"Humility must accompany all our actions, must be with us everywhere; for as soon as we glory in our good works they are of no further value to our advancement in virtue..."
-- St. Augustine

God grant me Serenity to accept the things i cannot change...Courage to change the things i can and Wisdom to know the difference...

I am: okay at this point
i think: i should go to sleep soon
i want: certain things implemented
i have: a long day tomorrow
i hate: when things get messed up
i miss: ju ju be!
i fear: nothing for the Lord is at my side
i feel: a bit frustrated
i hear: the clock tick and the noise of the computer
i smell: the scent of my smelly feet! haha
i crave: nothing at this moment im quite content
i wonder: how many people will come on fri
i regret: not getting that girls # yesterday @ uci! darn it! haha jk
i love: burr passion! haha yah right
i care: like a curr burr
i always: talk to burr eerr morning
i am not: hungry right now
i believe: that children are the future teach them well and let them lead the way
i dance: all the time
i sing: errwhurr and anywhurr
i cry: i dont im not emo haha jk when im sad
i laugh: way too much
i smile: or try to all the time
i do not always: speak my mind
i fight: the devil with prayer
i write: emails and blogs
i confuse: many people
i listen: to kost 103.5 before i sleep or 105.1
i win: yess! isda-1 burr-0
i lose: boooo! burr-1 isda-0 haha
i never: been to my cousins new place yet
i am scared: of
i need: hmmm *********************** whoa thas a forever long name! haha jk
i am happy about: sre starting tomorrow yay!
i expect: thing that i cannot change
i should: go to bed now

My schedule for the week:
Monday: Skool till 130/work till 6/mass till 715pm/dinner w/jeanne till 9/homework/online till whenever
Tuesday: Skool till 12/mass till 1240pm/work till 6/SRE @ 7pm/SH @ 840/Stanton hall tour till 10/homework/online till whenever
Wednesday: Skool till 130/work till 6/mass till 715/yfc till 1030/homework/online till whenever
Thursday: Skool till 12/mass till 1240pm/work till 6/SRE @ 7/adoration @ st. dominic savio till whenever/online/hw till whenever
Friday: Mass/SH cafe set up/SH cafe yay!/SH cafe clean up
Satuday: Wedding @ SpV/Reception @ marriott
Sunday: Mass till 1030am/


Ode to a busy week!

"My soul exults because with You i have nothing to fear..."im done, im out God bless!

"The cross is the way of hope..."

Man what a long busy day once again. Then again what day of the week isnt busy for me? Especially now that SRE is back in session, i really need to make sure i get enough rest. I need to remind myself to take it easy and to give my body time to rest. I thought i was starting to get sick after that long nite being in the cold w/allergies on thurs. Apparently, i didnt get sick praise God! Boss lady's big boss told me about the guy who stanton hired as their new youf outreach coordinatory. He was telling me how the guy was juss wearing himself down, doing too many things @ one time. I thought whoa that sounds juss like me at times. So if it seems like i look tired or im wearing myself thin, please remind me to get rest and take it easy. THanks! ?

I woke up really tired for mass this morning, i thought the long hot shower would help but i was still tired after that. We had this bishop from nigeria celebrate mass this morning. At times it was hard to understand him cuz of his accent. He talked bout being a baptised christian is living the life Christ did. Then he said to check yourself and see if YOURE living the way of Christ. The bishop said something really good bout temptations and the devil. He said dont dialouge w/the devil cuz it will only lead you to sin and fall into temptation. When you fall into temptation, and you listen to the devil, youre letting Christ loose. That was something that stuck out to me.

Went to ihop w/the fam bam tribe and we were waiting to get our table. I saw the coupons my mom was holding turns out the 'buy 1 meal, get one free' kinda deal was only good during the week days. We ended up leaving and going to hometown buffet instead! haha Dont go to hometown in the late morning like after 10am. It ends up being really crowded and instead of getting the, 'please seat yourself sign.' you ahve to get the 'please wait to be seated.' Anyway hometowns still has good stuff to eat! yum!

Came home and rested my body for a while, being that i knew i was going to be traveling later on that afternoon. I asked the souls in purgatory to wake me up @ 2pm and they did well a little after 2pm. I woke up really tired still and wanting to go back to sleep. I pushed myself to get up and then went to spv for music ministry practice. Took aela and achie to work to check out the hall and kitchen. So they have an idea of what the place looks like and the kitchen area as well.

Rushed over to uci for the kick off mass in the plaza. I thought i was going to be late, but i got there juss in time. Great mass!! Auxiliary Bishop Dominic Luong celebrated mass along w/ Chaplin Fr. Pat. Each of the 5 Catholic communities inside uci helped put togeher the mass. They had the different flag representing each of the different countries. Actually it was like a international mass. THey had vietnamese dancing, taglog songs, korean readings, and mixed languages of the prayers of the faithful. All the ethnic groups wore their ethnic clothing. The bishop had a great homily. Talking bout never forgetting your roots and spreading the message everywhere you go.

Big ups for Mark anthony in puttign together the whole mass. Dang that guy is hardcore, not only is he in charge of YFC irvine. He's also the president of the Catholic Community @ uci. He overseas all 5 of the different catholic groups on campus. Praise God that he's so open to let God use him wherever he is needed. It was cute, his whole family was there at mass. They had special seats too under a canopy. After mass was a bbq, they had hamburgers and chips and potatoe salad. I guess the hamburgers were donated by carl's jr.

Im starting to get to know more people at uci now. Well the people involved w/the catholic community that is. Today some guy asked if i go to uci cuz he sees me a lot over there. I was like umm no haha Mark anthony's mom asked the same thing, if i go to uci. This other guy from Love of God, oxnard remembered me and asked if i went to uci also. He then asked if i remembered him, i said honestly no sorry. I felt bad, but i wasnt bout to lie and say oh yeah i know you. haha I stayed at the end to help clean up, i thought id lend a helping hand. It was actually fun watching errone work together to help clean up. There was lots of food left over. I finally left @ 815 pm cuz i was exhausted myself. Came home @ 830pm and put together the final last min. touches for SH cafe. im so excited for it to come! I hope this week goes by fast!


Countdown till SH Cafe...5 more days

"In this moment, may my heart be true, in this moment, may my eyes see you. May my life be a reflection of the light of your perfection..."im done, im out God bless!

"God enters by a private door into every individual..."

Well im not going to write a real long entry tonite, im too tired to do that. A couple of quick interesting things happened. Charisse and i are in the process of forming the United Nations of prayer communities. A quartely type meeting to get together and perhaps plan for the PRayer COmmunities "Summer Games of 2004." A olympic type of fellowship event, 2 days of different games like wheelbarrow races, three legged race etc. The purpose of the games would be for people to get to know other people from other communities. I mean cmon now how often is it that communities come together to praise God and fellowship together? The only time is the annual SOL youf rally. Charisse and i were talking bout the importance of working together as prayer communities to help build up the kingdom of GOd hurr on earf. So on fri. shes going to talk to nick from SOL and then from there start the works of the United Nations of prayer communities.

I was able to go to Love and Faith tonite, my own home away from home. Went to mass and their music ministry performed. All i gotta say is they got tight vokals. Especially anthoneezy and gaileezy. Hurring them sang totally felt as if i was surrouned by the Holy ANgles. As if they were singing right there. No wonder that communtiy has music min. practice errweek. ANthony sang 'Above All' and gail sang 'BReathe.' I cant wait for them to sing on fri! im so hyped up! I think if theres one community SH is close its gotta be LF. We support each other! yay!

I have a new featured singer on my vmail, so next time you hurr it tell me wha you think. There was traffic on my way home cuz they blocked off 4 lanes on the bellflower/downey exit. So you had all these cars merging into one lane. Then on the way home right after the valleyview exit, there was a car on fire. Literally it was burning up as i drove by it. I pray that whoevers car it was is okay. Anthony is copying and pasting all his lj entries to word cuz hes moved blog links. Hes got 428 pages so far and hes only on november 2002...sheesh! good thing i got a blog book! After prayer meeting we all went to this place called wingstop. They make all kinds of differnt flava chicken wings.

I had a truly one of a kind ghett0 experience tonite. Well after we got the orderd chicken wings, we had to find a place to eat it. The store was closing and errthang else in the surrounding area was closed. We didnt have a house to go and chill cuz it was already too late. So greg was holding the greasy brown bag of chicken wings as we finally agreed to chill outside. We all go around the corner where the empty starbucks tables were, opened up the bag of cihicken wings and grubbed down. It was like pigs jumping in all at one time to eat. haha it was funny. The onyl thing they all forgot to get something ot drink. So im sure they were juss dying of thrist. Bigs up goes to my brotha raymond for saving me from being killed doing the 'bloods tap dance.' haha Im telling ya those carson peeps take care of their peoples. They as anthony says, 'Shepherd the flock." haha

Top Ten things i loved bout today:
1. Talking to Jesus in front of the blessed sacrament @ St. Philomena
2. Hanging out and messing around w/Lfers & Gail singing on my vmail
3. Being able to go to Lf prayer meeting that was forever long!
4. Listening to LF's music min. break it down
5. GOing to mass @ St. Philomena
6. Getting 80% of the SH cafe stuff done
7. Reflecting @ the beach bout God's greatness
8. Being at the beach w/coo people
9. Getting some extra rest
10. Having my own car back!


That one outkast video w/the andres all over the place is crazy!

"Alright now fellahs / alright now fellahs / what's cooler than being cool? [ice cold!] / alright / alright / alright / alright / alright / alright..."im done, im out GOd bless!

"We are not human beings on a spiritual journey. We are spiritual beings on a human journey..."

I made a quick brief entry yesterday describing how well boss lady's event went last nite. You know what was funny, well boss lady's big boss so that would make him big boss man since he's the director. So anyway he was looking in the box to see what treats he was gonna take home. Well he was taking forever to pick them. Its not like they were 100 different ones to choose from either. Well on the way back to dropping them off @ the senior center, the burr was said to me, "You know when that guy the director was picking out the box i was thinking 'agh hurry up' youre taking forever!" hahaha i started to laugh and i told him that was exactly the same thing i was thinking in my head at the time! oh man well i guess as the saying goes, "great minds think alike!"

I had boughten my director. my boss pandesal rolls yesterday on my way to work. He told me the other day when teh city had golidlocks for lunch how he loves the rolls. Agh i had to do my politics and bought him pandesal. haha i was able to leave work early yesterday! yay! haha
Not much really happened at work yesterday. Actually, the kids and i made chicken alfredo w/angel hurr noodles. It was the best! Included w/the chicken i added spinach and mushrooms mixed in w/parmesan cheese. One day i want to pretend to do my own cooking show @ work w/the kids.

I dont know if you ever watched on the food network that show 'emeril live.' Well he has this expression when he drops in the spices. He goes 'BAM!' real loud. For example he'll say i think its time we bring it up a notch and then he throws down the spice while yelling, 'BAM!' For me when i do my show and its time to drop in the spices, imma yell 'AGH!" hahaha then the kids along w/the crowd well yell 'AGH!' w/me! hahahaha I think its time we bring it up a notch, hurr we go 'AGH!' hahaha

One of the parents was telling me she had surgery a while back during ther summer. Well i guess that morning before surgery she wasnt able to go to mass. She had missed mass, shee was so upset cuz she wantes to receive Jesus right before surgery. Well she went to the rectory inside the hospital and the i guess they said there were no priest around at that time. While talking to the rectory secretary, out comes a priest. The lady was so excited so she told the priest she had missed mass but really wanted to receive Jesus before going into surgery. The lady told me that her and the priest went into the chapel said a little prayer and then he gave her communion. After she received communion she felt so at peace. The surgery ended up going well after that. Praise God for such strong faith. It was really something i needed to hurr.

She brought me the 'pieta' book, its a small book with novena prayers and other prayers. Shes really nice lady, errtime she drops by she asks to pray for her. Its such a blessing to openly talk bout my faith and shurr it w/others i work with. Especially the parents who have their children participate in my programs. When were inside the kitchen, one of the kids told that lady;s daughter she couldnt cook cuz it was already too late. The little girl told the mom, and the mom said, 'Dont worry what they say, theyre not in charge. Mr. Ja$on will protect you, he's your guardian angel.' When i heard that i was like awww, it really meant a lot and it felt good inside.

Those are juss small friendly reminders i think that God makes aware to me. Like he juss renforces to me that He put me whurr im at for many reasons. So praise God for having a really good iob. A job that produces good fruits to the community. Im treated so well over there, that i dont think i could possibly go anywhurr else. I guess you could say the city spoils me. Have my own office, my own classroom, i help make admin. decisions etc. etc. The job also humbles me a lot of times also. IT truly is a blessing working durr.

YOu knwo what sucks well i had bad allergies last nite. When my allergies act up i feel like crap. Many times i wanted to sneeze but it wouldnt come out. I could feel it but it wasnt able to sneeze. I feel ike what superman feels when he gets next to kyrptonite haha. ANywya the only thing that really clears it up is clairtan. Well we use to have a prescription but we ran out. So i was stuck rubbing my nose all nite at kojis. By the way, thanks mizike for the drinks and the sushi! So today i went to go see if i could fill the prescription well they couldnt since the drug is now over the counter type. I buy the package which was like $6 and when i opened it, there was only 5 pills! agh! i was like this is dumb why didnt they juss make it 6 pills why is uneven for?! That was a total rip off! i couldnt believe there was only 5 pills in there and i paid $6 for it! agh!!!

Went to mass @ spv my last real trip w/the neon since i knew my curr was supposedly gonna get finished today. I love when fr. paul serves mass, hes like one of my favorite priests. He's always there to listen. He always says hi and hugs me when he sees me. Really d0pe priest, and juss the way he does mass. How he holds up the eucharist for a while and the blood. Then the songs he adds to the mass. Today in his homily he was talking bout we should ask ourselves, Who is Jesus to me?

In todays gospel Jesus asked his apostles who people said He was. Again he asked them who do people say He is? So who is Jesus to us? Is he a magican? is He juss a good man? Is he a healer? Is he a problem solver? Jesus tells us that basically His mission was to serve to the people. To give his life on that tree on calvary so all humanity may live. So we could all live and be free from sin. Fr. said in todays gospel Jesus is personally asking us, 'Who am i to you!?" 'What do I want from Jesus? Fr. then said that Christanity is to giving ourselves to others. Christanity isnt about being living a comfortable or safe life. Christanity is being as Christ did. So when you get the chance ask yourself and reflect 'Who is Jesus to you? and wha do you want from Him?"

Yesterday Fr. brennan talked bout faith. How in the gospel King Herrod was hurring things bout Jesus and became anxious to see who this guy was. Well were all trying to see Jesus right? In faith we believe we see Jesus-but where? We see Jesus on a cross on one dark afternoon on calvary. Yes, we may see JEsus in other people who inspire us. Most of all, we see Jesus during the breaking of the bread. We see Jesus when that piece of bread and that cup of whine becomes the flesh, the soul and divinity of our Lord Jesus Christ. Its so amazing how we can see Jesus errday, whenever we wanted to. Each day we are invited to partake in the breaking of the bread. IN receiving Jesus and become one with Him. Wha more could you ask for?

Man bible diary's help out a lot! I gotta give it up to my yfc friend, krystal fama for intro. me to the bible diary concept. I like how it has lines to either use it as a prayer journal or to write down thoughts or good notes from a homily. I bring mine to mass errday to write down what the homily is about. Often times when homilies are really good, i tend to forget at the end of mass what the whole thing was about. Id only remember parts of it and even then the thoughts are incomplete. So bible diarys help you remember and reflect what the gospel was about. yay for bible diarys.

I finally got my curr back today! oh man oh man after weeks and weeks of using that stupid neon i have my curr back. The damage was $6100 something, they repaired the front and back bumpers. Fixed the trunk part and gave it a paint job. So pretty much the curr looks almost brand new. As i drove it to the furr it was weird. I felt lower and it took me a while to get use to errthang again. Though im so happy its back! I missed having a cd player in teh curr and its too much of a hassles to do the cd adaptor thing. Even though i had it in the neon, most of the time i juss used the radio. Man it feels good to have my civic back.

Went to the spv furr w/fred, errone was durr. The soratorios, reirich, mike, the burr and me! It was fun, the placed was jam packed as it is erryear. YOu had the teens hanging out in the parking lot area in between the gates and the rides. They all juss chill durr and do whatvers. There was this one hot girl durr, but i think she had a bf. Saw many people i knew, the usuals.
Took leilani on a couple of rides, i wanted to go but they woudlnt let me. Ill never forget the time when my aol best friend and i went 2 yurrs ago. We played the ring toss game, whurr you throw it over to the win the soda. Well i gave her $ and she got it around the bottle. Then people yelled out, 'weiiiiiiner' haha it was funny.

Us guys marketed that one ladder game. Whurr you had to climb up the ladder without falling. We attracted crowd as we made the football team try the game over and over again. IN fact the girl gave us 3 free games as we helped her market. Once you go up and you fall down it makes you want to go right back up and try again. Errone got close but never ended up winning. We were there for at least the last half hour of the furr. It was fun, good times good times. I was telling fred and banne bout the gravitron ride. Say i went on the ride and i threw up as the ride was spinning, then it would get on errones face. Theyd say 'ewwww thas gross!' then id say 'agh no lift it up, youre in church grounds.' hahaha Fun stuff!

I was watching dismissed tonite and the guy took the girl to a zoo. I think it was like bush gardens or something. At first i thought why would you want to take a girl to the zoo on the first date? Then the more i thought bout it, i was like oh i guess. The zoo is real chill, kick back, a place to get to know someone and show them a good time. A lot different then juss going to eat a restaraunt and watch a movie. The part i thought was dumb was the guy had the zoo staff put the huge snake over her shoulders. I wouldnt do that ha youre gonna end up skurring the girl.

The otehr guy took the girl to i guess this club/restaraunt type joint. Though when he used the time out currd it backfired on him. The girl was saying when shes talking shes like it when people are interested in the conversation. YOu know pay attention to wha she was saying. Turns out the guy wasnt really paying attention. It looked like he wasnt really listening to wha she was saying. So during the dismissal thas when the girl told him that she learned during the 'time out' that it didnt seem like he was paying attention to her. With that he got dismissed and the zoo guy won.


Whurr would you take someone one a first date?

"When i saw you across the room, i felt my heart go boom, boom, boom..."im done, im out God bless!

"Where there is no vision, people perish..."

So this short entry that im going to try to push before the 12am deadline. I need to make sure that i have at least one entry per day. YEs, i am anal like that, i think ive became more anal once i met the burr! Oh man hes the king of analness if thas even a word. haha THe burr is hardcore punctual and hardcore anal too. hahaha Anyway, i didnt to SOl last nite cuz well i didnt want to drive durr bymyself #1 and #2 that stupid neon eats up a lot of gas. As a result of me not going to SOL, i decided to spend the evening at the "Volunteers In Action" awards ceremony at the City of La Mirada performance arts theatre.

So why do i have a picture of Senator Hillary Rodham Clinton? Well i put that up cuz Boss lady aka emeline reminds me of her! Yay! Boss lady put together and coordinated the whole VIA ceremony. It was like putting together the academy awards you know?! IT was a huge awards show honoring the many volunteers who help make the City of La Mirada special. The picture above looked like boss lady last nite, doing them politics. haha Boss lady and hillary in a way have the same kind of hmm traits/characteristics. A people type person, who puts themselves out durr in the crowd.

THeyre humble and dont curr bout getting the praise/glory. Theyre juss out to get the job done, and make the people happy. For those who dont know boss lady, is the community services coorinator and runs the whole senior center building at La Mirada. Thas crazy to run a whole building and watch over staff as well as do your admin. work and put together city-wide community events thas like whoa! It takes someone with a lot of charisma and strong to step up to the many difficult challenges that comes w/the job. Im sure the seniors enjoy wha boss lady does for them.

At the end of the show the mayor gave boss lady big ups for doing such a d0pe iob. For putting in a tremendous amount of work and effort into making one evening special. I saw boss lady mingle in w/the people. Some seniors, some city staff and others volunteers. I was juss so impressed and proud of boss lady that all i could think of or say was yay! haha well i said good job also. I could see boss lady as a politician one day haha maybe she'll be senator soratorio-moya one day in congress. Then i can help campaign and endorse boss lady and ill have people look at my ol blog entry to show them why they need to elect boss lady! haha

So fridays entry is a special tribute to boss lady! yay!!





Congrats boss lady on a job well done!

"I promise you, for you i will..."im done, im out God bless!

"Keep the vision deep in your hearts until it moves you to act. Believe it, Live it and Leave it..."

First off check these equations out...
JPFish187: god card +attitude =Gail
DaYsL33pR: no sense of humor + fish = jason fish

Gail has been telling me shes been in search for a good catholic man of steel. I had told her the other day to look no futher for it is right in front of her. She still has flashbacks of when her and i went to SOL winter formal. It was like a hs dance, she was alone, she was feelin rather low, she needed someone to lift her spirits up. So i dropped in on a dance juss to take a glance and there was this lovely thing, she was more than enough. I asked Gail for her hand said would you like to dance? So pleased that i had asked that she quickly took my hand and we danced and fell in love at a winter formal. hahaha

Gail told me that was like on the daydreams she had today. While we were dancing she said, 'Oh jason, i dont want this nite to ever end.' hahaha all i can say is whoa gaiL!


Adoration is juss the best!

"PLay another slow jam this time make it sweet, on a slow jam for my baby and me..."im done, im out GOd bless!

"Fill yourselves first, and then only will you be able to give to others." - St. Augustine

I dont have any real pics to post tonite. Ive pretty much used up all the pictures ive taken within the past couple weeks. So until i get some more then its going back to plain blog. I like this quote cuz its something that i constantly have to remind myself. Its the same message, God tends to tell me through others also. Im the type of person who always likes to help someone out. I do my best to serve to my brothers and sisters needs. Whether its something small or something big, i do my best to make myself available. To me i see myself as a pretty reliable/responsible person.

Speaking of that the otehr day in my interpersonal comm. class we had to look at our classmates and think what flower, car, food, color and pet they would be. I was told id be a honda, only cuz hondas are reliable. So my point is, often times i get drained out serving, yet i continue to do it anwyay. St. AUgustine makes a statment saying we must be able to help ourselves first, in order ot help others. If were not spiritually/physically/emotionally in tact w/.ourselves how do you expect to give to others? I guess the lesson for today is, make sure youre okay w/yourself first before you try to help someone else.

LASt nite was juss d0peness, i was able to party w/Jesus again, but this time at a different location. St. Polycarp the catholic churhc by my work had their monthly adoration. BEing that it was so nurr by, i stopped by. I love going to visit Jesus durr cuz they have those kneelers right in front of the blessed sacrament. So for me its more intimate and im able to focus more cuz its smack right in front of me. I felt once again so peaceful, at the same time the spanish group was durr praying the rosary. Inbetween each decade was a song. Another reason it was so d0pe is riht in back of the blessed sacrament they ahve the mural. Its tile mural of a big monstrous w/the eucharist in the middle. HOw could you be distracted with all those d0pe things right in front of you.

Thas bout the only exciting thing that happened yesterday. Or i guess that would be my highlight of the day for yesterday. Today i had teh pleasure of talking to reirichs girllllllllfriend haha Cool chick i tell you, we were talking online forever bout skool, people we know, etc. etc. Man this girl knows errone from OC to cerritos to norwalk. I think her and rerich are having a friendster competiion on the number of friends they could get. haha Turns out she went to kennedy and knows a grip of people i know. Including my cousins and my AOL best friend. She also knows jay da banker's brother as well as my friend ryan;s sister. I found she;s nicoles cousin. It's a small world after all, it's a small world after all, it's a small world after all, its a small, small world.

Mass was good at St. Peter Chanel, Fr. ed spoke bout St. Pio about how he receieved the stigmata willingly to suffer for the conversion of sinners. He talked bout two different type of sufferings, i forgot what they were though. I shouldve written them down. Good homily though. I guess fred was durr though i didnt see him. Work was really busy and hectic today. Gave out two hall rental estimates. Can you believe its bout $2000 to rent out the hall @ my work. Yet people still continue to put down their money. Its great how i can use it almost anytime for almost nothing.

TOnite was my last nite as prayer leader, i resigned from prayer leading(not prayer meeting haha) for now until summer or late spring. The past couple nites i was preparing in prayer for tonite, asking God to use me. I told Him tonite, i was surrendering errthang i had to Him tonite. Fr. Engel gave a really good talk, he referred to that movie the 'debut.' Then i heard tito tom tell aela hes been looking for that movie. Perhaps ill let him borrow mine, and inform him also to watch 'diary of a gangsta sucka' starring SH's own alred perdito. Maybe him and tita cora can make it a blockbuster nite watching the debut and fred's movie! haha

Fr. Engel gave me some really good advice tonite after prayer meeting. Cleared up a couple of questions i had and now i know exactly what to do now. Yay for Fr. Engel! Mc Donalds was fun talking bout friendster stuff. Apparently i guess there are some people whom im going to need to add. I had good time spitting game at the Mc donalds worker, too bad she was murried! haha jk I like people who may not enjoy what they do as living but can joke. The girl durr @ mcdonalds was juss totally coo w/us. She joked around and was juss chill.

I had to do my intercultural paper tonite, a 4 page paper on someone of a different culture. I had to interview someone and write out what i found out. Then the similiarites between mine and the person i interviewed. Then i had to write bout how can we bridge the gap between different cultures. The paper ended up being 4.5 pages long! woo thas one proj. out of the way, 1 more to go. I heard a d0pe song on the beat today, its called 'love angel.' THe girl sounded like jlo but i guess her name is jays and its produced by r. kelly. SRE starts next week, i pray that this yur will be a fruitful one w/many blessings!


PRayer group world tour hurr i come again...

"Feels like I just walked right out of heaven..."

“Just as the sun shines simultaneously on the tall cedars and on the flower as if it were alone on the earth, so Our Lord is occupied with each soul as though there were no others like it.”

Something i learned today at work. Im sure all of us at one time or another has found a coin on the ground. 98% of the time its a penny though we were hoping for a $5 bill! haha So we find it and usually we juss leave it durr. Well next time you see one on the ground, pick it up. Look at the coin and what does it say? Whas the inscription on it? It says, "In God We Trust".Crazy how the same inscription is written on errsingle coin. God's name is printed on each one of those coins.

To me this is God's way of dropping us a message telling us to 'trust in him.' Each time you pick up a coin on the ground, pray and see if your trust is in God at that moment. Then pick up the coin as a response to God, saying, yes i do trust in you GOd. I think thas God's way of starting a conversation with you. Its Him dropping on by to see if youre trusting Him w/your whole heart. Its his personal message to you. So remember next time you see that penny on the ground, pick it up to see if YOUR trust in God.

Please keep me in your prayers, that i can put my full trust in God this evening. That God will use me as His dwelling place to send out His message. Lord i ask you to empty me so i may be filled w/Your spirit. Use me as your instrument to lead this community into praise & worship this evening.


That song dwelling place, is a perfect example of trust.

"Tell me what you feel ‘Cause I’m feeling something real..."im done, im out GOd bless!

It's the things that make you go hmmmm...Paparazi shot right durr!

"Be strong and take heart, all who hope in the Lord..."-Psalm 31:25

That was the verse that stuck out to me as i sat and partied w/Jesus tonite. Yes, thas right i partied w/Jesus @ St. DOminic Savio this evening. It was really good cuz i needed to go. He told me tonite to juss chill and relax, that He's taking curr of me so 'let go.' ITs great to know that durrs adoration around the corner thas 24/7. So im hoping and praying that i guess my own 'puzzle box' opened soon. THough i know whatever it is, He'll direct me and guide me through all of it. Whenever i go St. Dominics and walk into the adoration chapel, i feel like im in a whole new world. Like as if its Jesus and I taking a walk, and juss telling Him errthang that im in need of, eerrthang that im hoping for and errthang that im grateful for. Then when you walk out of the chapel its kinda ::sigh:: Its okay i know He's constantly watching over me.

These past couple weeks it seems the topic has been bout relationships. Many people posted what they looked for/what they wanted in a person. ITs crazy i was told something today that totally made sense. Something that i think applied to me. FOr some people you dont actually got to be in a relationship to know how one works. Or you dont have to have dated like 1000 people to understand a relationship. One can understand how it works through the way they treat their friends, their family and not only that, juss other people's experiences in relationships. I took a marriage and family class hmm 2 yurrs ago. It was a very interesting class. A lot of relationship lessons and themes were taught.

THough to me, not throw god card, i think the best relationships are the ones whurr God's in the middle. Whurr the two work on helping to increase one another's faith in God. Keyword hurr is 'Grow.' Dont get me wrong, im not saying a relationship w/o GOd in the middle of it is wrong. No dont get my words twisted, all i know is, the best relationships that seem to last are Christ-centered one. YOu know i was watching that movie the 'wedding singer' this afternoon. Actually i only saw part of it, then when i flipped back it was over. I like that movie, its funny. I forgot why i brought that up, anyway i dont know whurr im going w/this.

These three qualities are what i look for in a girl. Despite the fact ive never had a girl.(Actually i was in a 'brief' v2 relationship, but that didnt last and well when i proposed to ann @ freds birfday party that really didnt last either. haha am i doing something wrong hurr?! haha)
nor been a relationship nor even really dated anyone, this is my story...haha well its not a story but you now what i mean.

Faith, is somethign thas important. Faith is foundation of errthang, shes gotta be catholic. She has to be devoted. No im not saying shes gotta quote scripture cuz i cant even do that. Juss someone who goes to mass errsun. Prays, prays, and prays. Carrying out her faith w/good works. Who;s love for God is truly in her heart. Who realizes w/o GOd her life, is nothing. Someone who prays w/an open heart and listens w/an open heart.

Hope, to me is looking for good in errthang. Meaning in erroutcome. Hope comes also w/humility. Someone who isnt preoccupied in herself. Doesnt worry bout whether she looks hot or not. Hope is looking at things positively. I dont want someone who is juss sarcastic like no other. Example: if i said, 'Oh the weather is d0pe outside.' Then she says, 'How can you say that when it rained?' Someone who drowns negativity out. Who can help bring me up when im down and out. Turns a gloomy day to a sunny day. Hope is believing in all things, its like faith, you may not be able to see it, but you believe it you know its there. Hope is TRUSTING in GOD. Not dependent on materlistic things, but in GOd will provide for whatever she needs.

Last but not least...

Love, yes as it says, in the 1 corithinas, the greatest of all these three is love. Love is well being able to see Jesus in each person. Love is bearing, fruits of kindness, humility, peace and more. Love is patient. Love is a key to any type of relationship. Love is ones love and devotion to God. If you dont have love, then your relationship is nothing but weeds. Love is growing and learning w/each other. Love is taking out the weeds, and growing in red roses. Love is sticking by each other, through each difficult time. Love is saying, 'im sorry' and 'i forgive you.' Love isnt necessarily being right all the time, but understanding each others faults. Love is being able to move and look forward. Love is letting of the insecurities and trusting. Love is Jesus' sacred heart matching w/the one heart and bond of the couples. Love is being able to see an imperfect person, perfectly. Most of all, Love never fails.

OH yeah, i forgot to mention i need someone who'll say, 'agh' before errword. ALso she needs to have the same lingo as me. haha MEang you know who talks the same way. haha jk! JOKE ONLY, SO RELAX! So thas my scoop for tonite, agree w/me or not, i dont really curr. This is wha i come to look for and what i continue to look out for. Is that too much to ask? Ha hopefully i dont sound hmm picky? Errone is entitled to what they hope for, and this is obviously what i hope for. I pray God someday (like tomorrow haha jk) will send me a person w/these characteritics. Until that time comes, i continue to pray for that special person.


Remember making slow jam mixes, back in the day?!

"When waters get rough will you still swim with me..."Im done, im out God bless!

"For my heart is always with Him, day and night it thinks unceasingly of its heavenly and divine Friend, to whom it wants to prove its affection. Also within it arises this desire: not to die, but to suffer long, to suffer for God, to give Him its life while praying for poor sinners. "

Stop drooling! haha thas my cousin michelle and i yay! she's totally d0pe, it was coo we were talking for a while juss kinda catching up. She use to be in a singing group. shes use to model and wha not. Now she works in a law firm office, shes a whas it called a paralegal sec. I guess they take up celeb. cases. Interesting job i must say. OH man she's a really d0pe dancer too, if you ever see her! She carries a lot of wisdom also, totally d0pe girl!

HAd work this morning, easy day. We were suppose to have a chess tournament today, but due to lack of registration it was cancelled. So i had to be @ the site to tell people it was cancelled in case people come. Only one old man came by to check it out. I left @ 11am to spv for sfc or clp or cfc, whatever its called. That was cool i guess imma be helping kuya ariel facililtate a group, well rotating along w/reirich. Its funny cuz errone in the group is fluent in bof eng. and tagalog except me. I got one of those name badges holders, so i feel special now! haha

RObby, boss lady and beyonce came to capture me this afternoon for a couple hours. Ate a bjs and was able to eat and shurr a pizookie! MmMmMm i love those things. I also was making up a convo. for these two people that looked liek they were on a date. haha it was funny, the burr got into it also. The service durr was really bad though, it was freaking slow juss like a dial up internet connection! haha

Went to the cerritos mall and went to hollister. Durr were these young people modeling i take it for the store or something. I told burr i shouldve been durr haha i would make a d0pe hollister model. The pics i took in santa monica prooves it! I didnt really find anything durr though, i think imma go durr juss to get some pants. Actually, i like their hooded sweatshirts. Hollister is d0pe! So on teh way back in the curr i ws able to sing errsong on this slow jam cd the burr made. Even on the pops one too i got all the song! It was fun! yay!

Hurrs a d0pe photo i took tonite, of my godson and my cousin!



I dont know what to say today so tahnks for reading! yay!

"All I hear is Bad Boy this and Bad Boy that, Bad Boy will beat you down wit a baseball bat..."im done, im out God bless!

"Trials are nothing else but the forge that purifies the soul of all its imperfections..."

THis picture is cool, it looks like a stepping block, it kinda goes higher and higher. Maybe i only see it. Thas tanya's friend(forgot his name), then thas tanya, then me, then michelle. So i chose this quote cuz this past week ive been going through small trials. I guess theyre things God is testing me, yet ive been failing. Havent been the best at seeing Jesus through errone i come in contact with. Its more less w/certain people 'get out of my face' type thing. Thats the irritated feeling i was working with all week long. So obviously i wasnt posessing fruits of the spirits, more less the bad fruits. Which all leads to giving into what the devil wants.

THough im feeling better now, the ugliness is pretty much gone. Im doing my best to bear the fruits of the spirit and not bad fruits. Im sure no one wants to be a bad apple on a tree. I know i sure wouldnt want to be one. Im going to try my best to be more patient and understanding, trying not to let others get to me. I want to be happy guy and not mr. bad mood guy. haha
So i can only ask for your prayers that i may be happy guy, trying to see the good in errone i come across.

So what happened today, i went to mass @ 8am. SOmething i havent done since lent. Went back home and fell asleep till about 11am. Talked to 'kuya burr passion god of the neptunes' hahaha oh man thas forever long name. WEnt to lunch w/the burr @ hometown buffet, he was craving fried chicken so we went. Actually i met him durr i walked from my house. I dont know why he was craving for chicken, when he should be eating only burries. haha Came home and then left again and went out to nordstroms w/miguel. APologetics later on, which was good. Followed by a road trip to arcadia to watch an sfc graduation.

The friendster girl cheryl i messaged never responded back to me yet. TIta marissa's daughter chentel is on friendster, wow who isnt on friendster?! My sister is on some other friendster type thing called something else. THough i doubt people are going to do that since durrs already friendster. LEts make friends on friendster! yay! friends, friends, friends! Ive been getting a lot of these 'yeah ive met you before, juss dont know whurr.' i feel bad that i dont end up remembering these people. I took the SH petition box home and burned, while praying over the petitions. I figured the box was getting too big. I pray that each persons petition is granted through God's will.


Im excited for SH cafe, arent you?!

"Roast, club boasts and I'm headed home with you, You know when you're going, I'm going to miss you It's so official..."im done, im out GOd bless!

"The proud person is like a grain of wheat thrown into water: it swells, it gets big. Expose that grain to the fire: it dries up, it burns. The humble soul is like a grain of wheat thrown into the earth: it descends, it hides itself, it disappears, it dies; but to revive in heaven. "

Oh man im bad in remembering names, probably like most of us. We see the face and they look familiar or weve met them before but we forget whurr or their name. ANyway, i was talking to this guy named, charles from sfc. He was talking to me bout the household on mon. i was like oh you were durr? He goes, 'yeah i was sitting right next to you.' Then he said, 'YOu did the thanksgiving prayer right?' Haha i felt bad cuz i didnt remember him being durr, i was probably still frustrated cuz errone was late and it took forever!

I like this quote cuz the way it talks bout humility really hmm hits me you could say. The proud person gets thrown into the water, gets big but then it ends up dying. AS for a humble person, their seed ends up hiding, not curring whether its seen or not. IT ends up disapurring and going into heaven. Juss some food for thought i guess you could say. We all need humility in order to get to heaven. The bigger our heads get, the smaller our pusos become.

The new rec leader started today, nothing really new. He does the contract supervision on the weekends. I hope i end up getting along w/him, i dont know he's real quiet. Besides that this is gonna be the first 'guy' rec leader weve had. I cooked pancit today w/the kids. It turned out really good. In fact i had to cook rice to go with it also. (Ha im soo filipino) I had to do it the 'american way.' YOu know put rice and water in the pot and let it cook. I guess thas wha you gotta do when you aint got rice cookers. So it was fun making it, it was like being on the food network. I should make a show and call it 'isda live.' yay!

Ths weekend is hurr! I had zoomed over to mark anthony's birfday bash @ firdays @ the block. Oh man did that place bring back memories. He ended up doing the same thing i did on mine, but his juss wasnt as bad as mine. Poo guy, hopefully he wont feel like crap tomorrow. He wont get that same feeling i did the next day. Though at least w/my birfday i was perfectly conscience of errthang that had went one. From the first drink all the way to end along w/the broken glass. haha I told melissa(el juego's friend)'hey this is kinda like my birfday huh, juss not as bad.' She juss shook her head. Yup, i dont like really drinking in places unless its vegas. The drinks are too expensive hurr.

The place was packed w/tons of people, though people were coming and going. I saw reirich durr w/his 'friend.' In fact i got a picture of that one too. In fact i actually met the girl before, i dont remember whurr and when though. Its funny cuz she said the same thing, like 'yeah i met you before, blah, blah.' Im sure it was a while back ago, anyway i had some good times w/the gang. I got invited to yfc camp, i may go, id probably be the oldest one durr. Ha michelle said, unlke us youd be going backwards and then forwards. Most people to yfc then sfc.' haha i thought that was funny. She has one of those personalities, whurr it's juss friendly. Very kind and considerate. We all took pictures galore @ fridays tonite. Pretty much errone had their camera.

Oh so i was on friendster tonite @ work, the after hours. Anyway, so i was you know browsing through people. I ran into this one girls whos pic and only pic was her holding the rosary in her hand as if she was praying it. SHe seemed real coo and i guess as fred would say a good catholic girl. I messaged her and said, 'hey wasssup asl?' hah jk! actually i juss asked for her #! naw i invited her to prayer meeting. I gave her the link to the website to see if she might wanna come one tues. Though i have no idea who she is or wha she looks like. Thas all a mystery still, well see if she messages me back.

I was cleaning out my SRE folder and i opened this letter that i had sent to one of my kids. Only he never returned the next yurr. Included in the letter i sent was the ol skool pamphlet for SH. It was crazy cuz it said Head servant leader-Marianne Soratorio YOuf Ministry Head-Emeline Soratorio. Then it had info. inside bout what the prayer group is and wha happens during the meetings. On the back inside page was like 'Youf and young adult teachings starting may 2001.' Thas what drew me to SH the first time, i was informed @ youf alpha it was gonna be a youf group. Ha i remember going up durr on tues. and it was hardly anyone durr. Ahh yess those were the days. Sh ol skool style, w/the ol skool band, no such thing as uprm, no circle grouping, no who builds the faith song, no youf durr. Yurrs later look how its changed. Its growing slowly but surely.

Ha i was thinking its crazy how the evolution of karaoke has changed. I remember my aunt buying one of those big mini streo ones. The ones w/the dual cassete tape and then you plug the mic into durr. Then you put in some tape to sing along with. After that came those huge laser disc type ones. They were like the size of records, youd have to flip the disc over if you wanted a different song. Then plug the mic into the stero system. After that it got smaller and became cd karaoke. Kinda the same thing as laser disc karaoke, but a smaller version. Now you got magic mic! Magic MIc maagic haha anyway, a device thas mad expensive, scores your singing, and has all the songs containted on one small computer chip. mMmm chocolate chips!

Was able to go to confession today, ah it felt so good to go. I felt like when you ahve to go #2 really bad but you hol it in cuz the toilets in public are so dirty. Then when you finally get to your own you let it all out and its a huge relief. haha jk thas sick. No it felt more like when youre outside working and youre all sticky, sweaty and gross. Finally you shower and youre in the shower for so long. Thas like confession! haha anyway it felt great to be clean again.


Dang my face got fat, or at least my cheeks. haha

"'Cause if it's over, let it go and come tomorrow, we will see so yesterday, so yesterday..."im done, im out GOd bless!

"Look for Christ Our Lord in everyone and you will then have respect and reverence for all..."

THas a picture of Leslie and i @ goldilocks! yay! I like leslie cuz ive known her forever, its really great. I look at her like my other little sister. We can talk bout pretty much anything errthang. I help her and she helps me. Its amazing to see how much she has grown up. I remember when she was only in 6th grade. Now look shes already gonna be 16! Dang i must be getting old. Praise God for allowing her to become stronger, understanding and devoted to the church.

I went to swing dancing after corn's goodbye dinner. Miguel and i went, it was at this club called tijuana. It liked it for the fact, people were durr juss to dance. The girls were a lot older yet cool but getting asked to dance. Like anyone could ask them to dance and they were like sure. I had made this deal w/miguel when we got durr, that i promised i would dance. If i didnt then i would have to owe him lunch. I got in durr and i was intimated and became insecure. THe people durr were so hardcore, they were all doing it right and wha not. Well this asian chick probably like her mid 30s asked me to dance. I was im juss learning but alright. We edned up juss free dancing. Then i danced w/some other girl, she asked me to dance w/her so i did that. Then before leaving i got to dance w/that girl abby. Dang shes hot, lucky me! haha jk i had a good time.

Pray for me so i can bear fruits of goodness. That errthang not of GOd will be cast away. PLease pray that i become more patient and less angry. So i may have love in my heart and be God;s love to errone i come into contact with. Lord i ask you to please make me an instrument of Your peace. thanks!

The fruit of SILENCE is PRAYER
The fruit of PRAYER is FAITH
The fruit of FAITH is LOVE
THe furit of LOVE is SERVICE
THe fruit of SERVICE is PEACE


Agh the weekend is finally hurr for me!

"IM your man, youre my girl im gonna tell it to the whole wide world..."im done, im out God bless!

"Other things may change us, but we start and end with family..."

That was my grandparent's 50th wedding anniversary let's see hmm 7 yurrs ago. I dont know if many of you were part of spv back then, but thas fr. O'Sullivan the pastor before Fr. KEvin. I wonder how the ol guy is doing now. Anyway, that was my family 7 yurrs ago, and it has only grown since then. My grandparents had 8 kids, which means i have 8 titos and titas! haha Look at the fruits of love my grandparent's have produced. 8 kids, 22 grandchildren and 8 great-grandchildren. Im excited to see my grandpa celebrate another yurr of healthy and strong life. GOd has really looked out for my family. Its great to know that errone on my mom's side we all live real close by. Actually one family lives in texas, thas the only one.

Ohana means family, family means no one gets left behind or forgotten...


My sister's first communion...

My confirmation back in 97...

Ha! Christmas 95...thas me and my crew haha

Halloween 91...oh man that was yurrs ago.

Thas my dad and my grandpa's brother, who will be turning the big 100 in January.

Dang, my kids and I are gonna live forever! haha

Survey
name = ja$on
piercings = naw
tattoos = yes one on my back that says 'isda life' haha
height = 5'6
shoe size =9-10
hair color = black actually im thinking of bleaching it again, havent done that in a while
siblings = 1 sister

LAST...
movie you rented = Agent COdy Banks(it was for the kids @ work)
movie you bought = the debut oOoh yeah! hahah
song you listened to = When God ran
song that was stuck in your head =That one hillary duff Jl was singing
cd you bought = neptunes-clones cd
cd you listened to = sfc conference one
tv show you've watched = fully watched 3rd watch
person you were thinking of = GOd, cmon now who else would i be thinkig bout?! haha

DO...
you have a crush on someone = nope sorry
you wish you could live somewhere else = yeah i wanna go to venice beach! lets go back to promenade!
you think about suicide =yeah juss yesterday jk nope
you believe in online dating = YEah in fact i was in juss in the pnoys4pnays chat room haha JUST JOKING!!
others find you attractive = they juss tell me ive gained weight haha
you want more piercings = yeah one on my bottom lip, ha! yeah right thas gay
you drink = yup
you do drugs = will work for marijuna said the homeless guy in santa monica
you smoke = naw dawg
you like cleaning = yeah of course, i cant have things messy or unorganized im anal like that.
you like roller coasters = yeah, yeah! the one @ ny ny was fun, member fred?
you write in cursive or print = print

FOR OR AGAINST...
long distance relationships = personally thas hard, but heck whatever floats your boat or finds your lost remote
using someone = so for it, i use people all the time, let's see who's next on my list. haha joking...!
suicide = against cmon now
killing people = i can kill people w/my looks! ha that was corny!
teenage smoking = if they want to kill themselves by the time their 30 sure
doing drugs = if they want to go to jail sure
driving drunk = oh man if they want to kill people
soap operas = i like soap operas, i remember in line @ albertsons before jl's play pops and i were talking bout days of our lives. I was kinida catching him up on the characters...

FAVORITE...
food = as many may think no buffalo wings is not my favorite food. My moms fried rice
song = the bodyguard soundtrack! haha jk!!!
thing to do = talk, blog, online, eat, chill, sleep, read, teach, yell, run, sing, study, blog, tv,
thing to talk about =YOU! haha servant's heart, ther communities, blogs, food, churches, what to do
sports = I dont really gots one
drinks = mr. pibb/dr. pepper
clothes = my collection of sweaters
movies =Light it up
band/singer = dont got one of those
holiday = Christmas & 4th of july

HAVE YOU...
ever cried over a girl = nope never got that emo...yet.. haha jk!!
ever cried over a boy= naw dawg
ever lied to someone = yes
ever been in a fist fight = yeah back in 7th grade, i knocked this guy out....jk
ever been arrested = almost! well not really haha i aint thug

WHAT...
shampoo do you use = thermasilk
shoes do you wear = when i dress casual nice, my brown timbs, when i wurr dark colors and shorts then i wurr my black nike low tops, when i wurr cargo pants or shorts my brown converse, when i wurr red, my shox or jordans. When i get semi formal like @ the kappa formal then i wurr my kenneth coles
are you scared of = being shot

FAVORITE...
disney movie -pinochio
word - agh! haha jk
nickname - jfish, jay, fish, and the list goes on...
eye color - brown
flower - sunflower, roses, carnations

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE...
pretty - d0pe! haha jk
funny - as heck! haha
hot - in hurr!
friendly - as friendster is
amusing - yes, very
ugly - sometimes
loveable - loveable as a burr! haha
caring - curring as a curr burr
sweet -swe3t as the swe3t factory
dorky - ha yeah my answers answer that question

THE END-oh man that seemed like it took forever. Now im turrud!


Have you told how much you love your family today?

"As for me and my house, were gonna serve the Lord..."im done, im out God bless!

"That cross opened the door, the Bible lights our way, the Church holds us accountable and Christ is waiting..."

Hurrs another hollister ad for ya, by yours truly. My leg is missing, actually as the picture was being taken i was about to fall. Ha it looks like were doing some kind of dance or whatever. Speaking of dance that wade robbison show is pretty tight. ITs crazy cuz ill totally judge the people who come on the show and juss looking at them and think, 'they dont look like they can dance.' Then im proved wrong later in the end. The only thing thas gay bout the show, is errone dances the same style. Its always that 'pop' and 'twist' type of thing. Unless you get the white guys who juss go crazy doing whatevers.

I also like that newlywed's show, the one w/jessica simpson and nick lachey. Dang that girl is very oa, i think the two of them need to go to bof engagement and wedding encounter. I dont know if i could be w/someone who cant seem to clean up after themself. That one episode when she left her laundry juss sitting in a pile on the floor. That would kill me to see that, id die. id be so agH!!! I hate seeing messes. THough nick has a lot of patience dealing w/her thas fo sho. She reminds of some of the kids i have to deal with at work. IM sure thas one heavy cross to curry.

Skool and work was alright. I got two stupid projects to finish up so i can get it over with. I had my first sfc household tonite. It was i guess a joint household. So ive been told supposedly ive been transferred to kuya ariel's household. WHy did it not seem like that tonite? As i was leaving jordan said he'll call me to arrange household schedule...Hmmmm. I guess thas something i need to ask kuya ariel myself. I was agh! cuz they said be durr around 8pm so i got dur 810pm and errone else didnt come till about 9pm. Then we didnt start household till after 0930pm. Praise and worship was cool. We split up the a.c.t.s and someone lead the prayer for each portion. I lefr right after praise & worship cuz it was getting too late. The guy lives right in front of me, in those apts. next to centralia. I couldve juss walked but then i probably wouldve gotten jumped. haha

Juss came into my head right now. I was juss thinking some of the qualities i need my girl to have(if that ever happens). ALright as they saying goes, timinig is errthang or timinig is important or punctuality is a virtue. Yall know how i am w/time, meaning shes gotta be a punctual person. She also has to be clean and organized. I dont want a 'newlywed show' scene whurr i see her durrty laundry in the middle of the floor. agh! thas sick. Shes gotta be real chill and not high strung like i can be. haha Someone who is compassionate, and loves to serve others. Shes gotta like working w/kids and can handle being w/them. Meaning shes gotta have patience. SOme basic personality qualities, besides your basic honesty, trustworthiness, etc. cuz we all want that.

I need her to have God in her little puso. I would like her to love and trust God w/errthang she has. Someone who wants to be able to serve God through the church. Who wants to help build up GOd's kingdom hurr on earf. Someone who always sees the Jesus in each person. She needs to be able to sing so she can sing on my vmail haha jk Who not blangs blangs w/$$ but blangs blangs in her devotion and love for God. Someone who loves uncondtionally, w/no strings attached. Who's humble and lifts all the glory she may receive to God who deserves it all. Wow it seems as if im building someone of my own. All in all someone whos filled w/the spirit.

Agh these dogs behind us keep burrking and its getting annoying! Ive been impatient and irritable as of lately. I guess i juss tend to give in to my anger also which only makes it worse. Ill end up dwelling on it for a while instead of letting it go. So im trying to not let things get to me. Im trying not to be mr. bad mood guy, cuz i was this morning cuz of the burr. YOu know i realized i feel more relaxed praying spotaneously now, like i dont get all worried or skurred of what to say. On tues. i really felt the spirit leading through errword i said. Praise God He relaxed my spirit before prayer meeting started. So imma be late tomorrow nite since i got an SRE meeting.

Its crazy how many things we take for granted errday. How a lot of times things dont phase us. When something that we may not like ends up happening then we get that kick the in the butt. Thas when things finally phase us. I guess its true as the song goes, we dont know what we got till its gone. THough ti shouldnt or it doesnt have to be like that. God is constantlly surrounded us by so many d0pe things. Friends, family, shelter, food and a job(if you got one). More importantly He gives us Himself errday. His nudge on the shoulder to us, to remember to die to ourselves each day of our lives. Call a friend errday to say good morning to them juss as a constant reminder God loves them. Help brighten up someone's day by even the simplest 'hi.' Offer yourself up juss as Jesus offered himself up on that cross.

How much are you willing to offer up the Lord? oh man no yfc this wed. wha am i ever to do now? haaha Looks like i got a free day to rest unless i find some other group to go to.


How skurry is it, that Justin from American Idol and Sideshow Bob from the simpsons look alike?!

"Here's my story you can lean on me..."im done, im out God bless!

DaYsL33pR: what is this , an A&F ad

Actually gail its more less an Hollister ad! haha

"It is certain that the love of God does not consist in experiencing sweetness or tenderness of heart but in truly serving God in Justice, strength and humilty."

So my fun filled weekend comes to a conclusion today. I had to make the faces fuzzy cuz i dont have permission from the two other people in it to display their faces. haha jk Went to mass this morning as usual, fr. ray talked bout the new adjusments that are now put into place. Not a lot of big drastic changes, juss a few ones. I cant believe my granpa is gonna be 97 coming up this sat. ITs crazy cuz his brother who lives in la, is gonna be 100 in jan. Soooooo as you can tell imma be living for a long time(hopefully and GOd williningly haha). Its such a blessing though to see that he's healthy and juss still strong. He's a fighter alright. God has touched my family and has really blessed us.

I spent the afternoon at 3rd street promenade and santa monica pier. Fun stuff i must say, it totally beats staying home. So we drove over durr and we did the 'ju ju be way of finding parking.' This is how it goes, you pull up to whurrever youre parking and repeat over and over 'parking, parking, parking, parking' over and over and overrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. haha Before you know it youll have parking! THough i finally said to miguel today while searching for parking, 'isnt easier to juss say a prayer, then to loose your breaf over repeating purrking?' So we got durr and we each ate our seperate dishes. I got chinese, miguel got great steak and potatoe and jeanne got some sandwhich. Walked around the mall for a bit then went to walk around the promenade.

Man its been forever since i walked around the 3rd street promenade. YOu see all kinds of neat and interesting things. Durr was this one guy in victoria secret trying to do a comedy act of some sort. He was alright then he got tedious, annoying and boring. I left for a brief moment to listen to this asian group sing. THey sounded like errother r & b asian group.

Durrs a lot of poverty at santa monica, i saw some guy who was in a wheelchurr and he had a sign that said, 'will work for marijuana' on the othe side it said, 'spare change.' Then i saw this other guy who happen to be filipino diggin through the trash can. HE grabs some food then runs off, next thing i know he's lying across this table half naked. I was thinking, 'hmm okay?!' i was able ot meet up w/my cousin who works @ victoria secret. SHe was telling me to juss follow her and talk to her. It felt weird being in durr.

Then we walked around the pier and that was fun. I felt like i was in a whole differet state. It reminded me of when mtv had their summer @ the jersey shore. Lots of rides, ate funnel cake, yum! Walked around and admired the dirty ocean water. Looked at the seagulls.

Alright thas it for now...i guess i got my first house hold tomorrow

3rd Street promendae is d0peness!

"I will never break your heart, i will never make you cry..."im done, im out God bless!

"There is no salary when you're working for God, but the benefits are eternal..."

Thas what the speaker said at clp this morning. Someone asked how the clp program is funded. The guy replied back the community members help fund the program. They donate their time and money into the program. He then went on to say, that the clp leaders/community members are not paid to be durr. Thas when dropped the there is no salary working for God, but the benefits are eternal. I was like wow thas really true, God doesn't pay you $ for all that a person does for the church. Though when he passes on, God will look upon that man, and hopefully God will grant that person into His Kingdom. That is something to really look forward to. So even though at times we may go on feelin unappreciated, it doesnt matter. The benefits we receive from the service is something that no money can ever amount up to.

Today was a fun productive day. I was explaning to jeanne and the mexican earlier that i like weekends that are productive. Weekends whurr fri-sun. something is always going on. Its coo going away from the normal scene. Being able to do something different, besides going ot cerritos mall or the block or what not. Though it gets physically tiring in the end, but its worf it.

I went to the clp at spv this morning. I asked the souls in purgatory to wake up for clp this morning and they did. Praise God. So i went durr but then i felt awkward going up durr and not really knowing anyone. I ended up going to the mexcian;s casa and picked him up to go w/me. While i was waiting i got to see a clip of their sfc conference the skits part. I only saw the prodical son one which i didnt understand until it was explained to me. Room c hur they had the progran was jam packed. It was so crowded, praise God. I didnt really listen to the talk, i juss kinda chilled out in the hallway.

Tita linda came up after her legion of Mary and told me she was gonna go through w/the program. Which is gonna be coo. This one is an all ministry program so you had errone durr. THough durr was a lot more couples durr, and not really many young adults. I snacked and snacked and snacked. I took tita linda home then changed then met up w/the mexican and jeanne to chill. We were trying to figure out a place to eat, besides the norm. Then the mexican suggested the grove in LA.

We travelved to the grove in LA and walked around durr for a while. Ate at the farmer's market that was a coo place. ITs an outside market w/all kinds of different foods you can try. I saw ashton kutcher and pharrell at the market place!! it was crazy cuz who wouldve ever expected to see celebs. I guess though most of the people who go the grove are rich. So after lunch we walked in and out of stores. Went to teh gap, abercrombie, nordstrom, pac sun, quicksilver...all those places. It was pretty cool.

We stopped by this church called St. Brendans, oh man that was a really nice church. I guess thas the home parish of Fr. JOhn Love, he was one of the speakers for the scrc young adult track. We came towards the end of mass, nice big church though. The stain glass paintings are a really d0pe. They had a tight statue of Mama Mary and Jesus also. So we left durr and went on our way to the Our Lady of Angels cathedral. I was really hyped to see the church being ive never been durr. The whole church was juss wow. The tapestries on the side and the painting of JEsus' baptism. I used that picture as my desktop background.

Before going home we went to ross and shopped around durr. I kinda got into w/the sales person. The mexican got this shirt that was markdown $12.99 then he found the exact same one wrapped for only $8.99. We went durr expecting to give it to us for $8.99. The thing was the wrapped shirt wasnt the size he wanted, but it was the right price. The other one was wrong price, right size. Oh man this feels like that game mastermind. Wrong place, right color haha anyway so i was aruging w/the lady cuz that didnt make any sense at all to give him the more expensive one if theyre the exactly the same thing. I was going to talk to the manager but we didnt want to cause a huge scene cuz durr was 10000 people behind us waiting.

WEnt home and watched the fight that i felt was fixed. Oscar was real humble though in saying that if he tries to fight it and it doesnt work out he'll leave it as that. It was a good fight though, juss a suprising ending. Even mosely didnt expect to win, he thought he had lost. Oh well i dont watch boxing that much anyway. I juss thought oscar shoudlve won, the judges were dumb.


Praise God for a great day!

"Why you over there lookin' at me, while my girl standin' here..."im done, im out God bless!

"A soul enkindled with love is gentle, meek, humble, and patient soul..."-St. John of the Cross

I like this quote cuz its a reminder on how God calls each and everyone of us to be. He calls us to have a loving soul and a loving soul only bears good fruits. Fruits of gentleness, meekness, humility and most of all patience. Ha patience something that i know i struggle with ALL the time. Whether its at work, at home or juss in streets. Each day as i enter parking lot 7 at skool, i pray that God will give me parking so i wont be late to skool and then i ask him to give me patience. Give me patience to help wait for the parking spot. To give me patience so i can bear fruits of gentleness when waiting. THough sometimes i get frustrated and im like agH!! hurry up! or agh! you took the spot i was going to get. I think we all should try earnestly each day to make sure our souls are filled with love. SO that way we can bear the fruits of the spirit.

Today was a fun day. First off i was able to sleep in till almost 10am. Which felt really nice being thas the only time i can sleep in now. Ahh how i anxiously look forward to fridays more and more. PRaise God i have fridays off to do whatever i want to do. So i pretty much spent the morning chillin and resting. I went to robbys @ 1pm cuz he needed me to bring some oil filter wrenches cuz he couldnt take it off by hand. I come to find out its too big for the filter. After giving up trying to take it off w/his hand, boss lady and i went to kragean to buy the wrench. We found the wrench and he happily was able to unscrew it. Agh i told you burr to listen to boss lady the first time! haha

We ate lunch @ islands at the malvern towne center. MmMmm islands! I havent had it in a while so it sounded pretty good. We totally devoured our food! After islands i went w/them to jewelry mart in fullerton to pick up their bans. I got a first hand look at wha they look like. Theyre totally gonna be blangin like no other next july. Make sure you wurr sunglasses at the wedding cuz oh man its gonna hurt your eyes! haha As i was browsing around looking at other vendors, this asian lady got real interested in me and asked if i was looking. Then tells me she has some nice stuff or whatever. I was like, 'oh thanks, but im not looking really...yet. I said try me in a month then ill be ready. haha jk i didnt say that part.

Then we got gas and then went to wamu to drop off their bands in a safe deposit box. This girl kept calling my name from above. I was looking all over thinknig whos calling my name. I look up and its the girl that almost went to lss. The one that was chentel's(tita marissa's daughter)friend. She asked me howd it go on the other day. Im assuming she meant prayer meeting. I felt bad cuz at teh time i didnt recongize who she was. I always forget who's who cuz i come cross so many different people and i only end up seeing them once. I guess if they dont play some major role in my life, i forget bout them. haha THen we went to spv to set up for apologetics. AHh yeah that was fun, it felt like ol times...::sigh:: haha BOss lady's funny she made up a new word, she said 'emburrising.' hahahaha

Came home took a nap then went to apologetics. I came after the review session cuz well i have a hard time paying attention or listening when that guy mike talks. He talks soooooooooo slow and then his voice is so montnous that i cannot if my life depended on it pay attention to him. Apologetics was good, there was a good turn out. Christian was durr along w/his sister, faith. THats so d0pe how he has all this stuff at his age. As i was telling his dad, the problem w/the youf now a days, is they awlays gotta be entertained. Errthang theyre fed is entertainment, songs, dancing, cheers etc etc. Big example is scrc youf track. The problem they lack is the foundation. THye dont understand whurr the church came from, who started the church blah blah. Theyre at the age whurr they can be easily swayed by protestants or other dominations.

As i was sitting durr listening to some of teh questions being asked, i thought gosh its so d0pe to be part of the catholic church. Praise God for tito jess and apologectics. Heck id be so lost today w/o it. But its so cool knowing the church as the whole truth and nothing but the truth. THe catholic church was established and founded by JEsus Christ himself, 2000 yuurs ago. How bout dem apples eh?! Its too bad so many people fail to see that or realize that. Even people who are catholics. People continue to bash the church and yet it still remains the number one church. It still continues to grow and grow.

Went to bjs tonite after w/the mexican and jeanne. I had this free pizookie dessert coupon i wanted to use. SO we went and i was really excited to eat dessert. NExt thing we see are popos errwhurr. Me being nosey and all went ot go see wha was going on. Next thing i know i see people walking out of the buildings. Then i hurrd the waitress arguing w/this customer that theyre trying ot get errone out of the building. APparently durr was a bomb threat to the restaraunt. THe mexican calls me and tells me to meet them @ the stop light going towards the mall. Unfortunately they forgot the coupon on the table!!! We ended up leaving cuz we figured itd take forever to back inside. THough i guess thas my fault for being nosey and trying ot see wha was going on. So we ended up juss eating and talking @ fridays.

My debut dvd i orderd came in the mail today. It was funny cuz jennif and i were juss talking bout that this morning. How she didnt get her dvd n the mail yet and she orderd it last month. Sooo now we can have movie nite and watch the debut! yay! This dvd also has the special features like fred's movie on it. SO fred you can pretty much can buy the one i made off of me for a low low price. SInce now i have the 'official' movie. yay! SFC starts tomorrow morning @ spv, its gonna be interesting to see wha kind of people will be durr. OKay thas it for now, until next time...


Happy 21st Birfday, Jay da banker!

"By giving me all you got Your love as captured me..."im done, im out God bless!

"I'd rather live in His world, then live without Him in mine..."

ahh! my entry got erased! jovei said i had to put this on my blog since seh did me a favor.

i, jason fish, have a secret. all those times i said i didn't like emo, i reallllyy do. i listen to it secretly..yes, you heard me right. i am a sad emo kid with feelings. i only put up a front to defend my emo king status. emo rocks like a mother.

Can you believe i out 1028 miles on my rent a car and it had 0 cuz it was brand new when i got it! haha

I continue to pray for the families who still grieve in pain. May God give them comfort in their time of need.


Gail says imma groupist, whatever that means...haha

"I rock so much ice, you need shades for a closer view..."im done, im out God bless!

Meet Monica errone!

"To be taken with love for a soul, God does not look on its greatness, but the greatness of its humility..."

Agh i have 2 projects to do for my 'interpersonal communications' class. One is i gotta interview someone of a different culture and write a paper bout them. Which is hard cuz errone i know is the same culture as me! haha Actually durrs my coworker whos muslim and imma intvw him. Hes not filipino either. SO i gotta find out errthang bout this guy in order to write 4 freakin pages! His social life, his love life, his economic life, his home life, his bank account # and his ss# heck his pin # too while im at it. Agh retarted project i tell ya!

Then this other one is a group one, agh sometimes i hate working in groups. FOr this group i had to show errthang. What to do, whos gonna do wha, i had to take control. ANyway, this project has to do with gender relationships. The topic that were working on, is cross-gender relationships. Like how many people have girls have guys as their best friend and vice versa. Now can they juss be friends? Or is durr a good chance they could end up being more then juss friends. SO thats gonna be an interesting topic to discuss w/teh class. My group has to put on a 15 min. presentation. Ahh i maybe coming ot many of you for your opinions and thoughts.

Work was cool, so they hired the new youf outreach coordinator who will start on oct.1 We should make a core group position liek that. haha youf outreach coordinator, theyd be in charge of bringing in all the at risk youf to prayer meeting. To help them get closer to God. yay! Then they hired the new rec leader. I had changed the vmail in my office the other day. Now it says, youve reacehd the desk of Jason Fish rec leader for the city of stanton. haha I dont want to change it cuz i always have to end up changing it again when someone quits. THough imma have to change it again next month probably when the youf outreach gets started.

I spent most of the afternoon @ work @ the teacher supply store buying stuff. I had fun i got a lot of d0pe bulletin board materials and wha not. Its cool shopping for that stuff, cuz i feel like im actually a real teacher setting up my classroom. I started to put up a lot of the stuff today. MOst of it went in that back room. It looks a lot brighter in durr cuz of all the posters and wha not. Yay! i cant wait to finish tomorrow! I remember i had errone helping me set up that room for summer. ANn came and helped. The mexican and jeanne came and helped. Though i had to hire the mexican...hahaha jk

Took fred w/me tonite to yfc he was useful to them tonite. He was part of their music ministry for the evening too. Well juss for one song, he played 'shout to the Lord' piano style. We did that one symbols game for an icebreaker. I remember playing that @ carson a long time ago. The games pretty fun, it came down to sh vs yfc and unfortunately sh lost. haha oh well. Then we did this d0pe project, that ive done but differently. Actually i like the way we did it tonite, its more creative and more livelier. We had to draw on paper what we were now, wha we were feeling, and other stuff. Then on the other one, we had to draw whurr we wanted ot be a yurr from now.
THen we had to shurr wha we drew and explain.

The point of the activity is #1 realizing we all walk in different walks. We cant say 'oh i wish i was i had the faith like so and so.' GOd created us differently we all struggle, but its in working w/each other to help overcome those struggles. Thas why you find yourself a community, like i have. Well for me ive got more then one community though. ahah Anyway, back to the point. #2 is to reach for your goals. To be who you said you wanted to be. So it was pretty cool. Imma try that w/my SRE class this yurr. Actually that could even be a core group activity or something.

Fred and i talked bout how errtime we hurr the song 'redeeming love' we think of ju ju be. Back when he was around he would always be strumming those cords to that song. Its kinda like i can see his spirit sitting nurr me singing that song. aww those wurr the days. ::sigh:: After yfc toni, mark anthony, fred and i went to in n out and ate. That was funny cuz we were talking bout harry potter and the sorcer's sasuage that mark anthony had eaten before. Then how toni experienced some crazy guy last yurr @ the in n out we were at. Talked bout the ghett0 long beach. ahh yes 'good times, good times.' The weekend is hurr finally, i truly look forward to sleepin in on fridays now. ahh yes!

So for the past couple days ive been getting these letters from the insurance of the lady who rear ended me. They sent me another one today telling me to fill out exaclty wha happened at the accident. THey even have charts on the paper to draw and show. Then they have a space to get witnesses signatures. Agh wha a mess! Juss admit you hit me, dont try to go around it. Durrs no way you can. YOu hit me and thas all durr is to it. Ahh i dont like mercury insurance.

Special shout out goes to gail, thanks for letting me be your friend! ?


Dont forget to pray for the souls in purgatory who died on Sept. 11!

"Look out weekend cuz here i come, because weekends were made for fun..."im done, im out God bless!

"The entire Christian life is about learning how to SURRENDER to God..."

yay! hurr is the pic i was gonna post like a while ago from the yfc meeting i went to. Anyway hurr is a group pic we took! My eyes are heavy and theyre starting to burn, good thing i dont got class till 11am. woo! i dont know errone in that pic, juss the common ones i see on wed. nites. A couple of those guys came down that wed. from the va baby before the big sfc conference. We took this w/monica's camera. Monica is the new link thas on my blog, check out her xanga! wooO! thanks monica for giving me these pics! ?

yfchexmix: wow.. my xanga seems so bare compared to yours.. heehee
JPFish187: haha i know its long
JPFish187: i write a lot i gues si go into detail bout errthang
yfchexmix: i wish i could write that much!

As i was reading this quote, that stuck out in front of me. Its very true how it says the whole entire christian life is learning how to surrender ot God. Thas crazy how that person boiled errthang down to that one point. I learned that it is in surrendering that we learn how to truly love. I struggle a lot w/juss surrendering my suffering, my hardships errthang i got to Him. Surrending is saying 'OKay God im putting you ahead of errthang else, YOuRE my main priority right now.' When i surrdender God finds me through the midst of errtrial. He finds that one lost sheep from the herd. Surrendering is being broken and rebuilt. It is in surrendering to the will of God that we quit playing games, lose all the masks, and stand exposed and shameless before our Creator. And it is in surrendering that God is allowed to love us more personally and more deeply than we ever thought possible while on this earth.

Right now...would you say your heart is totally open to God today or is hard like a rock?
I think thas another thing i struggle with is opening myself to allow God to use me. Praise God i was able to let go of errthang and let Him use me. I opened my heart up and surrendered to Him. I emptied myself out like a empty vessel and said, 'Here I am Lord.' I pray He continues to use me each and every day, and when my heart turns into a rock that He breaks me down and smashes it. I realized lately i lack a real personal realtionship w/God at times. I realzied having a personal realtionship w/God is more than juss going to mass and talking to Him. I realized that sometimes that ill follow Him and even tell errone esle too, but yet still not letting Him fully coming into my life, my struggles or my decisions.

Lord smash the rock of pride that gets in the way from serving YOu. Pour into me the water of Your Life. Open my heart Lord, my human to Your most sacred Heart because that is where true love is. Flow within me Your True love. Help me to remember YOur cross is a sign of true surrender.

It felt so good to be back @ prayer meeting. Gosh even though its only been two weeks, i felt like ive been gone forever. I was happy toni was able to come. yay! big ups to toni for coming tonite! I felt so relaxed and at ease i totally felt Jesus sitting next to me and telling me what to say. He help make my prayers His prayers. agh as much as i hate to say this cuz i know the burr is gonna say to me 'yess im tight, worship me' 'im passion burr, i died for isda's sins' Thanks blue burr for playing that song for me. agh you know youre tight already so i dont even have to say it. AGh but youre still 0 and im still 1 yesss! im winning! Praise God for allowing me to serve Him tonite.

BoOOO on errone who didnt answer yesterdays catechism question of the day. AGh burr is gonna loose this race! yesss! Remember the winner who answers the most questions right will get a prize!

Today's question...Please answer true or false to the following statement.
Angels do not have free willl they are controlled by God.

The cross is all bout surrender.

Hurrs toni and i 'attempting' to throw up 'BP' signs. haha




Thanks toni for coming to SH! Thank you God for using me as your instrument tonite!

"When you've got friends, to wish you well, you'll find a point when, you will exhale..." im done, im out GOd bless!

"It is not so essential to think much as to love much..."-St. Teresa of Jesus

Aiight the bur and i decided to truce and no more war. Were gonna be friends, so burr and isda are friends again. Agh so now he cant post anymore pics of burrs eating isdas and i wont post anymore pics of hunters killing burrs. Im excited for prayer meeting tomorrow! My co worker asked me today to switch w/her but i told her i couldnt cuz of prayer meeting. I felt kinda bad cuz its her son's birfday. OH well i have other responsibilites as well. I finally returned the debut dvd that i had all weekend long. I remember i would listen to the soundtrack and be like agh this sucks not being able to see anything! Not anymore thas fo sho! haha

i didnt get to go to St. Peter Chanel for mass as planned, today was such a 'rush, rush' day. After work i had to go and pick up this book i needed for skool. Then i had to go meet up w/leslie from SOL, the original plan was to meet in fullerton but we ended up meeting over hurr @ starbucks! yay! We had a good conversation, i know learned that SOL is mad laggers when it comes to rsvping to anything. They plan ahead yet take forever to get back to you. Crazy huh, doesnt sound like sol. Boss lady was durr and my ol friend from hs was dur also. I like boss lady's new look w/the glasses. She looks like someone but i cant think of who. haha

Then i had a fun convo w/abigal panasco. We were talking bout our communities and wha their names mean. I told her L & F i known for love & fat or love fat. Being all they do is make L & L bbq all the time @ their parish and make people get fat. haha so theyre called love & fat, not love & faith. Thye give people faith that theyll get fatter eating their bbq! haha All she could say thoug his how tight Servant's Heart was. HOw awesome that we have a name that represents how Jesus. How he came to serve others. I told her i know SH is tight like that. haha

Imma do something a little different but new this time. Im going to ask errday some questions regrading your basic catcheism. Let's see how much we remember. Today's activity is called, The Four Marks of the Church."

Directions: For each sentence, write a letter for the 'mark' that best fits.

O-One H-Holy C-Catholic A-Apostolic

___ Catholics all over the world profess the same faith.

___ Jesus invites all people to become fully his within the Catholic Church.

___The Church is sanctified by Christ.

The person at the end of the week w/the most points, will receive a prize! Ü

My Prayer
Jesus, I love You because you provide me with everything i need. You constantly bless me with many great things.
Please forgive all of my sins and help me to grow to love you more and more each day.
Also Jesus, please grant me patience when im angry, humility when i may not be humble, trust when i look down.
I pray for banne and leslie from SOl who need help right now. Lord guide them to let go and let You in.
I thank You, Jesus, for giving me strength each day to serve you.
I praise You for every cuz its You who I live for!
As i look at this picture i see my Jesus' face weeping in pain as He hold that cross. Lord teach me to be an example of You. To lead peopoe to be YOu. To serve people juss as You did. Lord God make me YOur instrument of peace. Teach me to love juss like You. Increase my faith and trust in You. May i be able to sufferr juss as YOu did. Help me to forgive juss as You did. Help me to be humble juss as You were. Grant me patience juss as You are with us. Help me to pray juss like You. For Jesus I am nothing without You.


Who does it say in the bible will be obtain mercy?

"I would hold ya in my arms and ease your fears, I can't believe it, I hadn't had a crush in years..."im done, im out God bless!

WHat do you get when you cross a burr and a hunter?

A burr on a rug w/an open mouf! hahahaha


Isda-1 Burr-0 yesss im winning!

"One cannot desire freedom from the Cross when one is especially chosen for the Cross."- St. Teresa Benedicta of the Cross

Seeing this picture is a constant reminder of picking up the crosses i bear in my life. We all have crosses to hang on to, whether it be work, skool, friends, family, etc. Sometimes though the crosses tend to get too heavy. Even to the point where we cry out, PLease God take away this cross from me! It is too heavy!' Though often times we dont realize that certain crosses are given to us for a reason. As St. Teresa says, we cannot be asked to give up a cross when one is especially given to us. Though the suffering sucks, suffering is love. Suffering is being able to totally surrender one self to the will of God, so that we might become all He created us to be. In Romans 8: 17 it says, "The Spirit itself bears witness that we are the children of God,and if children, then heirs, heirs of God and joint heirs with Christ, if only we suffer with him so that we may also be glorified with him."Hang on to those crosses, for all we know they could end up being blessings in disguise.

Ive made my decision that i will serve again in core for this next term. Im pretty sure though i will serve as secretary of fellowship. ONce my new term starts i have some great projects and ideas ready to go for this next term. I am very excited to see who will be nominated and appointed into those open departments. Advisors to Servant leader Aela Mejia have said the servant leader is seeking another term. THough she has not publicly made the statement yet, she is expected to within the next couple weeks. This term has gone by pretty fast. Praise God that He helped me carry out my term w/no problems. I think ive done almost errthang i wanted to accomplish. Oh well durrs always next term. Im also excited for the anniversary to come woo! 6 yurrs in the making...wow SH has come a long way, i remember coming up to prayer meeting the first time and hardly saw anyone in durr. Now look how much it has grown. I think ill reshow the power point slide show i made last yurr and juss change the 5 yurrs to 6 yurrs. haha Then juss add some more pics to it. haha jk

Im excited for SH cafe, even though NOT ONE community has confirmed w/me whether or not they will be participating or not. SO now i gotta do it the hardway and start harassing people w/phone calls and threats. haha jk Forreal though i juss wish people would respond back to the emails i send out, so at i least have some idea. So now core has to go out into the streets and start fiinding groups and people to participate. Though i know most groups will want to end up performing last min. Or when they get durr and see the other groups theyre gonna be like 'oh man we shouldve performed. ' Then imma say, 'sucks to be you!' haha jk

YOu know whas also coming up soon, my 1 yurr blog anniversary in nov. As you can tell from my archives ive been blogging for quite a long time. I remember when i had only like 5 links on durr, now i think i have at least 1 persons blog from errcommunity ive been to. I guess blog addresses are part of the contact info that you exchange as well as friendster stuff. Blog has changed the way people think dramatically jk. i didnt think id be blogging this long and look ive already have completed one whole book of blog. Ive blogged almost errthang that has gone on in my life. The times when i went to the atm, the times when i had the runs, the times whurr i was emo, the times whurr i was happy yay. wow...what a life ive been blessed with.

Im excited to go back to prayer meeting on tues. ive been Servants Heart sick as of the past couple weeks. No i dont mean like sick of servants heart but more less i missed servants heart. YOu know like being home sick or sea sick oh wait thas something different haha Forreal though, im excited to come back. I feel like ive been gone for a whole month. Calvin asked me earlier tonite where have i been cuz he hasnt seen me. Well last week i was @ liawang whurr i met some cool people. I figured that was gonna be my only time to get over durr to promote for SH cafe. The week before that i was SCRC core meeting planning out the last details of the young adult track. YOu know whatd be funny, if that guy will comes to prayer meeting on tues. If he comes oh man, then we know fo sho that its gotta mean something! Well juss have to wait and see.

ONe last thing...
Faith is not merely praying

Upon our knees at night;

Faith is not merely straying

Through darkness into light;

Faith is not merely waiting

For glory that may be.

Faith is the brave endeavour,

The splendid enterprise,

The strength to serve,

Whatever conditions may arise.



Happy birfday Mama Mary!

"I can search for all eternity long and find there is none like you..." im done, im out God bless!