexpectedness, or cuz of misfortune is the most rare type of flower yet, its still beautiful. I guess this is like people, the most ugliest person you may have seen in the hs or something, the next time you see them at your reunion or something they end up being the one you dont recgonize.

I like that movie mulan i watched it so many times. We were showing it at work on tues., but i didnt get to see it cuz i had to pack the commodities. Anyway, the day was pretty cool. I fell asleep watching a skurry movie, and i forgot to set my alarm for today to do meet up. Good thing i was able to wake up on time though. So we went to the MIssionaries of charity this morning. Man thas hard to stay there and live in poverty, oh man oh man! Ths so hard to be around the real world and not know whas going on. Though its d0pe that the sisters chose that way of living.

We started the morning with mass w/the sisters. It was kinda differetn cuz we didnt even do the prayers of the faithful. After mass we had morning prayer also in the room, we had to take off our slippers. YOu know lately, ive been hurring that prayer "make me an instrument of your peace." I wonder if its a sign fo me or something like that. The sisters split up reirich and corn to the backyard to do some planting. Jeanne, el huego, stider and i stayed in the front. We had a big hard job cuz on the long front gate, theres these vines. So we had to cut them off so you can see through the gate. Jeanne and i worked on that, it was fun cutting them. It was like cutting hair or something. Then the other two guys, el huego and strider worked on weed picking and planting of small fruit trees.

Probably the hardest part of errthang was the cleaning up. It was such a huge mess to pick up and put errthang into the trash bags. We took many different breaks in between cuz it was so hot! Thas another thing why it was harder for us cuz we were in the blazing hot sun. Geez, id hate to be a gardner for my career, i dont even like doing yard work @ home. Today was different though, the sisters were really glad to see us. THey were happy that we were able to help them out. The main sister who was our boss, kept saying Jesus is simling at us right now and we'll be rewarded. Though, to me Jesus already rewarded us, by working for him w/good company! Ü
Next time we go it'll be even more exciting cuz errone will be there together, the guys and the girls! woooO

We also came up w/patron saint names while over there. For example, i am the patron saint of gardening, strider is the patron saint of landscaping, el huego is the patron saint of weed picking and bag holding, reirich is the patron saint of the blang blang and corn is the patron saint of neopolitan ice cream. haha it was funny cuz they had these tree stumps there in the garden. During my break, i got up and took my patron saint picture holding the vine cutters in my hands. Afetr a long morning of hard work, we went to go eat @ some thai food place in lakewood. It was called thai resturant something like that. It was pretty good food, strider knows a place to eat for err city we go to.

Then because it was so hot, we went to get ice cream @ rite aid. mmm ice cream sounds good right now, halo halo sounded good also! mmmmm ube halo halo w/juss the ice cream, the crushed ice and the carnation milk! oOoOh that sounds good right now! While over there, el huego and strider came up w/a few more renditions of my "grace before meals prayer." Instead of using the regular name theyve been using for the past week, they changed it to someone else;s name. They stuck in someone else whom i know, its kinda funny. El huego, kuya and strider work so hard to come up w/new ways to change my grace before meals prayer.

Came home for a little bit, worked on the blog from yesterday. Sent out devotions for today then my dad took out the bedroom door in my parents room and he's putting in there a sliding door. It'll be interesting to see wha it looks like when its done. Finished watching the skurry movie w/strider cuz he came over.

Went to go watch head of state w/strider @ cerritos towne center. Man it was so jam packed that we parked all the way over by old navy. Thas how packed the place was tonite. The movie was funny, its about a political partys pres. canidate got died, so they asked chris rock to be theirs, knowing hes not going to win. Though of course he prooves them wrong and wins the election.HE made up a good point @ the end of the movie while they were showing clips of him campainging. He said, you can go to war when youre 18 and get your leg shot off, yet you cant drink till youre 21. Thas gay, you risk your life when once you turn 18, yet you cant even have alcohol till you turn 21. IF i become president imma change that law, to 18 you can gamble and drink! woooO! haha

Went to get some food @ burger king for the people @ the velacasos. I was craving buffalo wings for the past week now, so i had to go get some. I was getting mad and was pretty close to talking to the manager. I go and order my buffalo wings to go. It took like 20 min to get my order done and it was to go too. I saw people who were sitting down who got their order before mine. I asked the waitress too wha the status was like 15 min after waiting. She told me it shoudl be coming out. Finally one of the waiters who was free was told by the bar tender i was waiting for my food. HE goes and checks on it and then brings it out. I asked the waiter to charge me the happy hour price cuz it took so long to get the food. It was tight cuz he did give me the happy hour price, since i was waiting so long.

Went to the velascos and had a magic mic contest. Aela and archie bought one @ the filipino store today, i want to get one! So we split up into teams, the guys and the girls. SO it was arch, strider and i and jem, aela and babyvee. We played random too, so the comp. randomly picked songs and we had to sing it no matter if we knew it or not. The first round us guys won! Second round i ended up forfitting accidently by pushing the play button. Then the third around we ended up tieing w/them cuz i ended up getting an 88 on "new york, new york." the song by frank sinatra. booo i didnt know that song very well, only the "start spreading the news" part.

So theres been talks in the process of two different vegas trips coming up for the summer. One in may, after errone;s finals are over and skool is over. A great way to kick off the end of the semester, a way to celebrate jems and jeanne;s birfdays too. Then in July probably like that second week, were going back for viii! oOOh yeah! its gonna be my birfday so were gonna go all out like no other!! We aint gonna sleep! i wanna stay in the bleagio or paris, those hotes look so nice! Vi was pretty exciting, a lot of fun memories there. This weather is really making me anxious for summer to come! I cant wait till next month is over!

"Sing to me the song of the stars. Of your galaxy dancing and laughing, and laughing again..." im done, im out God bless!

"There are two kinds of sparks, the one that goes off with a hitch like a match, but it burns quickly. The other is the kind that needs time, but when the flame strikes...it's eternal, don't forget that."

Man i was gonig to blog last nite, but i was watching this movie and i ended up falling asleep watching it. Ha i didnt even get to finish it. Before i knew it, it was time to get ready and go to the missionaries of charity. Ahh this quote is quite interesting. When you meet someone or meet people, usually there comes some kind of spark. The person is saying, the spark is either yeah you and the peron you meet hit it off right quick. I guess its kinda like theres something there. There becomes an instant click between you and the person. THough wha ends happening though, you rush into it and then end up loosing the relationship. Thas what happened to a friend of mine, him and this girl rushed into it too quickly then they end up breaking up quickly.

The othr kind of flame is the one that doesnt seem to burn out. It stays steady and burns slowly, like when you first get to know someone. This is the exact opposite of the other kind of flame. IT doesnt extingusih itself right away, juss like a relationship. You may not hit off right away, though after time of getting to know someone, you may see something in them you may have not noticed before. Kinda like the movie beauty and the beast, belle was of course quick to judge the guy. She thought he was oogly, selfish, uncaring, dirty and rude. Though as time surpasses, the more she got to spend time w/the guy, the more see she saw something in him. Its kinda like that song, "Something there..."

Belle:
There's something sweet
And almost kind
But he was mean and he was coarse and unrefined
But now he's dear, and so unsure
I wonder why I didn't see it there before
Beast:
She glanced this way
I thought I saw
And when we touched she didn't shudder at my paw
No it can't be, I'll just ignore
But then she's never looked at me that way before
Beast:
Lumiere:
Well, who'd have thought?
Mrs Potts:
Well, bless my soul
Cogsworth:
Well, who'd have known?
Mrs Potts:
Well, who indeed?
Lumiere:
And who'd have guessed they'd come together on their own?
Mrs Potts:
It's so peculiar. Wait and see
Lumiere and Cogsworth:
We'll wait and see
All three:
A few days more
There may be something there that wasn't there before
Cogsworth:
Perhaps there's something there
That wasn't there before
Chip:
What?
Mrs Potts:
There may be something there that wasn't there before
Chip: What's there, Mama?
Mrs Potts: Ssh. I'll tell you when you're older.

So if you take a look at the first verse belle is saying, when she first met him, he was mean. NOw she sees something totally different in him, she wonders why she didn't see it before. Then the beast goes on and says he thought he saw her look at her in a different glance. When she touched him she wasnt rough to him, there was something soft. But he says, no it cannot be, i'll just ignore, kinda like he;s in disbelief cuz why would she do those things to him. Hmm it reminds me of that quote i had used in a previous entry that stider always reminds me about. The one bout how you may be w/someone youd least expect. "Sometimes it hurts looking back and moving foward but as long as youre happy now, insecurities are bound to fade."

Belles shows him a suprise a library in his castle full of books he never imagined. She begins to check herself, and says of course he's not the best looking person in village. Though i feel like there's somethign there that i didnt notice before. THen the three characters, like mrs. pots, lumiere and cogsworth all notice that the two of them both noticed that there was something there, that wasnt there before. Bottom line, dont be a fool and rush into things, haha as kuya likes to say dont act impulsively, think bout your actions. So there you go, i leave you w/my thoughts for today.

Yesterday was pretty fun day, i slept in till 0930am and then printed out some hw for phil. Started to do my theatre online hw, the stupid thing closed the hw early so i couldnt get it all done. I had to email the instructor to repost them on there. Which threw off my whole schedule cuz now i had to do the hw i didnt finish today. Anyway, then i was searching endlessly to find someone to ahve lunch wif. I called like 1000 people and they all turned me down. haha jk naw i only asked like 2 or 3 people i think. Finally, jeanne agreed to have lunch wif me. We ended up going to rubios and man it was like jam packed!! It was coo, we talked and ate decided that it was such a beautiful day we should go to the beach.

I went to staples to get some more photo paper to print out pics for the scrapbook. I also got this other kind of photo paper for like frames. Its a 4x6 size, i tested one out, it printed alrghit, thought it came out kinda of crooked. So Jeanne and i went to the beach @ like 530pm. It was d0pe cuz it was the perfect weather to go and walk around @ the beach. We walked around the stores and shops, tempted of course to buy stuff. haha it was funny we saw this store that said, "what lola wants." hahahah Then we went to his vintage thrift store, there were a lot of d0pe things in there. I dont know if id buy or wear it personally. IT was skurry, when we came out, there was this car parked in the street. ON the cars moon roof was these two manican heads sitting on the top. So it looked real!

After we got cold stones, which was also perfect to get too! Then wha happened, oh we walked around the pier and juss really admired all of God;s creation. ITs so perfect and wonderful, the sky was beautiful and so was the sun. The color of it was like oohh wow! Then on the other side of the pier it was all dark and the water was so still. Like there was the ugly side and the nice side. The nite was really cool, juss to embrace and acknowledge all of the beauty God has created. Although it was windy, it was too windy where ti was agh its too cold. So it was fun, jeanne and i did etrrthang we wanted to do. We didnt spend too mcuh time there, we didnt buy anything inside the shops. Enjoyed and admired GOd;s creation and lastly, enjoyed each other;s company!

Went to stations of the cross after i came home. Saw the velascos and aela there. Then jeanne and i went to go to my work. My old hs was having their sadies dance inside the hall. So her and i went to go check it out. man it was crowded! Not only crowded but hot too! we saw all the kids getting their grooves on. Sin errwhere! hahah crazy, juss watching them grinding and stuff, brought back memories of hs dances, oh man i remember my sadies my senior year, wooo i went all out then. hahaha

Then i was watching a skurry movie for a while. Kuya came over for a little bit, but then he left hijo stranded once again! haha agh!!! From there i fell asleep to the land of dreams and what not. Tita beyonce started a blog the other day, hurr link is now on hurr. Along w/a couple of other changes made on the links. Some people made a different blog site, so the new links are added to their names. Well thas it for now, until next time! tooda loo! awww JL said she missed me look!
Thats Me Jen7317: hi
JPFish187: hello
JPFish187: wha are you doing
Thats Me Jen7317: eating....
Thats Me Jen7317: you?
Thats Me Jen7317: hey i kinda miss you
JPFish187: awww
JPFish187: i miss seeing you too

"I've been doing this for nineteen years Wanna fight me? Fight these tears..."im done, im out God bless!

"When youre laying in your deathbed, its not going to matter how much money you made or how popular you were or how much people thought you were great. The only thing thats really going to matter to you, when youre laying in your deathbed is your relationships, how you loved others and how they loved you..."

I finally got the chance to listen to that Cd called, "the truth." The one jeanne gave out on tues. it is basically the truth. The father gives a great talk bout errthang, how to give back to God, how to love others and more good stuff. He's really blunt and throws out the god card a lot. El huego said tonite, his god card is a lot more powerful or effective then ours. I said uh yeah, maybe cuz hes a priest and well yeah. hahaha i was listening to this on my way to work and i as heard the priest say this, it stuck out. So i had to hurry and write it down right quick. He makes a good point saying the only thing that matters before you die, is how you loved others. Did i treat people w/kindess and respect, did i give my whole heart to them. HOw did my brothers and sisters love me?

Then he went on to say, if what that quote meant was true then we gotta look at our priorities. Number one, our first and main priority is, God. Talking to Him errday, spending time w/Him, loving him. Then number two, second priority is your family. Loving others, starts with your family. The priest gave this example of this little girl, who was praying w/her mom along side the little girls bed. She said you know, God bless mommy, daddy, snoopy errone else etc. Then she added, "God and let mommy be as nice at home as she is at church." He pointed out how sometimes that;s the way we are, we put up fronts for people. Like errone else at church or work or skool could think were the greatest people, yet we treat our families like garbage. Then hurr comes on sun. i take the eucharist and its like here i am "look how holy i am." YEt i still treat my family like garbage.

Do i affirm my family? Do i build them up? If not You cant say, "Jesus is Lord of my life," and treat your family like that. Cuz thas wrong, that garbage, keep it real. If Jesus is in charge of your life, you can tell cuz youre more loving and that begins at home. YOu should never go a day w/o telling them how much you love them. If youer loving at home, then you tell the people at home that you love them. You gotta learn to change cuz its time, especially now a days. Why did God make me? God made me to know him and to love him. If im going to love him, that means im going to love others also. Because Jesus said, "if you love me, keep my commandments." Then he said, "This is my commandment, love one another as I have loved you." Jesus gave up his life for others and he told the people around him he loved him, so that must be the same for us. Kuya tells me he loves me, in fact he juss told me last nite. It made my puso hurt and made me cry...awww haha jk check it...
blue83212: kuya's going now
blue83212: bye hijo!!!!!
blue83212: i love you!!
blue83212: hahahaha

agh so i finally made a declaration that no longer will kuyas named be spelled the double o y a. I dont know hwy he doesnt like it, he makes a big deal out of it! agh so i changed it back to kuya. The things i have to go through to take care of this guy. HIm and his songs that he sings all the time. When does it end? oh the agony of the stupid song he makes up and then it ends up getting stuck in my head forever.
blue83212: r-o-b-b-y r-o-b-b-y r-o-b-b-y u so fly! u so fly!r-o-b-b-y r-o-b-b-y r-o-b-b-y u so fly! u so fly!r-o-b-b-y r-o-b-b-y r-o-b-b-y u so fly! u so fly!r-o-b-b-y r-o-b-b-y r-o-b-b-y u so fly! u so fl
JPFish187: hhaha
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I started to type this last nite, when i got home i got too tired and i had to stop. I dont knwo if you noticed but i added and edited it a few things on hurr. First off, i change some of the blogs, i took off the ones who dont blog anymore and replaced them w/new blog links. Erica's link has been changed cuz she has different site. Gail's as well cuz she has a 'blurty." THen i juss added this morning, tita beyonce's link to the rest of the bloggers. Woo another person who has hopped on the blogtrain.

Lets recap my day from yesterday, shall we. I went to mass @ 8am, its always a nice thing to start your day off w/mass. After i got ready and ran over to work cuz i had to talk to an elementary skool bout camp stanton. In a way i wish we didnt have the spring break camp cuz then it kinda ruins my own spring break. Oh well i guess it'll me more $$ for me in the long run. Lyn²'s pre skool program i heard was a hit once again! woo im really proud of her cuz of all the progress she has made within a month. How d0pe is that, her pre skool program is off the hook and so will her polynesian dancing program. She's got a grip of kids who signed up for it, so that'll be interesting to see. I can be a guest speaker and show them the "figure 8." haha sike!

Went to the bank, to cash my check. Did all that finance maintence and what not. Talked to kuya online bout the whole name change. Agh he wasnt going to talk to me until i changed the name back to the regular way. Thas why i had to do that whole declaration and what not. Agh, its too much work taking care of a kuya! theyre so many things you gotta do to keep them happy! But i guess you gotta do, wha you gotta do! haha

Work was aiight, it was kinda a busy day. I was relieved that my boss ddint talk to me bout the whole contract supevisor thing. On wed. it was a bit of an awkward moment cuz well last week i asked the clerk if i could be the contract supervisor for the sadies dance this fri. It was for westerns and i wanted to do it cuz i knew the skool and id know errone there, plus i wanted to get my boogie on. Ya know cuz its been forever since i went to a hs dance. haha So she told me yes, so on wed. i was confirming the hours for it. Then my boss overheard and he questioned it. Then he asked her how i was going to get paid and then my other boss came and didnt knwo anything bout it cuz it was something the clerk and i worked out. I guess she forgot, that the three of them came to an agreement, rec leaders cant do contract supervisor events. So i was worried that my main supervisor was going to get mad @ me cuz i didnt ask him if i could or talk to him bout it. But he never did talk to me bout it, so that was a relief! whew

I had a grip of kids in my chef's club today, some of those girls juss irritate me and i was wanna agh!! i gotta get back into the habit w/working w/large number of children again. See before, i was use it, then when i started my program i didnt have that many children. Now my program is really growing, getting new kids errday. I guess i juss gotta be patient w/them and take deep breaths. So we made yesterday, berry bagles and a rootbeer float. The bagels was fun, you cut a bagel, add cream cheese, then top off w/fruit. Then the rootbeer float is self explanatory. After we made it, we delievered it to the important people of the city. The city manager, adminstrative director, my supervisors, the city clerk. Gotta work the politics, ya heard!! Its great cuz the city manager knows my name and talks to me.

I ended up closing for work, the first time in a long time. My boss was called and informed that his grandma had a heart attack. Please pray for her and their family as well. Came home then ate a little bit of adobo chicken, then rushed over to SRE. Mm the other day, we had popeyes chicken and my mom bought cat fish and it was OOoh so good! They were shaped like stars and it had a little spice to it, which added flava! mmm it soudns good right now! wooo class went well, cuz we talked botu the gospel and how you approach the question of, "are you saved?" We talked bout faith and good works going hand in and hand.

It was funny in the beginning of the lesson we talked bout risks and i asked the kids to talk bout a time where they took a risk. Then i asked achie when was a time she took a risk. I wasnt paying attention at first cuz i was doing somethin in the front. Anyway, she talked bout the time when she rode w/his guy to the "goodbye, goodmen conference." She mentioned how he drove a black 2 door civic. How she took the risk driving w/the guy cuz he drives crazy. It finally hit me who she was talking bout later on! haha i felt retarted! haha then i said jokingly, "miss jenn, you know its a sin to exaggerate right?" haha she goes no im not exaggerating! haha ahh people juss dont understand my oh so "non-chalant" driving skills! hahaha

Went home to gather up some pics for the scrapbook nite. I didnt have time to print out some, so i ended up juss taking wha i had on my bulletin board. Good thing, we rescheduled it cuz to next week cuz it gives me time to print some out. Like use different ones from all the different events that took place. Its fun looking at pictures and juss recapturing that moment in time. I juss realized now i shoudl copy and paste this to like an email before i loose my whole entry. Which would lead to me getting pissed and irritated if that were to happen. Ahh there i pasted it on to notepad, that way i dont loose it. I had to paste it to an email too, in case i got one of those error messages and wha not. agh those things suck!

Played w/magic mic @ the soratorios for while. It was coo, jennif and i did a couple of duets on there. Like crusin and endless love and i got to sing some songs i wanted to try. After uprm minus two, went over to molca salsa to eat. This time we didnt seee ko-re-ans all dressed up talking bout their winnings w/pyramid schemes. El huego and kuya made up a new dumb prayer as a piggy back off of my, grace before meals prayer. It goes like, "come lord jesus be our guest, come lord jesus i love _____." then they made another one too, that had the same exact beginning except the ending goes, "i hope and pray that i ____ will kiss me one day." Something like that, its gay! haha i cant believe those two. Then i ended up gagging and throwing up cuz el huego mentioned something sick! i dont know if i can eat molca salsa anymore, it gets to be too salty for me. Maybe its cuz i had it for two days in a row.

OH! so i was put into this awkward moment yesterday. I was at work, and i get this phone call from out of the blue. IT was #32 from the football them, calling me. He called me twice, so when i finally called him back after i took the kids outside. He was like "hey wassup, ja$on, its #32, dua, from the football team." i said, "oh hey wassup..." Dua, went on explaining to me how he's in some kind of financial situation right now. That he needed $$ to get back to skool and he needed a co signer for something. I was caught off guard and well good thing my kids were acting up at the time, so i told him i had to call him back. Agh, i dont like it when youre tying to talk to someone and speak so soft you cant hear them! its like speak up kid, i cant hurr ya! So i had to call him back cuz i didnt know what to say. In the back of my mind, i knew i was going to say no already. The hard part was saying it to him in a loving way. Besides that i thought id get more info. from on wah he needed the $$ for when id call him back.

I called my political advisor who was in midway city at the time. I told him were gonna live there then i said no cuz theres nothing there in midway city. Then he told me yes were gonna live in midway city cuz he makes the rules. haha whatta crazy day! I explained to him my little awkward situation and i asked him wha to i tell him. He give me advice on wah to say to him and how to say it. Well before him i called jeanne, but she dindt pick up. By the time i was done talkign to my political advisor, she called me. So i told her wha happened and i guess he called her too, but she didnt pick up cuz she didnt know whos # it was. She told me #32 told her on tues. that he makes a lot of $$ and wha not. I then learned he was trying to get her into one of those pyramid schemes.

So i called him back and i told him due to my own financial instability i cannot co sign for him. Though i'll pray that he finds someoen to help him out. I asked how come he doesnt ask his parents and he told me he didnt want them to know about it. Later el huego put two and two together which makes four and said #32 needed the loan amount of $2500(though #32 explained he was going to use $1500 of it and return the rest of it.) #32 needed the money to get into the pyramid business, so he can attempt to make $$. I dont know for sure if thas the reason why but im going to assume thas why.
its like one of those scooby doo mysteries that you gotta try and solve. hahah

well i think im going to end it hurr, im starving like marvin! Besides that i need to get ready for the day still. So until next time, stay healthy, oh wait you know if i were to co sign for it, id be like signing my life away! sheessh wha happens if the guy quits going to prayer meeting or what not. I was weirded out by him calling me and asking me for that. i didnt give my cell phone # for those reasons! ha geez i wouldnt even ask kuya to co sign a loan for me! oh well, whatever floats your boat or finds your lost remote. The guy is still young and perhaps we was acting on impulse. oh btw hey kuya we should be in that video, "juss the two of us." haha you know the will smith song! hahahah thas funny

"Just the two of us, we can make it if we try, Just the two of us, Just the two of us, building castles in the sky
Just the two of us, you and I..." im done, im out God bless!

"Never be in a hurry; do everything quietly and in a calm spirit. Do not lose your inner peace for anything whatsoever, even if your whole world seems upset. "-St. Frances de Sales

Agh! to the whole world and their mothers, i hijo declare that from now on then name "kuya" is spelled "kuya" and not "kooya." This has been declared on this twenty-seventh day in March, two thousand and three.

"cuz the whole world loves it when you sing that new song..." im done, im out God bless!

"In dangerous valleys and hazardous pathways, the true neighbor will lift some bruised and beaten brother to a higher and more noble life."

The basic message its saying, you gotta give before you get. Plant your seeds before you reap the harvest. The universal law works in giving you back more than you have sown. When you reap and give to others, youll find yourself blessed. The more you reap, the more you sow. He who has obtains has little, he who scatters has more. Nature does not give to those who will not spend. You only get to keep what you give away. YOu have to give before you get.

I cant wait till the weekend comes, it juss feels like the weeks are so long! Maybe not anymore now that i have no more class on wed. nites! wooo! thas so relaxing juss to know i have 2 free week nites again! I wanted to rent a skurry movie but by the time we go out of molca salsa it was too late. Anyway, hmm whatd i do today, let me think. Went to mass this morning, father brennan presided mass yesterday and today. Went home and then argued w/kooya bout the new spelling of this name. He told me he didnt like the new modernized change. He also told me he wasnt going to acknowledge me if i say kooya. haha i guess imma have to find another kuya! wanted: a fun, loving kuya who will take care of his hijo. hahaha jk i cant replace my kuya, i love kuya like a fat kid loves chocolate!

Well wha else happened, went to skool which was the usual. Took a math test came home for a little bit. Talked to kuya some more online. agh i had to apologize to him for using kooya. haha then wha happened went to phil was boring, took some quiz. I gotta study for my midterm in that class this weekend. Went to work and that was a busy day. Did commodities, good thing errthang was already done and what not. Suprisingly we had less food, and less people this month. Its weird its always a different number errmonth. its changes it goes up and down up down. Then i showed the new girl how to do a hall rental, i had her do it. I was rushing cuz i had to go meet up @ skool w/kooya.

Went to skool and dropped the cis class w/kooya. Came home and i was watching south park and part of the dave chappelle show. strider and kooya came over and we watched the laker game, waiting for el huego to get off of skool. Then we went to molca salsa which was fun! we talked about like skurry movies, i started to get chills listening to them juss imagining them in my head. Then we talked about how other people have had skurry encounters. I was getting a little bit of chills hearing all the different stories. Like how dominic saw the devil at his own house. ahhh thas skurry! forreal forreal thas like whoa! Interesting thing happened later as we were outside talking. Im sure youll read it off kooya and striders blog as well.

So the 4 of us were outside talking about pyramid schemes, you know 2by2.net and all of them programs. Where they get young people like me, and hs students to convince them to make $$. I went to a 2by2.net meetnig before, the meeting was like forevr long and i was getting bored. Of course it sounded coo, but at the same time so unrealistic. ANyway, these korean hs kids were outside talking as well. I guess thye over kooya talk about 2by2 so they come and ask us if we are part of it. Kooya told them no, but hes heard of people getting scammed by them. It was funny cuz right when we came outside and kooya saw them he knew they were part of those groups and probably juss got out of a meeting. They were all dressed up all nice, professional looking.

We make small talk w/the guys telling them to be careful and wha not. They tell us bout their vision one program theyre in. How they have contracts w/big comps like att & t, sprint, nextel, cingular, etc. PLus they have the top lawyer defending them on their side. We were juss like okay thas coo, juss we could entertain them. We asked if they were making $$ and one kid said yeah they were making a lot. Ha fuunny thing is, they all left in the end all in one car, it was a toyota camry. I was a bit nervous when they approached us cuz i thought they were looking for trouble. THen they were real coo w/us juss wanting to know info. bout 2by2.net. We were all waiting for them to try to market us into their program. That was pretty interesting talking to them and juss listening to them. They asked how we were and when they found out kooya is 23, they kinda stepped back. Kooya told them they were only bebes cuz theyre still in hs. hahaha

i got to talk to raymond from carson tonite, hes my apologetics partner in crime. We graduated apologetics together last semester. It really helped me out knowing that i was taking it w/someone i knew. Anywya he;s a funny guy, he told me this...
Shi6no9bi: what are you
Shi6no9bi: are you mixed???
JPFish187: yeah im filipino and white
JPFish187: im mestizo
Shi6no9bi: I HATE YOu
Shi6no9bi: take'n all the women
Shi6no9bi: hehe
Shi6no9bi: jp
JPFish187: hahaha
JPFish187: whatever i wish i had some
Shi6no9bi: hehe
Shi6no9bi: PCN
JPFish187: haha
Shi6no9bi: you never know
JPFish187: true
Shi6no9bi: say you have Jess Moya notes

Skurry story i was telling el huego and stider in the car. Like 3 or 4 new years eves ago, i was @ my grandmas house. Well my whole fam bam tribe was there too as well. Anywya, for those who dont know my grandparents only live right around the corner from me. That nite, this popo was trying to get this guy for speeding. The car was trying to get away so it was like a small chase. All of a sudden next thing we hurr is him gonig into the corner brick house @ the end of my street. HE went drove up the little hill, where the neighbors who live there, have their camper there. ANyway he up that curb and almost hit the camper. He than ran out of the car into the skool field.
Then you had popos all over the street looking for the guy. I was skurred cuz it was on my street.

im exhausted imma go sleep, another long day tomorrow. Hopefully it'll go by fast, thurs always seem to go the slowest @ work. Especially in the afternoons, i feel like it juss drags! agh Im running out of personal stories to write on blog! haha

"Get on your feet, up and make it happen..." im done, im out God bless!

"Don't wait for the right person to come into your life but be the right person to come into someone's life."

wow this quote made me think a lot when it was given to me last nite. When i first read it, i only thought of it pertaining to bf/gf relationships. Now that i look at it again, it pertains to many different things. I guess the simplest way to see is, the bf/gf one. How so many people look for the "right person" the person that would fit their defintion of a "mr./ms. right." THough until now i realized you cant juss sit and wait for your princess or prince to arrive juss as LL cool J had said. You could be that right person to walk into someone;s life and juss totally change it unexpectedly. So basically you cant always focus errthang on "you." You could be a gift or a blessing to another persons life. Same goes w/friends too, dont sit around and wait till you find the right crowd to chill with. Be the person that will help change the wrong crowd into the right.

Ha i was juss thinking of something in the car on my way home from mcdonalds. Its actually a funny story, well to me it is. Errtime i watch that movie mulan it reminds me so much of this girl i was so crushin on for the longest time. I dont remember if i told this story already in a previous entry. I guess if i did, oh well im sure not erreone would remember it. ANyway, my cousin use to work at the edwards theatres in westminister. By the way, that theatre no longer exsists there. So he was the asst. mananger of that theatre. It was d0pe cuz id always be the first one to see all the latest movies. On the weekends or whenever i had no skool id go and spend the day @ work w/him. Id bring my big ol cup and my little tupperware thing to get popcorn.

Well there was this girl there and her name was zena. So errtime id go to see a movie, id talk to her and what not. I was i think 15 at the time and she was 18. She was 5'5 w/brown eyes, smiled like the sunrise haah jk . No forreal she was like 5'5 short black shoulder length hair. Pretty much looked like mulan to me. So i guess picture her looking like that. Errtime id talk to her id get all excited, and then id wait in hurr line to my drink refill juss so we can talk. Ha this is gay i know but id even go the point where id go into the bathroom and dump my drink out and then come back later for a refill. Or when id go to see a movie w/my fam bam tribe, id look in the parking lot to see if hurr car was there. i ended up finding out later she only lived right around the corner from me.

ANyway, my cousin quick the theatre cuz he got a better job. Which meant that i woudlnt see zena anymore cuz that was my only way of seeing her. Well time passed and errthang, soon before i knew it was a jr. Prom was coming up and i think the thought of her came into mind. One day i decided well since i hadnt talked to her in forever i wanna go see her. it was 042499 so i was pacing back & forth debating whether i was going to do this or not. I finally did and i rang the door bell and at the time my cousin's cousin(so i guess 2nd cousin) mom was dating zena's dad at the time. So basically my aunt opens the door and we do small talk. After all the long anticipation the moment comes and i ask if zena is home.

At the time errone in my fambam knew i had this thing for her and they all told me she had a bf. Of course me liking her and all, i didnt want to believe it. This is sad part, i made up this lie pretty much so i can get a pic of her. I told her i had to do this eng. proj and i needed to ask 15 different people whom i didnt know too well wha love meant to them. I think she read right through my lie cuz she was kinda puzzled why i asked her. All of a sudden we dont talk in a long period of tmie and next thing you know, im @ her door. ahh my foot fell asleep!
So she writes down her response for me saying this, "Love is a very misunderstood concept. Although many people believe they are in love, they really arent. A very concreate example is the unbelieveably high divorce rate of the last two decades.I may sound very cynical about romance but love really does suck!"

Wow i cant believe i still have that little note. Then i told her i needed a picture also, but she told me she didnt look good so to come back another day. I come back another day and her bf was there. At that time i was still i denial about her having one, and plus her negative response bout love. Whenever id pass by her house there would be a black toyota truck there. Thas how i knew whether her "bf" was there or not. So when i was there, he pulls up and im thinking oh why?! She intro. me to him but didnt say it was her bf. As i was bout to take the pic. the camera gets all jacked up. I felt really embarassed and stuff cuz her "bf" was there too. Being the camera wasnt working she juss gave me one of those photo maker pics she took i guess a couple weeks before. I was all excited and happy when i got it. Actually she had me borrow it and told me i had to return it. i go home and i scan it right away and print it out. haha i don got the pic anymore though, i ended up throwing it away. It got ruined from one of my frames i had.

Weeks later before prom comes, i decide after getting encouragement from a friend whom i was close to at the time to ask. I go over there and i remember i ended up waking her up from her nap. On 050799, i went over there and then i pretty much bluntly asked her if she could go w/me. I remember i had hinted to her bout it the first time we talked. She told me her prom experience wasnt very memorable cuz the guy wasnt very gentlemen like and besides that after prom he boned out on her. This was in the pi too, cuz she went to hs there. Well the main reason i went over to her house was to follow up and say the eng proj i lied bout went well. Then i asked her to prom and it was amazing cuz she said yes! haha she invited me in and told me bout some dress she already had from sears.

Prom was coo, except she was late picking me up! i guess she was having probs as she was getting her hair professionaly done. We danced and ate @ the mac grill w/some of our other friends. We took pics and blah blah the usual. At the end she was tired and we juss went to the norms to get dessert. I wanted to go to some party w/my other friends btu she didnt want to. wha could i do, she drove and was my date too! ha Wha was crazy was the day after prom my little "crush" ended. I didnt like her anymore, those feelings of butterflies were all gone.

So thas my story for today! my feet hurt ive been on it all day! Wha happened today, i went to mass really tired. Though after i felt waken up and i wasnt tired anymore. Talked to kuya online as i usually do err morning. I said to him kuya is...then he had to fill in the blank. ha so he put kuya is yummy! haha then i said yummy huh like yummy boba and he said heck yah. haha Then i was talking ot jaymee forever on the phone. Went to go rent mulan for work. You know if she was a real life person, i bet you shed look d0pe! oh hurr is another of those if you really know me...If you really knew me youd know that i loved that movie the debut and that girl joy bisco is oh so hot! woooo

Work was alright, i finally got to see the slideshow from yesterdays luncheon. Went to an elementary skool to talk bout camp stanton coming up. I hope i was able to convice at least some kids to go. As of now, no one has signed up for it. Which totally bites cuz i dont know what'll happen if we dont get sign ups. Agh that week is gonna be so tiring cuz we have the big egg hunt for work also that sat before easter. Then the next day is easter...agh! Work on commodities all day long, pretty much. Thas why my feet hurt, though we got it all done today. I had help from my kids and some parents. I really enjoy working w/the new girl shes outgoing adn easy to talk to. I invited her to come to prayer meeting also.

Went home to eat, then went to the blessed sacrament for a little bit. Prayer meeting was chill, the usual amount of people there. Though we did have a new guy there this time. He fit into the "elders" catagory. Then after went to mcdonalds for the usual fellowship. It was fun, we ate told jokes enjoyed each others company. boss lady came too which made it even more exciting! Speaking of her, she looked really pretty tonite. She had a whole spring motiff thing going on. The colors, the capri pants errthang was juss shouting out its spring time!

Kuya and i are most likely going to drop our Cis class. he was informed today by a csulb cousnelor he was wasting his time w/that class. So we figured we mine as well juss drop it. Then we could juss chill on wed. nites, which i dont mind. It'll help ease my mind and not stress on tues. nites bout whether our hw was done or not. No more going to the labs and my days will be like mon nites. ahh yes, it was fun while it lasted though. I guess now i know wha its like to take a class w/kuya. FRom now on kuya is gonna be spelled kooya, the hijo lingo. Please take note of the minor change in the spelling!

Then strider, el huego and kooya were all outside of mcdonalds talking forever. Talked bout obeidence to God and living in the present moment. Two important yet hard things to try to remember. agh kooya said brb and he hasnt came back yet. I asked erik de jesus for bess' juss to see if i had the write one or not. Apparently i did, at least it was the same # i tried to call the past couple times. Oh well, whateveas i guess for right now. Well its almost 2am and i should go to rest. ahh look gail juss signed on! Enjoy this long entry again, i think im picking up the pace again! haha woo i cant wait to spend the week @ kooyas!

"And youer the kind of girl i think about,and youre the kind of girl i dream bout im done. My heart is telling me that i need you in my world. Cuz youre my kinda lady, youre my kind of girl." im done, im out God bless!

"Good nature begets smiles, smiles begets friends and friends are better than a fortune..."

YOu know, It's often the simple heartfelt gesutres in life today speak most loudly of friendship. Ask yourself today, "what can i do to bring a smile to the face of a friend? What can i do to bring a good cheer into the life of someone who is need, trouble, sickness or sorrow?" Follow through on your answer. It's not a gfit you are giving as much as a friendship you are building! So those are my two cents for today, goodnite errone! haha

agh i had like 3 paragraphs typed up and then i accidently pushed ctrl+a and then i typed something and i lost my whole entry! agh i hate that, booo!!! Anyway, i realized i have so much going on in my life, i need to make sure i get enough rest. During the weekdays, i dont get much rest at all, cuz im always going to bed late. Tonite i wont be able to go to sleep till 2am, then wake up @ 730am for mass. My weekdays are so hectic cuz errthang is back to back to back. I dont have time to really rest except on mon. nites. I gotta try and do blog earlier in the evening so i can at least be done w/it by 12am. We'll how it goes, but then i get caught up also talking to other people while doing blog @ the same time. ahh the joy of sleepin in till 12pm!

I had this crazy dream this morning when i woke up. I kinda jotted them down as notes. Oh yeah theyre two different types of dreams also. A lot of it isnt even really clear cuz well i cant remember errthang. This is wha happened though, errone i guess was going out some place and boss lady wanted to go. She asks if she can go out, she's told no for some reason. Boss lady gets upset cuz she wants to go but she cant. Then i remember kuya driving off cuz he ahd to go home and change or something. he ends up coming back to spend time w/boss lady. Then the second part is i guess in sunny hills theatre, i see people i know but their faces arent clear. I end up getting stabbed somehow and then the paramedics come. It was a pretty skurry dream!

I was so tired i wanted to go mass @ 830am @ St. I. Though i remembered it was adoration so i had to go @ 8am @ SpV. I went to mass then came home and i slept for little while, i need to attempt to catch up w/my rest. Checked my mail, sent out my daily lent stuff and checked out wha was happening w/the war. Its so disturbing to watch anything on tv now, it makes juss frustrated and like agH.

Went to class, phil was boring as usual. The discussion was about free will and some other boring stuff. I was playing snake, while the guy next to me was paying his bills off. I was happy i got there like 5 before class started and i found parking right away! wooo praise God! Went home to check mail and talk to boss lady briefly online before leaving to work. Agh we got stupid commodities to pack @ work tomorrow. At least i know i wont be alone tomorrow packing them. Its boring when there is no one to talk to when im doing that. Though lyn² seems to enjoy donig them, i told her how i get bored cuz i have no one to talk to. She suggested to me that i pray.

Lyn² started to turn the senior lounge into her new "preskool playtime" activity classroom. You guys gotta come and see it. its so nice and colorful and w/all the posters on the walls. Its soo d0pe! her and my other co worker did a d0pe job. By the time its done, its gonna look so bright and juss wow! i liked how she's hanging stars from the ceiling. Her bulletin boards are nice too! we need to get more butcher paper like different color ones to do more boards. We only have like orange and white, well hardly any white left. I guess next time we all take a trip down to stanton, yall can check it out. By that time the room should be up and running too.
Her classes are going to go so well, i can tell already! Im excited and so proud of her! Im glad they were able to hire her! She juss so creative and what not!

My class today was a bit hectic though. The kids were suppose to be working on their lyp syncs, instead i get a lot of drama. Man the boys and girls club dont have any sense of discipline @ all. Thas why my kids are all wound up and juss like whatever. They didnt even really accomplish anything in my class today at all. Mostly messed around and got mad @ each other. Though im tryign ot be patient cuz i dont want to loose these kids, cuz theyre the only ones i got! haha its so hard to kids too, thas why i gotta learn to be patient and take deep breaths.

After work, i went to visit Jesus @ the blessed sacarament, its adoration so i had to take advantage of the time. So i stayed there for a about half hour or so, i prayed my rosary and juss sat and looked @ Jesus. I guess kuya went straight to my casa after he got out of work. haha he called me on my way home asking me wheer i was. He told me he wasnt going to come till like 630pm so i took my time. haha apparently he was excited to hijo! hahaha Kuya comes over and he has dinner @ my house. We had turkey meatloaf and squash. He tried squash for the first time, but it was too swe3t for him. I forgot to tell him to peel off the shell! Then we juss messed around and aruged back and forth like we always do. He was making fun of me cuz i had on my cork board of pics, the little movie card to the "flip side." My old neighbors who lived right next door to us for the longest time came over and visited also. it was nice to see them cuz gee i havent seen them in forever long. IT was a nice little suprise for them to come to visit.

Well i made another attempt again to call. Once again i got the vmail and it was some girl talking. Though she was speaking so fast that i didnt understand whos # i called. I didnt wanna call it again cuz, the person whos ever it was might think im weird. haha So i was flusterred cuz i got the wrong # or i think i did at least. i asked darwin from SOl if he knew the #. He gives me some other # thas 909 area code which i thought didnt seem like the right one. I called it anyway and i got some girl name rebecca's vmail. After that last call i was like agh!

Small little chit-chat w/kuya bout the whole phone call situation. I have to call cuz i feel like i cant be content w/myself until i talk to her. Its juss one of those things where i feeel like i have to do. Like errone else had said i should wait till she calls me, though how is that suppose to happen if i keep getting the wrong #. Then him, jeanne and el huego said its not meant to be. El huego brought up a good point tonite, that made me think. He said sometimes God shields us from getting hurt, cuz he knows before hand someone might get hurt. So in order to prevent that, He tries to stop us. Though we dont want to listen so we do it anyway and learn the hard way. Then el huego said i shoudl jsus wait for the youf rally and ask for it there. it was ncie cuz he said he doesnt want to see me get hurt over this i guess.

Anyway kuya told me that someone once told him, that in order to get over something, you gotta say no. Easy said but the words being said conveys much truth. In order to give up something, juss say no. Then he brought up an example. HE said you do something and then it makes you frustrated causing you to sin. Therefore the only way to deal w/that temptation is to say no. The more you say no, the moer it becomes a habbit. Leading me to eventually not want to call her. Kuya also related to the who moved my cheese story, how the story relates to not only the iob style but lifestyle as well. I cant stay in one place but i gotta explore and look for more opportunities. Which is something jeanne told me tonite too. I should keep my opitions open cuz if i keep focusing on that one person (whom we all know), then i might be missing our on someone else.

There are some questions i need to answer for myself and to really think about. I took kuyas ending advice and i delted the # from my phone, then when i see her @ the youf rally ill ask for it. If it's God's will that she becomes available for me to at least talk to her. Well see wha happens but i guess in the meantime i need to focus on trusting in God and answering those questions for myself.

Talked to my AOl best friend tonite, ti was coo cuz we havent talked on the phone in forever. ha we remicised on all the different things that took place in our lives. Liek the bet we made last year and now i owe her teddy crafters some clothes. Or the time when she wrote to me in hawaii, the risk i advised her to take. ha how she found $$ to go to winter formal in her locker @ skool. To this day she still doesnt know who gave her that money to go. Ha or the time her and i went to starbucks over the summer, she saw her cousin there. HEr cousin asked her if i was her bf and she was like no. haha we bof laughed cuz she's like 12(not really, more less 15). Im like 20 so im like 5 years younger then she is. haha she wrote this bout that time we chilled in her dead journal.

"-i went home cleaned a little did a buncha nothing then talked online and jason offered to go to starbux and we ended up going
-we went to starbux but i went to cold stone and i saw my cousin nicole, christian and carlo. my cousin christian didn't member me but whatever. i haven't seen that lil boy in like YEARS.... jason and i went to goldilocks and he checked out more girls and bought some polveron. hahaha. yep yep"

oh the memories! or how i went to her cousin mary;s birfday party too cuzi was invited. hah iwas stuck there w/a bunch of hs freshmen girls. I was the oldest one there, it was weird i dont knwo why i went. haha I lost playing dollars to this one ghett0 chick. Though my cousin ended up winning it back for me! woo I love my aol best friend, she's so fun to talk to! wha up heif! hope youre reading this really long entry! haha thanks for all the good times!

Went to dennys w/el huego tonite for a little bit. Saw an old hs friend there also, i invited her to prayer meetng but she had some bbq to go to tomorrow. OH well, though ti wouldve been coo if she went. I got fries and ranch though i shouldnt of even gotten it. I dont know why i knew i wasnt really hungry, but i got food anyway. Came home and talked to reirich for a while online. He gave me a good quote to use for tomorrow's entry. Well thas it for now, i gotta long day tomorrow! please keep me in your prayers, i hope nothing bad happens tomorrow!

"Doesn't really matter what the eye is seeing, Cause I'm in love with the inner being. And it doesn't really matter what they believe, what matters to me is you're in love with me..." im done, im out God bless!

"Two incredibly powerful words: 'thank you.' "

To me this is something important, to always try to remember to say thank you. So often sometimes i forget to say thanks or to show my appreciation. Though im forever grateful of whatever is done to me. I try to show my appreciation as much as i can to others. I think something to always say thanks for, is juss waking up to a start of a brand new day. You never know when your time may be up and juss liek that you could be gone. Whoa thas a skurry thought to think about. Speaking of skurry i think it was last week, i was taking a shower getting ready for skool. I heard a noise like someone walking into the house and i got skurred cuz i had this ugly vision of something happening to me. It was skurry cuz i was home bymyself and the bathroom door was closed. ANyway, sorry back on track dont meant to skurr errone first thing in the morning. I know many of you read this first thing when you get to work. Showing appreciation doesnt even have to be done by materialistic things, juss by saying the two words.

So after a long nite @ carson, i return home back to my own community. Went to mass this morning, and the lector read the first reading twice! i dont understand how she didnt realize as she started to read it, that she read it twice. She didnt even end up reading the second reading, at all. Though maybe God was telling her to reemphasize the first reading. Cuz the first reading was pretty important, dealing w/the ten commandments. Father asked errone to repeat the ten commandments @ mass this morning. No one really except for a few and the children;s choir remebered them. Im sure Father brennan wasnt too suprised that not a lot of people knew, yet frustrated at the same time.

OoH i forgot to add in last nites entry, we upgraded our sattelite plan. So now we got more channels to choose from and on top of that we have bet now! haha i know that probably sounded ghett0 but i use to watch bet a lot. They always had some interesting shows on there. NOw i can watch like 106 and park now and other such shows. A lot of times bet comes out w/the new videos before mtv does, so thas another reason why bet is coo.

Went w/to music ministry practice today after getting in n out for lunch. mm it was good cuz i havent had in n out for a while. Actually i take that back, i think the week before lent i had in n out when i had gone w/el huego. We practiced the songs for the SOL rally and for the thing on thurs. nite also. Went w/lyn² to conroys to pick up the flowers for work. Then we went to work and attempted to work on it by ourselves. Only it didnt really work out that way. Well actually lyn² done more then i did, she filled up the bowls and what not. I sat around snacking on errthang we had work. Then we bof ended up snacking on like candy and ice cream.

Then errone else came which really helped out cuz i was feeling kinda stressed even though it wasnt my proj. Cuz i didnt know how we were going to get it done, but lyn² was right she told me, "God will help us." And she was right, we did end up finishing it. W/the help of God, aela and achie, they fluffed the flowers and totally juss made it all nice. whew, lyn² had to get vases @ the 99 cents store, soo good thing that store was open late too. I felt bad i didnt even do anything, i ended up playing 'rounders' at the other end of the table. haha we played black jack for a little bit. Then moved over to play poker, where strider was upset cuz he bet too high and lost all his earnings. After i was feelin to play pusoy dos, so we played one game w/arch and mizike. I asked strider to put down and hahah the expression on hsi face was so funny. He was like all frustrated from loosing to poker.

Went to the soratorios to sing on magic mic. ahh it felt nice to see the old friend again! i havetn seen him in a while. it was fun errone was singing and laughing, enjoying themselves. it was great a feeling to be w/errone again. Lately i guess errone has been busy so we all ahvent actually all chilled together in a long time. I cant wait till summer is hurr cuz then we can all chill late nite, errnite! wooo then i cant wait till my birfday! oh man oh man oh man im gonna be 21 woooo! then i can do errthang, im soo going to vegas and hitting up errthing i can my hands into! forreal, forreal i aint even gonna sleep! though i wanna have errone w/me on my birfday, meaning i wanna celebrate it w/errone! hmm my birfday lands on a sat. this year, so maybe i can have a huge celebration on sat. Then the following weekend go to vegas or something like that. Well see wha God has in store for me! =) wow im excited juss talking bout it!

I made a new online buddy tonite! wooo Im telling you, AOL brings people together, forreal thas partly how i became of the community. If mizike had never imed me that one day, then id be lost in the streets someplace in some kind of gang. haha no im being dramatic, though my life would be a lot different w/o errone in it. anyway so i get this im saying "hi." At first im very hmm i guess defensive and paranoid thinking it might be someone trying to mess w/my head by perpin. Ends up that its Tim from oxnard's gf who i was talking to. She was asking me to send my daily lent devotions ot him on the ship. He;s in the navy and i guess juss left for the middle east or is on the way there. HOw skurry...man the whole middle east thing trips me out.

its sad how our soliders were captured and then tortured and even killed. On top of that they show it on tv for errone to see. agh that hurts me and only makes me angry. It only makes me more glad that we are over there cleaning up their country. i wonder what'll happen if they end up catching sadaam, whoa thatd be pretty crazy if they did. Kuya and i are at peace cuz of the geneva conference truce. I cant touch him and he cant touch me under those rules. I find it hard for me to stay @ peace, when i jsus wanna attack and go all out! ahhh haha let the "hi-joe" come out and fight! haha

So anyway back to the girl, i guess thas tim's gf. Shes really nice, shes part of SOL's community. Though i dont remember seeing her all the times ive been there. She said shes still new to her community. I told her to come our prayer meetings sometimes and i linked her up to our website. I wonder if she ended up signing the guestbook. I told her too and she was skurred cuz she doesnt know anyone and she's signing our guestbook. I reassured it was alright cuz i had doen the same thing before in the past. I hope she can make it to our prayer meetings, thatd be cool.

i was lookign back this morning at my hold hs yearbook. I bought erryear, i mean i mine as well. Its incomplete to get one year and then not the year after that. And as i was reading back at the things people said to me, a tear came to my eye. haha jk though it made me smile a lot and juss laugh looking back at those times. ahh hurrs one entry i use to read over and over again, especially after it was signed.. ::sigh::
"2 fish head...thanks for creepin into my 4th period class to give me this book. We have all their inside jokes and weve already had one week 'anniversary-" which was yesterday haha jk youve been a nice guy. (were cool sophmorees) now im gonna be glad that youre gone. jk im babblin! you owe me free stuff. jk i play w/you too much. See whenever dork... i know youll be seeing me cuz that damn camera ;s everywhere. Im done love always anne milo. hs ahh yes the memories of fun n the son!

"You're the reason why I found my way. And you're the reason why I feel this way. And you're the reason why I have to say...I had to let you know you're my everything..."im done, im out God bless!

A True Friend Is...
someone who knows when you are upset.
someone who won't let you get away without talking about it.
someone who will risk their life to make sure you don't up and die on them.
someone who you can call up at 10:30 at night no matter how small your problem.
someone who instead of going with the "big group" will go with you when you feel bad.
someone who can just let you be when you need time alone.
someone who goes out of their way to make sure you're happy.
someone who always has a shoulder for you to cry on if need be.
someone who if you do cry on their shoulder won't go and tell the world.
someone who puts your happiness equal to theirs and not less than theirs

that little poem thing speaks for itself pretty much. I hope i hold at least some of those characteristics of being a good friend. Anyway, i didn't get to blog last nite cuz i was too tired after coming home from the LbC. Yesterday was a pretty coo day, hey did yall know thurs. was the first day of spring? woooo thas why its been oh so hot the past couple days. ITs coo, id rather have hot weather then cold weather like rain and what not. So i sit hurr eating my oreos and milk that ive wanted since thurs. nite. See i was telling lyn² this in the car on fri. I have to eat oreos w/milk, i cant have it w/o each other. For example, i cant eat the oreos by itself, cuz it juss doesnt work that way for me. Oreos and milk are great!

Since thurs. marked the first day of spring, i started to spring clean. We cleaned up our backyard and the side of the house. Oh man my oreo juss drowned inside my milk awww heck! i hate when that happens, cuz then i gotta wait to it all melts in the very bottom. I finally cleaned the inside and outside of my car yesterday also. agh my car was filfthy inside and outside. It feels to drive a clean car now, especially looking at in inside while youre driving. When its not dusty anymore and what not. Went to the westminister mall to go to old navy there. It was kinda weird not going to kuyas work cuz usually when i go to that mall thas what i go there for.
Speakign of the kid, he tagged my board w/his oh so hm catchy song he made up. Ahhh now i got it stuck in my head again.

I went to the bp mall to get some stuff and so i since my fam bam tribe wanted rubios for dinner, i said id stop by to get some. I figured it was right by the mall anyway, but i was wrong! agh it was baja fresh so theh i had do drive clear across the other side to katella. I wanted ot check out the thirft shop over there, but it was closed! Left to go meet up w/strider @ his house in the LbC. We went to prayer meeting in carson over @ love and faith. man its been like forever since ive gone there. THough it did feel nice being back to my other community again. It was great seeing errone again, people whom i havent seen in ages. I guess it was weird cuz marylou and raymond were talking bout our community on the way over to their prayer meeting. They were saying how they hadnt seen kuya or me or anyone in sh for a while. Later when she came in and she saw us, she was like whoa! okay i juss checked my blog book and the last time i had gone to carson was w/kuya on jan. 4. haha thas cool blog book helps so i can easily look back for reference on things i wrote about!

So prayer meeting in carson was tight, i love their praise & worship songs. In fact strider heard one i guess we use to have or we have but no one uses it. Then i found one i heard that i heard before on my fcfc cd. im feelin the song! im glad i have the song cuz ive been listening to it all morning. Anthoneezy fo sheezy was prayer leader last nite and it was good. He's got some d0pe vokals forreal, forreal no doubt! Him and leo got some pretty d0pe vokals, i told strider we should use them for our music minisry too. Their closing song, made me change my closing song. Actually i changed my whole warm up line up, so im using o magnify the Lord, lulaley and let the fire fall. Haha it was funny cuz when l & f was singing o magnify the Lord theirs is different. Instead of singing, "hosanna, blessed be the rock..." like us, theirs is "The Lord reigns, blessed be the rock..." So strider and i were singing the SH way. Haha when i was sitting down this one lady sitting next to me told me i was matching really well.

We played this one game called picture perfect over there too. It was pretty interesting, i think imma use it for my class too. YOu get into groups and each group is assigned a parable. Then you and your group ahve to make a picture scene to explain the 5 main points in the parable. You can onyl talk once though, thas the hard part. Then at the end of the last scene you had to guess what parable was acted out. It was pretty fun, we had the parable of the sums of money. Ours was pretty hard to put together at first, but slowly it came together. its great, cuz i have a d0pe time whenever im there. In fact i think im going to make a switch and be part of their core community. haha jk Raymond and i are trying to put some kind of fellowship picnic together w/our community and theirs.

After prayer meeting we met up w/them for fellowship @ tapioca express. i was listening to raymond and anthoneezy's stand up catholic comedy. haha the jokes were pure comedy i tell ya! Especially the one about casting the first stone! wha else i played pusoy dos w/some of them, though i didnt win. OH which reminds me of another tight memory. That one time when we went to striders co workers daughter's sister's brother n law's parents birfday partty. haha jk i wasnt that long of line of people, juss strider's co workers daughter's. It was a fun, though long day. We went to oxnard's retreat that day, thas when there was that big accident in the middle of the freeway. When strider had to make an emergency stop, then another emergency came and we got mad dogged by the fire fighters. haha Anyway, we had our mini uprm conference that nite. There was jello shots, good bbq and food. THen i played pusoy dos w/some guys, i kept winning too!. i finally left when they played somethign else and it was for $$ too. Oh that same nite i remember, when we all got home, we all made up our uPrM sns! hahaha awww the memories!

Oh that next day, i was really tired but i went to carson for their LSS that same day. Shessh i was errwhere that weekend! agh i was frustrated on my way home last nite from striders. On the 91e they closed like 3 lanes down for construction and had only one open. Which had errone having to merge, which was sooooo inconvient! agh then this old man who made me mad cuz he wouldnt let me merge over to his lane. There was a lot room, but he kept driving up. I finally got over and agh! oOhh last nite when we were @ "taps" haha gail calls tapioca express that. So there was a group of people doign this little game or something? i dont know but i was fun watching them. They were singing a "do run run, a do run run." the object of the game i guess is like this...
JPFish187: how do you play it
DaYsL33pR: u make up a song to it , it goes:
DaYsL33pR: a do run run run a do run run (then u say something here)
DaYsL33pR: then: a do run run run, a do run run (another thing here)
DaYsL33pR: dun dun dun dun, HEY!!! (something short)
DaYsL33pR: then two more times
DaYsL33pR: then u start all over
DaYsL33pR: hehe it has a certain rhythm too

DaYsL33pR: we had almost 30 people @ taps this time
JPFish187: haha thas funny taps
JPFish187: hhaa
JPFish187: is that wha you call it?
DaYsL33pR: hahaha
DaYsL33pR: jus cuz its funny
JPFish187: hahahha
JPFish187: thas funny
DaYsL33pR: and tapioca express IS kinda long
DaYsL33pR: and excessive

aww last nite this one little girl, well she wasnt like 5 or 6 i call her little cuz she was probably like hs still, but lower hs. anyway, i guess their community is doing some kind of youf thing for the confirmation kids. so she asked if i was coming, i told her i wasnt from this parish. Then she said somethign else, i said okay well ill see wha happens. then i think she said something else, but i shouldve invited her to SH. It was a bit different different seeing a variety last nite and not like a football team or anything. haha

Ohh ive been meaning to add this in hurr the past couple days, but id forget. SOme recent significant dates that mean something to me. Theyre not in chronological order, theyre juss @ random, so hurr i go! well these are only ones i can remember.
081401 031502 041302 042001 070102 070502 072102 060100 061800 030301 020902 112902 122902

Well thas it for now, hopefully ill have more to write bout later tonite. if im not too sleepy!

"And Lord we want to Lift your name on high and Lord we want to thank you for the works youve done in our lives..." im done, im out God bless!

"Sometimes you end up with the person you'd never expect to be with. Sometimes it hurts looking back and then moving forward, but as long as you're happy now, insecurities are bound to fade..."

Im running out of quotes hurr, it took me a while to find a good quote. haha soo if you know any send them my way! an old friend of mine wrote this quote, in fact i use to like her back in hs. haha pretty crazy cuz i told her too...well i did after skool was over the chicken way...online. It was the nite right before i was leaving for vacation to minn. It was that sun. right after skool had juss ended. The way i liked her though was kinda different. See, one nite i was online and she had imed me out of the blue. So errday wed talk online forever, and she was really cool. Like a down to earth person, so i fell for her personality before i even saw wha she looked liked. Then when we talked @ skool, the looks came second.

So i told her that i was feelin her right before i left for vacation. oh i remember, i emailed her and told her. yeah i know how gay, haha but i was skurred. i even i think unsent it cuz i was unsure, then i juss said oh well. Then when she came on that nite, i was all nervous. forreal, my hands were kinda sweaty and my puso was beating fast. i didnt im her cuz i was testing to see if things would change, apparently not. She imed me and was like "too cool to say hi?" oh i have the convo printed out and saved, haha these are things i like to look back on and juss laugh. anyway, that nite we carried on a normal convo as usual then right before i was signing off, i told her thanks for being coo bout it. Then she was like no worries, like you said nothing has to change. She told me i appreciate your honesty thanks for keepin it real.

That helped me a lot knowing that like errthang was all good between us. and she was right, nothing did ever change between us. She didnt become weird talking to me, or avoid talking to me or anything like that. So i guess me telling her was like a blessing. 2 years ago, over the summer i took her out to eat @ some korean bbq place in cerritos. It was d0pe cuz we pretty much chilled the whole day. I picked her up from work in long beach , oh i remember i got her like i think it was a purple carnation or rose that day. Anyway, so we ate @ korean bbq cuz she was feelin for it. We had a chillrific time cooking the meat and errthang else together! mmm korean bbq. I dont think id go back to the place cuz we both got up and went to the bathroom. Then while i was waiting for her the people there told me i didnt pay tip. We were both kinda perturbed cuz it was like they were forcing us to pay tip.

After we went to the cerritos mall, to walk off the food. ha i remember we saw like errone that @ the mall. i think she was shopping for a birfday gift for her cousin. So we went into all the different stores, like forever 21 and stores like that. Then we went to the buena park library cuz she was looking for some books for her AP lit class for skool. We ended up hitting up the cypress library one too cuz i guess they didnt have some the ones she needed. I took her back to her cousins house cuz she was spending the nite there. It was a really d0pe day, cuz we bof had a chillrific time, at least i did.

Back to the quote, i really like this quote cuz its reality. Though i cant really relate to it, but its true from what ive seen from toher people. Check it, a lot of times you fall for the person youd least expect to see yourself with. Youre insecure cuz you dont know whether you made the right decision or not. It hurts to look back on the past from the previous relationships, though you gotta move foward w/life as well. Which isnt the easiest things when it comes to ending relationships. But if youre happy now, w/where youre at, the insecurities you have bout yourself are bound to go away.

im sleepy, im trying to make this blog long for kuya cuz he's been complaining that my entries are short. Theyre short cuz i get so tired by the time i start blog. OoOh check this, i found this in a filipino book..."The Phillipines: Pacific Crossroads" by sullivan, margaret W. Why i am soo dark: "In the beginning, God formed the first person just like a cook makes a cookie. Then god put the person on the fire to bake, but God got busy and left the person on too long. That person came out all burned and black." hahah

i found that a long time off of somenoes profile. Its funny i think cuz some filipinos are so dark or get dark too easy. i wanna get darker, that was my goal last summer and i think i did too. Working at the park all day and sitting in the hot sun. I remember errone asking me, "did you get darker?" that whole first week of work errone was asking, did you get darker? haha eww i dont like too much sun cuz then i think start to peel. Like i started to shed and my old skin comes off and i have new skin. haha

today was a busy day, i was craving oreos and milk last nite, but we didnt have any milk, so i had to eat chips instead. So i ate chips till like 230am while watching the news on tv. Went to sleep and i had the craziest dream, bout i dont know wha. I remember beyonce was in it, lyn lyn, boss lady my real boss, kuya and i think some others. it was weird, i woke up and i shouldve written wha happend down. So i was hoping to sleep in but i couldnt sleep in any longer then 930am. Got ready and went w/lyn² to US toys in garden grove. We bought a grip of stuff there for work. Like bulletin board stuff to put up for our programs.

Had lunch w/kuya today, we ate at that chinese restaraunt in westminister. i got to see midway city again! haha midway city is great! We had an overwhelming amount of food left over, so i took it home. lunch was tight, kuyas one funny guy i tell ya! forreal forreal, where would my life be w/o him...i could name a few right now. ha jk much mahal goes to him haha He kept singing some song he made up in the car while i was trying to listen to my fabolous and ashanti. The song went like, "r-o-bb-y, r-o-bb-y he;s so fly, he;s so fly." something like that it was very catchy so its been stuck in my head all afternoon. Kuya sang only like 1200 times! haha

Stopped by the bank, ross and tillys inside the little cypress shopping center. I need to wash my car its so dirty. The wherehouse inside the mall @ westminister is going out of business, so they had errthang liek 60% off, i like going out of business sales! I got my dad this elvis dvd from his first movie, "love me tender." Man i havent watched a strong bad cartooni n forever, i gotta catch up on those. Came home for a little bit, still full from lunch so i didnt eat anything. Besides dinner wasnt even ready yet before i left for mass. Went to mass then talked ot el huego, jeanne and achie outside after mass for a while. jeanne looked really pretty today, she was going to el hugeos roommates going away party.

Went to duke and dutches after mass, bought this billabong warm up jacket. Imma return its too small and i dont really need it either. My celli was trippin after i got out of mass, the time was reseted and it wasnt letting me fix it. So i stopped by the place where i usually do all my cell phone stuff at. The girl fixed the problem, by juss taking the battery out and putting it back in. Ha i shouldve thought of that myself, im dumb! haha Kuya made me this i guess id call it, the "kuya hip hop mix." with songs by justin timberlake, jay z, fab, and the clipse. Its pretty d0pe now i gotta something new to listen to in the car. He added his own touch to the Cd too by putting his pic on the cd. now i always remember who i got the CD from, thanks kuya! hahaha

Went to watch JLs musical w/beyonce and boss lady. The show was really good, it kept you awake and entertained. Though i kinda felt like they were insinuating a lot of things related to sex. Though, errone was really good and put on one great show. Jl had one of the main characters or leads in the play. There was this one girl who can sing really well. it was like hardcore singing, she could sing at a bar or something like that. haha Jl looked pretty tonite too w/her hurr all nice and wha not. Congrats JL on doing such an extrodinary job! you did really well!

After kuya met up w/us and we ate @ islands, cuz boss lady and i were oh so hungry! i couldnt even finsih my food though, it was so much. Island was fun, it was the food we needed to fill our little stomachs. Dang i realized im getting fat yo! i gotta start working out and eating smart or else imma clog my arties w/yucky stuff. i dont want tog et a heart attack or something like that. I wanna be healthy and stuff, so when im old im healthy too. its crazy how people can read you. Like they can totally tell something in you or see it in you, that you never knew they knew. That happened to me today during lunch, it was pretty crazy!

Well im gettnig sleepy, i hope this is sufficient enuff for you now kuya! haha oh btw errone hurr is the line up for this tues. It was suggested to me that i post it up on hurr.

Warm up~
lulaley
Im free
ive got a joy down in my heart

Contrition~
Come juss as you are
I want to praise you Lord

invocation~
come holy spirit we need you

Praise & worship~
the nails in your hands
i worship you almighty God
There is none like you
good to me

After prophecy~
God will make a way

Interecessory~lyn² will be leading my intercessory that nite
Servants puso

closing~
Let the fire fall

"Vacation all i ever wanted, vacation have to get a way..."im done, im out God bless!

"A good friend is someone we can count on, as well as being so much more. A friend is someone with whom we can relax and just hang out, have fun and share our innermost thoughts--deep dark secrets, lofty and noble goals, or our hopes, joys, and fears. A good friend allows you a safe space to share your deepest thoughts and needs--without worry of being judged, criticized or made to feel silly for feeling the way you do. Friends cheer each other on, laugh and cry together, and just plain commissrate and listen to each other. That's why friends are friends."

This was the quote i had used when i jacked up my whole blog thing. this quote is d0pe cuz it reminds of the type of friends i have now. How i use to think the friends i had in the past were like this, but they werent really.
I can do the most dumbest things in front of my friends and not worry whether they'll still accept me or not. Its great when you can have friends whom you can share anything with. Ones who wont judge you for feeling a certain way, ones who you can call @ like 3am and their ear is ready to listen. Friends who encourage you to strive to achieve and be the best you can be. Errone needs a little encouragement hurr and there, thas why there are friends. They help push you a long a little bit when you may feel stuck. I love friends, friends are great! especially when you can acknowledge your friends as pretty much your own brother and sister!

Today was tiring day, i think it was working w/all those kids @ work. LEts see wha happened today, hmmm. Well work called me @ 730am looking for a cable wire for the tv. I called them back telling them where it was, so after that since i was awake i went to mass @ 8am. After mass, went home and i went back to sleep and i ended up over sleeping missing class! ahhh Got ready for work and all that other stuff. hey i found my ring! i thought i lost it but i found it the other day. Though i dont know wha i did w/it now, i was wearing it last nite.

The new girl at work is really cool, shes so artistic and creative. i like it when you talk to people and they make an effort to keep the convo going. Thas wha she does, its not like simple one word answers she gives me. I showed her the ropes on how to do hall rentals and class registrations etc. We put the camp itenerary together also, which something i needed to get out of the way. Then @ 330 i had my chef's club class which i had like a grip of kids. there was at least 13, i think thas the highest ive had since i started my program. It was hard cuz we were in the kitchen making mac & cheese. i was get frustrated cuz they were fooling around a lot.

Got home and i took a really small nap, which only made me more tired in the end. Went to sre, achie took over jeannes class for tonite. Class was cool, we did this really cool prayer of St. Francis. Talked ot achie in the parking lot for a while. Then we prayed the rosary inside the chapel, she confirmed my prayer theme for tues.
I finished all my prayers for tues, i juss gotta do the line up. For some reason i cant pick the line up before hand, i have to do it after.

Anyway, talked to francis for a while on the phone. Hes in a spiritual drout so i tried to help him out. well this entry sucks fro tonite, sorry! haa i cant think of anything else to say. wooo im having lunch w/kuya tomorrow and im gonna chill w/boss lady tomorrow nite! wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo im so excited i juss cant hide it i know i know i know i cant think of the rest of the song. haha well warm bed hurr i come!
ahh i was so tempted once again to call....aghhh this is hard! =/ ::sigh::

"What if we were wrong about each other, What if you were really made for me, What if we were supposed to be together, Would that not mean anything..." im done, im out God bless!

"True friends are the people who are there for you unconditionally. They are the people who never question you and support you no matter what the circumstances are. They are the people worth living for."

The part where it says, "and support you no matter what the circumstance are." Well that reminds of the time where i had to make a difficult decision whether to go to the oh so fun youf alpha or stay w/the class i committed to last year. anyway, i guess that next morning after the nite i found out bout the decision, i waas tlaking to kuya online. He advised me(haah as he always does) on what he thinks would be best. The part that was d0pe was when he told whatever decision i make he'll still support me. That was coo juss knowing that whatever the circumstances were id be supported. He wont turn his back the other way. the quote brought back that small minor flashback.

Today was a very exhausting day, on the reals yo! i juss i wanted to sleep in, juss like i always want to do. Ahh juss one more day to get through. I woke up and i ended up over sleeping so i couldnt get to mass this morning. =( which sucked cuz i wasnt able to go yesterday either cuz of work. Tomorrow fo sho though, ill be @ mass @ 830am. =) I was stressing hard core on finishing the comp hw for cis. I tried to do it yesterday but i got stuck on it. I felt like i was going back and forth from skool and home today. It was stressful cuz i knew it was going to take a while and on top of that i had to do bof mine and kuyas. Wha helped though was kuya did the other half of the hw. So i guess thas teamwork right there! haha

Went to see the instructor this morning for help. he didnt understand wha was happening, so i went to the lab. The lab tech couldnt figure wha i did wrong either, he juss gave me new info to redo. I was able to climb ovet the small obstacle, and i went home cuz i figured the rest would be easy. Ended up i got stuck again, which led me to go back to the lab @ skool. Came back and i ended up finishing the rest of the hw there @ skool. That assignment took forever to do! agh first time i had to use the lab too for help. Usually i can either figure it out myself or at least kuya would know the answer. apparently not this time! haha

Went home got into a small tiff w/my sister. She can be so ahhh sometimes, difficult to deal with. haha she always throws the god card @ me. i juss laugh cuz i think its funny. went to work and i did this pretty creative art proj with the kids. We made puzzle pieces easter spring wreaths. YOu put puzzles pieces in a bowl, mix it w/glue and food coloring. Mix it altogether until its all mixed in well, then spread over the paper plate. You cut out the middle of paper plate and put around the frame. Its a bit messy though cuz you end up getting puzzle pieces all over. The new rec leader started todya, shes a coo kid. haha shes 19 a year younger than me. She spent the afternoon w/lyn² @ the park. i feel comfortable working w/her cuz id ask her questions and she create convo w/me. So thats coo its always nice when you can get a long w/the people you work wif.

Went to class this morning and it was aiight. We got out early, which is nice. i always get so sleepy by the time that class comes. Its like the perfect time to take a really nice long nap. Kuya finally beat my snake score today @ work. Which leaves me, if i want to till sat. to beat his. haha the game all of a sudden turned out to be soo competitive. He told me he was pissed when he learned i beat his high score. hahaha He made this paper puso, then gave it to me. Then took it back and ripped in half! hahahaha he broke my puso into pieces..enk! that was corny. haha im soo looking foward to spending the week @ his house! that's gonna be d0pe!!! woooooo

i was craving jack daniel chicken strips tonite, so jeanne went w/me to fridays. i almost got the jack daniel strips and buffalo wings on top of that. Good thing i didnt get bof otherwise i woudlnt of been able to finish it. After dinner was over my appetite was soothed! haha mmmm jeannes fun to chill with, she's cool! this fri. boss lady and i are going ot watch JL's musical. Then were gonna go eat after! wooo i get to keek it w/boss lady, thas d0pe!
boss lady is grrrrrreat! hahaha ahh one more day of work and skool then its weekend! woo. maybe i can have lunch w/kuya on fri. i learned a valuable lesson today and last wed. too. From now on i gotta do my cis hw ahead of time and not last min. When i rush it last min. i tend to get stressed out and frustrated.

I think on sat. imma go to carson w/stider. I havent been to my other community since their xmas party. Its been too long and besides that i love going there. I mean to go to prayer meeting again in the same week, thas cool. Besides, i miss praise & worship on tues. so i can have it there @ carson. Those kids over there are fun to be around, they make you feel welcome. So today we start war, we start the bombs over baghdad, juss like outkast said in their song. Well im off to bed tonite, stay safe, put your duck tape on and be ready to go! i cant stop listening to that song, breathe. its in my head right now...ahh she hasnt called back yet..oH hWhy?! maybe when i least expect it, she'll call. Either that or she didnt remember who i was...or she's been busy. oh well, ill wait and see wha in store.

I keep getting this message to trust in God. I kept getting that message all over on mon. and then today i got it again. Soo i decided that will be my theme for my praise & worship on tues. "Trust in Him, for He'll be taking care of errthang for us." i gotta start to work on my prayers and materials for tues. Im excited to lead, i like leading prayer meeting, its fun! i need to work on remembering the football teams real names. i feel bad cuz i dont really know their names.

"Diggin' the scene, diggin' on you, diggin' on me. Baby baby-ooo-baby, baby, It's on like that, it's on like that.
I gotta be in love or somethin' like that..." im done, im out God bless!