The Value of Life

"Love is net where hearts are caught like fish..."

BIRFDAY SHOUT OUT: A very special birfday shout out going to an ol friend from hs of mine, keturah. We didnt become close until senior year in hs, since we had a class together. Her and I are one of a kind. In hs people would always think we were a couple, which was funny. She's one of those people that can get real crazy, yet real fun to chill with. We kinda lost connection after hs, but then juss this year reconnected again. It was funny cuz I had taken her to 330 one time last year, and she came out enjoying, despite the fact she kept complaining bout being the minority in there. ha! We had these two unforgettable moments in hs, when her and I did this dance thing for two different assemblies. For the christmas pep assembly her and I, and some of our other friends put together this routine to the song 'bring it all to me.' It was classic! Then for senior talent show, we did another lip sync to a clip from that movie, 'teen witch.' Fun person to chill with, anyway happy birfday to my friend from kansas! ha

SUB DAYS: On friday, the teacher Im assigned to work with took a day off. I think she gets too overwhelmed with the kids she has in her class. ANyway, so we had a sub that day, I was curious to see wha sub they were going to send in. Turns out they a sent a pretty good one, she's bilingual which helped a lot. Well, she totally threw off the daily routine schedule, by accidently skipping recess. So it kinda threw things off but we got back on track. She juss talked too much, during recess time she was sharing bout her skooling and blah blah and I wanted to bring the kids in cuz it was time to come in already, but I couldnt interrupt her talking. So finally when she stopped I brought them all in, but in the back of my head I was thinking, 'agh when is she gonna stop! Its time to go inside already!' The rest of the day went smooth, I was able to bring rob lunch from el polo loco and still manage to make it back to work on time with like 10 min. left to finish my own lunch.

ERRDAY FRIDAY: Man, Ive been to fridays too many times this week. I went there wed. after the how meeting, thurs. nite w/the guys + dorthee(which was one really fun nite afterall), and then w/my aunt after work on friday. It was funny cuz the server who was serving us, ended up being this one girl I went to elementary-high skool with. She was real nice, asked wha I was doing now, and shared a little bit bout her life. I appreciated it cuz it wasnt fake or awkward. Ive had experinces running into people from skool and its either fake or juss uhh okay...ha It was cool too cuz her and I werent really friends in skool, but knew each other. She gave us a discount on her food and told us she's there wed. & fridays during lunch times. wOoO!

BONDING TIME: Friday afternoon, I spent most of it chillin w/my aunt. It was cool cuz we havent done anything together in a long time. She's busy in her own life, and I'm busy doing my own thing. Went to lunch together, and then went to wal-mart, the catholic book store, and food 4 less. It was cool cuz she was telling me bout she's starting to pray the rosary errnite now or been wanting too, juss didnt have all the prayers. So thas why we went to the catholic book store and she bought a scriptural rosary meditation book. Then we were on the subject bout Mary and she wanted to know why protestants dont think of Mary as much as we do. It kinda warmed my heart knowing she was curious and that she's gonna start praying the rosary.

THURS NITE: I gave my lecture on the origin of Mama Mary and the Rosary to my first communion prep class on thurs. I felt after going through learning bout the Holy Trinity, that it was only fitting to talk bout the Blessed Mother next, also being it's All Saints Day coming up. Im glad to see that they seem to be responding well to material. I gave them a quiz bout the trinity, though I have to correct it still. For the most part, they all finished pretty fast. Anyway, afterwards went to tgis at knotts w/the guys and dorthee. I was a little dissapointed at first cuz I didnt really want to spend my thurs. at fridays, especially being there the nite before. THough it turned out to be a pretty fun nite...at least towards the end of it.

CORONA: Went w/rob on friday to lon's house in corona for poker. It stanks up there, I dont know how I'd be able to live w/that smell errday and errnite. Yuck! His house is pretty cool, obviously its big. I like how houses have a mini living room now in the two story homes. Basically, sat online all nite while they played poker. The time went by pretty fast, so I didnt get too bored. It was worth the trip, even though I didnt want to go at first. Good convo w/my friend in the car bout teaching and work. Why dont we have intelligent convos like that all the time?! haha

PRE-HALLOWEEN: TOok nini w/lyn lyn and mike to stanton's halloween event. Oh how I'm soo glad I didnt have to work it this year. I remember last year I said to myself, 'I've got to get our of here!' Sure enough, I did juss that. The place was packed, it gets bigger and bigger erryear. The very first year I started it was juss in the small parking lot of the boys & girls club, now its jam packed. It was great seeing my ol coworkers again. I miss talking to them and working w/them. Im juss glad Im not working it, nor did I have to worry bout cleaning up. Sheesh what a way to spend a friday nite ha. Man I know my feet wouldve been killing me by the end of the nite.

CLEAN AGAIN: My dad put up some new walls these past couple of months in the family room. It looks good, there's juss one side of the house now that has to be done. The family looks a lot bigger too, space wise then it did before. Saturday was spent pretty much cleaning the house again. Dusting all the dirty spots, taking apart the elk in the living room juss doing some fall cleaning. I also cleaned up my room a little bit, I hate having a messy room. Im gonna take apart my futon real soon, and give it to abe. Then I'll have more space in my room! After a month, I finally took out all the junk from my desk at work and put in my room. ALso organized all my blog binders, now they're all labled with the dates. There's 6 1/2 of them, altogether, I wish there was a way to keep printing them out. Its a convience to have them on printed paper rather, then juss from the website.

GOT SKILLZ: I didnt go to my friend keturah's birfday dinner at cheesecake factory, so I had to make it up by going to the club to celebrate. This place is called, club curves or club moxie, all the way in rendondo beach. So as much as I didnt want to go cuz it was so far I had to go since I flaked out on thurs. Being, I didnt know where this place was I didnt want to go alone. I took fred and jei w/me. Well, the three of us were in fo a real shock. The moment we stepped in there, we realized why they call it club curves. Its a club for bigger annd older ladies. Wow talk bout feel like a minority somewhere ha. The music was tight, I was feelin that, but I wasnt feelin the club too much. They had costume contests and yikes is all I gotta say. Though, my friend was juss happy I made it out. Turns out a couple of the people that were there that I went to skool with, were suprised to see me at a club. Good thing, we left w/enough time to go somewhere in hermosa.

BEING HUMBLE: Went to mass at 11am at holy fam this sunday, good thing keturah called me otherwise I wouldve had to go to a later mass. I was running late this morning and got there right at 11am. Holy fam 11am mass is like the 1215pm at sPv, but I think a little worse. If you dont get there in time, then you wont be able to have a seat. So I was searching around for a small gap for me to sit cuz I didnt want to stand throughout the whole mass. Luckily, I found my cousins and I was able to sit w/them. Fr. Vic's homily this morning was great, telling us that our faith isnt bout titles or positions, bout our faith is a matter of service and humility. If we want to be great before the Lord, then we must be a servant. When the youf were singing the responsorial psalm today, I juss felt so hm touched. I kept looking at the sacred heart of Jesus statue and was in awe. I love that feeling when you go to mass and juss feel so filled again.

TREASURING IT: Watched saw 2 tonite, and it was pretty interesting. The end sucked, cuz there's probably going to be a 3rd one eventually. If you havent seen it you should watchh it, despite the fact taht its pretty gross, it makes you think. One of those critical thinking, makes you think outside the box. Its interesting how one person can pay so much attention to the lives of other people. There's a quote that the 'jigsaw' said that seemed so true bout many people today, something bout the life. Go see it, its pretty creepy!


happy halloween!

"Going love you girl, going love you..."im done, im out GOd bless!

There are Times

"If you have too much to do, with God's help you will find time to do it all..."

A big fat agh!!!!!!!!!! normally, I hate leaving my blogs unfinished like this but agh!!!!!!!!!!!!!! cmon now God, ha maybe it only happens once or its only a one time thing. Agh!!! okay, thas enough time to sleep now!

With all of Your Heart

"Better than a thousand days of study is one day with a great teacher..."

TOO CUTE: I have a funny story to share bout my day at work. So I was working w/the kids showing them pictures of different methods of transportation. We were looking like airplanes, trains, boats, etc. We come across the picture of a tractor and I ask them, 'wha is this?' then they call out 'a tracktor!' Good I said, then I asked them wha are tractors used for. One kid goes to cut grass! haha Then said to me, 'my dad drives one of those!' then another kid said, 'mine does too!' hahahhah! Later on we come across a picture of a helicopter. I asked one kid wha is this? He goes to me, its a 'hopcktor!' Hahahahahah! my kids are the cutest!

18 OUNCES OF RANDOMNESS:

[1] Ive been really feein the 'lead me Lord' by gary v. yeah i know im so behind.

[2] Allens song 'she said' was tight, ha I was really feelin it tonite. Maybe cuz it had this uhh 'hanson' pop taste to it.

[3] Confirmation kids on tues. its still a bit of a struggle. I really do pray that I'm able to get across some type of message. Maybe Im expecting too much too soon.

[4] Looking at birfday cards can be fun, especially the random kind tht dont have any real meaning to them ha

[5] I found a version of Lift up yoru hands by DNH ha!

[6] The teachers at work are starting to talk to me in the lounge! woOo! I was invited to move in and sit at the 'cool table.'

[7] Friendster emails bout people updatiing their friendster blog can be real annoying.

[8] I relly need to get rid of my futon.

[9] I love that song la tortua well at least the reggaton version of it. 'Yo sé que no he sido un santo'

[10] Its funny when my kids at work talk to me in spanish as if I understand them haha I have to tell them haba ingles

[11] I have a couple of huge special prayer intentions, can you please pray for them?!

[12] Hanging out w/the peebs is a lot of fun, we share lots of good times.

[13] The mcdonalds on beach still has 99 cents chicken nugget tuesdays

[14] When i was checking my myspace at the rectory tonite and saw I had a new message I got excited ha then i saw it wasnt the message i was hoping for ha

[15] My old boss called me tonite asking if I could or would housesitt for him ha how cool, though it was a little weird at first getting a call from him

[16] If things work out, itll be that ive gone to vegas 3x in one year, the most Ive ever gone!

[17] Josh is so freakin cute...he loves et!

[18] Its red ribbon week...remember juss say no to drugs!

tag your man: Banne ha since shes on this randomness spree, fred, mike, and burr since he hasnt blogged in forever!

HOW Meeting tonite!!

"Come to me and I will bring you home..."im done, im out God bless!

Coming Back

"When we are motivated by goals that have deep meaning, by dreams that need completion, by pure love that needs expressing, then we truly live life..."

FEELS GOOD: Its always feels good juss sitting in front of the blessed sacrament, especially whhen there's adoration. I got to sit there tonite and read confirmation journals, it has been such a long time since I've done that. Good conversation though w/Jesus tonite, help me to clear my thoughts. Being in that small chapel its like an escape from the world, escape from all the things from my day, from all the things that worry and frustrate me and juss give come in and give it all to Him.

CHARISMATIC: I love being charismatic, and I'm not juss talking bout personality wise. Charismatic as in spiritually charismatic, like Holy Spirit Charismatic. Ever since I become part of the movement or learned bout the movement it's help my own spiritually grow deeper. Grow deeper then juss the surface level. It has pushed me to pray outside of the box I guess you could say. Its like how I swim, whenever I go into any pool, I love to try and go to the very bottom of the deep end. To touch the ground and come back up again. I guess its hard to really explain or define, but I was juss talking bout it w/chie last monday. Anyway, I juss love being charismatic.

LESSON PLAN: OKay so I have my lesson plans set for tomorrow nite. WoOO! YOu know blogs can be so useful, through the years I have some of the greatest lessons to teach from peoples blogs. So were going to be talking bout the Saints, since we wont have class on all Saints day. Wow, them Saints are truly amazing, reading bout their lives and stories. Speaking of saints, its funny errtues. that I step into my classroom there's a part of me that gets kinda sad. I miss the 3o souls that sat at the desks. All the sharings and the good times we shared together, its hard to make new memories sometimes, though like all good things must come to an end.

i love that song lift up your hands

"Cause I dont wanna go on, without you by my side..."im done, im out God bless!

Back to the Grind

"Patience and perseverance have a magical effect before which difficulties disappear and obstacles vanish..."

COLD & GLOOMY: I like the weather like it's been the past couple of days. The cold air setting in, the gloomy skies ah makes for a perfect winter weather. The days where its juss the perfect time to sit at home and watch movies all day. Drink up some nice hot chocolate and juss make plans to stay inside all day. Those are the days that are probably the most restful, when you dont have to worry bout taking care of anything. Ahh winter is defiently making its way here!

HOLIDAY SEASON: Went to the cerritos mall this afternoon and as I was passing by the 'bath & body work store' they had in their window, 'it's begining to look a lot like...' painted with a nice red christmas ornament. I cant believe how fast the christmas seasons is approaching. The past week, I've been listening to the 'ave maria' in my car and it made me really think of christmas. Im excited for december to come, to go christmas shopping, christmas card writing, wrapping gifts, going place to place. Making your list of who you need to get, and then crossing it off the person you finished buying for. Most of all sitting at midnight mass, I wonder how its gonna be like this year at sPv. Then after Christmas, its 2006 whoa!

FUN TIMES: Friday nite, I went to jay's place in westco for his kick back. I got there at 10pm and I was expecting it to be loud and juss crunk. Well, when I got there it was kinda funny his aunt opened the door wide open as if she was expecting me or something. For a moment there, I wasnt sure if I was taking part in a scary movie or something. Anyway, the place ended up being real chill, real mellow, I guess I came after the hype was over. At any rate, the hype came back later on that nite. Learned how to play a new games called, '10 fingers' ha pretty interesting. Getting food at some burger place that took an hour to get cuz of these high skoolers and their freakin homecoming! Great times that nite, even though I didnt sleep til pretty much almost 4am.

FRIENDSHIP GAMES: Woke up at 11am on saturday which was nice, to really get to sleep in. Stayed home til I decided to go to friendship games. I didnt really want to go alone, but I couldnt find anyone that could go w/me so alas I went independently. When I got there they had security and popos there blocking the main entrance. Apparently, in order to get in you had ot have a blue wristband. Unfortunately, they werent giving them out anymore either. Well, I didnt want to waste a whole trip for nothing, so I decided to search. I figured there had to be another way to get in, even though Im sure they had erravaible entrance way blocked. After walking around for a good 10 min. I found a way to get in! I went to the side of the building and there were these stone things I could hop on to get to the gap in the gate. Success, I found my way in and it was pretty interesting. I came at the pretty much tail end of the day, but its juss crazy how people spend the whole day there and go all out representing their group. Watching all that made me think of spirit games for next year already ha

HEMAN SEASON ONE: My mom and sister had found at target my fav childhood cartoon...heman on dvd. Ive been waiting forever to see if they'd ever come out w/something like that. ANyway, I ended up buying it and it brought back so many childhood memories. Im glad to see them bring back and make into the dvds the ol skool shows. I saw they had season 2 and the greatest episodes version also. Im going to have to buy those too and add the my collection. I love ol skool cartoons like thundercats and all them that they dont show anymore.

EVERYONE HAS IT: I think almost everyone has a myspace now. Its funny how addicting it can get though, well I guess if you let it. For example, I'll start on one persons page then you see their friends and you find out they know certain people that you never knew they knew. Then it becomes one page after another. Finally, after realizing how much time youve spent on the freakin thing you end up getting tired. ha Anyway, I was on it tonite and guess who I found on there? http://www.myspace.com/melodelight yeah thas right melody from so you think you can dance remade her myspace page ha wow she's hot. I also found this guy whos in my geology class on there too ha

NOT THE SAME: Went to mass at sPv today, well I went at 1215pm. Its been a while since I've gone to mass there at that time. Fr. Ted is pretty strict, I was watching him talk to the altar servers as he was giving communion to them. Like he was giving them communion and he was tellling them to come forward and they I guess werent doing it so I could tell he was getting upset at them. I dont think sPv will ever be the same anymore, and Im sure many of the parishoners probably feel the same way. The warmth and hospitality seems to be missing. I always remember fr. kevin would be at the doors of the church greeting people, whether it was him celebrating mass or not. I get this impression these new priests are trying to whip the parish into shape and distance themselves away from being as active/involved. I dont know thas wha I see from the outside. It was cute though there were all these little new altar servers at mass and then 2 big guys who probably were the leaders of the pack. Sitting there watching them the small altar servers looked like jedi knights in training like small kids. ha

BARN DANCE: Went to the barn dance at holy fam last nite, it was pretty fun. The food was pretty good, and they gave you a lot. The best part was probably juss the dancing, it was cool how we all danced together in the group. Arch and them got errone going w/'hip hop line dancing' ha it was fun watching them. Then achie and I tried to win the twist contest, but we lost to the elderly couple. Agh I didnt win any prizes at all! We had competition w/the younger coouple who was winning all the prizes and even the dances. It felt like a homecoming dance at holy fam, it was like the theme was 'barn dance' and you had dancing, food, and a king and queen. Good times, good times! The party soon followed to fridays for some more fun w/arch, chie, vee, and me trying to come up with oxymorons ha.

ALL CONNECTED: Fr. Ted was talking bout in his homily today bout being all connected in some way. He gave the example of our bishop who knows the pope and some of the staff at the vatican, and the bishop shepherds the priests in the orange diocese who all know the bishop pretty well. It made me think of friendster ha how it shows you how you're connected to that person. THen it tells you how many degrees of seperation there are in your friends list. Its interesting looking at that kind of stuff. I wish myspace had that where it would tell you how youre connected to that person and who else you know is connected.

the months almost over!

"The first time ever I saw your face..."im done, im out God bless!

Looking Back...

"The man who views the world at fifty the same as he did at twenty has wasted thirty years of his life..."

PERFECT 15: We had oral or wha its called a 'communal learning' quiz today in history. There's always plus and minuses to it. I get nervous being put on the spot trying to figure out wha the answer is cuz I feel kinda stupid if I get it wrong. Anyway, goood thing he didnt call me this time around! The nice thing is that we all got 15/15, a pretty simple quiz. One thing bout the class is that maan his lectures last forever!! Even when class is suppose to end, hes still trying ot get in a couple more words. I thought I was going to be late to work!

DISASTER DRILL: It seems like a lot of different skool districts/skools had a practice disaster drill today. You know when some type of bell rings, and the whole entire skool has to go out to the field away from the building. Sometimes it only takes 5 min. sometimes it takes an hour and youre juss standing there bored to death cuz there's nothing to do. I came at the end of it, and the custodian as I was walking in didnt want to let me in cuz of the drill. Then I said uh I work here, then showed my badge. He looked at hte nurse and the nurse was like, 'its over already. ' BY the time I got to the field, it was time to go back to class. The kids weere alright today, I think I get juss worn out cuz of the whole language barier between me and them. They probably think my spanish is juss horrible.

SWAPPING STORIES: As usual, I was sitting in the lounge today eating lunch my byself at the table and this teacher was sitting there sharing a story bout one of the kids and the problems she was having. It was pretty funny, the stuff that was going on and how the mom is juss trying to the fight the battle. The thing that Ive noticed this past week is how important hospitality is. Here I am the new guy and yet not one of those teachers in the lounge has made the effort to ask who I am or even bother to intro. themselves. I guess it juss kinda bugs me that I'm kinda left out. I wonder if they dont like the teacher I work with, if she's like the black sheep or something. Anyway, maybe I juss gotta give it some more time.

THE ARCHIVES: I went back reflecting and reading my old blog entries from the past summer. Some of the things that happened, seemed as if they were forever long ago. Things were a bit different then they are now. I was checking out the pics from the first how performance back in june, wow whatta nite that was. Then there were pics of some of the youf and I thought how funny that I'm friends with those people now. Its always fun to look back and read wha was going in your life ages ago. I juss wish I was still able to print them out and make my books. Abe came by today to print something out for skool and it was fun juss talking him and I. I miss him being my aide on tues. nites, where we would juss sit in the classroom and talk forever. I love having friends who talk a lot like me!

330 DAYS: For some reason the past couple of thursdays, Ive been wanting to go 330 in brea. I dont know why maybe its juss cuz I saw an add for it or something. Those days were fun, even though the place was always hella crowded and you always ran into someone you knew there. Maybe when my friend comes back from new york we can go ha. Its like its some type of craving Im having orr something.

BLESSED TRINITY: The past 3 weeks of thurs. nite SRE, ive been going over the very beginning lessons of our fatih. Starting from the sign of the cross, the holy trinity. Man, its been a challenge, cuz I havent gone back to the beginning this far since I stopped teaching primary grades. Though tonite, praise God cuz theyve been real attentive and learning. We reviewed before talking bout the Holy Spirit, bout God the Son. They remembered the important stuff like Jesus being both 100% divine and 100% human. I asked them the question bout Jesus being divine and human woo! praise God! Im so glad to see that they're making progress in learning this stuff. So next week, Im giving them a little quiz to see how well they're retaining the information. One kid though(there always has to be one)was kinda irritating me cuz during my lecture tonite he was drawing pictures! He sat there and wrote 'the game' then put
'g-unot' 50 cent sucks, then made another w/something like ja rule. Whas funny is this kid, is totally the type you'd expect drawing this stuff. Picture a kip from naploleon dynamite juss w/o the glasses though. ha!

another busy weekend ahead!

"And we'll linger on..."im done, im out GOd bless!

The Unexpected

"When a man says, 'I cannot,' he has made a suggestion to himself. He has weakened his power of accomplishing that which otherwise would have been accomplished..."

RIP: Suprisingly today, my grandpa's sister in law died today. This is my grandpa's brothers(the one whos 101)wife. Pretty crazy, cuz we all thought she was pretty healthy and juss living the life. So if I can ask for all your prayers for healing, peace, and comfort for my family. My grandpa's brother has been in shock cuz it was so unexpected. He's still having a hard grasping at the fact that she's gone. He keeps saying, she cant be gone and he's suppose to go before her. Im sad too, well im not balling but I am sad juss cuz I knew her and Ive always known her since I was young. Its different when you dont know your parent's extra relatives, so you dont really feel a whole lot. Anyway, its juss sad cuz I feel so bad for their family and my grandpa and his brother. Prayers please, thanks! Eternal rest grant unto matilda O Lord; and let perpetual light shine upon her. May her soul and all the souls of the faithfully departed through the mercy of God's love rest in peace. Amen.

WEIRDNESS: So I woke up this morning and I had the strangest dream bout someone. In fact when I woke up, it felt like what took place in the dream actually happened. Im not going to go into details bout wha happened or who it was but it was juss funny. I dont even know why I dreamnt of something like that. It wouldve been cool though if the dream was real and then I wouldve had a d0pe picture to add to my myspace collection. WoOO!

WORK TODAY: You know its juss funny how some of the primary teachers are so cliquish at work. I sit in the teacher lounge for a good wha 15min. errday the same time, the same place, and they do too. Yet not one of them has made the effort to ask me who I was or intro. themselves to me. I know, I could make the first step, but cmon its a little awkward juss walking up to a bunch of teachers telling them who I am. Im starting to wonder if they dont like the teacher I work with. I noticed that she never eats in the teachers lounge, and she kinda does her own thing during lunch. Maybe its still the beginning, and things will change eventually, I guess it juss gets boring sitting like a loner during lunch not engaging in some type of conversation. The kids are cute though, Im starting to get to know them slowly. A couple of them I juss get real frustarted with(i know how sad huh)cuz when it comes to reading or anything they do there's juss not real effort. One of the kids, the teacher was telling me has been real dependent on his parents and his parents still treat him like a baby. They literally I gues still spoon feed him and juss baby the kid. Thas why he has a difficult time at skool cuz he doesnt have to make any effort at home. THen the other girl, I dont even know whas going on w/her but maan it can be so difficult!

JUSSS VISITING: Stopped by stanton on my way to hunington beach today. Thought I'd drop by and visit the ol work place. I prayed right before going in cuz I juss started to feel a little weird at first. Yet they were suprised to see me and glad also. It feels different going in there as a 'regular' and not as a employee. Seems like not much has really changed since I've left. Im suppose to go out to lunch w/some of them next week. Its juss good to know that despite errthagn that happened, I can still walk in and feel welcomed. Praise God for juss giving me the opportunity to work with some great people.

DINNER AT JOES: Fr. Paul and I went to dinner at this one italian restaraunt in hb last nite. Jersey joes or something like that was the name of it. Maan it took them forever to give us our food, but I guess thas when you know the food is fresh. I had this seafood pasta with shrimp, muscles, scallops, and calamari. It was real good, so good that I didnt even finish it and took it home for my baon tomorrow! woOO! Im glad that he's not too far away and that we can still hang out like old times. He misses errone at sPv and still trying to adjust living the diocsian lifestyle. Apparently, Fr. grace was over there today helping him sort out some stuff w/the car. I miss those kick back augustians.

too many things to think bout...

"Dont stop believing..."im done, im out God bless!

And It Feels Like Oooh

"Look for the good qualities and not the bad in everybody. There's a lot of good in the worst of us and a lot of bad in the best of us..."

HECTIC DAY: What a challenging day work was today. Today was my first real classroom experience being a teacher. It's different teaching SRE and stuff like that, cuz you dont ahve to worry bout takng kids to lunch and all that stuff. Anyway, this class is the type where you have to keep things simple, basic, and the same. So errday, it's pretty much the same routine for me, which I guess I don't really mind. Today, the teacher tells me 5 min. before lunch that she's going to pick her car up at the shop asked me to take them to lunch. I was kinda suprised being havent even been there for a week and shes leaving me alone w/the kids. Took me like 10 min. to get them ready for lunch, once she left they totally tried to take advantage of her being gone. Then Im in the lounge eating my lunch alone as usual then I couldnt remember wha time I was suppose to get the kids. I was pretty sure it was 12, but I wasnt for sure, so I went out at 12 and tried to round them all up. We get to the room and I realize one kid is missing ahh! I bring back outside and trying to get the last kid. We come back and then errthang starts to go crazy again, but praise God I was able to finally get some order in the room. Finally, once I had them working on something the teacher comes back praise God whew! The biggest challenge out of all this is the whole language barrier.

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY: Happy anniversary SH, 8 freakin' years wow! It was great ot see errone again at the party. Its juss crazy looking back on how SH has affected my life, the foundation of my faith. Where I grew up at, learned how to pray, learned how to really build a relationship with God. On top of all that, made a great group of people whom today I call, my amigos. The journey God takes you on sometimes, is pretty exciting, when we learn to juss completely give in to HIm and surrender. Even when we dont know how or realize that were doing it. Happy Anniversary SH, I pray for many more fruits to come! I love being charismatic!

THE FUTURE: Today at sPv for all the confirmation classes, we had 'youth forum' to discuss and gather ideas on how to get the youf more involved at the parish. Something many ministry leaders have been sractching their heads wondering wha to do. The answer is pretty much simple, and its real obvious. THough its juss going to certain people to make changes. A lot of kids expressed, how much they feel mass is boring. they dont get anything out of it. They want things directly revolved around them. They're all so good and expressing wha they want but juss take initiative to make it happen.

THERE'S HOPE: THough I must say I am proud of one of my former students, carl. This guy I've watched totally grow in his faith. Its juss amazing the things he shares w/me and juss how much God has worked through him. God has real big plans for this guy and I can see it already. Anyway, he comes and helps aide w/me errtues. and thursday evening. On top of his already busy skool life he lives. He's quiet at first, like many people but once you get to know him and open up to him you see Jesus shinning right through him. Its juss so cool that he does it because he chooses to, not because he has to. It's kids like him that make me smile knowing that they'll keep the church growing and alive.

PARKING LOT CONVOS: Its so funny a lot of time is spent outside in the parking lot conversing. Last nite I was outside in the holy fam parking lot talking to jennifer for like a good hour. Then tonite after all that talking to/with fr. ed, caroline and I were outside talking still for another half hour. Or often times we stay and mingle in the parking forever juss doing nothing but talking. By the time we look at our watches its already way past the time we were expecting to stay.

HUMBLED: My family er my mom's side of the family I should say(like many of us)have family in the pi. Well, they don't really keep too much in contact w/them cuz they never really knew them taht well. They were too young to know I think who they were. My uncle and his family juss got back last month from their 1 month stay in the pi. Obviously, they brought back a lot of footage of their vacation, places they were at, who they saw etc. Man manila has a huge mall! Its like they have the same stores like they do in the states! Then they were showing the area where my mom grew up in and wow...totally runned down the whole area is so poor. So all my aunts and uncles decided to put together these boxes of food and clothes to send over there. On sunday, I watched the video and I was juss humbled by how much I have and how very little they have. It reminded me of the apl song for some reason ha but its juss wow. If only the trip out there wasnt so freakin long! Id love to go out and see wha the place is like, I juss dont know if I could sit through the long plane ride. Watching it helped me appreciate juss how much I have over here.

I LOVE THIS SONG: If there's a song to dload, imma recommend,'the first time I ever saw your face' by jeffery gaines. I think its a song thas been remade by a lot of different artists. This is the song that melody and ryan danced lyrical to. I was listening to the lyrics of the song, and it could be a d0pe wedding song. Something that youd want to share your first dance with or even sing to your person.

The first time ever I saw your face
I thought the sun rose in your eyes
And the moon and the stars were the gifts you gave
To the night and the empty skies my love
To the night and the empty skies

The first time ever I kissed your mouth
I felt the earth turn in my hand
Like the trembling heart of a captive bird
That was there at my command my love
That was there at my command

The first time ever I lay with you
And felt your heart beat close to mine
I thought our joy would fill the earth
And would last ’till the end of time my love
And would last ’till the end of time

The first time ever I saw your face
I thought the sun rose in your eyes
And the moon and the stars were the gifts you gave
To the night and the empty skies my love
To the night and the empty skies

BE COOL: Its a good feeling when despite whatever happened in the past you can start from scratch w/someone. A whole new clean slate as if it was the very first time you met the person. I had a nice convo tonite that made me smile knowing things are better now. Once again, its been a year of change but its cool things some things can still remain the same.


woOo 4 day work week!

"You will always listen as I pray..."im done, im out God bless!

Back in Action

"Service to others is the rent I pay for my room here on earth..."

ALL AROUND: Ive been mia in the blog world these past few days, things have been pretty busy. With starting the new job, taking care of things I need to do, and other stuff. I probably wouldve blogged earlier, but by the time I come home, Im exhausted. Yeah, I am getting old, the energy I use to have is slowly fadding away. This thing called, naps have become my best friend in the afternoons. Having afternoons off, is really great, to be able to take care of things I need to do. So here's my update on whas been going on in my world of amazing things...ha not really.

WORK: Thursday, I started my job as the insturctional assitant in the 1st grade class. Unfortunately, the teacher who I was suppose to work with wasnt even there. So I spent the morning working in this other 1st grade classroom. Its hard to remember that, I was once so small like that. Trying to learn how to read site words, sounding out words, learning how to write. Once the kids went to lunch, I was told to help out in the kinder area for lunch. Oh man, I'm so glad that Im not a noon rec supervisor. I think it would drive me crazzy having to work w/those kids errday. It was cute though, kids raising their hands asking me to open up their milk, other taddling bout wha the other one did to them. Some even asked wha my name was and the response I'd get would be: 'like jason in the movies? with the white mask and knife.' ha wow crazy. Never a dull moment when working w/kids. Then yesterday the teacher was there, and I see why now she needed an aide. The class I'm working in is a 'goals' 1st grade class, kids who are in 1st grade, but not quite ready for full 1st grade. On top of that most of the kids in the classroom speak/understand mostly spanish. Well, during lunch I took my 15 min. break and I sat in the teachers lounge eating my lunch...bymyself ha whatta loser I was ha all the other teachers had their own clique going on and there I was sitting all by mysellllllllf.

YAM OF HOLY FAM: We had the 2nd young adult meeting on wed. and the spirit is amazing. The small little meeting room where we were at was packed. Fr. Vic and Fr. Antony were also there to check us out, which is a blessing to see parish priests there. There was a mixture of adults, young adults, and youth from all over. Some from SH, liwanag, utc, it's great to see errone in one room praying together, singing together, juss giving all we have to God. Im glad to see that well my cousin is getting involved little by little. We had good convo on the way to her house to get the amp. Its juss crazy how God puts errthang in place and the pieces he throws out to us. Afterwards, we all fellowshipped at bjs for some good treats and great convos.

PORTILLOS: Aela, jennifer, and I have a thurs. nite hang out group. After teaching SRE, well go out to eat or something to juss chill. This past thursday, we went to check out the new restaraunt at the bp mall. I guess the place is a world famous hotdogs, that was originally made in chicago and then brought over here. I didnt get a chance to eat any, since I wasnt hungry, but they seemed pretty good. On top of that the place was jam packed! Though I heard they have something like over a hundred workers, thas why their service is so good. Not only do they have hotdogs, but hamburgers, and dessert!

BIRFDAY: BIrfday shout out going ot joanne from holy fam ha that rhymes. Went to her suprise birfday bash yesterday, which was ha reaaaaaal fun. I thought I was going to be late cuz it said tto be there by 6-6:30pm. I didnt get there til almost 730pm and then it was hard looking for the house. Here I was going up down the street, walking down bellflower searching for the house. Then I didnt want to call mel, cuz I wasnt sure how they were doing the suprise and I didnt want to ruin it. Walking down the streets of bellflower on friday nite, isnt the most safest. ANyway, I finally found it as I saw jackie come out of the house. I wasnt late at alll ha the party in fact diidnt even get started til like 830ish. All in all, I had a great time, I didnt get home til almost 130am ha good times, good times!














ill post more later on...

"Born to be wild..."im done, im out God bless!

With or Without You

"What I have suffered physically was worth what I've accomplished in life. A man who is not courageous enough to take risks will never accomplish anything in life..."

MISS WORK: Wow, I never though I'd miss working...This whole being unemployed starts to get monotnous after a while. No real income coming in, nothing to really do. It gets boring doing the same thing errday. I should look into getting some other type of job, like during the days when there isn't skool in session. I wonder if I could be contracted out through stanton and teach theatre. The down part of that is, wha happens if no one signs up or isnt a lot of people participating...then there's no money coming in. Im excited to start my new job though, to at least be doing something during the morning time. The comforting thing to know is that, at least I have a job now. On top of that, for until january, I have afternoons off to do whatever I need to do. Back to working 5 days a week wont be so bad, cuz it should be easy fun stuff. Sheesh its been forever since I've had a constant 5 day work week.

REDO: After class yesterday, I had to drive back down to St. Judes clinic and get my tb test results back. I figured it should be fast and easy...not what I expected. Apparently, the spot where I got tested is a little red in that area. A little swelling also the doctor said, probably from all the scratching I did. At any rate, I have to get retested again next fri. to make sure it's negative oh why?! He has a feeling its negative but isnt for sure, I guess if they retest then we'll know for sure. Oh man, I hope its a negative cuz well I've never been positive before. On top of that it may affect my job...ahh! So please pray that it's negative, I really want to work! Oh yeah I also have to repay another $10 to get it done again! agH!

LIVESCAN: I had to get fingerprinted again for wha has been my 5th time. I dont understand why its gotta be done at each agency. Im sure the dept. of justice has a file on errperson whos ever been fingerprinted. For those who dont know wha livescan is, its this hardcore computerized fingerprinting system. Instead of using ol skool stamp and ink, you know put your fingers on this glass and it copies to the computer. Then you can send it in right away and I guess the govt. sends the agency the results of whether or not you're a pedophile ha. Its juss a hassle getting it done each time. Oh well, at least its done, I juss hope my results come back real soon so I can start working.

LIMEWIRE: For some odd reason my limewire is all whacked out. I think many things on my laptop are whacked out. Hmm maybe it needs like a good cleaning, maybe I juss have too much junk on here. Anyhow, it starts up when I start up the computer and then sometimes it shows up as if I deleted the program. I dont know, I'm getting frustarted with the stupid thing. Though it juss started doing that recently. I need it to dload my music and other stuff. I dont know any other program thas as good. Kazaa sucks real bad thas why I uninstalled that junk.

TOO LAXED: I think I've been getting too laxed in my spirituality. With all this free time on my hands, I should be going to daily mass, daily...Fr. paul use to tell me all the time, you dont have to go to daily mass errday. Though I always enjoyed it cuz it juss helped me spiritually. I also miss praying the rosary w/friends. I wish I had more patience to juss sit still and not do anything. THough I cant ha my body juss doesnt work that way. Like I said though I've noticed Im getting spiritually lazy. Not good at all...I wanna start up the phone rosary thing again those were the good ol days. Calling random, well not exactly random(people I know)asking them if they wanted to pray the rosary. Then I'd kneel in front of my altar and pray, tthe feeling was great. Ahh, it's hard ot get back into those phases after being away from it for so long.

CONFIRMATION: Im starting week by week to get use these new sets of souls. I showed them my class from last year and errtime I look at the picture I juss :sigh: A lot of good memories and times were shared together, it is so hard to say goodbye to yesterday ha. THough, this new challenge ahead is interesting. We talked bout relationships tonite, ha relationships 101 + 2=103 as amtrack a & c put it. ha! Christ-centered, shared with them bout 'looking for the right one.' Using banne's whole car analogy of '03 ha, then switched it around with trying on shoes analogy. They seemed pretty responsive, but I dont know much they got out of it. Them being young, think that it's better to go from person to person, this way you can experience and learn from these past relationships. I guess to them its like a job, you go out w/someone, things dont work out 'oh well hey, time to move on.' I think they're still on, the whole 'its better to have love and lost then to have never loved at all' deal. I wish there was more time in class, thas always the problem, 1 hr and 15 min. is juss not enough time.

THE JAMS: You know the 90's had the best r & b jams from slow jams to juss plain r & b, it was d0pe. Groups like jodeci, boyz ii men, htown, new edition, dru hill, then you had artists like babyface...oh man I love babyface songs, they're the best! He had all jams, I thtink my fav was the remix of 'everytime I close my eyes' with mariah carey and kenny g. It was the jazz that made the song all the better. I loved dru hill also, they're last album enter the dragon? was bomb. I alwyas were putting their songs on repeat. Jon B and tony rich project...ahh more sooth songs for the soul. NOw a days its hard to find good r & b songs, cuz they all mostly sound the same.

NOT THAT INTO YOU: I picked up from the library that book 'he's juss not that into you.' Yeah I know, imma guy why the heck am I reading that? Its juss interesting to see if the things they say bout guys are really true. Or to find out exactly how they see it from another perspective. The book basically outlines and goes over errrexcuse a guy can give in regards to dating and relationships. Some parts I think are pretty extreme, while others are rather kinda funny. I hear there's a part two of the book also, so Im anxious to read that one, after I finish reading this first one.

HOW NITE: SO if you get the chance come to holy fam tonite and check out the new young adult ministry. We'll be in the meeting room this wed. I'm looking forward to praying together as a community again. WooO!

come to holy fam tonite!!

"When does my heart beat again..."im done, im out GOd bless!

Wrapping It Up

"In sorrow and suffering, go straight to God with confidence, and you will be strengthened, enlightened, and instructed..."

RECAP: DAng I had my whole entry typed up and then some reason it got lost aghhh!!!! I cant even remember errthang I wrote cuz its all gone now! Anyway, whatta busy, crazy, yet fun weekend it was. Yelling churros for one dollar, dunk tanks, sharing snow cone and pizza w/the cuz, pictures galore, singing, dancing, how performance, 'mean girls' at the gardens, fr. vic dancing all over the place, the slammer...'ahh it's going to fall, it's going to break!' the sob story on friday that I totally fell for! Anyway, I had gone into detail but it got lost. I cant wait to see the pics my cousin took though. For now check out the memories from this weekend!




















Hope to start work this weeeeeeeeek!

"Hotter then a bisquick biscuit..."im done, im out God bless!

The Weekends Here

"War on nations are fought to change the maps. Wars on poverty are fought to map change..."

NOT TOO GOOD: We got our exams back for our first history test. Many people, didnt too well, in fact there wasnt even an 'As.' The highest score was 86 and errone else mostly got inbetween the 70-60s. So due the lack of high scores, the instructor decided to add 4 extra points to errones score. I guess he went over and analyzed errones score, as well as the test and from there made his decision. I did aiight, not the best but ohh well. Its only the first one, and there's plenty of other projects and extra credit to help boost the grade. So thas cool I think extra credit helps, of course there's always positives and negatives to it.

DRIVING AROUND: After class was over went to run some errands, I had to go find the clinic to get my tb test done. I looked up directions and it didnt seem that complicated. Though the first time around, I couldnt even the find the freakin place! There's two different firestones, one that when you make a right leads you to the 5 freeway, and the other one goes over the hill and to the hospital. After driving around for like 20 min. I decided to go back home. Turns out I was real close to the hosptial, I juss had to go over the hill and turn right on the other firestone aghh! It wouldnt of mattered anyway, juss cuz they dont do tb tests on thursdays.

SECOND NITE: So tonite was the 2nd nite of my eucharist I class and I think we were pretty productive. Being, I have to start from scratch, I decided to talk bout the blessed trinity. Oh man, explain that to bunch of 7th graders...I made a triangle on the board and wrote God the Father at the top and then on both corners, 'God the son, God the Holy Spirit.' In the middle writing 1 God, 3 persons. Since it's a lot to digest in one nite, I broke it up. We talked bout God the Father tonite, talked bout who God is, and His characterisitcs. One of the kids, described God has 'vengeful and merfciful.' I was real suprised, I didnt expect that coming from him so it was wow good job! From there we went on to talk bout the catholic church being the one true and the differences betweeen our church and the other church. Sharing stuff like that w/them helped me appreciate my faith eveen more. Its not easy trying to teach from scratch, I havent taught like that in ages. On top of that, I dont exactly have a text either w/all that info. I realized now with both classes, I cant juss 'wing it.' There has to be an actual lesson plan to help make the class run smoother.

MYSPACE: I added some flava to my myspace, something I've been wanting to do for a while, juss never had the time. It's pretty cool cuz I added all these pictures and filled out all my blue boxes and stuff. The pictures seem to fit the boxes too, not all going outside the lines and wha not. I was browsing peoples myspaces and I ran into a real d0pe song on this guys page. Its called 'holla' by ghostfacekillaaaaaaaah, dload its tight mang! I love checking my mail and finding out I have new comments and then reading them ha THough I hate the pages that have too much junk that it takes forever to load sometimes. Its juss interesting the many different people who are on myspace and even the people who swear they're not going to do it, end up jumping on the bandwagon. Myspace has really become a good resource for tracking down ol friends, people I went to skool with etc.

HOT WEATHER: Agh whas with this hot weather?! Its been so gross outside that I hate even having to step out into my car. I was craving some dairy queen yesterday, but I didnt get a chance to get it. Its so dry, muggy, and ugly and its already october! Shouldnt start to be cooling down already? At least I odnt have to worry bout working w/kids outside or doing any type of programs...thas a plus. It wouldve been freakin so cool, if I got a job at centralia! I could literally walk to work and walk home...oh man thatd be fresh! Though Im happy, that work isnt real far being gas prices are killer. Yay for new beginnings!

THE PERFECT HEART: I found this on banne's blog and it was something cool. Definitely, something to use for my confirmation class...

The Perfect Heart
One day a young man was standing in the middle of the town proclaiming that he had the most beautiful heart in the whole valley. A large crowd gathered and they all admired his heart for it was perfect. There was not a mark or a flaw in it.

Yes, they all agreed it truly was the most beautiful heart they had ever seen. The young man was very proud and boasted more loudly about his beautiful heart. Suddenly, an old man appeared at the front of the crowd and said,

"Why your heart is not nearly as beautiful as mine." The crowd and the young man looked at the old man's heart. It was beating strongly, but full of scars, it had places where pieces had been removed and other pieces put in, but they didn't fit quite right and there were several jagged edges. In fact, in some places there were deep gouges where whole pieces were missing.

The people stared -- how can he say his heart is more beautiful, they thought? The young man looked at the old man's heart and saw its state and laughed. "You must be joking," he said. "Compare your heart with mine, mine is perfect and yours is a mess of scars and tears."

"Yes," said the old man, "yours is perfect looking but I would never trade with you. You see, every scar represents a person to whom I have given my love - I tear out a piece of my heart and give it to them, and often they give me a piece of their heart which fits into the empty place in my heart, but because the pieces aren't exact, I have some rough edges, which I cherish, because they remind me of the love we shared. Sometimes I have given pieces of my heart away, and the other person hasn't returned a piece of his heart to me. These are the empty gouges -- giving love is taking a chance. Although these gouges are painful, they stay open, reminding me of the love I have for these people too, and I hope someday they may return and fill the space I have waiting. So now do you see what true beauty is?"

The young man stood silently with tears running down his cheeks. He walked up to the old man, reached into his perfect young and beautiful heart, and ripped a piece out. He offered it to the old man with trembling hands. The old man took his offering, placed it in his heart and then took a piece from his old scarred heart and placed it in the wound in the young man's heart. It fit, but not perfectly, as there were some jagged edges. The young man looked at his heart, not perfect anymore but more beautiful than ever, since love from the old man's heart flowed into his. They embraced and walked away side by side.















my wednesdays arent gonna be the same anymore! haha

Holy fam festival all weekend long!

"Ill be right here waiting for you..."im done, im out GOd bless!

Blessing In Disguise

"If a person be a person and not a beast, then he must be a samurai - brave, generous, upright, faithful, and manly, full of self-respect and self-confidence, and at the same time full of the spirit of self-sacrifice..."

MEAN GIRLS: Due to lindsay lohans car accident, I had dedicated my nite to re-watching mean girls ha! jk Actually though I did watch mean girls and its so funny cuz it brought back memories of hs in a sense. Well, of course errone had their own cliques, but for the most part, I think my skool was pretty diverse. Its juss funny how cady got so caught up in trying to be popular crowd that her old self got drowned out. I think if were one of the plastics, Id be georgina I think thas her name. Anyway, the girl lacey chabert plays...ha rob would be regina the queen bee! Sometimes movies are always better watching it the 2nd time around.

TWO INTERVIEWS, ONE DAY: Tuesday, I had two different interviews, for two different school districts. The first one, was the cypress skool district for an ELD instructional assitant. Instructional assitant is a fancy way of saying teachers aide now a days. I guess to give the title more of a professional title, rather then juss 'teacher's aide.' Anyway, it was a little skurry at first, 4 different people on the panel with 10 different questions. They seemed like me from how the interview was going. It's been a little while since I've gone through a job interview, so I was a little nervous. Asking me wha my experiences were, give me different scenarios, background working w/eld students, how familiar am I with the curriculum, wha do I feel is needed in the position etc. In the end the principal at the site Id be working at said they were going to do background checks today and then call backs next week.

THE SECOND ONE: The second one was for the school district I had applied for way back in june, yet never heard from them until now. This was a little bit easier, only 7 questions this time but still 4 different people on the panel. The benefit however was, the principal at the site I would work at use to be my 5th grade teacher. WEll my 5th grade teacher and my sisters 5th grade teacher too. She use to be real close to my family when I was in skool. Always looking out for the best of us. Geninuely a really nice person. She came out hugged me, and gave me a heads up and told me not to be nervous. Asked if I still had my public speaking skills ha. There was one question that I kinda got stuck on. I forgot wha it was though, I paused for a little bit but then juss gave the best answer I could. For this one they would let me know by the end of the week the status.

ANSWERED PRAYER: Praise God cuz this morning I get a vmail from centralia asking me to give them a call back. I call them back and the human resources lady was offering me the position woOo! I was so excited when I heard that! Thas probably the best phrase to hear, 'we'd like to offer you the position of an instructional assitant.' Now the next step is getting my tb test done and finger printing and Im set to go. I already met the teacher Im going to be working with. Its going to be a kindergarten class from like 930am-130pm something like that. Im really excited cuz its something Ive always wanted to work in. Of course there's pros and cons, but for the most part I'm juss excited I have a job now. In fact I think I did pretty well, it's only been two weeks since I quit and for not having anything back up on...I'm quite proud of myself. The skool is less then 5 min. away from my house too! I juss hope it all works out, I really am excited for this new adventure.

A MILLION THANKS: I cant thank you all enough for you kind words, support, and prayers throughout these past two weeks. Maybe thas also part of the reason I wasn't so bummed out bout the job cuz I had people praying for me. Even though its only been two weeeks, it feels like it's been a month or longer. Thanks for your prayers yesterday during my interview, and those juss praying that I'd find a job. Its still amazes me how errthang worked out. God fit errthang to place at the right time. Errtime I think back and reflect on these past two weeks Im juss in awe. Errone was so right bout God letting it happen for a reason, that He had something else in store for me. I was thinking to myself, perhaps God didnt give me a new job during the summer cuz there was work to do at fern street. Maybe I was called to help build up that center, to build up those kids and I think over the summer I did accomplish that. Wow God is certainly a-m-a-z-i-n-g!

FILLING UP: So the second day of confirmation two, was pretty hm interesting. Im still trying to feel out the kids, and yet it's still hard knowing that its a brand new class. Its hard to discern exactly wha these kids want or need or where exactly to go with them. In fact I came into the classroom w/nothing prepared at all ha. Then I saw caroline had this interesting activiny on 'lying' using that song 'dont lie.' We ended up doing that for a little bit, and from there I went on to talk bout myself, why I am where I am today. It was a little hard to back track how it all happened, I mean it all happened to fast. Though I felt it was important to share w/them bout how I came to love the catholic church. I think the whole mass lecture kinda got through to some of them at least. Most of them turned in their mass cards, which is good. I have two aides in my class, allen and carl. I think carl will be a useful tool being he was in my class for two years. One of the parents from my thurs. class who opens the doors for us on tues. told me that he heard I was passionate bout wha I teach. It kinda made me feel good inside, cuz I really do feel that in order to teach, you have to be passionate bout wha you teach. And I am very passionate bout my faith, and the experiences that drew me to where I am today. Praise God!

THE SEASON FINALE: The final show of 'so you think you can dance' was on tonite. Even though I wasnt there, I felt like wow what an amaznig journey. ha Thas crazy out of hundreds of people one person is chosen, well I guess its juss like american idol. Though I like this one better cuz it forces the dancers to dance outside their comfort zone. I though jamille would get 2nd, I didnt think melody wouldve gotten 2nd. Obviously, I was hoping she'd get first but whatever ha. It was cool seeing all the dancers come back, but I wish they wouldve done more of the group dances rather then having all these other nonsense on there. It wouldve been more meaningful I think at least. Oh well, its all done with I have the memories of the dances on vhs ha thas so ol skool. Actually, I dloaded some of my fav. dances online after it was over. WoOo!

COMING BACK: Went to 24 hr. tonite, its been at least a couple of weeks since I've last gone. It felt good, being back there and trying to get healthy and skinny again. These past couple of weeks have been so darn hectic, that by the time I get home I have no more energy inside of me. I need to try and dedicate more time to going there, heck there's juss one right next ot my house. I still want to do the whole walking over there from my house and back. Swimming was fun tonite, it brought back water polo memories. Those were days..I'm so slow swimming that it's sad! I need to get goggles though cuz that chlorine is pretty killer. Spa was nice and relaxing, it helped clear my head of all the madness going on. It's been a weird a week, but definetly a blessing.


i really am surrounded by the communion of saints!

"It would be to show you how I feel..."im done, im out God bless!

Many Places, Different Faces

"A friend is someone who can see the truth and pain in you even when you are fooling everyone else..."

MONDAY MORNING: 8am classes are always hard to get up, especially on a monday morning. On top of that it doesnt help when your class is pretty boring. I cant believe how incredibly boring geology is! Its funny cuz the very first day of clas she told us, since she doesnt give breaks she'd probably let us out like 5-10 min. early. So much for that, she lectures up to the very last minute, getting errthang she can in. Ahh like today we were done with the other stuff and she wanted to go into glaciers! She goes oh this is the fun part, glaciers are real easy and fun to talk bout. No no! I think for the most part all science classes are boring. I guess thas why I'm not a some type of science major.

EARLY DAY: I always fall asleep in my multicultural dance class. Last week she brought ballet shoes, not brand new ones, but ones she wears. Wha was gross bout it, was she started to pass it around then asked who wanted to put them on. Errone was kinda passing it around w/one finger ha cuz we were all kinda grossed out. Anyway, we got out early today wooo! Then I ran into jill, who I met Jesus through today. Thas the first time I seen her at skool, I think. Anyway, we had a good convo. bout growing and community stuff. I was able to really get to know through working w/spirit games this year, she's a real cool kat.

WASTE OF TIME: So I got this traffic ticket last march for going through red light. Well I couldnt attend traffic skool in june cuz I didint switch the ticket and put in my dads name. I go back to the fullerton court house in august, explaining the situation. The lady tells me to juss resubmit the form and put it in my name. I did that so I get back the ticket the other day, in my name and now theyre requesting payment when I had already paid for the stupid ticket oh why?! I went back yesterday and the line was forever long, juss for the lady to tell me I gotta come back 730am one morning to talk to tthe judge ahhh! I was so upset that I wasted a whole hour of my time for them to do nothing!

HOW MANY OF US: Have them..friends. Melanie gave a real cool talk tonite bout friendships. She said one thing that was kinda funny bout how when we check our myspaces and we see we have a new comment or friends request or comment, we get excited. I do that ha when I see I ahave new comments! It does show that someone took the time out to tihnk of you, even if its juss a lame stupid comment. Then people went up and shared bout friendships. Good times last niite, it made me appreciate more the friendships I've established here.

ITS GREAT: I was telling mel, last wed. it's humbling to come to a whole new place and try and start over. Its like moving to whole new city and going to a whole new skool. Starting over isnt the easiest thing to do in life, but it is humbling. Even though I talk a lot, Im not one to juss randomly go up and meet people. Its cool though how this new community has been so hospitable towards me, in juss the short time Ive been at holy fam. Even though its been like wha 3 months, I feel like I've know them all already for a long time. Its funny how ever since I've gotten involved in ministry stuff, all my friends have become those from church. Going to different places, meeting new faces, some have manged to become some real good friends. And to this this is only the beginning...
















i have no clue what to teach tonite...

"PLay another slow jam this time make it sweet..."im done, im out GOd bless!

Make it a Blockbuster Night

"If you wont fall, how will you know what getting up is like..."

JUSS CHILLIN: This weekend was coo, one of those real chill weekends. Stayed home most of the weekend, having nothing planned was nice. September was so busy with every weekend full, that there were times where I forgot where home was. Dont get me wrong, I love serving at church, I love supporting friends when it comes to their special moments etc. etc. but I do like being at home too. Heck, it was scrc at the beginning of the month, followed by holy fam stuff, then spirit games came(one weekend I'll always remember), and then more holy fam stuff...wow I survived. I think this weekend was a much needed break, as well as a spiritual rejuventaion. Catch up, ketchup!

TWO GENERATIONS: Met up w/jon, gene, courtney, along with cy, and charisse for spirit games '05 eval. Praise God cuz we have like $500 something overflowing into the account for next year. Sheesh thas a lot, and to think we started off w/like a zero balance this year I think? Anyway, it was really cool to see a second generation of spirit games leaders. THey shared their experiences w/us, how it felt, what it was like etc. The fruits that came out of this year, were really bountiful. The next part is going to be exciting to see who they'll choose for next year's heads. Im excited to round up errone again and meet to plan for next year. Despite, we got to a late start this year and almost even thought bout cancelling it for this year, it turned out great. God does provide, amen! Wow, next year will be the 3rd annual spirit games. To think what a small seed can turn out to be with a lot of water, sunlight, and prunning. Its always great to see new blood!

CRASH: I rented that movie crash and I must say its a must see movie! In fact it goes under my list as one of my favorites. The whole plot is pretty crazy and like the title says errthang later on 'crashes' into each other. One of those movies where if you pay attention, you can get a lot out of it. The message I think is pretty loud and clear, not only that it depicts exactly wha our society is like today. Which when you watch it and see for yourself, it's pretty sad. Living in a world full of assumptions and sterotypes, where revenge is something we look for and love is something taken out of context. Its that sense of touch any real city you walk you know you brush past people. In LA nobody touches you always behind this metal of glass. I thik we miss that touch so much we crash into each other, just we can just feel some how...


BOOGIE OOGIE: Two great movies in one nite, wow whatta treat! I had these free tickets to use for AMC that were valid for any movie woo woo! So, it was a toss up between bow wow with roll bouncce or jessica alba and out of the blue. Yeah, I cant help it, I love urban movies! Roll bounce was real good, it made me reminsce on that one summer when my cousins and I all were into the whole roller skating/blading scene.In fact they got the idea of roll bounce from us, hence the picture. ha We would go swimming for a while, get out of the pool then put on our skates and skate all around the old centralia skool. There was this one time I remember we saw a door opened and we freaked out! Wow how we all grow up so fast...Anyway, this had to been one exciting movie experience. Somehow like midway through the movie I had smelt someone smoking the cheeba or at least burning it. The girl next to me smelt it too and we were all looking around. 10 min. later the managers come out and split up these obxnious little jr. highers that were juss too much. Ive never been to a movie w/so much actiong going on outside of the movie.

FEVER PITCH: When I got home that nite, I had remembered I had also rented fever pitch. I figured that Imma be too lazy to watch it on sunday, so I watched it that nite. That was a pretty good movie, its funny cuz it was different then wha I had expected or anticipated the movie to be. Talk bout sacrifices in a relationship, its kinda like hmm well where do you draw the line? Man I cant imagine being someone who is totally obsessed with their hobby. I mean of course, its okay to be real into a sports team or something but maan to make it your life crazy! I think it would go insane having to accomodate and sacrifice errthang for that persons sports team.

PERTURBED: Went to mass at 11am at holy fam, and I was little well not a little real perturbed. Yeah I know how can you be perturbed at mass? I was sitting next to this mom and her little like 5-6 year old and he was pissing me off! He couldnt sit still for nothing(I know I cant either)on top of that err couple of min. he would whisper real loud to get his friends attention who sat in front of him. Then if that wasnt enough he would try and whisper to the other kid he knew, who sat in front of the other kid. Ahhh man, I was going nuts! Then erronce in a while the mom would repermand him but that wasnt enough! She needed to pinch him real hard or do something cuz juss getting mad wasnt doing the job. Finally I think at the Our Father, she moves him to the other side of her and that helps for a little bit. Then she moves him back to where he was agh oh why?!!! And thas why I dont teach little kids like that cuz they would juss drive me to kill myself ha.

WEIRDNESS: A couple of times last week or maybe more than a couple of times, I had these weird dreams of stanton. Maybe cuz I miss working w/the people I worked with. Having a job and working w/the people you love makes work 10x better. My coworkers at stanton were awesome, they were like a family. I guess that was a benefit of having a small city to work in or a small company. On top of that my dept. was even more like family, more like my imediate family. Always looking out for each other, willing to go the extra mile for favors, it was great. However, it still kinda sucks explaining wha happened, cuz to be honest errtime I reflect back on that moment, it brings back chills. Okay, so maybe I sound like im being OA, but forreal if you were in the position I was damn...talk bout the worse day of your life. Never the less, it became a blessing in disguise, cuz if I got another job oh man I dont know how I'd be able to tell them. Errthang works out for the best.

BACK INTO PLAY: I was going through some old stuff on my laptop, trying to delete unnecessary junk. Anyway, I came across the power point I made for the end of the year. Dang, I reall good job on that haha kidding thas not the point. I looked back and I juss smiled at how we all grew together. In fact I had asked some of my kids from last year to come in and give a testimony, sharing their experiences in confirmation. I mean after all, if theres anyone who knows my teaching style best, its them. As I was looking at the power point, I realized how much we learned together. I do pray though that they were able to take away something. Ha I told oonoe of my kids that I felt like mr. belding from saved by the bell and he told me that was ol skool. ha!

Interesting thoughts I picked up...

ALMOST: If you put yourself out on the ledge for someone, expect to fall. A favor with expectations is like dirt wrapped in aesthetics. If you want to sacrifice yourself for another person, close your eyes, take the leap, and if reciprocation falls before you do, take it as a pleasant surprise. Be appreciative of the opportunity to do something noble...and do it with all that you are or just don't do it at all. A half favor is an almost and at the end of the day, almost doesn't count.

PAY BACK: Pay back doesn't always have to be such a bitch. Spite leads you right into a brick wall. Accept the people who have wronged you and even if they don't learn to treat you better, you prevent yourself from degradation . We don't all view life through one universal microscope. Open up. It's so much easier just to get pissed off at the things you don't completely understand...but why take the easy route? Life is too complex to be dumbed down like that. Without being a doormat, there's always a better way to rule your life than with an iron fist.


BAck to the daily grind

"So shine on, you want me to..."im done, im out God bless!

The First of the Month

"Let us go forward in peace, our eyes upon heaven, the only one goal of our labors..."

HAPPY FEAST DAY: Today is the feast day of one of my favorite saints, St. Therese of Lisieux. I love reading stories about her, I think out of my saint book collections, I ahve the most books on her. Juss cuz the wisdom she has is so interesting, you can learn a lot from her. I also love sharing bout her to other people, I let jan-michael borrow my book on her stories of answered prayers. Its funny cuz I was looking back at my ol archives from last year and I was reading the stuff she wrote from this book 'wisdom of the little flower.' So much to learn from this Saint, her life of holiness that she lead, the life of perseverance, I cant wait to share her w/my confirmation kids this year!



















MISSED ONE: Another birfday shout out, going to the baby josh king. This little guy is one funny kid. Errtime I see him it makes me juss want to eat him cuz he's that cute. WHne he speaks he points saying 'deh deh' haha On top of that he's a pretty chill baby. one of those babies that dont cry all the time and is pretty much happy go lucky baby. Whas cool is that he's always down to eat! hah now thas my kind of kid haha anyway, heres to you baby boy haPpy birfday!

GOD PROVIDES: It really is true, God provides even when there seems to be no other hope. This has happened in two different instances this past week. First off, for how, we all decided to pitch in to buy music equipment. The main stuff, mixer and speakers, cuz we have a keyboard. Well there's this anonymous tita who apparently has heard how sing before. She asked for the receipt of the equipment we bought and wrote out a check to pay for the whole thing!!! Freakin wow! Then I get a call back from cypress skool district wed. telling me I passed the test woOo! I have an interview tues. morning. On top of all that yesterday, I get another call back from centraila skool district calling me in for an interview next tues. afternoon! This is the application I had turned in waaay back at the middle of june. Soo cool two interviews for two skool districts on the same day. God is lookin out for all of us. Im sure its not a coincidence that all this is going on either. Praise God for He does provide, provides for all our needs.

WHICH ONE: I went to san pedro region young adult event at St. Raymond's in downey. It was cool I saw a lot of the peeps that I knew from SCRC. Anyway, they had a really good talk by Fr. Ed from sPc bout the Eucharist. It was a long talk, I dont even know how I was able to last through it all, but I did it. He shared bout the story of St. Juan Diego and how our Lady came to him. All in all it was pretty good, I forgot to bring notebook paper to write down notes, cuz there was a lot of good things he said. There was one part of the talk, he was describing the different types of catholics, theres like a billion of us all over the world, but not all our devout. Anyway, so it brought back to something I read in St. Therese's book.

In the first place are the hundred-percenters. These are the whole and undivded ones, the saints. They have put God in the first place of their life, and everything else comes after that. Externally they have many failures, but under their touch everything grows toward eternal life.

The second group, the sixty-percenters, also wins praise from the Lord. They have fought and are wounded in life's toils. But as fighters they belong with the victorious. They are struggling and maturing. In their distress and in their defeat they keep looking to God and turning to him. A man once told me, 'If at the end of my life I cant stand before God as a winner, then at least let it be as a fighter.'

Even the third group, the thirty-percenters, gets recognition from the Lord. Their faith is a faily up and down. Their religous life has its ebbds and flows, its progress and backsliding. Bright days stand alongside dark nights. It is by no means taken for granted that everything will out well in the end, but they stick w/Jesus. In trust in his forgiving love they continually confess their guilt. They do it with the confidence that God can still create something worthwile, even out of their guilt.

As Jesus address the two different groups, the ones with hardened souls and the group w/the open mind, they both face each other. Both are like a field on which God's seed is cast. Although the key here is both group are not open to receiving him in themselves. So the question you may ask, 'Which group do I belong to?' The answer is provided on the path to silence, because it is above all in the silence that the soul opens up to the truth. In silence it purifies itself from errthang that makes it selfish, hard, and, unreceptive. Anyone who talks a lot puts himself in the center of thigns in order to show himself to good advantage. St. Therese writes in one of her numerous letters, Silence does the soul good.

In the prophet Isaiah it says, 'Hear, that your soul may live.' By hearing, we come to life. So, too, those who dont hear dont know what life is all bout . The listening person makes out what is important to the other person, and to God.

EYE TO EYE: I like that 'if I cannot stand before God as a winner then at least let it be as a fighter.' There's nothing like seeing your God face to face, eye to eye. When father was walking around w/the monstrous going to people w/it, this awe intense feeling came to me. I guess its juss an overwhelming emotional feeling when here's your God standing right before you. One of those grace filled moments that you dont want to end. Nothing better then seeing your Jesus right before you, filled with so much love. On top of all that fr. blessed my bendectine crosses, I got them for my skit peeps, as a reminder of how much God will always be there for them. Orginally I wanted to get the real small ones, but he ran out oh whY?! So all that was left was the real blang blang type, but I didnt want to get those cuz they were too blang-blang, but turns out gaby was giving me a real good deal so I fell through. I hope they like them...I know mine means the world to me. I cant wait to give it to them!

I found this, while looking at my archives hmmm...

CALLING ALL CATHOLICS: Are you afraid to walk the walk???
Just because you go to church on Sunday does not make you Catholic, anymore than sitting in a garage makes you a car. Read about your faith and question it, do works of mercy, pray for your priests who give up their lives to serve you(they're human too), ask Jesus for the strength to resist the world when you receive HIM in the Eucharist, don't be afraid to PRAISE GOD in front of your friends, thank God for the gift of the Eucharist at mass, Open your Bible that usually sits on that dusty shelf(the first attempted crowd surfer's in there...how bad could it be? His name is Razis and he's in Maccabees if you're still curious), Allow God to open your eyes to the beauty of you faith because once you start seeing there's no going back! Look what happened to Lot's wife in Genesis. Talk your Mom (Mary) in heaven...she hasn't heard from you in decades(rosary decades that is). Now go out and prove you're Catholic. Jesus said "I am with you always" so don't be afraid.

Praise God for a grace filled nite!

"Give us a spirit of wisdom, an understanding heart..."im done, im out GOd bless!