It's The End of the Month!

"Appreciate every smile that has been expressed to you because behind every smile lies a pain that has been comforted by Love..."

HAPPY BIRFDAY: ANother birfday shout out going to my brotha, randell. This guy is craazzzy! ha He's been like my outside community prayer buddy, always interceding for me when I need prayers. Great guy, who I always see the face of Christ in. Humble, chill, and juss down for whatevers. 21...maaan I remember my 21st birfday, alright a nite of celebrations and well lots of it ha! The first time I saw him I always thought he looked like a fiipino version of donald faison and I always tell him that too. ha ANyway, if you dont know this guy, you should get to know him cuz he's one d0pe homie! Here's to you man...drink it up! haha

PROJECT ON HAND: My moms friend at work is getting married in november, and they've asked me to put together a slideshow for their wedding reception. Pretty cool they asked me cuz I really dont know a whole lot of that extra fancy stuff. I showed her two different ones that I can do, but she chose to go with the power point one oh why?! haha Now its more work uploading the piictures and fitting them blah blah. Oh well I guess it'll give me some extra to do now, temporarily since I have some time on my hands. Its cool cuz they're getting married at. St. Martin de Porres in yorba linda, so theyre catholic yay! Makes things even better.

LUNCH AT JOES: I had lunch w/rob at joe's crab shack, thas one of my fav seafood places to eat at. Well, I usually like to go on the weekends, when they have the whole dancing and music stuff. I like watching them sing. dance, and provide entertainment while I eat. Ha its like youre paying them to keep you entertained. I had this pasta thing, that ended up juss killing my stomach afterwards foor the rest of the day. I dont know wha it was but it made me have to hold my stomach all day long. I felt like I was pregnant or something, ha even though I really dont know how that feels either but I can juss imagine.

HOT WEATHER: These past couple days have felt like summer all over again. Rising temperatures causing fire up in the valley area. Times like these that I'm glad I dont live out there. Its also times like these where I miss having a pool, our pool has been empty for years now. Now with the spa gone too. my once luxirous backyard is no more. With the hot weather, gotta find ways to keep yourself cool. Good thing I have air conditioning in my car otherwise oh man I dont know what Id do with out it. Talk bout blazin hot!



SAM ASH FUN: Ive only gone to sam ash like once, well maybe twice. Obviously, since I dont play any instruments, Im not in there. So I went with rob there today and man it was so much fun! There was this lady taking forever asking all these questions so in the meantime rob and I made music! They had a dj set out that I got mess around with. It was pretty d0pe, Ive really touched a turn table w/a mixer and errthang. We took pics of each other as if it were forreal. Mixing and turntabling stuff is tight to do, if you know how. This samoan couple who were buying speakers, asked if I dj ha! dj isda on the ones and twos...then this other asian guy came along ,who really sucked when it came to the producing music part, but tore it up on the two turnables.

IN HANDY: This whole car wash deal that I bought a couple of weeks ago, has really come in handy. My car was filty from all the rain last week and left spots, finally its clean again! I had bought this car wash package deal where I get like 4 free washes, then rest of them are like 50% off coupons for different things. Its on walker and cresecent, I like it better then the cypress one. For some reason, Im always finding missing spots at the cypress one. On top of all that they do the whole air freshner smell in your car, which smells great!

HES JUSS NOT THAT INTO YOU: So I heard bout this book through some peeps at holy fam. I went to the cypress and buena park library to go check it out. Im curious to read and see whas all the fuss bout this book. I heard its some type of excuses guys give you or something like that. I dont know thas why I want to read it and check it out for myself. I heard the book was on oprah ha On top of all that I juss though the title of the book is funny, 'he's juss not that into you...' ooooh burn!

THE NEW CLASS II: The second nite of SRE has started and wow God has total new journey instore for me this year. My thurs. nite class has 15 kids, and they're so quiet and shy. Well most of them at least, I have this one girl who kept wnating to share which I dont mind. Then I have one guy who's the oldest out of all them and is a senior in HS. THese kids have pretty much no background whatsoever, that Im going to have to start from scratch. I dont even know where sractch is, Im juss worried of how Imma end up explaining errthang to them w/o it going over their heads. There's one girl who doesnt even know the sign of the cross! Yikes! When we began in prayer, I saw her looking around trying ot figure out how to do it. I really do miss my kids from last year...a whole different ball game!

the weekend hurr!

"These words are not fromy heart..."im done, im out God bless!

Malo, Malo Thanks be to God

"Whatever you do, think not of yourself, but of God..."

BIRFDAY SHOUT OUT: Happy birfday to wonderful sista of mine, cyril! Over the past couple of years, I've really gotten to know her. I remember first meeting her and mike two years ago going to st. lucys thinking they were gonna have a meeting, but ended up watching the stations of the cross play instead. Then I got the chance to really get to know her through working together on spirit games. I've learned a lot from her, and I totally admire her surrederance and trust she gives to God each day. Not only that, she's helped me out a lot by juss listening when I needed someone to talk to and give some great advice. Anyway, cy, this one's for you thanks for being such a d0pe sister! Balangue in '06! haha

ITS DUMB: I had to leave class early this morning to take my test for the cypress skool district morning. This is the first obstacle to be a classified employee at any skool district now. You gotta take a test like proficiency exam to see if you're smart enough to work w/kids. There's 3 parts to the test, your basic english, math, and the ability to assist. Its one of those all or nothings type of exams, either you pass them all or none at all. All this came into effect after stupid bush put into law the 'no child left behind' act. Dont get me wrong, I want competent teachers in classrooms, but cmon now. Im sure some of those politicans couldnt even pass the stupid test.

SUPRISED: Later on this afternoon I got a call back from the skool district, saying Im accepted for an intvw next tues. morning. Which caught me off guard cuz I didnt think I had passed. I wasd the first done, my mind was going off and on throughout the test, I was real tired. On top of that there were some things that I forgot how to do. Good thing they allowed calculators on the test. Im juss happy I got the biggest obstacle done and over with. Please continue to pray for me so that I can juss do well on the interview.

ON REPEAT: I love having conversations w/people that when you leave youre juss feeling good. I dont know its hard to describe, but anyway, after the first young adult prayer meeting was over with, mel and I had a really good convo. This whole experience of starting out brand new and starting a group from scratch is real humbling. All the groups Ive been apart of in the past, were already established and working. Trying to come up with a whole new different group is challenging, yet it makes you think so many different things. I guess it all goes back to growing, kinda like bannes talk at the lss. The whole rose analogy, bout being thorns and being humble enough to be buried in the soil of humility...bout trusting and having faith in God.

SOME MORE: I probably sound repeaitve but oh well ha skip this section then. I was sharing w/mel bout how I still cant get over last weekend. To see and hear all the fruits that have come out of it, its humbling. Errtime I look at that field its juss so amazing how errthang juss came together. God totally tested my faith, tested my strength, tested how much I was going ot be able to handle. Through it all gave me the grace, help keep my sanity together, and wow. Its juss funny how things work out. Its weird cuz I feel so much more connected now at holy fam then I do at sPv. My thoughts are all over the place cuz its late and I'm tired. Its cool to see these kids all worked up and so excited, the testimonies wow...almost made me shed a tear forreal. I guess it brought back memories of doing stuff like youf lss' and other stuff like that. On top of that I'm sure for many of them, this was their first time falling in love w/God. A memory that they'll always remember and come back to, something that can never be taken away. Its funny yesterday I came home and I had like 4 different comments from those kids. They're too cute ha Im thankful yup, thas it.

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IM EXCITED: Also at the same time, I'm excited for how and it's new mission. This whole journey this past year has been an amazing story. Filled with drama, suspense, love, ha Im telling you we can make a movie out of it. One of those abc family movies or something like that. As much as I love being w/the youf and hanging out around them, its always nice to come back to the people you in a sense 'grew up with.' Not in the childhood, playground sense, but the people that helped you love God. The ones that grew with you on the spiritual journey, the ones who were strength for you. Im excited to see us get bigger and bigger. The spirit is there working in all of us, we juss gotta continue to be open to it. Its probably going to take a lot of work, but I think we all know in the end it's all going to be worth it. Nothing's ever easy when were serving God, especially when the fruits that will come out of it will bloosom.

i need to catch up on some movies!

"And all the world will see the salvation of our God..."im done, im out God bless!

I Love LA!

"If I wish to please God, I must do His Will and not my own..."

STILL IN AWE: Im still in awe of all the events that took place from this past weekend. I look back at the field and its hard to believe that all those people and stuff were there. YOu know, Im really not a 'lets go camping' type of person. Its juss not in me, I have to do the whole shower thing and feel nice and clean before going to sleep. However, sleeping under the stars(kinda) was pretty neat. Looking up for a short time and staring at God's creations is amazing. On top of all that hearing the testimonies of these kids, who maybe some were hesitant of what to expect for the weekend, but came out in the end feeling so hyped up. Its cool how I was able to bond w/some of the kids too on top of that. Holy Family Youth Ministry really does rock! Praise God!

A VISIT: When I was younger and I couldnt drive, I always wanted to juss drive down to LA and juss chill visit my cousins hang out for the day. I couldnt do that cuz I didnt have a car nor licensce to drive. Even after I did, LA seemed like a whole different place then in the OC that it was too skurrry to drive down there. Anyway, now that I'm older I can do it now, its different. So yesterday, I went down and spend the day chillin w/my cousins. It was great day cuz the weather was so perfect. The last time I had gone down there, it was pouring like crazy. Ha I felt like such a tourist out there, went to the boardwalk on venice beach. The beach was real cool despite the real ugly and dirty water. It juss felt great to get away for the day, clear my mind. Every now and then its still hard to believe im jobless. Ha I never really imagined that I'd end up quitting so soon. Yet, there are times when I do miss it, though like I said I feel better now. More relaxed and juss more time to do things that I wanted to do. The best part of the day, was picking up my godson at skool then we went to the park after. He's such a funny kid, maan he's getting bigger and bigger errtime I see him.

THE NEW CLASS: The new season of SRE has begun, with 26 kids in my class. I walked into a whole new classroom, feeling a little sad. I realized it was going to be completely different this year, with new personalities, new names to learn and memorize. However, God has given me a new task at hand, new souls to feed, and plant. So how'd it go? It was different, I have a pretty good mix of guys and girls. THough a lot of guys talk waaay too much already. I tried to come off strict and firm, you know I didnt want them running over me. At the same time I was straight out w/them, telling them they can choose to be here. Explained the importance of mass, explained the importance of their 'yes.' Oh yeah, and the kids arent all predominately filipino either! Now I wont have lumpia and pansit and all that good stuff at my parties! oh why?! There lies an interesting journey ahead.

See you all at holy family tonite!

"Summer has come and pass..."im done, im out God bless!

Growing with God

"Love God, serve God: everything is in that..."

ONE WEEK: I cant believe its already been one week since I've been unemployed...yikes! As I was walking on the campus at skool, I started to get flashbacks from errthang that happened last weekend. Even last saturday, despite the great time I had, I was looking at my watch and then I thought to myself, 'dang...I was pushing water out of the hall at this time.' Then it juss gave me goosebumps thinking about it. Errthang happened so quickly and so fast, but in the end it was all for the better. Of course, I wished I hadnt opened up those damn walls, but you cant dwell on the past forever. Im happy now, in fact I'm a lot happier now. The hard part like I said is finding a replacement...a good one.

DIAMONDS ARE FOREVER: So in geology today, I learned a little bout diamonds and other type of gem stones. Its crazy to see the great lengths people in other countries go to, to search for such jewelry. We were watching this video of people panning for saphire like minners would pan for gold. I guess there are some interesting things you can learn in geology after all. Sidenote, I gotta find out when this project I was suppose to do w/the guy who sit nexts to me is due. He all of a sudden for some reason changed his mind and decided to go solo on it. Which sucks cuz he chose the topic we had before and now I'm stuck w/the boring stupid topic on sea floor spreading. oh why?!

REFLECTION: During the youf group meeting tonite, I was sitting in my chair juss reflecting on how fast time has passed by. Withing the hmm 4 months I've been at holy family, juss all the cool people I've met, the new friends I've made, juss on how God has used me in a way I didnt expect. I love being around the youf, cuz they're so funny. They help recharge my batteries when its low. Tieing it all together, I've gotten to know some wonderful people at holy fam. Truly it's awesome to see the light of Christ shine through these kids. They were up there sharing their testimonies bout over the weekend...so on fire, so excited and thas great! I didnt realize how much the suicide skit had touched them. It didnt seem like there was any emotion after it was over but from it ended up being almost like a flood! ha jk Really, though I thought the transition was going ot be hard, but God paved the path for all of us.

Praise God for the fire that keeps on burning!

"Now and forever amen..."im done, im out God bless!

For the Greater Glory of God

"A friend is one who strengths you with prayers, blesses you with love, and encourages you with hope..."

EXHAUSTED: I feel so physically exhausted, well not only that but also spiritually and mentally too but praise God. Didnt get a whole lot of sleep last nite, but I am thankful that I did sleep and was warm, despite the circumstances. Now that this weekend is over, and this month is almost over, I think things can slow down a little bit. Maybe its juss me, I need to slow down and find to rest. Though thas the hard part cuz I cant help but want to get involved with all the action. I remember when I was younger, I hated missing skool cuz I felt like I was missing out on all the happenings. Sitting down, is juss not my thing ha. I wasnt planning on blogging, but there's this so much to talk bout and show.

FRUITS: With everything, were tests the fruits of our actions. Sometimes we do things and yet, we may not even see the fruits. THough God knows the intentions of our hearts and sees the fruits Himself, which probably is the only one that matters. I must say though the fruits that have come out of this weekend was amazing! The fruits of the Holy Spirit were truly present this weekend, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control. All of it was there present in many different ways.

BEING TESTED: Whenever were doing something good for the glory of God, there's always comes struggles. The devil never rests and the attacks though small, sometimes big, can really throw you off. God truly tested my faith through juss various things happenign this weekend. Even to the last min. from finding my skit people, to getting pulled over on the way to holy fam. Yet never the less, God really gave me the grace to hold on tight. I knew I think if I tried to rely on myself, then Id juss crumble. God was holding me together throughout this whole week and errthang was worth it, all for His greater glory!















HAPPY MOMENTS: Even though saturday was such a busy, hectic day, I enjoyed every bit of it. Congrats to the newly married mr. and mrs. sooter! What a bootiful wedding ceremony and great reception. Thanks for letting me share in one of the happiest days of your lives yay! =) I pray that your marriage continues to glorify God and you guys live together forever til youre both past 100! ha Their wedding was really nice, Ive never been to St. Philips before even before it got burnt down. Fr. Pat is one hella cool priest, he goes under my list of favorites. Who wouldve thought...I ran into my cousin there too at the wedding! ha! How crazy that it reallly is a small world after all.

QUICK STOP: Made a quick stop at the family party before leaving to holy fam. I cant believe that my lolo turned 99! Im truly grateful to God for the gift of my grandparents, who are so wonderful. I am also thankful to God for letting him live so long, to experience so much, and share so much of his life w/all of us. It really is amazing what one 'yes' can do, what one 'yes' can change. I think thas the keyword of this weekend...'yes' it is. Giving your all to God, despite not knowing what might happen, where you'll go, but believing, trusting, and giving. On a side note, I was so lucky, after being pulled over by the popo on sat. afternoon, I need to really slow down. If I'm late, then I'm late I guess ha I think I'd rather be late, then have to pay $350 speeding ticket and go to traffic skool. Thanks Lord for the reminder!

SATURDAY: So another big day has come, after months of planning and preperation. I could tell that the youf were so excited to see people come out and support. Through the mountains, the valleys, and the deserts, God managed to keep us altogether. I must say, Im quite proud of my committee...the suicide er I mean suicide skit committee. They were freakin great! I think as the nite passed on, I was more nervous then they were. Praise God for He juss provided it all, even last min. stand in characters. Praise & worship was spirit moving, literally people were touched by the Holy Spirit. Im sure GOd knew there was such a deep thirst and hunger for it. Probably the best part was bonding w/them towards the end of nite, during the 'lights out.' Trying to get to them to sleep, while messing around at the same time. Too many good times...



SUNDAY: Waking up to a sunrise mass, helps to see the beauty in God's creations. Fr. Vic also goes under my 'top ten' favorite priests list. He literally took a sleeping bag and found a empty space to sleep outside. Now thas cool! His homily was even better, having the kids come out and testify there experiences from the weekend. Then during the closing song, creating a 'conga' type line having errone dancing to 'this litttle light of mine' then from there running to the hall from the grass w/errone chasing and following after all. I love priests like that, that live up to their vocation in serving and catering to all. Yeah, I know I get told this all the time, I may not be a youf anymore, but there is so much you can learn from them and take from them. Praise God for their energy to keep on going. Praise God for lighting the fire again.
























part of the ipod crew now yay!

"I have one desire just to give my life to you..." im done, im out God bless!

Wake Me Up When September Ends

"You are not doing hip hop; you ARE hip hop..."

SEPTEMBER TO REMEMBER: Ha I knew this would be one september to remember as I said at the beginning of the month. Who would've thought all these different things would be occuring right now. Even though the month isnt quite over yet, it's been quite a busy one. Nevertheless a challenging one. There are days when I really wanted to say, 'juss wake me up when september is over.' Though through all the storms and fog, God is always there holding out His hand asking me to trust Him. As always faith isnt bout juss believing, its about trusting and holding on, even through the times of suffering.

CONTEST: Rob and I made a contest, it's a bit of a weird one but it's funny. Well, yesterday he was so inspired that ryan replied back to my myspace message that he thought he'd try it for himself. We made a bet w/each other to see who might get ryan for their event first. He was trying to book ryan for entropy stuff, while I was trying to book him for youf stuff. Whoever got ryan first would owe the person dinner or lunch. The catch is we cant make up any lies or anything like that to try and persuade him. Ha it reminded me of that one brady bunch episode when cindy made a call to this famous baseball player saying her brother was real sick and dying. The baseball player feeling sorry made a special visit over to the house to visit bobby. Then the parents found out that cindy made up the story to try and get the baseball player over. Ha it was pretty funny hmm...haha

ALMOST DOWN: Spent the entire afternoon at holy fam trying to get the suicide skit down. Praise God that we finally have a complete cast and that errone was their also! It helped a lot, and I think for the most part we have it down. We gotta work on the timing a little bit, but they did a superb job yesterday for being the first time. Im juss praying that this skit will bear fruits and even if it juss touches one person, then thas one soul that we were able to help. Praise God! It feels like ol times when Id spend all day at sPv for SH events. Now, it's time to do the same thing but at holy family. Praise God for new experiences!

PERFECT TIMING: God couldnt of chosen a better time for me to be unemployed. Its kinda funny when my boss broke the bad news to me, in my head I was kinda sad but at the same time I was like yess! I dont know how I wouldve been able to get the whole skit together, and help do the program at the same time. So I'm pretty sure God knew this week was probably the best time. I mean as of lately, a lot of my time and energy has been spent with the youf, trying to help them out as much as I can. After this weekend, I think I can breathe a little bit knowing that its all over. At the same time too, its nice knowing I dont have to do the teen dance tomorrow, nor go to some stupid training on saturday morning. WoOOo! Thanks God for hooking it up! haha

CLASSICS: I bought a couple of CDs yesterday at best buy, they're some classic r & b jams from boyz II men and jodeci. I figured they were only $10 and they had all the jams from back in the day. I was listening to them in my car on the way to holy fam and I was boppin my head it was like yaaaaaaaaaaah these are the jams. The songs that I grew up with and would listen to all the time. So if anyone wants a copy of them let me know and bring me a CD and I can burn them for you.

A CALL BACK: On a positive note, I think Im making some type of progess here on the job front. Cypress skool district called me back yesterday, I gotta go in next wed. and take the stupid proficiency test. Stupid no child left behind act! So hopefully, it wont be too hard and I can pass it in and land a job at the skool district, that would be freakin cool! Keep me in your prayers cuz I'd like to have a job at least by october. Im so relieved also knowing I dont have to do the whole battle of the bands nor work during the halloween event. Ahhh yes!

WOODRANCH GRILL: I had dinner for the first time at the woodranch grill in cerritos last nite. Its a pretty nice place, although I didnt really like the selection I got, the rest of the stuff seemed cool. Maybe next time I'll get the steak or ribs, however their fries were real good! haha I was hoping the pasta wouldve been different but oh well. Our server was really kind to us and accomadating, which helps make a difference inn how you view the restaraunt. Anyway, Imma have to go back there sometime and tyr something else.

GIVING BLOOD: I decided to help and donate blood after class yesterday. There was blood drive and I'm sure tons of people out there need blood. it was funny cuz there were some first timers in there and they were reall nervous. Ha its cool giving, I fill up the that pint in like less then 10 min. Ha I guess my blood is that good! The only part I hate is kinda hanging out after you're done. I dont have time to sit and chill for a bit I got things to do! Well not as much anymore ha but still...Anyway, I got a free ticket to the aquarium and on top of that a coupon for a free pint of baskin robbins ice cream oh yeah!! Oh yeah, they also bandaged my arm up in this cool blue band! ha People asked were asking wha happened? I said its for breakin yo! haha

MINI ACCIDENT: I was at best buy and I was backing out this lady was also backing out too. Though I think she was backing out after me, anyway I noticed she was getting real close to my bumper. I tried to move forward so taht she wouldnt it me, but it was too late! oh why?!! Good thing the damage wasnt anything big! I juss decided to let it go cuz you couldnt really see anything. Juss a small scratch thas it, so its not worth reporting to insurance and going through all that hassle. At least im okay, thas all that matters kinda ha

Busy weekend ahead!

"Start some drama, you dont want no drama..."im done, im out God bless!

UNemployed Day One

"Always humble yourself lovingly before God and man, because God speaks to those who are truly humble of heart, and enriches them with His gifts..."

ON REPEAT: I think Ive told how/why I quit my job a total of a million times. ha I should juss make a movie out of it send it to errone. ha People are still asking wha happened and errthang, so of course I told them. Its juss the story gets shorter and shorter each time, ha I dont even know if there's a cliff notes version of it. Thas why I juss explained it all on my blog, hoping that people would see the answer there. My coworker told me that it's weird w/me being gone. Its different knowing that I'm never coming back. Its not like I'm on a long vacation or anything but its knowing that I'm done. OH yeah if anyone is interested whos going to skool right now and needs a job, were looking for an intern. Er I mean the city of stanton is looking for an intern. Apply now tell them and use me as your reference! ha!

THUNDER AND LIGHTING: I was beginning to think that perhaps the end of the world is coming near. After hearing all that loud thunder that woke me up at like 230am it was pretty skurry! My printer turned off and then turned back on in the middle of the nite, the hallway light went off and on also...it was like a scene from a skurry movie. Then the more I thought bout it, there's hurricanes going on the other side of the US and were having a thunderstorm thas making car alarms go off...God must be real angry at the city of stanton for making me quit! ha!

LUNCH DAYS: Since I'm going to be on welfare for a little bit, the burr was kind enough to take me out to lunch at subway today. On top of that he made these food stamps coupons. Some say 'good for one free lunch w/the burr' and others say, 'good for one free meal at the moyas.' Can we say time to use the copy machine and make a dozen copies of food stamps! hahaha Anyway, so after lunch we headed down to the main place to kill some time. We went to victoria secret to pick up a gift card and the emlpoyees there were wrapping it up and making it all nice. THen they asked if he wanted a bag for it and he was like uhh uhh ha so I juss said yes and said I'd hold the bag for him ha. So while we were waiting for them to wrap it up I was real irritated by my forehead skin peeling. I started to peel it off and I was telling him my skin is peeling and he goes to me, 'well dont peel it anymore, it's going to get worse!' then I said 'sheesh okay dad!' haha

MAKING THE EFFORT: Heif told me bout this website called ed-join or something like that. ITs website for educational jobs that has postings for skool districts all across so. cali. I ended up applying for 3 different jobs for the irvine unified skool district. I dont know exactly wha my chances are, but they paid good so I thought I'd give it a chance. Hopefully they'll call me back for one of them. I still gotta go to the auhsd to apply for two jobs over there, but its juss a hassle to get the stuff I need to bring them. Then for the stupid garden grove skool district, I have resubmitt all the stuff I gave them before to apply for them again. Aghh filling out applications has become much more complicated then before. Now you gotta make sure you attach all these extra stuff to the paper on top of that the application is like 10 pages alone. :Sigh: oh well, you gotta do wha you gotta do. I cant sit at home too much longer and do nothing.

TWO IN ONE: Went to two different parishes in one day. Starting at holy fam, trying to get this suicide skit stuff down, but alas only 2 of the 10 people were there yesterday. Im aiming to get a better practice in today. Hopefully...there's only oh my 3 moe days til the rally! Push push push! After that went to sPv and went to SH's lss, good talk on receiving God's gift last nite. We were discussinng in the group on how star wars is an excellent movie to use when talking bout God's gifts. How God gives us different gifts, but were called to use it to glorify Him, not ourselves and God could alway take away the gifts we dont use correctly. Juss like a jedi, the jedis are called to use their gifts for the betterment of those who need help. Then for the closing song we sang, 'who builds the faith' I so want to teach the kids at holy fam that song!

MISSING: For the past 2 weeks now my bible diary has been missing. The last time I had seen it was during scrc, I hope it didnt fall out of my back or something. Has anyone seen it? I feel so empty going to mass w/o it. Especially when it comes during the homily, and the liturgy of the word. ahHH! I have a lot of stuff that I have written in there and now I dont know where its at. In fact I'm almost tempted to buy a brand new one! So if youve seen it please let me know!

SAVING THEM: I was inside the rectory at holy fam yesterday, and jan michael, phrancis, and I were talking bout saving xangas and blogs. Jan Michael was saying its better to print them out and save them rather then saving them on disk or on the desktop. Apparently, he did that and his computer ended up crashing and he lost it all. Oh why?! That sucks! Good thing I have mine printed out, well except the past couple recent ones. Which reminds me I need to hole punch them and put them in the binder. I think I'll do that after I'm done blogging, not like I have anything else to do. ha!

3 more days until youf prayer rally!

"Do you ever wake up thinking about me..." im done, im out God bless!

Long Over Due

"No human being is too big to be humble, but some human beings are too small..."

SO MUCH TO SAY: Man I have so much to say and so much on my mind, hopefully I'll be able to get all out. Its been a rough weekend with a lot to think about, though I think its all coming to a close, at least I hope so after today at least. There were some good things that happened, as well as some well...not so good things. Wow talk bout your faith being tested, talk bout being purified, its like that song through the wire. Over the weekend I juss wanted to go outside and juss screeeeeeeeeeeam and yell. Okay, Im being OA, anticipation and anxiety suck! As always though, through the good fridays there's always the ressurection.

ORAL QUIZ: In history we had this inclass oral quiz, where the whole class took the quiz together collectively and collectively got the same grade. There were 15 questions and the instructor asked random people a question from the quiz. Well the catch is we can agree w/that person or challenge it if we think its wrong. However there are only 8 challenges throughout the entire quiz. Also you cant call out answer or answer it for someone cuz its considered cheating. Well, we did well collectively as a group only missing one. We wouldve had 15/15 if some stupid guy didnt shout out the answer to one of the questions. agh!!!

HOLY FAM: I feel like I'm at holy fam errday now. I was there on thurs. after work to meet up w/the skit committee. Since the other skit wasnt working out I showed them another one that would possibly be easier to do. Turns out the youf were really touched juss watcing it wow! So wee decided we would do that one instead. Practiced it a couple of times, though its hard w/only person working w/them. THough I think we did okay for the first round. Ran into Fr. Johnny and he told the youf that it was great to see them around in the rectory and wants to see them around more often. Thas so cool to have such a supportive pastor of youf ministry stuff.

THURS. NITE HANG OUT: Thurs. nite hang out at the moyas was fun. Watching the family guy movie was even better. I got really sleepy though towards the end of the movie, maybe it was from the dinner before. I think I was really exhausted from all the festivities from the week. Anyway, I think those car bombs are kinda nasty, well it leaves you with an ugly after taste. Next time, I'll juss stick to wha Im use to drinking. It was fun hanging out w/juss the guys and jem, ha even though I some how knocked out. Oh well there's always next time I guess.

FAMILY FRIDAY: I had to work friday nite for family friday, small event but tons of people there. I didnt know it was mexican independence day, so you had all pretty much the 1/2 of the stanton community there. Agh I was really trying to hold my breath cuz there were some kids who were running around that I juss wanted to grab and tell them to sit down. Sometimes I juss wish parents took more care of their kids rather then them walking around and not paying any attention to wha they were doing. My patients w/them was real low by the end of the nite I wouldve became a real monster. Then my phone kept constantly ringing w/one person after the other calling. I know why now cuz it was the nite before spirit games! ahhh

ITS HERE: So after months and months of planning and prayer the big day was finally here. Ha no not my wedding! However it does kinda sound like that as if I was getting married. The 2nd annual spirit games! Got there early to start getting things set up and ready to go. Calvin and JOhn reyes were there also early enough to help prepare things. Check it, so calvin was helping me get out this podium I wanted to use for mass. Well as I was rolling on the street it went over the crack, fell over, and broke! agh! I was upset cuz I wanted to really use that for mass! Anyway, the day went real well and smooth, despite...well the small thing that happened. We were way ahead schedule, the games went well, and it was positive through the entire day. Im juss sad that I didnt get to see the last half of it, its like missing your fav. tv show and no one bothered to tape the episode! However though, I am extremely grateful for the communion of saints here on earth, my brothers and sisters who stopped and took a moment to pray for the things that was going on. Your prayers helped a lot and meant a lot, ah it was hard but God got me through the storm. See you all next year in 2006!!! By the way thanks rob and noreen for being my musicians for mass! Noreen I loved that song your heart today ahh! i love it!

SO WHAT HAPPENED: Im sure that's the one question that is burning in errones mind right now. Well, I had go into the hall to use the restroom and settle the whole restroom situation. Usually on the weekends we have functions inside the hall and there is a contract supervisor that's there. As I was coming out, I noticed the wall in the hall wasnt opened, so I offered to open it up. As I was pushing the wall opened, I had hit and broke the fire sprinkler. Water started to pour down like a waterfall, the fire alarm was going off, soon before you knew it hurricane stanton flooded the whole community center. Not a pretty sight indeed! Next thing I know the fire dept. is here, city workers are here, my bosses are there. We had to move the whole party across the street to the boys and girl's club gym. After the storm was finally over, I had the session inside my bosses office...not too good. He asked me wha happened and told me I could get terminated for this blah blah I offered to quit on tthe spot, he said no I have too many good qualities that outweigh the bad. In the end it turned out positive but I knew I was ready to go no matter wha the outcome was. I didnt get out til like almost 8pm, throughout the whole ordeal all I did pray in my mind, for compassion, understanding, patience. Sunday morning I went in and we all had to help clean the boys & girls club gym from the party.

THE AFTERMATH: The whole aftermath was juss dealing with errthang that had happened. Trying to figure out what was going to happen to me, wha I was going to do, weighing out my opitions, praying and discerning wha God wanted me to do. On top of that dealing with a lot of anxiety juss thinking of it. On sunday, after we cleaned up, I realized that errtime I would walk into the center, I would juss get a flashback of wha happened. In fact I shouldve juss taken a picture of it to show you how fast the water was pouring, it was freakin crazy! There's more to the aftermath but Ill go into that part later on.

AT HOLY FAM: Spent pretty much the rest of the day at holy fam, helping promote for the upcoming youf prayer rally this saturday! wooo! Yes, Im excited for it the kids have worked extremely hard to get this thing together. Tons of people were coming after mass either to sign up their kids or buy a tshirt. Attempting to get the suicide skit together, its hard w/juss one person helping these kids coordinate it. I gotta memorize the whole skit scene by scene so I know where to place them all. Its so funny I ran into tita mila and she goes to me something like 'once you serve God, you're always at his house!' Which is true, Im at holy fam almost errday. its cool though I enjoy having a place to come to.

FR. BILL: Went to the 530pm mass and fr. bill's homily was really good. Talking bout answering the call to work in the vineyard, but he didnt use the vocation spin on it. Anyway, during part of his homily someone's cell phone went off and he goes 'whether it be to answer his call...' haha he's a really cool priest, and he gets the congregation involved during his homilies good stuff. It was cool how the choir did the alleulia it had this whole different melody. It sounded like that one song called 'true' from the 50 first dates soundtrack.

TOO EXCITING: Sunday morning I woke up to get ready for work. As always I turn on my comp. check mail, blogs, myspaces etc. When I went to my gmail it said I had a new message from ryanimay, I almost nearly fell of my freakin chair! You see, juss to see wha would happen I sent ryan a myspace message telling him I work for the city of stanton(well use to ha!)and that I work with low income teens and were putting on this teen dance this friday and was wondering if he might be able to come out and show them some stuff. I didnt expect a response and let alone a response so soon...I was a-m-a-z-e-d! praise God for humble people! ha!


BLESSING IN DISGUISE: After a whole weekend of anxiety I learned out my outcome. I stepped into work and my supervisor pulls me aside. He told me in a real nervous tone, that the events that had occurred over the weekend have left a negative impact on many people. So he's giving me the fair warning to do one of two things: resign from my job and he had a letter ready to go and errthang or if I choose not to, I will be terminated. Yikes huh?! He said Jim(my director) and I did errthang we could to save you. Im extremely sorry this happened, I hate doing this but we will give you an excellent reference if you need us. Obviously, I took opition number gave my letter of resgination to the city clerk. Well I had to walk into the city manager's office(dun, dun, dun, skuuuuuuuuury!)my director there, and the city clerk. She read the letter and said outloud that I have resigned. Without any hesitation, the city manager said, 'accepted.' Took my stuff and said goodbye to a city where dream came true ha!

HOW I TOOK IT: It was difficult saying goodbye, I mean cmon I was there for three freakin years! Within those three years, I've accomplished so much in the various things I had done. Developed a lot of close relationships w/my coworkers as well as other city people. Stanton was like that show 'cheers' the place where errbody knows your name. At the same time, I know God closed this door, for something else to open(I hope!). On two different occassions we all know I tried looking for a new job, but the door was closed on me. So this couldnt of happened at a better time. Im grateful for errthang that has happpened there, and all the fun times Ive had. Im okay, in fact I feel this huge burden lifted off of me. It was time for me to go, jump out of the nest and go explore. I put in an application at cypress skool district, and there a couple more places I have to look into. Please continue to keep me in your prayers and juss hope that God opens up something really soon for me. In the meantime I want to take a vacation whos down to go?!

CAUGHT UP: So I think about caught up with wha has happened these past few days. I tried to blog yesterday but there was juss too much on my mind. Now I can juss release and breathe...finally! Another positive thing that has come out of all of this, is that I dont have to worry bout working this weekend yay! Time for some birfday shout outs!

BIRFDAY SHOUTOUT #1: On sunday was mark anthony's birfday, wow 24. Wha can I say bout this guy, he's a huge jerk ha kidding. Its funny how I ended up being at the same parish serving w/him again. He's a d0pe person to get to know, easy going, chill, funny, and you can learn a lot from the guy. Sometimes he can talk a lot haha jk but other than that he's a good genuine guy. Once you get to know him, you'll meet Jesus through him the same I have. Happy birfday ma!

BIRFDAY SHOUT #2: Today's is angie's birfday, er I mean angela's birfday. This chick is real talented so you better watch out. Her acting skills will blow you away! Ive seen though over this past year how much she's grown spiritually and its like whoooooa! Her love for Christ has totally deepend and you can see it. Besides all this, she's freakin so cool to talk to. Another person that you can totally get along with. Happy birfday to you annnnnnnnnnnnnnnnng!

BIRFDAY SHOUT #3: On top of all that, my lolo celebrates his 99th birfday, wow 99! One more year and he will be the big 1-0-0! I praise God that he has given him such a strong life, and that he only is continued to be blessed with more. Its gonna be freakin great to see how big your family has grown, grandchildren getting married, some finishing skool, and others having kids of their own. Look at all the fruits that have bloosomed. Thas so exciting! I cant wait til the huge 100 celebration!

Lets pray it doesnt rain this weekend!!

"The love that we share, makes life so sweet..."im done, im out GOd bless!

Pray, Hope, & Don't Worry

"This very moment I may, if I desire, become the friend of God..."

TARDINESS: Okay, so you have a class that starts at 8am, whas the point of coming into class 45 min. late when you know you only have if anything a half hour left? I would've juss stayed home then coming to class that late. Anyway, this girl walks into the class at 845am when the class ends at like 920am. I watched her come in all non chalant as if she was on time or something ha. Ah I hate it when the class goes for the whole time and they dont let us out early, especially when it's the last class meeting of the week. This whole geology stuff is pretty booooooooring. I look to my left and to my right and I see people juss literally falling asleep.

MORE BORING STUFF: THen I come back for my multicultural dance class and now I'm falling asleep. I didnt even really write anything down, this class is even more boring! Whas worse is her lectures arent even organized, she's juss saying random things then erronce she'd write words on the board. I had my head on my hand falling asleep then I think I started to really fall asleep cuz my hand slipped ha and I woke up. Good thing she let us out a half hour early!

EDITING: I was at work sitting here proofreading the brocuhure for my boss. Sometime's he comes thinking he knows grammar and spelling, but maan his grammar isn't the best. Not that mine is either, but at least my sentences make sense. ha Its tiring reading pages and pages of text, text, text...then I had to go back and make sure all the dates were correct. He gave each of us a one to read and I was almosted tempted to put at the top of my copy, 'c/b' ha Remember when in skool when you would switch papers and correct your neighbors? The teacher always made sure you put who correct the paper at the top, so if there's a mistake or something you could be held accountable for it! ha

LADIES NITE OUT: The boys and girls club had this 'ladies nite out' at the center last nite. Oh man was it a mess! Though they had some good food, albertsons donated snacks for the event. The chicken wings were real good! It was juss tiring cuz I knew I wouldn't get off the time I was suppose to be getting off. On top of that I had to be at holy family for how meeting and practice. Luckily, I was still able to make it to holy family, despite I didn't get off til freakin after 9pm!

GHETTONESS: It's hard working with non-ministry youf, they're more of a challenge to work with. Now I wish I didnt get the youf action alliance cuz they're juss lazy, and I dont think they're interested anymore. Hopefully, I'll be able to weed these guys out and find youf that'll be easier to work with. Well let me take that back not all of them are like that, juss most of them. Were suppose to put this dance together next friday and I told them in order for this dance to work we need 50 peeps signed up. They think we should juss cancel it cuz they don't think we'll get people to sign up. It was a little discouraging that they didnt want to make the extra effort to get their friends to go. Why? Only cuz they fliers weren't the 'glossy' type that we originally talked bout. Though when you look it, there's no point in making glossy fliers when the dance is at the small center. We'll see wha happens...

WAKE UP CALL: I came across fr. francis xanga and well it was something I needed to remind myself. Here's the insight: it is so easy to get lost in the work. Because the work is so good, your eyes start to leave their focus on Jesus to focus on the ministry. Ha! Great trap by the devil. Don't be fooled. Even the devil can use your ministry as a way to take you away from God. My...Lucifer is a clever one. If you are so only focused on work that you forget to pray, then you lose. I URGE ALL OF YOU FULLTIMERS and those whose ministry is lifelong service to God, to commit yourselves to prayer or else the work will eat you alive. It will no longer become life giving. And you will begin to resent it. Keep your eyes focused on Jesus. It is HIS work anyway...not yours. This is a hard lesson I am having to re-learn.

BORROWED: From dorthee, who borrowed it from noreen.

What Will Matter
by Michael Josephson

Ready or not, someday it will all come to an end. There will be no more sunrises, no minutes, hours or days. All the things you collected, whether treasured or forgotten, will pass to someone else.

Your wealth, fame and temporal power will shrivel to irrelevance. It will not matter what you owned or what you were owed. Your grudges, resentments, frustrations, and jealousies will finally disappear.

So, too, your hopes, ambitions, plans, and to-do lists will expire. The wins and losses that once seemed so important will fade away. It won't matter where you came from, or on what side of the tracks you lived, in the end. It won't matter whether you were beautiful or brilliant. Even your gender and skin color will be irrelevant.

So what will matter? How will the value of your days be measured?

What will matter is not what you bought, but what you built; not what you got, but what you gave. What will matter is not your success, but your significance. What will matter is not what you learned, but what you taught.

What will matter is every act of integrity, compassion, courage or sacrifice that enriched, empowered or encouraged others to emulate your example.

What will matter is not your competence, but your character. What will matter is not how many people you knew, but how many will feel a lasting loss when you're gone. What will matter is not your memories, but the memories that live in those who loved you.

What will matter is how long you will be remembered, by whom and for what.

Living a life that matters doesn't happen by accident. It's not a matter of circumstance. It's a matter of choice. Choose to live a life that matters.

THE TITLE: Padre Pio, one of my other favorite Saints. So inspirational! I think the title juss brings it all back that through our sufferings, trials, etc. that we must remind ourselves to continue to pray, hope for God's will to be done, and to continually juss trust in Him and Him alone. Pray, Hope, and Don't worry, yup something I need to start doing.

HOLLA BACK:
arch: you better check ur fone if its still there, i might have it. ha ha (evil laugh)
Ha I know let's switch phones for the day! stop trying to jack mine!
rangeles: don't get all emo now that your boy or boyfriend is off the show
ha stupid...that foos got hardcore talent, it wont be the same anymore! haha
anonymous: What's up Dog?
anonymous: hi
sup...
burr: i love history! i should have been history majurr haha!
agh shouldve bee history major...whoooooo cuurrrrrs! hi john roberts! hahah!
burr: hahaha rangeles is funny!!!! hahahahhaa
agh oh cuuurs thas stupid tag
rangeles: I'm guessing he reconciled with Alaine
naww man...she's well...ha nevermind
kitkat: nice pix!! :)
thanks!!
Fred: hey howd u do that? how do I put my digicam in "blurry" mode?
agh another stupid tag
Fred: i've been out of the loop; who did u reconcile with and why?
ask God maybe He'll tell you =

PLAYED OUT: There are juss sooo many songs that I hate hearing on the radio cuz they're so played out. Golddigger, shake it off, let me hold you,that other mariah carey song, ying yang twins...however I am feeling the frankie j remake of the song, 'more than words.' I need to make myself a new CD for the car. I think i am juss listening to the radio too much.


spirit games 2 more days away!

"Much mas..." im done, im out God bless!

Feelin' It

"Seek always the beauty and goodness of God everywhere..."

BIGGEST THING: One of the biggest things that has been on my mind bout spirit games lately is the whole park thing. Back in June my director suggested to have spirit games here at stanton. I took his offer and advice, then it became official spiirt games was going to be in stanton. However, since then I hadnt had the chance to talk him bout it again. So then I learned there was a small thing going on that saturday from 10am-12pm at the park. I guess to make a long story short, I finally talk to my director again bout it yesterday and were all set to go! Whew! it takes a big load off of my shoulders knowing he's cool w/it and errthang. Praise God!

HISTORY: You know you sit there and you learn bout past historical figures, wha they were known for, wha they did etc. it makes you wish you were there at the time to check things out. Yesterday we learning bout the elizabeth and the battle between the spanish and english. Id rather sit and learn bout stuff like that then all bout how the earth was formed and plate tectonics...agh! Though I find US history more intriguinng then world history.

WORK: Its always hard ot keep yourself busy at work, when there isn't a whole of things to do. At the same time, I hate to sit in my office working on the computer doing things. I get this paranoid feeling that they think I'm juss doing nothing. Even though they may not exactly think that its juss this feeling I get. So I walk around ha pretending to keep busy finding things to put away, clean up or do. THough sometimes time goes by juss waaaaaaaaaaay to slow that you run out of things to do.

THE NEW CLASS: Had an SRE meeting last nite, and I was able to get my new roster for the skool year. Man its different knowinig that I have a whole new set of kids. For the past 4 years, I've always had the same kids with a few extras. Now there's a brand spanking new set like a brand spanking new set of priests at sPv. Im kinda curious to how they're gonna be this year. I juss pray for a lot of growing and for openess. I feel like mr. belding from saved by the bell! ha after having zach, slater, screech, kelly, lisa, jesse for so long then getting a whole new class. Thanks to modern technology, Ive been able to check out some of my kids on myspace. Kinda get a feeel for wha theyre like wha they look like etc. Ha no, I'm not a stalker, juss curious to see who these people are.

OVER COFFEE: I had planned on going to prayer meeting after the meeting, but the meeting didnt get over til 930pm. Anyway, so caroline and I went to startbucks to catch up. It's been so long since I've hung out w/them. The starbucks on beach is getting remodled or something so that one was closed. Ha it was funny cuz we pulled up and the place seemed empty. Well we get out of the car and we see the construction people there and they're like 'its closed!' sheeeesh! Anyway, so we had to go the bp mall one and it was freakin packed! It was weird as I walked in some asian guy knew me he was like 'jason fish western high asb blah blah...' yikes...ha okay. There was no tables to sit so we had to sit at golden spoon for a while ha then move on back after they closed it up. Good times catching up last nite, were excited for the new year. yay!

sad times on tonites show! oh why?!

"Dont know why I didnt come..."im done, im out God bless!

These Are the Moments

"Necessity urges us to pray for ourselves. Fraternal Charity obliges us to pray for others. God finds the prayer motivated by charity to be more meritorious than the prayer motivated by necessity..."

CLOSER: I didnt realize how much work really entailed with planning a liturgy. Putting the readings together, finding volunteers to do the readings etc. Trying to keep my head on straight for the rest of the week. I wish I didnt have to freakin work this friday. Im starting to feel the strain as the days get closer and closer. How I would juss love to be in hawaii or new york right now, even if its juss for one day. Something to relax and take my mind off of the things needed to do. I think its juss knowing spirit games is at my work this year and confirming errthang w/my boss to make sure errthang is okay. Then on top of that taking care of the work stuff...this teen dance coming up next friday. Its okay he said, 'my grace is sufficient for you...'

A CHANCE OF A LIFETIME: I was reading toni's xanga earlier bout her trip. How exciting that must be to go to skool in another country. I think its such a great experience, especially for those who like to travel and get out. To wake up in the morning and see a view from the other side of the world. Wow to see things that people probably only dream/wish they could see and do. Meeting new people, while making new friends, soaking in a whole new culture. For me personally, ha I dont know how long I'd be able to hang. I think cuz I get home sick easily, to be away from home, family, friends after too long would be hard. Yet, still stuff like that is a chance of a life time.

SO YOU THINK: Alright, so I found out the results for tomorrow's show. Melody is safe, and destiny along with ryan got eliminated. At least there's someone still worth watching. Glad to know all that calling in worked for someone. ha! Rob and I were talking bout inviting ryan to how! hahahah how crazy would that be if he showed up. I dont even know wha the prize is at the end of the show. Im sure the guy wished having a regular schedule again. Oh well I guess it was fun while it lasted.

HUMBLED: I felt real humbled last nite and it was juss feeling of gratefulness. Like I wouldve never imagined juss how God made errthang happen. I dont want to sit and go into detail, but praise God being able to be used as His instrument. Hungry I come to you for I know you satisfy...

ROBERTS CONFIRMATION: In other news, the senate started hearings for robert as chief justice. I read juss today that he was a catholic, but yet has dodged all questions bout abortion. I have my suspicions bout the guy for some reason. We'll see what'll happen, though I know that he's going to be getting real hard from senators from both sides.

4 more days til spirit games!

"And these are the moments I thank God that I am alive..."im done, im out God bless!

Music to my Ears

"By giving yourself to God, you not only receive Himself in exchange, but eternal life as well..."

WHITE RABBIT: As of lately, I feel like my life is like the white rabbit from alice in wonderland. Hoppiing along from place to place, saying, 'i'm late, i'm late.' This past weekend it's like im rushing to be one destination to another. I juss need to get through next weekend and I'll be cool. I juss didnt realize how much responsibility was apart of doing this youf action alliance stuff. So until next weekend is over, imma continue to be hopping along from place to place saying 'im late, im late.' Aghh and I really hate being late to anything!

HEALING: Its always a good feeling knowing that you've reconclied w/something. Especially if it's with people you really care bout. Having ill feelings bout people isn't the funnest thing to have hanging over you. THough it's hard to be the first one to admit you've made the mistake, or even to initiate the reconlication. Never the less its a great feeling after errthang is said done with. Obviously it wasnt a coincidence that, well all the readings related to one another, bout forgiveness. THe past two sundays talked bout being reconciled with God and with one another. Praise God for clarification, understanding, and most of all healing.

FOR THE GLORY OF GOD: I felt so proud for the youf yesterday and I can see the excitement in their eyes. The jam nite was freakin amazing, the hall was packed, and I know they made a lot of profit out of it. Im sure they're on this spiritual high, which is great. This is I think their first event that they put it on and wow people totally enjoyed themselves. You can see the fruits of their labor come alive. For the past week, I've been seeing them practice their butt off getting things ready for their jam nite. Most of all, they give it all back to God, knwoing He's the one who has given them these talents. Ive been blessed to really get to know some great kids over there. Juss in general holy family has been a blessing a disguise.

The big week is finally here!!! ahh!

"Others think were opposites falling in and out love..."im done, im out God bless!

Oh Why?!

"Rap is something you do; HipHop is something you live..."

NOT WORTH IT: Okay, I found out that ryan will be the one leaving the show on wed. Oh why?! I hope melody didnt get kicked off either, then it would really suck for the bof of them. In fact it juss wont be worth watching anymore. I guess his fans really didnt listen to him and didn't vote for the guy. Hm however I'm sure he probably misses having a regular routine and being able to see his friends and wha not. Oh well, looks like I won't be taping it anymore. Ahh! Ha I still can't believe he didnt get a lot of votes! Agh

SO MUCH TO DO: I have so much stuff to do between now and next couple of weeks. Could september have been anymore busier?! With Spirit Games stuff, Holy Famiily stuff, work stuff...ahh the stuff never ends. A lot of it is slowing coming together praise God, I'll be cool once the end of the month is here. Man by the time I get a chance to look back, October will be here again. It sure is going to be a september to remember, not one weekend in my calendar is free.

BACK TO CLASS: I will be teaching SRE again this year @ sPv, both tues. and thurs. nites again. Im excited though to be able to get the opportunity to work with a brand new set of kids, to try and be able to plant new seeds in new souls. Im anxious to see who's in my class and how many kids I'm going ot have this year. Last year I had freakin almost 30 kids, thas like carrying 30 crosses! ha Well thursday nite, was a lot more chill, with only 12 kids. We'll see wha this new year has in store for us. Confirmation II and Eucharist I...praise God.

ROSES: The mayor's funeral service was thurs. and the old pastor from St. Polycarp came down to do the interfaith service. There were a lot of left over roses from the funeral, so I took them home. I think theyre one of the most beautiful flowers cuz it symbolizes so much. I love putting roses on my altar in my room, it juss makes it look better ha. Anyway, I had to go to santa ana on thurs. to drop off this flower set to the old pastor from st. polycarp. Beautiful church, I was looking for the blessed sacarment and I couldnt find it then I realized it mustve been behind the altar. Said a small prayer then tried to rush back, so I wouldnt get in trouble for taking too long. Turns out when I got back all my bosses were gone! WooO! Which made the rest of the work really easy!

EMILY ROSE: Like errone, I ended up watching the movie 'The exorcism of emily rose' last nite. Maan was it crowded in there, people were saving seats like crazy. THe movie was a lot different then I expected. Most of the movie is based inside the courtroom, in the present time. THen erronce in a while they would show flashbacks of emily and the exocrism. A lot to be said bout the movie, and how she lived the end of her life. I mean for her to be given the choice to leave her mortal flesh and go directly to heaven or stay with the suffering and end up dying...wow talk bout offering up yourself as a sacrifice! I wasnt too skurred, I went home looking to read the real story. At the same time I think I was expecting a lot more, being it was hyped up so much. Oh well, it was still pretty cool.

HOLY FAMILY DAYS: As of lately, I feel I've been working full time at holy family. I've been putting in my time helping out with the youf group. It's a really cool group of people, that I enjoy being around. Im pretty excited for their jam nite and I think they're excited too being this is their first event. Hopefully a lot of people will come out and show their support. Then the huge youf rally coming up in 2 weeks. Being there I've gotten the chance to get to know a lot of them better. Not only that, it's cool working with mark anthony again. Last nite we all went out to eat then watched emily rose, wow we pretty much took a whole row. Oh yeah, I saw arisa too last nite at the theatre, haven't seen her in years!
Its juss cool being able to serve in a parish setting today. Ran into Fr. Johnny, the pastor at the office yesterday. I had intro. myself to him and told him I was from how. He told me he's been hearing some good things bout our evening of songs and prayers. Then Mark Anthony and I ran into the liturgy cooridnatory today and he had intro. me to her and she said to me, 'I've been hearing some nice things about HOW' Praise God for new changes.

GIFTS: Its amazing the different talents people have been blessed with. Some the gift of dancing, to others the gift of singing, whatever it is, its cool watching them expose those talents. I was watching some of the kids rehearase for the jam night. There was this guy who was doing this whole glow stick thing it was so hardcore! I had recorded it on my phone and it was like whoa! I overheard him saying that tomorrow he was going to try and use 5 glowsticks instead of two. Sheesh. Then there was this other girl singing 'get on my knee's' her voice was so freakin great! Then the musicians playing and offering it all up to God. Quite amazing I must say, all that music has worn me out.

CHALLENGES AHEAD: God defiently has made spirit games a challenge once again this year. For some reason we all thought it would come much easier this year. THough, that wasn't the case, there definietely been some rought spots in the road. In fact, there are still a lot more pot holes in the road, that still need to patch up. Then finding out today about the bind I am in...ah not good. It really sucks cuz well, I'm stuck. Ill juss continue to offer up to God, and I know he'll provide...On a more brighter side, today we spent the day practicing the games nad playing them. Im excited for the day to come, after all the trials we went thorugh to see the fruits come out of it. On top of that its going ot be great to see errone again. I like it how at communities look forward to seeing each other not only at youf rally but now at spirit games.


Begging for His grace...

"Cuz there's something about the way you look tonight..."im done, im out God bless!

I Did My Part

"Stretch forth your hand towards God as an infant towards its father to be conducted by Him..."

TENSE GROUNDS: Oh man, did I choose the best day to come back to work after taking a day off. Its pretty crazy how one could plan out the happiest and probably one of the most exciting moments of their life, then cancel it two weeks before. All I gotta say is pray for my boss to have a compassionate and gentle heart. Praise God there's only one more work today, he wasn't too bad with me today. However, my coworker felt his wrath, not good at all. Praise God were not working on friday, and we have a weekend. Hopefully this will give him to clear his mind and juss relax a little bit. Im praying that by monday, he'll come back feeling refreshed and a little bit better.

SO MUCH BETTER: I juss did a whole disk clean up right now and wow it feels so much better. My computer was really lagging on errthang. Deleting all that cluttered junk like temporary internet files etc. gave it a big boost. Now I added that as a scheduled task, so eerrday at 11pm it's going to clean up the computer. The other day I was uninstalling unnecessary programs that I dont need or use anymore. Such as party poker and other things I dont even use anymore. Trying to cut down on only the important stuff. I need ot take my desktop in to best buy also. Good thing there's a warranty on that stuff.

GEOLOGY: Man I woke up at almost 730am this morning and I was still able to make it to class and have time to kill. Geology is boring all that stuff bout plate tectonics and all taht is freakin boring. Luckily, the instructor has a lot energy so she doesnt sound monotnous, especially at 8am in the morning. For me personally, I dont find scienece all taht interesting like the whole bio thing, chem thing blah blah its not something that makes me excited bout learning. Maybe cuz it involves numbers and I hate math.



NOT SATISFIED: It seems as if the judges werent satisfied with ryans and melodys performances tonite. Well , actually they were more less not satisifed with ryan. I think they expect too much out of hte guy. They see this phenomenal dancer and thinks he can do juss errthang to the 't.' As usual again, he tore it up during his solo performance. Melody...wow she's sensational ha! I want to meet her in person too. I really need to go to a taping before they get cut off the show. It sure does take a lot of #1 humility, to juss accept the critcism from the judges and their shallowness. Then #2, courage to go out and dance something that isnt your forte and give it all you got in front of crowds of people who expect you to succeed...crazy son! I did my part tonite and voted...ha

FAITH & SCIENCE: I think young adults now a days take wha they hear at skool for wha it is. Whatever their instructors tell them they believe w/o really sitting and questioning it. So my family and I were in the living room watching tv tonite. The commercial for that movie 'the exorcim of emily rose' came on. My sister then made a statement how in their psych class next week they're going to take up that topic on exorcisms. I guess theyre gonna study whether exorcisms are real or people who juss think they have multiple personalities. I said it was real and then she wanted to debate bout it. Telling me I have to be more open to certain things and juss cuz well I dont know I ended up blocking her out. Its juss amazing how people take things for wha they hear on the surface and they tell you to be open minded ha!

So happy today is thursday!

"Dont know how luck you are..."im done, im out God bless!

So Long, Farwell

"For this is what the saints are: people who have fallen in love with Christ. And this is why the Charismatic Renewal has been such a gift to the church: it has led a host of men and women, young, and old, into this experience of love which is stronger than death..." -JPII, 2001

PLUG: So I'm pretty excited for this jam nite that the youf are throwing together. I was watching them practice their dance last nite. Which reminds me I have to email errone and invite them to come out. The Holy Fam youf are really cool, it brings back memories of working w/my confirmation kids again. I've never really been involved with a real 'youf group' until now. Its funny cuz when I was active w/SH, people would always come up and ask me 'oh so how's your youf group going?' or even parishioners at sPv would still consider us 'youf.' Anyway, juss come out and support them this sunday 911 at Holy Family @ 7pm.

UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN: Went to toni's going away bonfire tonite at the beach. Man parking is freakin $10 even after 7pm! Before they dindt even charge after a certain time. Anyway, I ended juss parking at the meters and took the risk not paying for it. Whew good thing I didnt get no ticket! Toni was one of my first yfcers I had met two years ago. It was cool cuz I found out she had lived in the bpC! She's always been one of those people who are juss hella cool, easy to talk to, easy to get along with, and all around nice. I remember we were even praying the St. Therese nine day novena together. The first time I had met her at interfaith, she was doing the flinstone kids vitamin song on the piano! ha! So she'll be leaving on thurs. for a semester to florence, italy...wow talk bout getting away! Defiently she will be missed, I cant wait for her to ccome back and share stories and pictures! So long, farwell to you my friend, goodbye for now until we meet again.






So much to get done, so little time

"Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worth while..."im done, im out GOd bless!

Goodbye Summer!

"What shall I say? Everything that I could say would fade into insignificance compared with what my heart feels, and your hearts feel, at this moment..."

SUMMER '05 IN REVIEW: This summer has been a challenging one, never the less fun at the same time. A lot different from last, being that I didn't go on any lavishing vacation spots or anything to that matter. Changes, could be the the word to describe not only this past year, but this summer. Changes in relationships w/people, changes in work, but it became all for the better. Ill end it this intro. here with this message one of my kids put on his AIM profile, 'Sometimes when everything seems good and u feel like the world is so perfect....something terrible happens....but you gotta just knoe that it will all eventually become better. Chin up everyone plz...look at the bright side...Gods there too'

JUNE: June, next to november is the month filled with birfdays. During the whole month of june, it wsa like I woke up and I was saying happy birfday to someone new. ha! For the first time went to the hawaiian gardens casino for rob's birfday to play hol em. Well, I was too chicken to play, so I juss wAtched. Traveling from parish to parish trying to land a job at some parish, though I guess it juss wasn't in God's plan. Work gave me more responsbility, giving me the youf action alliance to direct and lead. How challenging that has become as of lately.
The moya's celebrated their masters accomplishment by having a huge party at the other moya's household. Fun times from singing on the magic mic, noreen singing on my vmail greeting(which is still the same greeting to this day ha!)Jennevee teaching nini the '1,2, and swim' dance. One of my friends from the ol skool crew, who is mormon, returned back from his mission after being gone for like 2 years. Running/walking the track became a weekly thing ha temporarily until errone upgraded to 24 hr. fitness. NOt only were there birfdays galore, but graduations as well. Why do I feel like I wont graduate until the year 2010! Housesitting for my boss, the drive back and forth to irvine can be killer! BOss lady's birfday at kucielle's while doing the whole wine tasting thing. Lastly, the unforgettable debut performance of 'Heart of Worship.' Which I lke to call, 'God's perfect timing.'

JULY: After serving for over 20 years at sPv, the augustians roll out. The parish gets revamped with a set of 3 new priests. SOmething the parish hasnt had since it first became a parish. That's still taking some time to get use to. I began my three year term at the city of stanton, the longest I've ever been able to hold a job. Turned 23 4 days later, I had a great time celebrating it w/some friends at bjs. Reopened the notorious fern street center, where kids were coming in by the bunches. Bought a new digicam since the other one got lost in the nyc. Luther vandros dies after a rought battle with his stroke. Abe's hardcore all night long hawaiian birfday party, wow that was fun. SOL days with their annual bonfire at corona del mar, Anniversary party at the St. Liz, and myron's 30th birfday bash at boomers. I started to really get into the dance show 360, making sure I was home from work at 530pm errday to watch it. Went to the OC fair a couple of times, the first time I had gone in ages. Some great movies with some great ladies in it, came out like fantastic four and the island. The burr and boss lady celebrated their one year and many more to come anniversary. 'Dont mess with texas!' haha Jennifer's 28 suprise birfday party at cpe was fun. Visited fr. paul at this new parish in the hb, talk bout cribs! My boss coming back surviving the hurricane in cancun with lots of stories to share. Archie hooking it up w/my own 24 hr. fitness account wooO! The month ended with errone celebrating the 'after party at cana.' Hmm highlight of the month? Heart of worship becoming official with Holy Family in Artesia...like I keep on saying, God told us, 'welcome home, it's been a long journey.'

AUGUST: Even though I didnt get a chance to go anywhere exotic, I still am grateful for the fact I was able to get away for a day. August was jam packed with one thing after the other. The day at daygo was great. Learning how to rekayak all over again, seeing the seals or whatever they are from the ocean. GOing to dineyland for nini's birfday was real fun, bonding w/tito jess and cha was even better. Universal studios, was drama, too bad I didnt fully enjoy that trip. Stupid summerfest came and gone, good thing it wasnt that bad. The weather really heated up cuz it was juss blazin hot for days! Through myspace, I was able to reconnect with some friends who I havent seen since hs. Unexpected announcements came throughout the month, but also exciting. HoW singing for the 11am youf mass on sundays, was a blessing. Getting to know and connecting with the youf, 'unity through Christ' group...awesome! Learning the joy of serving comes in the small things, not the big ones. The mayor of stanton dies, which falls under the 'unexpected announcements' catagorey. World youf day smash hit, too bad I didnt go. Closing down fern street for good, was sad. Relighting the fire through the growth retreat last weekend was a perfect way to end the month.

CONCLUSION: There you have it summer '05 in a nutshell. Obviously, if you wanted more detail on certain evens you could always check back in the archives. There were a lot of happy moments as well as difficult ones. However, its been a pretty cool summer. Now to look forward to the rest of this year. I cant wait to see what God has in store for me, in these upcoming months. Im hoping to get a new job before the end of the year is over. I'd love to work in the skool district. I guess since the new skool year is starting I should start looking again. This is probably the best time to search. Im only tyring to hang on to stanton til after spirit games is over. Though we'll see how God works and wha He wants and wha he doesn't.

TODAY: So you know I couldnt possibly end this entry with out talking bout today. Praise God for labor day, that one extra day to recover after a long weekend. I slept in til bout 1030am ish this morning, which felt soooooooo good. In all my 3 years going to scrc, this probably the most sleep I've gotten that weekend. The whole hotel idea is really smart, I think Imma do that again next year. Spent the afternoon with the fam bam doing bbq and eating like no other. I need to go back to the gym again. Who knows how much weight I've probably put on. Stopped by holy fam for the tail end of the youf group picnic. Fun times watching them dance and practice for their jam night this sunday! Ended up going w/them to cpk after for more fun and games.

Yay for another day off!

"And I can't keep my eyes off of you..."im done, im out God bless!

Emptying Yourself

"How do learn how to pray? By praying..."

SATISIFIED: Great weeked getting away from it all, I think it was exactly wha I was looking for...somewhat. I always feel like whenever I'm at scrc, it's like a whole different world. It feels like being a whole different town. Like a 'catholic town' where people are so on fire bout their catholic faith, their love for God, you run into people you either know or havent seen in a while. I picked up the newspaper outside the door of my hotel this morning and it was like whoa...I felt like I've been gone for ages. Anyway, its nice being back to reality again, though scrc weekend feels like more than a weekend, which is great. It doesnt go by so fast...so much to do w/a lot of time.

WIDE OPEN: I think the quote and the picture(s) above perfectly describes this weekend. You see this brother during mass, w/his arms wide open, juss ready to receive whatever Jesus wants to give. Then you have the picture of aela w/her hands open, emptying herself to be made an instrument. The whole weekend was bout being filled up again. This was wha my second I guess retreat for this year. Last year it seemed like at least every couple of months there was one or helping put one together. So it was great that God made this one especially fufilling. A lot of interesting things happened, ran into a lot of people who I havent seen in a while also. The only thing that sucked was there seemed to be less vendors. Maybe that was a good thing, so I wouldnt of spent a grip of $$.

DAY 1: Friday was a busy day all over the place, trying to get things done. Peebs and ate nariza car pooled w/me on the first day. Originally I planned on staying pretty much for the whole thing, but then last minute changes happened. I went to the first talk which was on 'obstacles to growth.' I got there late but it was still worth it, I cant remember wha priest it was giving the talk. Anyway, he was going through the different characteristics of things that prevent us from growing spiritually. How it affects us and then we all prayed that we'd overcome that obstacle.

SAVING $$: We brought some lunch of our own to try and save some money. Food is a freakin rip off over there. I remember being there for congress and juss how expensive errthang is. So we all ended up coincidently bringing hot pockets! ha The problem was trying to find a microwave for hte public to use. Good thing them peeps at the arena grill were kind enough to warm up our hot pockets for lunch. We were all ready for lunch w/hot pockets, baked cheetos, and water. Then it was off to the next talk...except I ended up missing mine cuz I had go and get my hurr did. Met up lyn lyn at her work and she gave me a d0pe haircut...salon style. Shampooed my hair, washed it, the whole works! Now all thas left to do is color my tips again. I think a brownish color would look perfect for the fall season.

SCRIPT WRITING: Stopped by the soratorios to drop off nini's carseat and ended up playing w/her for a while. Actually, more less tried helping her clean up all her toys. Though each time she was going upstairs to put something away, she was bringing down mroe stuff. After leaving there went over to mark anthony's house. I didnt even realize how long I was there for til I walked outside when I left. It was good times though, dane was suppose to show up but then couldnt but we still got a lot accomplished. Actually, in fact we were able to write the whole tenative script for the skit. I like it, it's gonna be fun to see who's going to be the characters. I think my favorite scene though is the last one. ha At the same time we were able to catch up on whas going on, so it was real cool.

SATURDAY: Saturday was a busy one, I really lagged on getting stuff together so I ended up coming to the convention center late. Then I didnt even park at the hilton, so I had to move my car and errthang after my first talk. I barely made it for the first talk, well they were running late anyway. It can be tiring walking back and forth from the hilton to the convention center, especially when you're doing that like 3-4 times in a day. Jim murphy gave a really inspiring talk on 'I know God loves me but...'this guy has been a bodyguard for BlesseD Teresa as well as met JPII. He traveled across states for a whole year carrying a 6' wooden cross. Pretty crazy but had a lot of cool stories to share.















MOVING AROUND: After hte first talk, went in line for confession, which I didnt think was gonna take that long. I was wrong...ha but it was cool cuz I had people come in to join me. Somehow a couple of people ended up joining me in line unexpectedtly, talk bout front cuts and back cuts! ha! Then ran around like crazy people to move my car to the hilton(after already paying $9 for parking at the convention center oh why?!) Ran a quick errand to the 7-11 store, Im obsessed with extra green apple gum! Got our rooms together and had a nice late thanksgiving lunch inisde the girl's room.

HOLY SPIRIT COME: The nice thing bout staying at the hilton was all my talks were there. I couldnt miss out on fr. faircy's talk. Made it juss in time to hear fr. faircy talk bout being out poured in the holy spirit. Then we got into groups and did a mini baptism in the holy spirit. Giving each other a big 'holy hug' after each person was done being prayed over. Afterwards fr. faircy did his thing bout people getting certain gifts and certain people being called to the religous life. He even told people if they want to know if they have a religous vocation or not they could come up to him and ask. Well, I did juss that, but I'll leave that for myself.

MASS AND MORE: Walked around buying some stuff that I didnt think I'd have time to get on sunday. Such as my annual bible diary, I really have to give props to kristel fama for intro. me to this concept. This is my 4th bible diary, which has come in handy in a variety of different ways. I try to never leave home w/o it, thas why I keep it in my car. Ran into erkie and some other SoL peoples as well hojers. One of the vendors was giving away free the Diary of Saint Faustina, I couldnt pass that up! Mass was good, except for the lady who took two of my seats I was saving. Good thing it all ended up working out in the end.

PARTY STARTS: The real part defiently didn't really start until later on after mass was over. Erryear the young adult track offers a 'Jesus and Java.' Basically a nite of different groups playing praise & worship music. To fufill my volunteer duties, I did ticket bouncer for a while. Making sure peeps had their sticker before they walked into the party. Interesting how people would say, 'oh I juss want to check it out' or 'Im juss gonna walk this person in.' Yet end up sampling the coffee and biscotti w/o trying to pay. So I had to and get them and kick them out or make them pay. St. Paul the apostle from chino hills played for a while. They were pretty good. The only thing I dont like bout the whole Jesus and java thing is the icec breaker games they try and get you to play. Its kinda gay, I'd rather juss go on my own meeting people then be forced through a game to interact. Anyway, thas juss me though.




















MEETING JESUS: After the chino hills group, jesty's band played. They were pretty good too, playing like charlie brown and other stuff. The best part though was having adoration and benediction. Fr. Munoz from this parish in la habra came in w/Jesus. We ended up becoming friends that nite ha. He asked me to take off that one cloth that they use to hold Jesus with. Very, very touching that nite as well as moving. People were literally being touched by Jesus. I've never seen a priest during adoration come around w/the monostrous and actually touch people w/it. That was probably the highlight of the entire evening. I couldnt of thought of a better way of spending a saturday nite.















ONCE A YEAR FRIEND: I have this 'once a year friend' at scrc erryear. I call him once a year cuz we only usually see/talk to each other once a year at scrc. The story is kinda funny on how we met. It was like two years ago I was standing in line for confession and he was either in front of me or behind me. Anyway, I dont know how we started talking but we juss did. I was sharing w/him bout the young adult track they had(cuz it was the first year scrc had it). Invited him to go to the Jesus and Java that nite too also and he went. Then I remember running into him after mass that sunday, and then we exchanged info. He's a real cool guy, so I was intro. leslie to him last nite and he was telling her how it was cool taht I juss randomly talked to him. Apparently at that time he was juss learning to kinda mingle w/other people besides his family. Now, he's all involed with scrc and active, which is cool. Then he was saying how he appreciates the emails and all the devotions. Which I'm going to get back into the habbit of sending out again. I love meeting new people.
















SUNDAY: I'm so thankful that I dont live miles and miles away from the convention center. Im also thankful that scrc is the same place erryear. I cant imagine having to drive 2-3 hrs home after a long weeekend, especially during the holidays. ANyway, sunday was cool woke up early and made it time for my fr. stan talk. He was talking bout the eucharist. You can never get enough of fr. stan. There was this one guy during the talk that was hella excited. Like errtime fr. stan would sing or something he'd get real loud and shout ha. Missed the last talk cuz I had to get stuff down out of the room for check out then ended up chillin in the lobby w/arch. Ran into alma from sol today, I havent seen her in ages! Saw leo and rica yesterday, who else oh yeah I ran into one of my old sre kids too today at the hilton. Well it was actually the mom, but she rememberd me! ha Closing mass w/bishop solis was great. Came home and knocked out for a couple of hours. The nite went by so slow...oh yeah did I mention how there was a million of other things going on at that hilton this weekend. There was this japanese family convention going in, and it looked like they had a formal dance sat. nite. I was tempted to go in and check it out, I figured I'd fit it in ha no one would even notice.

















Summer coming to an end...

"Like head, shoulders, knees..."im done, im out God bless!