"Snowflakes are one of nature’s most fragile things, but just look what they can do when they stick together."

I figured the season of surverys is hurr, so ill do a short one. Maybe by doing a short one, errone else will do this short one too.

1. name- ja$on
2. bday - 070582
3. born - mn
4. fav. :

~color - red! haha on top of that black and blue...baby blue to be specific!

~place -besides adoration @ st. dominic savio and being @ the blessed sacrament @ spv. i guess anywhere as long as its fun.

~book - catcher in the rye, tuesdays w/morrie, the hidden power of kindness and who moved my cheese

~website -plenty...www.makeitclap.blogspot.com, www.fredberg.blogspot.com, http://www.angelfire.com/blog/uprmbear/, www.servantsheartspv.com, juss to name a few

5. what did you do last friday - please refer to www.makeitclap.blogspot.com or www.fredberg.blogspot.com for a review of last weekends festivies.

6. what do you want - i got wha you want, i got wha you need. can i get anotha shot, this time im gonna make it hot! i want to get the hell out of cypress thas one thing. haha i want july to hurri up and come so i be 21 and go to all the hot spots and walk around vegas drunk! haha jk bout being drunk! i wanna see the picture of the superfriends come alive(gina knows what i mean) id like certain things to go back to being the way they were. I want mrs. horton to give gina the puzzle box. i want the movie the debut, i want to finsih working on summer programming. I want money, lots and lots of money and i want it right now, i wanna be rich! haha remember that song?

7. what are you going to do this week - well this weekend is hella jam packed. Like how when your pants are too damn tight. Or when you pull teh belt too far back. haha sat. grad parties, nuff said. Sun. mission trip. mon. i get my assitant to boss around @ work. tues. prayer meeting, wed. probably out to lunch w/the wed. lunch gang. i want to take wed. off thurs. who knows? fri. who knows? sat. training in yorba linda for work. sun mass and pentecost picnic!

8. what movies do you reccommend and hate - i love light it up! watch antonine fisher, baby boy haha jk i didnt like daredevil all that much. i dont know what other movies i didnt like

9. what is the stupidest thing you have done for the
opposite sex - refer back to makeitclap entry from i dont know when. juss look for yourself

10. comment to the person who sent this to you :
well i got this a long time from an ol hs friend, so i dont know what to say but move on w/my real entry.

Fred's funny, he imed me tonite w/an 'im sorry?!' haha I found out today while chillin w/ann that she knows this guy i went to hs with. Rj mariano! how crazy is that! oh man well for those who dont know him. He's the guy i went to hs w/and graduated a year before me. He was really popular cuz of his dancing skills. Man if this guy knew all the moves, hahah thas a line from the debut. btw ask jaymee sometimes to do her debut impression, i get a real kick out of it! hahhahahaahahaha So i found out that her and this rj guy are really close friends. WOw what a small world!

It was fun chillin w/ann today, even though it was a short time. She said she wants to play games @ the park sometime. (im sorry?! come again?!) ITs coo how her personality is very outgoign and friendly. THough when i first met her, i wouldnt of thought she was so outgoing. Guess thas why you gotta get to know the person huh. We talked bout suprise birfday parties, ive always wanted a suprise birfday party. (Prayer buddy this has your name all ova it! haha jk.) Anyway, ann is d0pe i love when she chills w/us. ALways has somethign funny to talk bout or to say.

Went to the healing mass and scrc youung adult core meeting tonite. The healing mass was cool, its been a blessing be able to go 2 of them within the past 2 months. Gina and i were a little throw off at the opening song of mass i think it was. Anyway these old ladies who were the music ministry sang, 'I have decided' you knwo that song, 'i have decided to follow JEsus...' Well they sang that fast version which i didnt even know you could sing it fast. Well while were singing some of us were thrown off cuz people were a little off beat w/their clapping. Ha thye werent 'making it clap!' Later on at the end of the meeting, one of the core members wanted to create a 'soccer team' on tues. @ sh. I thought oh why?!! hahah luckily it wasnt going to work out.

i dont understand how my sister can sleep in a hella messy room. With things all over the floor and on her bed. Agh that bugs me i cant sleep in peace like that. I need things ot be organized and clean, im anal like that. My wife cannot be messy and unorganized, shes gotta keep things clean and ran smooth. Otherwise, oh man she's gotta sleep outside or in the garage or something haha jk I dont understand why she got a credit card either, when she hardly makes any money. How do you pay for a credit card when youre working like 10 hrs a week making what minimum wage, which is hmm like $6.75 or something?

So on wed. @ work when people were coming in for commodities, these vietnamese old couple come to me. She asks if im vietnamese or understand it, i said politely, 'no im sorry.' Then she asked what i was and she said i looked 'korean or chinese or something. ' Thas when i said 'okay lady, check it, i am not korean, yes i know i look like one. Ive been told by errone and their brother. Ive been told by my closet friends, and i still get told that. So let me tell you know...i am not korean oKAY!?' i soooo blew up on this lady cuz she pissed me off. haha jk no i didnt say anything like that, though it would make for a better story!


2 graduations down, 2 more to go!

"I have decied to follow Jesus, no turning back, no turning back..."im done, im out God bless!

"Find the seed at the bottom of your heart and bring forth a flower..."

So moms was complaining i was lagging on today's entries. I was i do have to admit that. i was too tired to do it last nite. There was too many random thoughts going on in my head. I figured i;ll blog tomorrow! Then when i woke up i lost all my mental notes, so i said ill do it later. I now remember what i was going to write bout. Or at least some of the things i wanted to write bout. Well this quote says, that throughout life we all go through struggles. The important part is find the inner strength, finding that seed to bloom that flower.

I love my prayer buddy! Why do i love my prayer buddy? let me count the ways. She's hot juss like an oven! haha she's cute like a cuddly little whinnie the pooh bear. She's listens to you juss like how a mother does, and encourages you juss like a friend would do. Prayer buddy picks me up spiritually when i may have fallen and helps me to focus on the real prize. I dont know what i would do w/o my prayer buddy! Im so very blessed ot have her in my life. Ive gotten to know her better too being that were prayer buddies. There are some things money cant buy for errthang else, there;s prayer buddies!

So we went to this protestant bible study last nite. It was the first time i had gone, i didnt get the chance to go the first time. Anyway, originally i was debating whether to go or not cuz i was so tired. BUt praise God that i did go cuz i got a lot out of it. I felt the spirit moving from the very beginning. i was feelin our praise & worship too! Man our music ministry is d0pe! haha Then we had a really good discussion bout fellowship. I think i was told to go cuz well since im fellowship i need to learn more bout it.

I learned the 5 building blocks of fellowship and what each of them mean. Thas something i think imma teach my kids in oct. when sre starts again. There was a question on what block i felt was the greatest strength in for our prayer group. I said mutality, how we are each others strength, how we help pick each other up when we fall. Our bonds w/each other is amazing. We work together and build each other up through the good times and the bad times. That is why servants heart is so beautiful, cuz we each have a big puso which makes the puso in servant even bigger! I dont know if that makes sense but if you dont understand ill tell you in person!

Then we were prayer together at the end while ian;s dad was singing arms of love. I think he was really feelin that song cuz we sang it like 10 million times! Juss like how we sang the nails in your hands 15 million times over in vegas. Its all good though cuz he or she who sings praises God twice. =) i always that to my kids and the teacher next door to me in SRe on thurs. I always hurr him and his kids singing and he asked one time if they get too noisy feel free to close the door. I told him i didnt mind cuz he who sings praises God twice!

While we praying together, we were all holding on to each other. During the mini-praise & worship i had a vision. We were all in this circle and i saw Jesus come in the middle, then went to each person and kissed their foreheads.It was really relaxing and nice, i got a confirmation of an idea i was thinking bout on the way over to mikes house. That nite on the way home i realized my idea was confirmed! Praise God. I met mike T's cousin Mike from seatlle that nite. Really d0pe guy, juss the small time i met him i felt inspired. Ive been meetnig really coo people this past month.

So moms wanted to throw a birfday party for pops, then i told her thas the same day my fam bam was throwing a grad party for my sister and cousin. I suggested that we combine the parties, make it one hella big hardcore backyard boogie oogie oogie! haha Then we can security in the front to passs out bracelts to direct people which party to go to. hahah The party would be from 1230pm to 120am we said. Watch someone comes up to my house, 'umm im hurr for carmens quicinera.' the secrutiy would say, 'uhh two houses down' Then another guy walks up, 'im looing for nicoles debut.' hahaha.

During the party well hurr people cussin, while the people for ops group will be like 'let's sing the nails in your hands!' then the kids from my sisters party will yell back, 'ill give you a nail in the hand, if you dont shut up!' hahaha For the cake well make one huge cake w/pops baby pic along w/my sisters and my cousins. haha then itd be all awkward to sing. Then mom asked what happens if youre like JL and youre hurr for bof parties, then i said youd have to stay in the middle. haha

Next thing theres gun shots from the debut and then errone rushes outside to see wahs going on. Juss like in the movie the debut. Itd be me and some other guy, after the fight is all over and i won. This is what the scene will look like...
The guys follow rose back to the gym, leaving ja$on and *ahem* alone. An awkward moment.

Ja$on: So its, uh , a pretty dangerous area around hurr. May i walk you?

*ahem:* Yeah sure,(they start walking) so youve had quite a nite.

ja$On: YEah. learned how to cha-cha! (i do a quick cha cha step. *ahem* laughs.

*ahem*: I never got a chance to thank you for that drawing. That was really swe3t of you.

Ja$on: Swe3t. i dont want be to be swe3t. swe3t gyys never come to the top

*ahem:* i take that back then. Youre a total jerk

ja$on: Thas better

Ahem: I still cant believe you juss clocked gustos in the jaw like that.

ja$on: I dont know. it felt good at the time.

Ahem: I bet it did. I dont think gutos ever been to a party he didnt ruin.

ja$on: I felt like an idiot. i shouldve juss walked away.

Theyre in front of ahems car, a toyota tercel. ja$ON turns her palm up.

Ja$on: It says hurr youre going to chill w/a d0pe mestizo guy named ja$on oveer the summer.

ahem: Are you sure thats right. I think thas a scar youre reading.

ja$on frowns. Ahem chuckles.

Ahem: i think you need a back rub right about now. YOu looked stressed out.

ja$on: Are you sure your hands are big enough?

Ahem and Ja$on place their hands together.

Ahem: I think it'll do.

Ahem gives him a peck on the cheek. ja$on gives her an 'is that is?' look, pulls her to him and kisses her full on the lips. THye finally move apart. Ja$on smiles at ahem warmly.

Ahem: Ah, yeah, well. Your sister has my, um, phone number. Call me and let me know how youre doing.

ja$on: sure. bye.

and scene!


I love the movie the debut!!!

"That's the way, that;s the way, that's the way, that's the way, that's the way love goes..." im done, im out God bless!

"Do not be suprised at or become preoccupied with each other's failures; rather see and find the good in each other, for each one of us is created in the image of God..."

The person of this quote is saying, do not focus on each others faults. When we do that thas when evil comes in to play. Thas when we let the devil win and hand him over the victory he so craves for. No instead we need to continue to strive to see the good in errone. We are all beautfiul images of God. There is good in errone, though it may be hard to see, look hard to find it.

Are you willing to go deeper into the ocean w/me? I have discovered tonite that my job is while splashing at the top of the ocean, its also to bring people down deeper into the water with me. It's gonna be hard to get people to join me and itll be a lot of work. Basically its one huge risk im taking but yet im so willing to do that.
Its nice staying at the surface level, watching errone play and stuff. But i know i need to bring people with me, to go deeper.

There are many things i dont understand, why certain things have happened to me. For what reason they occurred etc. etc. Though slowly this past year, a lot of the questions have been answered. I know i have a lot of work to do while im hurr on earth still. I know my time isnt up otherwise i wouldve been dead a long time ago. I think God has instructed to me to help educate and take care of his young children. MEaning by teaching SRE, scrc young adult track etc. I will continue to carry out God's work, to spread His message. Im going to fall a lot i know thas fo sure. Yet, when i fall, i will be filled w/joy being able to get back up again. WHy? Cuz i wlll be overjoyed, over love w/God!


Gail digs the daily scrolling marquee messages!

"Have you ever said a prayer and found it answered..."im done, im out God bless!

"There are many people who can do big things, but there are very few people who will do the small things..."

This quote speaks true to people and society today. So often people will go out of their way to do BIG things. Yet those people who do bigs when it comes trying to do the small things that count, they cant seem to do it. Its not the big things that count, but the small things that come from the bottom of your puso. I know many people who go out of their way and do the small things. They do it cuz they want to, not cuz they want recongition or anything, but they do it for love.

Work was coo, i did freaking commodities all day. Ive been standing up bagging and bagging and bagging. I met this swe3t ol lady today. Well i messed up today @ work cuz today was suppose to be the last tues. movie matinee. I forgot and i thought it was last weeks, so i didnt bother to rent the movie. This old lady comes in wanting to watch the movie. Then she asked if she could watch it even though no one was there ni the room. I said yeah, sure id have to go and rent the movie though. She was like oohh no no i thought you had it hurr, she said its okay. She was juss so swe3t and loving about it cuz i told her i made a mistake. Praise God for swe3t old ladies like her, i totally saw Jesus in her.

Then my boss and i had a nice talk after work bout catholic skools and stuff. My boss is a real blessing to have in my workplace. Its so great to have a boss who is catholic and practicing one too. He said one of these days well go during work time and well go to the monastary. HOw tight is that?! Its great how he has raised his son to be a good practicing catholic at such a young age. He told me how i guess the monks carved my boss this statue of the Madonna out of wood. Anyway, for a couple days he would pass by and there would be rose petals by the statue. He was wondering who was putting them there, so he asked his wife and she said no. Then one day he catches his son bringing roses to the statue.

'Hey bud, what you doing?" Then his son said, "oh im juss bringing roses to the Blessed Virgin." Then i guess there was this other time where he saw his son talking outside. No one was outside so my boss was wondering who the heck is he talknig to? So he asks his son, 'hey who you talking to?' HIs son replied, 'I'm talking to St. Francis dad.' Its funny usually his son leads the grace before meals prayer. Well after theyre done he always adds, 'St. Jean of something pray for us,' St. Mary help of Christians pray for us,' then my boss said his newest one is 'St. Francis of assisi pray for us.' Then my boss asked why he added St. Francis, then he said, "cuz thas the skool i will be going to..." awww how cute!

Prayer meeting was d0pe, we were locked out for a while. Then it was totally cool how when we got up there, errone worked together to set up the room. Now thas what i call a community! My jlove lead prayer meeting tonite and her prayers were great! Good job my baby girl! hahaha I got forgiveness out of her prayers, i think thas what her theme for her prayers was. Ray ray and g to izzail came to join us from carson tonite. I need to make an effort to go back up there. I havent been to their prayer meetings in ages. The second half of prayer meeting was funny. Errone had a good praise report to give. If you missed prayer meeting, hurr was mine. "Id like to praise God for a good trip home. It was fun cuz i got to bond w/the velascos and archie on the way up there and on the way back i got to bond w/jeanne and mike and who else was there oh yeah and jl." hahahahahahaha

After prayer meeting during the chillin time, ann showed me how to do a 'proper' cartwheel only i fell. boooo! Then boss lady and i planned out our whole mission trip for sun. in like 10-15 min! Man were so d0pe! hahaha We make a great team, thas why we work so well together! wOOo I got on bended knee and i gave jlove the ring. hahaha Fr. ray wants to meet w/core group on sat. thas gonna be so cool! Then downstairs fr. paul told achie and me that im so holy. haha oh man i cant believe he said that! thas sooo not me! He told achie that when he sees me @ mass he juss says i should do mass instead. hahah oh man! I told father, you got time for a confession? haha

The fellowship @ mcdonalds was a lot of fun! I think the manager of mcdonalds or that one lady likes us. I mean if she didnt, shed be getting mad @ us errtues nite. It was funny, raymond got the whole 'im sorry?!' 'come again?!' joke. hahah thas funny ann totally feels that joke. I like ann, she's totally d0pe and one of those people who you can easily get along with. She reads my blog! woOO! I have to admit, i was a bit sad @ first cuz baby girl wasnt w/us, but then when i saw her walk in, my puso jumped! Ü ahh yes my baby girl makes the skies turn blue. She is the sunshine in my life, the apple of my eye! hhaha

We played the one word song game again! haha thas like our new game that were all feelin right now. It was coo cuz gail and raymond played w/us too. I stayed in for a while until i got out...boooo! Oh yeah i have a couple of sister in laws now too! hahah thas so d0pe! Wow dreams do come true, i guess all that wishing on the star and praying the miracle prayer really helped! haha tonite when we all left my sil jeanne said bye to corn 90210 opening credits style. haha she said that to him too and i was like hey you read my blog! hahaha

Oh i got something on pops! He has to do wha i say or else the whole world soon will know...hahahaha jk pops! mad love going to you, juss like how i gave it to you during prayer meeting tonite. Tonites blog entry is being dedicated to my baby girl, my round the way girl, my jlove! hahahah Okay, im trying to come up w/a creative new nickname for my baby girl. This will be contest, please tag me your respones on what i shoudl call my baby girl. The winner of the best response will receieve a free mcdonalds dinner next tues.

Ten things the Bible teaches me that I keep forgetting:

1. God loves me, no matter what. (Rom. 8:38-39)
2. God is not some impersonal being…He is my Father. (Gal. 4:6)
3. Jesus shows His power through His humility. (Phil. 2:8)
4. Through the Holy Spirit, anything is possible. (Lk. 1:37)
5. We are never alone, God is always with us… (Mt. 28:20)
6. The devil exists and wants to take my eyes off of God. (Rom. 7:21)
7. God will always give us what we NEED. (Ps. 10:17)
8. Prayer works…God can change everything, even our families. (Ps. 32:6)
9. Wisdom is a powerful weapon, one that we can and should pray for. (Jms. 1:5)
10. Heaven is SO worth the wait. (1 Cor. 2:9)


Red is my favorite color, can anyone guess why?

"Your love is one in a million, It goes on and on and on. You give me a really good feeling, all day long..."im done, im out God bless!

"The most wasted of all days is one without laughter..."

I think thas what errone did all weekend was juss laugh. I think i especially laughed w/jeanne and the mexican on the way home. Speaking of mexicans, well i was walking to go pick up my film today by rite aid and i was thinking of something. Its funny, like most of the major ethicities you have one common last name. For example, with hispanics it's usually names like gonzales or perez. Chinese its like le or chang. Ko-re-ans thas a given kim. Indians, no not native americans but indians, usually its patel. For whites its like smith or jones or williams. As for filipinos, well i dont know i think you got a variety. Usually though most are like spanish last names. Anyway, that has nothing to do v2, so let me tell you bout v2,

Firday-Well i woke up @ 10am, and i went to the daycare to get some resource materials for work. From there went to the bp mall looking for last min. stuff. Ran into erica gonzales there, she must be related to mike gonzales. hahah jk Anyway, funny thing i ran into her and turns out she was @ the mall for the same purpose as me. To get last min. stuff for vegas, she informed me she was going to vegas for her 21st birfday w/her man. They were staying @ the sahara for the weekend. It was coo seeing her again, she told me she lost her baby. I dont know what happened, i didnt ask details. ALthough she was sad she said, i guess it was kinda a blessing to her. Cuz now it made her focus on priorities in her life, like skool.

From there i went to mass, the atm and cerritos mall to buy some kicks. I was rushing to get errthang done, good thing i had packed ahead of time. THough i forgot sleeping gear and slippers. I always forget something. Then i had to pack up all the soda that we didnt even end up bringing the whle thing. haha we all had too much stuff as if we were leaving for a whole week or something. Met up @ the mejias around 330pm and didnt leave till like 6pm from there. I was in achie;s car w/the velascos and arch. It was fun on the way over there, we listend to all my cds. We asked questions and ate and ate.

Made a few stops, one @ barstow which was the memorable place @ the mcdonalds parking lot. Thas where i was doing my youf outreach program. Hahaha While trying to fellowship w/other travelers @ the same time. haha ahh yes the memories of v1! hahaha Gave this guy a $1 and some change cuz he said his car got jacked w/his dog in it, and he was trying to get home. I actually believed him for a while until he comes back to me and asks me for more $. I said you already asked me and then he tired to cover by some excuse. Oh well, i guess whatever he does w/the $$ i gave him is between him and God. Turns out he was there anyway when we came back to barstow. Some girl was askin for $$ and was trippin over society. I forgot wha she was saying though.

We finally made it to vegas probably like 11:40 almost 12am. We got to the house unpacked and did our thang. Got some grub @ tacos mexico, i was playing galaga then i met some other guy talking to me bout who knows what. He threw in the ten commandments @ the end, then was asking for $$ to get himself a beer. I boned out on him and went back inside the restaraunt. haha From there it was off to the orleans to start the weekend adventure. Babyvee and i were the only ones who was under 21 from the batch that went to to the orelans. So we went up to the arcade. It was funny, the security stopped us bof and asked for id. I said, 'oh you gotta be 21 to be up hurr?' he told me no, juss over 18, so i said oh well hurr then and threw my id in his face. haha

I got a nice back massage over there while playing arcades. Came back and got all washed up and juss chilled outside till like 4am w/the guys. Good times, good times!

Saturday-We woke up @ like bout 10am. I woke up a little bit earlier to the smell of bacon cooking in the kitchen. I thought it was @ first the mexican making breakfast for errone. I was deceived though, it was the house owners! booo! haha We all got ready for the day and made our way over to fiesta filipino. Ha out of all places to eat for breakfast, we chose a filipino restaraunt i know. haha We ate and did our thang there, thas where we took our first group picture. From there we split into two different groups, the ones who wanted to shop and the ones who wanted to swim.

So it was fred, robby, mike, ann, jumbo, ariel, jason #2 and i who went to go look for someplace to swim. We were gonna go to the venetian cuz thas where ann's aunt works. It was closed though cuz it was rented out for Jlo's private engagement. We then tried to hit up the rio but you needed some kidn of proof you were a guest of the hotel. We all so wanted to swim there too! Finally, we made it to circus, circus where we got to chill in the cool water. It felt nice too cuz it was blazin hot! The swimming was a good work out, i practiced my egg beaters for a while. Later on we were playing tag in the water. Then some lady got mad us and was trippin cuz she was getting splashed on. She said something like this is a public pool. HelLO?!!! dumb lady youre right it is a public pool meaning we can swim wherever we want to. She was telling us to swim somewhere else, she made me mad. The chicken fights were fun up until we got told not to do that by the lifeguard. boooo!

Met up back @ the house to get ready for the rest of the day. We ate @ the rio seafood village, man that was expensive! $34 per person awww heck! Although the food was really good, juss expensive. I couldnt eat to the full expense cuz i was in still feelin the food from lunch time. The gamblers played around for a while @ the rio, while the minors walked around. Ann and i walked around the whole casino. We ran into her other aunt who was staying @ vegas. She took a picture w/this clown that was skurry looking. I was messing w/ann and i said lets go take a picture w/the clown. Next thing i know hurr he comes walking to us asking to take a pic. hahaha talk bout radar ears.

Came back to the house and the guys did our 2nd trial of bonding for the weekend. Some of us were laying down for a while, while others were playing card games like heart-attack and pusoy dos. Then jujue be got this d0pe idea of playing a game. Its called the one-word song game and its tons of fun. Fred and robby played the geetar to the song 'the nails in yoru hands,' then we went around in a circle and you had to sing/say one word of the song. Hurrs the fun catchy part, if you mess up by singing the wrong word or say more then word or juss take too dang long then youre out. The first round reirich won, then it was battle w/him and arch 2nd time around. They bof were the champions the 2nd time around.

Then the girls came out looking hell hot juss like an oven! hahah I think the highlight of that was seeing prayer buddy in a dress! woOoo!!! She aint that girl from the burbs thats estreanged to the drama she that uptown girl with the cotton persona! thas prayer buddy for you! Man Sh girls are the purdy ladies doin their thang! So half of the group went to watch the mysterie show @ treasure island, the other half did their own thang. i had told 'mom' before she left for the show, whos going to watch me, while she was gone. She goes, 'oh thas right your pops isnt hurr and none of you kuys are hurr to watch you. So i guess your cousin JL is gonna have to watch you.' Then she said some other stuff that was juss hella funny.


We went to ny ny in the city of dreams, where we all rode the manhattan express except for jumbo and jl. I was quite surprised the line wasnt jam packed, especially since its a holiday weekend. I guess people arent feelin that ride anymore. I rode w/some random girl on the rollercoaster. It was coo, she was skurred so she asked me to hold her hand during the ride. I was a bit hestitant @ first cuz i dindt even know her, but i thought if it'll make her feel better then mine as well. She told me after the ride was over i made her feel relaxed. That was coo it made my nite. haha the story bout the girl asking me to hold her hand is fake, however it would make for a better story! hahahahaha

After that, we walked like all around the strip since we had time to kill. We went to paris and played some games there. Took a picture in front of the monte carlo waterfall. I asked some cute chick to take our pic for us. It was funny reirich wasnt going to be in the picture @ first cuz he was going to take it using his camera too. Then the chick's friend was like, 'yeah ray, ray get in the picture!' hahahah i thought that was funny. We went to espn zone and well the games were too expensive to play so we left. I saw the infamous 'las vegas blvd' where my homie was shot back in sept of 97. Man i miss that foo, we did errthang together. It was right in front of the mgm where he was hit. I thought he was going to live but he didnt...::sigh:: rest in peace tupac! hahaha even though we werent homies. haha came back @ around 4am and we did the song game w/the girls. THen we moved up to the next level and sang 'shout to the Lord.' We did that until we got too loud and had to sleep.

Sunday-I think sunday was juss the highlight of errthang. I think it had ot be my favorite day out of the whole trip! You''ll learn why in a little bit, so hang on for now! I woke up @ like 945am i coudlnt sleep anymore, i started to get ready for mass. I realized errone might be rushing last min. to use the bafrooms, the early bird gets the worm. Before mass, we all juss kinda chilled and took it easy. I wanted to receive the eucharist, so i went to confession. It was tight, we had our confessional booth, i know it looked a little ghett0, but hey confession is confession right? So robby and i did our 'dual' confession w/roger. He's one d0pe guy, man he gave a lot of good advice to bof of us. Then we made our act of contrition and was able to be cleansed of 'some' of our sins. haha i had to go back for more advice w/jeanne cuz this guy was so damn good! hahahaha thanks roger!

We all went to mass @ 1230pm, were a a little bit late. The church was nice, praise God for a uninversal church! After jeanne and i went lookni for teh blessed sacarment cuz we couldnt see it during mass. We learned that it had its own little chapel on the side of the altar. After mass we went to mandalay bay buffet, thas my favorite buffet to go to. So if youre ever in vegas and you want to know whurrs to eat, thas the place! It was tight, we took our closing cermonies pictures in front of the waterfall @ the exit of the buffet. Aela's car split up and departed for their way home. The other two groups went back to the orleans for some more fun. The minors and jumbo went up the arcade center.

I think thas where most of my $ went to. Fred came up later, him and babyvee like to play those gun games. Where i like to the play the action games. im sorry? come again? hahahaha I was sweating like no other playing the marvel versus capcom 2 game. I kept getting my butt kicked but i kept going back for more. I use the war machine, iron man and ice man combo. Then fred and juju be did the ddr max 2 game, that was funny. I was watching all these filipino kids go all out playing the ddr megamix game. Man those are the hardcore people who got nothing else to do but go to arcades. Juss like the people who keep winning in those action games. haha fred and i saw this kid who was wearing this long sleeve thick sweater as if it was raining or something outside. Then on top of that he had these bangs that were long that went down on each side of his face. Hmm pretty different if you ask me. Fred and i also competited against each other riding the horse game. ah thats an exercise all by itself. That wore my arms out and errthang!

We left @ like 8pm, i rode w/the velascos more then halfway home. Arch and i were serenading w/open the eyes of my puso. The girls in the back were sleeping off and on. I forgot to mention if you get the chance ask achie to give you the full details of her most favorite 2003 moment. ITs a story you gotta listen to! Got to barstow and we took a break, got food and bathroom breaks. I tried to commit suicide jumpin off that ledge but good thing fred saved me! hahahaha no its not real suicie it was a fake, see in the parking lot they had this ledge you can jump off. The fall is juss a grass hill then the sidewalk and then the street. But if you look at it, it looks deep. So i jumped off of it and fred said, 'Do you trust me?!' i said, 'huh?!' he said again, 'do you trust me?!' then i said 'yes, i trust you.' Then 'grab my hand!' he said. hahhah jk that was a line from batman forever. It wasnt that dramatic juss wanted to throw in some more flava to the story. hahaha

From barstow back, we switched people in cars. Jujue be took my spot in the velasco car and i took his in jeanne's car. Well we were listening to this slow jam mix and i was singing as usual. I will always remember that nite cuz thas when JL confessed her love for me. See i was singing and i said, 'you know your love was meant to be, that kind of love that lasts forever.' Then jl interrupted me and said, 'its OUR love ja$on!' oh man i was thrown off, i couldnt believe it! JL was confessin to me that she had feelings for me! My puso jumped and was thumping how thumper was in the movie bambi. hahahahahahaa jeanne and mike were thrown off, they couldn;t believe it either, but they were happy! So with that being said, hurr are some of my new favorites...

Favorite color-Red
Favorite car-Toyota camry
Favorite place to be-barstow
Favorite time of the day-11:20pm

We got back from v2 @ like 1am, we said our closing prayers and departed juss like the way they did in the ol tv show 90210. YOu know the opening credits, then at the end errone slaps hands and leaves. Thas the same way we did it last nite. haha jk i didnt sleep till like 2am, cleaning up my room and puttnig stuff away. It felt nice to sleep in my own bed again. Although the weekend went by hella fast, it feels like only sunday. Well its nice to have a 3 day work week! woOO! now its back to the real world again. I had more fun in v2 then v1 juss cuz of all the exciting things that went one. Well ill be going back in july, the 2nd weekend, so if anyone would like to go and come along to help celebrate my 21st birfday w/me thatd be d0pe!!!!

Turns out the theme for this weekend was catholics gone wild cuz some of SOl was in vegas, some of love of God in oxnard was in vegas and some of St. Lucy;s youf group was in vegas too. hahaha wow prayer groups gone crazy on the reals! haha naw i guess there was some youf group seminar over @ St. Frances De Sales this past weekend. Anyway, i guess thas it for now, check out the v2 pics and memories @ http://www.pbase.com/isdoug/inbox

Picture my scrolling marquee being on a plane being written in the sky, hahaha

Congratulations Robby and Emeline on your engagement! wooo!!!

"Baby don't cry, I hope you got your head up, Even when the road is hard, never give up..."im done, im out God bless!

To vEgAs bAbY, huRR we come!!! Pray for us!

"The harder you fall, the higher you bounce."

Slangustics, ive taken from my vibe magazine that i suscribe to! I love vibe magazine, its off the wall! haha wOO

Pop your collar-To indicate the utmost confidence and poise w/a tug of your neckbad.
"I just flipped it and poppped my collar like the fonz."

Holla-To make an affiermative connection or a pound and a hug show of thug love.
"Holla!/if you real and you know a g/Holla!"

Trill-Streetwise or gangsta
"I turn automobiles to hotels on wheels/i got money for a room its just the fact that im trill."

Badoonka donk(gadonkadonk)-a voluptuos derriere.

Wanksta-A wanna be gangsta

Throwback-Retro; usually refers to a sports jersey that has been reissued after a team stop wearing that particular style.
"Around six in the six with the throwback sixers."

Aggie-Aggravated, annoyed
"Yall know my expenses, i gotta buy a bigger place/and more baggies, why all aggie?

Dog or dawg-an ally or emeny

Crunk-Excited, uninhibted, or rowdy.

Gully-Gangsta from the streets.
"I keep it gully/met hat low/and my tommy/up in the waist."

730-A code/phrase used to describe an emotionally disturbed person. Expression is derived from nyc police department criminal law section 730.
"I get my dogs dirty to do you dirty/they all 730."

Twinkies-Tire rims
"Sittin up on the broadway/livin the life ridin on twinkies/thirty-inch rims spinnin."

Its a wrap-to be finished.
"Change your name to sarah cause its a wrap."

Brolic-Strong, diesel this word derived from the phrase brawl like can also describe someone whose style is thugged out.

Chips-Money
"Some of these kids is doing they own thang but none of these kids stack chips like us."

Buck 50-A razor slash across the face that would need 150 stitches
"Sharp as a buck-fifty/doin my anee and/honey mad cause she cant keep up with me."

Bomb-To decorate an area with a profusion of graffiti.
"Graffiti artists get armed/cans get shook the walls get bombed."

Crackin-Hot, exciting happening, on the track
"We can dance if you want, get it crackin if you like."

Candy Paint-A bright translucent finish on cars.
"My ride be sittin on dem hundred spokes/my candy paint straight from the honey comb."

Man today seemed like forever! Ran a few errands and while doing them, i ran into a old close friend from hs. Turns out she's going to vegas too this weekend, she'll be staying @ the sahara. But her and i were coo friends in hs, she told me she isnt pregnant anymore. I think something happened to the baby or something like that, i hope she didnt get an abortion. I wanted to ask waht happened, but i didnt. Maybe well run into each other in vegas, shes going for her 21st birfday.

SRE was tight, our kids made adobo and brought fried chicken and stuff. Mmmm it was good food! I got to see jay tonite there that was the highlight of the day. He cut his hair! He looks like what he looked like when i first met him last year. I forgot to get achie a gift for being my right hand woman. Who helped teach these kids what they needed to know to help grow in their faith. She was like to me what colin powell is to pres. bush! My 60th year of teaching sre is over now, cant wait to see whas in store for next year!

Many things to do tomorrow, hopefully ill be able to get them all done. Ahh yes adoroation is tomorrow woOO! how d0pe is that! well i must get going for im waking up early for mass. Keep it gangsta! vegas baby, hurr we come!! Ha i think the B&B theory is hitting me! ahhhh Wow i got invited to mary lou's birfday bash, i feel special! haha

Funny story, i got rejected tonite! woOo! so i ordered another pizza from ciros today for my other sre class. Well part of it was in hopes of maybe seeing the girl again. I guess it must be my lucky day cuz she was there again! She rememberd me too! Anyway, so i said i feel bad bout the other day bout not having the .70 cents. She laughed and said oh its coo dont worry bout it. She kinda looks like this girl i was friends w/in hs, but i know its not her. So she asked what the pizza is for and juss small talk. i finally got the courage and i intro. myself and i asked her if itd be coo sometime if we went out so i can make up for the .70 cents. But unfortunately, she has a bf, she was like awww thas swe3t, but i got a bf. I said oh thas coo, and then i juss asked random questions like how long theyve been going out etc. etc. Although once again this story is false, it would make for a better story, thas fo sho! hahahahahaha


I think i do want that prize in the cereal box!

"See, I saw you at the party, With your eyes on me Fittin' the description, Of what I want my bride to be..."im done, im out God bless!

"Each time anyone comes into contact with us, they must become different and better people because of having met us. We must radiate God’s love. We must know that we have been created for greater things, not just to be a number in the world, not just to go for diplomas and degrees, this work and that work. We have been created in order to love and to be loved. Love does not measure. . . it just gives."

This quote kinda fits in w/the one bout giving until it hurts and not expecting anything in return. This quote reminds me of someone i know. Someone who has really done its best to show and be love. This person has given so much of its heart and only continues to give it. This person makes sure that love is being passed around. That eerperson the person comes in contact with, becomes a more loving person. Although, this person has gone through many trials, the person only continues to rise against the tide to become a whole new better person. This person knows that God is asking it to be the gift of love to errrone and the person has folowed what God has asked to radiate love and joy. Because love endures over errthang.

So someone i know is having beef w/her homegirl from around the way. Apparently the homegirl is telling the person i know that she;s changed. That she's become conceited and errthang else that fits in w/that catagory. The homegirl is juss trying ot be the homegirl that she is and letting her know. Ya know, tryin to keep it real! I guess the person i knwo isnt taking it too well. She's in denial thinking that the homegirl is juss assuming things and she hasnt really changed at all. So thas the basic story, the moral of it i think?

Well i think its God teaching the girl humility. Sometimes we may not like to hurr what our friends have to tell us. Especially, when theyre straight out blunt. However, its God;s way of asking you to accept and to try to understand. To be humble about and not take it up the well you know what i mean. I think homegirl did her job as true friend to point something out to the girl. Though i think the girl is in too much self-denial to see that. MAybe in time, she will as time progressess and heals the wounds. To me thas true humility right durr to accept it, thank the homegirl for keepin it real and work on changing.

I dont get it, errrnite im online i get these little bugs that fly around me. Well yeah around my little 'cubicle' @ home, i dont understand where they come from. But errnite i end up like killing them cuz they freaking bug haha get it bug. Okay that was corny, anyway the bugs i get are the small ones theyre small and black. Like black flys, no not the brand black flys but small tiny bugs. Then i get these other ones that are a different shade i dont know what the heck they are. Then errso often i get a moth agH!! i juss saw one of those black bugs. Sometimes theyre too fast for me so i cant catch them. BUt when i do and i get to kill them for bugging me its so exciting! haha

The way fred uses his St. MIchael discernment coin, reminds me of the way two-face in the movie batman forever did. Haha for those who havent seen that movie 'batman forever' which i thought was a really corny title for a movie. Anyway, two-face is criminal who is part harvey and part some ugly thing. See acid got spilt on harvey's face which he ended up blaming of course batman. I think it was during some court trial or something like that. HArvey was a attorney and a good friend of bruce wayne until he became two-face.

So whurr does the coin take place? Well two-face has a this two-sided coin that he uses in err i think i juss called that black bug! wOo As i was saying, two-faces uses his two-sided coin in errdecision he makes. Youre asking, "wait how can he tell what to do fi both sides are the same?" Well one side is regular 'heads' side and the other side is scratched. Its still shows heads but its scratched or scarred or however you want to put it. Each time fred flips that coin, i always think of two-face flipping his coin. haha I should look for a picture of that coin.

I dont understand, I imed bof the mexican and leslie and theyre bof away from their computers cuz they dont respond back. haha Its crazy for the past couple days errtime i check out ja mess' blog it appears mesed up, but then earlier today when i checked it was coo. Then now its back to looking jacked up again. Oh by the way for those who didnt udnerstand my scrolling message(yeah i know it was hard to read.) well the ciros pizza was fake. However, it did make for a better story and i got rattings for it too! haha

It was cool @ work today cuz i learn once i hit my one year anniversary i get some benefits. Like sick leave, holiday pay and that good stuff. Which is really d0pe cuz as of now when i take days off, i dont get paid. Holidays, i dont get paid either so now once i hit my one year, i wont have to worry bout loosing money. I miss working w/lyn² errone @ work misses her and they were all like awww we miss roselynn. St. michael said today that i need to pursue the prize in the cereal box. I have a lot of stuff to do tomorrow and there juss isnt enough time to do them all. Maybe i can see if i get off earlier or something. Anyway, thas it for now, until next time stay gangsta! haha i think thas my new phrase...


Was it not blazin' hot today or wha?!

"Every step I take, every move I make, Every single day, every time I pray, I'll be missing you..." im done, im out God bless!

"My favorite quote is "Life is too short to be little," written by Disraeli. Often we allow ourselves to be upset by small things we should despise and forget. We lose many irreplaceable hours brooding over grievances that, in a year’s time, will be forgotten by us and by everybody. No, let us devote our life to worthwhile actions and feelings, to great thoughts, real affections and enduring undertakings."

I feel so tried now, earlier i was like filled w/energy. Anyway, this quote is something that applies to me. So often i tend to worry bout the smallest things. Ill over analyze them and turn them into mountains, when all reality theyre mole hills. I waste so much putting my energy towards worrying, when i know a year from now it aint all gonna matter no more. I should be putting my time to such things like praying, reading, and what not. The author goes on to conclude with, dont waste your time worrying but put your energy into worthwhile actions.

Work was pretty coo today, my comp. crashed in my office so now theyre gonna get us a new hard drive. Were now looking for another person to fill lyn²'s position, my boss fired this one public works guy who was wroking for us. That guy worked hard yet it was so hard to ask him something. He was always giving attitude and he probably didnt like his job but needed the money. For example there was this one time whurr, i needed to get this ladder. Well the ladder was too big and heavy for me to get so i asked him to get it for me. After i asked him, he goes cant you get it yourself? ha i didnt say anything, i only walked away. haha NOw ewe got some young kid, whos like maybe 17 or 18. He seems real chill, which is good this way itll be easier to ask him to do stuff for me. haha

I found out last week, that this guy who went out w/my best friend for like hmm maybe a little less then a month was trying to pimp my sister online! haha how gay! I dont know how he got her sn or what not but that foo randomly ims her and tries to spit game. Then he asked her for her pic, so she gives him the link to her lj which has a small pic of her. He says, 'cute.' Of course he sends her his and its so corny! hahha talk bout corny! I think he took this pic @ work, he's sitting down leaning back in this chair. He;s dressed up in like a shirt and tie and his hand on his chin. Tyring to bust out w/the gq pose! hahaha He wasl ike have you ever met up w/someone online before, then he wanted her to come visit him @ work sometimes.

i remember when he was going otu w/my best friend, he would get on my nerves. First off when we all went out together as a group he'd always be real clingy on her. On top of that, he always wanted to be w/her, he's a very needy and dependent guy. Then like errtime he talked to her errthang ended w/'huh dear.' oh kill me now i use to think! hahaha jk but forreal this guy must not have a life to be trying to pimp girls online still. Man who does that still? honestly now cmon now, throw me a freakin bone hurr! he's jewish too i guess when he use send out his pic of when he celebrated his bar miztvah. haha Pure comedy oh man!

Well tonite was my last confirmation class until october. Praise God for these kids, weve all learned so much from each other. Pops came in and gave them a talk bout being an xmen. How theyre all gonna get super powers and stuff. hahaa Well he was using the xmen analogy to being christian and growing in your faith. It was a good talk and it fit well w/the whole have strong faith in God theme ive been using. We had so much food tonite, like lumpia, pizza, wha else. Ha pop asked the kids wha xmen they wanted ot be adn one kid said i wanna be jean grey. hahaha That chile that i used w/my lumpia didnt settle too well w/my stomach. ahh the pain! haha I pray that God will continue to guide these kids over the summer and they only to continue to have great faith and love for our Lord.

Prayer meeting was d0pe, we now have a spiritual director guiding our core/community. I found out that, the new priest, Father ray is permanent for the next couple years. He offered his assitance to help us out and share w/his knowledge w/our group. Praise God for an answered prayer! Then we had fr. paul who is also charasmatic, came to check out prayer meeting tonite too. After reading the gospel, he had let fred do the homily. I must say fred's homily was very good! haha lots of good thoughts! I need to start praying for a theme to use when i lead in 2 weeks.

The fellowship at mcdonalds was fun as usual. We played the song game again, which always is exciting to play. Listened to corns story bout how he got pulled over during his prom and how he ate some hardcore expensive restaraunt before prom @ downtown disney. I got into that arcade game artic blast, that games gangsta. Fred gave a funny impression of me in vegas! haha it shall be real in 2 months cuz at that times its all or nothing! So were all pretty much hyped up for vegas baby! Reirich made a list of things to bring and pack for vegas, so ask him to send you the general one so you dont gotta make one haha jk If you can try to go to adoration before we all leave for vegas baby. Who know what kind of friends imma meet on the way to vegas this year! haha

The girl at ciros pizza was cute today, she was filipina too i think. I had to pick up my pizza for class and well the total came up to be $25.70. I felt retarted cuz i was short .70 cents and i didnt have anything else. So i asked her if shed be able to take a $1 off my debit card juss to pay the .70 cents. She was totally coo w/me and was like oh dont worry its okay. I said are you sure and errthang and she said yeah. Then i was like thanks, i owe you, how bout dinner sometime? Then she looked @ me and was like yeah imma have to take you up on that offer. I said yeah my name is ja$on(holding out hand) nice to meet you. Then she said, like wise ja$on, my name is melanie. Then we shook hands and then she was like hurrs my # hit me up when youre free for dinner or a snack. I was like yeah no doubt, no doubt ill make sure ill make use of this #. haha how tight is that huh?!

Well its crazy how you randomly run into people and instantly kinda click w/them. From there you guys end up becoming friends, and as time progresses you end up becoming closer friends. Like ryan, man this guy is probably like one of my other best friends. I admire him for his perseverance and patience w/juss errthang in life. He's taught me a lot bout life and how to handle certain situations in life. Its coo even though hes wha 3 yrs younger then me, he's filled w/much wisdom. Tina is another one of tehse coo kats, juss all our deep convos and how we give each other advice to help keep our heads up.

I took leslie home tonite, ive known that girl gosh ever since she was in like 6th grade. Ive literally watched her grow up to become one beautiful girl. She;s really grown up and matured a lot. Its crazy, i use to be close friends w/her brother and now i talk to leslie more then i talk to her brother. I love it how shes becoming stronger in her faith and juss diggin prayer meeting. Its so hard to get young people like her age into church now a days. Shes d0pe for juss getting to know the whole community and chillin w/us. She wasnt all stuck up or what not w/errone. Leslie rocks! haha

It was coo talking to jeanne again, she gave me a really nice massage tonite too! This chriopractor @ the health fair on sat. told me i have knots in my shoulder areas. I guess thas why its so tense up there and it feels weird when im massaged up in that area. Massages are d0pe! So i have my eyes on a 'prize' in this 'ceral box.' THough im still trying to think whether im feelin' this prize or its something else. THough lately i think ive been feelin' it cuz the thought of the prize comes to mind err so often. Oh well, i guess ill pray bout it.


Even though the above story bout ciros is fake, it would still make for a better story!

"Now Flesh you workin' on a plan from heaven, follow the Lord all 24/7 days, God is who we praise, even though the devil's all up in my face..."im done, im out God bless!

"Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, so that you may be sons of your Father who is in heaven..."

YOu know i realized something today after i got out of mass. God has a lot of work for me to do yet, i dont know exaclty what it is or what he needs me to do. However, i have a feeling of what some of those things are. One of them is to do all that i can to be love and show to love. I realized that if God needs me to do stuff otherwise if that wasnt true, then id be gone already. Why do i think this? well as many of you know already ive had plenty of close encouters. Most of them dealing with me being inside the car. haha Like the time where i almost broke open my head falling back @ work in my chair. Or me almost loosing control of the car and swirving in and out of lanes. Anyway, God has plans for me im juss waiting for his command.

Another thing i thought of today. I remember watchin the Lord of the Rings w/the ol sko²l crew when it first came out. YOu know after all action packed movies, were all hyped bout the movie. Talking bout which characters we are etc. etc. Well i wanted to be legolas cuz he was fast and he was all around d0pe. Then my friends said no and they were messing w/me and said i had to be gimili. AFter that they quoted the famous, "and i will give you my axe!" line. I gotta be honest, i was like whatever when they told me i cuold be gimili. I didnt want to be him cuz of the way he looked and he didnt seem to do much. A year later down the road, its time to pick new characters again but new sets of friends. This time i wanted ot be gandoff, though the part was taken. So i was told i could be gimili. Ha i guess its not a coincidence then...

This quote is an important one yet, probably the hardest thing to follow. To love our enemies and those who persecute us. How are we to love uncondtionally or forgive whole heartedly yet still have anger towards our enemies? We cant do that, we must let go of the anger that eats up inside and let room for love to come in. Every person we come in contact with is a ladder to get to heaven. That includes are enemies, so we must allow room for the spirit to rekindle our hearts w/love so we can get to that next step. So we can climb that next step to become another level closer to getting to heaven. Remember even Jesus was stoned before receiving throne, yet it didnt stop him from loving unconditionally.

I dont know its kinda like how can you say you understand 1 cor 13 yet still feel darkness in yoru heart? It says in corinthians that love doesnt hold grudes nor count the number of wrong doings. Love bears all things, believes in all things and endures all things. Love always wins, no matter what. Open your heart to be healed and cleansed to make brand new. Lets make our hearts one w/the Lord from now on. 'Lord, if my brother sins against me, how often must i forgive him? As many as seven times? Jesus answered, i say to you, not seven times but seventy-seven times.'

Take time out today not to appreciate the wonderful butterflies that are out there, but to acknowledge the beauty of catterpillars also. Meaning, dont give all the pop to the spotlight, but yet recgonize the ones who are in the dark too.


All that we love deeply becomes part of us...

"I will be your champion and you will be mine, I will remember you..."im done, im out God bless!

"There's the people you've known forever. Who like...know you...in this way. That other people can't. Because they've seen you change. They've let you change."

This quote reminds me of sh and my realtionship w/my community. For me it seems like ive known these people forever. Like for a really long time, when in all actuality its only been like a year and a month. Maybe for them too they may feel as if theyve known me forever. Either way its crazy cuz i kinda feel like they know me in a certain way where other people may not understand. In what way you may ask? i dont know its too difficult to really describe, but they juss do. As the quote says, theyve seen me change and the reason why theyve seen me change is cuz theyve let me change. Change and growth is a huge part of who we are. I think this same thing goes for my best friend also. Anyway, thas my two cents for the day, moving right along.

A chapter in the big book of my life in a way closes tonite. Well for now at least, it'll be a while if that chapter becomes reopened again. The ol sko²l crew chilled for the last time tonite, as we had bid tom farewell. Its crazy, those guys i felt like as if ive known them all throughout hs, as if i had gone to hs w/them. These were my friends before i had met sh, and whoa what a difference it was after i joined sh. We all ate @ norms, took pics and talked bout the same ol stuff we always talk about. haah i guess something things will never change. Its d0pe those guys accepted me into their little group right away. They didnt even really know me all that well, but they took me in like a abanonded kid lost in the rain. haha Joey said tonite, that he thinks 2 years from now well all still be friends. HE thought things would change after hs and they didnt cuz all of them were still friends and still keeked it all the time.

So my friend tom leaves to his mission tomorrow and wont be back for two years. Wow that's such a long time, two years its a huge commitment, but praise God cuz its all to help build up God's kingdom. He's going to utah for 3 weeks, then going to hawaii after that. I guess he has two suticases packed up and ready to go. He still needs to go and pick up some more dress shirts. Thas crazy errwhere he goes he has to wear dress clothes like as if hes working. Dress shirt/pants and shoes, eh i dont know if id be able to stand that. Plus theyre not allowed to watch rated 'r' movies. Praise God for being catholic and having freedom to do such things like that. ha Itll be interesting to see what he'll be like when he returns. I pray that he only continues to grow to serve the Lord and that he helps spread God's word wherever he goes. He ran into this one guy i went to hs w/and it turns out the guy i went ot hs is getting ready for his mission too. He's leaving in july and is going to barcelona.

We were all talking tonite at @ norms and were making fun of our friend francis. There's this girl he's feelin that works @ the washignton mutual off of beach and la palma. I need to go there one time w/someone to see what this girl looks like. I think she's filipina too, anyway her names is jessalyn. Francis said she has Jl's eyes or kinda looks like jl or something like that. haha HE called me one day asking if i was sure i didnt know that girl @ the bank. Then kept saying she has jl's eyes and stuff like that. Ha my other friends thought jl was cuter though then the girl @ the bank. haha anyway, so i guess francis went there to go and deposit his check. He went up to her line and then after despositing his check took out $$. Then right after that, he went back into line to go and deposit the $$ back. hahahahaha i thought that was funny, i dont know if it was her line he went back into though, still it was funny.

Something kinda sucks but oh well, i aint gonna worry bout it. Anyway so this guy my sister is going to prom with i guess his blang blang blangin! He's on the swim team and does errthang his mom tells him to do. I guess he offered to pay for her own dress too. dang hardcore!! Their prom is @ the queen mary this sat. nite. He asked her which car shed perfer for him to drive, the truck or the mercedes. hahaha geez all i gotta say is must be nice. I dont know wha my sister told but she says he has nice truck. sheesh he must be hardcore blang! I heard one of her friends is renting out an expedition limo and theyre short on people to ride in there cuz some people backed out. Then she has this other friend who;s bf is gonna rent out a corvette for prom. Too fancy fancy, now a days people arent into juss simple things. Always gotta be hardcore stuff.

I had a d0pe convo w/a d0pe girl who wishes to remain nameless. It was tight cuz we never really had a convo like today. We touched on a lot of different issues like popularity, religon, relationships and more. She was able to understand the butterfly analogy relating to choir shows. Check it:
JPFish187: haha its like this quote
JPFish187: check it
JPFish187: if we are ever to love a butterfly, we must first care for a few caterpillars
girl: expand please..
JPFish187: jumm
JPFish187: well what happens to a butterfly before it becomes a butterfly?
JPFish187: what is it?
giRL: its a caterpillar
JPFish187: exactly
giRL: well what does it have to do w/ the whole choir scenario?
giRL: im confused..
JPFish187: and what doea cateperpillar look like though
girl: its ugly
JPFish187: right
giRL: butterflies are pretty
JPFish187: yes ...so we
giRL: ok.. i think i kno what you're trying to get at
JPFish187: haha tel lme
JPFish187: see if you understand my analogy
giRL: you cant enjoy the people who get the spotlight when you havent taken the time to watch the ones in the dark?
giRL: i dunno..
giRL: am i at least some what correct?
JPFish187: exactly !
JPFish187: good job tina!
JPFish187: hahaha
JPFish187: woooo

I need a new tv, my tv is shot and its old. The past week i havent been able to wathc tv in my room. Well i dont really watch much tv anyway. Speaking of tv, you know what commercial im really feelin? The apple one w/the girl singing the 'ill be there' while listening to her mp3 player. The girl singing totally made the commercial worth watching, juss the d0peness of her voice. Dang for my cousin;s wedding check it they sent out invitations for the wedding last week. INcluded in the inviations were invitations for the wedding shower. Well theyre asking for $$ to give to the couple at their shower. Then on top of that theyre asking for $$ to give to the couple for their honeymoon. So youd be donating $$ to give on top of the wedding gift youd already be getting. Man that's a grip of $$ theyre asking. Their whole wedding thing is weird, and i wont be suprised if theres gonna be drama that week of the wedding. Which would mean...ha nevermind. We'll watch and see what happens! Im mad cuz we cant do stupid fireworks @ bp anymore! booooooooooo! I cant believe that! thas so bushi! i love doing fireworks cuz thas like the way to intro. for my birfday. boooo city of buena park!!!!


Graduations, birfdays and more oh my!

"You and I must make a pact, we must bring salvation back. Where there is love, I’ll be there. I’ll reach out my hand to you, I’ll have faith in all you do. Just call my name and I’ll be there..."im done, im out God bless!

"Your life is the sum of a remainder of an unbalanced equation inherent to the programming of the matrix..."

I saw the matrix reloaded last nite, as im sure errone else did as well. ANd if they didnt see it thurs. or fri. or tonite, then for sure they'll watch it tomorrow. The movie was quite interesting, if you havent seen it yet, stay to watch the previews for part III. The vocab. is really huge in the movie, so there were some words that were too complex for me. haha We watched it @ the krikorian theatres @ the downtown mall. If you go into the christian book store inside the mall, they got coupons there for free popcorn.

So i watched the oa singers tonite, my sisters final choir show. For the most part it was good, i like the last show of the year cuz its the pop show. They sing and dance to all the popular songs people know. There's this one kid who is juss overrated! forreal forreal My sisters group did this earth, wind and fire medley using the songs, 'lets groove tonite,' 'september,'after the love, and 'get away.' It was funny cuz the songs reminded me of fred. haha They did that song by krik franklin, revoultion and that was tight too. I was totally feelin the no more drama one too. The girl who sang 'only hope' had a nice voice. Then they sang Bohemian rhaposdy was quite interesting. I always think of that song as a suicidal song for some reasno or like a depressing song.

At the end, mr. hoshi their choir director sang to the seniors that song friends are friends forever. Then the seniors sang their final song, the graudtion song by vitamin c. That was the same exact song we used for my graduation 3 years ago. In fact i think the song was dedicated to teh class of 2000. They had a emo finale w/slideshow of baby pictures of all the seniors. For some reason my sister has no puso cuz she wasnt crying. haha she said all those peopel were drama queens. haha Geez its hard to believe its gonna be 3 years since i graduated hs. haha i remember i cried at our senior breakfast for some reason. haha Thas when we had our slide show and some good food.

I wonder if those kids think they'll all be friends forever, like theyll always stay friends. I use ot think that too back in hs. ha look it now, i hardly even see or talk to my hs friends. Im curious to see what errone will look like at our 10 year reunion. To see what they made of themselves and what not. I dont think ive really made anything out of myself since hs. Hmm made new friends, learned new things blah blah blah. anyway this entry sucks ha i cant think of anything else to say. Juss recently i added somethign to my bloggin style, can you guess what it is? First one to tag the tagboard w/the answer receives in all expense buffet treat in vegas...haha sike


I have only 14.7% of body fat on me, wow! haha

"You too might be,Overjoyed, over loved, over me..."im done, im out God bless!

"I am the good shepherd. The good shepherd lays down his life for the sheep. He who is a hireling and not a shepherd, whose own the sheep are not, sees the wolf coming and leaves the sheep and flees; and the wolf snatches them and scatters them.He flees because he is a hireling and cares nothing for the sheep.I am the good shepherd; I know my own and my own know me, as the Father knows me and I know the Father; and I lay down my life for the sheep. And I have other sheep, that are not of this fold; I must bring them also, and they will heed my voice. So there shall be one flock, one shepherd. For this reason the Father loves me, because I lay down my life, that I may take it again. No one takes it from me, but I lay it down of my own accord. I have power to lay it down, and I have power to take it again; this charge I have received from my Father."

'After all i've done for you, this is how you treat me?' Ever feel like saying that to somebody after you have been so good to them and they dont return the favor? If you are a parent, a mother, maybe you have more than felt like saying that. Maybe you have actually straight out said something like this:

'From teh time you were born, i lived my life for you. There was not a day went by that i didnt put your needs ahead of mine. I slaved, i sacarficed, i denied myself errday so that you could have not only what you needed but much more. I sat up at night w/you when hyou were sick, i dressed you warm, yo uwere never without more than enough food; i sent you to the finest schools i could afford. And this is how you turn out. I expected mroe from you. I really did. Much more!'

'See these wrinkles in my face, feel how rough my skin is? It's all cuz i neglected myself to take care of you. And this is all the thanks i get for it, this is the result of all my sacrifices. You have not only dissapointed me, you ahve hurt me deeper then you can ever know. YOu might juss as well have cut out my heart.'

Have any of you who are parents ever felt like saying something like that to your children? Or you who are wives or gfs something similiar to your husbands/bfs, or husbands/bfs to wives/gfs. When parents devote their lives to the upbringing of their children and do not get the results they hoped for, when one spouse lives for the other it becomes obvious it is a one-way relationship, when one friend is always carrying the ball that keeps the friendship alive, there can come a time when it takes heroic restraint to keep from saying, 'After all ive done for you, this is how you treat me?' hurrs where im throwin that god card...Do you suppose Jesus has ever been tempted to say that?

Jesus Christ who laid down his life for us, do you suppose he has any expectations of us? I would this so. Besides finding a little gratitude in our hearts i would think he would like to see us shaping up our lives a bit-sort of a long the lines of how he told us to live. I suspect Jesus expects us to do all in our power to stop sinning. What do you think? The Son of God left heaven, became human being, and allowed himself to be treated roughly by the very same people he came to save. And what did they do in return for him? What do we do in return for his life he gave up for us? Do you suppose he was, or still often is tempted to say, 'After all ive done for you, this is how you treat me?' Maybe he;s been tempted, but i dont hurr JEsus saying anything like that.

Have you noticed it? Jesus, in the gospel says he is not complaining that we are reponsible for his death, he is not blaming us for what happened to him. He is not trying to shame us into shaping up our lives because of the great sacrafices he made for us. Jesus is not trying to blackmail us or force us in any way to live his way because of waht he has done for us. Jesus is not saying, "I died for you; now what are you going to do for me?" He simply states:

"I am the good shepherd. The good shepherd lays down his life for the sheep. He who is a hireling and not a shepherd, whose own the sheep are not, sees the wolf coming and leaves the sheep and flees; and the wolf snatches them and scatters them.He flees because he is a hireling and cares nothing for the sheep.I am the good shepherd...for these sheep i wll give my life."

Check it, Jesus is not blaming the sheep for any harm that comes to him from the wolf. Of his own free will he chooses to take the blunt of the wolf's visciousness so that his sheep are spared. And Jesus wants to make that point clear. What he did was a good shepherd, he did of his own free will:
"For this reason the Father loves me, because I lay down my life, that I may take it again. No one takes it from me, but I lay it down of my own accord. I have power to lay it down, and I have power to take it again; this charge I have received from my Father."

Jesus died for us of his own free will. It was the will of his Father, it was his very own personal will that he protect us, his sheep, from the ravagings of the devil by givign himself to the devil in our place. Jesus allowed himself to be scourged, crowned with thorns, and crucified in our place. He lived and died and rose from the dead so that we would not go to hell but be taken into heaven. And when we dont thank him for what he;s done, when we dissapoint him by the way we live, he does not complain and say, "After all ive done for you, this is how you treat me?" No, he goes right along loving us, doing for us, and hoping that someday we will become the saints he knows we can be, that we will accept him and his gifts-and in return become like him.

That we become like Jesus Christ. That is what we all know must happen to errone who wishes to live in heaven. YOu and i are to be what is called, 'other Christs.' We are not only to follow his actions, we are to become like him in goodness of character as much as we possibly can. And one of those likeness is to do for others freely without complaining when they do not meet our expectations.

To be like Christ includes parents living and doing for their children of their own free will, spouses, bf & gf's devoted to one another of their own free will, and friends being real-friends of their own free will even if it is often a one-sided deal, w/o complaints or accusations., without saying, "After all ive done for you, this is how you treat me?" If we wish to be like Christ we are not to hold anyone hostage by the good deeds we do for them. But how so very much we hurt when they dont seem to even notice what we've done for them. Jesus, of all people is familiar with those hurts. Is it possible you and i sometimes hurt him?


The one who kneels to the Lord can stand up to anything.


"...Even Jesus was stoned before receiving the throne..." im done, im out God bless!

"A saint is patient when it's hard to be patient, love when it's hard to be loving..."

So as we all know the lakers lost...its over, its over now move over, its my turn now, its over the games shut down, sorry! (comes from the song kuruput and daz dilliinger)

Man, whoever becomes my wife or gf i guess in the mean time will be dang lucky. I am such a dang good cook! haha talk bout iron chef! woOO haha jk that was a little prideful, but forreal ever since i started to make gourmet dishes @ work, im up there! haha We made this pasta carbaron today, and it looked so good. Can i cook for someone or someone's family? It was quite extravagant, the way it looked after it was done looked d0pe! i have this new fascination w/cooking. So if any yall need ideas for wha to cook or would like me to cook for yall, ha juss let me know. I guess thas why they call me the iron chef, right gail? haha

Work was very hectic and busy all afternoon. First we took a whole city staff picture out in the front lawn. I dont know the exact purpose of it, but it turned out pretty nice. I was stuffing and folding envelopes for our summerfest expo coming in aug. Then our stupid computer in my office broke down. Then i was rushed last min. to make copies of these different program flyers for sat. I still have to pick up a popcorn machine tomorrow and make some more copies of the coloring pages. I have ot work all morning till 1pm on sat. for a health fair. I dont know why they need us there for.

PLayed speed tonite w/babyvee, arch and fred. I started off slow, but then once i got into it, woo i was on a streak! i love playing that game now! i cant wait to play more exciting games in vegas. We also played this song game, where durr was a catagorey then you had to name songs that matched w/the catagorey. That game was tight! haha ariel and his cherry! hahahahahaha though it was hard at times to think of song titles. I wanna play pusoy dos, but no one really knows how to play it.

ive been listening to this for the past week. its d0pe im really feelin' it and the message the lyrics of it, relates so much to many things that are goes now in society. The song is called where is the love and its by the black eyed peas and justin timberlake. If you get the chance download it and listen to words of the song w/your heart. You get the message...

What’s wrong with the world, mama
People livin’ like they ain’t got no mamas
I think the whole world addicted to the drama
Only attracted to things that’ll bring you trauma
Overseas, yeah, we try to stop terrorism
But we still got terrorists here livin’
In the USA, the big CIA
The Bloods and The Crips and the KKK
But if you only have love for your own race
Then you only leave space to discriminate
And to discriminate only generates hate
And when you hate then you’re bound to get irate, yeah
Badness is what you demonstrate
And that’s exactly how a n**** works and operates
N**, you gotta have love just to set it straight
Take control of your mind and meditate
Let your soul gravitate to the love, y’all, y’all

People killin’, people dyin’
Children hurt and you hear them cryin’
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send us some guidance from above
‘Cause people got me, got me questionin’
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love
The love, the love

It just ain’t the same, always unchanged
New days are strange, is the world insane
If love and peace is so strong
Why are there pieces of love that don’t belong
Nations droppin’ bombs
Chemical gasses fillin’ lungs of little ones
With the ongoin’ sufferin’ as the youth die young
So ask yourself is the lovin’ really gone
So I could ask myself really what is goin’ wrong
In this world that we livin’ in people keep on givin’
in
Makin’ wrong decisions, only visions of them dividends
Not respectin’ each other, deny thy brother
A war is goin’ on but the reason’s undercover
The truth is kept secret, it’s swept under the rug
If you never know truth then you never know love
Where’s the love, y’all, come on (I don’t know)
Where’s the truth, y’all, come on (I don’t know)
Where’s the love, y’all

People killin’, people dyin’
Children hurt and you hear them cryin’
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send us some guidance from above
‘Cause people got me, got me questionin’
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love
The love, the love

I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder
As I’m gettin’ older, y’all, people gets colder
Most of us only care about money makin’
Selfishness got us followin’ our own direction
Wrong information always shown by the media
Negative images is the main criteria
Infecting the young minds faster than bacteria
Kids act like what they see in the cinema
Yo’, whatever happened to the values of humanity
Whatever happened to the fairness in equality
Instead in spreading love we spreading animosity
Lack of understanding, leading lives away from unity
That’s the reason why sometimes I’m feelin’ under
That’s the reason why sometimes I’m feelin’ down
There’s no wonder why sometimes I’m feelin’ under
Gotta keep my faith alive to lovers bound

People killin’, people dyin’
Children hurt and you hear them cryin’
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send us some guidance from above
‘Cause people got me, got me questionin’
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)

Some good stuff again...
*When you feel the assaults of passion and anger, then is the time to be silent
as Jesus was silent in the midst of His ignominies and sufferings...

*Nothing restrains anger, curbs pride, heals the wound of malice,
bridles self-indulgence, quenches the passions, checks avarice and
puts unclean thoughts to flight, as does the name of Jesus...

*That man is truly humble who converts humiliation into humility...


"How you want that? Tell me how you want that..."im done, im out God bless!



distance makes the heart grow fonder..

"I am willing to put myself through anything; temporary pain or discomfort means nothing to me as long as I can see that the experience will take me to a new level. I am interested in the unknown, and the only path to the unknown is through breaking barriers, an often painful process."

So next tues. is my last SRE class for the year. Ive had these kids for two years now and wow praise God for the progess weve made. Last year, i felt like i didnt really teach them much. Like it was a lot of messing around and trying to take control of the class. Or, let's go to prayer meeting! haha we did a lot of journal writing, for me to get to know them better. A lot of games and icebreak type of activities. I guess there was a lot of academic stuff going down. haha

This year was quite different, because of the knowledge i learned bout our church i was able to make the year more academic. I think weve came a long way, discussing the importance of going to mass. What is advent or the importance of lent, what it really means. They also asked a lot of questions which is cool. We ddint go to prayer meetnig as much but we did talk briefly bout the charasmatic gifts of the holy spirit. Its d0pe cuz they now know the meaning of the eucharist. How it is the real presence of Jesus and why it is so important to our faith. We talked bout kindness and ways of showing love to brothers and sisters. Wow its so much weve covered w/in the whole timespan we were together.

It will be exciting to watch them to continue to mature and grow in their faith. These young people are going to be the ones who will be replacing me pretty soon. I cant wait till they make their confirmation and for them to go through youf alpha. I think they'll totally dig it and gives them a chance to talk more. Their love for God is amazing, praise God for these kids. I think for now, God has placed me to help try and lead these kids to grow more to love and understand their faith. NExt tues. were having our end of the year potluck, all the kids sign up for something ot bring. One of the kids is bring lumpia again this year like he did last year! wooOo i told one of the kids to bring lechon! hahaha Thatd be crazy if one of them brought the whole thing though. I have a policy for them when it comes to in class potlucks. No food=no eat! haha meaning you dont bring food, you dont eat. Though i was getting heat from some of the kids for not enforcing the amendment. haha

I realized i need to start writing what i do daily in my organizer again. When i use to do that it was totally d0pe, like id write down the smallest details of what happened. It helps me remember certain things that can be important later down the line. I had done it for like a year, then i got lazy and id forget to do it, so i stopped. Now within this past month i realized i need to pick that up again. I guess reirich does the same thing or whatever.

Monday, i had gone out to dinner w/some ol friends of mine. The people i use to chill w/before sh came along. I was quite pissed off earlier that evening though. See the puporse of this dinner was a goodbye dinner to one our friends. He's mormon and leaving to go on his mission trip. So since we wont see him till 2005, id thought id be coo to get together also since we havent in a forever long. Well i sent out the email earlier last week stating the time and the place. i said 730 @ fridays @ the cerritos towne center.

I called up my friend francis to maek sure he was gonna go. He told me that i should change the time to 10pm cuz some of our other friends have a bball game and they wanted to watch it. I said no cuz thas not coo to errone else who planned on going @ 730pm. Besides who knows they might not have otehr things to do. Well we played phone tag calling each back and forth trying to fix things. I guess our friend who were throwing the dinner for wanted to change it @ 10. Ended up i lost the whole arguement, they didnt see it my way. Oh well, as much as i didnt want to go after that i did end up going @ 10. it was coo seeing errone again, even though some epople didnt show up. I heard an interesting convo from my friend joey, bout going downtown. That was kinda like whoa there buddy! haha

It is not a matter of being present withsomeone. It is a matter of being present to someone.

Gina, only you can open the puzzle box, but in time you will be able to. Once the puzzle box is opened, errthang will be revealed to you! Ü

"And if you and i were meant to be, it would show by the end of this song..." im done, im out God bless!


I like you just because...


Hope where are you?!

"You're so smart. YOu think you know everything. Spoiled is what you are!"

So tonite im going to take a little bit of different twist on my blog. If you knew me really well, youd know how i looooooooooooooved that movie, the debut! MOst people didnt like it, for they thought it was corny and lame. Of course it was corny, i juss watched it to learn mroe bout my other half. haha jk naw i thought it was good cuz i was totally feelin joy bisco! wooo i wanted to watch it twice, but i only got to see it once. I was mad cuz we all planned on watching that movie w/my friends. We got there last min and changed it to something else! agh i was so pissed off cuz that was the whole purpose of watchign that movie. On top of that, that was the last week the movie was going ot be playing. AGh! i shouldve juss watched it w/o them, i dont know why i didnt do that.

Thanks to antonio he gave me a script to the movie. So now i can reharse it at work w/my drama class that i teach. haha I gotta throw in a little diversity into to the mix. haha jk i dont reharse it w/them. Fred said he;s gonna get a copy of the video since he use to be good friends w/the director. Besdies that, fred's gonna be on the small movie before the feature presentation. Im praying that errthang will turn out right and fred will get a copy of the video. Oh man, thatd be soooo d0pe! id watch it over and over and over again. My cousin, dante is lucky cuz he got to take a picture w/joy bisco. i remember he got a shirt too that said, 'Filipino. American.' hahahah i wanted a shirt like that!

Anyway, hurr is one of my favorite scenes from the movie. Jennif did a really d0pe job playing the part of annabelle when we reharsed the scene before. haha let me set you up to give you quick flashback or background for those who havent seen the movie.

OH i even got the soundtrack to the movie too, sometimes when im bored i replay my fav scene and listen to it. hahaha jk Anyway, annabelle and ben are kickin' it on the hood of a lowered civic, watching gusto lead rommel and nestor up to the basketball court.

Annabelle:
I remember when we first met, he busted out with all teh moves. HE used to flirt by bragging about his car, like that was gonna make me wanna get with him...(mimicking Augusto)
"I drive a special editiion '96 integra GSR."

Ben:
My friend likes to flirt by comparing hand size.

Annabelle:
OH really? Like how?

Ben points at annabelle's hands.

Ben(cont.):
Wow, you have really small hands!

Ben nudges annabelle to respond and she obliges.

Annabelle:
Wow! really?

Ben:
Yeah look.

Ben places his hands on hers, palm to palm.

Ben:
Then you wait for the perfect moment. Look into the person's eyes and...

Ben clasps hands over annabelle's and she reacts the same.

Annabelle:
That was smooth.

-end scene-

So that was mt favorite scene out of the whole move, man i thought that was d0pe pick up line! haha im sooooooo gonna try that during v2! dont anyone try to stop me either! haha jk I cant wait til v2, i know its gonna be on exciting trip! v1 was d0pe juss the whole bonding experience inside the hotel room. Being able to do whatever and whenever. Or the trip over there that was fun! The 'peace offering' i had made to some 'new' friends. haha or or or how someones walkie talkie convo got intercepted and they were like 'i want you, i need you oh baby, oh baby.' hahahah then i was messing around and i mocked those people and said the same thing back to them. Some people got a little upset cuz i dnot think they knew i was mocking those other people. hah that was funny stuff!

I think i might be going anotehr trip in june perhaps, w/g to izzail and some other important people. They wanna do a whole train ride experience. IM also thinking of joining a laser tag crew, to tag it up you! Then im going to be turning 21 and once i turn 21...oh man its on like no other! im going all out on the reals!!!!! Well its almost 3am and i need to get some rest. Ooh does anyone get the tv guide? like the ones that you buy @ the market? if so can you please let me know, i want something out of there. Thanks!

"Youre the flame that sets my soul on fire, that special girl i pray for every nite. That pretty melody, that plays over and over again in my head cuz i love you..." that song is on the debut soundtrack also! haha im done, im out God bless!


A friendship must always allow room to grow

"Love is patient and trusting; it doesn't hold a grudge when somebody hurts you, and most of all, it endures."

A grandfather was talking to his grandson about how he felt after a tragedy. He said, "I feel as if I have two wolves fighting in my heart. One worlf is the vengeful, angry, violent one. The other wolf is the loving, compassionate one.

The grandson asked him, "Which wolf will win the fight in your heart?"

The grandfather answered, "The one I feed."

"People killin’, people dyin’ Children hurt and you hear them cryin,' Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek. Father, Father, Father help us, send us some guidance from above ‘Cause people got me, got me questionin,' Where is the love..." im done, im out God bless!

"Sow an act and you reap a habit; sow a habit and you reap a character; sow a character and you reap a destiny..."

Our greatest fear is not that we are inadequate,
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.

It is not our light nor our darkness that fightens us,
We ask ourselves, who am i to be brilliant,
Gorgeous, handsome, talented, and fabulous?

Actually, who are you not to be?
YOu are a child of God.

Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothign enlightened about shrinking
So that other people wont feel insecure around you.

We are born to manifest the Glory of God within us.
It is not just in some, it is in everyone.

As, we let our light shine, we consciously give
Other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our fear,
Our presence automatically liberates others.

Some more good stuff...
The great and
wonderful things we expect to gain
from a friendship
point up the great and
wonderful things
we must bring to a friendship.

Somehow friends always
continue to live with us
in us and through us.


I walked one morning with a friend and wished the day would never end...

"Not respectin’ each other, deny thy brother, A war is goin’ on but the reason’s undercover. The truth is kept secret, it’s swept under the rug. If you never know truth then you never know love..."im done, im out God bless!

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"Friendship is a golden chain made stonger with each year. Each link is forged of memories that make you still more dear. The thoughtful things you say and do become the links of gold, that i will treasure through the years and in my heart will hold..."

Talk bout long last friendship, i think my grandparents are a wonderful example of this quote. This picture was taken juss this year, pretty d0pe huh? I think ive said this before a while back ago, but my grandpa is 96. He will be turning 97 in september. He has a brother who lives in LA and he's 99 right now and is still healthly. Let's see my grandpa still cooks, walks around the house, goes to mass errsunday and plants. haha He also fought in wwii i forgot as what though. Also he use to work at a restaraunt in laguna beach forever long ago, he was the chef.

My grandma is like 80 something, i cant remember the exact number right now. Juss like my grandfather, she's still healthy. She's gone through errthang, giving birf to 10 kids(2 of them which were twins died at birf.), raising them all well to carry on their own families, she's had breast cancer. My grandma cooks, cleans the house, still maganages to get to places, gardens, plays cards etc. Dang, she's does a grip! wooo but thas why she's oh so d0pe!

My grandparents are the greatest, theyve got 8 kids, 24 grandchildren, 5 great-grandchildren w/one more on its way. Theyve been married for 55 years and truly know the meaning of love. They are to me what 1 cor 13:1-13 says, their love for each other is unconditional. I praise God each adn errday that i get to see them and spend time w/them. ITs coo to know also that they dont live far and only around the corner. God has truly blessed my family and only continues to bless it more and more each day. He has kept the heart of my family strong and has guided it through all kinds of struggles. Its true, loves bears all things, believes in all things, hopes all things edures all things...Love never fails.

Friendship is
a happy thing.
It makes us
laugh.
it makes us
sing.
It makes us
sad.
It makes us
cry.
It makes us
seek
the reasons why.
It makes us
take.
It makes us give.
Above all else
it makes us
LOVE.

"You'd be like heaven to touch. I wanna hold you so much. At long last love has arrived. And I thank God I'm alive. You're just too good to be true. Can't take my eyes off of you..."im done, im out God bless!



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