Dude Wheres My Car?!...literally!

"Only a person of a very small faith could believe that so great a God doesnt have the power to give food to those who serve him..."

I asked for your prayers tonite, cuz my car was somehow jacked today at mass. I had gone to 1215pm mass this afternoon, and when I came out to get something to eat I couldnt find it. Literally it was gone, someone freakin jacked it. In the words of angfoo, it was like wha the freak! After searching all around the parking lot both front and back, I realized its been jacked. :sigh: Now, I know wha yall be thinking, maybe you can get a new curr. Agh, I dont want a new curr I juss want my ol one back. One of my kids told me...
IPiIN0ixIBoi33: Maybe its God's way of telling you to excercise more haha jk jk

I had my bible which had errthang in it, notes, important emails, phone #'s, quotes, Agh! even my activity thing we did during the mission trip and spirit games retreat. My glasses, blessed oil, car keys, SH business currds, my business curd, of course CDS etc. etc. TO think too I kept thinking I should take out my cds in my curr cuz in case something happens. :sigh: Abe said to me tonite...ABstRAkt URbaN: welcome to being 15 again. Thas wha it feels like to have no curr and my curr has been errwhurr. Now, I knwo were not to believe in bad luck and stuff, but man so much has happened to it. Broken back window, being rear ended, and now this...oh man
PLease St. Anthony, help the popos find my car!

On a more happier note, I was in total awe on my way to mass. I was listening to rachel lampas, 'Ave Maria' song, and so I began to think, how d0pe is it that how many artists may not be catholic and yet maybe they realize maybe they dont, they still honor and venerate the Blessed Mother. I had dloaded the Alicia Keys version at first and wow hers was d0pe! Juss cuz I know she's playing the piano while at the same time singing the song. Anyway, I juss love that song wow...i'd love for my kids to be able to sing that. Wow!

Had the first christmas caroling practice today, it went well. Its good to see a lot of the newbies come out and get involved. Theyre going ot be the future of SH yurrs from now. We did this icebreaker activity, juss getting to know each other a little bit. We picked out the songs were going to do and got practice going. It was funny, fred had us to this vokal excercise warm up, and it felt like sister act 2! hahahahahahah! The whole la la la la la la...That one scene whurr whoppi was getting the kids ready and warming them up. hahaa At the same it reminded me of like a saved by the bell episode. Fun times!

Yesterday I went searching all over for the American Idol christmas cd. I saw it last week at turrget and I thought 'oh i'll juss wait to buy it.' Came back and it was freakin sold out. So, yesterday morning, went to the other target in anaheim and it was gone. Went to the target in souf street and it was sold out thurr too. Well 10 turgets later, I found it at um the one in fullerton across from alaines house. Finally! Since I was in the area I decided to stop by. Well a quick little stop ended up turning into helping the little girl clean up her room. 45 min. later we got it to whurr we were able to see the floor!

So we went to go celebrate(not really) at fridays w/reirich in brea. The first choice was cheesecake factory but the chances of us getting into thurr whurr probably slim to none. Ha We settled for second best...fridays. After we walked around the stores, it totally felt like winter. THe cool breeze, the air feeling real wintery after the rain has been gone. Ran into kuya ariel and georgia at tower records over there.

Afterwurrds went home and sturrted a furr again yay! Yesterday was the perfect weather for it, the gloomy weather, juss one of those 'stay home and chill days.' I found this new hawaiian restaraunt to eat at! Its called Shakas, off of pioneer and artesia, the place I wanted to go to after mass but didnt have a curr. Im pretty sure its new, I dont know how new it is but its a little place. THe prices arent too bad either, the usual. Though I think nothng will ever beat aloha mixed plate in maui! I bought thurr 'shaka plate' which had teriyaki steak, seasme chicken, spam musabi, scoop of chinese chicken salad and mac salad. Wow all that for $8.50! great stuff!

I had planned going down to lf last nite, but things didnt exactly work out as planned. I wanted to go home and take a nap too but ended up helping alaine clean her messy room. We were putting away all her gifts from last weekend from her cotillion. I got invited to go to cheska's debut next month, that should be fun! I love the lf hospitality, how theyre like in a sense the peeps at uci, making you feel a purrt of thurr family. Yay for hospitable people! So, the holiday events begin at work...oh why?! Working this Saturday, next thursday, and then the friday evening after that. Geez, I hope I dont get scheduled to work the santa sirens this yurr. Agh!

On tuesday, Im planning on teaching the kids 'The voice of one calling in the desert.' I think it fits perfectly for next weeks gospel. Besides thas one of my fav songs! Come to think of it, I still need to finish reading their journals from last week! Oh man! I want to call in sick tomorrow, I have all this sick time to use mine as well. Agh so much to do so little time as usual...Question to ponder on this 'theory' was brought up to me last nite. Do you think the priests in the church who had sexually abused children, do you think the religous vocation was really for them? Let me know your thoughts, the phone lines are open now...haha


St. Anthony please pray they find my car!!

"Trust the voice within..."im done, im out GOd bless!

Let the Fire Fall...

"To give anything less than your best is to sacraifice the gift..."

Call it emo if you want, ha but I made the ultimate christmas scene! All I needed was for it to snow outside and it wouldve been perfect. I was looking at the fire place tonite, and I thought, 'hmm well its cold outside, its the holidays, heck why not.' So I put some wood and newspaper in the fireplace and sturrted up the furr! On top of that, I made myself some hot chocolate w/whip cream then turned some christmas songs and sat in front of the furrplace. I had nothing else to do tonite, so mine as well do something fun.

The christmas shopping has begun! I never been able to do the whole shopping for gifts throughout the yurr. My mom does that sometimes, like well be at a sturr and if they have a good deal on something she'll buy it. Then she''ll save it for christmas or someone's birfday or whatever. I usually juss shop throughout the month of december. I like though being able to shop w/someone, its always kinda fun. Before my friend francis and I would go to like brea or cerritos or that one time when ryan, him, and I went to main place. That was fun...ahh yes the days before SH.

The evening went by so fast, I cant believe its already 1am! I wanted to go to the other target to get the american idol christmas cd, but I rushed home thinking some peeps were gonna come over. Agh! no one came over so I rushed for no reason. I guess it leaves me w/something to do tomorrow. My parents are gone for the weekend, they went to palm springs w/thurr motor home. So its juss my sister and I by ourselves. Yay!

I didnt get up real early to do the whole after thanksgiving sale. I didnt see anything that I really needed or wanted that was on sale. Besides, I still gotta put together my whole 'christmas 04' shopping list. Usually the list gets bigger and bigger erryurr, though I think this time it's gonna be a little smaller. When I do christmas I have to go in order ha if I dont it messes errthang up. Yeah, I know I'm anal like that...weird yes. Ahh one of the busiest months of the yurr.

Went w/reirich to rodeo drive today in beverly hills, a lot of name brands I've never even heard of before. I bought at nike town one of those liver cancer yellow bracelets. I think its the lance arm strong one? Anyhow, ive been wanting one and now I finally got one yay! One of the kids at work is supposedly getting me a pink one, then all I have left to get is a green one yes! Then I'll have the whole collection! So when I bought, the total came up to be $1.08, well I like to use exact change when I can. I had accidently dropped my dime, agH! As I was searching on the floor for it, this ol man goes to me, 'whatd you loose?' I said, 'I dropped a dime.' Then he was like, 'huh? wha? a diamond.' HAhaha! I said, 'no a dime!' He goes ah heck its juss a dime youre never gonna find it on the floor. THen he pulls out of his pocket some spare change and gives me a dime. Ha dang...thas when you know youre in beverly hills!

It was nice being able to get away from the OC for a day. I want go back to LA and juss kinda spend the whole day thurr chillin do whatevers. I was always too skurred to drive down thurr before, but I think I can do it now. ha We had some time to kill, so we headed down to third street promenade. I love that place! The whole atmosphere of the variety of people you come across thurr. Watched that guy that comes day after day doing this dances and routines, trying to get donations. Watching the breakers do thurr thang, while listening to people sing and telling peeps to get closer so they can get thurr $$. Ahh yes, youre in LA alright...

I remember last time, when mike g., jeanne, and I went thurr these filipino guys trying to do the whole r & b thang. Thas so played out now, too many young in thurr 20's filipino guys trying to make into the music industry. Though you really dont see too much of that hurr in socal, more less in norcal. I want go thurr sometimes, I've never been to the bay area before. I want to go to the bay area and back again ha.

All in and all it was pretty fun day, calling alaine err10 min. to check up on the little girl. Shopping at rodeo drive and third street promenade. Seeing people battle it out for thurr talents and errthang. Picking up someting to eat for dinner, listening to christmas songs by the furrplace w/my warm glass of hot chocolate. Ahh yes the winter season is hurr, I love it! Even though I took a nap, im sturrting to feel sleepy...


I like that song believe by josh gorban!

"Believe in what your heart is saying,hear the melody that's playing..."im done, im out GOd bless!

So Many Things...

"One act of thanksgiving when things go wrong with us is worth a thousand thanks when things are agreeable to our inclination..."

Man this comp. desk is all dusty and dirty, its time to clean house again! I hate dust, I hate when things are all dusty. I even bought a dust spray for work, so I clean my desk when its all dirty. Yeah, I know I'm anal when it comes to things being clean. THough, I'd rather have things clean then all dirty and dusty. So, I learned juss today that my floppy drive for my laptop, well they sent me in internal one, rather than an external. Now, I gotta call dell back and see to make the switch and go through all that trouble of shipping and handling etc. I need to buy another mouse for it too.

Work went pretty smooth on wed. except for putting away all the can food at the end of the day. Man we have enough can food at work to feed a whole city of homeless people! I was expecting a lot more people for the commodities being its thanksgiving holiday. In a sense, it's real humbling to see these people come in errmonth to pick up their food. Oh my gosh, thurr whurr a group of these filipinos, and oh man they loaded thurr bags full of food. To the point whurr they whurr struggling currying it cuz it was so heavy.

Peebs came by and showed my wha little kids I had the proper way of handwashing. I tell you the expression is true, you do learn something new errday. She made it fun for the kids, showing them how to wash thurr hands, and rewarding them w/candy afterwurrds. Then we juss sat thurr and chilled, we were able to catch up a little bit. It was fun, We always have a fun time laughing and wha not when we talk. I had to evaluate her little teaching at the end, I gave her all fives.

I ended up staying at work later than expected. Sat there and was talking to my coworker for like a whole hour. Sometimes, its so hard cuz to get away cuz she sturrts talking and well she talks a lot. Ha yeah I know I talk a lot too, its nice though cuz whenever we talk we shurr our faith. Talked a lot bout trusting God in our difficult moments, in our most frustrated moments etc. etc. So I do enjoy being able to do that in the work area, w/o having to be 'hush, hush' bout it.

Went to christy's birfday bash at the spectrum later on that nite. It was coo seeing a lot of the lfers I havent seen in a while. I know christy had a grrrrrrreat time that nite! haha We got punkd in a sense. I think it was victor who bought the honey bbq wings and said it was only $4 since errthang was 1/2 off during happy hour. So I bought one too and some others also. Well we got the bill and it wasnt even 1/2 off! We read the table sign wrong. AGh! IT said, '1/2 off drinks and enjoy great appetizers and dishes.' Agh! We got tricked stupid d & b!

I made friends w/one of christy's myspace friends. ha TOwards the end of the nite, since she was 'unable' to play anymore games. I took over her card for trying to win as much tickets as possible. I was laying one of those games whurr you put the token in and you gotta try to get into one of the ticket # slots. Well I was sitting thurr trying to figure out the game then he ended up figuring out the concept. From thurr I felt like I was newly turned 21 yurr ol at a slot machine in vegas. I couldnt stop playing the game, it was funny cuz we all stood thurr watching me play. Going, 'agh!' when I didnt get into the right slot or 'oh dang you got into the bonus slot!' hahaha it was funny I ended up having to quit cuz well I ran out of memory on my power currd.

Thanksgiving was pretty interesting, fun though none the least. The many 'different' family announcements from, 'i'm getting engaged' to 'im going to that bafroom.' Ha its gonna be one exciting yurr for the parel family, yes indeed. Two more great-grandkids on the way, 2 engagements and thas bout it. Maan this family seems to get bigger and bigger each day. My aunt asked me something like whurrs my gf or to taht extent. Obviously, I told her ha thurr is none. Then we ended up getting into a disucssion am I asking God for one? Ha I replied, 'God knows my heart, I dont need to ask.' She goes, 'yeah but he's God he likes that to be asked. I know he knows your heart, I know he know wha we want...' Then I said,' yeah true' and I concluded with, 'I'm leaving my vocation in his hands, whatever he wants.'

Played hol em w/the cousins and uncles today. Lost $5 agh! Now I know why I dont like to play very often, the feeling of loosing money! With only 7 of us the pot was like $80! I won one hand! yay! haha I love the feeling of winning a hand, thas great. Playing today though made me realize how much fun it is to play. Ha this is weird, but its boring when we dont play for $$, and when we do play for $$ I hate loosing that money. Fred and reirich said I should play more often. Yeah I know, I need to practice and brush up on my skills. Its funny cuz my cousins couldnt really read me they said im too spontaneous. Yess!

Went to mass earlier that morning and oh the confusion. THe bulletin said on sunday mass was @ 930am. Then during the annoucements it said 10am. So my aunt calls and they say 930am, then I told my mom mass is @ 10am, and so she calls the parish and asks. Then she had to mention my name that I said it was 10am cuz fr. told me it was 10am and cuz I saw in the sacristy. Well we get thurr and wendy comes out saying last sat. Fr. changed the mass to 10am. Agh! I knew I was right! Unorganized workers @ sPv agH!

So I'll conclude with this, so many things to be thankful this yurr. Even though the yurr isnt even over yet, its been filled with a variety of crazy, unexpected things. Fred and I juss were talking bout that tonite, how its funny how certain events turned out. Anyway, hurrs a run down through pics of the many things Im thankful for...


Wonderful, healthy grandparents! yay!


a grreat peebs!


a grreat friend!


Post thanksgiving work outs


A d0pe confirmation aide, who i've gotten to know better


All the great memories made in this place, 'where everybody knows your name...'


Supportive parents...


Community...


yah know i cant forget this one! I think this one speaks for itself!haha


These crazy kids...


Things come and go, but we start and end with family...


Great, humble, inspiring leaders...


Hope...


The yes of one mother, that changed a world...


THe constant struggles, the trials, the persecutions, the crosses, the graces, the mercy, most of all His enduring love


Lastly, I'm thankful for YOU and everything YOU are to me!

The holiday madness begins...

"Come they told me pa ra pum pum..."im done, im out GOd bless!

G-G-G-G-G-Ggggggmail

"A Christian is a perfectly free lord of all, subject to none. A Christian is a perfectly dutiful servant of all, subject to all..."

As much as I hate to do this...haha I'd first want to give a big ups to the burr for juss lending a listening ear. It was kinda weird cuz we were talking and he asked, 'how are you?' Usually that phrase doesnt come into our daily convos. So I was appreciative to him for juss listening, giving feedback and juss understanding. Everyonce in a while its always nice to have someone ask, 'how are you?' Agh thanks burr for being a great burr friend! yay!!

Oh man I was so sleepy during class yesterday morning. I think thurr whurr even a couple of moments towards end of lecture whurr my head was tipping. I need to get on those two essays finished before tues. Then in psych. we had this test and I let some girl borrow one of my fav pencils. I dont understand how people can come to class so unprepared. Thurr was one guy fishing around for an extra pencil. THen the girl next to me asked me, 'do you have a extra pencil?' She caught me while I was yawning so I wasnt fully thinking and said, 'yeah.' agh! oh why?! I hope she remembers to bring it back to class next tues.!

Went to mass after class and dang Fr. Breannan did mass like quickstyles, we were finsihed by like 1235pm. Then again that ol lady who was the lector was reading hella fast as if she was in a hury too. Speaking of mass today is adoration @ sPv today, so I think ill stop before work. Anyway, after mass I ran into jill from liwanag, I thought that was her but wasnt sure. Ha so after I said, 'you guys did a great job on fri.' I thought if wasnt her she'd give me a weird look. haha Apparently it was...so I didnt feel stupid.



On friday, at ihop I was talking w/some of the hojers and we were talking bout tv shows on dvd. Anyway, I think courtney brought up how they should make that show on dvd. I remember watching that show on sat. mornings. Ha how you could totally tell that they werent playing the instruments. We were talking bout how the exchange student, samantha was hot then she got w/tony. Which was kinda nice cuz it showed diversity. I wished they still showed reruns of that show on tbs. I loved watching that show! Maan those were the ol skoool days! haha

At work I got pretty crazy at the kids. Agh we had to do the monthly commodities and well I was told to get the kids to help out. That ended up turning chaotic and it became more work than wha it shouldve been. Then at then in regards to cleaning the boxes they began throwing them at each other, messing around and agh! I ended up freakin screaming at them to stop, after telling them twice. My boss came out to see wha was going on. I was afraid I was going to get in trouble or something since I was in the hallway screaming, but I didnt. I guess they know how those kids are so they back me up.

Guess wha finally came in today?! Yes, my new dell lap top! WoO! I spent most of the time last nte installing and transferring stuff over from my desktop to the laptop. AGh we had to order one of those lan currds for my laptop so I can connect wireless from my house. Im excited to use it now and ahh yes! I can burn dvds and cds besides watching them too! Yay im so excited and john is going to send me office xp to install! yess! Cant wait to fully break it in!

Prayer meeting was really great last nite, I miss the whole praise & worship thang. Though teaching confirmation allows me to seek other ways to get fed. As hard and complicated those kids can be, I value them a lot. Juss cuz I feel helping building up thurr spirituality is so important. Pretty soon theyre gonna be out of my hands. Im really excited for that day when they'll make that 'yes.' That 'yes' to embrace that cross, to offer forgiveness, to offer love, to offer themselves as a witness to Christ.

I made the switch and finally established my gmail email account. Were goign to cancel this aol really soon, which kinda saddens me. Ive had AOL foooooooooorever! So easy to use, no wonder its #1! haha I like easy to use items things that dont require all this techincal stuff. Im in the process now of trying to configure the gmail to my outlook. This way is easier to check mail and errthang like that. ITs gonna be different and challenging trying to get use to the changes. Especially since I write a lot of emails.

Okay christy's d & b purty is tonite, yaY! Oh yeah and the tagboard some how got pushed down to the bottom again...oh why?!


I love my new laptop!


"Dont wake me up if im dreaming..."im done, im out God bless!

Drawing the Line

"Never take on more than you can pray about..."

I heard this quote at the bible study last week and I thought 'oh wow how much much does that quote apply to me.' Its funny how you hurr things and it really makes you think twice. Anyway, so I saw last nite the spirit games trailer! haha imma put it on my blog real soon, and im sooo excited. I couldnt help but to smile as I watching it last nite. All the fun memories came back to my mind. THe games, the laughter, the smiles, the graces, and the tight music min. :sigh: Although it was only 30 secs. for those 30 secs. I was brought back to unforgettable aug. 7 @ UCI.

So I found out wha song it was that guy who was being emo at the alaines purty was listening to. Ive been trying to figure it out this past week. ANyway it was mario, let me love you is the name of hte song he was playing over and over and over and over until he finally left. Now errtime I hurr the stupid song imma be reminded of alaines purrty. agh! I liked the song to, but now he played it out. AGh! Its funny fred said, 'ill listen to a song I really like twice, sometimes three, but over and over again...' ahahha

Speaking of music, kost 103.5 sturrted playing thurr christmas songs already. Whoa! Talk bout hella early. Now normally, Im anal bout christmas songs, I dont like listening to them until dec. 1 but as of the past couple yurrs Ive kinda broken that rule. Its hurrd when christmas songs are allll around. Im excited for the caroling to begin, I remember the enhancements we made last yurr they were fun. CHristmas caroling so much fun...I remember that time last yurr when my gum got caught in the back of my throat and I sturrted to choke. Then errone went on singing like nothign was happening...ah the memories

I was browsing on myspace and I was reading some peoples blog entries that they posted. Well I came across one that really intrigued me. IT came from this girl I went to hs with, I always admired her cuz she was 'different' in a sense. Her perspectives on things in life intrigued me and made me think twice. I always like those kinda people who help you see the differetn side of things. Anyway she had graduated two yurrs after me and went on to CSULB. I think she wrote in article for the grunion and went something like this...

Funny how when I got to vote for my first Presidential election, it was like 'voting for the lesser of two evils'. That was the opinion I also got from most of my peers. I'm sure everyone's tired of politics being shoved down their throats, but what annoyed me significantly were the advocators. I genuinely admire the MTV generation's attempt at trying to get more people to vote, but isn't it strange how some of us now are looking to Christina Aguilera and P. Diddy to tell us to vote? The same girl who gets Dirrty is telling me to vote? And the only catchy slogan I can think of from this election is Diddy's 'Vote or Die'. Some people saw it as a strong and effective motto, but I saw it as a way to capitalize on today's youth while feeding your reputation. It's like killing two birds with one stone.

I'm sure that a large percentage of today's youth doesn't necessarily buy into the attempt to make voting a trend, but come on, give me someone with some real clout. I guess this is where I personally have to do my own research. But it's kind of hard to when I'm distracted by Green Day and Eminem. I'll admit it, I get sucked in too. I just want a real idol, I have to remind myself: I shall not worship false American Idols. The Kings of Comedy are not royalty. (And Anne, you are never going to sleep with Josh Hartnett). Our generation lacks Martin Luther Kings and Cezar Chavezs'. Wouldn't it be nice to have someone admirable like that to help guide not only our political opinions but morals as well?

I read a speech today written by Martin Luther King Jr. and NO, it wasn't "I Have a Dream". It was about 4 pages and to sum it up, it was about war, the humanity that is needed to stop war in general and 'nonviolent coexistence' versus 'violent co-annihilation'. A main point, "We as a nation must undergo a radical revolution of values. We must rapidly begin a shift from a 'thing-oriented society' to a 'person-oriented' society. When machines and computers, profit motives and property rights are considered more important than people, the giant triplets of racism, materialism, and militarism are incapable of being conquered."

This speech made me realize how self-absorbed we are. I mean when was the last time you saw anything meaningful on tv? Oh that's right, we're too busy working for stupid Dooney and Burke bags that cost as much as our tuition or paying for cell phones that distract us in class and cause stupid fender benders cuz you weren't paying attention. I guess it goes back to the old saying 'What's popular is not always right and what's right is not always popular'. I guess I just want people to do more meaningful things.

I want a President that visits hospitals with injured soldiers coming home from war and I want a Governor that wasn't in an action flick that capitalized on violence and robots. Wait, I like robots. Scratch that. I've got this problem see, I have lots of faith in people and I have high expectations, and I get really sad when things don't reach up to par. But I'm also forgiving, so I forgive the dirty politicians, the dirty minds, and the dirty mouths of society cuz I know there's some real good stuff out there. And I want to find it.

My programs have been building up the #s again, which Im happy. Last wed. I had these two twin boys who are like 9 come in. I dont think my supervisors have seen the #s but its okay. One of the kids brought back the cup I gave him last week. I told them if they brought back this cup next week, Ill fit it up w/something. So I filled it up w/left over candy from halloweeN! ha I was able to come up w/this quick art & craft project for them to do. I gave them construction paper and told them to make a collage of things they're thankful for. Ah yess all those yurrs in the daycurr in trainings bout programming paid off! yess!


Cant wait to post spirit games trailer!

"You should let me love you, let me be the want to..."im done, im out GOd bless!

He Is Exalted on High

"Power is responsibility: It is service, not a privilege..."

When I read this quote, the first thing that came into mind was Spiderman. The whole 'with great power comes great responsibility.' Which kinda resembles this quote in a sense. Power a word received to us this weekend through the readings. Power something many people look and seek for, yet can be very dangerous. Yet what many people fail to realize that power is responsibility, it's a service you perform to others.

I had to take alaine to mass yesterday at St. Angela Merici, and well funny story kinda. She's sitting in the passenger seat on the celly not even paying attention to whurr Im going. Im driving along and she goes, 'where are you going?!' I said, 'I dont know! youre not telling me whurr to go!' Well she ends up telling me to go another way and we decide to go to St. Joseph's in placentia. Wow, no coincidence we ended up going to this parish instead. It was a life teen mass and the homily was so convicting. Well the music was juss d0pe, it was the perfect songs for the mass. One of my favs, 'he is exalted' was the perfect entrance song they chose.

So during the homily fr. talked bout the difference between divine power and earthly power. Divine power is Jesus on the cross, ruling from the cross. Earthly power is culture and wordly power. He went on to say that leadership can be a non-productive power and how its responsibility and service. Divine power is Jesus dying on the cross, not there for self-service. DUring our confirmation when we said 'yes,' we said yes to embracing that cross, we said that we will offer forgiveness to that criminal on my right, I will give my life like Christ the King. It means to hang on to the cross.

Then this is wha made me juss go wooooooooow. Well in the gospel yesterday it talked bout the two criminals that hung on the cross next to Jesus. Thurr was the unrepetant one, and the repetant one. Fr. went on to analyze the bof of them, and how as weird as it may seem we tend to be more like the unrepetant then the repetant. We become the unrepetant theif b/c when we pray we say to Jesus, 'well if youre Jesus, cmon then end world hunger, end terroism, end this war, take out poverty in the streets.' When we pray or think in that mind set we become like that crowd that sneered at Jesus. How many times in our prayer life have we told God what to do? That we wanted it to be our will not his own.

This is why divine power is different than wordly power. We say stuff like that cuz we dont understand, and yet unlike the crowd who sneered at Jesus. When we may become like that crowd, we sneer with sincerity, not out of anger but very sincere. Yet God has chosen to minister from the cross. I didnt realize this until yesterday, but the gospel of luke is all bout forgiveness. Many of the parables in that gospel talk bout forgiveness, the parable of prodical son, the story of forgiving someone 7 times in one day. THen today's gospel message all bout forgiveness...divine power is forgiveness.

THen you have the repetant theif, who came to Jesus w/errthang he had. Thas us when we come to God in such humility. With humble hearts when we ask him to forgive us, when we say, 'Lord have mercy on us...' or 'Lord, I am not worth to receive you...' etc. etc. We are to give ourselves as service, we are to be there to offer reassurance, we are there to offer the gift of forgiveness, and this is our disposition as Christians. For all struggling with forgiveness, may they honor Christ the King by extending forgiveness and mercy to those who wronged them. For those seeking forgiveness, may they be cleansed by the sacarment of reconciliation and be guided by the spirit go forth and live in holiness.

So after listening to all that I was really awe struck. Very humbled, and juss all around speechless. It was d0pe how he juss presented errthang too. He got up and walked around the front of altar w/the cordless mic. THough one thing I noticed bout dioscian priests, after communion is over, they dont purify the chalice like whurr they put the water in it and wipe to make sure they got errpiece of Jesus' body. I juss noticed it that at St. I and then last nite at St. Josephs. All in all it was a really d0pe homily. Praise God!

On the side note, alaine and I went to cheesecake factory and ordered take out calamari. Oh man the line was soo freakin long to get in. The wait was incredibly long like 2-3 hours to get your table. Go fig, its a brand new restaraunt and errone wants to check it out. I bought my mom banana cream cheesecake. So, I ended up chillin at alaines helping her figure out who gave her wha for her quincinera purrty.

He Is Exalted

He is exalted, the King is exalted on High;

I will praise Him.

He is exalted, forever exalted, and I will praise

His name!

He is the Lord; forever His truth shall reign.

Heaven and Earth rejoice in His holy name.

He is exalted, the King is exalted on high.

Holla Back!

crispy: what?! and u can't call me a good friend??! that's rite cuz u spent ur whole time talkin to my sis.. LOLOLOLOL thanx for the shoutout!

AGh youre a good friend too, thanks for being good friend, friend! yay!! oh geez...dont be jealous now....if youd like we can talk errday too juss how your sister and I use to do...haha

crispy: hellooo there.. where's my burffday shoutout?! lol or r u juss gonna skip me & go straight to my sis? lol

agh you got your shout out!! haha youre sooooo picky now leave me alone! haha seee you on wed!
=): click me!

agh no im not gonna click you
burr: yay your tag board works again hahahah

agh yay tag board works now friend!
kathy vergara: confirmation is much more about living the faith and defending it no matter what. live the faith and live in Christ

Amen!
burr: i'm glad you get inspired by the two girls friend! i hope u r inspired enough to give me my reward for your hurcut!

AGh no inspiration right thurr...sorry friend
manda: LOVED THE INCREDIBLES IT WAS SOOOOOOOOO COOL!!!! FUNNY STUFF I LOVED DASH!

Yeah i loved that movie, I cant wait for it to come out on DVD!
amanda gutierrez: liked your ting bout confirmation... oh,so sweet! tru you inspire us to pray and build upon our faith. thanks

Praise God! thank you for inspiring me to continue to keep the faith!
Fred: Incredibles = excellent movie

Agh yes it was one increddddible movie!
rangeles : Hi Toni .....

agh you should tag her board and say hi to her, not mine!
Fred: Toni is super cool! I hope she does "I.R."

Yes toni is super cool, yay!
toni: you just HAD to put up the ugly picture didnt you??? MAAAAN JASON FISH!!! GEEEEZ!

hahah i liked cuz it was a funny one!
jme: spirt games, spirit games, spirit games....blah blah blah

Ha that was funny that nite...haha good times! speaking of which we have a meeting tonite! yay!!
Fred: those crayon drawings reminds of of the Conan O'Brian segment he does!

those drawings were juss too funny...haha
burr: yay i helped yuor family and gave u hurrcut! now i can have my reward friend! haha

AGh friendship is unconditional, meaning we do things as a service! yay!!! agh you always want want want from me! im poor agh! leave me be!
Darth Vader: let your feelings of resentment and anger empower you. feel the strength of the dark side. I am your father...

agh...
Kathryn Vergara: Faith is a good thing thing to have...gets u thru a lot evry day. Liked ur article, Mr. Fish!

Praise God! Yes faith is truly important to have...
burr: yay u listened to what i was telling u! choose bread, or rocks!

Agh chose bread instead of rocks friend!
john: you have so many tags! why are you complaining to me? hahahah...

agh no you need to tag anyway...
burr: get the job!! woo hoo! imma pray for you. pray for me that i stop being a fatty!! HAHAAHAHHAAA!

AGh stop being fatty friend! haha no one wants to be a fatty boy... hahahah!

Wish sPv had a life teen mass!


"This beat is automatic, supersonic, hypnotic, funky fresh..."im done, im out God bless!

The last of them...

"A stranger is only a friend I havent met..."

Yup I finally got one, I juss bought myself a new inspirion 8600 from dell. I figured after consulting w/a variety of different sources dell was the best way to go. On top of all that, they had some really good deals, that I couldnt pass on by. In fact I was so excited to get it, I even did over night shipping. I'm so excited to use it well not only that, but juss get it. AGh watch the stupid shipping gets back orderd...oh why?! Now no more trying to get ask my sister to use hers and blah blah blah. I juss gotta figure out later how to get my wireless internet working on it. Now all I need is an ipod! yess!

A special birfday shout out(s) going out to the nini sisters, christy and charisse. Whas thurr to say bout christy? She's fun to be around, she's freakin soo talented when it comes to music that it blows me away. She's one of those people who have an all around great personality, easy to get along with, someone you can rely on and talk to. She was one d0pe secretary of music min. for spirit games and sacrificed a lot. She always comes and supports SH in all our events, and is pretty much one of us. Ha Soooooooooo Christy hope you a wonderful birfday!

Charisse, wow this girl is juss amazing and sometimes is juss whoa! ha She's a person who I really like to call a good friend. We kinda juss became good friends through the process of putting together spirit games. Like her sister, she too has a really d0pe personality. It's so funny the many things we have in common. When we talk she opens my eyes to see things from a different perspective. She's one of those ol skool leaders that can tell you stories from waaaay back into time. When it comes to partayin this girl isnt shy at all, she'll have you going in a heartbeat. I can she truly has a servant's heart w/errthang she does. A person who I admire and I can rely on. Although thurr wont be ninifish in '05, the ninifish legacy will always live on...hahahaha happpy belated birfday charissse!

Then we have calvin whos birfday was on friday. Calvin, aka mr. car crash, this guy must get like new currs eerr week or something. I tell ya, I never knew anyone so young getting into so many accidents and getting so many new currs! haha I miss his rsx though, wow that was nice curr. Too bad its all totaled now and its gone for good. =( Oh why?! Anyway, this guy is a great guy despite the fact he talks a looooot! He's pretty down for anything, loves food and cheesecake factory like me, and his passion to serve God is amazing. He's one evanglizer, always inviting people and telling them bout SH. He really has a passsion to show Jesus to errone he meets. He's a good sport cuz he can put up w/all my 12 and under jokes! haha thanks calvin for being a great example of Jesus to others, I got the evidence foo and now its going on myspace! haha muahahahah

The benne concert at liwanag on friday was pretty tight. The different acts were amazing! HOJ rocked the house as always going full on for the Lord. I told kim, that I want her to be the next spirit games music min. head! haha It was a little dissapointing that SH couldnt perform, oh well. My celly was going crazzy that nite. Fun times afterwurrds at ihop, I sat w/the hoj crew and it was great opportunity to get to know some of peeps I didnt really know. Jeff walking into the womens restroom on accident haha oh man hillarious, I couldnt stop busting up.

Wednesday was the teen bible study which was pretty much dead. Basically was juss spy, el shadai, and thas bout it. ALthough it was pretty interesting, it kinda sucked that thurr wasnt a lot of people. I shouldve juss gone to yfc that nite instead. It would be great to see so many youf in the parish active in some type of ministry. We have an abudance of them that its juss not being used to its full extent.

THursday, we finished the rest of that movie 'memento' in psych. class. It was a real confusing movie, imma have to end up watching it again cuz I missed a big chunk of it tues. On my history paper I got a 76/100 on it. Ha I was quite suprised I did that well being I turned it in late and I really didnt even put a whole lot of effort into it. He didnt even take off any points for it being late either. Yess! Agh I hate writing stupid essays, especially ones whurr you gotta use critical thinking and really analyze items. Find things that are mentioned indirectly and find out wha they mean. AGh!

Last nite was alaine's was pops and I like to call 'quinicinera' hahaha I have to admit I was a little 'agh' when she told me SH was gonna be locked away in this other room away from errone else. THough it had many benefits to it in the end. First off we were first to get the food! yess! Thas always a plus, we didnt have to be bothered by anyone. THen when they did the 18 candles oh my gosh that took forever hurring errone. Then when the roses came out, it didnt even last as long as the candles. Each guy only got like 5 secs to dance w/alaine then they moved on. Alaine was grinding and bumpin w/all her lil friends that nite. ha

Oh then thurr was this guy was all emo for some reason. He was sitting up in his car playing the same song on repeat for like an hour straight. Oh my, it was getting to the point whurr I wanted to go up to the car and ask him, 'is thurr something wrong?' Obviously the song mustve had some senitmental value to him. Then thurr whurr these other guys in back of the park who looked like they were some cult. Turns out thurr some type of improv group I guess practicing for thur show. Pretty interesting nite indeeeed!

Ahh yes the crisp cool air...winter is coming!

"Let the music change your mind..."im done, im out GOd bless!

Some Moe!

"It is not that you have gotten God, but that He has gotten you. God is at work bending, breaking, molding, and doing exactly as He choses..."

Two special birfday shout outs, to lead on alaine and my good ol friend danielle. I didnt feel like scanning her pic ha too lazy. Anyway, so my friend danielle and I go waaaaaay back to jr. high. All the way back to 7th grade, we had english together the year after had conflict mgmt. together. The funny thing is well you know how usually after hs you dont keep in touch w/all your friends. It seems like w/her we always end up finding each other. I remember we had theater together freshmen yurr and we partnered up to do this lyp sync project. Then we ended up splitting up last min. cuz we couldnt figure out wha to do. Agh, I remember I was upset cuz it was last min. she wanted to split up. Which lead me to having to come up w/something on my own that nite.

Then thurrs alaine, whas to say bout alaine except that she calls me like errrrrday w/her drama. Her infamous 'i have a problem line.' Or her daily neil wally stories agh! haha I know she's reading this, so dont get all oa. Naw she's more than juss drama all the time, hahaha she has a great hurrt. Praise God cuz she helps me w/my maf when I juss dont get it. So alaine despite the fact that I love pissing you off all the time, you're a great person...sometimes! ha jk Chuuuuuurss to you friend!

I served my american duty through jury duty yesterday. Agh! Now I know why errone hates being called cuz it really is sooooooooooooooooo boring. Its like being at auuport and waiting for you flight to be called. I got thurr juss in time yesterday morning, whew. Aela's dad was thurr too yesterday ha, so thurr was someone I knew. Well I got called to the second case. THough I didnt called to be on the jury, I had to sit in the audience and listen to the judge ask the jury all these questions. The case was bout some workers comp issue. This guy worked for this movers comp. fell of the ladder and wants to seek comp. for all the medical bills he had to pay.

I met this guy thurr, who was telling me works for the LA clippers as in intern. He does some type of communication thingy. He was telling me how he works at errgame and gets all this free gurr and wha not. It sounded like a pretty coo job, the only purt that would suck is the drive from dana point back and forth all the time. Praise God though I was able to leave by 330pm, and didnt have to stay till 5pm.

I ended up missing the end of prayer meeting last nite, due to a certain situation I had after class. It was coo cuz I taught them lulaey ha it was funny. They had a hard time getting the actions at first but they ended up getting in the end. It was fun though, I cant wait to teach them some more songs yay! I heard this really d0pe song last nite, called 'if you cant say love.' Its freakin tight! Had a really good talk w/liz and father breannan last nite after class was over. Im in the process of looking and buying a dell lap top. The plan is to buy it before end of today, they have some real gooddeals. Fress shipping, 512 mb memory upgrade and 25% off. Now its juss finding the perfect one.

Thanksgiving is juss around the corner...crazy

"It all starts with jah love eradicate the hate we gotta phillips head in a case..."im done, im out GOd bless!

Praise God for Small Things

"I would never want any prayer that would not make the virtues grow within me..."

I met Jesus the other day, on Friday through these two filipino twin girls. Theyre probably like hmm 3-4 years younger then me. ANyway, so I was leaving the chapel last fri. for mass I saw them come in and wow once again such reverence. I've never seen them at the church before, I know juss about most of the young people only cuz they've gone through the SRE program. Anyway, so I saw them today at the 1215pm mass. I saw them leaving and right before they walkd out the door, they both kneeled and signed themselves w/the sign of the cross. Next time I see them I'll invite them to prayer meeting.

Another busy week lies ahead for me, jury duty on tues. THat should be quite interesting, it'll be my first time. I dont even know what to expect, I'll juss bring my book and wha not to read. I hope I end up getting off early, that'd be tight. Then I'll have the rest of the day to rest and prepare before going to SRE. Imma teach the kids lulaey on tues. and the our father. Yay!! My goal before they leave is to really get them into praise & worship. To hopefully have a full on praise & worship session in the class. That'd be tight!

I was kinda spiritually drained last nite after the whole baptism in the Holy SPirit. Praise God it went real well. Though it really knocked me out afterwurrds, I couldve fallen asleep at mikes. Arlene's talk on praise & worship was real good. I juss liked the way she presented it and how it all juss flowed and made sense. Even though I cant rememeber a lot of it ha juss the comparisons she made were good. Then the after purrty at mikes house was crunk. Oh man the place was packed, literally it felt like an ol skool house party from back in the days of hs. It was to the point whurr the po pos came. Fun times though, the place looked like a club if you saw it.
Praise God for great times at club biola.

My cousins birday purty was fun times also! haha The games were freakin hilarious! We first did the balloon stomp, whurr the balloon is tied to your ankle and someones gotta try and pop your balloon. I sturrted to run away and I thought I was doing well too, then I looked and my balloon was popped. Boo! Then we had a fruit by the foot eating contest. The fruit by the foots were hung w/clothespins over string. Then the object was to see who could finish thurrs first. It ended up being a show down being my cousins look a like friend and my cousin. Then we did the cotton ball spoon run. I sturrted gagging as soon I had put the spoon in my mouf ha. THough I ended up winning! yay! The last game was probably the most challenging one. We all got toofpicks to put in our moufs. Then the object was to pass the lifesaver to your partner w/o dropping it. It took forever to do! It was funny though watching errone concentrate so hard on it.






This guyin the camelflouage gurr looks like my cousin below haha




Today I went to 1215pm mass, apparently the electricity on that side of the city went out. Well at least some of it did. The church was real dim and thurr was no sound system working at all. It was kinda nice, I liked it that way. I looked like the ol skool days of the early church, whurr they didnt have sound systems and electricity. I was happy that it didnt come back on during mass haha. Saw some of my kids after mass and that always feels good inside to know that theyre going to mass.

Went to lunch w/abe today at l & l in cerritos. He's a real cool kat, praise God through him helping me out w/confirmation we've gotten to know each other better. Its funny when you think bout generes of music. Like im sure often times when you were younger, you'd be listening to the radio w/the your parents in the curr. They hurr a song and thurr like huh? Whos that person or whas that song. Well on the way back from stacks today we were listening to 'every little step' in my curr. Abe asks me, 'whos this?' I said, 'you dont know?! Ohhhhhh maaaaaaaan! youngin!' So I went on to say, 'bobby brown' After hurring the chorus I guess it sounded more familar to him. I juss thought that was funny.

The American Music was pretty cool. I missed kanye west's performance oh why?! Alicia keys looked wow tonite! If thurs one performer that's tight its her, she's freakin multi talented. Ha thatd be d0pe if she was purrt of SH! haha I loved her performance w/usher that was cool. YOu can see the charisma they shurr together. I think theyd make a good couple, then again thas wha we all said bout usher and chilli, then look wha happened. ha The snoop and pharrell was alright, ha it wasnt anything too extravagant. Jamie Fox looks so young even though hes like almost 40 I think!

Rest in Peace ODB!

1969-2004

Agh stupid work tomorrow!


"Cant sleep at nite, I toss and turn/listening for the telephone..."im done, im out God bless!

CONFIRMATION HOMEWORK

"To each person who receives the Spirit, it is as if he alone received Him; yet the grace the Spirit pours out is quite sufficient for the whole of mankind..."

Directions: Read the following on confirmation & faith below. Then give a response either on the tagboard or by leaving a comment. This is due on Tuesday, nov. 16 before class.

Understanding the Sacrament:
What is confirmation?

Confirmation is a sacrament through which we receive the Holy Spirit to make us strong and perfect Christians and soliders of Jesus Christ. Confirmation brings an increase in teh grace given at baptism. It makes an unforgettable spiritual mark, which is characterized by the indwelling of the Holy Spirit. Confirmation also strengthens the Christian so he or she can profess their faith openly.

The Graces You Receive:
Special graces are poured out to you through this sacrament. There are a variety of special graces assured for a lifetime through loyalty to Jesus and his church. Confirmation binds the one baptized more intimately to the church, which means more closely to Christ, and enables us to be more devoted to His divine person and to serve him more faithfully. Three words in the Church's defintion of confirmation brings out the unique effects of this sacrament. They are to 'witness to Christ,' and 'spread and defend the faith' On each of these three levels, Confirmation strengthens a Christian and imposes the obligation to withness, spread, and defened. Let us examine them in detail.

1. In order to be able to witness to Christ, Confirmation deepends a person's faith by making Christ better understood, more clearly perceived, and more firmly believed in as the Son of the living God who became man to redeem the world. In a word, confirmation strengthens our conviction of mind by enabling us to say with St. Paul: 'I have not lost confidence, because I know who it is that I have put my trust in, and I have no doubt at all that He is able to take care of all that I have entrusted Him until that day.' (2 timothy 1:12)

Conviction is the bedrock of courage: A convinced mind is the foundation for a courageous will. Every courageous witness to Christ was, in effect, a martyr for Christ, either by shedding his blood for the Savior in dying a martyr's death, or certainly testifying love for Christ by living a martyr's life.

2. In order to be able to spread the faith, confirmation develops our sense of mission and deepends our desire to share with others what others have so zealously passed on to us.
St. John Chrysostom is known for the statement that, on the last day, we shall be judged mainly on our practice of charity in sharing our Catholic faith.

3. In order to be able to defend the faith, confirmation does two things: It enlightens the mind of the believer to know how the true faith should be protected from danger or agaisnt assault, and it fortifies the will to want to come to the defense of the faith at no matter what cost to one' self love or ease.

The faithful are told that confirmation deepens their duty 'to witness to Christ and to spread and defend the faith.' They are also told how to fufill this triple responsibility: They are to do so 'by word and deed.'

In conclusion being confirmed means doing everything you can to practice your faith, by going to mass every sunday, praying daily, making sacarifices, receiving the sacraments(holy communion & going to reconciliation). It also means taking on a great responsibility by being an adult into the church. You are responsible in help to protect the church and becoming a witness of Christ. THis means spreading and sharing your faith by both words and action.

Hurry up now and make a response before you forget!


Now did you...

*Pray your rosary?
*Get your mass card signed?
*Pray for your prayer buddy?
*Pick out your love song to Jesus to share attached w/the lyrics to the song?

See you on Tuesday!!!

Incredible!

"Now I myself suffer what I am suffering; but then there will be another in me who will suffer for me, because I am to suffer for him..."

I juss got back from watching The Incredibles w/fred, I loved it! I didnt really know what to expect but the movie is juss incredible! haha If you havent seen, you should! Disney and Pixar are juss getting better and better each time. A lot of lessons on humility throughout this movie, im sure one could see the parallels between the two. So, thas one movie I can cross off my list now. I still wanna watch Ray and The Polar Express also! I remember seeing that book, The Polar Express when I was younger. I dont think thurrs any text in the book, its juss all pictures. Anyway, so those are the last two I need to watch to be complete...for now.

Charisse called and left me a vmail this morning, very interesting wha she had to say. Looks like a lot of things are new w/her. Anyway, I had spent the morning and purrt of the afternoon in alhambra w/fr. paul. He asked me to take him to see this priest named, fr. datius at St. Therese church. The place whurr the carmelites are. Very nice church, beautiful inside I love the way its structured and errthang. Then they have a really nice adoration chapel. So while fr. was meeting fr. I spent my time at the chapel. Felt so peaceful and calm and juss wow. I was able to finish reading confirmation journals and shurred w/Jesus. Praying for them on thurr journey of faith.

Afterwurrd we went to lunch at applebees, wow that place juss brings back to life so many memories from two yurrs ago. :sigh: Fr. really enjoyed the place despite the fact that 1) his mash potatoes came out cold 2) he asked for his steak to be well done and well it was more less medium well haha He loved the appetizer sampler I orderd us to sturrt things off. He kept asking, 'whas this called again?' He told me the nite before he had gone to dinner w/ray and his wife at Goldilocks haha I was getting real sleepy on the drive home, I couldnt wait to get home and sleep. Praise God thurr wasnt much traffic on the way back. We were listening to my 80's freestyle legends cd and fr. was totally jamming to it. He was feelin it haha he asked me, 'wha kind of music is this?' haha

Last nite chentel and I were chillin after mass for like geez 2 hours in front of the church juss talking. Its weird how we went to hs together but never really talked ot each other. I'd see her around campus as she saw me too but we never really talked. I guess it was hard cuz I was a senior when she was only a freshmen. At any rate, it was coo cuz we ended up moving the convo to mcdonalds. I was able to get to know her better and we juss sat thurr talking bout ol people from hs and who she talks/sees still. So good times w/that

I was going through my archives from a whole yurr ago and the first thing that pops out is this quote, 'serve those who hurt you the most.' Wow I was kinda blown away juss reading that, it made me think bout what humility is really all bout. Humbling ourselves before the Lord and juss acknowledging how we cant do it alone. Banne once said to me, the trials that I'm given mean that He's giving me the opportunity to practice the virtues. That he's trying to grow in me, patience, understanding, forgiveness, mercy, love etc. Then I read this again...

When you must suffer, think of the master standing head and shoulders above those who were taunting him. All the strength of God was shinning through his eyes as He stood there and took all they had to give, even as he would hang there and ask forgiveness for them, and at the end win back a thief and gain an eternal kingdom.

Praise God for his grace and his merciful love and understanding! Okay thas all, I'll leave that quote as some food for thought. I was trying ot redo my gmail account but it wont let me do wha I want it to! Agh!! stupid gmail! Its my cousin's daughters 1st birfday today, she's soo cute! And the november birfdays continue to roll on by one by one.

Happy Birfday Brooklyn!!

"That's just a metaphor, I'm just psycho..."im done, im out GOd bless!

No Birfday Today!!!

"The heart is rich when it is content, and it always content when it desires are fixed on GOd. Nothing can bring greater happiness than doing God's will for the love of God..."

So, I was actually on time to class today! yess! Then right before the instructor came into the classroom, I realized I forgot my scantron in the curr. Oh why?! Rather then walking all the way over to the purking lot, I juss went to the snack shop and bought one real fast. I hate long tests cuz by the time you get towards the end of it, your mind sturrts to linger. Well for me at least, I sturrt to loose focus and my mind gets easily distracted. For the most purrt, I think I did pretty well. I like this class, despite the fact it goes real fast, he's a great instructor.

Oh speaking of skool, as I purked my curr for skool this morning and I got out this lady who purrked on the other side of me was sturring at me. As I kept walking she kept sturring at me which juss weirded me out. It was one of those 'you look familar imma keep staring at you' stare. So, after class was over I was walking to my curr, and she's walking nurr me. I sturrted to turn my head and walk a little faster so she wouldnt see me. All of a sudden I hurr her say, 'hey werent you in speech 100 w/dr. freis w/me?' THen I realized oh it was this lady who was in my speech class 2 yurrs ago. SHe went on to talk bout how she loved the class and how she really enjoyed my speeches on childcurr and teaching.

I remember one time she gave me a ride to work when I didnt have a curr. She saw me walking and stop and offered to drive me to work. Which was very generous of her, me someone who she didnt even really know. I also remember cuz I asked her if we could stop and get boba real quick at blender bros.(what was actually lollicup then) When I got the boba she was like wha are those black balls? THen I had to go on to explain wha the drink is called and wha it is. Anyway, so the lady who was staring happened ot her. I was suprised to see she was still thurr.

We started to watch this movie memento in pscyh. it's a pretty crazy movie. It sucks that Imma end up missing it on tues. Ill probably have to rent it before thurs. so I catch up to it. It was funny cuz some how we(the class) ended up getting on the subject of smallville. Ha apparently its my instructors fav show. It's funny how he turns errthang into some time of discussion w/psych. I was suppose to ahve lunch w/bio girl but she had some meeting, so we postponed it until next tues. She called me uhh the other day it was coo juss catching up and blah blah. Its funny some things will always be the same.

Went to have lunch w/burr @ rubios. We hadnt had lunch in ages! Ha we sat thurr talking bout purgatory and said how itd be funny if errthang in life was like that movie, 'the truman show.' You come to find out at the end errthang was juss a huge show. 'SUprise!' oh man I dont know how I'd react to that one. I was telling someone last nite this past week, I've really sturrted to think bout purgatory and the souls thurr. Calvin knows cuz I've been reminding him errday bout them haha jk I think after watching those two 'skurry' movies last weekend, it brought hmm a new look on purgatory. At any rate, pray for the souls in purgatory so they can get to heaven. I juss know that if I ever go thurr, I'd want people to pray for me as well.

Its funny how when youre juss randomly searching things, you come across interesting things. I was telling john the different xangas I came across tonite. Ha in fact, I think I shall add them to my list of links now yay! Its always fun to find someone new's xanga, blog, whatever it is. Wow makeitclap has come a long way and soon will be turning 2 at the end of this month. To this day still, I have all my entries printed out in a binder. This way if blogger ever gets shut down or I decide to quit blogging(which ever comes first) then I'll have errthang saved. Its fun looking back and reading your archives.

Alright, Imma get going, must sleep for I have another long day ahead of me...

Thanksgiving is juss around the corner!


"I'm not a miracle, I'm a heaven-sent instrument..."im done, im out GOd bless!

And Here's Another One...

"I worry until midnight, and from then on I let God worry..."

Happy birfday toni rose lozada! Oh man if thurrs one person who you should really get to know, its toni. One of the first of many people I first met @ yfc. I remember hurring her yfc conference testimony bout hurr shurring this dire need to get to confession. How despite the fact the line was forever long she went. She's my 'bPc' fo life friend, my spirit games partner in crime mc and all along a really swe3t person. Its her personality and the simplicity in her that makes her so fun to talk to. Geez, she's even helped out at a couple SH events being purrt of the music min. Now thas wha you call true service right thurr! She's always willnig to lend a helping hand! So tonz, may God continue to guide you, bless you, and keep you safe!

So, I had this study session at skool today for my history class. Agh, the instructor was late! Oh why?! THought it was really productive and it helped clarify a lot. I like the instructor cuz he makes class interesting, juss it brings it alive. THe only thing thas hurrd is that he lectures real fast cuz thurrs juss so much material to cover and go over. IT was coo cuz it was very informal and he talked bout teaching styles and wha he believes in etc. etc. After on the way home I stopped by to get something to eat. Ran into sheri meyer i think thas her last name.

I didnt get to work till 3pm, I was kinda worried cuz even though I told my boss I may be late, i thought he might say something. THough he didnt praise God! I was so busy setting things up and breaking things down. Then I was doing programming from 330-5 and whoa thurr was a lot of kids today. Praise God! One of my parents brought it some other kids from her daughter's skool. I was grateful how supportive and umm helpful she's been. My coworker said to me, 'you know we spend more time doing set-ups and break downs, then we do actually doing programs.' Which I thought was a good point errday I'm either setting something up or cleaning something up. Agh!

I went to the youf forum last nite @ sPv, I was expecting more people. Anyway, I think it went pretty well. At least thurrs some foundation on whurr to begin and wha the 'youf' feel the parish needs. Oh my gosh so one of hte guys from spy brought up the fact or concern that sre program is boring. Went on to bash how the curriculum needs to be changed blah blah. Then talked bout how kids are being graded or they get points for ex. bringing in thurr bible or whatever. I took offense cuz that comment directly was geared towards the way I teach my class.

Sooooooooooooooooooooo if you know me, you know I dont juss sit back, I speak my mind. I got up and said, well in response to that comment, first off, if you feel the curriculum or feel the program is boring, then get involved. VOlunteer help out...the problem with those kids who walk in to the program is that their mind is closed already. They're not willing to cooperate w/the spirit and juss open themselves up. Which is expected cuz thurr young...Then in regards to grading point system etc. Im not gonna juss sit back and let these kids pass w/o having to work for it. Im not going to lead them to believe that its okay no matter wha happens thurr gonna make thurr sacarments. We work for our faith, we work for our salvation, nothing is free ride in life.

Then the idea was brought up of getting together and getting to know the different ministries that work w/the youf in the parish. I suggested in putting together a collaborative, these ministries coming together on a monthly basis and planning something for the youf of the parish. Hence, kinda like spirit games! haha yay! Actually, I brought up spirit games and the concept to the group. It was funny cuz when I mentioned it, I looked at jaymee, maurice, and reirich the expression of thurr face was so funny. haha

Afterwurrds, I went to the sfc empowerement, they were preparing for the baptism in the spirit on sat. Praise God cuz I really felt the spirit moving throughtout the room last nite. Its funny to go from one type of environmental setting of people to a whole different one. I felt so tired though, but praise God for the energy he gives me. Realization last nite on how you think you know people, but in the end you really dont. Kinda like hmm that show 'diary' on mtv, 'you think you know, but you ahve no idea.' So its funny how people and thurr personalities change, oh well thas life. WHenver I'm standing in line for confession @ sPc I always have a hurrd time listening to the homily. Its like thurr sound system is unclurr or something. I dloaded this accoustic version of 'more than words' its tight!

Praise God for 4 day weekends!!

"This is generation of those who seek the Lord..."im done, im out God bless!

Saints In the Making

"No one is a martyr for a conclusion; no one is a martyr for an opinion; it is faith that makes martyrs..."

First off happy birfday to jay, a guy who has soo much love and devotion to Our Lady its contagious! He can go off for hours telling you so much bout Our Lady that you'll come out becoming loving Mary even more that you did before. Not only does he have a strong love and devotion to our Lord and our Lady, along w/kanye west and usher, he always has a strong craving for molca salsa. I dont understand how one person can eat so much of it in one week. Bleh! haha Anyway, praise God for jay who is a great saint in the making along w/all the others imma be talking bout in the rest of the entry. Happy Birfday jay!

I forgot to mention this in yesterdays entry. Well during my visit at Savio, I decided I'd go and finish reading SRE homework. I walk out and Im thinking before I leave the main door, should I put something to hold the door? Juss cuz thurrs a code now, and well even though the lady told me the code, wha happens if I get locked out? So, I took the risk anyway and well wha do you know? I get locked out! Agh! Being that I knew the code, I didnt fret ha. I punch in the code, 1-2-3-4-5 like the lady said. It didnt work, so I punched in the code again, still didnt work. Agh! I kept pushing it and trying different things. I was getting frustrated cuz I really wanted to go back in thurr and be w/Jesus.

Well I think they have confirmation on mon. nites at savio, so I saw some peopel thurr still. I saw a salesian sister and asked her if she knew the code to let me back in. She didnt even know thurr was a code to get in! She tried punching in numbers too and nothign worked. Finally, we asked some other person standing around. Turns out she was able to get me back in, and I was given the wrong code to get in! Agh no wonder I couldnt get back in. Praise God though I was able to get back in.

Its been a while since I've done this, so hurr it goes. I met Jesus last nite through this young kid at savio last nite. As I was sitting thurr in the presence of God, I saw this young kid whos probably like 16-17 yurrs old come in. Wow I was truly impressed by his reverence for the blessed sacarment. He walks and immediately falls to his knees juss totally surrendering to GOd. Then gets back still on his knees and continues to pray. Before he leaves, he again falls down almost as if he was kissing the ground. His reverence before God, not only made me smile but im sure God was totally excited juss to see how much love he had to give. Praise God for people like that who remind you to give errthang you have to God.

I was like 30 min. late to class this morning, yeah I know not good. Which reminds me I totally forgot to see if thurr was sign-in sheet. Oh why?! Anyway, being that air is colder now, it takes me longer to get ready. I juss love being able to lay in bed and juss embrace the warmness of it! haha sounds weird I know but, oh man I love my bed haha! Then taking longer showers in the morning to take in every ounce of the hot water that drips down. THen you come cold again yet refreshed and ready for the day! The new skool schedules came out for spring already, looks like most of the left over classes I need imma be taking on tues. and thurs.

I was watchign Lion King II at work today, and I thought I'd seen but I dont remember. Anyway, it was really good cuz I was able to draw a lot of hmm real life paralells from the movie. Ha its funny cuz right after the movie was over I had to write down the lessons I felt were evident in the movie. Otherwise I'd end up forgetting errthang. So the movie is bout Simba has a lioness daughter named kiana(I was really feelin that name). Then kiana falls in love w/this lion from scar's pride, kofu. Well, its kinda like a whole romeo and juliet type story. Bof sides dont like each other and it takes bof lions to help bring the two sides together. This is wha I got out of the movie:

*We are one-One of the main points that kept being emphasized is that 'we are one.' Especially at the end whurr the two sides bout to duke it out yet the kiana tells simba, 'a great king once told me that we are all one.' So its emphasizes that point of were all one body in Christ, we should serve together in that same manner. We use each other to help bring bout God's greater glory.

*Martyrs-Towards the end of the movie the bad lioness fell down the cliff and so did kiana. Yet kiana went down and tried to pull her up. In a sense she was willing to risk her own life to save the life of another. Geez how many of us would be willing to stand and take a bullet for our brother or sister in Christ. Uhh, I know I'd probably be hesitant to do so.

*Love & Forgiveness-YOu know how in certain movies thurrs this ol bitter rivalry between the two groups? IT was the same way in this movie. Yet it took love and forgiveness in the hearts of simba and the others to let go of the past. Sometimes we want to hold on to things that took place in the past, cuz the 'scar' is still thurr. How sometimes that scar itches and we tant to pick it and touch it. Though how will we ever heal if we dont learn to juss leave that scar alone? I forgot the simba's wife's name but she said to simba, 'the past is over, put everything aside.'

*Passing judgement-I was telling the kids tonite of the characteristics of the Saints was how they were to see the love of Jesus through errone. How outside we may see an old drunk or an ugly poor person. Though a saint see's the eyes of Jesus through them, they dont see an poor perons no more. Kofu was judged by simba cuz of wha happened in the past. Because simba knew whurr kofu came from, how he came from the dark side of the pride. Yet all kofu wanted was a chance, a chance to show that he's not like the rest of them. So before we try or even think of passing judgement, give the person a chance.

COnfirmation was fun tonite, though I had a upset purrent talk to me. Ill sturrt by saying this, I have a teaching philosophy when it comes to talking in the class. Were all one body in Christ amen?! So if one purrt of the body suffers( as it says in 1 cor) then the body as a whole suffers together. Likewise, if one kid is talking then well the whole class in a sense gets held back for that kid. It may sound a little extreme or unfair, yet it teaches them the importance of keeping each other in check...being accountable for another. Yet also realizing the importance of workign together as a body. So with that said, let me explain why the parent was complaining.

After class he walks up to me and asks me 'are you jason fish?' I said yes, then went on to say, I'd like to have a word w/you and your director. We start walking up to the office then I went on to say, 'is there something I can help you with?' Oh man did he go off shurring how he doesnt appreicate them getting out so late. Then telling me how much hw his daughter has and how I'm not the one thas gonna be up w/her till 11pm finishing it. HE felt he;s being disrespected when he gets his daugther here on time, yet they get out later then expected. I apologized and said I understood and went on to explain that sometimes we dont finish errthang on time. Then told me in response then we should change the curriculum or something. Ahh...

Anyway, we did this project called 'saints in the making.' That was the topic of tonite's lesson shurring w/them theyre called to be saints. I had abe shurr his testimony bout his faith and the ups and downs he went through. We talked bout the characteristics of saints, who they were and wha they were known for. So with that I broke them into three different groups. They were to think of a modern day person who they feel would make a good saint. The person was to have at least one of the 7 characteristics mentioned from the lecture. So hurrs the people they thought should be saints...

Pope JP II
they said Pope John Paul II cuz even though he was shot, he was able to forgive the person who wanted and tried to kill him.

'The Info Guy'
Ha youre thinking whos the info. guy? Yeah thas the same thought that popped into mine and abe's head. The group said the info. guy is the person they see on sat. morning asking for donations. YOu know those infomercials whurr they try to get you to adpot a kid or send $$ to help the starving children in third world countries. I asked, 'so why would he make a good saint?' They told me cuz he helps feed those kids in those places. Hmm that one was quite creative.

Me
The last person they chose was me...haha aww they said cuz I help them strengthen their faith. Also cuz I help the people to do good.

Though, I'm so far from becoming a saint,these are the real saints in the making...

And I continue to pray, that juss as the Saints did, they continue to give thurr 'yes' to God errsingle day. Praise God for these great kids who always seem to insipire me in some way errweek. All 28 of them, yeah i know thurrs not 28 kids in this pic but I have a new class thas bigger.Ha Come by if you get the chance and be inspired yourself! I have a real busy day lined up for me tomorrow, so I better get some rest now.

All the angels and saints in heaven...pray for us!!

"I dont care about anything but you..."im done, im out GOd bless!

Bread or Rocks?

"No one heals himself by wounding another..."

A very special birfday shout out goes to jaymee my 'moms!' Wow so much to say bout her that it'd take me forever to describe her. Im juss saying that cuz she let me borrow her 'lion king 2' movie! haha jk Naw forreal though, jaymee is a wonderful, caring, devoted mother. I totally see in her the same characteristics of our Blessed Mother. Juss how she gives her fiat to God errday in errthang she does. Not curring wha the world may think but gives God all she has. I love being able to spend time talking and juss shurring lessons of faith w/her. Only cuz her faith inspires me to only pray more and more.

Im sure she remember this, ha but I remember how I use to call her all the time in the summer from work. Well when I use to work at the daycurr that is, she use to hurr me yell at the kids on the phone! ha Then when I moved to stanton that first summer, I use to talk to her errday at the purrk whurr I had no kids! ha Then thurr whurr the times when we had karutas! BUt we dont go thurr anymore cuz well the last time her and I went they asked us for tip. Boo! In conclusion ha jaymee is a wonderful servant of God! And I can totally see her becoming a saint later on! Praise God for her & very happy birfday to you jaymee! THanks for being a example of God's love!

So after a rough weekend of battling w/resentment, anger, and all the above that fits in those catagories, I finally feel at peace. After work tonite, I paid a long over due visit to Jesus today @ the blessed sacarment at savio. YEah, I know sPc is closer but I dont know I juss love the closeness of savio and juss the way errthang is placed. PRaise God for finally being at peace, I kinda feel like a huge burden as been lifted off my shoulders. I realized when I got thurr how much I miss coming thurr all the time. The times whurr the nites got rough and Id drive down thurr juss to find peace. Praise God for 24/7 adoration! Being thurr tonite, reminded me of that first time when I really fell in love w/the blessed sacarment and exposition. Then last yurr when I received my answered prayer. Thas why I love Savio so much! It made me realize how I need to come back thurr more often.

Its funny how errthang today related to forgiveness. Had a nice one on one chat w/the burr bout well errthang I was feeling. Its good cuz he basically put it like this, you can either throw bread or throw stones. As much as I would loved to throw stones, it wouldnt of helped any. He made me realize thurrs no point in dwelling anymore. You juss gotta let go and continue to show God's love. Even in the most difficult times this is whurr GOd tests your faith. Praise God for the people he uses to juss give you a little bit of insight.

Obviously when it comes to God thurr is no coincidence, so GOd's lesson for me today was forgiveness. Learning how to forgive and reminding me of wha its like the feeling of wanting to be forgiven. Oh how I can clurry remember probably the most difficult yet grace-filled moment of 2003. Praise God for his grace cuz w/o I dont know how I'd get through all these things that I struggle with. Forgiveness seems so easy to do yet its probably the most difficult thing as a christian to do. Fr. said in his homily how it may sound difficult to forgive someone seven times in one day, but yet not impossible to do. Which I believe is very true...He talked bout learning how to control your anger and how to never let the sun go down on it. We need to learn how to deal with it and learn how to control it.

Im excited for to see my class tomorrow, as I am errtuesday and thursday. I switched up the lesson plan cuz well its too much to squash a lesson on faith in 2 weeks. So I decided maybe after the new yurr, when thurr refreshed we can spend a whole month talking bout it. Rather tomorrow we'll talk bout the saints. Abe's gonna give a testimony tomorrow nite to the class, so please pray for him. Also, I want to do some type of group project relating ot the saints, but I cant think of any. Got any ideas? If so, shed some light over hurr and let me know!

I love listening to old cds you havent listened to in ages!

"I will do anything, anything for you..."im done, im out God bless!

Coincidence?

"Don't regret what is past, and dont trust in your own righteousness..."

Holla Back!
jeanne: you used to wear biker shorts under your skirt? interesting...
haha not all of those statements apply to me!
Fred: no invite too? so much for community, eh?
Yeah, tell me about it
Johann: just saying Hi, since I haven't been able to go to SH for a couple weeks
Yo! SH is always gonna be thurr dont worry man! haha hope youre doing well!
crispy: hahah .. that was funny
I dont get it, jeanne's comment was funny?!
jeanne: yeah i know. i voted for kerry
Agh I know how you feel, thanks for the great convo on thurs. nite! ha
burr: haha too bad u can't watch the videos i put out in my blog! otherwise u would have seen it loooong time ago haha! oh and hope u find a new job! yay!
agh I can watch videos on your blog now cuz i got dsl! yay!! agh hope i get new job
burr: sorry friend, i guess in this election, people cared more about morality then the economy. ohio just has good morals i guess
agh i guess so...oh well
Fred: a record voter turnout meant that more people were excited to vote for Bush...again
agh no i think it was cuz thurr was an overwhelming amount of young peope voting...i think they were really afraid pdiddy was gonna kill them if they didnt vote! haha
burr: since you're having a sad day, i pray that you find a rose again friend! that always make u happy yay!!
agh stupid dont mock my answered prayer from st. therese!
burr: maybe in 08 clinton will run, or obama, but then they'll go against guliani..sigh.. so we'll see what happens friend!
agh who currs bout stupid guliani, maybe something will happen to the president yess! jk
burr: i'm soooo sorry your day was spoiled. i guess we'll just have to get behind this president don't we?
agh i guess so...well maybe...unless something were to happen to him! hahah jk
jme: ...and the next one will b on Tues in 4 yrs...wow wonder what SH will b doing in 4 yrs..
yeah i know 4 yurrs from now oh man...i pray SH will still be running 8 yurrs from now. Then we can go back and read our blogs from this past election! haha
jme: the last (pres)election was also on Tues. Jst another reason to pray twice at hard @ PM
yeah its always on tuesdays thas why they call it 'super tuesday.' i almost typed stupid tuesday! haha
Fred: Econ 101 and 309I, nnneeyowww!!!
neeyyoooow!
Fred: the success of the economy and presidential policies are uncorrelated
agh no they correlate in some aspect!
burr : i'm sooo glad u voted today friend!! u get a 'i voted' sticker yay!!!
agh no i dont cuz i voted absenteeeeeeee
burr : happy b day leo woo hoo!!!
agh happy birfday leo
alaine: ewww stop with the comments on my myspace..get over it friend
agh no hahaha imma keep posting them! yess!
burr: i love foot spa massage! hahahaha.
Agh me too remember when we got on petitcurrs friend? haha
j'me(HOJ): hey! just dropping by..whatever works out for you , go for it.
Thanks for coming by, yeah please keep me in your prayers!
crispy: i haven't disappeared from the blogworld quite yet. so tag tag tag!
Im glad to see you havent dissapeared and that your blog entries are getting longer some what! haha

It was so funny today, I was reading people's profiles online today and I came across abe's which read...'being left out freaking sucks.' After I had read that I sturrted to kinda laugh to myself, which lead us into this convo...
JPFish187: yeah being left out does freakin suck !
ABstRAkt URbaN: hell yea dude...
From thurr he told me how he's trying to get his friends more involved w/the church. I think he's getting them to come ot the forum on wed. Its about time sPv does something bout geting the youf and young adults in teh parish together. Then went on to explain to me how he's trying to tell them not to get involved too much w/the protestant stuff. How theyre religon is a lot different then ours and the importance of the catholic faith. I was real impressed...praise God.

Then I was talking to one of my other kids tonite. I asked him how homecoming was and if he had fun, who went with etc. etc. So I asked him if he he liked the girl he had gone with and this is how the convo. went from thurr...
JPFish187: so do you like this girl, just friends
hObo jO fA shO: im not rdy for a gf
JPFish187: and why is that?
hObo jO fA shO: becuz im too immature
JPFish187: thas good you realize that
JPFish187: why else are you not ready
hObo jO fA shO: ya.... besides id juss end up hurting her feelings in the end
hObo jO fA shO: uhhhh
JPFish187: how come
hObo jO fA shO: becuz im a teenager
JPFish187: haha

Ahh yes I love it! I told him and one of my other kids, I shouldnt let them be confirmed. This way I can hold them back for another year. I asked him wha am I going to do next year when you guys are gone? He said well thurrs always the internet haha. Fun kids, they are, they are indeed! I sturted to put together our next topic for the next two weeks on 'faith.' Which can be very broad and yet very hard to narrow down. THough I can see them totally learning from it all. WHich ties into the readings from mass this morning bout the 7 seven brothers who didnt want to eat the pig and deny the teachings of thurr faith.

Fr. Ray mentioned in his homily how we need to allow God to minister in our own lives. We need to ask him to minister to use whatever were lacking in our spiritual growth. God will make it up to us cuz he has given to use the gift of faith. We need to remain faithful to him for he is always faithful to us. Which I was reminded of fr. paul's homily a while back bout us being the bride and Jesus being the groom. The look of faithfulness he gives us, even when we in our sinfulness are unfaithful to him. He still is right thurr ready to forgive us w/open arms. Praise God really, cuz I mean geez how many people do we know will take us back each time weve been unfaithful to them? Exactly, not too many will be willing to do that.

I found a job opening for the city of norwalk, the starting pay is $15 something an hour. I was reading the description and its pretty much errthang I do now. Except supervise staff and put together brochure. As interersting as it looked, Im trying ot get away from doing the whole recreation thing. I dont know...im juss getting sick of work haha Its like I dread going to work now oh why?! I think I'm in for a change...speaking of which had a good convo w/mike g. bout change and moving on w/things. Ive been realizing a lot these past couple of months since the end of sept. till now, how many different things have changed. Well its not even juss within the past couple months. More less from beginning of summer till now, the differents things thatve happen.

Even though change can be good, I still hate it cuz it screws up errthang. Though it pushes me to step out of that comfort zone box and think outside of it. I guess w/certain things I always expected them to stay the same foreva. THen again nothing stays the same forever, well catholic church doctrine does haha other than that I cant think of anything else. Its hard though to get use the change. Like it says in the book of Ecclesiastes, thurrs a time for errthang.
There is an appointed time for everything, and a time for every affair under the heavens.
A time to be born, and a time to die;
A time to plant, and a time to uproot the plant.
A time to kill, and a time to heal;
a time to tear down, and a time to build.
A time to weep, and a time to laugh;
a time to mourn, and a time to dance.
A time to scatter stones, and a time to gather them;
a time to embrace, and a time to be far from embraces.
A time to seek, and a time to lose;
a time to keep, and a time to cast away.
A time to rend, and a time to sew;
a time to be silent, and a time to speak.
A time to be love, and a time to hate;
a time of war, and a time of peace
What now is has already been; what is to be, already is; and God restores what would otherwise be displaced.

With that being said, the lesson I learn tonite is to thank GOd for those times. Whatever the times may be, appreciate them. Appreciate whatever took place and move on from them. In a sense build upon those memories to help make new ones. Something like that I dont know if all makes sense. I think my brain is sturtting to give out being its almost 230am. Ha Okay well pray for me, im trying to think positive hurr but its juss not working.


Being left out does suck...

"And I treasure you my love..."im done, im out God bless!