"Friends are everything. They're people you can tell anything to, do fun stuff with, laugh at the same jokes with, who understand what you're going through 'cause they're going through it, too. Friends get it."

good times, good times! this says exactly what has been going on w/me this week. Its been one crazy week, filled lots of down points. Though if certain people werent there to help me then id be lost. I think the praise & worship today @ congress really help clear my head. In fact today i feel a lot better then i did this whole week.
i was soooo tired this morning and when i woke up, i knew i had one long day ahead of me. On the phone till 2am, then i couldnt sleep on top of that. I havent waken up so early in a while so it made it difficult getting ready. went to spv helped check in kids got them on the bus and i was off to congress.

So im sitting on the bus and this kid from spy was sitting next to me. Well being he was sitting next to me, i couldnt help to overhurr his convo. He was saying how he lost his wallet and that whoever took his wallet maxed out all his credit cards. they charged $2000 on his macys, then a grip on his daniel jewlers and banana republic. Then he was telling all his spy buddies, that he moved again. Now he lives in 1.3 million dollar house in long beach and i guess theyre fixing something cuz of the rain. Oh he told them how he has a mustang but hes gotten 5 tickets already so he cant drive it. The whole time i was thinking in the back of my head, why you putting up a front for? i honestly think he was saying that so those kids would be like wow. Some girl asked where he lived and he couldnt even say where. In other words he didnt know. i was juss rolling my eyes listening to this guy talk. the boy is still in hs and is probably only a jr.

congress was pretty exciting, except for the fact i wasnt expecting to babysitt spy. ahh they mess around too much and juss are rude and immature. I guess thas wha i should expect from a youth group. for example during the mass, these kids kept talking. i told them to be quiet cuz they were at mass and what not. then there was a couple of times when tita marissa whispered something to me and the kid was liek ssshhh!!! i turned around and gave him a dirty look and he knew too. The praise & worship was really good, i felt hyped up. The songs were d0pe and juss to see all these kids hyped up was great. Though it brought back good ol summer memories of scrc. then when we went up the escalator it brought back another memory of that sat. i was there...::sigh::
all and all it was good experience and helped me find my own peace.

went home and took a nice nap. I needed that to help renergize my self cuz i knew i had a long nite ahead of me. Went to get something from lyn lyn @ her house. I got to play, "barbecue" w/ninni, that was fun. haha i like when she talks and stuff, its really cute! haha SRe was coo, it went by really fast though. we talked bout the marks of the church and the sacarments of intiation. i dont feel connected w/these kids as i do w/my other kids on tues. I know its only been wha 7 months w/them, but its like i dont think they pay attention. I take that back i feel connected w/only some of them. The ones who participate and actually want to know whats going on. The others i feel dont even wanna bother, i guess well see how it goes at the end of the year.

The quote above juss is errthang that arch kuya fred and i shared this past week. Like how errother friday is kuya and i "at risk youth program." Juss the day where we juss chill together, usually eat lunch go to the mall or see a movie or something to that extent. Or when all of us get together to share that common bond together. The jokes part well ive all had special inside jokes w/errone. Though kuya and i do share this one funny inside joke. juss thinking bout it makes me laugh. haha in class last nite i was busting up over the gummy worms. man those things were so "sour" you needed water to to hose it all down. Then the whole understanding cuz theyre going through it too. wow couldnt of explained it better, juss knowing that well im not alone. knowing that im in that same boat floating along w/a couple of other people. Thas why their talks have helped me cuz theyre going through that same thing. Point being, basically friends do get it. i wanted ot make this entry longer for kuya haha but well it looks im not gonna be able to. too tired! sorry kuya next time! haha

oh yeah we went to the block to eat @ left @ alcatraz for aela & antonios birfday, that was fun. we also had skit practice, went well.

"But you hesitating debating whether or not it's real Cuz I ain't shooting game boo, I'm jus tellin you how I feel..."im done, im out God bless!

"We'll see things today we shouldn't have to see, but listen up, we'll do it together. We'll be together, and we'll all come back together."

so after a long nite of emo, i was moreless motivated and inspired. wow its 133 and i need to be up @ 615 to be @ church by 645am. maybe i juss wont sleep...yeah right. Anyway, its been a day full of hidden messages, that were inspiring and juss picked me back up. Ive been stressed with tons of thoughts in my head, and juss within these two days ive been able to express them. I decided that i cant fall down right now that basically im going to "win." I know were gonna win and get through this cuz i have great people standing next to me.

I went to class today(yeah i know), it was boring though. Well first i was pissed cuz i got this parking spot i was signaling for it. The person backs out to leave and this girl pulls in and snags it. aghh i was so irritated cuz it was good spot, but then God said, "kick back yo, dont worry i got you." Ha, right before my eyes another person pulled out and i was able to take his spot. It was better one cuz it was closer too! wooo. So these girls did some presentation on buddism and stuff. i didnt really pay attention i was more less focusing on other things. I ended up falling alseep during this other discussion i forgot what it was. We got out 15 min early, which was great!

Went home ate lunch and got ready for work. Im upset cuz im down to 12rhs a week now. I need to find out whats going cuz my hours are decreasing and well thas only 24hrs for 2 weeks. Where before i had at least 30 or more per 2 weeks. We had commodities today, so the people walked in and took their bags of fun. Its kinda funny seeing these people so excited. There was this one swe3t old lady so very kind and warm, that help brighten up my day. She was like "Good afternoon!" juss so cheery and full of swe3tness that it only made me smile.

Actually i woke up today, feeling like whatever. Checked my mail, checked my blog and boss lady tagged my board. i read it and i felt better like i guess i knew that today was going to be a better day. Man it juss seems like the past 2 tuesdays have been sorrowful. Then i heard that song "win" by brian mcknight in the car and well that helped get me up too. it was like wow, i cant let go, i cant loose hope or faith. Though i know its gonna be a struggle, i know i can get over this. If i fall or slip, then im only gonna come back 10times stronger. Its like kinda like playing snack on the celli. haha im trying hard to beat kuyas score, i die and i die. But i keep playing knowing that i will beat it! Yeah i know doubts & insecurities are on their way, yet i know im only gonna let pass by and not in me.

Cis class was good and interesting nite. I was relieved cuz i did better than i expected on the quiz. I missed only one, so did alright. Im greatful for the people in my life. Strider whos walked me through this struggle, truly truly being a big brother to me. Juss so wonderful to me and has always been someone i admired. How much he means to me is unexplainable. Arch, this past week has been on my side. Ive been weak and he was there to help pick me up. Dust the dirt off of me, and push back up into the ring. Kuyas support that hes given to me, always makes me feel better. I think all the time weve been spending together, he probably can read through me. He shares the good times, yet always, always listens to the bad times. Boss lady is my quiet angel who sits on my shoulder and lifts my wings when i forget to fly.

my life w/people like them would suck. I dont think ive ever have had friends who take care of me the way they do. Their smile makes my day, such a simple act but w/so much meaning behind it...

"Dark is the night, I can battle the storm. Never say die,I've been down this road before, I'll never quit, I'll never lay down, See I promised myself that I'd never let me down..."im done, im out God bless!

"It's the best feeling in the world when you meet new friends that you can't stand to be without. That you constantly want to impress to make them like you even more. They make you hope everyday that they won't leave you. Until that day when they actually do, and you're lost without them. You can't think about anything else but when you're going to see them again."

how crazy that describes how i felt before in the beginning. the more i got to know these people, the more i couldnt wait to see them. I feel so dependent of each and errone of them that, i feel like if i were to leave or vice versa i would honestly be left w/pretty much no one. i guess it goes to show what kind of role people play in your lives. How much each and err person affects you in one way or another. Ive been so caught up in them, that well they revolve around my life. Though what would happen if woke up and one day they werent there. My life would suck...

Interesting day i had day filled with unexpected suprises. Skipped class i wasnt in the mind state mentally to go. My mind has been clustered with thoughts that all ive been able to do is focus on them. talked to romy for a little bit though the conversation was kinda pointless. She wasnt really able to help me out like i thought she mightve. So i sat around and pretty much kinda talked to kuya online. Got ready to work and i was off for our staff meeting.

im going to work thinking wow we havent gotten commodities yet, maybe were not gonna do them this month. Spoke too soon as i was driving thru i saw them unloading it. I was like dang it, i thoguht wrong. My boss' dog got bite by a their neighbors pitbull. THey had to put all these tubes in him and stuff like that. So now hes having drama w/his neighbors. That sucks, well i guess good thing it was his dog rather then his son. Our staff meeting was produtive it was long cuz there was so much to talk bout. I ended up having to leave early to show this guy the hall and explain to him prices. I worked on the bulletin board, it looks alright. I made my pot of gold kinda ugly, i juss need letters and leprachun.

My boss and i didnt even get like halfway done on the commodities. We did like probably only 50 bags altogether within the small time frame. We were listening to music and the accoustic thugz mansion song came on. Then my boss was juss like isnt he dead? He has this weird theory that all these years tupac juss lyp sang to all those songs. While they had this white boy making all the songs and singing them. haha i laughed to entertain him, though i thought that theory was gay. His thing was also cuz like aayliah doesnt have 100 "lost" albums nor does biggie or big pun.

went home and had dinner while errone was over for my momma's birfday. it was coo, i had to eat and run cuz i had class. Class was alright, gave them a reflection to think bout. Then explained some of the charasmatic gifts of the holy spirit. Brought them up to prayer meeting, something which we havent done in a while. It was kinda funny cuz when it was time to go. Oh btw my prayer buddies prayers were great! very annointed and there was one which stuck to my head. So one of my kids asked me after they heard my prayer tounges. "Jason, do you understand anything you were saying?" i said no. then before that in class, i was talking bout being filled w/the holy spirit when youre praying. Then one of the kids asked if its like a spaz. Like when you spaz out and what not. haha i finally said yeah, its like youre filled w/a holy spirit spaz. ahh kids are funny these days, yes yes.

Had a few interesting conversations tonite w/some people. Antonios homeless person story inspired me. Knowing my problems, the struggles im going through are nothing compare to the homeless man he encountered. THat was pretty cool to be inspired by that. well since the quote talked bout friends and not being able to live w/o them. I foudn this interesting analogy on anthoneezy's live journal. check it:

friends are like tv. some are like PBS, always askin for money. others are like the news, w/sad tales to tell everyday. some are like that one station w/the foreign language; you don't understand a word of it but you listen and watch anyway. and then there are the ones like the commercials, always changing, ever-so-annoying and only seem to be there when you are or bored or they need something. But every once and a while you meet someone who's like the really good movie of the week or that one tv show you hardly ever get to see anymore b/c youre so busy friends. it's sad to lose them but maybe they never really were your friends to begin w/, just the other channels you never liked to watch. choose your friends wisely, for "a faithful friend is beyond price. no sum can balance its worth";[sirach 6:15] life has no remote to mute or change the channel so cherish the ones you have.

I read that i thought whoa! i can totally relate to that. Especially the one bout the friends whom are like the good movie of the week or show you hardly get to see cuz youre so busy w/friends. Thas how it became w/my other friends. The ones ill talk to once in a blue moon, or when i see them. They probably think that well ive ditched them or something. Then the whole sirach 6:15, blows my mind cuz at the same time they werent faithful friends. Well actually one of them out of all of them i met became and stayed a faithful friend. Though im pretty sure i have faithful friends now. i dont think their is a doubt in my mind theyre not faithful...faithful to the end.

so my search for a spiritual director starts! someone who'll be able to explain the unbearable pain my heart, the unexplainable thoughts that have been running through my head. To tell me my purpose of why i am still hurr.

"I'm so sick of being lonely..."im done, im out God bless!

::sigh:: i dont know anymore...Life..... I wonder....Will it take me under.... I don't know

"It's not where you're from; it's where you're going. It's not what you drive; it's what drives you. It's not what's on you; it's what's in you. It's not what you think; it's what you know."

wow good job gatorade commerical! haha i say gatorade commerical well cuz thas where this quote comes from. No, i didnt see some random comercial and then wrote down what it said. This quote comes from the webstie where i get all my interesting blog quoets. the author of the quote explains that, its not gonna matter where youre from, but more less where youre going to go. so broad i know, but you gotta analyze it to dig deeper! its where youre gonna go in life. Its what inspires you to keep on going, its whats in you that motivates you to keep peservering despite difficult times. LAstly, its not what you think right now, its more less what you know.

I dont know how to describe today, it wasnt anything special. Well i had lunch w/kuya so thas special i guess. haha I went to class, and wow right when i was praying for parking, right before my eyes was a parking spot! woo
So yeah went to math, it was coo cuz we got out like 10 min early. That helped out, went home got ready for work. Then left to westminister mall to have lunch w/kuya. We did the simple lunch this time, juss fast food, food court style.i think this entry is gonna be stale cuz i think of anything like wow to write bout. After lunch we got some mini mall errnads he needed to do done.

Went to work, taught my theatre class. I was getting so tired, i felt like juss taking a nap right there. I told my supervisors bout maureen, so it looks like she'll be meeting them on wed. woo imma be the contractor for the sadies dance western is gonna have in our hall. Im sooo gonna get my groove on that nite w/all these hs kids. haha you know i can juss stand there and do nothing. haha Gonna make ya move, gonna make ya dance. yeah right, im juss gonna watch them and be like "ohh the days of hs." man i loved my senior of hs it was like the greatest. I remember our xmas pep assembly my friend and i did this lyp sync to "brnig it all to me" the blaque and jc chasez song. Then this one girl whom i was good friends with, we use to pretend that we were going out. errone always thought there was something going on between us. It was weird cuz wed have drama all the time too like a couple. Wed walk down the hall w/her holding on to my arm, shed wear my pelle pelle jacket. ha we would even call each other babe and what not. oh man, the days of hs, the dances, the first time experiences of new things, the friends, the parties. Wow that summer was pretty d0pe too!

After work ate and i think i got a mini-attack. Went to the cypress library to return a book which i couldnt even find parking. Then to rent a movie for work tomorrow. i cleaned out some stuff in my filing cabinet, i save too much stuff. i wish i had a bigger room, its too small for all the things i have in there. oh i saw minnie, aubbie's gf today @ lincoln video. At first i didnt know who it was, cuz she was like "hey man." i was like hey didnt small talk though cuz i was rushing. Then i realized who it was, but then i couldnt think of her name. I finally finished grading all my SRE papers. Ive had all their work in my folder for a while now. hmm i think ill take them to prayer meeting tomorrow. They havent gone since nov. so im kinda leaning towards that. Well see how i feel tomorrow i guess. i always do my lesson plans anyway last min. whatever i feel like doing off the top of my head. if we dont go then ill do another meditation w/them.

man i forgot to email ryan again bout this stuff aela told me last nite. She told me that i guess achie went to some conference and well some priest was talking bout relationships. He said like God created soul mates for errone. She told me like once discerning after finding the right person then 3 things happen.
1. Spiritually united in Spirit.
2. Once united in spirit w/God's grace then youre emo. united.
3. Then comes marriage when youre then physically united.
cool stuff huh! thas the basic stuff theres more she told me, but i dont feel like tpying it all out.

I prayed the rosary w/gail tonite, wow its raining hard! woo how skurry. it was funny cuz once she said yes, i dropped my away message and i called her cell. Well i think i got a little too excited cuz that wasnt even the # she gave me to call. I was trying to call her cell but i guess she doesnt get any reception so it goes straight to the vmail. So i go back to look @ the im, and i find out she was giving me her dorm # to call. It was d0pe, she used her meditations and i used mine. We took turns for each mystery we prayed. That was a lot of fun! thanks gail for praying w/me! she's d0pe and not to mention swe3t too! Ü

i was juss telling strider something thas kinda trippy to me. haha i cant put in on hurr though cuz its juss crazy. He didnt think it was trippy though, i did i think its a blessing yet, still like wow. i was thinking of something as i was praying the rosary but i forgot what it was. I wanted to write in blog too. Man i cant remember waht it was. ahhh i hate when that happens. I was mad as i was on my way to work, i made a phone call and the person who i was talking to, caused me unnecessary anger. i was like juss agh kinda pissed off. Then i had to put this jacob & matthew CD from scrc it helped calm me down. man i so wanna juss lay in bed adn listen to the rain tomorrow. its like one of those nature CDS, like the sound of rain.

i talked to tina today and told her how her mom was talking to me after mass. she was suprised cuz her mom didnt tell her bout it. ITs funny how certain people come into your life and how you meet them. aela said God put certain people in our lives for a reason. I believe that, hmm now that i think bout it i wonder what his purpose was to bring a certain person into my life. Ha i was juss thinking of when kuya and boss lady came to my 3rd class like 2 years ago. They taught them an action song and some cheers, it was cool. BAck then as i watching them, i was thinking "dang these people have a lot of energy." ah yes great people, yes yes. I think God put kuya in my life for lectures haha jk kuya! i know why i have these people in my life, to watch over me and i guess over all protect me.

hey did you guys know that Mike sweeney he plays baseball for the kanasas city royals. ANyway i found out hes catholic and a practicing one too. Juss plays baseball too on the side and he knows his bible too. i guess thas juss some food for thought for you. i cant think of anything else to say, i wanna lay down and listen to the rain.

"Read the paper and I think about you, Fix my dinner and I think about you, Lay in bed and I think about you,What I'm gonna do, what I'm gonna do..." im done, im out God bless!

"The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and conveniences, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy."

Gosh this seems liek to have been a forever long weekend. i have that song "running through my head" cuz thas pretty much how i feel right now. Stupid bloogger is down, its always down for something. In the meantime im typing this entry on an email, emailing it to myself, then copy and pasting it to blog. I foudn my ring today, i thought i lost it when cleaning my car on fri. I didnt wear all day yesterday too, i forgot bout it when i was rushing in the morning. So i found it today in my room, after mass, whew! despite some of thing unexpected attacks i had recieved this weekend, being able to spend time w/a couple of people whom i hardly talk to helped.

I went to mass this morning, agh i was so tired. I wish sometimes i could go on my own time, instead of going so early. The homily Father Grace focused on was of course forgiveness cuz thas wha scripture reflected on. Man there was something i wanted to say last nite and i didnt put it on blog. Now i cant remember exactly what it was. hmm Well maybe itll come to me as i continue to type away. It was kinda crazy after mass this morning. So check it, im outside after mass waiting for my fam bam tribe to come out. I stand there, observing all the peopel who are coming out of mass. This filipino couple comes up to me, and the lady kinda taps me. She was like "hey what are you involved in." im thinking hmm i dont know you, you must probably be from the filipino group and need SH help for something. I said, "oh im part of the Servant's Heart prayer group." The lady said,"oh youre not part of the Legion of Mary." i was like "oh no, im juss part of the prayer group hurr.," Then she asked what it was and so of course i explained it to her. Then she was like, "ooohh okay. You gotta get christina to go w./you sometimes." I finally then realized it was my friends parents. I saw them in mass andi thought they looked familiar. As they were walking away, i told her "yeah ive been trying to get her to go w/me." Anyway, i juss thought that was crazy, cuz ive never talked to her mom before.

Tomorrow, i dont wanna go skool. Actually im thinking of not going to my 2nd class, juss dropping off the quiz and my scantron in the instructors box. WEll see wha i actually end up doing tomorrow though. I stayed home pretty much all day, cuz im hardly home. Actually ive been hardly home this past week and once again its gonna be like that this weekend. i got my hw done, did my phil. read chapter 2 in my cis book. Well i took a nap before doign all my hw. ahh the luxury of pure sleeping bliss! Then i was reading the youth rally stuff...geez so much info. Hmm itd be d0pe if we did a skit, praise & worship and a works of mercy. Though that would be a lot of work and what not to do all 3. Though i think w/the grace of God it can be pulled off.

I got to chill w/ryan tonite, we went out to the towne center and had some starbucks. It was really d0pe being able to chill w/him. Oh man i forgot to let him drive home tonite, oh well. we talked bout all the stuff thas going on right now. I told him the funny story bout hometown and the girl there. it was coo, cuz we dont talk as much as we did before cuz well were both leading very busy lives. haha Juss like how my best friend and i lead two busy lives. Anyway, it was cool to see him happy and excited bout this new endeavor. Which reminds me i gotta email him some advice on it, before i forget too. Dude, im hungry right now agh my stomach is hungry. Its weird ive known that guy for like 3 years now. Its crazy cuz he juss turned 17 and i remember meeting him @ youth alpha. hes a very cool guy though, im blessed to have such a great friend like himself. ha, we were talking bout significant events and as we were sitting across from the theatre we were looking @ rubios. He told me thas where they all ate before formal, after taking their pics and what not. THen he was like well its not the same eating there anymore for certain reasons. i was laughing and i told him i know how exactly how that feels. Juss like if i ever eat @ applebees, well it woudlnt be the same. Actually i woudlnt wanna eat there cuz it all only make me wanna go back to the warm july summer evening. ahh yes, July 22 rihgt after an eventful LSS that the core put on. If arch never called me that nite to tell me they were going to eat then hmmm. ::sigh:: memories haha

So i get an unexpected phone call and after i get off, i learn its already 1am! man i cant believe how late it is already. Strider juss informed blog is working now, so i can post my entry on there. I told ryan tonite w/this new endeavor hes looking foward to, juss to take things one day at a time. Not to rush things at all cuz well then errthang will get screwed up. Its funny as im talknig ot gail bout the suicide skit well you see for yourself.

JPFish187: we were practicing the suicide skit on fri
JPFish187: and im Jesus so im getting thrown around
DaYsL33pR: really?
DaYsL33pR: we were doing suicide skit today
DaYsL33pR: we were teaching the confirmation team the skit, n i was the girl three years ago so we hafta keep showing them
JPFish187: oh really
JPFish187: i wanna see how you guys do it
JPFish187: wer dnot use the total ecplise of the heart song though
DaYsL33pR: really? wat do u use
JPFish187: its gettin hot in hurr
DaYsL33pR: hahahaha
DaYsL33pR: even better
DaYsL33pR: i like it
JPFish187: hahaha
JPFish187: im jk actually we use warning
JPFish187: by incubus
JPFish187: hahaha
DaYsL33pR: haha very coo
JPFish187: cuz of the whole climax of the guitar
DaYsL33pR: ic ic
JPFish187: hahaha
DaYsL33pR: there should be a new skit
DaYsL33pR: everyone n their grandma uses the suicide skit
DaYsL33pR: but hey, it's classic
JPFish187: hahahaha
JPFish187: thas funny
JPFish187: yeah they should change it up a little bit
JPFish187: hahaa
DaYsL33pR: hmmmm
DaYsL33pR: hehe there wont ever be a new skit, it's too good
DaYsL33pR: but i like how u guys used a different song
JPFish187: haha
JPFish187: oh that
JPFish187: sorry i was on the phone
JPFish187: haha i cant talk and be online @ the sametime
JPFish187: its hard to focus on two different convos
JPFish187: haha
JPFish187: anyway i was joking bout the using the different song for the skit
it was funny after that we were talking bout well using like a club/trance version of the song. We said watch we have kids all raving using their glow sticks.

Well ive been acting on impulse a lot lately, esp. recently putting myself in the worst situations. I gotta i guess work on thinking thinks through all the way. Though ive always been like that my whole life. Maybe thas why it seems like im hyper. I dont know, i ended up putting myself in a couple of awkward ones today. One which well, made me think about all day long. The other one i dont know if there is actually a "other" one. I guess ill find out soon where or not. i was gonna go the st. dominics earlier but then its too hard to get out of the house this late. Hmm sometmes i think to myself ahh nevermind, its not important. My goodness juss look @ the time 130! must get some rest.

"I'm not trying to pressure you, just can't stop thinkin' 'bout you. You ain't even really gotta be my girlfriend, I just wanna know your name. And maybe sometime, we can hook up, hang out, just chill..." im done, im out God bless!

"The difference between holding on to a hurt or releasing it with forgiveness is like the difference between laying your head down at night on a pillow filled with thorns or a pillow filled with rose petals."

So after 2 long days of suffering and pain, it has finally come to an end. There is peace in our hearts again, the bonds have been reformed and the devil has lost the battle once again. Thank you Lord, for ending what seemed like a forever long battle. Thank you for picking us up back on our feet to see the light. Thank you Lord because it was Your love that helped us prevail.

Im exhausted, its been one interesting weekend thats for sure. Tomorrow im going to juss rest, i gotta work on my phil quiz and read up on cis. Today was a long day, filled with awkward moments, a test of patience and a whole lot more! it was hot too which also added on the day being so long. I set my alarm for 915am to have enough to get ready, pick up heif then go to boss ladys event. Thas exactly how it went down too, woke up @ 915, showered. Got dressed in the clothes i was gonna wear to the wedding, then off to pick up heif.

Im really glad shes good w/time also like myself! by the time i got to her house she was already ready to go and i didnt have to wait. We had nice conversations bout shessh a lot of different things. Life, skool, people, weddings, ahh my stomach hurts i shouldve eaten something. We were really early to boss ladies event, like 30 min. it was coo we walked around and juss chilled. Then errone one else came and heif fit in perfectly. Thas why shes so d0pe cuz she easy to converse with and get a long with. Boss ladys event was coo, good thing i ate teh hot dogs before the wedding.

Went to melodys wedding, though we were there 20 min early also. I was thirsty cuz the punch @ the park was watered down, so i bought myself something to drink. heif and i ate starbursts the blue kind in the car and juss chilled listening to the radio. The wedding was aiight i guess, i would say unorganized though. For as much planning as she did for it, i felt it was unorganized. It was hard to understand what was going on during the service cuz errthnag was in spanish. Though heif and both enjoyed listening to the harmonic music of the string quartet. it was very soothing and made me juss wanna sleep. Heif and i both said we wanted this on our wedding. (for each of our weddings not like us together.) It was kinda crazy cuz as the girls were lighting the candles, i was thinking of kuyas wedding juss for a quick moment. Speaking of his wedding,
JPFish187: oh btw kuya on your wedding you gotta have a string quartest
JPFish187: er quartet
blue83212: y?
blue83212: that's exp
JPFish187: cuz its nice
JPFish187: its d0pe
JPFish187: ill pay for it then hahaha
blue83212: haha aight
blue83212: ahah

The reception was man forever long!! the wedding was over @ 3pm, we ddint get food like salad till 4pm. On top of that we ddint get to eat till 5pm. Then the food was not even like whoa! it was lasagna, a piece of lettuce w/cherry tomatoes, and some asparagus. yuck i hate asparagus! so inbetween the dead time of no food, they had a mini slide show. heif and i were both hot and clasterphobic from errone being so close together. There wasnt even any kind of dancing, so it was kinda boring sitting there. Im glad heif came w/me otherwise oh gosh i wouldve been bored out of my mind! ohh why?!! it was fun though juss chillin w/heif and spending time w/her. Shes the bestest best friend i could ever have! woo

Went to mizikes for music ministry and juss chilled there. PLayed w/ninni, while trying to beat kuyas snake II score. agh i almost got it, i died @ 759! i need to beat 829 so then kuya can try to beat my score! haha alway a competition. Then we left to go to the cerritos towne center juss to chill and talk. I guess it was a mini-pre uprm one year celebration. Its always a d0pe time when uprm gets together, no doubt no doubt! well this is my boring entry for today!

"We rock in all kinds of spots Calling all the shots..." im done...im out God bless!

"For prayer is nothing else than being on terms of friendship with God..."

::sigh:: i see pain and suffering to those whom i love most. My heart hurts once again as the devil tries to use us as pawns to do his dirty work. We must continue to fight hard and continue to pray for each other. I pray for healing to mend broken hearts, to heal the wounds of the suffering and let there be peace in our hearts.

Sacred Heart of Jesus, you invite all who are heavy burdened to come to You and find rest. Teach me to reach out to You in my need. Help me to lead others to Your Sacred Heart. Touch my soul with Your compassion for others. Touch my heart with Your courage and love for all. Touch my mind with Your wisdom and grace Touch gently my life with Your healing hand. Amen.

"Change my heart O God, make it ever new, change my heart O God may i be like you..." im done...im out God bless!

A FRIEND IS A PERSON...
Who will help you in the hour of sickness;
Who will lend you a dollar without deducting the interest;
Who will help you uphill when you are sliding down;
Who will defend you in the hour when others speak evil of you;
Who will believe in your innocence until you admit your guilt;
Who will say behind your back what he says to your face;
Who will shake hands with you wherever he meets you, even though you
wear patches; and
Who will do all these things without expecting any return.

With that being said, i feeel better now than i did last nite. This has juss been a hard week for me, my mind has been like a ticker tape. Juss all these thoughts running through my head, so much on my mind it cant recline. On my way home from lunch w/kuya and mizike i finally felt good. i was juss going all out in club mind, w/cmon on over! haha that song is d0pe, thas like a dance jam. I remember that video too, it was pretty d0pe!! thanks CA for making me feel better today! haha

yesterday was a busy day for me, especially @ work. Usually i leave before 6pm but i ended up leaving a little bit after 6pm. The clerk was out all day, so i was up in the front answering phones, while making flyers @ the same time. I hate making those flyers they take forever to make and sometimes i have to redo them like 10 times! then i had my after skool program to do also, we remade those apple pigs. That was i guess fun, you know by the time that class starts, i feel so tired. Good thing we didnt have extra time, cuz i felt too tired to entertain them. It was perfect timing having them decorate and make their own apparons. Then there was this family who was suppose to come @ 5pm, to do a walk thru. They didnt show up till 530, on top of that they still had to pay the balance of their party. Which also included the security as well, so i was runnign back and forth to city side getting change. ITs hard w/o the clerk there, and only having one rec leader in the afternoon. So i didnt get to get off till after 6, then rush home get stuff together for class.

Went to meet up w/achie, atche, strider, and babyvee for dinner @ dennys. That was nice, it was tight cuz instead of mash potatoes they gave me 2 country fried steaks instead of one! ooooOh yeah!! mmm mmm i didnt even get to finish it though cuz i was full from snacking so much @ work. After class, went to SRE and we talked botu being persecuted. I also did the same type of meditation i did w/ the other kids on tues. Though i think the other kids got more out of it then my kids. Its hard to get to them cuz i dont know if they understand whas going on. Well i knwo some of them do, not exactly all of them. After class, we all went to pray the rosary in the class. That was really nice, it felt nice and at peace.

Went to the soratorios after class and juss chilled there for a while. I love going to their house, its like my other home away from home! forreal!! i was able to redo my blog over there and some other stuff. lyn lyn made me some easy mac too, which tasted yummmy!!! oh i found out today that an old friend of mine is getting married next year. Which is crazy cuz her and her bf or fiance or whatever he is, theyve only been together barely 2 years! i think its two years this month, and theyre already living together. He told me that the ring he got her is platinum and on top of that he;s still making payments on another ring he got her. Dang, must be nice to have all thsi money and stuff. i was telling kuya i dont think their marriage is gonna last being theyre rushing it. They have an "A" frame type of relationship, which err couple should aim for a "m" frame relationship. oh how fast time goes by, man i can remember exactly what was going on in my life last year. It was so different than it is now.

I had a nice talk w/anthoneezy online alst nite too. I told him a funny story that ja mess told me earlier that nite. Well there was little boy who wanted to go dineyland right, i guess his uncle didnt really wanna go or something like that. So he takes him into car and the uncle thought "oh i know where ill take him!" The uncle and the nephew go into the car and they pass by this old abandon burnt down building. He told his nephew, "well hurr we are, it looks like dineyland got burnt down though." hahaha oh man that was funny but sad @ the same time. Poor little kid who probably got his hopes up on going to dineyland.

Well i must be off for i need to go to mass. i ahvent been to daily mass in a while, ever since skool started again. until tonite, hurr is soem more food for thought, View the world as your canvas. Be willing to rock your own style. Rely on your own instincts and not the opinions of others. Only you can stop yourself from expanding your EMAGN NATION. oh btw my vibe magazine came in the other day, good thing i didnt buy it!

"In comes the winter breeze that chills the air and drifts the snow And I imagine kissing you under the mistletoe..." im done, im out God bless!

agh...i feel bad right now i cant do an accurate blog. i shall do one later, my eyes are heavy and my puso hurts. ::sigh::

"So much on my mind it can't recline...blastin' holes in the night til she bled sunlight..."im done...im out God bless!

"Do not think of your fault; still less of others' faults. Look for what is good and strong and try to imitate it. Your faults will drop off like dead leaves when their time comes..."

well hurr i am, redoing this blog from yesterdays messed up, jacked up entry that got messed up. Anyway, i saw this quote and it was between this one or the other gatorade. So the meaning of this quote is saying, so often we can dwell on other peioples faults, that we forget bout the good qualities they forgot bout their good qualities. Point being, look for the positive points in people's personalities and try to imitate it. The more you focus on imitating peoples positives points in their personality, the stuff that you dont like bout them dissapear

Dear BLog, i am hurr at the soratorios house doing my blog as i hear them talk behind me. haha THas wha boss lady said, as she lays on the couch after a long days of work. Obviously, my thoughts will not be the same from last nite, being that well what i was thinking last nite is totally different than im thinknig now, OKay, i dont know if that made sense but oh well. I felt better yesterday, i felt like relieved and not stressed out as i did the day before. I guess i had a lot of skool stuff to do in my head and it was like aghhh.

So i go to skool yesterday and i as i was praying for parking and right before my eyes is a parking space. IT was one of those parallel parking spots, before i never attempeted to park there being i never knew how to parallel park or if i did my parking owuld be jacked up. haha as if i was smoking or drinking or something like that. I park there all happy cuz i found parking right away, i come out of class to find bird crap on my car. On the side of my car all over my drivers end it was like all nasty. eww i hate bird crap on my car, agh i have to wash it tomorrow to get it all offf. My car looks all dirty and nasty now. Went to class, i was falling asleep cuz well class was boring!!!! we were watching boring movie called like 2000 leagues in sapce or something like that. We were watching monkies and what not play around and stuff. oh gosh it was like i cant wait to get out of hurr. A lot of people were falling alseep, especially when it was coming to lecture. haha i was funny watching people fall alseep in class. I was coo cuz we got to take home our quiz. I like take home quizzes, theyre d0pe!!

Before class, i was walking around club rush juss i guess checking out what was going on. I was talking to a few intereting people there too. Like i was talking to one of those har krishana guys. IT was funny cuz he was like thas a nice bracelet you have referring to my rosary. I said thanks, he goes are you filipino? i said yeah he goes oh cool you know were not actually filipino or iraqui or whatever, more less we have souls. Blah blah blah he gives me this hardback book on yoga and their beliefs and stuff. I said oh thanks, then he threw dontation card @ me. He was like oh we usually ask people for donations for those books. I was like okay ill see if i can get people to donate money to you guys. I dont think he agreed w/me on that one cuz he goes well i take this one back then. How bout i give you this one and its a smaller version a mini book. THen he invites me to their club meetings, which are on thurs. @ 330pm. THen he gives me some vegeterian dessert thing, i said thanks! i felt weird in my hand i ended up throwing it away in the trash later on. THen i ran into this mormon guy also who saw my quicksilver shirt and he goes do you surf? i said no then he goes have you ever tried, i told naw. Then he asked if i ever been to hawaii and stuff like that. Blah bLah blah. THen he asked if i ever tried anything like surfing i said yeah snowboarding he goes is that fun? i said yeah it was then he was like dont you get hurt? i said no not really juss gotta be careful. After that he gave me stuff bout their church and stuff bout families. It was coo he didnt try to convert me or do anything like that. THat was coo i admired that guy for it.

Went to work and i was giving a grip of work to do for the next couple weeks. Aggh its so much to do! i finally got to talk to lyn lyn @ work. Usually we dont get to really talk talk you know. When i come in, shes usually leaving or already gone. So we had a nice half hour chit-chat bout a lot of different things. It was a very enjoyable conversation. We even were talking inside the parking lot for a little bit too! haha ITs coo im blessed that i feel close to errone that i can feel comfortable tlaking to them individually. I know i said more bout this last nite but i forgot what else i added.

After work went back to skool, i kinda messed up on the hw a little bit. Thas why i want to do it w/kuya so we can help each other out. HE was a bit dissapointed in me cuz i didnt study the upcoming chapter in the book. THerefore i didnt exactly fully know what was going on in the class. So i gotta focus on my studies so kuya wont be mad @ me and wont give me palo haha jk! hahaha forreal though its for my own benefit though that i really make an effort to do my hw and studies and make it a priority so i can be successful like my kuya! haha we had a contest in class last nite, i have to beat 827 on snake II. We kept playing in class last nite and he also showed me this reptile thingy he made w/his hand. it was an iguana he made w/his hands last nite, it was funny. hahaha kuya is a funny guy, yes he is quite a funny guys. Thas why when hes happy, im happy and when he feels sad then i feel sad.

Reirich and i were talking bout relationships and what not. HE told me that so many people have told him, that this next person he finds is gonna be "the one." I told him he shouldnt worry bout it cuz so often we pay attention to the future. We always gotta worry bout whas gonna happen tomorrow and the next day. Instead we juss need to focus on today, thas why God gave us this special gift called the present. No matter how much we may think our plans our totally set for us. God may have a different one planned for us. He's gonna throw that curve ball at us and we wont be able to hit the ball. Were gonna miss it and were juss gonna be like all whoa! wha happened to me there.

I like playing yu-gi-oh cards! haha i like that show cuz its oh so d0pe! haha though i havent watched the show in forever long. Well i cant think of anything else to say right now. So hurr is my made up blog entry from last nite.

Really Smiled : online yes i smile online
Laughed :earlier today was laffing in class.
Cried : like 3 weeks ago
Bought something : bought this d0pe quicksilver shirt @ robisons may last fri.
Danced : when am i not? hahah
Were sarcastic : im sarcastic w/kuya hhaa
Kissed someone: my mother
'Talked to an ex : dont have one to takk to
Watched your favorite movie : not in forever long time
Had a nightmare:not for awhile
Were lulled to sleep by the thought of someone: awww
[ A Last time for everything.. ]
Last book you read : im still trying to finsih my kindness book
Last movie you saw : daredevil
Last song you heard: deep in my heart
Last thing you had to drink : sunkist
Last time you showered : this morning
Last thing you ate : mac & cheese

[ Fashion ]
1. Do you wear a watch : yup its fossil
2. How many coats and jackets do you own : many different ones some i dont even wear anymore
4. Most expensive item of clothing : oh geez...
5.What kind of shoes do you wear : usually my jordans
6. Describe your style in one word : yummy

[ Friends ]
1. Do your friends 'know' you : for the most part yes
2. What do they tend to be like : Christ centered and juss d0pe like no other!
3. Are there traits in you that are universally liked : its not for me to say
4. are there people that you tell everything to: yup

[ Other ]
2. Most listened to bands : who knows
3. Do you find any musicians good-looking : yeah i cant think of any though off the top of my head
4. Can you play an instrument : naww dawg
5. Type of music listened to : hiphoppopfreestyleslowjams
6. Type never listened to : ive listeneed to almost errthang
[ Religion ]
1. Do you detest religion : no
2. How do you think this universe was formed : by GOd of course
3. If you currently follow a religion, do you think people who belong to another religion are ignorant:: hmm well i guess to a certain extent
[ Homosexuality ]
1. What is the first thing you think when you see two gay guys or lesbians holding hands : eww thas sick when i saw them kissing in the christina aguilera video! yuck
2. do you agree or disagree with gay or lesbian couples bringing up children: yeah
[ General Questions ]
1. Whom do you believe is the smartest man alive at the moment : eerr GOd
2. What do you prefer, a sunny or rainy day : sunny
3. Do you consider yourself lucky : yup very lucky and blessed!
4. Do you feel pity for people who commit suicide : well i donnt know
5. Choose one word to describe how you feel most often : stressed but all doritoes as brotha anthony would say
[ Stuff ]
1. Do you own any plaid clothing : yup! like my green holister shirt
2. Do you own Converse shoes : yup my brown ones
3. Do you own Saucony shoes : naw
4. Do you own old school Nikes : naw
5. Do you wear tight pants : naw
6. Is there more than one zipper in your pants : naw
7. Do you know what a squatter flap is : naw
8. Do you own a messenger bag : yes from ol navy
9. Do you wear your messenger bag across your chest : naw
10. Do you own braces :nope
11. Are braces worn anywhere besides the mouth :naw
12. Do you have short, shaggy hair : its wavy and getting long
13. Does your hairstyle exceed a height of 3 inches : i dont know
14. Would you classify your hair as a deadly weapon : haha no.
15. Do you think mohawks are "neat" : sure i guess
16. Is your hair black or red : black
18. Do you own a bandana : no but my kuya wears one al lthe time when he works out
19. Do you wear plugs in your ears : no
20. Are you amused by safety pins : umm no
21. Have you ever used duct tape as a sewing substitute :no
22. Do you own one or more objects with studs or spikes in them : no
23. Do you own one or more articles of clothing from Dogpile, Lip Service, or Tiger of London : no sir
24. Do you enjoy leopard print : not really
[ Habits/Beliefs ]
25. Are you disgruntled (having a general hate for everything): nope!
26. Are you an anarchist : naw
27. Does the American flag anger you :nope
28. Are you "working class" : heck yeah i am
29. Do you dislike "preps" : i like em.
30. Do you dislike Hot Topic : no
31. Do you smoke cigarettes : uhhh noo
32. Do you smoke cloves : uhh no again
33. Are you a thin waif : wha?
34. Are you vegan/vegetarian : nope.
35. Do you think meat is murder : nope.
36. Do your nighttime activites usually involve drunken underage vomiting : no
37. Have you ever slept in an alley or park :no
38. Do you wash your hair less than once a week: no sick!!!!
39. Have you ever gone a week without a shower : ewww
40. Have you ever been avoided due to your odor :nope haha
41. Do you know who Jack Kerouac is : no
42. Do you like Mr. Kerouac : dont know
43. Should Mumia Abu-jamal be freed from prison :no hes in the for a reason
44. Are you a member of the Makeout Club : sick no
45. Do you say "rad" : no

[ Other ]
Name : Ja$On
Do you like it : sure
Nicknames : jfish, jay, jase, hijo, angel fish, fish., big fish, etc etc
Screen names : jpfish187, itsvokal, uprm isda, phildeagony,gotzisda
location : buena park
School : CC
Virgin : actually no im a cancer
Shoe size : 9
[ Family ]
Parents : NEta & clarence
Siblings : Lisa
Live with: parents and sister
Favorite relative : kuya!H haha jk isaiah

"Excuse me miss, what's your name? Can you come, hang with me? Cause I see some ladies tonight that should be hangin wit robby & ja$On..." im done...im out GOd bless! its finished! haha remember that song kuya? hahahahahha

ahhhhhhhhh! i hate blog w/a passion i lost my whole entry!!!! agh all my thoughts went to waste aghh!! OH WHY!?!!! i copied but then i ended up loosing it after copying something else!!!!!a agfghhh@jkEFklSJgklfjkzdfjkllt i hate blog! agh!!!!!! oh whY?!!! im sooooooo angry gosh !!!!!!!
im gonna have to redo my whole entry later! gosh gosh gosh why?!!! blog is dumb!

"...And you help each other realize that all the things you want to be...you already are."

i found out last nite, that our friendly community Love & faith in carson are disney characters. How funny being that Servant;s heart is Lord of the rings characters. Well hurr is the Servants Heart Lord of the Rings-Fellowship of the Ring cast: Compliments to strider for making this cast list available for me.
Fellowship of the King

Cast:

Frodo - Marianne Soratorio

Sam - Jennifer Felisan

Merry - Jemmelee Velasco

Pip - Roselyn Soratorio

Mikedalf The Grey - Michael Tandiama

Jaygolas - Benjamin Castaneda

Aragorn - Alfred Perdito

Gimli - Jason Fish

Elrond - Robert Moya

Galadriel - Aela Mejia

Eomer - Archie Mejia

Boromir - Maurice King

its 1234am right now, and ive yet to fully accomplish my studying before tomorrow. Its been a bleh type of day, i feel so out of it. Went to skool and it took me forever juss to get a print out. I was feeling mad cuz they only had like 2 people in the front. Well i know why cuz of the whole budget cuts, but i mean gosh the line was cruved around the door. This one girl wanted to get up on a computer to help, but i guess her boss told her no they have enough help already. I was like wha? what the heck are you talking bout!?! theres two people assisting students and you have a line full of other students waiting to be helped. You think thats enough?! gosh, thas whack, thas not what im paying my increased skool fees for. aghh!

Went home for a little bit, got ready for work then went to work. It was nice, our printer finally works for the computer in my office work. man that took forever to get it fixed, liek almost 2 months. Well the important thing is that its fixed. i was listening to this tight Cd lyn lyn brought in...it was very soothing. i ffeel so blah bleh right now. I cant seem to focus on anything right now except my worries and fears. I got off of work and went to skool to try do my hw, and well that was a joke. The lady there was trippin out w/kuya trying to help me, as if it was some test. How gay is that, i was frustrated so i was like forget it im not giving you the time. I walked out there, feeling stressed and unaccomplished.

Went home to eat and to check mail before going to SRE. The kids were alright, the usual i guess you could say. Though i did get more then one mass card today. I tried to do the Jesus; meditations w/them, but they seemed like they couldnt understand. Or wasnt interested at least, so i had to a spontaneous one instead. Im anxious to read their responses they wrote. One kid fell asleep tonite, the boy mustve been really tired. haha
Prayer meeting was nice, it looked like we had a little more people. i was going to go to mcdonalds or i wanted to but i had hw to do. ahh this sucks i cant focus on anything right now. i cant wait till its friday!
Finish computer hw, now all i gotta do is finish studying for the quiz. Hopefully i did the hw right...
i cant think of anythign else to say, its so bleh, my entry is retarted for tonite.

"Be like alice in wonderland, jack in jill holding hands and every afternoon well watch the cows jump over the moon. And if we happen to run into lil bo peep we can help her find her sheep..." im done...im out God bless!

"A friend is someone who, upon seeing another friend in immense pain, would rather be the one experiencing the pain than watch their friend suffer..."

Well i saw this quote and it reminded me of a great brother of mine. $5 if you can tell me who im talking bout! ha sike! im trying to multitask hurr. im talking to anthoneezy, gail from carson, el huego, a ol friend of min from the ol skool crew, and strider. whew and tring to do blog all at the same time. Its a little complicated cuz im using interent explorer to blog instead of my AOl browser, for some reason blog wasnt coming up. grrr! anyway, this d0pe brotha of mine is one who goes out of his way to help his people in need.
This quote totally describes what kind of person he is. He hates seeing the people whom he loves so much hurt and in pain. I always knew how great this guy was, but i really praise God that these past couple months ive been able to get a lot closer to him. His sense of humor cracks me and never leave me w/a frown. Truly he is a brave warrior, always willing to fight that battle. He has his sword ready in one hand, and his shield ready in the other. Ive learned so much from this warrior, i owe part of my faith to him.
I am ready to help fight that battle w/him, you have my axe strider!

Today was a busy day, nothing but back to back things going on. ah its gonna be busy skool week for me got like a test in errclass this week. I woke up to go to mass today @ 12 @ St. Dominic Savio in bellflower. It was funny today cuz i was sitting in the car waiting to see if people will show up for the mass. Being that i told errone to meet @ 11 @ SPV, so while waiting i was reading my bible. Father Kevin told me to read matthew chapter 25 and he said it was a long chapter. Well im reading and reading and by the time i know it i was like @ chapter 27. I was like whoa craazzzzy! i had to stop cuz i had to get to bellflower, no one ended up meeting me @ spv anyway.

Got to mass St. Dominics and i was quite dissapointed, cuz i didnt know they werent gonna have mass cuz of the holiday. Its all good though, we had a blast being talking to Jesus @ adoration! I love that church sooo much, its so nice and warm and cozy. I love how @ adoration youre juss so close to Jesus. He's juss right there to see and to do nothing but completely smile at him. After that, we all kinda took some more pictures. I think lyn lyn wanted to finish the film so we took all kinds of pictures, w/ninni and others. That was chillerific. Had lunch w/errone like mizike, tital linda, tita beyonce, lyn lyn, ninni and achie @ this one sushi joint. It was alright, though i do miss going to karutas. I dont think any sushi joint can beat their crunchy roll, thas ultimately the best! They had an all you can deal that was $17, but you had to finish it all in an hour. man! thas like rushing to finish then throwing it up afterwards cuz you ate too much! hahaha

it was funny today cuz achie and ninni were in this filipino bakrey store. So i open the door and im like "psst" real loud, well the store was big or anything. Right after i went pssst, errone turned around and looked. hahahahaahahah mizike and i couldnt stop laughing, at least i coudlnt. then we saw this slogan on this meat truck it was funny. Picture this big truck, white background on it has a picture of a cow. In an arch style has the name of the brand, then under it the cow and then the slogan, "cant beat our meat!" hahaha that was hillarious! Well maybe not you, i guess you juss gotta read it for yourself or see it. We went to golidlocks afterwards to have halo halo mmmm! Whenever i have halo halo though, i dont like adding all the other stuff. I juss like the milk and the shaved ice. My family doesnt usually put ice cream ube in it either. Though i like the ice cream ube in it. Anyway, by the time i was finished w/my halo halo i only hadl ike a big chunk of the fruit, the swe3t beans and all the other stuff they put in there. It was funny cuz well i dont really understand tagalog, only small words or phrases. I saw this sign there and i ask achie waht it said, and she was like it says, errone works well w/team work or somethignl ike that. So im like oh okay coo, then i looked up and she read the english sign that said teamwork thing on it. hahahaha it was funny she read this english sign when i wanted her to read the tagalog siign. Tita linda gave us some more good stuff today. I need to take notes errtime she talks cuz its really good stuff! i love listening to the stories she had and the loving relationship she had w/tito leo.

Went home for a little bit, so tired i juss wanted to take a nap. We went to have dinner @ my aunts cuz it was her birfday today. Man there was 4 birfdays in a row. First ryans, then my aunts dog pennie, then lyn lyn and now my aunts. It was alright, the cake my aunt made though was sooo good. It was like chocolate w/snickers inside the cake and outside of it. soooo yummy and swe3t! She makes the best cakes forreal no doubt no doubt. I realized today, that a person whom was a cross i had to carry for so long isnt my cross anymore. Ive been able to umm let go towards the feelings i had for the person and juss focus on seeing Jesus; in him. it was so blazin hot inside my aunts apt. agh kuya wouldve died in there cuz i know how hot easily hot he gets.

After that, i went to go study w/kuya @ rubios. I like studying w/him cuz he helps me understand things and makes sure i understand it. He's a great study buddy! wooo! We had a funny discussion tonite in the car too. haha it was quite humurous, yes it was! i had a some interesting chats w/my friends from carson. Actually i was sharing w/them the stuff tita linda told me this past weekend. It was really great cuz they felt the same way too. GAil had told me how some peopel are so involved w/finding the perfect one that in a sense it starts to distort their spirituality. hmm that was interesting point she made. Oh before i forget, i saw the end of joe millionare tonite. all i gotta say is, "oh gosh, must be nice." I thought the end of it was kinda corny, well not kinda but it was corny. The guy needs a haircut too! So she finds out the guy isnt this 50 dollar millionare but they both end up receiving 1 million dollars anyway. When they were dancing that song, "slow jam" by usher and monica came into my head.

Well i havent done one of these in a while so i thought id do it one for ol times sake. Nothign else to really do right now anyway. Enjoy!
I got this from my cousins live journal, i need to change the links on my blog to their live journal ones. I shall do that after i get finish doing this.

10 Bands You've Seen Live
1. Super band
2. Happy Hour
3. Never On time
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09 Things You're Looking Forward To
1. Fridays!
2. celebrating urpms 1 year anniversary
3. school ending!
4. spring break!
5. Congress!
6. chillin w/uPRm
7. my 21st birfday
8. talking to kuya online tomorrow morning haha
9. making my tag person for boss lady! ha =)

08 Things You Wear Daily
1. my cross that i got from SRE for making my confirmation
2. my scapular that aela brought back from the pi
3. my bead cross necklace that the velsacos gave me
4. my rosary bracelet tita beyonce gave me, that im soo careful with
5. curve/candies cologne
6. my fossil watch
7. this gold ring, well its not Gold anymore. haha
8. a smile!

07 Things That Annoy You
1. fake people
2. people put up fronts
3. inconsiderate people
4. people that follow you around
5. when in class the role sheet doesnt get pass back the way its suppose to go
6. when my kids in class talk when im talking...that bugs!
7. when people take things to the puso for somethign so little

06 Things You Touch Every Day
1. my keyboard
2. shampoo
3. my keys
4. the doorknob
5. the car
6. the rosary! oh yes!

05 Things You Do Every Day
1. showeer
2. pray the rosary
3. talk online
4. blog
5. laugh

04 People You'd Want to Spend More Time With
1. kristin kreuk! oh yeah!
2. boss lady cuz shes oh so d0pe!
3. uPrm
4. my other fambam tribe! haha

03 Movies You Could Watch Over and Over
1. light it up! yeah i know im ghett0
2. roger and hammersteins cinderella(the brandy and palo mantablan version)...i cant believe i put that on hurr. Oh well haha
3. titanc! haha soo juss kidding

02 Of Your Favorite Songs At This Moment
1. any 80's ol skool freestyle song!! like take me in your arms, point of no return, etc etc
2. one of those days remix

01 Person You Could Spend the Rest of Your Life With
1. Jesus of course!

"Never imagined you would be a painted picture, I'm emotional. You saw me leaving no deceiving, it's official I'm emotional." Im done...im out God bless!

"Marriage is an unconditional commitment to an imperfect person..." Tita Linda Soratorio

My head hurts right now, when i left the soratorio house and got in my car i got a headache. I think i got motion sickness from watching the video. agh i guess looking @ this computer isnt helping either. Anyway, tita linda gave us a "how to live a good relationship w/whoever your signifcant other might be." She gave us like a whole lot of different pointers, i wrote some down too cuz they were good stuff. Well as i read that quote it reminded me of another that i once read. It went something like, "love isnt trying to perfect person perfectly but learning to see the imperfect person perfectly." the other quote i used at the top it doesnt necessarly mean only in marriage but any relationship. Ill give the tita linda pointeres later on when i get to that part.

Today was cool, i havent been home at all really this past weekend. Its hard cuz there is so much going on, always something coming up. Let's see i went to mass today, i sat next to kuya. At first we were in the very back but we had to move cuz i cant stand sitting in the back of the church. I always have to be at least in the front or near the front. I dont like sitting too far back cuz well i juss dont. haha So yeah we ended up moving to the front to sit down. After lunch i went w/the soratorios to forest lawn to visit their dad. Went home for a little bit, then went back there for lyn lyns birfday.

It was fun we did a lot of dancing, eating, the food was good! We were listening to a lot of the ol skool freestyle. I love listening to that stuff i dont know its juss d0pe. Thas like where all of todays music is made out of too. It was coo cuz mostly errone was dancing, except for a few. You had strider breaking doing the ol skool stuff. Kuya doing windmills and wha not. Jovie showing errone how to harlem shake. Corn was doing what they do now @ the clubs...whoa!! babyvee doing her boxstep. Arch shaking his shoulders to the harlem shake. lyn lyn trying to learn some of the stuff they do now today. el huego shimm shimmying errwhere. Tita beyonce jamming to lisa lisa cuz her music is d0pe!! can you feel the beat w/in my heart...hahaha It makes thing a lot more exciting when errone participates and not only juss one person dancing. Thas why it was tight cuz there was so much participation going on!

Then we all got worn out and was like blah on the couch! haha well actually we took pictures of all kidns. group pictures, solo pictures, and more pictures. We had a uprm picture since it was uprms 1st anniversary, that was really cool. Its nice to see how much our relationships w/each other have grown within the year. Throughout the struggles the group had whether it was invidiually or as a whole group, we managed as always to get through them w/God's help of course. They all are a great group of unique brothers with pusos of gold. We know we can rely on each toher for help and one us falls, and we cant all be there, someone else is at least there to pick the brother up. Someone once said, "People say true friends must always hold hands, but true friends don't need to hold hands because they know the other hand will always be there." thas is exactly what uprm is to each other. Happy one year upRm, May God's grace and light continue to shine upon the group to guide and to lead us to another succesful year!

I found this quote right now and when i read it, i was like wow i have to use this one too. it reminded me of the relationship boss lady and i have together. "Once in a while you meet someone, and soon you both discover the two of you are truly something special to each other... you share your thoughts and feelings so relaxed, so openly, and right away you know your friendship's truly meant to be." it was really nice cuz i got to bond w/boss lady today to get cheesecake. We had a nice conversation that was juss like focusing on listening to one another. Sometimes thas all you need is someone there juss to listen. Not to make comments or to scold you, but juss to listen what you have to say. I really really really enjoy the moments when boss lady and i get bond together, its not very often we get to do that. She's such a wonderful sister, who is so compassionate, loving, warm, friendly, trustworthy and not to mention cute too! haha kuyas soo lucky! hahahaha. She's very giving of herself to other people. I never thought befoe that there was as someone who can get as crazy as i can. Who can fool around and learn juss to have fun. haha i remember meeting her at youth alpha when she gave her testimony i was wow! i went up to her and complimented her on it and stuff. Then i remember i asked her if i could borrow to burn the SH music that they had made. She was like oh yeah sure, and juss really nice bout it. haha i dont think she even knew me really. Then wha else, oOh i remember how her and kuya came to my class and taught my kids praise & worship songs and cheers too. i was like wow she's soo cool! hahah anyway, boss lady has all the qualities of a good friend, but she goes way past & beyond them! thanks God for sending me boss lady! Ü

random thought, ive been thinking its crazy im so use to calling robby, "kuya" that it feels weird when i call him by "robby." haha jus like its weird when i hurr el huego call me by my first name cuz im so use to hearing him call by my last. haha okay anyway moving on. We watched the videos from the mission trip and christmas party tonite, i got motion sickness! haha Before that tita linda was sharing some valuable information bout relationships. I like listening to her talks cuz her stories are always so amazing and nice.
SHe mentioned that your mate that you woudl want should be someone who will help you get closer to God. Where God will be the basis of your relationship. Tita also said dont be so negative thinking, there is no one out there for you and what not. She made a really good point how you shouldnt lookin online for a gf or through classifieds or psyhics cuz its an insult to God. I never thought bout it that way either. ALso dont stress over looking for the "one" concentrate more on how you can help out your brotthers and sisters, through like community service and what not. I thought id share some of the food for thought to ponder on! Really good helpful stuff to remember.

Well my head still hurts and i cant type anymore cuz i dont wanna feel bleh tomrrow. So i shall end with someone tita beyonce said bout finding the one. She said "if God really wanted to be w/someone then created particular person out there juss for you." ahh juss gotta let her come to you i guess? its so hard to find a good catholic girl now a days. I thought i found the one i wanted before...but apparently not. ::sigh:: haha woe is me! hahah jk

"Take me, take me in your arms and dont you let me go i need more and more..." im done...im out God bless!

"A sin that is not blotted out of repentance is both a sin & a cause of sin." St. Gregory I

i decided to go w/that one and not a friendship quote this time cuz well it reminded me of today. How wonderful that our Lord gave us two d0pe sacarments to learn more bout today. The sacarament of reconciliation and the sacarament of the Eucharist. wow!! thas "coolnesity" haha Lyn lyn did her testimony on the healing power of reconciliation and her talk was great. It was very touching and it juss made you realize how cool that sacrament is. So from there ill start talking bout the growth seminar.

We had our 1st growth seminar today focusing on the innerhealing through the eucharist & reconciliation. It was open juss for our community, give them a chance to learn more bout these great sacaraments. There was a talk apologetics style bout the Eucharist by strider. Though i wasnt there to listen to that one cuz i had get the radio for work for the mediation. oh wait before we had the talk we did praise & worship which is juss excellent. i like the new speakers we have i can see a difference or actually hear a difference now. We played that song, "eternally yours" man i love that song! on the way to church this morning i couldnt stop listening to it. In fact i have that song playing and lead me Lord playing in my head.

So after the talk we had group sharing, between the guys and the girls. It was split up, so each gender can better bond w/some people in the communtiy we may not know. The topic of the discussion was, "what was something you need healing of, whethers is spiritual, emo, physically etc etc." It was a very annointed conversation cuz we were able to discuss our own struggles. The struggles that push back errtime we try to step foward in our walks. Also we helped each other by giving advice on how to solve/overcome that situation. I think the basic theme for the whole conversation/discussion was "trust in God's timing and be a living example unto others." For me probably the biggest struggle i have as of now is my family. It took me a while to be where i am today, yet im not even done in my walk. I havent reached the end of the journey, though i can say that im not lost in the dark anymore. I can say that my community has lit the path for me and i know what path to follow. And if i get sidetracked i know where to go, to help put myself back on track.

A year ago, i wasnt as nearly as what i am today. I was a practicing catholic...though only to a certain extent. Kinda like a practicing cafteria catholic, i picked and choose on my own what i wanted to do. I went to mass errsunday w/my family, though i honestly didnt think much of it. SOmetimes id even fall asleep. I taught SRe yet, i ddint have the knowledge that i do bout who the church is. What it means to be a catholic and what a blessing it is. I had gone to prayer meeting a couple of times, though i was like ehh whatever i was bored. Yeah i prayed, but only when i needed something. Only when it was convient for me i guess you could say. God was in my life, though he wasnt where he shouldve been. I wasnt to the extent where i did drugs, swore, had pre-marital sex etc. etc.

One tuesday, i decided i wanted to take my confirmation kids up to prayer meeting, since ive been there before so i thought id take them. At the same time my cousin was doing youth alpha, so i would go meet him up in the hall after it was over errtues. Well that tues. nite (feb 12 to be exact) i went up to prayer meeting after youth alpha was over and i remember it clearly that tues. Father Grace was talking i dont remember wha but the chairs were all facing the wall where we have the overhead and stuff. I remember i was getting impatient cuz i had to take chris back home still and i still had ot ask i think it was boss lady(obviously i dindt call her boss lady @ the time. haha) if it was okay to bring the kids up there. So at the end of the whole prayer meeting, i got to ask one of the two and i got their okay. I think i was told to email her to remind them so they could set up the chairs.

That next tues.(feb.19) i brought them to prayer meeting i sat in the very back watching them to make sure they were gonna behave. I tried ot get into it but i dont know if was able to. Then i ended up goign back up there after i took my kids down cuz they had to go home. I think errsince that last tues. i would go back up there after SRE was over. My cousin both would, and i remember jaymee & mo rice talking to me after prayer meeting was over, while there was healing prayer going on and music ministry was cleaning up. I guess has time superpassed, i kept going back up each tues.

I remember how my protestant friend had "church friends" and how he would always chill w/them. Anyway, it was funny cuz when i was asked(i forgot by who) anyway to go the FCFC coffee shop i was kinda excited though nervous and insecure too. Well i was insecure/nervous when i would go to prayer meeting after SRE was over. Juss cuz how i use to go then i stopped going then i came back again. I guess i was afraid of being judged. I also kinda remember clearly that nite oF FCFC coffee shop, i met up w/errone @ spv that nite. I was talking to kyle and nicole a little bit cuz thye knew one of my other cousins cuz kyle went to skoool w/him @ the time. Kuya was excited cuz he juss bought a new car that day, the civic he has now. The day was mar. 15 2002. haha i feel like on that MTV show "diary." That nite i got to ride in kuyas car w/boss lady it was us 3. being i didnt really know anyone i was quiet haha. Though i remember in the car they were trying ot make convo w/me it was kinda like 20 ?'s hahaha it was cold that nite too cuz i think it was raining earlier that day. The coffee shop was cool, i saw my friends whom i chilled w/at the time there. After we all ate @ rubios i think @ the cerritos towne center. I think i got something i didnt like, so errsince then i didnt like rubios. Though now i do! haha wow to think im kuya and boss lady's "hijo" now! haha

oh i forgot that one tues. when i was talking ot jaymee and mo rice after prayer meeting, jaymee told me to go to the website and sign the guestbook. I remember then one sun. afternoon after i was chillin in the park juss waiting for the sun to go down. haha jk anyway, though it was one sun. afternoon i was lookin @ the SH website and i ended up signign the guestbook. it took me a while cuz i was tryign to think of wah to put on there to sound cool for some stupid reason. Well on mar. 25 haha mizike imed me sayiing, "hey ja$on this is mike from servants heart, thanks for signing the guest book." you probably think im lame cuz i remember all these days and wha not, the only reason i do is cuz i use to write errthang that happened to me errday in my organizer. i dont remember these days off the top of my head! haha That day he asked me to be part of their skit and stuff. i said yeah sure cuz i thought it was really cool i was asked. Being he didnt even really know me.

Then i guess going to skit practices and stuff i was able to a get a "feel" of errone and more the i gradually chilled w/errone the more i got to know them and they got to know me. I remember the first skit practice @ aelas house. I got there and it was kinda uncomfortable cuz i didnt have anyone to really talk to. The very first face i remember seeing is jennifs. she was on the couch where the tv was w/allegra i think she was crocheting. That was a long practice i think we were waiting for errone for a while before we even begun to practice. I remember jay was trying to dload the "i got a crush on you" instrumental. While talking to mo rice and someone else bout this words he woudl make up. haha I think each time i got to chill w/SH one candle was lit to start the fire. After being w/them for a year now, ive grown to where i understand how wonderful our God is and how d0pe it is to be a catholic.

wow that whole flashback took pretty much all of my blog. i still didnt even touch on the grwoth seminar yet! So back to the whole point of the flashback, my struggle is my family cuz i only want them to be where i am now. To be able talk bout the church and great stuff like that. Though its all in God's time and sometimes it takes a tragic accident for them to realize how important God has to be in their life. So i only continue to be a living example and pray for them. Pray the Jesus; light will be able to shine through me unto them.

Tita beyonce gave this great teaching bout how to give a great confession. She used great analogies also in her teaching. It reminded me of that one bibe talk i sent before xmas. how it talked bout being a "pack rat" and how we need to clean out our spiritual closets often and not juss pack errthang in there. The whole seminar was great. Went to reconcliation again cuz i needed to talk to a priest bout something. Then went to mass, father brennan;s homily was good. Talked bout doing acts of kindess while reaching out and touching those who we would cast away.

After mass, we went to eat @ the china star in la mirada. i got full easy and only ended up eating one plate. THen after dinner well most of us went to watch daredevil @ fullerton amc. Honestly, i liked spiderman better for some reason. I thought this daredevil couldve been made better. There was a lot of corny parts like for example, "where i can find you" "dont worry ill find you!" oh goodness! haha the action scenes were tight, action packed and what not. There was a few suprising scenes in the movie. The catholic church stuff tid bits they had were nice. THe stainglass of Mama Mary and the statue of her inside the church.

Wow this is probably one of the longest blogs ive ever typed! I juss realized if i wasnt for sh, wow a lot blessings wouldnt of came about in my life. Goes to show how there really isnt no coincidences in life. Errthang happens for a reason, God puts certain people in our lives for a reason. Through Sh God has helped me learn to make new friends and meet other people from all over. He has blessed me w/not only one great community but two! He has blessed me w/not juss one group of good friends, but two! they all have made a powerful impact in my life. I wouldnt be who i am today w/o them.

"There can be miracles when you believe. Though hope is frail, it’s hard to kill. Who knows what miracles you can achieve. When you believe, somehow you will, You will when you believe..." im done...im out GOd bless!

"Life is full of people who will make you laugh, cry, smile until your face hurts, and so happy that you think you'll burst. But the ones who leave their footprints on your soul are the ones that keep your life going..."

Reading that quote is like whoa thas very true! yes yes it is so true. Throughout life youll meet or come across people that have certain affects on you personality. They make you feel happy, sad, joyful etc. etc. but to me the true people God sends you are the ones who really make that difference in your life. The ones who dont need to say, "i care for you or youre my friend." But only by the affect they have on your soul.

Another long day for me, and this time i mean long! My eyes are heavy, i yawn sitting hurr thinking of what to say. Number of different thoughts come across my head, yet none of them i wanna put on hurr. Im talking ot jackie right now, she was telling me her valentines dillema. "And i love you, and i need you..." hahah get it?
THough she expressed clearly to me, she enjoys the single life and is not looking for a bf at the moment. For these past couple days, actually more less this whole week ive eaten soo much junk! haha im suprised my stomach isnt bullging out right now. I saw these kids i think practicing for track, well they were running. Anyway, it made me wanna go out there and join them. ahh wha use to take me a good 5 min to run the mile before, probably would take me 10 min now! haha i honestly need to start excercising again even if its juss running.

Well today kuya and i had our "at risk" youf program! haha i love those days, it was our big brother day! wooo what fun it was. Kuya's exciting to chill with, forreal always makes me laugh and stuff. it was quite dissapointing this morning cuz we were planning on getting down our cis hw today. We got to skool and find errthang closed, which is whack cuz now it puts us back behind schedule. ahhh i wanted to get the hw done and over with, maybe we can do it on mon. nite instead of tues. nite. Mon. are kuyas work out nites though hmmm well see. I juss hate doing hw last minute. So being that the skool was closed for some apparent reason, we decided to go visit aela & jay @ their work. We didnt know how to get there, so cross that idea out. haha Boss lady wasnt really @ work, so we couldnt go and visit her either. Since we had nothign else to do, we went to the cerritos mall and walked around. It was crazy we saw Jl's friend who she brought to prayer meeting before. I take it he was w/his girl cuz the way they were. Dang, that foo is tall!!! hes as tall as the empire state building! haha forreal! haha jk After the mall, we went to check out this phillysteak fast food joint. The place is in fountain valley, its really good and it gets quite packed in there. Its coo cuz they kinda make it like a diner sorta, then they have all this stuff from philly on there. Kinda made you feel like you were in philly. After lunch we went back to the mall and got these two shirts. Kuya has been buying some d0pe gear these past couple days. hmmm looks like imma have to raid his closet and borrow some stuff one of these days! hahaha yessss We were getting sleepy in the car from the food. Then after i had to go the flower shop to get some flowers of course.

Went to my grandmas house to drop off some stuff. it was nice being there and seeing my grandparents. There was an unexpected accident that occured, but praise God that errthang turned out fine. God has truly blessed me by looking out and keeping safe the people whom he knows i love & care for very much. I went to claim jumper for dinner, i didnt think i was going to eat since i had a big lunch. I was wrong i ate again, i saw something on the menu and i was like oh imma get this! I didnt even finish it, the thing i got was alright. Wasnt really what i was expecting. It was funny cuz i asked the lady for a box and she gave it to me. Later on my cousin(from out of state) asked for one too. Well the waitress was messing w/him and shes like,"no im sorry youre juss gonna have to eat the whole thing." Then my cousin got defensive and was like "but you gave him one." haha i was thinking kick back dude it was a joke!!

After dinner i met up w/the gang for mass @ reconciliation @ St. Peter Chanel. It was nice to be cleaned up during reconclilation. The mass felt good too being that my new schedule this semester doesnt really allow me to go to daily mass. So after mass we all went to eat @ jolibess in cerritos. i didnt think i was going to eat once again but i did! i ate chicken and rice, i never knew changing your chicken order could be such a hassle. I had a breast and a drumstick, well i only eat the wings when it comes to chicken so i had to see if i could exchange it.
So much of a hassle cuz then i had to pay extra for the white meat and what not. Antonio chilled w/us tonite, it was great seeing him again. I missed seeing the guy around and his jokes that keep me going! haha

Went to the soratorios after dinner to chill and watch tv. I was playing w/ninni for a while it was fun. Though i am tired now! haha its all good she was having fun and enjoying it. I heard her so my name tonite, more than once too! woooO! that was tight!!! Tomorrow is the growth seminar, another long day...cant wait till mon. im sleeping in. Sorry this entry is kinda boring tonite, well it is, no kinda. haha It was nice to spend valentines w/the people you love most in your life. Though i didnt spend w/juss one special person but w/15 other special people! till tomorrow my friends...

"I gave my heart and soul to you, girl . Now didn't i do it baby? didnt i do it baby?Gave you the love you never knew, girl, oh (Didn't I do it baby, didn't I do it baby?) I've cried so many times and that's no lie.It seems to make you laugh each time I cry. Didn't i do it baby, didnt i do it baby. Didn't i blow your mind this time, didnt i..." Im done...im out God bless! Hope yall had a great puso day!

"A good friend is someone we can count on, as well as being so much more. A friend is someone with whom we can relax and just hang out, have fun and share our innermost thoughts--deep dark secrets, lofty and noble goals, or our hopes, joys, and fears. A good friend allows you a safe space to share your deepest thoughts and needs--without worry of being judged, criticized or made to feel silly for feeling the way you do. Friends cheer each other on, laugh and cry together, and just plain commissrate and listen to each other. That's why friends are friends"

i juss got back from uPRm field trip conference, man im stuffed. On my way home from dropping off kuya i was thinking how well this is gonna be corny...then again im always corny...so brace yourself! anyway i thought how upRm is kinda like the kids on captin planet. We all have a special talent that we bring into the group. For example el huego holds the "spirituality ring" so he calls out "spirituality" and helps better our group when we may be falling. Strider holds the "apologetics ring" so he calls out "apologetics!" haha then we all come together and hold up our rings to have MEga room come out or something. yeah,. yeah thas corny i know but its kinda true well bout each of us bringing a certain talent to teh group. its a "coolnesity" as my brother anthony from carson would say, when all 6 of us are together. Thas another i forgot to add to yesterday entry, being w/them brings a smile to my face. We ate @ molca salsa tonite, i ate too much once again! haha

im sleepy, but the blogger must go on. So let me tell you bout my day. Well i didnt wanna go to class, i was like ehh i dont wanna go to skool. But then jennif told me to go for her cuz it was her birfday. I couldnt say no to jennif on her birfday, skool i went! Praise God cuz ive been finding really good parking spots almost errday this week. Went to class and juss sat there did nothing. Listen to lecture to see whas going on in class. Good thing mon is a holiday. Ive been having that lost in emotion card playing in my head all day. "Hit the beat now, (lost) when im feeling (lost) hit the ceiling (lost) in mootion (lost) i cant reveal it (lost) i wanna be with you (lost) but i found out how (lost) then my heart breaks i can feel the beat now..." hahaha man i love that song and the dreamin one too. beyonce do you remember that one? Its by will to power, "dreamin" i think im going back into my 80's freestlye music phase.

I went to work today, i did a lot of nothing for the first half. browsed the web a little bit, checked out some kids cooking recipes and other stuff. the clerk was telling me how her first marriage 10 years ago, well her husband made her have to have dinner on the table by 6pm. Then errdinenr had to have meat, vegetables and salad. Man thas harsh, i would never make my wife to stuff like that. Geez, my wife aint gonna be no slave in the kitchen, shes gonna be a princess in her own little corner, in her own little chair. Why? cuz i want her ot be whatever she wants to be so that on the wings of her fancy she could fly anywhere and the world will opens arms to her. haha
Today in my class, we made peanut butter fudge. It was really nice and simple, the directions didnt seen as complicated as i thought they would. The kids liked it i didnt taste any though, it looked too rich and swe3t for me. While we were waiting for the fudge to cool down, the kids and i did an craft proj. Well originally i was going to have them make a frame like i did. Then i coudlnt find the frames and some kids already done a frame from yesterday.I ended up finding these "tag people" theyre like decorable paper chain dolls. Thas what they look like paper chain dolls. So thas wha the kids made, they got to decorate it the way they wanted. I couldnt sit and watch them, so i made two of my own. I made boss lady and kuya tag persons! haha i decorated it w/fabric and construction paper. haah it was fun!! i wish i had more time to work on it, so i couldve made them neater.

Went home for a little bit, our realtives from out of state came in @ like 10am this morning. We ate dinner together and then i was off again to SRE. yay! i got to pray the rosary w/another new person today! El huego and i prayed the rosary before class tonite, lifting it up for our class. I think imma make point to do that err tues. and thurs Class went well i think, i went into detail bout the 4 different marks of the church. I defined each one and explained to them their significant meaning to us. Achie really made some good points bout being the true church. Participation was nice, a lot of them were asking questions and stuff like that. I saw denise tonite! i havent seen hurr in forever. We were talking bout our old jobs and stuff like that. Its great how God has a plan in errthang, we juss wait to see unfold right before our eyes. Which is something that happened to both denise and i. So God has a plan for errone and errthang, juss always gotta remind ourselves that.

Strider, el huego, and achie came up w/this theory well you know how we have so many different "cards." We got the emo card, the friendship card, the GOD card, the attack card etc etc. Anyway i said its funny cuz when we throw out these cards @ people its like pokemon or yu gi oh. haha "God card i choose you!" haha or "Emo card attack mode!" Since my God card whiped out your emo card, you only have 400 points left. hahaha thas funny its like picking and choosing the best ones to fit that situation.

I got to visit boss lady and kuya today after SRe. i gave them their dolls, boss lady wants to put them in her scrapbook. Wow my eyes are getting heavy right now. Boss ladys scrap is really, really nice, you should see it next time. She put in a lot of time and effort into the book, thas why its soo nice. Boss layd and kuya are so cute together, God knew they would be perfect for each other. im very grateful to have them as part of my life! When we live together, imma draw a picture of us 3 and our dog charrrrlie and then boss lady will smile and kuya will say "Good job hijo" and then put up the picture i made on the fridge! hahaha Our fridger will have all these pictures i would draw in class. hahaha Then well all cook mac & cheese together and then well go shopping together. Kuya will teach me how to drive stick, while boss lady will teach me how to umm i dont kno gardeN? hahaha When i go to bed, imma have one of those things they have above a babies crib. ohH! a mobile! hahah imma have a solor system mobile hanging above my bed. hahaha Then boss lady will turn on my nite light, so i wont get skurred! hahaha

I think the quote above really describes our uprm bond together. Thas how i totally feel bout them, i can share my innermost thoughts and know i can count on them to be trusted. Theyre reliable friends that are always there to pick me up. They dont judge me or criticize me when i cant retarted or stupid. They laugh w/me, cry w/me, hope w/me, most of all they are there for me. Dependable and trustworty, two valuable traits of my brothers in uprm. Theyre more then juss people i can count on. Where would i be w/o them in my life. Praise God for each and errone of them.

I must go to sleep now before i end up falling alseep typing this blog entry up. Well to show how tired i was, i couldnt even think clearly. haha Anthony was probably thinking, dude this guy cant think straight tonite or something! haha Check it:

FusionBoy3: BIG FISH
FusionBoy3: how art thou brotha
JPFish187: wha up !
JPFish187: im great
FusionBoy3: woohoo
FusionBoy3: good stuffers
JPFish187: bout yourself
JPFish187: how was yoru day
FusionBoy3: i'm chipper
FusionBoy3: it was a blessed day
JPFish187: hjahah
FusionBoy3: kids in confirmation were a treat
JPFish187: i like your vocab
FusionBoy3: i'm all doritoes
JPFish187: thas cool
JPFish187: hahah
FusionBoy3: hehe
JPFish187: my class went well tonite too
FusionBoy3: praise God
FusionBoy3: =)
FusionBoy3: one of my students sang to me hahaha
FusionBoy3: it was sweet
JPFish187: awwww
JPFish187: thas tight
FusionBoy3: hehe
JPFish187: nice entry on your dead journal
JPFish187: ha
FusionBoy3: it was cool
JPFish187: thanks for tagging on my blog
JPFish187: haha
FusionBoy3: i didn't know my kids thought i was cool
FusionBoy3: lol
FusionBoy3: np
JPFish187: haha
FusionBoy3: "dead" journal?
JPFish187: i meant live
JPFish187: haha
JPFish187: my bad
JPFish187: long day
JPFish187: haha
FusionBoy3: lol
FusionBoy3: haha its all good
FusionBoy3: which one hehe
JPFish187: haha live
FusionBoy3: hehe which one was the niec entry
JPFish187: your live journal
JPFish187: haha
FusionBoy3: lol
FusionBoy3: hahah
FusionBoy3: ya...
FusionBoy3: the whole thing?
FusionBoy3: hehe =)
JPFish187: yeah it was nice tough
JPFish187: err toch
JPFish187: haha
FusionBoy3: thanks
JPFish187: err touch
JPFish187: w/the ims convos
FusionBoy3: haha oh yayer
FusionBoy3: u know
FusionBoy3: u had awesome quotes onurs
JPFish187: oh thanks
FusionBoy3: hehe
FusionBoy3: "coolnessity"
JPFish187: haha
JPFish187: right on
JPFish187: wha else did you do todau
FusionBoy3: i ditched class again tho
JPFish187: haha i wanted to do that today too
FusionBoy3: hehe
FusionBoy3: and thats bout it
JPFish187: but then it was my friends birfday she was going to class and she said go to class for me
FusionBoy3: i wrote super jornals
FusionBoy3: i c i c
JPFish187: super journals?
FusionBoy3: hehe i LJed like 7 times today
JPFish187: hahahahaha
JPFish187: wow
JPFish187: you mustve had a lot to say
JPFish187: hahaa
FusionBoy3: hehe
FusionBoy3: kinda sorta
FusionBoy3: how bout u
FusionBoy3: didja do u daily
JPFish187: im in the process of doing mine now...haha i ate too much like 20 min ago
FusionBoy3: lol
FusionBoy3: what was the menu
JPFish187: umm mocla salsa its like albertos but better
JPFish187: i had carne fries
FusionBoy3: oh wow
FusionBoy3: there you go
JPFish187: ah i couldnt event finish half of it
FusionBoy3: hehe train for the team husky triathlon
JPFish187: hahahhaha
JPFish187: actually i think imma join 24 hr fitnes
JPFish187: s
FusionBoy3: coolnessity
FusionBoy3: charisse works for LA fitness
JPFish187: oh yeah she told me bout that
JPFish187: our servant leader works @ ballys fitness
FusionBoy3: ya?
FusionBoy3: maurice?
JPFish187: oh naw
FusionBoy3: lol
JPFish187: hahaha
FusionBoy3: i just said that cuz he's BUFFSKY
FusionBoy3: lol
JPFish187: hahahahaha
JPFish187: buffsky
JPFish187: hahaha
FusionBoy3: "ya, i said it!"
FusionBoy3: hehe
JPFish187: hes tyson buffsky
FusionBoy3: yups
JPFish187: whas your plans for later today
FusionBoy3: haha
FusionBoy3: movies with the fellas!
FusionBoy3: lol
JPFish187: forreal
JPFish187: thas tightr
JPFish187: hahaa
JPFish187: wha you gonna watch
FusionBoy3: hopefully daredevil
JPFish187: oh d0pe!
JPFish187: that looks like a cool movie
JPFish187: i wanna see that too
FusionBoy3: hehe
FusionBoy3: hey bro imma go to bed gnite and GOD BLESS
JPFish187: alright man God bless!

Well since it is valentines day...haha thought i find a lyric that fits the occasion...more less a song! this song goes out to that special girly girl out there! hahah that was corny again! haha oh wait btw boss lady, i think i wanna do 24hr fitness now. forreal cuz its like "now thas fried chicken, curry chicken damn im getting fat..."

"There’s not a star in the sky, that could equal to the sparkle in your eye. This heart is only one way, to let you know jusat how I feel...Will you be my valentine girl, And I gave you my heart forever. Be my valentine girl, And I won’t let you go, no never. All of the flowers that there, could never take the place of being there. Although we only just met, you’re everything to me. Be my valentine Girl, I need you, I want you I want you in my world, valentine..." anyone remember the name of that song and the artist of it? if so let me know and win a prize! hahaha im done...im out God bless

hApPy VaLeNtiNes dAy errone!!!